時光飛逝,心也順利地升上了高中。41Please respect copyright.PENANAbVt2PEJFmS
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在經過那件事情之後,心也開始更好的保護自己,至少,不會對自己絲毫不認識的人放下任何的警惕了,隨著年齡的增長,人類的心思會更加的縝密,要是心不謹慎一點的話,哪一天被身邊的人賣掉都不知道了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfX57j12PYT
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做出了這麼決定的心,就在快要升上高二那年,在網路上發現了一個名為Hololive的公司,正在招募所謂的Vtuber,經過了解之後,心也決定去嘗試看看,畢竟,用著虛擬形象來直播甚麼的,還是蠻有趣的,況且這樣,她也可以好好的讓自己那壓抑的內心釋放一下,否則自己遲早會垮掉的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcVLUuy9cyZ
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在去了面試之後,過程十分的順利,沒過幾天心就收到了錄取的通知,這著實讓她有點小意外,但更多的是開心的情緒。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfsOvvOp7J7
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到了事務所後,心也見到了自己以後的同事,因為是現實會面的關係,對於這些初次見面的同期,心再次選擇了謹慎行事。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYpqC5xaQKP
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在那之後,因為這個所謂的【虛擬偶像】計畫剛剛啟動的關係,幾人的直播並沒有太多人觀看,雖然沒有放棄直播,但那不上不下的人氣也還是不斷地消磨著幾人的信心,而事發突然,在成為Vtuber之後不久,自己就因為家人的要求而必須得到國外留學,而這也讓原本就沒什麼時間直播的心壓力更大了。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4FzhMozeyR
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不論是網路的問題還是時差的問題,都讓心極度苦惱,原本就上不去的人氣,是越來越難往上升,更不用說,在國外自己還必須照顧好自己的生活,以及在直播之餘兼顧自己的課業。41Please respect copyright.PENANApQuColBqoo
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又過了不久,因為吹雪所舉辦的一系列企劃,Hololive的人氣開始有著一定量的攀升,直到了三期生的出現,整體的人氣也水漲船高的攀升,而隻身居住於國外的心,看著這樣的情況,卻沒辦法與眾人一起慶祝。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5VDYcBZZ0d
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課業、生活、直播,這些事情逐漸開始壓的心喘不過氣來,而這也開始讓心的精神出現一些問題,直播上也常常不受控制的做出一些十分放飛自我的事情,這也讓心去找過心理醫生,而得到的答案也只是給自己的壓力太大了,心也只好當作是這樣。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwFHFvWwZmV
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而在之後,卻發生了一連串讓心痛苦不已的事情。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjJL5EeAvU5
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「赤井心同學,妳現在這個樣子的分數,有點糟糕呢。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAYj8HWHYd91
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「妳真的有心要讀書嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANA19pX17mKVM
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心那原本可觀的成績逐步地往下跌,就連老師都將她叫了過去,甚至說了,再這樣下去,不要說畢業了,留級都有可能。41Please respect copyright.PENANAqOpUHcHTIE
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「一定要播的那麼假嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANASWtnYXRMml
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「聲音假成這樣,是多喜歡裝可愛?」41Please respect copyright.PENANASMRRNYD1fo
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「留學生?家裡一定很有錢吧?但還不是要討好觀眾們。」41Please respect copyright.PENANARgquWwQQMA
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「如果不想直播就關掉吧!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAphTlVRsesj
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「不對不對,是直接畢業比較快啦!」41Please respect copyright.PENANANVWiqtqwJy
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「去死一死吧!!!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAY3IinrlvmA
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除了學業,接踵而來的是一系列的網路暴力,隻身一人在國外的心找不到能夠訴說的人,面對網路上那巨大的惡意,以及生活的壓力,心的精神狀況開始變得比之前還要糟糕。41Please respect copyright.PENANADGIUSJ4P5e
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久而久之,心也開始感覺自己的狀況真的不太對勁,她常常聽到有個聲音不斷的在自己腦海裡徘徊著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAX6PSa1dxjs
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『為甚麼要活得這麼累呢?』41Please respect copyright.PENANAhs31vNA2Hs
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『把身體交給我吧,我會將妳的生活變得多采多姿的。』41Please respect copyright.PENANAV4IOni2xKz
