No Plagiarism!dtHDHyrdLNDPk4wRIZcPposted on PENANA 「原來你對愛情都幾瘋狂。」鍾美嘉說。8964 copyright protection180PENANAj6ZmzYLIyU 維尼
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「我諗,呢個係感情經驗豐富嘅人有嘅共通點?無論遇過幾多無結果嘅人,都仲未識驚,愛情永遠都係對我地最重要嘅價值。」我回答。8964 copyright protection180PENANA0k5JmDOjk0 維尼
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「你有無諗過係咩原因導致我地將愛情睇得重要呢?」鍾美嘉問。8964 copyright protection180PENANAgzS4d2mhjp 維尼
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「我最近都有諗過呢個問題,最新嘅結論,係自己要靠愛情去填滿生活嘅缺失。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAXPiYUeqSSS 維尼
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「正如我存在嘅作用係填補你同女朋友關係缺失嘅部分,係唔係?」8964 copyright protection180PENANAQeDKjzjRSV 維尼
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「從呢一刻同你嘅關係去睇,我唔否認。」我補充:「如果早啲認識你,我地嘅故事會好唔同。至少可以正正經經咁拍拖。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAlVyYNB6c99 維尼
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「可能真係拍拖,又好快分手呢。人無完美,我同你一齊,同樣會有缺失嘅部分。所以唔緊要啦,我地而家呢個關係都唔差。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAW0ORv5dsCn 維尼
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鍾美嘉續道:「我覺得愛情嘅重要性同原生家庭有關係。我父母都係在職人士,由細到大,佢地工作都好忙碌,成日OT又周圍飛。小學果陣,主要都係婆婆照顧我。讀中學開始,我就自己照顧自己。父母都好疼錫我,俾到唔錯嘅經濟支持,只係相處時間總係好短,屋企成日都無人。當我獨自留喺屋企,就好容易覺得寂寞,所以一旦戀愛對象出現,我就會將全副心思放喺對方身上。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAvG3Ctty1wy 維尼
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「即使對方係錯嘅對象,你都會依附喺對方身上?」8964 copyright protection180PENANAxBrsVfHljF 維尼
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「係。因為寂寞比起錯誤更可怕。愛情作為家庭溫暖嘅彌補。」8964 copyright protection180PENANApRZ9NCvVfa 維尼
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「我理解你嘅感受。因為我父母都係我高中嘅時候飛咗去外國。即使係短時間嘅獨居我都頂唔順,不停向外尋求社交。」我說:「可能我地都唔識用健康嘅方式去排解呢種寂寞、缺失嘅感覺,以致不斷重演唔健康嘅愛情關係。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAwgqIsXY4SH 維尼
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「愛情就好似毒品。我搵唔到可以提供到同樣感覺嘅替代品。」8964 copyright protection180PENANA326w0GkPEP 維尼
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「哈哈,即係你都認同,愛情只係一種感覺。我地都係愛情上癮者,旨在搵人提供愛情感覺,多於一個『命中注定』嘅對象。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAhavrkKqNpw 維尼
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「係。不過愛情同毒品一樣,會有抗藥性,愈食愈麻木。所以阿,要搵一個俾到愛情感覺我嘅人都唔容易!你好珍貴!」8964 copyright protection180PENANAzdqjJ66p3M 維尼
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「大家咁話。」我笑說。看一看手錶,還剩下一小時的時間。8964 copyright protection180PENANA2aXjpAJ0le 維尼
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我們從西九龍海濱長廊的尾端折返,於公園的草坪中散步。8964 copyright protection180PENANA0XIoRJt4Bo 維尼
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我延續未說完的故事:「到升咗唔同嘅大學,個女仔玩O camp、住Hall之後,俾組爸媾咗,我地由同居變成朋友嘅關係。之後兩年我都無遇到有感覺嘅人,斷斷續續咁食吓女,無咩特別。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAIgXHaDDddb 維尼
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「咁你幾時遇到下一個重要嘅對象?」8964 copyright protection180PENANAxkv77XJcVi 維尼
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「喺我去荷蘭Exchange果時,撞到同校去英國Exchange嘅Ex,無耐就一齊咗Long D。與其話重要,不如話深刻更貼切。我係因為佢靚女,係KOL,條件唔錯,同埋Exchange想搵返個伴先同佢一齊。當時仲覺得佢性格好港女,唔算話非常鐘意佢。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAYKPsNcXumM 維尼
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「咁點解會深刻?」8964 copyright protection180PENANA0k5iYSS5OR 維尼
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「因為返到嚟香港,我地扑嘢嘅片俾個幫佢整電腦嘅Fans流出咗。我地一齊搵個男仔去解決呢件事。後來個女仔抑鬱,變到神神化化,我都算陪佢走過咗人生低谷,共過患難,加深咗感情。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAEV8mFlznmi 維尼
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「嘩!我想睇!有無Seed?」8964 copyright protection180PENANAquV9EV5JUB 維尼
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「不了,你得個知字啦。條片淨係睇到佢,睇唔到我個樣。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAcWXNG7h27o 維尼
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「咁佢而家點呀?」8964 copyright protection180PENANAlVxGF6VYne 維尼
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「佢好返啦。基本上長居外國,生活無憂。」我說:「好似同我有過關係嘅女仔都生活得唔錯。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAwLjU3UIeMz 維尼
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「可能當時啲女仔都覺得同你相處都唔錯呢。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAMesRGTRA60 維尼
