她從未理解過被愛的感受。260Please respect copyright.PENANAyNmk75quDj
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對於歧視的表現,年幼的孩童們往往展現的比大人們還要露骨。260Please respect copyright.PENANAUmzbQ0UofO
小學時期,無論是男孩們的棒球遊戲,抑或是女孩們的家家酒,對方總是露出為難的表情而拒絕讓她參與。260Please respect copyright.PENANAWxnprvux4o
絕大部分的時間她都是一個人塗鴉度過,但這段時期仍算是相安無事。260Please respect copyright.PENANAb5thL6gBwp
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剛升上三年級時,不知道是哪個孩子開始帶頭偷偷嘲笑起她眼鏡上的髒污。260Please respect copyright.PENANA2C9JriQjNX
明明也有其他戴著眼鏡的孩子,卻只有她得忍受從四處隱隱約約傳來的嘲諷。260Please respect copyright.PENANAqv6wkSSSI8
即便她花了整整一個晚上試著擦拭油垢,到隔天還是遭到一樣的對待後,她才體認到被針對的並非物品,而是配戴著眼鏡的個人。260Please respect copyright.PENANAxXVWyc2txq
外型並不出色的她一旦成了標靶,種種惡意就不約而同地從周遭匯集而來。260Please respect copyright.PENANAwwl54i49vd
儘管受到許多不堪的對待,她也只是選擇默默承受,從未向那對埋首於工作中的雙親傾訴過此事。260Please respect copyright.PENANAjk2B5cr0kG
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當時年輕的女班導雖然有所察及,卻也為了避免麻煩裝作視而不見。260Please respect copyright.PENANAXqdHSB4Lrq
反正只要事情沒有鬧大就不成問題。260Please respect copyright.PENANAh1fCEC0kQy
表面上看到課本被塗滿塗鴉,又或著是端著營養午餐時被絆倒。260Please respect copyright.PENANAcDdJElExUh
既然沒有造成明顯的傷勢,當事人也不曾對此發表意見,解讀成孩子們的小打小鬧倒也還說得過去。260Please respect copyright.PENANAROhHkHaTXq
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對她而言唯一的救贖,就只有從小時候起便不曾停過的繪畫。260Please respect copyright.PENANA3ukKdx1VQp
她總是一個人流著眼淚,將自身的冀望寄託於那不被外界所污染,完全任由自己勾勒的圖畫世界。260Please respect copyright.PENANAci28vjxHSy
將身體的挫傷以線稿舒緩。260Please respect copyright.PENANAi4Ue0OJu9X
把內心的不甘以著色潤飾。260Please respect copyright.PENANAz3xEoqwxw5
她就在這被人反覆剝開傷痂的日子裡,渡過了一般人稱為童年的時期。260Please respect copyright.PENANA1iTD7ESSp9
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所幸在升上五年級後,她遇到了一名負責教授體育的導師。260Please respect copyright.PENANAA3H6oIS8lD
體態雖然因邁入中年而顯得有些肥胖,但有著剛毅性格的導師,在發現了些許異樣後,立即以嚴正的態度教育了那些欺負她的學生。260Please respect copyright.PENANAnAfVbxk5JB
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「對自己有信心一點。」260Please respect copyright.PENANAcpdcaUiW01
這是到小學畢業之前,沉默寡言的導師私底下對她唯一說過的話。260Please respect copyright.PENANAoZ6NYA8seM
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謹記著恩師的那句認可,讓勉強跨出步伐的她也結交到了足以稱為知心的好友。260Please respect copyright.PENANAs51JhfZVu6
一路到她升上高中為止,都過著過去從不敢奢求過,與平常人無異的校園生活。260Please respect copyright.PENANAqcumdTsdcp
然而,就如同小學時期絕大部份的朋友一樣。260Please respect copyright.PENANA1Z2pfYv9Sr
即使是共同分享所有秘密的好友,雖然不是出於本意,但在結識了新的朋友以後,也不會對自己完全地敞開心房。260Please respect copyright.PENANAiBTd24fMuf
雖然覺得有些寂寞,但她更願意將其理解為無可奈何的成長過程。260Please respect copyright.PENANALVw5OT6X3g
可是啊,最近的自己同樣無暇顧及到朋友也是不爭的事實──260Please respect copyright.PENANAnHe6xNzIDw
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「畫得真好啊,這個。」260Please respect copyright.PENANATx4P80uK7T
那是在夕陽西下的校園裡,意外撿到自己畫冊的那名學長所說的第一句話。260Please respect copyright.PENANAGclfLDORF3
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體型高大的學長的身份在學校裡無人不知。260Please respect copyright.PENANA17yZxti0q0
身為棒球隊裡的王牌投手,她早已聽過無數次關於學長的豐功偉業。260Please respect copyright.PENANAS3lBECbktp
或許是出自命運的安排,那名學長和當年幫助自己的班導好巧不巧地有著相同的姓氏。260Please respect copyright.PENANATLjUpdQUlU
