<忽然一陣敲門聲 – 我不知道門外將要進來的是誰> by 艾加。凱磊
(用博客來電子書)(原文寫於 2018冬)
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分屍挫骨150Please respect copyright.PENANA7JeerA7Czo
還丟到海裡被鯨魚吃的概念...150Please respect copyright.PENANAbCyNIV5RDp
沮喪到一邊吃水餃一邊想哭150Please respect copyright.PENANA5zK3ezR2bs
但吃完收到日本來的回鍋肉真空包跟海鮮煎餅150Please respect copyright.PENANABExiBcfLNS
突然覺得有一點點回溫的暖意(很容易滿足跟感恩)150Please respect copyright.PENANAwjMMPLKaWK
回家啥事都不想做150Please respect copyright.PENANAFDgwo7zEke
只好寫心得150Please respect copyright.PENANAiNBQezdaCb
自己辦的讀書會第一次讀書心得(自己挖的坑自己填)150Please respect copyright.PENANABQAXBr9QFl
期限快到了 一直沒空寫150Please respect copyright.PENANA05b06qOGtK
拜meeting ko之賜 二十分鐘就寫完了150Please respect copyright.PENANAmLtMN0TlkD
就像<忽然一陣敲門聲>裡說的150Please respect copyright.PENANAd5ioibIJFj
「會痛?那就別下床。還是痛?等著:如果不死,總會過去。」P137.150Please respect copyright.PENANATppkv6xiO5
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好的,痛完了,明天再戰!150Please respect copyright.PENANAQZzpT3Bdex
<忽然一陣敲門聲 – 我不知道門外將要近來的是誰> by 艾加。凱磊150Please respect copyright.PENANAQpZRSmFNNY
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這真是我寫過最難寫的心得150Please respect copyright.PENANAyI2Tlv5FX1
但不是因為故事不好看150Please respect copyright.PENANAn4IphcNvNL
相反的正是因為它的故事都很短暫150Please respect copyright.PENANARRRq0G5LxO
卻又每一篇都讓人意猶未盡 充滿寓意150Please respect copyright.PENANASQdDX4BKbF
讓人不停思考150Please respect copyright.PENANANwlyw0HDr8
在故事結束之後150Please respect copyright.PENANASVXMNAXqRf
那些人以及人生將如何繼續下去。150Please respect copyright.PENANASsSS8MZsQV
以及某個人沒說的某句話150Please respect copyright.PENANAzvO6vh1ep2
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或是多做的某個動作是代表什麼意思150Please respect copyright.PENANA6wAZQBGkCa
正是這種必須讀者自我思考的部分150Please respect copyright.PENANAw0hkHlH6gD
沒有正確答案的問題充滿著整本書150Please respect copyright.PENANADarw3pCLNt
所以才難寫出它的精彩在哪150Please respect copyright.PENANAXE3fkgb3UU
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整本書的故事都很短150Please respect copyright.PENANA57DLI7jsu5
短到第一個故事讀完150Please respect copyright.PENANAjf6F5YhEzU
結束時我以為缺頁了…150Please respect copyright.PENANAvwLtv5aWUh
又翻回去讀一遍150Please respect copyright.PENANAAUbX9UQd4l
我相信讀凱磊的書有人會說充滿著藍窗簾150Please respect copyright.PENANAa82jFVuGql
或是充滿著讀者的腦補150Please respect copyright.PENANAR0VjyKVYcB
但這味挺合我的150Please respect copyright.PENANANppZ1ckQYz
我就是喜歡自己想像那些故事未盡之處150Please respect copyright.PENANAEa9J5iRI37
還有那種當時沒有講明白150Please respect copyright.PENANAQqyiriKZYE
