天亮，上班。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2u9Mx3qwPq
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvFpRRpip2
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJvm551nDw
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76VhKBUGws
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9H991B450q
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看不見，罷。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TfzzZmXKJ
天黑，下班。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWIUJsz1IB
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmF5wQI1M5
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ479U3Ik8o1
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItFJeHaD0E
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSECruvItca
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsk86Shzn1H
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「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9fgbSFd8L
公司，午飯時間。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eObq0k54Z
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzsQaxY3K3
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7zyUt7SOC
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPjv6ybrWI
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV071lGRQUX
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt58yu5WhLw
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcLC4I9nd4
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還是……297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yyYO7Juik
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其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LWjHaDkif
公司，工作。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeF11dMK2Ra
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhL9PrEyfH
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大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6x5FgU0DJu
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很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSocKocqW0y
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcyDWtuh89
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Cq3YkZhmk
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快意，笑了。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnD7g6VhRu
酒吧，喝酒。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCI7ZCEc48D
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「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXhheX0V11
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「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35pKHQRwUQ
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「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJsiP0stld
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgG3Q2vbY1m
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CqFDLiOb0
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醉倒。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyD3s7uwCM
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迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyRag86k2v
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74V0gx6wun
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBzsTw5g09
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaE44psETK
假期，醫院。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOS3h3DZwLU
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsLU9XXOkX
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看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKs8n9IZwu5
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1c0h9fu4dE
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vJHqW2gMW
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUq7o9AET0W
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkj3QGC1Xh
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4JECgrR38
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYx8wen9ytT
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死寂。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAvDnJzMVv
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWay9w3ecAK
回家，晚飯。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzKcWojQYC
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一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OfzB3IE1B
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXni5J94li7
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZ0ShLH4h7
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxv4qbxs6B
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2DO2P9gHA
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQz14MKP8w
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdZ4zMFPCD
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylIBsuDPoy
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一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VyC0Yl8dq
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久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlHAPWjDyI
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ83Arxz8AE
男友家，床上。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLq29GwsAw
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4l13CuaHs
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産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXCtcDHx9l
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我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uSbmqKPy1
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3tameCYh0
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYY1V3nwdRX
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXkNjurM5z
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說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfZhFg3Xbe
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「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwNmUDjYOz
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「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoSzfHuFFI
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「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapFvLWKkqU
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「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtW1e2ICFrJ
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「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdAAIpu359
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「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ843TsZMbJk
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekKwLdKaOW
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今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtdPBuhv6Z
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「在你體內。」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCt8XQKfpy
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「甚麼？」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiWL656nSz
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「蟻。」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8wBKSYgDa
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SNegYNWw7
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1DTEjoAVV
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8MDQBenw8
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結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOotxYeWrT
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzdbL1ci49
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3U9NNTWdn
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqxWqpBp6Q
297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxJLhqDDMG
「誰？」另一聲音反問。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTAcGMdCeG
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「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeO0o59Oscp
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靜。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmcfphp5c1
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtORWFTAe24
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRv5L3DjH3
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醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA2PxDHMRd
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我：「我有精神病？」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMVnAbewGR
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醫：「是情緒病。」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUKeIhtc54
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我：「怎麼辦？」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEJf7pMBjb
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醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Io606LV37
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我：「謝謝醫生。」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlafoOb42Vo
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醫：「不用謝。」297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9tdzQ587G
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離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ49oovqx1U
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50ofTDjw5r
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCiZx3ktrR
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsp5Mve8Lo3
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqtJNy4Jk5
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUu403jWChI
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……297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeRWUirzSJ
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEFhMe6gOZ
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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