天亮，上班。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLr87cUCOIN
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl25RXJNmwS
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMgF8lRUzL
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJk65GQYAoU
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIOvavOQKD
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看不見，罷。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCHtgz2lsT
天黑，下班。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡty3s6W0o9w
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuP5e3CQNb6
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3dTZoT6JK
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqEx1c0CjV
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIZ8rmASZL
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs52u27ht61
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「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPb3lTI8ceU
公司，午飯時間。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAh314EEfLn
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFvLR397c8
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看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2NuSIZe4p
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驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwMr20aqyO
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKBblzDdF2
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還是……397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOUN4pIu29
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其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLtXGd4hhj
公司，工作。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wcsdA1bUM
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPR2uWzUkZF
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大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx462Qx8Edb
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很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSsBClCd7A
397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjwzbaEAQv
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSm0q8sFMnn
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快意，笑了。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinxhr28Npa
酒吧，喝酒。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFudbhxePJ2
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「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzCjUFyTRo
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「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDe9F6kor2
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「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9Gi5U9rdS
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聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwiKRJwMXv
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醉倒。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDZ4kOHxQJ
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迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTvXMg970F
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBREGlensdM
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今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9oxcZX4sZ
假期，醫院。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIEc4GlFmx
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTrH9WjyFS
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看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNOW19ET6y
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「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRAuEC6PRC
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大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBjU4Gw3du
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「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiI9qkXSkF
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死寂。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pduiU41g5
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3VC7KaT0h
回家，晚飯。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCu3PIKcBF
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一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOXCAmUWXZ
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「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlcwpUNUcs
397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6Zl7aWUV4
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PCozR6uRQ
397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhrkPdYSl6
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zFSVNE7Yv
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uypITPBNq
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一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqHhoEbCwv
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久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72oTjOWJcP
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uih5NbfBS
男友家，床上。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOROfLIwHwR
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7U2qSkOtTJ
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産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvMVFw4buE
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我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxJyLsl0i9
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床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1AwrHxZwf
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XwgD9yVQ9
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說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQZaOabXYx
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「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyah7eYS1J
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「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVWgEbkCak
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「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTh4Xkg4Y4
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「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡux5fclBT4f
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「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOZO1hadgt
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「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx0CZLnJmT
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq5MeoNTVP
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今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAKNGoevct
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「在你體內。」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63tv907AoS
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「甚麼？」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnWBIYGqHP
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「蟻。」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdptTjvN3Z
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYf0FgQwdIE
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它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAne5x1WRsh
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結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgS6fNIbqZn
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1daIAHAWr
397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo62AVzrR14
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfQuYwbki1
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「誰？」另一聲音反問。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlQxGDOxp7
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「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSW0uL8fJyv
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靜。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmM0p0MHEBn
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlqh2kKh9s
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxmmHyIIld
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醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADYDwNfiKZ
397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MFQjKwa1P
我：「我有精神病？」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8whVhwCK12
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醫：「是情緒病。」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqu8ja0uGOI
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我：「怎麼辦？」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiOZ5Pwd6P
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醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKsEuucHSu
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我：「謝謝醫生。」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu74xr1Caja
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醫：「不用謝。」397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMiggRI492
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離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBByRN2xpuz
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYdXbNBFFW
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59CsdcgiaD
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gT85MaNoz
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。397Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoXvqtlGgV
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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