一陣子或多年之後某一刻因為某件事或某個人150Please respect copyright.PENANAWB6uqyslsX
你突然領悟那時檯面下所沒有直訴的善意或惡意150Please respect copyright.PENANATZsyAHpwMZ
我喜歡那種了悟當下的心裡的雞皮疙瘩150Please respect copyright.PENANATPllo0Xc3Z
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第一個故事似乎寫出了作者自己踏上寫作之路的原因150Please respect copyright.PENANAKy1w48zE7v
故事中一位作家被三個人上門恐嚇150Please respect copyright.PENANArJ0HXLj4Op
要他寫出一個故事來150Please respect copyright.PENANArewSAOYgau
故事總在 「突然一陣敲門聲」出現時150Please respect copyright.PENANA39AoPEfvkH
(故事中)真實的世界就會出現一個敲門的人150Please respect copyright.PENANA2Kxv2H1SlM
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每個人都需要故事150Please respect copyright.PENANAD7jaOFW2bz
因為所有人都需要有個出口150Please respect copyright.PENANAsn9jQiw9W4
作者經歷兵役 更在服役時親眼看見摯友自殺的慘狀150Please respect copyright.PENANAhdFCI0BJ8Q
他訴說當下回到房間150Please respect copyright.PENANAbA0a5Fgbh1
他只能一直寫 胡亂地寫150Please respect copyright.PENANAzNHZsI563X
否則他將失去理智150Please respect copyright.PENANAzSsS1W7KBT
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每一個故事都是我們心中對外界的反應150Please respect copyright.PENANAyh5cHCW8jJ
猶如書中說的「無中生有是憑空捏造,沒有價值,誰都能做;有中生有卻表示東西一直都在那裡,在你裡面,你只是發掘出它的新面貌而已。」P16.150Please respect copyright.PENANAJIPJFu6FEV
故事帶給我們逃離現實的機會150Please respect copyright.PENANACSwwBy983f
更是我們鏡射反省自己的“有中生有”的方式150Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0OX0eM3i9
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猶如銀翼殺手中說「每一個人曾經有過的每一個想法都是真的…」p304150Please respect copyright.PENANAyb0y05mZiT
包括故事150Please respect copyright.PENANAk5cfUHTMMp
包括我們所說的每一句話150Please respect copyright.PENANAFsYvaEjPam
每一個謊言150Please respect copyright.PENANAoDnmq6S4lY
我想到書中第二個故事「謊言之地」150Please respect copyright.PENANAOgB1cKIpoA
我特別有印象 也特別喜歡150Please respect copyright.PENANAkVqRqMuiCj
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它訴說一位男孩在人生第一次媽媽給錢要他去買東西時150Please respect copyright.PENANAKSwaFdLdv3
他把錢拿去買了冰淇淋150Please respect copyright.PENANAd5hfAn575s
並把找零的錢藏在家後院的大石頭下150Please respect copyright.PENANABA1FMEnw2y
回到家他跟母親說150Please respect copyright.PENANAKTz1tQt07b
錢被一個紅髮的巨大的缺了門牙的男孩搶了150Please respect copyright.PENANAIVa8DrdE0U
母親信了150Please respect copyright.PENANA9at2BXAj05
也開啟了他一生謊言的開始150Please respect copyright.PENANAQia99dwqbA
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為了逃兵請假說遠方來的阿姨得了癌症150Please respect copyright.PENANAIEaoXCDFYB
上班遲到他虛構出了一隻車禍被撞斷後腿的狗150Please respect copyright.PENANAeXQoOLdF5v
日復一日150Please respect copyright.PENANA5kJljaprVK
