Priscilla：你嚟唔嚟我屋企睇Netflix？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpM3XKzYh0
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0E4iFZphwl
慶祝過後，我就決定到Priscilla家暫過一晚。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsK79xO5xG
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTFbn0uS80
我：你屋企人會俾我嚟咩？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezOOJtlizG
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd35rbSTQVc
Priscilla：我屋企人都喺上面，喺香港我冇親人。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaps8FO2Fr
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUev0jou3G
了解過後，才知原來她當初是為了工作，才來香港申請永久居民。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZEl3KVsL2
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最後，我們在麥當勞點了一份二人套餐，就這樣上去Priscilla所租住的地方。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2LYNt7gsR
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPe2IfVvVy
Priscilla所住的房子是一人房，空間和面積如我大學宿舍的二人房，她的房間也蠻整齊的，有陳列架放著她的書、化妝品，床邊也放著一些玩偶，她還懂得用精緻的白色系和綠色系的蕾絲窗簾布，來裝飾自己的房間。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRtlRMK1TU
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5ncVywLgP
Priscilla：你有帶褲來換嗎？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPbPSW056F
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我：當然沒有啊。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqVM3HWD9s
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTrq1TTAZk
Priscilla：我這裡有一條大碼的睡褲，應該很適合你穿。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0svu5S2D6L
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUmnZzGO6e
我脫下外套，和換上她給的女裝睡褲，便爬上床上和她一起看Netflix上的劇集。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeRFZrPqDQ
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkAaaxkAyh
嚴格來說，這條睡褲算不上是女裝，而是一條很中性的睡褲。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2v58FT6oF
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybQAU6H7Gk
Priscilla：同你講，格離室友住嘅房仲大過我呢度一倍，但租就只係貴幾百。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGFxzrChYB
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4K9S7H7v3
我：你呢度係專租俾女仔住？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgB19AAiRN
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Priscilla：係呀。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iA6X1j22v
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LVeBV0cil
我：咁點解你又俾我上嚟嘅？你唔驚我做啲咩㗎咩？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpu54p7pgj4
（我對她微笑地問。）398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdxMq1F0c0
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJTNUdBjB8
Priscilla：就係因為你係偽娘所以先俾你上嚟。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbOJDkTXLD
Priscilla：我當你係女仔先俾你上嚟。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzpinQ3Xzj
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZzSWrXHNh
她說完，我不心想：難道我已經落入了Friendzone？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFL1nCTQr9n
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzcwCaqSmd
Priscilla：你想看甚麼？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMsVIZnFCi
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8iq0PGYTL
我：睇下有冇咩日劇先啦。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiiztn5aRA
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5k9Ksoanh
Priscilla在iPad上滑著，表示她正在使用朋友的帳號，於是她又問我要不要一起開個屬於自己的帳號。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SmKTX8zF0
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我：不如就開個account啦。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSimCPayBvB
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIG0k8hid6S
Priscilla：咁我哋就分返每個月嘅台費啦，我出住錢先。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxjaygzFBr
Priscilla：密碼你自己定啦。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCS68hwys6
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我：咁⋯⋯密碼就用我個名，同埋今日嘅日期啦！398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPDlTq3wbd
我：就叫「watergod20220201」啦。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvB3ZL3gLcv
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雖然現今科技發達，有Google會幫人記住自己在任何網站設下的帳戶和密碼；但我心裡還是希望Priscilla會記住我的名字，還有今天的日子。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTxq0NDirw
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vzYfN0PJ7
Priscilla：不如就睇呢套啦！398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtceyUq94X
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9A9jsDnDp
於是，她就點進了《勿說是推理》。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFVLJYm9Dv
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfAeL9hi9Z