明明和自己是完全相反的存在,卻一點架子都沒有的學長,溫柔地將畫冊用雙手遞給了她。260Please respect copyright.PENANA37ROphv3mY
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等到她意識到心跳不已的時候,抱著已經交還回來的畫冊,一個人獨自站在走廊上。260Please respect copyright.PENANAZuCn73YCxX
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那是她第一次體驗到戀愛的感受──260Please respect copyright.PENANAx3LO8pkhnq
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「喂!別想給我裝死啊!」260Please respect copyright.PENANADYr6gGSuC6
突然湧入鼻腔的溺斃感迫使她從過去的夢境驚醒過來。260Please respect copyright.PENANA0mwx3D8o1E
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「咳、咳咳咳……!」260Please respect copyright.PENANAqzwZH5bPaC
激烈的咳嗽過後,癱坐在地上的她才認知到自己目前身處的狀況。260Please respect copyright.PENANA14LbytVc08
大塚寧寧用手將她的臉壓在小便斗裡。260Please respect copyright.PENANACRYq8Y9Ath
被髮絲黏附著的臉頰緊貼著冰冷的陶瓷,沿著內壁留下來的水不斷澆在她的臉上,而動彈不得的身體毫無反抗的餘地。260Please respect copyright.PENANAuPsNuoNc92
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……全身都好痛。260Please respect copyright.PENANAhaLzzl5XUT
這是第幾次了呢,她的意識連要想起來都覺得有些困難。260Please respect copyright.PENANAwlKXlG5q8B
只能像是個布偶般被這兩名少女肆意地拳打腳踢。260Please respect copyright.PENANAaJyj8fkyKF
雖然這次惡劣的程度和先前幾次完全無法相比,但在本質上來說,和童年的種種之間並沒有什麼太大差別。260Please respect copyright.PENANA09SWQpOsSf
只要忍耐到她們覺得膩了自然就會結束。260Please respect copyright.PENANATzj23DYaV1
大聲呼救的話,只會讓下次的遊戲變得更加喪心病狂,這是她從過去的經驗中所記取的教訓。260Please respect copyright.PENANABi7Ng9Eh7g
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「我說美悠,接下來要怎麼做?」260Please respect copyright.PENANAtkYH9r5jPM
大塚寧寧將臉轉向在角落盯著手機螢幕的佐伯美悠。260Please respect copyright.PENANAtdaSHchhUB
在黑暗中發亮的長方形螢幕,將少女臉上染上一層詭譎的灰白色彩,而她目前正專注在螢幕的對話框中,經過彩繪的指甲飛快地在上面輸入文字。260Please respect copyright.PENANAY67BzmRo56
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「嗯。就像之前一樣讓她打掃環境好了,好煩,妳先自己想一想,我這邊正看到一個有趣的消息啦。」260Please respect copyright.PENANACOcoefBQKv
少女頭也不抬地,隨意地對大塚寧寧下達命令。260Please respect copyright.PENANAg9WHzFZi3T
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「上次那個?喔~那還不簡單,喂──聽見沒有,美悠要說好好打掃環境知不知道啊?」260Please respect copyright.PENANAlV6a8QTn48
「什……嗚!」260Please respect copyright.PENANAjfCsG3SyHb
她才發出一絲絲聲音,施暴的少女就在手上加重了力道。260Please respect copyright.PENANALOARGcUzYN
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「誰說可以回話了?啊?平常打掃不到的地方可要好好清理對吧,先從最不容易清理的縫隙開始給我舔。」260Please respect copyright.PENANAwKxcNK7wzv
鼻尖被壓到小便斗底端的溝槽上。260Please respect copyright.PENANACX3FB6a2Q6
即便內心千百萬個不願意,但一想到接下來可能的暴行,她還是抗拒地慢慢伸出舌頭。260Please respect copyright.PENANAolupbEr0g1
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「噗,美悠美悠,快點來看!真的舔下去了耶!」260Please respect copyright.PENANAiFWE0mRdUo
「不是說我在忙了嗎──咦?舔下去了?真的假的,有夠噁心耶,哈哈哈!到底有沒有這麼聽話啦!等等,讓我先拍下來,笑死人了!」260Please respect copyright.PENANAbdASboswaz
「噫─!」260Please respect copyright.PENANAfypUbzODFO
「躲什麼躲嘛!欸,沒想到拍的還不錯耶,好~信件發送!」260Please respect copyright.PENANAIZiSOoBqSH
「到底是在跟誰聊啊,美悠?從剛剛就沒停過耶,啊,難不成是上次聯誼的男生?」260Please respect copyright.PENANAlbPqXpiDwL
「那些廢物怎麼可能嘛……哎,等我一下,他打過來了。喂喂,野宮學長~」260Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9oReJmqS4
從佐伯美悠口中最後說出的那個姓氏,讓她不由得瞪大了眼睛。260Please respect copyright.PENANAxyIQ5ATXpS
不良少女帶著壞心的笑臉看了過來。260Please respect copyright.PENANAvjcm9MnSqR