直到有一天他夢見過世多年的母親150Please respect copyright.PENANARbPU74pBhA
在夢中要求他給她一顆在扭蛋糖果機裡的糖果150Please respect copyright.PENANAndFYkn16kR
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他說他沒零錢150Please respect copyright.PENANAe0eyvsdnaq
母親說 說不定零錢還在後院的石頭下150Please respect copyright.PENANAHlnoRaOkTj
他醒來後 因為夢裡過於真實150Please respect copyright.PENANAx44FzLm4c7
於是他半夜的開車到以前的家去(已經成了超商)150Please respect copyright.PENANALhWMS0Qalt
到後院找到石頭150Please respect copyright.PENANAKwO9dqEjwo
搬開卻沒有錢150Please respect copyright.PENANAKEJTkvXpPK
只有一個洞150Please respect copyright.PENANAmxKtDE2g68
他伸手進去摸到了扭蛋的鈕150Please respect copyright.PENANAAOYwaAQwUt
一轉 眨眼間就來到的另一個房間150Please respect copyright.PENANA6SM6A1nU2W
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而他還未反應過來150Please respect copyright.PENANAXTAPxNxC8d
就有個人重重地踢了他一腳150Please respect copyright.PENANApjdignWUfr
他一抬頭 是一個紅髮的高大的男孩150Please respect copyright.PENANAaYGla75vWX
他問「你是誰」150Please respect copyright.PENANAXdHMmUOc7x
男孩露出缺了門牙的笑容說150Please respect copyright.PENANAZdAhm1uzYt
「我是你第一個謊」150Please respect copyright.PENANA18LJcrWJ6t
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他走出醒來時的小房間150Please respect copyright.PENANAbfz9unvagv
路上遇見許多人150Please respect copyright.PENANAx6KeeZzgJP
有的是他的謊言 有的不是150Please respect copyright.PENANAoQgfJ4z2DC
但大部分的生物都過的不太好150Please respect copyright.PENANAfp5PHFv2a6
包括那隻為了他上班遲到而只能拖著兩條後腿走著的狗150Please respect copyright.PENANAkKEBdV5UXk
(牠看見他依然開心的舔著他)150Please respect copyright.PENANA4iMSxvt4y4
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後來回到真實世界後150Please respect copyright.PENANAdGaB5gE8Hk
男主就漸漸少講謊話150Please respect copyright.PENANAyPnVW8LWW3
即便要說 也盡量是說好話150Please respect copyright.PENANAQVAIzch26j
但「正面的謊話只有一個問題,就是比較難編,要編得可信並不容易。一般來說,如果你跟人家講的是件壞事,人家立刻就會相信,因為感覺上很平常;如果你講好事,人家反而會起疑。所以,漸漸地,羅比就不太說謊了,主要是懶得說。」P23.150Please respect copyright.PENANA0xzO3ssGRc
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故事還有後續150Please respect copyright.PENANAsBSamEU19X
但不重要了150Please respect copyright.PENANAwzHOW0998V
作者塑造出一個即便是謊言中存在的人150Please respect copyright.PENANASPeiqMwL33
也會有自己的世界跟生命150Please respect copyright.PENANAAVrZ0HQMaV
我們每一個念頭都是真實的 不論善惡150Please respect copyright.PENANAEnY54IcvPr
(大概是佛家說的 一念三千)150Please respect copyright.PENANAa2SLHCwQ1M
而在我們可見 不可見的人生折疊處150Please respect copyright.PENANAnsyLVeayS9
總也有人為我們說的謊言而付出代價150Please respect copyright.PENANAooNsP2zI2Q
