天亮，上班。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZGiHqE6aQ
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7u5vkI7HB
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqKAZGZlL4
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBjuZFclqU
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVaH5Kfujq
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看不見，罷。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEyNYu1rGt
天黑，下班。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGHbIRC3NA
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dGFVNpIle
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IMKNPmIAN
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzown4qLrM
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLMnCJQy72
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG43ohITOoc
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRreZGFZyt
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQ5HbdKjbB
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFphLwlx4Z
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvXllSQaEI
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszrAdbTDCe
公司，午飯時間。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GyTJW2Z6B
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3glCgpYIE
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLN2TV9zE0J
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3udIgCVA9
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmulqkojPo3
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47vjuoUKDT
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8AJxJuXDr
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYM4glJFhY
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BUGLxEOXf
還是……398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumStBWSUgE
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKX85muAcS
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20sGwepLpP
公司，工作。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSH2idRE2MN
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggcio0Xprf
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYG4qPXXcJM
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJEzeeaGQW
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCtKQTkrWz
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Pr3ukaBMM
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMtHHUVgFd
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoF3s7RY2TH
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHx2rCy4L0A
快意，笑了。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapFb211qvg
酒吧，喝酒。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Vhzt8fC69
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNJYYjJdX4
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8t7yWUampn
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuX3PZqytq
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJeCphVEaX7
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnW2ChzRSVQ
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjL8uMK0RsS
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AVySsLY7D
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ402bsawTrB
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醉倒。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZxpSNTLmv
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTblVLM9vM
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9ReVaSDEn
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKfInRkRqS
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1nQveaZHL
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVMmNETAXT
假期，醫院。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVicr8XZFCd
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2O6UYU1lzy
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCitLwikyi
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1tL2BqVnt
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJ0mvgal1n
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppLSk8icuZ
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzOgwYZUav
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtIJOhkZiI
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4vAZv1MJL
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPLI7tgnq5
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxQgzp5gGJ
死寂。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfjza8ScHm
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBMDAEtFQZ
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7X9NhFgH9
回家，晚飯。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjkSjaYKFI
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlti2WZFbD
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswiWeax8XL
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBLhJ1vsHx
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHbVfjBLij
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAtXYgpYmx
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIDLCdyNLB
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFgKCQtDs4
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaHMeAsz7e
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECLqoBoM8e
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhu0D59vC3n
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvrmlqBkEZ
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtugmPkdM0Z
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfPHiu1RZk
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOKvFWTy6p
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8CnLcFbd0
男友家，床上。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡub97tXYF83
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydBqPtUNTJ
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YuJZcfJkQ
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmMuQBAO8u
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAZO1gkJEd
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLkDZnIr6v
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5vvsfQywo
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7o7r5ZlsHM
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9LFhoCSYs
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4t3nsVj5B
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMStv4ew2j
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbWczlzL1C
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSE5usxSpJ
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAs33s4qHB7
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8192BFy5j
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQklmZeEhnD
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieg6YxWPzD
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQadstBmW5P
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfBOBvVM5b
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZyfWX93uE
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXs7pTjBLN
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtw8LFn8pSd
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWCG5BrjLA
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4plT4D90vs
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GdlUdj6EF
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpquT726S3K
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHDmcDgBb7
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5vmsbtQIL
「在你體內。」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pzIhQjxV9
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhMazwJjt3
「甚麼？」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZiyeKiuPa
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「蟻。」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQVQ6zLvZX
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jZZWYSFZ0
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53vPGL8vru
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpspr7qSc3
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSr0XGPqcUP
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoahJC5PS8
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuCBaxojBn
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWEJlJTCKg
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0i1Q2nMy2F
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyOzDTQ4ik
「誰？」另一聲音反問。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNZRvnFko9
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhqLmGZVc9
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGb0IKgP34
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靜。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMGAwJcpyv
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4WYjkBYjZ
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3tlEbAQGB
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoptAY8yU61
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnJBYlH1lc
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRengig4KgY
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6VcVBb2Tn
我：「我有精神病？」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWB2mS6eK7
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTIRN4mGoI
醫：「是情緒病。」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OLy8uhdUx
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8SkVHEVzs
我：「怎麼辦？」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz20hlFvCY4
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCHvTsTuC7
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LQft4wUrJ
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjS09BO2Vn
我：「謝謝醫生。」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqY4oXAEpj
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1haOKX4zC
醫：「不用謝。」398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9P2f55SbeQ
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQM3T5n726N
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXevbeplvcc
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkC5ibkS3Yz
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpgpc6ej1n
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xgdqMRFWK
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDK4j3ps6YV
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7tRDUHulF
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oHKgBPbDh
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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