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「什麼呀~所以連學長的父親都說過很麻煩嘛,真是的,果然是從小學開始就讓人厭煩呢。」260Please respect copyright.PENANANdxfJV98RN
突然之間,她覺得自己的意識像是從飽受疼痛的身體裡被抽離了一樣。260Please respect copyright.PENANAKnv6PYTY5a
剛剛,所說的話是什麼意思。260Please respect copyright.PENANAVIXz86nEr9
學長的父親是指什麼……?260Please respect copyright.PENANA26RhWu79To
明明應該是和自己毫不相關的人吧……?260Please respect copyright.PENANAYumKrKPead
為什麼要說麻煩什麼的……?260Please respect copyright.PENANAG23xo6zSdB
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「咦~~人家才不要,這種話要說你自己說,才不管你勒!嘻,真的要嗎?好啊,等我切換成視訊給你──」260Please respect copyright.PENANAxpmgn67sxe
佐伯美悠在假裝完抱怨以後,將原本靠在耳旁的手機遞到她的面前。260Please respect copyright.PENANA9WuQH30aF5
黑暗中那發亮的長形方格中所連接的另一端,出現的是身處在房間裡,她所愛慕的那名學長的臉孔。260Please respect copyright.PENANACtE5UklGcs
但是,卻和平常所看到的並不相同。260Please respect copyright.PENANA9PCdCmN1TT
原本應該是帶著和藹笑容的圓臉上,如今卻一臉鄙視的表情與她對望著。260Please respect copyright.PENANAmCQa0IjtEx
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「說真的,突然那樣告白讓我感到很困擾啊,不,應該說是覺得噁心了才對。」260Please respect copyright.PENANAfM2Q9LeTHA
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「我可是被隊友們狠狠地嘲笑了一番啊。」260Please respect copyright.PENANAqJQyfVDpSD
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「萬一害我在比賽中失常怎麼辦,難怪我家那老頭說是只會招引麻煩的傢伙,要不是為了小學的教育評鑑根本不想浪費時間。」260Please respect copyright.PENANAHhujNSD26J
從學長嘴裡接二連三吐出的真實,硬生生地將她重要的回憶敲得粉碎。260Please respect copyright.PENANA2rHxfgMV6v
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然後,她總算發現到了。260Please respect copyright.PENANAjYk1dNhzpA
當初幫助自己的老師並非沉默寡言,而是根本懶得理會身為異類的自己。260Please respect copyright.PENANA64MKP5WjmB
那番「對自己有信心一點」的言論,並非特意給予自己的認可,充其量只是省得學生再惹麻煩,隨便敷衍了事的慰問而已。260Please respect copyright.PENANAhZZ9gYFAh9
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「咦──怎麼,哈,這傢伙居然哭了耶~」260Please respect copyright.PENANA7GlEJjvl06
「哎呀,都怪野宮學長你說得太過分了,不好好愛護人家怎麼可以呢~」260Please respect copyright.PENANApwHhj6vagQ
「喂喂喂,什麼話嘛美悠,妳也替我想想啊,我只不過撿到一本破爛畫冊就惹上這種麻煩耶。」260Please respect copyright.PENANAwMzbHEJAWF
三人大笑的聲音在狹小的空間裡迴盪著。260Please respect copyright.PENANAGxydYIaAUr
她維持著原來的姿勢一動也不動,眼睜睜地直視著這個無比醜陋的現實。260Please respect copyright.PENANAmOMMIPTVQH
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……好想死。260Please respect copyright.PENANA8SJMCWDmXE
真的,好想要死去。260Please respect copyright.PENANAXjcC2iLBEQ
受夠這爛到不行的人生了。260Please respect copyright.PENANAW7VPlOUzRW
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反正已經一無所有。260Please respect copyright.PENANA5zLDikqKyD
自己不被任何人所愛,亦不被任何人所需要。260Please respect copyright.PENANAOIlLZUQRXS
一直以來所認知的世界全是謊言,和那些繪畫一樣都是自己虛構的愚蠢妄想。260Please respect copyright.PENANA708qp1Wey9
活著盡是碰到些痛苦不堪的事情,那倒不如死掉還來得輕鬆多不是嗎。260Please respect copyright.PENANAWDIFtNsXoR
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但是,在那之前。260Please respect copyright.PENANA8Pjb6mFtgo
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──我要把妳們這些人全都殺了。260Please respect copyright.PENANAD31TOxQVP7
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/ Xanadu Xanthochroi and Yuka260Please respect copyright.PENANASucYmo8Jgv
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