<忽然一陣敲門聲 – 我不知道門外將要進來的是誰> by 艾加。凱磊
(用博客來電子書)(原文寫於 2018冬)
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今天meeting整個被打趴在地156Please respect copyright.PENANAGM0KEx2hua
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分屍挫骨156Please respect copyright.PENANAPlRCl43Ce7
還丟到海裡被鯨魚吃的概念...156Please respect copyright.PENANA7pp3pSbtWs
沮喪到一邊吃水餃一邊想哭156Please respect copyright.PENANAcKbWT6mKck
但吃完收到日本來的回鍋肉真空包跟海鮮煎餅156Please respect copyright.PENANABPRFSf6tSt
突然覺得有一點點回溫的暖意(很容易滿足跟感恩)156Please respect copyright.PENANAbgT706F01P
回家啥事都不想做156Please respect copyright.PENANAFZWSYkGOJr
只好寫心得156Please respect copyright.PENANALKtoBiC0lE
自己辦的讀書會第一次讀書心得(自己挖的坑自己填)156Please respect copyright.PENANAjFqqtF2ddN
期限快到了 一直沒空寫156Please respect copyright.PENANA9zyd8UtBWr
拜meeting ko之賜 二十分鐘就寫完了156Please respect copyright.PENANAl205PaPiXs
就像<忽然一陣敲門聲>裡說的156Please respect copyright.PENANAKVgybX3IQr
「會痛?那就別下床。還是痛?等著:如果不死,總會過去。」P137.156Please respect copyright.PENANA0E2EKTxLL5
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好的,痛完了,明天再戰!156Please respect copyright.PENANAgMKPeUdoTp
<忽然一陣敲門聲 – 我不知道門外將要近來的是誰> by 艾加。凱磊156Please respect copyright.PENANALlJLaHyFJV
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這真是我寫過最難寫的心得156Please respect copyright.PENANAz5mcJYXFGk
但不是因為故事不好看156Please respect copyright.PENANAgN1G5AGWfw
相反的正是因為它的故事都很短暫156Please respect copyright.PENANAaBzOfWl3mM
卻又每一篇都讓人意猶未盡 充滿寓意156Please respect copyright.PENANAeewAhrRqF9
讓人不停思考156Please respect copyright.PENANA15m06ZPWeQ
在故事結束之後156Please respect copyright.PENANAC4Aay67yf8
那些人以及人生將如何繼續下去。156Please respect copyright.PENANA7ucJ7ae8Mv
以及某個人沒說的某句話156Please respect copyright.PENANAEeBGVrphmj
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或是多做的某個動作是代表什麼意思156Please respect copyright.PENANAkEPWRrP7kQ
正是這種必須讀者自我思考的部分156Please respect copyright.PENANAErtTeOKeVp
沒有正確答案的問題充滿著整本書156Please respect copyright.PENANAPwFGLDmMZF
所以才難寫出它的精彩在哪156Please respect copyright.PENANAuAD8HzLdGh
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整本書的故事都很短156Please respect copyright.PENANATsGqksdLST
短到第一個故事讀完156Please respect copyright.PENANA9t1aeBgQ4o
結束時我以為缺頁了…156Please respect copyright.PENANAtjppgVONNN
又翻回去讀一遍156Please respect copyright.PENANAIqJXl2vBqB
我相信讀凱磊的書有人會說充滿著藍窗簾156Please respect copyright.PENANAb1VLqCG9tX
或是充滿著讀者的腦補156Please respect copyright.PENANAcGN07x3Xwa
但這味挺合我的156Please respect copyright.PENANAeE5a4XtvuD
