天亮，上班。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4k2T4OTwF
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vR4Bll7qk
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEjlRdZPaV
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbZIQZ6EyI
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VKuabVpYu
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看不見，罷。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡst2VtCpebP
天黑，下班。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnA9HISpjR
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFjYACqlfK
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZal39ISagP
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5dkKKKuyr
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxuIYKN6UW
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AOhOwV6T2
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「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLooswq8fV8
公司，午飯時間。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiKNAWQiss
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTY28VWy1fe
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看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFmoo0lZYs
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驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡke7zetTlyo
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVozGx85L5
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還是……275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFxKtBLuHv
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其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMgbcqqGv2
公司，工作。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBck70yXYB
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNgF6kbtpr
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大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSK70fR8YJ
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很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2plOFaMo2E
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剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXdcurQ5yt
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快意，笑了。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXc2eb6lrTt
酒吧，喝酒。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjw9zVF7qi
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「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzmUCWx006
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「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRlkqDwruJ
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「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT47CLkyBsH
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聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6MpuE7wnk
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醉倒。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCHNt6ivRP
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迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZhgysuiHq
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVC1pEBmMr
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今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtx3PIUWiLg
假期，醫院。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVcD500106
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAbk6OJUuX
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看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJx8RwXqy2
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「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkLHEYpJBD
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大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIianHm3Iys
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「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvJci7Os44
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死寂。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LtnCtfKRR
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dYCj1tNk4
回家，晚飯。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtF7Oq8Vni
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一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lngrmxnIA
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「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPMrEzSReM
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妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5DbprBCMY
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我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92mSacJ5uA
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeGvmxnJRy
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一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKiQvwqHP9
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久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukMZ9MUdlW
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2gtbupN1o
男友家，床上。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTbe9Fyvet
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqqlqGUOuq
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産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGkXQHy3Mz
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我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVgxtjrtmg
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床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6LIEh0mOS
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkl8DmMaOlD
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說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbfaTYA55O
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「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXJbb9SEQz
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「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5R3eS5ym8
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「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACSdAt8Ma6
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「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAmPWKyaOQ
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「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSqLJg9VXA
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「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDfbytiqoY
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHUvD6ljIH
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今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxAyfT0q7Q
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「在你體內。」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEnVDSSmg7
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「甚麼？」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgr2PN6JD2
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「蟻。」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgVt7MNi2a
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgcEMXApk7
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它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpi4bcCfUPg
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結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3J3duDm8ZO
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleEyV3jaHT
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「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfPPtELjFP
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「誰？」另一聲音反問。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSPnj4GfFe
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「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTA5VcYkz9q
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靜。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2oIrzwDv7
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbwlCfiwUp
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9PSyFvnTV
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醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqsrT5gSKx
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我：「我有精神病？」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ooiu9xyx1
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醫：「是情緒病。」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRJrxv8fjB
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我：「怎麼辦？」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tu9eCmbrg
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醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qzB5yG5oU
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我：「謝謝醫生。」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CDarBmLMO
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醫：「不用謝。」275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ421TIKiMFl
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離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡei48eoqJzU
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUloPkrSM6
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZ6JYWdj9E
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqSBAybhR6
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpP9og827U
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmxugfTGVK
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……275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHD1zoAdN7f
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。275Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1CD9Pcp4O
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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