<忽然一陣敲門聲 – 我不知道門外將要進來的是誰> by 艾加。凱磊
(用博客來電子書)(原文寫於 2018冬)
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今天meeting整個被打趴在地149Please respect copyright.PENANASNBitrrpuj
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分屍挫骨149Please respect copyright.PENANAq6YGRjQJPc
還丟到海裡被鯨魚吃的概念...149Please respect copyright.PENANAYMzgP0QOG0
沮喪到一邊吃水餃一邊想哭149Please respect copyright.PENANAeYbUrMhhr5
但吃完收到日本來的回鍋肉真空包跟海鮮煎餅149Please respect copyright.PENANARixGxHr61p
突然覺得有一點點回溫的暖意(很容易滿足跟感恩)149Please respect copyright.PENANA7LPYRH65ev
回家啥事都不想做149Please respect copyright.PENANAN5nMJ0YKoA
只好寫心得149Please respect copyright.PENANAAtBeXCWJDG
自己辦的讀書會第一次讀書心得(自己挖的坑自己填)149Please respect copyright.PENANARPdDo0g9wN
期限快到了 一直沒空寫149Please respect copyright.PENANAw5eghqKAKN
拜meeting ko之賜 二十分鐘就寫完了149Please respect copyright.PENANAczmsgYxw0w
就像<忽然一陣敲門聲>裡說的149Please respect copyright.PENANACBgaQvub49
「會痛?那就別下床。還是痛?等著:如果不死,總會過去。」P137.149Please respect copyright.PENANAK666xqV0Ll
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好的,痛完了,明天再戰!149Please respect copyright.PENANAaItMwQgdUJ
<忽然一陣敲門聲 – 我不知道門外將要近來的是誰> by 艾加。凱磊149Please respect copyright.PENANAyDDMI7Zr4l
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這真是我寫過最難寫的心得149Please respect copyright.PENANARFPiJHdfOT
但不是因為故事不好看149Please respect copyright.PENANAZQ52uKqIao
相反的正是因為它的故事都很短暫149Please respect copyright.PENANA5SnStlP5gQ
卻又每一篇都讓人意猶未盡 充滿寓意149Please respect copyright.PENANAuK4FqivYlt
讓人不停思考149Please respect copyright.PENANAJsjbQ0pPAY
在故事結束之後149Please respect copyright.PENANAFFHdLMZURP
那些人以及人生將如何繼續下去。149Please respect copyright.PENANANC8rf0CcLH
以及某個人沒說的某句話149Please respect copyright.PENANAo3ngsnFrJ4
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或是多做的某個動作是代表什麼意思149Please respect copyright.PENANAQQVA04waPF
正是這種必須讀者自我思考的部分149Please respect copyright.PENANA8z6soYZwDm
沒有正確答案的問題充滿著整本書149Please respect copyright.PENANAxso2YcWP7O
所以才難寫出它的精彩在哪149Please respect copyright.PENANArBhM5kIyiI
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整本書的故事都很短149Please respect copyright.PENANA883jkHKtP6
短到第一個故事讀完149Please respect copyright.PENANA3FV8FNFLTJ
結束時我以為缺頁了…149Please respect copyright.PENANAHAeIK8pVN6
又翻回去讀一遍149Please respect copyright.PENANAw26pCpdoxB
我相信讀凱磊的書有人會說充滿著藍窗簾149Please respect copyright.PENANARPJHTo41fx
或是充滿著讀者的腦補149Please respect copyright.PENANAoGKvdyaSDg
但這味挺合我的149Please respect copyright.PENANANDLqP62gxE
