No Plagiarism!iReWIaCrRj4OyOVBylJtposted on PENANA 狹窄的辦公室裡只有我們在鐵梯上上落落的聲音,以及紙皮箱觸地的悶響,我們一句話也沒有說,整個氛圍卻讓人感到很舒服,我不用擔心她在暗地裡抱怨我不想點話題,我們之間的沉默是如此地正常,沒有半點違和感——因為我們對於「說話」這回事,各自有著不同的障礙。8964 copyright protection339PENANAmeAwN4Frqu 維尼
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把最後一個紙皮箱搬完後,她給我一盒芒果汁。8964 copyright protection339PENANAFowIVU3680 維尼
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「你點知我鍾意飲架?」我把芒果汁接過。8964 copyright protection339PENANAhcHsNgMKd1 維尼
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(上次你外婆話我知。)8964 copyright protection339PENANAxbZdyNZUWq 維尼
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「……多謝。」8964 copyright protection339PENANAohd4hJ5tmP 維尼
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(放假都嚟陪外婆聽講座,你真係好乖。)8964 copyright protection339PENANAPA2Asy8bX7 維尼
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「反正喺屋企都冇嘢做。」8964 copyright protection339PENANA8PA2WCAHaf 維尼
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我知道她在指星澄,便尷尬地笑了笑:「我搵唔到佢。」8964 copyright protection339PENANA9sryvFlXWa 維尼
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「佢唔理我喇,呢幾日都冇返學。」8964 copyright protection339PENANAtHd6vro90g 維尼
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(可能佢真係有事?)8964 copyright protection339PENANA8fLtk9QDTk 維尼
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「之前咪同你講過我應承咗佢睇話劇嘅,」可能因為對象是阿芯,我才放心把話說出口,「其實套話劇本來係佢做主角,但佢無啦啦話唔演。」8964 copyright protection339PENANATM2LGpwFG6 維尼
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一口氣說完後,我才認清了一個事實——原來我真的很想找人傾訴。8964 copyright protection339PENANA6VACckQhiX 維尼
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她拉開椅子,邀請我一同坐下,好像預知到接下來我會說很久似的。8964 copyright protection339PENANAS2jMYFWO4k 維尼
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「然後佢同帶隊老師講叫我嚟演……」8964 copyright protection339PENANAUZy2rAB6qF 維尼
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「其實今日學校唔係放假,只係我驚到唔敢返學。」8964 copyright protection339PENANAPyTdAPEuq0 維尼
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她忽然在外套拿出一本簿,然後在上面寫道:8964 copyright protection339PENANAVhLiZvx7Mg 維尼
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『點解你會驚?』8964 copyright protection339PENANA7PIOm6kJeN 維尼
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我無奈笑說:「……因為我唔想上台,我唔敢喺咁多人面前演。」8964 copyright protection339PENANALN7BGctajy 維尼
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她繼續寫下:8964 copyright protection339PENANA3X4PcNJmsH 維尼
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『好小事啫,唔使唔返學掛?』8964 copyright protection339PENANAsTKZQYkulQ 維尼
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「你唔明架喇,呢件唔係小事……」這是影響了我的日常生活整整十七年的事。8964 copyright protection339PENANAMvNLBwSalJ 維尼
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『可唔可以話比我知架?』8964 copyright protection339PENANAC5oOtASRsr 維尼
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我喝了她給的芒果汁,內心好像變得前所未有般平靜,彷彿能把一切秘密都說出口……8964 copyright protection339PENANAVTvLcwFHXg 維尼
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「可以。」8964 copyright protection339PENANAJmQXUKtYTB 維尼
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她放下手中的筆,靜待我把話接下去。8964 copyright protection339PENANAcvy7d9Q7Wk 維尼
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「我有病,個病令我唔可以同其他人講嘢。」我帶著稍微顫抖的聲線,逐字逐字的吐出來。8964 copyright protection339PENANAXidBu2bTnK 維尼
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『係咩病?』8964 copyright protection339PENANAYhNlx5pspU 維尼
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我接過她的筆,在紙上寫下那隻怪獸的全名:8964 copyright protection339PENANAjy2qpeo9x9 維尼
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『 選 擇 性 緘 默 症 』8964 copyright protection339PENANAN47pQScuV7 維尼
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她想了一會,又寫道:8964 copyright protection339PENANAwFC2PThjzt 維尼
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『你意思係呢個病令你喺其他人面前講唔到野?』8964 copyright protection339PENANAj45ChMaDWM 維尼
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「係,我淨係對住我阿婆先講到。」8964 copyright protection339PENANA5aC8XeKGo5 維尼
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『咁你對住其他人嘅時候,具體係點嘅感覺?』8964 copyright protection339PENANAJl5uRI7HKm 維尼
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「……我會講唔出。」8964 copyright protection339PENANA5yU86IyFCJ 維尼
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她側著頭,似乎不理解我的意思。8964 copyright protection339PENANA4SLPBSVKkT 維尼
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「例如火燭嘅話,我會叫唔到救命。」平常的話我一定不會對人說,說了只會讓人笑話。8964 copyright protection339PENANAV2BzHXr7lv 維尼
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「同人基本打招呼我都有問題。」8964 copyright protection339PENANARJCsjKHCmK 維尼
