Priscilla:你嚟唔嚟我屋企睇Netflix?500Please respect copyright.PENANAmnMFzpaTdn
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慶祝過後,我就決定到Priscilla家暫過一晚。500Please respect copyright.PENANAmxS0KgehcP
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我:你屋企人會俾我嚟咩?500Please respect copyright.PENANAHN2aKD7mwz
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Priscilla:我屋企人都喺上面,喺香港我冇親人。500Please respect copyright.PENANAg49u0ZVRLS
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了解過後,才知原來她當初是為了工作,才來香港申請永久居民。500Please respect copyright.PENANA1zZ9o0QRcg
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最後,我們在麥當勞點了一份二人套餐,就這樣上去Priscilla所租住的地方。500Please respect copyright.PENANAP43YTvUYSC
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Priscilla所住的房子是一人房,空間和面積如我大學宿舍的二人房,她的房間也蠻整齊的,有陳列架放著她的書、化妝品,床邊也放著一些玩偶,她還懂得用精緻的白色系和綠色系的蕾絲窗簾布,來裝飾自己的房間。500Please respect copyright.PENANA6thBdyZxHy
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Priscilla:你有帶褲來換嗎?500Please respect copyright.PENANAUSXiJIzjKl
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我:當然沒有啊。500Please respect copyright.PENANAsgf5gqswUN
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Priscilla:我這裡有一條大碼的睡褲,應該很適合你穿。500Please respect copyright.PENANAIcUuk275BF
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我脫下外套,和換上她給的女裝睡褲,便爬上床上和她一起看Netflix上的劇集。500Please respect copyright.PENANAVgoBZbDrtf
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嚴格來說,這條睡褲算不上是女裝,而是一條很中性的睡褲。500Please respect copyright.PENANAI2niHLbwv8
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Priscilla:同你講,格離室友住嘅房仲大過我呢度一倍,但租就只係貴幾百。500Please respect copyright.PENANAl86fZ7vhc0
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我:你呢度係專租俾女仔住?500Please respect copyright.PENANA1xUZ481wJ9
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Priscilla:係呀。500Please respect copyright.PENANAFLhxSs5Pwl
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我:咁點解你又俾我上嚟嘅?你唔驚我做啲咩㗎咩?500Please respect copyright.PENANApgLHs3ZELV
(我對她微笑地問。)500Please respect copyright.PENANAWwwU0wfToz
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Priscilla:就係因為你係偽娘所以先俾你上嚟。500Please respect copyright.PENANAxeQmdCeBbY
Priscilla:我當你係女仔先俾你上嚟。500Please respect copyright.PENANAvaFR9uMXMY
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她說完,我不心想:難道我已經落入了Friendzone?500Please respect copyright.PENANABo98hZJXVK
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Priscilla:你想看甚麼?500Please respect copyright.PENANAcoqqfxWlzk
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我:睇下有冇咩日劇先啦。500Please respect copyright.PENANAnu6uQrnO6K
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Priscilla在iPad上滑著,表示她正在使用朋友的帳號,於是她又問我要不要一起開個屬於自己的帳號。500Please respect copyright.PENANAphPktKcFtA
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我:不如就開個account啦。500Please respect copyright.PENANAV5gY0lekuN
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Priscilla:咁我哋就分返每個月嘅台費啦,我出住錢先。500Please respect copyright.PENANAlNyoZsEskC
Priscilla:密碼你自己定啦。500Please respect copyright.PENANAN6JTgZ9Y7h
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我:咁⋯⋯密碼就用我個名,同埋今日嘅日期啦!500Please respect copyright.PENANA7b53Ma2AJH
我:就叫「watergod20220201」啦。500Please respect copyright.PENANAqwRGD62K31
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雖然現今科技發達,有Google會幫人記住自己在任何網站設下的帳戶和密碼;但我心裡還是希望Priscilla會記住我的名字,還有今天的日子。500Please respect copyright.PENANAkfwx7yxVxn
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Priscilla:不如就睇呢套啦!500Please respect copyright.PENANAYvq5tNgEwq
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於是,她就點進了《勿說是推理》。500Please respect copyright.PENANAO5hTNbjb8h
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Priscilla:你唔洗返屋企咩?500Please respect copyright.PENANAaPoBbWRzTX
