天亮，上班。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSbsBl1iOf
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcPe7kukba
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJmecuZvpq
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgrzyvR8rm
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ795FtFuK
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看不見，罷。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEPUm4KV4q
天黑，下班。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVusaSRGDO4
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8X2IvXCIU
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSVOTXOicP
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9HwVGHYyI
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuysyCinRkG
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwPIN7Q2lT
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlxEVjzTSx
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcirq4Zdlcd
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfTPlAFqRq
公司，午飯時間。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCq5ROxNlxN
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPj7R3Wko9n
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4bMIMXxjq
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7SCTxRmhB
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHozCJJ1Pf
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8FTGBWgP0
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsF3acRtJB
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還是……391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5yLi3gGqA
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其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU779tcrpxW
公司，工作。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvvhRG9pHX
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDyV3Jn6o1
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVQqrmrWbF
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJsYktVcDK
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkAzMgGXXK
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukj1aSM04y
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjefm5GvhI
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Z94zr6uLm
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6olFbrpU6
快意，笑了。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vCP3Vl7V7
酒吧，喝酒。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWn9jw6QRx
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpQDri9FAR
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9a84qQZYNL
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUNdKGdGXp
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBxoACYCos
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKiQdZv0Ul
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejmmMLnyyD
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSQJYKtAdO
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdDYVKGAtf
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醉倒。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFoh2kCqK0
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMswmDTReVY
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfCy05C04K
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHud4lpWze9
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcUxe35RKv
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1WRjoKQ4Y
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCCpAU542a
假期，醫院。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMe2YXfWekw
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQrDTKj3KY
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mrRHQo1RT
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGhO5XNyTI
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21nbeeoAnW
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgR1YeSavsp
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3cv6nORvb
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBkuAcewSg
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOG47adWimA
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuInknjQ1gq
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPyZmyrQsY
死寂。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUA4n2wu8xH
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwRa3YSPti
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokA9EiPGha
回家，晚飯。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFiWj6licp
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38CibueCXE
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZu3VZDbKN
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7gh1hj2BY
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvAuf4NIWp
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSCeL84POI
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCMTuDFEKB
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfSXWMnaK4
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwobYcBViuQ
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjKEOV9tyM
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一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2xQt8n2xa
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThZR90nMWp
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7smBvPPWuS
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHjTdRZLJh
男友家，床上。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfLTkRb7bs
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbIFoBIaEX
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GCTUPySZu
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWH8HJtrPl
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6Emhhobc3
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxioeqqOl2
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikUz5NzHnd
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdvNchw6s9
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VCuSgMiO8
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKRGXyTrss
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYNLoSlsQh
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJ9jjg0mAV
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgU9jj9eYAC
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSincZYEj0
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRm1lYPe8X7
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「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPIKKrySMp
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyfLFabeVu
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8GMbmQUpV
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「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhukuIQozi0
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「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaY0d2MuT78
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZDvSUSqT0
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYuBwBfMIy
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BOJbeB4HD
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fFx35xKJq
「在你體內。」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoYPVGXDxj
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「甚麼？」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzVIoY0sp0
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「蟻。」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskjiHkso1h
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxhMWHXbYn
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDQ90Pew37
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiPhp9cn9S
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8QM9aBjVj
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlamNPZZfQA
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4U8Q937ds
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KFMgfpolu
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeubfWiPGU
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJKbW1EYie
「誰？」另一聲音反問。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTx7Ocb38Uy
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2izd9bgyXk
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFroi5Nnzc
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靜。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgQXCq4I9v
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGBKdw2Dwh
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdCap4IdWm
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4dIg3q9qP
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknojr4NemU
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZBxwgBiQE
我：「我有精神病？」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuo2UAgJLM
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTsMbAsbrj
醫：「是情緒病。」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0W9ANNyNYb
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7glxlLoAxN
我：「怎麼辦？」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FWTPXBLhU
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4TQLYy24J
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvN8eKVDtv
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJr9ofBM1i
我：「謝謝醫生。」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwttW6pn3gS
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醫：「不用謝。」391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbarLp09chk
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGPKldLq7w
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXLqeqpsJO
391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GPkkXHeIM
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfumWJvKGR
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？391Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85zJ7hEE0j
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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