天亮，上班。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoRPazIxBb
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6aiUqaoME
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tuJg2T5TY
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTqYUktkxn
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ592p1ZKsrS
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看不見，罷。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMz8cKJk5S
天黑，下班。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSE3R2jvQx
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ662L7fAJtZ
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXD4HYeCYH
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaJLr4kR7j
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByoIT5UGq8
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPPgLLI75U
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUcX7Ahpzw
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZUZpsqQTR
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChoArYkoKq
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotJ416EZBD
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡke4KBGp0rM
公司，午飯時間。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPa3LgBtRtI
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Rzy5uwPMd
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVZ6wMs5Vi
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmX1t9HdvDc
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJ3sqlas06
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqBScPFUZk
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1nYKIdM8A
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4TtBOX98L
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGvJOu5N5v
還是……408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsXnERncQK
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4zBHOUp0N
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqUSSz0aTS
公司，工作。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsw7vNNH7m
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdj4QJhyUuO
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgelzdFveN
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqD4ZiTLXn
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GcsZOvDu5
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOog1zdLCYG
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpYaGk23mX
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZhrDNfs7r
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2nskeD1tL
快意，笑了。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAisXLXvEz
酒吧，喝酒。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5KcWffCD6
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXWPy2jpS2
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lipza8GY8
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MliZvDC5I
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjOAOy9H7y
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSidKkCTUxN
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8QHk9P6gB
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnBrT8utIQ
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFJDFoH3hJ
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醉倒。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66Fqd7Fd93
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTyr4oMUSg
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOtAZykacs
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLoKzzboyL
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPXxHpwFJL
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSodovDl1R
假期，醫院。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2qPxhp3RG
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Gu8UY99iy
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIgq0TTTyi
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvCj4Cd4Vu
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSgMQCu6dn
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsb82g1oVj
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwK0HrTjRM
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNcLJFMFci
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQwcWoe46f
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAEN1vFSKt
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuTxxSAPsn
死寂。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFbxbhdZMc
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGqhboxFNF
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85r8dhMQJW
回家，晚飯。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KSX4yoDx4
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmz2KVJGN1
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFfkoATIr2
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFVMkI6W1D
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFDiONxWRk
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAKWECbXqN
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKSB23Bq2Z
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvV4LofYuRj
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PCpNIvj1b
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtSwg1C1Ip
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUOOH3nfey
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuadHZqUTLt
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nfouG8PSS
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzzJ05bWfU
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡof20B44XYf
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNdyptQoQm
男友家，床上。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRRS6PLulY
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42IQ0szBta
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ030dqAOqYE
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlNGejAtjx
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCXHl86QJI
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3AgsaJkvm
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbpjkkx8BS
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURFJOm0QpX
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjKZrI2tt8
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9hFtg7HQ1
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmK4yxTi7MY
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsdTVvk1xq
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiUTFeb2z7
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUakTly7Qw
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSMEa0HaUs
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoeLEVAH3y
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyL2YeBD4L
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodXQNw7PHJ
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEn6TnNPWz
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ034rJ5hQ4G
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRDFbWQmx4
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq36yPKUTp5
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNygQtD5q8
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQLus20otG
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6puw0I1Iw
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAh4TGwAYzK
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6034fyEPoz
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zrAAnbb7t
「在你體內。」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZGZ7DYym3
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlzMi5ripA
「甚麼？」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MqQDRs4qZ
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「蟻。」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiueBwvE4oK
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZWeFvnCB7
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrcb7CmdbJ
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xfZuP2cgZ
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbT0InPMb5
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1uFrbBqOb
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQXCspA9XV
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJGBXET8w2
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjO62ZTIEG
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtOYtxjdJR
「誰？」另一聲音反問。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAqkYkUWu6
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNRqsUz4AO
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATWCymMQmi
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靜。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp29ytK6Wki
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0S3FLUeoh
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrf1Cy5zlOa
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnnLntR32j
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuzh776vmq
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHOHLhvsHL
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydIQFBpjBt
我：「我有精神病？」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxe4klB1Dak
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXXhkgvFCW
醫：「是情緒病。」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4z7rn1P8Ca
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbj75r7TCzl
我：「怎麼辦？」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpMk9C91dG
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQbd5VGjKJ
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCupG5A5tj
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35iQlsRC8v
我：「謝謝醫生。」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCIOeZzcfA
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsKZmpzIlz
醫：「不用謝。」408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETQ1CrZrKD
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ665KAI3bFO
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkULrIa3rGa
408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEtKJ2cE3N
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLdFWl62yC
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kG9oN6IrK
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlCISmwHh7
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1d8jM33tXI
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakdwdcukIG
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。408Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDsCC6TE7g
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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