我就是喜歡自己想像那些故事未盡之處149Please respect copyright.PENANAhyFnOSfJc6
還有那種當時沒有講明白149Please respect copyright.PENANAq1V1kBY1ou
一陣子或多年之後某一刻因為某件事或某個人149Please respect copyright.PENANApswmNkhd7Y
你突然領悟那時檯面下所沒有直訴的善意或惡意149Please respect copyright.PENANAd5Wbd3OYFG
我喜歡那種了悟當下的心裡的雞皮疙瘩149Please respect copyright.PENANATcI7cjc4vz
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第一個故事似乎寫出了作者自己踏上寫作之路的原因149Please respect copyright.PENANAi5mQSgBVY0
故事中一位作家被三個人上門恐嚇149Please respect copyright.PENANA0QPFx8mkeI
要他寫出一個故事來149Please respect copyright.PENANAzddyZxgdQm
故事總在 「突然一陣敲門聲」出現時149Please respect copyright.PENANAafWQ68INX6
(故事中)真實的世界就會出現一個敲門的人149Please respect copyright.PENANAZkqI1TMYw6
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每個人都需要故事149Please respect copyright.PENANAWKKEBN00yA
因為所有人都需要有個出口149Please respect copyright.PENANApp0CO7ZO5g
作者經歷兵役 更在服役時親眼看見摯友自殺的慘狀149Please respect copyright.PENANAixLJWEYqCp
他訴說當下回到房間149Please respect copyright.PENANAuouE0ccv53
他只能一直寫 胡亂地寫149Please respect copyright.PENANA2EGgvPHCkl
否則他將失去理智149Please respect copyright.PENANAxO54HoWtcU
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每一個故事都是我們心中對外界的反應149Please respect copyright.PENANA2vc2Tl2S1u
猶如書中說的「無中生有是憑空捏造,沒有價值,誰都能做;有中生有卻表示東西一直都在那裡,在你裡面,你只是發掘出它的新面貌而已。」P16.149Please respect copyright.PENANAdcDq0LKduf
故事帶給我們逃離現實的機會149Please respect copyright.PENANAcOfljE9cQi
更是我們鏡射反省自己的“有中生有”的方式149Please respect copyright.PENANAeuG7VOLpSy
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猶如銀翼殺手中說「每一個人曾經有過的每一個想法都是真的…」p304149Please respect copyright.PENANAtn79Ig5gqS
包括故事149Please respect copyright.PENANAIvO7txShwC
包括我們所說的每一句話149Please respect copyright.PENANACKCRfuIq9t
每一個謊言149Please respect copyright.PENANAdna260Cu1H
我想到書中第二個故事「謊言之地」149Please respect copyright.PENANAKnKMBcfq2m
我特別有印象 也特別喜歡149Please respect copyright.PENANAmTDkEAHELl
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它訴說一位男孩在人生第一次媽媽給錢要他去買東西時149Please respect copyright.PENANAo6xpia05J3
他把錢拿去買了冰淇淋149Please respect copyright.PENANAr4ZFfEH0RY
並把找零的錢藏在家後院的大石頭下149Please respect copyright.PENANAUnKJZazCNE
回到家他跟母親說149Please respect copyright.PENANA2z6HoQIvbD
錢被一個紅髮的巨大的缺了門牙的男孩搶了149Please respect copyright.PENANAWqFSpmFlf6
母親信了149Please respect copyright.PENANAq74TRQYcae
也開啟了他一生謊言的開始149Please respect copyright.PENANAOO0Mo9yzJS
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為了逃兵請假說遠方來的阿姨得了癌症149Please respect copyright.PENANAzAb1Lr4u3q
上班遲到他虛構出了一隻車禍被撞斷後腿的狗149Please respect copyright.PENANATrhpZZl58A
