天亮，上班。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQTYu0Jihb
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPdwyyh40K
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1yuvxRV2p
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1O3k8l43a
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzZu213cbe
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看不見，罷。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzEPrLQGzH
天黑，下班。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuh9cpBIOz
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppV8jf6WSl
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tRSOIqzLE
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvGACzEFkA
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PqbdjdpgP
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbj89kvtjB9
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「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡys8pJBALV2
公司，午飯時間。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hLV6RdMKm
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGAZci4jTe
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看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiYT4jaUAP
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驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6NCwKNwp4
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gdwyegWx9
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還是……211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXOUsGOQeq
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其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMhJg4FRTF
公司，工作。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPYBc1sj5V
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmQ6sLV4tz
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大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1Gc2XZoGo
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很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifExyQuvJV
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剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYm63oBFAhs
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快意，笑了。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSUszKBodC
酒吧，喝酒。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PBozKRD99
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「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqqqOpmIJ8
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「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeqH25nM9b
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「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9C2doV3hGI
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聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJCtSC2tGb
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醉倒。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tcWX0eYNK
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迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAax7ihpzPP
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDcq4CczcL
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今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnD13qfpxi
假期，醫院。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DAaRgUcYQ
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpu8Axl9XaY
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看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPbB0PBJdH
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「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpfNuVxsF4
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大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskvmAD223d
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「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WFzViVrjO
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死寂。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIwsrkRWL4
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Df1RUGYy9
回家，晚飯。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzmjUuUIKL
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一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtChw1sZsLh
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「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTGVAggF0c
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妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyWNsKJKl6
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我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QZP9uGHMa
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dtwmSoZSh
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一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7uwFtXIDq
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久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoE7aNtOSl3
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIG1YWCFUcH
男友家，床上。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZVjAJgQOQ
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMBrcfI1rh
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産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IIDzDFzH1
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我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSQYR21I4O
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床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVwxChJzYS
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjDCu6Fm24
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說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQf7RUhkjY
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「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSye6Hn7ep
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「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbIOuyu6Zo
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「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gjy0LffqD
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「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVQH9a0nto
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「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMR6ZyaXE5O
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「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaP6SUFMPr
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEciETdQdrn
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今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOCja9V6wk
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「在你體內。」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBORYLfPpH
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「甚麼？」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujw1PQ1CJf
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「蟻。」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLp1JtPHwd
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAlwDqjOaG
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它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDr0EXn1EV
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結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYLLAs8pmX
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKnSXKIAgn
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「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYTJn1jfND
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「誰？」另一聲音反問。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7taSwfPsC7
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「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhJepLrzVc
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靜。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHefMGsXKZ
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMhjAdpfAv
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSG07Tdthb
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醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBJx87iYJT
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我：「我有精神病？」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQLaKrGuvK
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醫：「是情緒病。」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO61B53M0eZ
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我：「怎麼辦？」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOi38xhxlQ
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醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvl7SSrpo8N
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我：「謝謝醫生。」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrQj8NB4Ie
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醫：「不用謝。」211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEEBd5ejpI
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離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrUgewXpbj
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbB2aaZEim
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nJexOEfey
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGv7H8qvpp
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgTEw8CQwD
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2b6xOHYJz
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lYhlkgcyv
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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