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我:睇完先再算啦。500Please respect copyright.PENANAf4Di1jwznK
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我們的身子都是橫向地躺在床上,身子是半坐半躺的,各自地蓋上毛氈;只有把腿子捲起來,才會勉強地把全身放在床上,我和她的距離,已經是肩碰肩。500Please respect copyright.PENANAZL1Zlcz3w9
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看了很久,她自自然然地睡著了,而我也借著自己疲累的身軀,打算順勢地睡在她身上;可是理性又告訴我,用這樣的「肢體接觸」來推進關係,太冒險了,結果我只是往攬枕裡睡著。500Please respect copyright.PENANAdfocCI7K66
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-----大年初一的早上-----500Please respect copyright.PENANASNKPotijsq
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我們的早餐,就是去飲茶。500Please respect copyright.PENANAILU4NzwnqJ
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「奶黃包!」侍應有禮地送上了其中一道點心,點心上的每個白臉小包,都印上了一個黃色的笑表情,我有點以為自己在吃Lihkg的頭像。500Please respect copyright.PENANADWpBWTKDKm
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Priscilla:你會搵男仔定女仔拍拖㗎?500Please respect copyright.PENANAOw6pVQSMAw
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這已經是不知第幾次,被人問上這種問題了。每當我被人這樣問的時候,我總是要思考一會才能回答。500Please respect copyright.PENANAMTcn0T9B8T
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我:搵女仔拍拖就梗㗎啦,但我唔知應唔應該叫自己做無性戀。500Please respect copyright.PENANAkzGS3FWHNj
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根據「無性戀」的定義,是指一個人對任何性別的人感受不到,又或者是只感受到很微弱的性吸引力。500Please respect copyright.PENANAdC5L8H33eG
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如果直接問我的性取向,就如發問這樣的數學題:0除以0等於多少?0?1?無限?無解?無意義?500Please respect copyright.PENANAorJ6uQk7Ya
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對我自己來說,最優先的性傾向就是戀物、其次才是跟女生進行性行為;而且我極少會主動去想像跟女生在床上活動的畫面。500Please respect copyright.PENANAh8wiPP373h
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都是那個比喻:我最喜歡吃魚,但不等於抗拒吃豬;平日如果要二選其一的話,我當然選擇吃魚;但如果有人主動請我吃豬的話,我還是會開放地接受吃豬。500Please respect copyright.PENANAVg2u4vXbsX
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只膚淺地說我是異性戀,不準確;雖然在浪漫的情感上,我也是追求一個女生談戀愛;但在性的層面上,我的最優先傾向是戀物,女生才是其次。500Please respect copyright.PENANA0ix4Ivajra
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說我是無性戀,也不準確;因為我也有戀物的傾向,會看黃色網頁,這已經是一種性生活。500Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5d82yHM9e
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我不敢直接向Priscilla說自己是戀物,怕她接受不了。500Please respect copyright.PENANATdS0K61hdq
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Priscilla:講真,憑我嘅雷達,我又真係感受唔到你身上嘅性吸引力。500Please respect copyright.PENANAN5bDGUjFet
Priscilla:我又唔覺得你係直,又唔覺得你係gay。500Please respect copyright.PENANAmhFYmcPRVH
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我:你第一次扑野係幾時?500Please respect copyright.PENANA9O2oxHfnnA
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Priscilla:8年前我喺英國同過一個男仔上床。500Please respect copyright.PENANA4d5tB9x25c
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接著,她說起自己的情史,我才了解到,她有過至少一次的上床經驗,我沒有再詳細過問她在英國時的那段經歷;但估計她和那個洋漢的關係,都是停留在FWB(friends with benefits)的關係。我有這樣的推測,是因為相信,很少人能夠接受異地戀。500Please respect copyright.PENANAfmONsVBbwn
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又以我和Yuli(Ch.19出現)的關係為例,換著是我或者是Yuli,對於在外地人物的感情處理,很多時候都是「玩過就算」的心態。如果有真正到外地留學或工作的人(又或者是趁著假期回流到香港玩)都知道,常見的例子就是,你到一個像蘭桂坊這樣的地方消遣,運氣好的話隨時能讓你遇到一個心儀的目標跟你上床;但,上床過後是否真的成為了大家常說的男女朋友?有多少人最終真的把「佢」(中文書面語的性別代詞只有「他」和「她」,太二元我不喜歡在此使用。)抱回你的家鄉?又或者「佢」令到你住在異鄉一起生活?500Please respect copyright.PENANApTBXLXIiLf
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Priscilla真正認真的關係,是在4年前。500Please respect copyright.PENANAJCwYyPF23T
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Priscilla:我上一任男朋友係4年前,嗰時係我家人介紹俾我嘅。500Please respect copyright.PENANAe715qWAUNh
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我:咁拍咗幾耐?500Please respect copyright.PENANAMaGUaxeU5t
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Priscilla:都9個月,之後就係因為佢對我用冷暴力,所以分手。500Please respect copyright.PENANAxuMKrs3qfT