日復一日149Please respect copyright.PENANAuq8haJJ4ud
直到有一天他夢見過世多年的母親149Please respect copyright.PENANA5MMXlNd1sd
在夢中要求他給她一顆在扭蛋糖果機裡的糖果149Please respect copyright.PENANA9ryhDSgzy8
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他說他沒零錢149Please respect copyright.PENANAhd5X9sJYT0
母親說 說不定零錢還在後院的石頭下149Please respect copyright.PENANAmShMp331fd
他醒來後 因為夢裡過於真實149Please respect copyright.PENANABRd8QpDv3D
於是他半夜的開車到以前的家去(已經成了超商)149Please respect copyright.PENANAKhRBBTg8JN
到後院找到石頭149Please respect copyright.PENANAYn8WAQyt61
搬開卻沒有錢149Please respect copyright.PENANAx3ajFFbccL
只有一個洞149Please respect copyright.PENANAeNCLeepqLP
他伸手進去摸到了扭蛋的鈕149Please respect copyright.PENANACg8xfvo1jj
一轉 眨眼間就來到的另一個房間149Please respect copyright.PENANAMln1alqBNZ
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而他還未反應過來149Please respect copyright.PENANA38jyKEo67U
就有個人重重地踢了他一腳149Please respect copyright.PENANAopRbefDvTt
他一抬頭 是一個紅髮的高大的男孩149Please respect copyright.PENANAwJ2q4byXSz
他問「你是誰」149Please respect copyright.PENANAJXO0xyU0o4
男孩露出缺了門牙的笑容說149Please respect copyright.PENANA9AJYs0IlbD
「我是你第一個謊」149Please respect copyright.PENANA0Gbs30aIq0
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他走出醒來時的小房間149Please respect copyright.PENANAVdQ7P8rl8Z
路上遇見許多人149Please respect copyright.PENANAr9J5JfsqAZ
有的是他的謊言 有的不是149Please respect copyright.PENANArH71HJ751U
但大部分的生物都過的不太好149Please respect copyright.PENANAicp3E8ry94
包括那隻為了他上班遲到而只能拖著兩條後腿走著的狗149Please respect copyright.PENANAbdSn4AhzG9
(牠看見他依然開心的舔著他)149Please respect copyright.PENANAWAbJBZektw
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後來回到真實世界後149Please respect copyright.PENANAVmPmHfBh3s
男主就漸漸少講謊話149Please respect copyright.PENANAJYdoi1Rddk
即便要說 也盡量是說好話149Please respect copyright.PENANAFFyEKgVq7u
但「正面的謊話只有一個問題,就是比較難編,要編得可信並不容易。一般來說,如果你跟人家講的是件壞事,人家立刻就會相信,因為感覺上很平常;如果你講好事,人家反而會起疑。所以,漸漸地,羅比就不太說謊了,主要是懶得說。」P23.149Please respect copyright.PENANAlWfqWncAdF
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故事還有後續149Please respect copyright.PENANAdIerneAo1l
但不重要了149Please respect copyright.PENANA4yHG1CGyVo
作者塑造出一個即便是謊言中存在的人149Please respect copyright.PENANA8lxi5ZYZZ0
也會有自己的世界跟生命149Please respect copyright.PENANAHKqpzvqE5X
我們每一個念頭都是真實的 不論善惡149Please respect copyright.PENANA8YSxGux7wZ
(大概是佛家說的 一念三千)149Please respect copyright.PENANAdSZe0yA3SA
而在我們可見 不可見的人生折疊處149Please respect copyright.PENANAfxfEZtsdan
總也有人為我們說的謊言而付出代價149Please respect copyright.PENANAYWrE7CbCU7
