
秋意綿綿,涼風颯颯,樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道,有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙,聽來已然粉身碎骨,看來完好無缺。192Please respect copyright.PENANAQi1zHnOO04
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「完好?」現在的她問。192Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4S3hYWwkx
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「無缺?」曾經的他問。192Please respect copyright.PENANA7WyE0OuQxF
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很多人說他生活美滿。家境富裕,頭腦聰明,五官英氣,身材高大。聞言他總是假笑,笑對方客氣得過份。奈何對方從未察覺他的笑容雖假,情感卻是真實而強烈的:他的確認為對方很過份。他想要的從不是這種生活,可惜每次對此表示厭棄時,總有人批評他不知足。192Please respect copyright.PENANAXnig6dmQdc
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輕嘆一聲,繼續前行。踏踏踏,沙沙沙,聲聲撕心裂肺。像父母的哭罵,令人痛,也令人愧疚不安。無論他們如何呼天搶地,他終究永遠不會回來。192Please respect copyright.PENANAcpXUmDiK33
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遷入新居,展開新生。吃力,困難。已然表達得很清楚,對方還是假裝不知該使用哪個稱謂。有人說不介意,有人說很平常,話題和目光卻只停留在胯下之物。192Please respect copyright.PENANAo0VqweVzUP
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無處訴說的孤獨日夜縈繞不散。曾發誓永不後悔,曾以為自己是多麼堅毅勇敢,曾相信世界其實不是那麼單一而絕情……192Please respect copyright.PENANAI47lf1C6Ii
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步出公園,拐了幾個街口,來到醫院門前。192Please respect copyright.PENANAnkKwvhjCwd
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「醫生,早晨。」192Please respect copyright.PENANA5PxoQg58Xp
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「早晨。近來身體好嗎?」192Please respect copyright.PENANA7CXv7MfkQk
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「好……不過……」192Please respect copyright.PENANAdOsmkjYRZd
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「不過甚麼?」192Please respect copyright.PENANAG1puugs5AO
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「我想再做手術。」192Please respect copyright.PENANAQlFzSP3gLf
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「為甚麼?」192Please respect copyright.PENANAlaVzPt9qTO
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「不適應現在的生活。」192Please respect copyright.PENANAgLENJuGJbU
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「不適應身體的變化或是有其他困難?」192Please respect copyright.PENANAx5re43w6KD
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「是生活上的困難……其實我很滿意現在的身體,我覺得這才是真正的自己!過往的我根本不是我!可惜旁人都不是這麼認為……」192Please respect copyright.PENANAY5ToBa34HP
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「所以你想要回以前的性別?」192Please respect copyright.PENANA9WfBgpZkce
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「不——我是不想要任何性別。」192Please respect copyright.PENANA0QM4vFDytk
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「噢……抱歉我還未能捕捉到你的思路。」192Please respect copyright.PENANAQwWt2cqNAI
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「這些日子,我遇到的問題大都源於旁人無法定徹底認同我是男或女。如果我沒有特定性別,可以在『男』、『女』、『跨性別』、『無性別』幾個類別之間遊走,可能會更自由!」192Please respect copyright.PENANA15M9LzVKDG
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「依我看來,你再次做手術之後,將要面對的問題會更多更嚴重。」192Please respect copyright.PENANAK1JpRYfZOQ
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「我理解你的意思,但我還是想要放手一搏——我堅信每次改變都會帶來新的可能、新的希望。」192Please respect copyright.PENANAUlEEgEDMEP
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「既然你堅持,我會按程序寫信轉介你去心理輔導部門作專業評估。」192Please respect copyright.PENANAg8JWwxhIA9
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「謝謝你。」192Please respect copyright.PENANAnMfmNr3dyJ
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跟醫生多聊一會後,她步出醫院,再次走經公園。192Please respect copyright.PENANA1jlUMMjIX8
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秋意綿綿,涼風颯颯,樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道,有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙,聽來已然粉身碎骨,看來完好無缺。192Please respect copyright.PENANAqDcsAxFt5A
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「以前未完好。」現在的她說。192Please respect copyright.PENANAUhjadKWLlr
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「將來會無缺。」曾經的他說。192Please respect copyright.PENANAaobQAq2vIP
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她笑了,笑自己傻,笑自己依然沉浸在幻想世界當中,相信自己的人生將來一定會變得完好無缺。192Please respect copyright.PENANA40kTh4arkA
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明知無人能斷言明天一定會更好。192Please respect copyright.PENANA0Q5HTfymWG
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奈何人總需要一個努力的原因、一個繼續活下去的原因。192Please respect copyright.PENANAqtySmcHjkZ
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那個原因名為「希望」。192Please respect copyright.PENANAgviVKFXX2u
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「我定要繼續努力。」現在的她說。192Please respect copyright.PENANAOCVLxdE00T
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「好好活下去吧。」曾經的他說。192Please respect copyright.PENANAMf5fyc75rw
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秋意綿綿,涼風颯颯,樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。192Please respect copyright.PENANAmOV7jrB4TT
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她慢步於公園大道,放眼欣賞沿路風景,不再留意地上的枯葉。
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