《我喺街執咗個失憶嘅女仔返屋企》 - 未來篇：五分之二

兩年前，剛考完公開試的我本來收到美術大學的取錄通知，不過母親以前途為由，要求我留在出生地完成會計學位。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAIH8qrk7V
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJsof5LMRE
要說一點後悔也沒有的話，那是騙人的。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA58UoeKl82
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9nuLf6wif
只是，我知道希望我讀完會計學位的不只有母親。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDsvd4oakq
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRh3feXVilE
畢竟從父母的角度想，把女兒交給一個以漫畫家這種虛無飄渺的職業為目標的人，會感到不安也是人之常情。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGBcxR0TaF
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtf7mixFn9
所以，我讀這個會計學位不只是為了母親，更多是為了我和她。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLv9XMOq1pW
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspzLJATtIJ
我搖頭：「點會？又冇人規定要讀美大先可以畫畫，就算我而家讀會計，一樣可以畫呀。」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnmgNZ3QHr
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdl72bcilQr
她定眼看了我一會，良久吐出：「咁好啦。」說罷開始把玩起手上的iphone。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbN6AflPRt2
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kd4tARbrt
我以背向她的姿勢躺到床上，把屈曲的手臂當作枕頭。我想望著漆黑的晚空會讓我快點入睡。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlkK2peHSh
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEyeQnHSYj
除了因為明天早機以外，還要趕在我的理智消失，對旁邊的她做出什麼之前。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXr0gUBVYX
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9Z4wOGq0b
額…雖然這樣說很奇怪，畢竟我和她在一起已經一段時間，但長期分隔兩地的關係，像這樣子睡在同一張床的機會少之又少，那種事情當然也是一次也沒有做過。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqr3ai1sDWB
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGU8wy0c5hX
不知是否太少親近她，每當我鼓起勇氣想要做什麼越界的事（說是「越界」絕對也很奇怪…），總會在最後關頭被無謂的羞恥心給阻撓，每次也不能成事。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bL4uTREfF
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvE8LX41HVD
我甚至想，如果再是這樣子下去，我或許要看心理醫生了吧…757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSw5R1m1FHP
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymNOA1eG7I
旁邊不時傳來她的輕笑，大概是在ig瀏覽著那些無聊的迷因圖。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVR723SNwGq
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFI2d6iH29
忽爾，背後傳來她的聲線：「要唔要熄燈呀？」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXqgjT1gKI
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFZix626s4
被她這麼一說，我才想起——的確還沒有關燈。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw35SOIlQQk
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3J4MGXPmgr
房間的燈掣長在比較近她的床邊櫃上，不好意思勞煩她的我只好把手臂繞過她的身體，去觸碰那些遙不可及的按鈕。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHs74LkauN9
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOewMIDp4MX
把身體湊向她時，她好像瑟縮了一下。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDpmKrFSY0
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiSgAgMJ86
嚓——房間陷入漆黑一片，只餘下光線柔和的小夜燈。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZuEntkS2k
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblFa2aloR9
她依然目不轉睛地望著iphone屏幕，在白光的反射下，她的睫毛顯得比平日更為修長，我不禁看得入神。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vc9DyhndG
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKIG3WNzyY
在黑暗的籠罩下，她大概沒有察覺我的視線，然後大概是看到了什麼爆笑梗圖，發出了凌碎笑聲。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvJCo4kPlv
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfz0daqJxhQ
我禁不著問：「睇到咩咁好笑呀？」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlGYQSNlDZ
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eCYVsKPW6
她把iphone翻轉，讓我看到屏幕那方。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0v5McIyF3m
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVyPvpt9j8
我花了兩秒才認出照片裏那個正在奔跑的男生正是自己，背景是不知名的荒山野嶺。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VcnRzPO1K
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqjiLZdpJs
「…聯校宿營嗰陣嘅相？」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pIA9TJIPk
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2iPrt2URf
她聳了肩：「咁啱見到就影低咗，你唔覺得你個表情好得意咩？」說罷又笑了兩聲。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwB1FgZXYf
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdaTGCDUxl
「得意？on9咋掛？」望著那張呆頭呆腦的臉，除了這個形容詞，實在想不到其他合適的。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlEIcq8m27
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UdcnE1M4W
「唔係，係閃閃發光。」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqK3ZAQf67P
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoVPq65eWI
這什麼形容詞啊…。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1cmYHqgNz
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5P0p2Ajs6r
「…傻妹。」我拍了她的頭。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeigEL4PbW
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTYEzz2BqN
她雙眼悄然垂下：「嗰段日子，真係令人懷念。」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GQcTyL9MD
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPheCk8AkR
聯校宿營，充滿回憶的兩日一夜。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNLYSKQLAJ
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtJWkrcIhS
我把照片往左邊掃，才發現這傢伙私藏的比我想像還要多，儘管拍的角度不同，動作和表情也有著微妙差異，但每一張的共通點都是那時候我的一副呆相。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwB730c2eB
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPhLfTFqQg
「點解碌極都有，你影咁多做咩？」總感覺，有點害羞…757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskbEEbl4Jp
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ525T0eN8SU
「因為鍾意囉。」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsRQuSgcan
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvhP6dI4mo
乜你鍾意影相架咩？——即使再笨拙，我也說不出這樣的話，尤其和她一起這段時間，我知道她是偶爾會發出一記直球，把我弄得面紅耳赤的類型。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdnPcYLQAE
757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgSVu9qqH6
換言之，為了避免她說出「我係指我鍾意你」之類令人害羞的說話，我選擇閉上嘴巴。