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「痔瘡」這個故事的文筆可以排上我其中最愛的故事前三149Please respect copyright.PENANAP60G9rr77a
實在把人生的齷齪跟無厘頭表現的太好了149Please respect copyright.PENANA8yuo4kd0bm
故事中從一個人跟他的痔瘡的角度描寫人生的“掙扎”149Please respect copyright.PENANAxq1nLvZ760
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「活著就是受罪,活著就是冒汗,活著就是一種你他媽忘不掉的痛。因此,別人做重大決定時候會傾聽自己的良心,他傾聽的對象是痔瘡。而那個痔瘡,跟其他痔瘡一樣,會給那人一些屎意見。」P104.149Please respect copyright.PENANA0NDagU7ZVj
(讚嘆譯者,屎意見翻的太好了)149Please respect copyright.PENANAwOXkFUn2t2
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「活著就是要盼望,活著就是要發燙,活著就是要把事情搞砸然後等著翻身。痔瘡會聽那人的話。就像別人聽肚子咕咕叫就吃東西一樣,痔瘡對那人也相當順服。多虧那人,痔瘡努力去相信自己能活也能讓人活,能學會原諒,能忍住不去鄙視人家,就算口出惡言也不會提及人家的母親。」P104.149Please respect copyright.PENANAqzAyY2Kpr8
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最後一個故事結束在「你是哪種動物?」149Please respect copyright.PENANAM04jENFJT7
再度收尾在故事可以讓殘酷的現實生活149Please respect copyright.PENANAeTilrr4slH
得到一點紓解149Please respect copyright.PENANA4C1IMNYlXH
一點即便是表象的美好對快要崩裂的人來說149Please respect copyright.PENANAr9kYbeQ2Rp
也足夠暫時可以把齷齪的現實擋在外面149Please respect copyright.PENANA2URdn0SACx
撐過多一秒 多一瞬間149Please respect copyright.PENANASso2wQfMcT
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其他的故事也都很棒149Please respect copyright.PENANAJeIvcONzFi
「健康的開始」跟「你會向金魚許什麼願?」149Please respect copyright.PENANANCBpvLvWuo
都表現出了人的寂寞149Please respect copyright.PENANAhBP5VhYsOv
有時我們都很想成為別人149Please respect copyright.PENANAnA1Us5LhTN
成為那個生活中可以被一個人愛或恨或花時間一起吃頓飯的人149Please respect copyright.PENANAIvnEe23V4G
而不是自己這個孤單無助的生命
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「瘋狂膠」 這故事詭異到太討喜了 我喜歡149Please respect copyright.PENANAOQAqHGw1S1
「拉開拉鍊」說的是我們都有另一個自己149Please respect copyright.PENANA8bsE3BFsVz
「越界」這故事結尾耐人尋味149Please respect copyright.PENANAoQruowSu1T
到底是他死後變柔軟了 還是成了他殺的那些被他唾棄的人149Please respect copyright.PENANAgXZld69z3i
那才是一個殺手真正的地獄149Please respect copyright.PENANA5cZeuxn0Lx
也都是很吸引人的故事149Please respect copyright.PENANAPN3ZAtfzoX
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當然也有幾個故事很“深”149Please respect copyright.PENANASQVAfxShNV
還需細細思考149Please respect copyright.PENANAVEbvh2REUe
例如「神秘感」、「這個故事大獲全勝」跟「只要$99.99含稅含郵」149Please respect copyright.PENANAu2yFpNPw0J
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總之這是本故事短短的149Please respect copyright.PENANAaykAhydm52
但思考跟餘韻卻長長的書149Please respect copyright.PENANAdlaRPwQXvq
作者對人生中閃現的那些人物149Please respect copyright.PENANAQQ1yQIMi4Y