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「痔瘡」這個故事的文筆可以排上我其中最愛的故事前三150Please respect copyright.PENANAXp7Dc4saK7
實在把人生的齷齪跟無厘頭表現的太好了150Please respect copyright.PENANAQYjjOqmcMc
故事中從一個人跟他的痔瘡的角度描寫人生的“掙扎”150Please respect copyright.PENANA9SpCEyGR2s
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「活著就是受罪,活著就是冒汗,活著就是一種你他媽忘不掉的痛。因此,別人做重大決定時候會傾聽自己的良心,他傾聽的對象是痔瘡。而那個痔瘡,跟其他痔瘡一樣,會給那人一些屎意見。」P104.150Please respect copyright.PENANAXX16HjTZjS
(讚嘆譯者,屎意見翻的太好了)150Please respect copyright.PENANAwnvDM4btOG
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「活著就是要盼望,活著就是要發燙,活著就是要把事情搞砸然後等著翻身。痔瘡會聽那人的話。就像別人聽肚子咕咕叫就吃東西一樣,痔瘡對那人也相當順服。多虧那人,痔瘡努力去相信自己能活也能讓人活,能學會原諒,能忍住不去鄙視人家,就算口出惡言也不會提及人家的母親。」P104.150Please respect copyright.PENANAe1UtBWSNHk
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最後一個故事結束在「你是哪種動物?」150Please respect copyright.PENANAC4nBHOU31w
再度收尾在故事可以讓殘酷的現實生活150Please respect copyright.PENANAXebBavD6kt
得到一點紓解150Please respect copyright.PENANAN6mRCftN21
一點即便是表象的美好對快要崩裂的人來說150Please respect copyright.PENANApMPL4DQp7t
也足夠暫時可以把齷齪的現實擋在外面150Please respect copyright.PENANAmTJIqFQbch
撐過多一秒 多一瞬間150Please respect copyright.PENANAksU0hAGKPL
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其他的故事也都很棒150Please respect copyright.PENANAR67gauKMcb
「健康的開始」跟「你會向金魚許什麼願?」150Please respect copyright.PENANAMhnjkk3JUL
都表現出了人的寂寞150Please respect copyright.PENANAfeql6QAG25
有時我們都很想成為別人150Please respect copyright.PENANAOIWEhzDRK5
成為那個生活中可以被一個人愛或恨或花時間一起吃頓飯的人150Please respect copyright.PENANAi8wpSKqAi7
而不是自己這個孤單無助的生命
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「瘋狂膠」 這故事詭異到太討喜了 我喜歡150Please respect copyright.PENANAQeK3gVR6l0
「拉開拉鍊」說的是我們都有另一個自己150Please respect copyright.PENANABKB5pdWXQs
「越界」這故事結尾耐人尋味150Please respect copyright.PENANAXXJL1ZuH8b
到底是他死後變柔軟了 還是成了他殺的那些被他唾棄的人150Please respect copyright.PENANAVAMFh0QOQs
那才是一個殺手真正的地獄150Please respect copyright.PENANAZq353qhLe9
也都是很吸引人的故事150Please respect copyright.PENANA4nYsjg61xb
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當然也有幾個故事很“深”150Please respect copyright.PENANAkPJurYv8LC
還需細細思考150Please respect copyright.PENANApeGRgJReA1
例如「神秘感」、「這個故事大獲全勝」跟「只要$99.99含稅含郵」150Please respect copyright.PENANA990Xqdurhi
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總之這是本故事短短的150Please respect copyright.PENANALhBVLjoPfU
但思考跟餘韻卻長長的書150Please respect copyright.PENANAHOjIiUzPjW
作者對人生中閃現的那些人物150Please respect copyright.PENANADeA5GdjOuO