我就是喜歡自己想像那些故事未盡之處156Please respect copyright.PENANAzyOWbcFw8o
還有那種當時沒有講明白156Please respect copyright.PENANAKNRuMnUFv0
一陣子或多年之後某一刻因為某件事或某個人156Please respect copyright.PENANAFwR2r1b16D
你突然領悟那時檯面下所沒有直訴的善意或惡意156Please respect copyright.PENANAIiG5Xl2ylc
我喜歡那種了悟當下的心裡的雞皮疙瘩156Please respect copyright.PENANAy7MGUM5joE
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第一個故事似乎寫出了作者自己踏上寫作之路的原因156Please respect copyright.PENANAenZm48omBF
故事中一位作家被三個人上門恐嚇156Please respect copyright.PENANAW7L398wMTN
要他寫出一個故事來156Please respect copyright.PENANADrV6HfWMhQ
故事總在 「突然一陣敲門聲」出現時156Please respect copyright.PENANAAtsvTgdBD3
(故事中)真實的世界就會出現一個敲門的人156Please respect copyright.PENANAjvBwVjlFWe
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每個人都需要故事156Please respect copyright.PENANA6T9KoGQvCv
因為所有人都需要有個出口156Please respect copyright.PENANACT99PShOBI
作者經歷兵役 更在服役時親眼看見摯友自殺的慘狀156Please respect copyright.PENANA38T3lLnVZt
他訴說當下回到房間156Please respect copyright.PENANAGWbD44Q0kW
他只能一直寫 胡亂地寫156Please respect copyright.PENANAbmowLDDNsK
否則他將失去理智156Please respect copyright.PENANAb4k9CIO0re
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每一個故事都是我們心中對外界的反應156Please respect copyright.PENANAV4DJkAYcmg
猶如書中說的「無中生有是憑空捏造,沒有價值,誰都能做;有中生有卻表示東西一直都在那裡,在你裡面,你只是發掘出它的新面貌而已。」P16.156Please respect copyright.PENANAJuG4IjcvEm
故事帶給我們逃離現實的機會156Please respect copyright.PENANAlsfpWLOkxV
更是我們鏡射反省自己的“有中生有”的方式156Please respect copyright.PENANA1y8Eyv5EXT
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猶如銀翼殺手中說「每一個人曾經有過的每一個想法都是真的…」p304156Please respect copyright.PENANAk3lNCmdpQU
包括故事156Please respect copyright.PENANAT2IaY1JE5g
包括我們所說的每一句話156Please respect copyright.PENANASQ2KO7AE3E
每一個謊言156Please respect copyright.PENANAuiSXaNfjsy
我想到書中第二個故事「謊言之地」156Please respect copyright.PENANA28B7h6exqW
我特別有印象 也特別喜歡156Please respect copyright.PENANAqob16YNFv5
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它訴說一位男孩在人生第一次媽媽給錢要他去買東西時156Please respect copyright.PENANAhQQj4z3Meq
他把錢拿去買了冰淇淋156Please respect copyright.PENANAojtr7O44tr
並把找零的錢藏在家後院的大石頭下156Please respect copyright.PENANAYH531e6Fty
回到家他跟母親說156Please respect copyright.PENANAM7xFo5dLqJ
錢被一個紅髮的巨大的缺了門牙的男孩搶了156Please respect copyright.PENANAHAWtJ925CP
母親信了156Please respect copyright.PENANArQF8fyDvNS
也開啟了他一生謊言的開始156Please respect copyright.PENANAm3GUNGrzMU
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為了逃兵請假說遠方來的阿姨得了癌症156Please respect copyright.PENANAeMmwsCNvu2
上班遲到他虛構出了一隻車禍被撞斷後腿的狗156Please respect copyright.PENANAjOG9uj5Syb