以及他們背後可能的故事的描寫很細膩跟精巧149Please respect copyright.PENANAd895D5Vyql
可推149Please respect copyright.PENANAVF6lRg63LG
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註:作者的故事將要被拍成電影,紀錄片的短短預告149Please respect copyright.PENANAW7lG0T61qC
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mw3tRGit5I&feature=youtu.be149Please respect copyright.PENANAJMeEIHlUkf
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p11. 他在十八歲時服了三年兵役,親眼目睹摯友自殺,腦海中只留下好友額頭被子彈貫穿,整個人被釘在樹上的震撼畫面。他剛結束十二小時的執勤,接下來四十八小時都得在房內獨處,他說當時自己只能在紙上不斷地胡亂寫,投身於另一個世界,才能免強找回繼續活下去的動力149Please respect copyright.PENANAXuXzznWRd2
p11. 「逃離現實」是他開始寫作的契機,也是我們需要這些故事的根本原因149Please respect copyright.PENANA8jMmVmTmMy
P11. 再搜亂語戰爭頻發的以色列居住,人們經常會感到不安與緊張。我們於外在築起高牆,為了維護高牆內的信念而戰鬥,但內在被壓抑或忽視的感情卻嚴重阻塞。我認為我的小說正是一道排水口,讓人們得已排遣這樣的情緒。149Please respect copyright.PENANAfJyn6WXSqS
P16. 無中生有是憑空捏造,沒有價值,誰都能做;有中生有卻表示東西一直都在那裡,在你裡面,你只是發掘出它的新面貌而已。149Please respect copyright.PENANAzuEiy6YMbw
P23. 正面的謊話只有一個問題,就是比較難編,要編得可信並不容易。一般來說,如果你跟人家講的是件壞事,人家立刻就會相信,因為感覺上很平常;如果你講好事,人家反而會起疑。所以,漸漸地,羅比就不太說謊了,主要是懶得說。149Please respect copyright.PENANAVhQ0zCJMeP
P72. 有些人從三樓掉到屋外,除了背後瘀青,沒有大礙;有些人下樓梯一個不小心,就進了醫院,上了石膏。大衛和她想必都屬於後者。149Please respect copyright.PENANAVP0WlUGFaF
P72. 我鼓鼓滿滿的口袋裡放的就是這個:微乎其微的機會,能夠說「有」而不避遺憾的機會149Please respect copyright.PENANAfr4DOspyMN
P87. 他想,癌症是什麼,不就是來自天上的恐怖攻擊?神做這是不就是要恐嚇我們,對我們所做的…某些事表達抗議嗎?那些事太過崇高,149Please respect copyright.PENANAnQkp1lA9tw
超出了人類的知識範圍,我們無法理解。149Please respect copyright.PENANAE2LGpeyQIK
P87.多年來,生活似乎不過是個陷阱,是個迷宮,不,連迷宮都算不上,只是一塊圍在牆裡的空間,沒有門。他一直想,堅持要想出點什麼來,總有什麼事我希望會發生的吧,就算不可能辦到也沒有關係……他逼自己站起來,心想:「要是那天她們去上班,要是我開車送她,現在她就會活得好好的,和我一起坐在廚房裡了。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAIg1ao0NJ83
P93. 若是他遇上會說畫的金魚,那麼別無所求,只求能把魚放進大玻璃缸,永遠擺在架子上,成天和牠說話。要講什麼都可以,可以聊運動,也可以聊政治,金魚愛聊什麼他們就聊什麼。聊什麼都行,那俄國人說,只要別讓我孤單一個人就好。149Please respect copyright.PENANAIZb22YLXxj
P104. 活著就是受罪,活著就是冒汗,活著就是一種你他媽忘不掉的痛。因此,別人做重大決定時候會傾聽自己的良心,他傾聽的對象是痔瘡。而那個痔瘡,跟其他痔瘡一樣,會給那人一些屎意見。149Please respect copyright.PENANANnrZsmzO0e
P104. 活著就是要盼望,活著就是要發燙,活著就是要把事情搞砸然後等著翻身。痔瘡會聽那人的話。就像別人聽肚子咕咕叫就吃東西一樣,痔瘡對那人也相當順服。多虧那人,痔瘡努力去相信自己能活也能讓人活,能學會原諒,能忍住不去鄙視人家,就算口出惡言也不會提及人家的母親。149Please respect copyright.PENANAljNEDlsugk
P137. 會痛?那就別下床。還是痛?等著:如果不死,通總會過去149Please respect copyright.PENANAATPnB6yypn
P143. 我兒子問那個德國人:「妳是哪種動物?」我幫他把問題翻成英語。「我不是動物。」她一邊笑,一邊用長長的指甲梳頭髮,「我是怪物,來自海的另一邊,專吃你這種漂亮小孩。」「她說她是會唱歌的鳥,」我把她的話翻譯給兒子聽,態度自然,無懈可擊,「她說她是隻紅色羽毛會唱歌的鳥,是從很遠很遠的地方飛來的。」
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