Priscilla：你唔洗返屋企咩？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sfP7iesaX
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjxOWCNlnS
我：睇完先再算啦。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBiLTOxEPY
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHppa8wgUD
我們的身子都是橫向地躺在床上，身子是半坐半躺的，各自地蓋上毛氈；只有把腿子捲起來，才會勉強地把全身放在床上，我和她的距離，已經是肩碰肩。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15rO2ViNlP
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCO6XEYtHg
看了很久，她自自然然地睡著了，而我也借著自己疲累的身軀，打算順勢地睡在她身上；可是理性又告訴我，用這樣的「肢體接觸」來推進關係，太冒險了，結果我只是往攬枕裡睡著。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFDfk2M8xE
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkjXfmewfF
-----大年初一的早上-----398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMqgqhMKJy
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVbykXbDli
我們的早餐，就是去飲茶。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSgdgzAGXL
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8wRRx1UH2
「奶黃包！」侍應有禮地送上了其中一道點心，點心上的每個白臉小包，都印上了一個黃色的笑表情，我有點以為自己在吃Lihkg的頭像。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDuG8ubbo8
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoelK9Faowb
Priscilla：你會搵男仔定女仔拍拖㗎？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsDblrDDX6
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTneWVYk80
這已經是不知第幾次，被人問上這種問題了。每當我被人這樣問的時候，我總是要思考一會才能回答。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQreBLUN2ze
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RejYzTmDB
我：搵女仔拍拖就梗㗎啦，但我唔知應唔應該叫自己做無性戀。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfzm5OJ7gp
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvgPAbmHn7
根據「無性戀」的定義，是指一個人對任何性別的人感受不到，又或者是只感受到很微弱的性吸引力。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5nvN4BMTV
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01sBbmhcrc
如果直接問我的性取向，就如發問這樣的數學題：0除以0等於多少？0？1？無限？無解？無意義？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9f65oAITl5
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UoRAwacFE
對我自己來說，最優先的性傾向就是戀物、其次才是跟女生進行性行為；而且我極少會主動去想像跟女生在床上活動的畫面。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqMb6BZJc8
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9qMF4Hi0g
都是那個比喻：我最喜歡吃魚，但不等於抗拒吃豬；平日如果要二選其一的話，我當然選擇吃魚；但如果有人主動請我吃豬的話，我還是會開放地接受吃豬。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwW2CKiEkjf
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VxPGJg7g9
只膚淺地說我是異性戀，不準確；雖然在浪漫的情感上，我也是追求一個女生談戀愛；但在性的層面上，我的最優先傾向是戀物，女生才是其次。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphTwnZIQ40
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sDlkHFSQ3
說我是無性戀，也不準確；因為我也有戀物的傾向，會看黃色網頁，這已經是一種性生活。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7W7A4qsN9U
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTfSJKWM55
我不敢直接向Priscilla說自己是戀物，怕她接受不了。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBd9JKKFOq
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZAS6upcC4
Priscilla：講真，憑我嘅雷達，我又真係感受唔到你身上嘅性吸引力。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3xLQRrjSR
Priscilla：我又唔覺得你係直，又唔覺得你係gay。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUU1tbqRCT
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我：你第一次扑野係幾時？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYt2m3dT1Bg
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5RzqSqm7b
Priscilla：8年前我喺英國同過一個男仔上床。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbYCxEgfir
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3lCJVXRQA
接著，她說起自己的情史，我才了解到，她有過至少一次的上床經驗，我沒有再詳細過問她在英國時的那段經歷；但估計她和那個洋漢的關係，都是停留在FWB（friends with benefits）的關係。我有這樣的推測，是因為相信，很少人能夠接受異地戀。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCa8cMmjXq
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfVizBXzGr
又以我和Yuli（Ch.19出現）的關係為例，換著是我或者是Yuli，對於在外地人物的感情處理，很多時候都是「玩過就算」的心態。如果有真正到外地留學或工作的人（又或者是趁著假期回流到香港玩）都知道，常見的例子就是，你到一個像蘭桂坊這樣的地方消遣，運氣好的話隨時能讓你遇到一個心儀的目標跟你上床；但，上床過後是否真的成為了大家常說的男女朋友？有多少人最終真的把「佢」（中文書面語的性別代詞只有「他」和「她」，太二元我不喜歡在此使用。）抱回你的家鄉？又或者「佢」令到你住在異鄉一起生活？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zD1W0SUcp
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Priscilla真正認真的關係，是在4年前。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWe69dQOqB
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kJKC17G0O
Priscilla：我上一任男朋友係4年前，嗰時係我家人介紹俾我嘅。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYo9HfCqFAn
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我：咁拍咗幾耐？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6eU4nqIYI
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaZyGiCPwP
Priscilla：都9個月，之後就係因為佢對我用冷暴力，所以分手。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5OQ6QrnHQ
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當她剛才說到「我又真係感受唔到你身上嘅性吸引力」的時候，我在想：是否她對我沒有feel？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNuhnAa6ZZ
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEegTBA40pg
可是當我聽完她的基本情史之後，她那兩段的關係相隔的時間，4年，也有點久，不禁讓我想到另一種可能：她也是不容易投入情感的人嗎？以她的條件，也經常接觸不同的人，要遇上幾百個男生絕對不是問題，要找上一個條件比我好的人，都不是問題，為甚還需要家人的介紹？而且到現在還是沒有男朋友？即使很多香港男生不喜歡大陸人，但如果要為拍拖而拍拖的話，最終也是會找上她呀。真讓人有點摸不透。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeqMBNIoZc
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKEncXKZW4
Priscilla：你係咪有好多女性朋友㗎？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCd8qCPkqJ
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZ3SY6cl1Q
我：我冇乜女仔friend㗎。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRR2gvqPn1
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTjtgyenEm
Priscilla：下？你咁都冇？偽娘唔係應該有好多女性朋友咩？398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpxPyNeXsv
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiD1U1cILU
我：幼稚園至到小學初期嗰時會，但而家冇曬呢種緣份lu。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFHaSlSlgP
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWzTXyzID5
我：講起上次拍拖，都已經係8年前，嗰個女仔係喺Facebook識。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDy2OhtekC
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說著，我又說起自己的情史。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Hu4BZ7RBs
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJ3ol9N8OP
8年前的那段關係，又是從網上開始，印象之中是談了兩個星期左右就出門相見。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJaaq4XNi4
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nztyDb7YN
我：嗰個女仔，又幾主動，我從未試過做主動嗰個，去拖人隻手，係佢拖我手先。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXdINWMFjr
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3ndIUbAfq
我：然後就係，「拖」「攬」「錫」做齊，只差攪野。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1T69LgZra
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPhjPYVrQn
簡單而言，大家的關係就在stage 3（錫）止步。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjZVIey92m
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmnabuzWyl
雖然很多無性戀者對性行為（所謂的Stage 4和5）沒有興趣，但是很多都還是喜歡被牽手（拖）、擁抱（攬）、親吻（錫），享受純愛的感覺。 398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3Lt3epoF1
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gvr0IKmTa
就連我自己的愛情觀裡，也是相信只有「純愛」，只進行 「拖」「攬」「錫」就夠，再上兩級就不了。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4imRqgIwJ
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這也是我一直以來仍是「處」的主因。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsWG8cBePK
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfoxa6rCPw
我：最後拍左一個月就散。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0VX7b4gIH
我：就係因為頂唔順佢太過霸道，脾氣又差，所以先分手。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbG51RlMoJg
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXZtA08GhJ
那個時候的我，「偽娘」這個靈魂仍然是深深地封印在自己的心裡，連我自己也幾乎沒有察覺，我可是完全以社會講的男性型象來生活。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVYwfyksYL
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDWMMlpUZf
老實說，即使是現在，我也很討厭女生霸道，這樣我駕馭不了。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ564nBh6c41
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuxkQIzQ27
Priscilla：我聽講港女係咁㗎。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yzC9lvgAn
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBL2yvlxLpH
我：係，但你又唔好以偏概全，都唔係一定嘅。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLT4Sz3N1IF
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這頓早茶，以AA制完。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LmAJNMLjX
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44ksAHhF4N
我送著Priscilla回家，在路上，「肢體接觸」這四個字像一個鋼造的框架，牢牢地鎖在自己的腦海裡，又是那做為做而做的接觸。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2VOeUWCrd
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXbpJHbq2C
在過馬路時，我眼睛又是瞄著她的手臀，想了一想，好不容易才敢伸手撓下去。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOm4gwgQazD
398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckJlKYV6QJ
我：下次再玩啦！398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALWA5hgYgf
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Priscilla：來一個抱抱吧！398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtTfm7vqSj
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這個擁抱，只能算是一般社交式的擁抱；因為我很清楚地感受到，她只是來了一秒，然後就抽身離開，彷彿不再讓我擁抱多幾秒。398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJJE3CRkiY
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