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「當時鬼掩眼掛,可能而家會覺得同過我一齊係黑歷史。」我說:「跟住臨畢業就遇到正話戲院果個女仔,佢係少數令我有感覺嘅人。正如頭先喺戲院同你所講,我地最後無一齊到。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAnNvNBZPKub 維尼
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跟鍾美嘉剖白自己的過去,同時整理了心思:「所以,對我生命最大影響嘅女仔,應該係初戀。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAkpt7GtqZOV 維尼
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「你仲未忘記到佢?」8964 copyright protection180PENANAO9WV6s8NSh 維尼
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「中一到而家返咗工三年幾,中間隔咗成十三年,我唔再鐘意佢啦,只係佢對我嘅影響太深遠。」8964 copyright protection180PENANA7LUgYbrU1f 維尼
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「我無諗過,你會同我講咁多。」鍾美嘉說。8964 copyright protection180PENANAxRF3av1slq 維尼
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「我都無諗過,你係我人生中第一個令我咁誠實分享自己故事嘅人。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAyq2ZDpYRsY 維尼
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「真定假㗎,又哄我?」8964 copyright protection180PENANAWuza2wIfpg 維尼
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「真㗎,唔信就算啦。」8964 copyright protection180PENANAs0APYeXq16 維尼
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我的心情得到很大的紓緩,心裡某個重擔似乎放輕了不少。8964 copyright protection180PENANANuOMivI1sa 維尼
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雖然大部分「重擔」只是我在自尋煩惱。8964 copyright protection180PENANAkc85EaGejo 維尼
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在鍾美嘉面前,我不會得到任何批判,她只是靜靜聆聽,反覆詢問我內心的想法。8964 copyright protection180PENANAMkB6RUj1Dh 維尼
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原來我想要的,只是如此簡單的一段對話。8964 copyright protection180PENANAACJ6XFt3VY 維尼
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鍾美嘉完全掌控我的情緒高低起伏。8964 copyright protection180PENANAUiTFr9pzds 維尼
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我回想起江柏琪在逛婚展後,曾經詢問我關於婚前輔導的問題。關於過去感情經歷對我的影響,我在她面前幾乎絕口不提。8964 copyright protection180PENANA1uaqKf0JB8 維尼
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為什麼無法在江柏琪面前誠實剖白呢?8964 copyright protection180PENANA86N7Sxxgqb 維尼
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大概因為覺得她跟我不是同一種人,出說來她只能以同理心去理解發生在我身上的故事,不會產生共鳴的感覺。8964 copyright protection180PENANAHwC35XtWNE 維尼
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共鳴好像是一個江柏琪永遠無法填補的部分。8964 copyright protection180PENANAAZSSDfpDSE 維尼
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人本來就各有優劣,可不可以停止將兩人抽絲剝繭地比較呢?8964 copyright protection180PENANAWGNBjujGj3 維尼
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我就是無法控制內心的想法。8964 copyright protection180PENANAqzeGZuy0N8 維尼
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一聲嘆息。8964 copyright protection180PENANADpst6EjQdm 維尼
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時候不早,灰姑娘把借來的神奇火柴燒光,我要在限時之內趕回家。8964 copyright protection180PENANAIiDWRptvRU 維尼
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我還想牽著鍾美嘉的手,一直聊下去,最好是能夠走到月球般遙遠的距離吧。8964 copyright protection180PENANAiWyt0Neat6 維尼
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我陪伴美嘉到的士站,依依不捨地將她抱完又親,目送她離開再回家。8964 copyright protection180PENANASDyFvz2TGJ 維尼
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感受著她離開的空位,隨之而來是強烈的迷惘。8964 copyright protection180PENANA5UmzznBXtY 維尼
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愛和時間就像一杯水,是有限的。我只有100%的容量,當我把80%的關注放在其中一個人身上,另外一人便只剩下20%。兩人不可能同時獲得100%的我。8964 copyright protection180PENANAllkwn4DXYe 維尼
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我不知道和江柏琪的關係還能維持下去多久。8964 copyright protection180PENANADcdfvXidvA 維尼
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這幾天,我思考了好幾遍,我真的要和江柏琪結婚嗎?8964 copyright protection180PENANAehjgwEUSou 維尼
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隨著時間的過去,要反悔的代價將會變得更大。8964 copyright protection180PENANApWEfuMl30I 維尼
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考慮自己餘生,根本無法帶著謊言面對江柏琪。8964 copyright protection180PENANAImYHujRsZV 維尼
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男人到了三四十歲仍然是一個有市場的黃金年紀;女人尋找另一半的市場有限。8964 copyright protection180PENANA1K8JnYxbaw 維尼
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分手,放過自責又內疚自己,放生江柏琪找個更好的對象,跟Michelle和Stephanie一樣,和詛咒一樣的我分手,是不是一個更好的選擇呢?8964 copyright protection180PENANAd8V6awtAkL 維尼
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