日復一日156Please respect copyright.PENANA6MzkYPW4wR
直到有一天他夢見過世多年的母親156Please respect copyright.PENANA7tTwqLHbIs
在夢中要求他給她一顆在扭蛋糖果機裡的糖果156Please respect copyright.PENANARV6Ufb0pOE
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他說他沒零錢156Please respect copyright.PENANAoL6uuJQow0
母親說 說不定零錢還在後院的石頭下156Please respect copyright.PENANAv2XdUG2Qas
他醒來後 因為夢裡過於真實156Please respect copyright.PENANAiFgkC5azpM
於是他半夜的開車到以前的家去(已經成了超商)156Please respect copyright.PENANAIbkVdQzJ0V
到後院找到石頭156Please respect copyright.PENANA49RGN1Acj5
搬開卻沒有錢156Please respect copyright.PENANAveOm7KnHDW
只有一個洞156Please respect copyright.PENANA0RGgFYGHlV
他伸手進去摸到了扭蛋的鈕156Please respect copyright.PENANArolZDzaqjb
一轉 眨眼間就來到的另一個房間156Please respect copyright.PENANApUekbKDW44
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而他還未反應過來156Please respect copyright.PENANA4DUvHcBsMa
就有個人重重地踢了他一腳156Please respect copyright.PENANAvRmz0S86nt
他一抬頭 是一個紅髮的高大的男孩156Please respect copyright.PENANAXdNMIMORoz
他問「你是誰」156Please respect copyright.PENANAbpVFgzzcDT
男孩露出缺了門牙的笑容說156Please respect copyright.PENANARRgl9mN95s
「我是你第一個謊」156Please respect copyright.PENANAYgwXI9dVjY
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他走出醒來時的小房間156Please respect copyright.PENANANK04E2w1FR
路上遇見許多人156Please respect copyright.PENANArwiPadjqEN
有的是他的謊言 有的不是156Please respect copyright.PENANAh7vYOVQQc7
但大部分的生物都過的不太好156Please respect copyright.PENANAtgR0fT7s3w
包括那隻為了他上班遲到而只能拖著兩條後腿走著的狗156Please respect copyright.PENANAYzjLelqb17
(牠看見他依然開心的舔著他)156Please respect copyright.PENANAbJVQb9BoLQ
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後來回到真實世界後156Please respect copyright.PENANAMwsNPTlQqi
男主就漸漸少講謊話156Please respect copyright.PENANAhScKx1I4iR
即便要說 也盡量是說好話156Please respect copyright.PENANAC0sA30i7vt
但「正面的謊話只有一個問題,就是比較難編,要編得可信並不容易。一般來說,如果你跟人家講的是件壞事,人家立刻就會相信,因為感覺上很平常;如果你講好事,人家反而會起疑。所以,漸漸地,羅比就不太說謊了,主要是懶得說。」P23.156Please respect copyright.PENANA9IT539Moub
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故事還有後續156Please respect copyright.PENANA3TvJXp1dTE
但不重要了156Please respect copyright.PENANAZnCiFcbOxw
作者塑造出一個即便是謊言中存在的人156Please respect copyright.PENANAHIViZUIc5r
也會有自己的世界跟生命156Please respect copyright.PENANASvDxdzrsVi
我們每一個念頭都是真實的 不論善惡156Please respect copyright.PENANA4g1phZdneV
(大概是佛家說的 一念三千)156Please respect copyright.PENANAJLLLNq5S4s
而在我們可見 不可見的人生折疊處156Please respect copyright.PENANAvthCMQP14g