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一開始以為只是自己的幻聽而已,但時間一久,她越來越覺得不是那麼回事,更甚至,她還在自己頻道裡,發現了自己完全沒有直播過的紀錄檔,但畫面上的人,很明顯的就是她自己,這不禁讓她感到害怕。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOx7EPNivlx
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再次去找到了心理醫生,而得到的答案卻讓她吃驚了,【解離症】,全名【解離性人格分離症】,也就是所謂的人格分裂,因為精神壓力過於巨大,導致她腦內產生出了另一個人格試圖幫她分擔一些事物。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcUnpFvSNgx
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可能是認為生活真的太累了,所以心做了一個決定,將自己的身體交給另一個人格去掌控,但並不是完全都交由對方所掌控,心負責自己早上的課業,而另一個人格,負責晚上直播的事情。41Please respect copyright.PENANAPVNbXNPuMr
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時間一久,這也變成了她,不對────她們的習慣。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZF6B0WWxRT
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這樣的方法持續了好一段時間,而原本陌生的同事們,心也逐漸地與她們開始聊得上了,因為以前所發生的事情,所以心都沒有與她們深入交流過,直到現在,她發現這些人不像以前那些人一樣,對自己有甚麼企圖,也從未聽到她們私底下說過誰的壞話,當然,不是完全沒說,而是說的時候都在本人面前直白的講出來,但比起那種惡劣的話語,更像是朋友之間的玩鬧。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyFUd40cKPy
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「朋友......嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAo64CJ55g59
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想到吹雪她們,心的臉上,忍不住地浮現了笑意。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGPkfoYZFN8
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曾在一次回到日本之後,心與其他人一起出去吃飯時,突然脫口說出一句。41Please respect copyright.PENANAc4pY7VuhnV
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「好想死......」41Please respect copyright.PENANAVWLc2CyLu6
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但一說出口後,心就連忙反應過來摀住了自己的嘴,但在周圍的幾人卻是聽得一清二楚了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAw0nZhcFJ2g
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她們愣怔了一下,就在心做好打算被她們當作怪人時,幾人開口了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAEC4iymrqiB
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但...幾人的對話卻並未像她所想的那樣。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4w4vexs8ob
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「這樣嗎...」41Please respect copyright.PENANAt4BRj3Zsrt
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「那等一下吃完飯,就找個漂亮的海邊一起跳下去吧。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAXYZ5uBIdbu
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吹雪突如其來的提議讓心呆住了。41Please respect copyright.PENANA09A2PlOTjF
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「好主意呢!」41Please respect copyright.PENANABqhRmR1n78
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「下去之前還可以順便玩一下!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAiFupCBL2RZ
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「贊成!!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAElS4MIbyX2
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而其他人也都表示著贊同,這讓心頓時感到有些不知所措。41Please respect copyright.PENANA0HBkIjfK8j
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因為她們不是像一般人那樣,說著甚麼『不要有這種想法』、『人生還很美好』,這種莫名其妙的大道理甚麼的,就連喝斥都沒有,而是選擇附和著心的想法,與她一起前往。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7OkIEos6bc
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看著愣住的心,剛剛起頭的吹雪摸著她的頭說道。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4hcjSCoa5w
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「我們不會阻止妳,但是,要想這種事之前,要記得我們幾個都在妳身邊,心心。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAGvEJz5B5Dp
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「真的必要的話,我們會陪著妳的一起的。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAjpwHRSAjXP
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說來可能荒謬,但,就是因為這簡單的幾句話,瓦解了心築構許久的心房。41Please respect copyright.PENANAg3lKx7F0yN
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也就是這樣,在當下,許久以來的壓力、委屈、抱怨,一瞬間被心所爆發了出來,幾人細細地聽著心所有的話語,沒有出聲,只是安靜地當個忠實的聽眾。41Please respect copyright.PENANAO59BwqP1Tq
