No Plagiarism!Jue1y0MMR1IJvhzkUxbuposted on PENANA 小學對我來說,是段難熬的日子,別人都在享受青春,我卻在體驗痛苦。8964 copyright protection33PENANAyKoZrMiSfV 維尼
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我自幼被診斷出患有「先天性視覺錯亂」。醫生給出的解釋,是我的視神經比一般人多出近乎兩倍,吸收入腦袋的信息量過於繁複,超越可承受的範圍。8964 copyright protection33PENANAyPnxV6nQoX 維尼
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腦袋下意識地啟動避險機制,嘗試從根源解決問題,便是嘗試停止視神經運作,而在這個過程裏,會導致我的視覺造成錯亂,因此看東西會有傾斜的問題。8964 copyright protection33PENANAJ6ac1i76iw 維尼
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現在回想起,還真是挺可笑的。你說這個甚麼「先天性視覺錯亂」,會唔會只不過是醫生因為絞盡腦汁也找不到我的病因是甚麼,可為了保持醫生高尚權威的形象,以及繼續賺取豐厚的利潤,繼而編出一個冠冕堂皇的理由來打發我。對吧,認真想想的話,這真的有可能吧。8964 copyright protection33PENANAGAZxnTvpDY 維尼
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或許,他也只不過是另一個打從心底裏覺得我有精神病的正常人吧。8964 copyright protection33PENANA140LUCQGOS 維尼
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由此推論,連醫生這種在社會上頗有權威的人士亦不屑我,普通人更是連面具也懶得戴了。8964 copyright protection33PENANAjHAar9Z4yp 維尼
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小學時,為了調整視覺的傾斜,我常常歪著頭看東西,同學們留意到後,便替我起了一個花名,「少年霍金」。8964 copyright protection33PENANAYoK4JsPBRU 維尼
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他們覺得很好笑,很地獄。8964 copyright protection33PENANAkpB9CP76pU 維尼
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我作為當時人,卻是不知因此誕生了多少對人生的恐懼,甚至是對生存的質疑。8964 copyright protection33PENANAbWh3lqRIoh 維尼
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班上同學對我各有「處理手法」,不作理會的已經是最佳,其次是排擠,再來是嘲笑,最差是欺凌。不說不懂事的小孩子,那麼成年人呢?結果更是諷刺。家長們的怪異目光,再三叮囑自家小孩不要靠近我。老師們訓斥我不要再做小丑,不然就要全堂罰站在走廊外。甚至連家裏唯一的親人,那個痴痴呆呆的老頭亦是常在低吟:「怪物...」。8964 copyright protection33PENANAU0izR0rLcL 維尼
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他們根本不懂,這個病的痛苦。8964 copyright protection33PENANAsviSyy7vFe 維尼
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運動是不可能的,因為傾斜的視角導致我的平衡感奇差。8964 copyright protection33PENANAfNdRwlqqth 維尼
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社交是不可能的。因為在別人眼中我是一隻怪物。8964 copyright protection33PENANA72vhXHZSGa 維尼
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快樂是不可能的,因為我已經忘記了笑容是如何勾起。8964 copyright protection33PENANAd1jEPdHaOZ 維尼
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所以你說,我還能對這個世界抱有甚麼期待與幻想呢。8964 copyright protection33PENANAFjisldLuYF 維尼
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在我經歷人生最低潮,滿腦子想著該如何終結掉自己的生命時。8964 copyright protection33PENANAYzqZ3m7PDY 維尼
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我遇到了小說。8964 copyright protection33PENANAJguxUkmEy9 維尼
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看著小說內一個又一個天花亂墜的世界,我找到了寄託。8964 copyright protection33PENANAemjMLMVt8a 維尼
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一個小說,便是一個嶄新的世界。8964 copyright protection33PENANA0TNiCyIsN1 維尼
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與現實沒有過多的交雜,在某程度上讓我暫時擺脫現實的殘酷。8964 copyright protection33PENANA30xeCBXPs1 維尼
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亦是從那時開始,我有了寫日記的習慣。8964 copyright protection33PENANADqhkX0MRQ2 維尼
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把每天不愉快的事寫下,然後將其封印在紙與墨之下,這樣我便能全心全意投入別人世界裏的麗靡。8964 copyright protection33PENANAKUC97Jlp9X 維尼
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一切直至我升上中學,決定轉到遙遠的另一區上學,我即使要強忍傾斜帶來的昏厥,也希望假裝成一個「正常人」,融入社會生活,這才結束我的痛苦。8964 copyright protection33PENANA93BWLuefQA 維尼
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Wilson、Kenny同Amy同我慶祝,去咗一間Party Room唱K打牌食蛋糕,飲飽食醉之後就各自返屋企。8964 copyright protection33PENANAGIF57TlD0N 維尼
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行到屋企樓下,有個男人挨住喺鐵閘隔離,我冇在意啦。經過佢嘅時候我望咗佢一眼,先發現原來佢一直笑笑口噉望住我。我心諗咩料,雖然幾靚仔,但係唔知會唔會係痴線佬或者基佬,緊係唔理佢啦,急急腳行快兩步上樓。8964 copyright protection33PENANAePSjYEvbYY 維尼
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點知我臨入鐵閘之前,佢講咗句:「你對眼最近係咪嚴重咗。」8964 copyright protection33PENANAQvEySoDZRq 維尼
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點解......點解呢個男人會知道有關我隻眼嘅事?小學同學?點解佢會知道......我最近睇嘢的確比以前傾斜咗好多?......8964 copyright protection33PENANA4hF4k3dRyv 維尼
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之後......佢就突然消失咗......8964 copyright protection33PENANAe6ZJ6Fpst8 維尼
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直到而家,我都仲未搞清楚發生咩事。8964 copyright protection33PENANAk9aVgRPmQg 維尼
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