總也有人為我們說的謊言而付出代價156Please respect copyright.PENANAFMEzTAhfUB
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「痔瘡」這個故事的文筆可以排上我其中最愛的故事前三156Please respect copyright.PENANA5gfw22gbDh
實在把人生的齷齪跟無厘頭表現的太好了156Please respect copyright.PENANAloMd0hIs7v
故事中從一個人跟他的痔瘡的角度描寫人生的“掙扎”156Please respect copyright.PENANAhmXSf5IqEC
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「活著就是受罪,活著就是冒汗,活著就是一種你他媽忘不掉的痛。因此,別人做重大決定時候會傾聽自己的良心,他傾聽的對象是痔瘡。而那個痔瘡,跟其他痔瘡一樣,會給那人一些屎意見。」P104.156Please respect copyright.PENANAyUlcycEStS
(讚嘆譯者,屎意見翻的太好了)156Please respect copyright.PENANAVao5luWsHj
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「活著就是要盼望,活著就是要發燙,活著就是要把事情搞砸然後等著翻身。痔瘡會聽那人的話。就像別人聽肚子咕咕叫就吃東西一樣,痔瘡對那人也相當順服。多虧那人,痔瘡努力去相信自己能活也能讓人活,能學會原諒,能忍住不去鄙視人家,就算口出惡言也不會提及人家的母親。」P104.156Please respect copyright.PENANABliOxvpxCD
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最後一個故事結束在「你是哪種動物?」156Please respect copyright.PENANAit4qL5NhN6
再度收尾在故事可以讓殘酷的現實生活156Please respect copyright.PENANAEWE2HjIxfi
得到一點紓解156Please respect copyright.PENANAvMgEpospin
一點即便是表象的美好對快要崩裂的人來說156Please respect copyright.PENANAlJcvzxJn2z
也足夠暫時可以把齷齪的現實擋在外面156Please respect copyright.PENANA8Uo08hSNG7
撐過多一秒 多一瞬間156Please respect copyright.PENANArjM37b4I3B
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其他的故事也都很棒156Please respect copyright.PENANA9ubbzpgvvL
「健康的開始」跟「你會向金魚許什麼願?」156Please respect copyright.PENANATegBV6sOq1
都表現出了人的寂寞156Please respect copyright.PENANADndq5GJv36
有時我們都很想成為別人156Please respect copyright.PENANALb2Q6FAt8f
成為那個生活中可以被一個人愛或恨或花時間一起吃頓飯的人156Please respect copyright.PENANAwz9GrEjE8D
而不是自己這個孤單無助的生命
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「瘋狂膠」 這故事詭異到太討喜了 我喜歡156Please respect copyright.PENANA0dpnCetxF7
「拉開拉鍊」說的是我們都有另一個自己156Please respect copyright.PENANApqgQrGWXo6
「越界」這故事結尾耐人尋味156Please respect copyright.PENANAqeZ0lewPNZ
到底是他死後變柔軟了 還是成了他殺的那些被他唾棄的人156Please respect copyright.PENANA7gE4JiThu8
那才是一個殺手真正的地獄156Please respect copyright.PENANAm5b2OoNUzC
也都是很吸引人的故事156Please respect copyright.PENANAaulRmtUKsL
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當然也有幾個故事很“深”156Please respect copyright.PENANAUxTfOOdhr3
還需細細思考156Please respect copyright.PENANAXJjNrbC140
例如「神秘感」、「這個故事大獲全勝」跟「只要$99.99含稅含郵」156Please respect copyright.PENANAjdim9h4lMN
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總之這是本故事短短的156Please respect copyright.PENANA2rOjEIaZ6Q
但思考跟餘韻卻長長的書156Please respect copyright.PENANA7nleZ5JXTa
