天亮，上班。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuRoyqabKJ
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12mvwAYhjB
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gWBPoYaAE
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoRZmVk8vt
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4H3Tw1Fr8u
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看不見，罷。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2V2Y5ggAlH
天黑，下班。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH13uuJxxDC
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGr4A7dLGsX
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4VGWHkQ0F
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJsFe9UmGT
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAbAKPQcpd
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEKuBQdnhD
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「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fW5nveYVX
公司，午飯時間。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hcHeqB53x
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppoWaaEzRH
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看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18XhsuXa7O
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驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6FWCjDbkN
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfW13b2K6rA
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還是……281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuVNuPJdAs
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其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnd34UrQpY
公司，工作。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lt5QW6DmU
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6zSmyatxh
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大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFowDh87cus
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很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5pbvNOltf
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剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtFvrj83d4
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快意，笑了。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvE39FCNnqw
酒吧，喝酒。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CEGRzY8lk
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「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6NXSbGY99
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「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdY3lvwrKH
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「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Zncx83Tl7
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聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7JDBGbi35
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醉倒。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpKtDQBeX8
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迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmbARfPUB5
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAsf5ZLWVV
281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDl4J8GG5g
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLQElHGes2
假期，醫院。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpCDJiBQS6
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwWmg7Dcso
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看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbWkm4I15s
281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO94lC5w8V2
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJsV1u6Mz4
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大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dYOGQ6gxu
281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kQUba24FT
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hCrlocqpO
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死寂。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiO2qg8fEs
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrvtRncLkP
回家，晚飯。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdMESszELh
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一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSE9IZUKsYO
281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eA9w91u2W
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWCuOWSNFK
281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6kyuTrBFR
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdlSKuGa68
281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDIgkEohb1
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdvH1ShBXF
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKVd42XpGK
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一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyBwqKLdV0
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久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfEF1K9Fwp
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Wmmp8c3RR
男友家，床上。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCXz9uWT4z
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ553UwLg7ay
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産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqhoLUumqe
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我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T51Csw8I6
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床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGevckIQb7R
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlMccwTbgp
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說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqg71s24hT
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「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeBz3wmTEO
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「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1oSXjzPNF0
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「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLu9eo5b7b
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「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopjCM40Fom
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「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBhQrXcojk
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「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOnDWPfz7P
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ464Yyzq6iI
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今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGe937MKpOp
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「在你體內。」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5AmlA4Hkf
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「甚麼？」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUfDJ5e5qT
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「蟻。」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLT6R85Pa2U
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6VfxZXHft
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它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpRkGvWHz2
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結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUyLle3Svu
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYrxgVs2PL
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「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRnEGj1K8R
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「誰？」另一聲音反問。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStaDCYRnC5
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「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQm0FvPma2T
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靜。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTc4bWf23E
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwkyspayny
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtRtUOA64z
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醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRGkkABzVv
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我：「我有精神病？」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHv4wuz9j1
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醫：「是情緒病。」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbxxDe48vO
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我：「怎麼辦？」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6PQnNTBjb
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醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFNJFKmjpV
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我：「謝謝醫生。」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvTX74HFuS
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醫：「不用謝。」281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOKFQRIFoD
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離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgImx0xkd6
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQq3YSwsIQX
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpa82omH5Pj
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsD39CZxYL
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRsNMtdu1S
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPvsMRJYlT
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……281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOZ6AK5yfB
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDj86z5Q7ZC
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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