天亮，上班。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNT5VpApcuj
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Cjgak4J0K
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4iRbfo9ik
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxClOAaGNhQ
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHipT2ZL74
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看不見，罷。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkVK0XtVB3
天黑，下班。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNd0hsZGqN
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKybqZAQ7BY
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBO9rDFJT9
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFr7FnXXgJ
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4rZLkJyXP
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zmL4xIZt9
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmk6JkANOYO
「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFklW7bgvd
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewJH6EcPun
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAa4aOs2cj
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHjC8mVPBu
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7YHaAJ0Ev
公司，午飯時間。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLxCaviQT1
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7s9bOiLrPH
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1wC0hPxut
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTCRjsrrCU
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOJHfslbXn
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSi9s8uVeZ
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9f5VqUDOwM
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmckjN6QQM
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCFCBrymHM
還是……188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFlIURt09Y
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDERIHFt2rg
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuufhAuAFNe
公司，工作。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxjtX4sAEv
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaWmCy69dG
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEdM7gHQEE
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BD2Hgovta
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybCSx0YuFQ
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhBJwXnREU
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMRkTw8tqb
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmDHSy6gzV
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJNS9BGjuW
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXJCjqxGDf
快意，笑了。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdClqQJlgl
酒吧，喝酒。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4ERUvdzx7
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgWo5Jpkgt
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCr2yK6TxLH
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nOTTKAnXx
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYMTZD5a6F
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaHFbIkwJB
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6wNmmCahT
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHv6F7J3oG
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1GRkvk48W
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFTUBSRdC9
醉倒。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpAkerpNGp
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PX5CIOkpd
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPraDISFqZ
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKG4qtOJNQ
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVaiqBRgXZC
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnkTgYI5Ab
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHeLxk8U4Z
假期，醫院。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZiJpgStCy
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AZ7lbyPyH
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsmVWZem4f
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmnwNHhzKg
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa63r23GVze
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4s5qExcBh
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAsfpqoglE
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3IPJctSgS
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC34PdhzLDr
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vxJtfMhye
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWm6qjG7i81
死寂。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KbkQUUSzF
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKe5rxZtyVh
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7quzBLvF4
回家，晚飯。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTPhlLUtI4
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifOqYw0hAM
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8DliRKCEM
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9vqKFDPbu
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNOq1IV1rk
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWM6TFrtj2
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDxd0i6Wb1
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVbcr60eNB
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNgytIUcGn
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWz4nAOqFC
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalve4nO3UL
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtolibXkKr
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvcoI3jCEC
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8ljEYjCBx
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYVZ0gIwgW
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQLDMee7fK
男友家，床上。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdY4VhdpuY
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOcRaHO2JE
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpCvbPaOPw
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuTY7bP7R1
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTBChIlTR5
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkY12sHl8tD
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2Evl9o820
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjz3lkA84x
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtqm8KRHwb
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXLbbTiR3d
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTrTcqiewc
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHArORlKSf
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnPrzdZGEk
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqi5f8dgmJg
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkL9gEESqha
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9bf6CRHxB
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQmYqO81zm
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjy1QbHTrl
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIdb6i6dee
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08rR8dlSwY
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcODxZzUgZk
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHgC01mrbb
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlEyxotWP0
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Elhn2FHsK
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJFJI7jicm
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWhxjnI1wb
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUCKjtT3oz
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaMqtIWsoR
「在你體內。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfyOXbNA3C
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「甚麼？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2YoTujGIv
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmCFpBAM4U
「蟻。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNnYyST829
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLeaX1C8du7
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhf86tUMvgZ
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyA4RZwiGJ
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAiu5nVjXz
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuvhw0CVHd
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsT654jdXP
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgoKMRBj0s
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPTVZzqdmi
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaD1GRdKEpi
「誰？」另一聲音反問。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkFo3i7uJN
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFD0MUb1GT
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCB0I08lK4d
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靜。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbXOKxwG7D
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiaUb1DvrE
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCRgnpT40j
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Ehij2Ht6O
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNCYM34BOi
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRI7aevX6p
我：「我有精神病？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rbqvDdWjU
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8E4GXENV0
醫：「是情緒病。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRnwLlLVau
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGJMrJW5XX
我：「怎麼辦？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKChy0EGCA
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrF9VBbenQ
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFdq3jQ0CP
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzfe8ZMcwF
我：「謝謝醫生。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2SvDf8T5W
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YbxeLkZgp
醫：「不用謝。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUg5mHHBXKP
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNboOfPsgUo
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN63TOBWGQu
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTBi1l4yB1
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPX202qlLYh
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFV9nzPE2c
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIBnrHPGPo
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwuWbRH8Xg
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLofzwwn2V
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQl2xM1EIB
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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