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可能,所謂的摯友與損友就是這樣吧,有的時候會狠狠地陰妳一把、有的時候會惡搞妳,但卻在妳需要的時候,安靜地陪在妳身邊,對於妳的所有委屈,不會有任何的意見,甚至會幫妳發聲,這讓心第一次感到這麼的安心。41Please respect copyright.PENANARJFTSRxnIv
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後來,心也聽其他人說過了,早在讓另一個人格頂替直播的時候,她們就開始發現了一些異狀了,只是一直找不到機會跟心交談,這也讓心開始不再對她們有所防備,碰到任何無法釋懷的事情,也會直接選擇跟她們訴說,不再自己壓抑在心底了,心理壓力逐漸降低,所有的事情都步上了正軌。41Please respect copyright.PENANAi0i70J2Exu
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直播中的留言,在心的眼裡也逐漸轉變了方向,呈現在她面前的惡意,逐漸轉變成善意,雖然還是有惡言相向的留言,但心看到更多的,則是許許多多祝福與感謝的話語。41Please respect copyright.PENANAhBY8hykLvD
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「哈......現在的情況,就跟以前一樣呢...」41Please respect copyright.PENANADJR0GXAIBI
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想著現在與以前的事情,心不禁笑出聲來。41Please respect copyright.PENANALWuYBemCPV
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『是啊,跟以前沒什麼分別呢......』41Please respect copyright.PENANAGsGKuE4Uka
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猛然間,心的腦海中出現了一道與她相似卻又不太一樣的聲音。41Please respect copyright.PENANABuUtIzjoWJ
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但心沒有做出任何的反應,任由那股聲音繼續說著。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6UYukITEQV
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『那個時候,跟現在一樣,妳、我,我們兩個,都處在深深的自卑與自我厭惡之中呢。』41Please respect copyright.PENANA11GMuEmq7Q
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『甚至於後來連自己是誰,都不太明白了。』41Please respect copyright.PENANAvXE3bs8VPL
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『我也是在那個時候誕生出來的,為了妳所誕生的一個人格,但明明妳的精神狀況已經穩定了,我卻沒有消失。會不會是妳心裡不想要我就這麼消失呢?』41Please respect copyright.PENANA3FLRuHPXdI
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「呸!誰...誰會捨不得妳啊!!」聽著這樣的話,心紅著臉將手上的抱枕扔回了床上,起身張口喊道:「指不定是妳捨不得我所以才不肯消失呢!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAuLcsf4IQeB
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『哈哈哈!妳可真敢說呢,那就當作是這樣吧。』41Please respect copyright.PENANADfFTr8RU20
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隨著腦海的聲音落下,心撫平了心裡的羞意,繼續說道:「但這樣不也很好嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAxosJku2Yh1
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『唔?』41Please respect copyright.PENANAf7hqsOBBmA
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「不會消失不好嗎?至少我一直跟妳在一起,妳也一直跟我在一起。」面對聲音的疑惑,心緩聲的說著:「所謂的我中有妳,妳中有我,大概就像是這樣吧。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAhxRXWmjFwS
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『嗚......』41Please respect copyright.PENANAhWT9HuretP
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「喔呀喔呀,怎麼了,難道是害羞了嗎?」說出這番話的心,絲毫忘記了自己剛剛才有過羞澀的情緒。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOqihjzZvHB
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『閉嘴啦!!誰害羞了!殺了妳喔!!』41Please respect copyright.PENANAeoB5jEYcFc
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儘管說著像是威脅的話語,但那聲音的語氣卻像是個嬌羞的小女孩一般,沒有任何的威攝力。41Please respect copyright.PENANAE1LmPiHtZk
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「噗呼呼,害羞鬼。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAimL1J0RA3w
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心抿著嘴不斷的觸碰著對方的痛處,就在對方打算再說甚麼時,心卻收斂了笑聲,但臉上卻依舊帶著笑容看著一旁的鏡子說道。41Please respect copyright.PENANAScOGFz1tcv
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「那麼,該是時候辦正事了呢。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAf3Aiq6akco
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面對心那自說自話的態度,腦海裡的聲音也沒任何不滿,反而是習慣了一樣,笑笑地說著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAAaFCY9zxyH
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『啊,是該辦正事了!』41Please respect copyright.PENANAbon6v6FYLd
