秋意綿綿，涼風颯颯，樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道，有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙，聽來已然粉身碎骨，看來完好無缺。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwNzzTCELE
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「完好？」現在的她問。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PlaUtJLE9
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「無缺？」曾經的他問。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFuUD5zFHk
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很多人說他生活美滿。家境富裕，頭腦聰明，五官英氣，身材高大。聞言他總是假笑，笑對方客氣得過份。奈何對方從未察覺他的笑容雖假，情感卻是真實而強烈的：他的確認為對方很過份。他想要的從不是這種生活，可惜每次對此表示厭棄時，總有人批評他不知足。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLBg9wEGJt
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輕嘆一聲，繼續前行。踏踏踏，沙沙沙，聲聲撕心裂肺。像父母的哭罵，令人痛，也令人愧疚不安。無論他們如何呼天搶地，他終究永遠不會回來。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PSQadEs3i
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遷入新居，展開新生。吃力，困難。已然表達得很清楚，對方還是假裝不知該使用哪個稱謂。有人說不介意，有人說很平常，話題和目光卻只停留在胯下之物。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscTczbESKx
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無處訴說的孤獨日夜縈繞不散。曾發誓永不後悔，曾以為自己是多麼堅毅勇敢，曾相信世界其實不是那麼單一而絕情……87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoM91otebhE
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步出公園，拐了幾個街口，來到醫院門前。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjn5qUXoHRH
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「醫生，早晨。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2XvVHOMF3
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「早晨。近來身體好嗎？」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yIMzmZMy4
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「好……不過……」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHWudxnqos
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「不過甚麼？」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCl3zsbiLI
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「我想再做手術。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaEtGM2SuK
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「為甚麼？」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfHtxjiy7Y
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「不適應現在的生活。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3oZIclJXU
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「不適應身體的變化或是有其他困難？」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuK1pDUHbu
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「是生活上的困難……其實我很滿意現在的身體，我覺得這才是真正的自己！過往的我根本不是我！可惜旁人都不是這麼認為……」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkAB2QegsF
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「所以你想要回以前的性別？」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8RJxfZQNA
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「不——我是不想要任何性別。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJzZq3lPtI
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「噢……抱歉我還未能捕捉到你的思路。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiB5tizXVDu
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「這些日子，我遇到的問題大都源於旁人無法定徹底認同我是男或女。如果我沒有特定性別，可以在『男』、『女』、『跨性別』、『無性別』幾個類別之間遊走，可能會更自由！」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYip8rmkdL
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「依我看來，你再次做手術之後，將要面對的問題會更多更嚴重。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1ZdmFa8E6
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「我理解你的意思，但我還是想要放手一搏——我堅信每次改變都會帶來新的可能、新的希望。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4TIksujnc
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「既然你堅持，我會按程序寫信轉介你去心理輔導部門作專業評估。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTpNZwqK44
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「謝謝你。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEMMpClf6i
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跟醫生多聊一會後，她步出醫院，再次走經公園。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDOJc4hgCH
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秋意綿綿，涼風颯颯，樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道，有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙，聽來已然粉身碎骨，看來完好無缺。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStgyGaBAJz
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「以前未完好。」現在的她說。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3znOYpd7r
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「將來會無缺。」曾經的他說。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxJzG8reQ9
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她笑了，笑自己傻，笑自己依然沉浸在幻想世界當中，相信自己的人生將來一定會變得完好無缺。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotqUTrvsFI
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明知無人能斷言明天一定會更好。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYyWWuxVkb
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奈何人總需要一個努力的原因、一個繼續活下去的原因。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGVj81ryBz
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那個原因名為「希望」。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJRtqGN7mP
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「我定要繼續努力。」現在的她說。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYiALvXf4X
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「好好活下去吧。」曾經的他說。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWW781YQSRF
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秋意綿綿，涼風颯颯，樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKR722VTls
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她慢步於公園大道，放眼欣賞沿路風景，不再留意地上的枯葉。
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