以及他們背後可能的故事的描寫很細膩跟精巧150Please respect copyright.PENANAYmckpyWgb0
可推150Please respect copyright.PENANABZD8udnE91
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註:作者的故事將要被拍成電影,紀錄片的短短預告150Please respect copyright.PENANANpJC2z7sNW
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mw3tRGit5I&feature=youtu.be150Please respect copyright.PENANARg8hkKqt0X
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p11. 他在十八歲時服了三年兵役,親眼目睹摯友自殺,腦海中只留下好友額頭被子彈貫穿,整個人被釘在樹上的震撼畫面。他剛結束十二小時的執勤,接下來四十八小時都得在房內獨處,他說當時自己只能在紙上不斷地胡亂寫,投身於另一個世界,才能免強找回繼續活下去的動力150Please respect copyright.PENANAzOAU1XBMaY
p11. 「逃離現實」是他開始寫作的契機,也是我們需要這些故事的根本原因150Please respect copyright.PENANAqvqrsmNuqL
P11. 再搜亂語戰爭頻發的以色列居住,人們經常會感到不安與緊張。我們於外在築起高牆,為了維護高牆內的信念而戰鬥,但內在被壓抑或忽視的感情卻嚴重阻塞。我認為我的小說正是一道排水口,讓人們得已排遣這樣的情緒。150Please respect copyright.PENANAcSBBYTNAlr
P16. 無中生有是憑空捏造,沒有價值,誰都能做;有中生有卻表示東西一直都在那裡,在你裡面,你只是發掘出它的新面貌而已。150Please respect copyright.PENANAxorAtvLOlt
P23. 正面的謊話只有一個問題,就是比較難編,要編得可信並不容易。一般來說,如果你跟人家講的是件壞事,人家立刻就會相信,因為感覺上很平常;如果你講好事,人家反而會起疑。所以,漸漸地,羅比就不太說謊了,主要是懶得說。150Please respect copyright.PENANAqiEBJfzEGP
P72. 有些人從三樓掉到屋外,除了背後瘀青,沒有大礙;有些人下樓梯一個不小心,就進了醫院,上了石膏。大衛和她想必都屬於後者。150Please respect copyright.PENANAkgzcs5r6eR
P72. 我鼓鼓滿滿的口袋裡放的就是這個:微乎其微的機會,能夠說「有」而不避遺憾的機會150Please respect copyright.PENANAOGRh6Q03MT
P87. 他想,癌症是什麼,不就是來自天上的恐怖攻擊?神做這是不就是要恐嚇我們,對我們所做的…某些事表達抗議嗎?那些事太過崇高,150Please respect copyright.PENANAdGAwFJxg0I
超出了人類的知識範圍,我們無法理解。150Please respect copyright.PENANAKo2z6zcLNG
P87.多年來,生活似乎不過是個陷阱,是個迷宮,不,連迷宮都算不上,只是一塊圍在牆裡的空間,沒有門。他一直想,堅持要想出點什麼來,總有什麼事我希望會發生的吧,就算不可能辦到也沒有關係……他逼自己站起來,心想:「要是那天她們去上班,要是我開車送她,現在她就會活得好好的,和我一起坐在廚房裡了。」150Please respect copyright.PENANASWsUzFaMYY
P93. 若是他遇上會說畫的金魚,那麼別無所求,只求能把魚放進大玻璃缸,永遠擺在架子上,成天和牠說話。要講什麼都可以,可以聊運動,也可以聊政治,金魚愛聊什麼他們就聊什麼。聊什麼都行,那俄國人說,只要別讓我孤單一個人就好。150Please respect copyright.PENANA22cy4cVftz
P104. 活著就是受罪,活著就是冒汗,活著就是一種你他媽忘不掉的痛。因此,別人做重大決定時候會傾聽自己的良心,他傾聽的對象是痔瘡。而那個痔瘡,跟其他痔瘡一樣,會給那人一些屎意見。150Please respect copyright.PENANATXX4lvZjoB
P104. 活著就是要盼望,活著就是要發燙,活著就是要把事情搞砸然後等著翻身。痔瘡會聽那人的話。就像別人聽肚子咕咕叫就吃東西一樣,痔瘡對那人也相當順服。多虧那人,痔瘡努力去相信自己能活也能讓人活,能學會原諒,能忍住不去鄙視人家,就算口出惡言也不會提及人家的母親。150Please respect copyright.PENANAQqyxLtusdu
P137. 會痛?那就別下床。還是痛?等著:如果不死,通總會過去150Please respect copyright.PENANATQpgWdmprE
P143. 我兒子問那個德國人:「妳是哪種動物?」我幫他把問題翻成英語。「我不是動物。」她一邊笑,一邊用長長的指甲梳頭髮,「我是怪物,來自海的另一邊,專吃你這種漂亮小孩。」「她說她是會唱歌的鳥,」我把她的話翻譯給兒子聽,態度自然,無懈可擊,「她說她是隻紅色羽毛會唱歌的鳥,是從很遠很遠的地方飛來的。」
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