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『那個吳幻,妳也該摸清楚了吧?』41Please respect copyright.PENANAo8HcBV4az5
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「嗯!妳自己也清楚吧?」41Please respect copyright.PENANApU02GRvDVg
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心淡淡的應一聲後,便將同樣的問題丟回去給了對方。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFJ7ikSPhRt
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『那當然!』41Please respect copyright.PENANAKbghJrEuOJ
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隨著腦海裡的聲音落下,心再次想起了初次見到吳幻的時候。41Please respect copyright.PENANAUgTAPr9qkd
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那看似頂天立地的身影;那充滿怒火,卻飽含著熟悉的眼神;那滿臉冰冷,卻隱藏著溫柔的表情;那表示不在意,卻不經意地做著關心的行為。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKxNPmQedgl
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雖然時間不久,但那從一開始讓心的懷疑、警惕、不信任的身影。41Please respect copyright.PENANAkVQivIxOnj
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現在,在她的內心裡,已經逐漸轉變了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAoLmAZoWWRt
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『心心,我們會陪著妳的!』41Please respect copyright.PENANALGSM7wTpv3
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『咱會一直在這裡的,心心!』41Please respect copyright.PENANA08aX1UICst
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『祭我會一直聽妳抱怨的!心心!』41Please respect copyright.PENANAC5efchYHr9
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「吹雪醬、澪醬、祭醬。」看著驟然出現在鏡子的三個身影,心臉上的笑容越發濃厚。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFAnLIyny8d
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『夏色桑!赤井桑!我相信妳們,妳們絕對不是自己所想的那麼的弱小!』41Please respect copyright.PENANAC9NlpOnrSX
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望向最後出現的那道虛影,心也打起了精神。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZTQ3wD8RnL
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「看來我們的看法是一樣的呢!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAHzZmClcKVj
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『是啊,那個男人他────』41Please respect copyright.PENANAUoqA9miJjo
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「吳幻桑他────」41Please respect copyright.PENANATS0pOW0PON
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「『是可以信任的!!!』」41Please respect copyright.PENANAAPIWGQL4vR
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隨著虛影的消失,心看著映照著自己身影的鏡面說著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcFRA55IQVz
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「好!小孩子脾氣也撒夠了!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAQC75GdERR7
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「在任性下去,可是會讓人討厭的!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAEgtVO3yCpU
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『沒錯,不要說妳!我都看不下去了,那現在呢?』41Please respect copyright.PENANA6lCf7dIvnG
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「現在?妳不是知道嗎!」聽著腦海內的聲音,心帶著肯定的語氣向對方說道:「當然是一鼓作氣!出發去找她們了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANA2XefhNR6ff
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『嘻嘻!這樣才對嘛!』41Please respect copyright.PENANAP6aLR2TyFp
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說完,心便轉身走向了房門。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFpiLwDSz7J
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「走了喔!哈洽馬!!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAkPphA1OVjx
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『啊,我們走吧!心!』41Please respect copyright.PENANAaZeVrz0CO7
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隨著心走向房門,那壟罩著她內心的巨大窗簾,也隨之被揭開了!41Please respect copyright.PENANApB0XhJVmq2
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