作者對人生中閃現的那些人物156Please respect copyright.PENANAwn33j1NvUA
以及他們背後可能的故事的描寫很細膩跟精巧156Please respect copyright.PENANASAVKbXerHh
可推156Please respect copyright.PENANA5vz1ygm5CR
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註:作者的故事將要被拍成電影,紀錄片的短短預告156Please respect copyright.PENANAHDqnVqaWtv
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mw3tRGit5I&feature=youtu.be156Please respect copyright.PENANAF6uxNNyx7j
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p11. 他在十八歲時服了三年兵役,親眼目睹摯友自殺,腦海中只留下好友額頭被子彈貫穿,整個人被釘在樹上的震撼畫面。他剛結束十二小時的執勤,接下來四十八小時都得在房內獨處,他說當時自己只能在紙上不斷地胡亂寫,投身於另一個世界,才能免強找回繼續活下去的動力156Please respect copyright.PENANA2j9UsiQ2BY
p11. 「逃離現實」是他開始寫作的契機,也是我們需要這些故事的根本原因156Please respect copyright.PENANAETQd7xKojn
P11. 再搜亂語戰爭頻發的以色列居住,人們經常會感到不安與緊張。我們於外在築起高牆,為了維護高牆內的信念而戰鬥,但內在被壓抑或忽視的感情卻嚴重阻塞。我認為我的小說正是一道排水口,讓人們得已排遣這樣的情緒。156Please respect copyright.PENANAGXXLb9ZDWA
P16. 無中生有是憑空捏造,沒有價值,誰都能做;有中生有卻表示東西一直都在那裡,在你裡面,你只是發掘出它的新面貌而已。156Please respect copyright.PENANAIfTXJ3Cpki
P23. 正面的謊話只有一個問題,就是比較難編,要編得可信並不容易。一般來說,如果你跟人家講的是件壞事,人家立刻就會相信,因為感覺上很平常;如果你講好事,人家反而會起疑。所以,漸漸地,羅比就不太說謊了,主要是懶得說。156Please respect copyright.PENANAy4TGYjcFK3
P72. 有些人從三樓掉到屋外,除了背後瘀青,沒有大礙;有些人下樓梯一個不小心,就進了醫院,上了石膏。大衛和她想必都屬於後者。156Please respect copyright.PENANAAGNL18njci
P72. 我鼓鼓滿滿的口袋裡放的就是這個:微乎其微的機會,能夠說「有」而不避遺憾的機會156Please respect copyright.PENANAAFWguQtZ4q
P87. 他想,癌症是什麼,不就是來自天上的恐怖攻擊?神做這是不就是要恐嚇我們,對我們所做的…某些事表達抗議嗎?那些事太過崇高,156Please respect copyright.PENANA6Lqj1SmP1o
超出了人類的知識範圍,我們無法理解。156Please respect copyright.PENANAqPPgw8RvQt
P87.多年來,生活似乎不過是個陷阱,是個迷宮,不,連迷宮都算不上,只是一塊圍在牆裡的空間,沒有門。他一直想,堅持要想出點什麼來,總有什麼事我希望會發生的吧,就算不可能辦到也沒有關係……他逼自己站起來,心想:「要是那天她們去上班,要是我開車送她,現在她就會活得好好的,和我一起坐在廚房裡了。」156Please respect copyright.PENANA5Rwc9nHcy1
P93. 若是他遇上會說畫的金魚,那麼別無所求,只求能把魚放進大玻璃缸,永遠擺在架子上,成天和牠說話。要講什麼都可以,可以聊運動,也可以聊政治,金魚愛聊什麼他們就聊什麼。聊什麼都行,那俄國人說,只要別讓我孤單一個人就好。156Please respect copyright.PENANABtDgLzeqJ7
P104. 活著就是受罪,活著就是冒汗,活著就是一種你他媽忘不掉的痛。因此,別人做重大決定時候會傾聽自己的良心,他傾聽的對象是痔瘡。而那個痔瘡,跟其他痔瘡一樣,會給那人一些屎意見。156Please respect copyright.PENANAMKz8BB3N1E
P104. 活著就是要盼望,活著就是要發燙,活著就是要把事情搞砸然後等著翻身。痔瘡會聽那人的話。就像別人聽肚子咕咕叫就吃東西一樣,痔瘡對那人也相當順服。多虧那人,痔瘡努力去相信自己能活也能讓人活,能學會原諒,能忍住不去鄙視人家,就算口出惡言也不會提及人家的母親。156Please respect copyright.PENANAaoDG3BFVQl
P137. 會痛?那就別下床。還是痛?等著:如果不死,通總會過去156Please respect copyright.PENANAAIYxIae3Wy
P143. 我兒子問那個德國人:「妳是哪種動物?」我幫他把問題翻成英語。「我不是動物。」她一邊笑,一邊用長長的指甲梳頭髮,「我是怪物,來自海的另一邊,專吃你這種漂亮小孩。」「她說她是會唱歌的鳥,」我把她的話翻譯給兒子聽,態度自然,無懈可擊,「她說她是隻紅色羽毛會唱歌的鳥,是從很遠很遠的地方飛來的。」
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