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當她剛才說到「我又真係感受唔到你身上嘅性吸引力」的時候,我在想:是否她對我沒有feel?500Please respect copyright.PENANATA9YIxNwsP
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可是當我聽完她的基本情史之後,她那兩段的關係相隔的時間,4年,也有點久,不禁讓我想到另一種可能:她也是不容易投入情感的人嗎?以她的條件,也經常接觸不同的人,要遇上幾百個男生絕對不是問題,要找上一個條件比我好的人,都不是問題,為甚還需要家人的介紹?而且到現在還是沒有男朋友?即使很多香港男生不喜歡大陸人,但如果要為拍拖而拍拖的話,最終也是會找上她呀。真讓人有點摸不透。500Please respect copyright.PENANAZoGgcdFOSV
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Priscilla:你係咪有好多女性朋友㗎?500Please respect copyright.PENANAYWoaF1g2Qp
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我:我冇乜女仔friend㗎。500Please respect copyright.PENANAuAC2k4SWlV
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Priscilla:下?你咁都冇?偽娘唔係應該有好多女性朋友咩?500Please respect copyright.PENANA5OpDv3U1DE
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我:幼稚園至到小學初期嗰時會,但而家冇曬呢種緣份lu。500Please respect copyright.PENANAysbe68tDdx
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我:講起上次拍拖,都已經係8年前,嗰個女仔係喺Facebook識。500Please respect copyright.PENANA2PnhFlcSII
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說著,我又說起自己的情史。500Please respect copyright.PENANABJpjwk3sG7
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8年前的那段關係,又是從網上開始,印象之中是談了兩個星期左右就出門相見。500Please respect copyright.PENANAvj0et39Bft
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我:嗰個女仔,又幾主動,我從未試過做主動嗰個,去拖人隻手,係佢拖我手先。500Please respect copyright.PENANAe9FHnJhWa2
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我:然後就係,「拖」「攬」「錫」做齊,只差攪野。500Please respect copyright.PENANA1vFPgGl365
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簡單而言,大家的關係就在stage 3(錫)止步。500Please respect copyright.PENANAmToWOtE8G8
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雖然很多無性戀者對性行為(所謂的Stage 4和5)沒有興趣,但是很多都還是喜歡被牽手(拖)、擁抱(攬)、親吻(錫),享受純愛的感覺。 500Please respect copyright.PENANAPGDRIR4Ap2
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就連我自己的愛情觀裡,也是相信只有「純愛」,只進行 「拖」「攬」「錫」就夠,再上兩級就不了。500Please respect copyright.PENANAzLNffavrCb
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這也是我一直以來仍是「處」的主因。500Please respect copyright.PENANAcm4LWQGYA9
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我:最後拍左一個月就散。500Please respect copyright.PENANAujgSExbaKM
我:就係因為頂唔順佢太過霸道,脾氣又差,所以先分手。500Please respect copyright.PENANA0kLYJs8Sb3
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那個時候的我,「偽娘」這個靈魂仍然是深深地封印在自己的心裡,連我自己也幾乎沒有察覺,我可是完全以社會講的男性型象來生活。500Please respect copyright.PENANAKSNYmDHVZt
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老實說,即使是現在,我也很討厭女生霸道,這樣我駕馭不了。500Please respect copyright.PENANA1gxNh0DSpx
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Priscilla:我聽講港女係咁㗎。500Please respect copyright.PENANAgdkMOXiHll
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我:係,但你又唔好以偏概全,都唔係一定嘅。500Please respect copyright.PENANAHPsFxzO9pb
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這頓早茶,以AA制完。500Please respect copyright.PENANA1x6KkMTuKJ
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我送著Priscilla回家,在路上,「肢體接觸」這四個字像一個鋼造的框架,牢牢地鎖在自己的腦海裡,又是那做為做而做的接觸。500Please respect copyright.PENANAB1CrBd4aYv
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在過馬路時,我眼睛又是瞄著她的手臀,想了一想,好不容易才敢伸手撓下去。500Please respect copyright.PENANAdZvC9mm2La
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我:下次再玩啦!500Please respect copyright.PENANATeZQlXh06q
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Priscilla:來一個抱抱吧!500Please respect copyright.PENANAWe0gXH3FTd
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在Priscilla家的大廳裡,我和她來了一個擁抱道別。500Please respect copyright.PENANAFvKdL20nLB
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這個擁抱,只能算是一般社交式的擁抱;因為我很清楚地感受到,她只是來了一秒,然後就抽身離開,彷彿不再讓我擁抱多幾秒。500Please respect copyright.PENANAfRcbv2VRKi
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