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EP 5 懺悔的墮天使(表)
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「放心,我不會再努力了」
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打從一開始,阻止少女變得幸福的怪物,其實早已住了在這具身體內
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「反正,徒勞無功」
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是很容易的抉擇
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放棄,跟隨本性行動
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沒錯,全身上下的傷患是令自己意識混亂的因由,失去身體的控制本是應然,唯獨當腦海中浮現出「那個」想法的話,心臟的鼓動、塑膠握感,亦逐漸強烈
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那是無比熾熱的,同時什麼也不是
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虛無的感覺,侵喰著沒有意識,但又屬於自己心靈的地方
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「吶」
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吶
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不再有信念的靈魂,只是一囤漆黑的虛無
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那麼依奈子,您又想如何?難道您的心相中真的一點光也沒有嗎?
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幼稚不過,我在問什麼,不,這份天真的愚蠢是從那處冒出的?
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從那份希望若無其事的心態,不是嗎?
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因為此刻面對的,是最困難的問題:現實
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是同一個人,所以也深同感受:現實根本是接受不能,需靠理想化、妄想去補完,那麼還算是有希望嗎?
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「吶」
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不就一個謊言,何必著緊
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反正生和死也沒分別
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「謊言,不管說多少遍,也是假的,但人會相信之,人會去自我安慰,活在煉獄也沒關係」
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反正我無論做出什麼的選擇,也無法根治這全部的問題,私輩的存在、角色,其實也不是自己能選擇的
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抉擇權不在我手上
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「吶,所以説,難道您不討厭這個世界嗎?」
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奈穂子,是一個貪生怕死的存在嗎?
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不,作為一個守護者的角色,退縮不前,是一個違背本意的舉動
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可是面對一個自殘著的守護對象,我可以做什麼?
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若,背棄了自己,那私輩,還算自己嗎?
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我們總是去退縮,特別是明明關鍵的時刻,弱小的內心本性地求生著,然而沒有不朽是不需經試煉,只不過是幻像罷
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逃避,是能生存,唯獨您將無法繼續前進到何方
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尋找的,不該是藉口,而是曙光
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「明明您也是這樣地討厭著」
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「生存著,是份多麼悲慘的幸福」
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「死了,反而能真正不再感受一切煩惱」
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可是她只是裝作不知道、不明白
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「呼吸的每一口氣也是理不盡的殘酷,慘況既然」
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「反正在這個世上,活著的理由只是虛無的概念」
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「假的存在」
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「拯救世界,難道是真相嗎?」
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有一部分的她,希望從中得到解放,要追求自由,但更大部分的她,想要壓抑這股思念,結果,我作為她的「惡」出生,在少女眼中,我是沒有理由的災厄,但她心中,其實理解到私輩的如何
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純粹,她不敢承認
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她也寧願去接受一個更差的情況,也不願去克服
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她會裝作成熟,打算一笑置之
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她甚至會若無其事
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「才不是」
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私輩不允許這些事情而存在,私輩是實現「惡」而存
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可惜,她的自負,實在太過強大
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對,我恨這個世界,因為我恨這個大型的監獄,人間煉獄,私輩甚至不介意去殺死阻我者
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「也不會是⋯」
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「也不用去費這個精精去瞭解⋯⋯反正⋯⋯」
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卻,少女的怨,是更無理的,她想毀滅一切,包括自己
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在絕望之中,人的希望,淪落到單純的結束
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「反正⋯⋯」
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「⋯」
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「⋯⋯我也不知道」
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而我想令她明白
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她明白
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我想令她信奉之
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我想
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我希望少女,我希望依奈子能夠不再在真夜中因為孤獨而落淚,我希望依奈子可以對著晴天微笑,我希望依奈子懂得對於不幸發脾氣,對於確幸驚訝,對於悲劇的發生哭泣,而非純粹痛心卻沉聲不吭一語
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我希望依奈子拿起方糖,放進那杯濃烈十分的咖啡,一邊攪拌,一邊對同事嘮話昨天的麻煩,指點其懶惰,稍微像個孩子般生氣,但小孩才不會責任、信用、尊重的重要性,這樣擺出架子的同時,腦海中正思考著今晚的晚飯,紅酒是要配那種汽水,還是直接要杯汽酒
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我希望她能幸福,情感的表達是下意識,放低這份沉重
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我希望依奈子能夠抬起頭,欣賞冬天的雪空,感受著冷風吹到頸脊的寒刺,依奈子她會是像小孩子一樣,傻傻地笑出聲來,抓緊圍巾,回頭跑進屋內,帶嬉意告訴她的朋友:「外面還真是凍呢」
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我希望她能幸福,傻傻呆呆也沒關係,放下世界和內心的隔膜,打從內心行事,追從快樂
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我希望依奈子能在碼頭旁邊閉上雙眼,只憑觸感,相信自己的指頭,在吉他上彈奏出一首冷門的歌曲,在彈錯音時輕笑混過;在小說的原稿中,寫下每一句不有修飾的想法,粗糙點也沒關係,只要這份想法,能確實傳出去
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我希望她能幸福,害怕不安也肯嘗試,放下這份否定和疑惑,相信自己是自由的,跟隨夢想努力,不用再去自我欺騙
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我希望依奈子幸福,話說上的簡單,但不去忍耐、自欺、逃避,在一瞬間做到,很困難,不是嗎?我也知道
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依奈子無法在如此的前提下做到
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她沒有家庭的守護,她見證不到父母的威嚴,她在父母身上尋找不到肯定和接納,她在她最信任的唯一的倒影,尋找承諾的基本,無果
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她沒有朋友,在那段無人知津的故事中,因為她的背景、父母孩兒身份,被孤立,在世界上,從小到大,沒有一個真正的歸宿處,大家也只是喜歡外表裝飾得完美的靈魂
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更何況,她沒有存在的理由,作為宿主,作為孤兒,作為一個精神失常的孩子,自己也討厭自己的依奈子,接受這一切,屈服於現實
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我才不希望依奈子投入這個無盡長夜
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我不想她絕望
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那怕我的身體也帶著同一道傷痕
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但至少我希望依奈子她去克服這一切,至少在心態上稍微轉變
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至少
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成為我
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做到不屈服、不放棄,即使⋯
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⋯⋯
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我也不知道⋯!
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根本,她我之別,只是信奉的不一
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互相認為對方自欺欺人,但回顧自身,同是病人
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將病態作為常態,是多麼的令人失望
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可是
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私輩啊⋯其實認為⋯⋯
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「⋯」
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「很可怕吧?」
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少女,私輩,也沒有這個能力
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沒有扭轉實情,去讓真相貫徹世界的力量,始終我們所嚮往的幸福,只是一昧無解的堅信
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很可怕呢,執念
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誰也不想放棄
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「我這副模樣⋯⋯呵⋯哈哈⋯⋯」
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誰也十分痛苦
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依奈子的鞋子是黑色的,鞋底一圍則是白色,站立在鮮紅的地板上,緊身的運動褲和長䄂的便服,只是一套黑色,這片極彩中的暗淡唯一,但對比下,那黑髮是更鮮豔的
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衣服只是一個襯配,少女才是真正的夜黑,在憤怒中純粹的絕望,虛無,又不全是,始終那對雙眼,載著藍天
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「無根無果的恨,很可憐吧?」
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「沒有憐憫的悲劇人物,這份怒氣很恐怖呢」
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「吶⋯苟且偷生的意志,很驚嚇喲⋯」
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「⋯生命的特別⋯很可怕呢⋯⋯」