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『但你平時同我打招呼冇問題喎?』8964 copyright protection339PENANAdPVilUid67 維尼
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「因為我冇以前咁嚴重。」8964 copyright protection339PENANALa5ZXMQU4A 維尼
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『聽唔聽我以前嘅事?』8964 copyright protection339PENANAEK4rFDf1OD 維尼
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我點頭,她便開始寫,寫了數分鐘才停下來:8964 copyright protection339PENANAmd5MX0yR1Z 維尼
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『我以前都可以好似其他人咁開口講野,10幾年前我做完一場手術之後先變到而家咁。』8964 copyright protection339PENANA2NQ0DxUqM8 維尼
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『唔好睇我咁樣,其實我以前好鍾意講野架,我老公仲嫌我多野講到有啲煩。』8964 copyright protection339PENANAK9hF2HPz0M 維尼
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『所以一開始我都好唔習慣,慢慢仲鬱咗個病出嚟。』8964 copyright protection339PENANA9TkqudgEdt 維尼
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『後尾雖然學咗用手語或者寫字同人溝通,但嗰種感覺始終冇親口講咁痛快。』8964 copyright protection339PENANASz4ftdmYA4 維尼
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我不明白她這番話的意思,一臉疑惑地望著她。8964 copyright protection339PENANAHxfZhaMm03 維尼
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『我想講,可以用自己把聲講出心入面嘅諗法係一件好幸福嘅事。』8964 copyright protection339PENANAQw9HeZMsg9 維尼
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看著她以文字交織而成的話語,我開始思考起當中的意義……8964 copyright protection339PENANAyP2draopHU 維尼
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「但係,有時我覺得自己對住其他人嗰陣係第二把聲嚟,我真正把聲……」說到一半,她示意我停下來。8964 copyright protection339PENANAcdKq4YAYw8 維尼
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『你頭先明明話對住外婆至講到野,』8964 copyright protection339PENANA9bKtqMTzEy 維尼
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她握一下筆桿,把下半句寫完:8964 copyright protection339PENANAnbjBjWQYqH 維尼
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『但你咪一直同我講緊野囉,仲講咗好多。』8964 copyright protection339PENANA8kXKqICXyJ 維尼
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她的說話像一下強而有力的鐘聲般敲進心裡,令我恍然大悟,原來我剛才說了很多嗎……?8964 copyright protection339PENANAhPogsU3IEv 維尼
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不,答案其實早就知道。8964 copyright protection339PENANA8td6YYMh9T 維尼
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我一直以來也說了很多,對星澄、對樂仔、對Cayden 、對Tinny ,還有對其他很多很多人……8964 copyright protection339PENANAofvnUqdkfr 維尼
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只是我自己不願承認而已。8964 copyright protection339PENANAR2KSlQHsBt 維尼
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『冇錯,你細個嗰陣可能真係好嚴重,但其實你個病一早開始好返,至少我覺得係咁,唔係咩?』8964 copyright protection339PENANAOV8QQtbOLP 維尼
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她一語道出這個連我自己也不知道,又或者早就知道了,卻一直用來當擋箭牌的事實。8964 copyright protection339PENANAqax15KZkA0 維尼
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為甚麼我由始而終都不肯面對……?8964 copyright protection339PENANAgOXc8LWa25 維尼
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『你覺得自己同人講唔到野,所以你更加將所有野都推落個病度,去合理化自己嘅沉默。』8964 copyright protection339PENANAnaG2BipEcc 維尼
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我低著頭,不敢說半句話,就像一個等待責罰的小學生般。8964 copyright protection339PENANAspGo0GpNOQ 維尼
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『點呀?講中咗?』8964 copyright protection339PENANAIn29A7KSL2 維尼
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對,一直以來,我認為心裡的房間被那隻怪獸上了一道鎖,令任何人也不能走進來,其實那隻怪獸在不知不覺間已經變得弱不禁風,真正把房間上鎖的人是我自己……8964 copyright protection339PENANA8tMKUgZeTf 維尼
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就在我選擇承認這個事實的瞬間,心裡彷彿傳來一下開鎖的聲音。8964 copyright protection339PENANAbKqPvMdU6s 維尼
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『把口係用嚟講野架,你唔似我咁已經冇機會。』8964 copyright protection339PENANASlN2Q6fggY 維尼
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如此簡單的道理,我竟然到這一刻才明白。8964 copyright protection339PENANAcVFdSBndv0 維尼
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『聽完我講之後,你會唔會考慮返學校?』8964 copyright protection339PENANAe9DQOEq3B9 維尼
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她把筆放下來,對我微微一笑。8964 copyright protection339PENANAx5D7S8iQSm 維尼
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我望望牆上的時鐘,現在是下午十二時二十分。8964 copyright protection339PENANAAqEJamc0Hr 維尼
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有時踏出第一步後,所有事情或許都會變得很簡單,只是我一直在猶豫、一直在逃避,才會停滯不前——8964 copyright protection339PENANAHVcya2bBAS 維尼
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「其實,我係一個好鍾意講野嘅人。」我答非所問,沒甚麼特別理由,只是把一句收藏已久的心聲說出來。8964 copyright protection339PENANANtgkrXCfkU 維尼
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她笑得更燦爛,以手語表示:8964 copyright protection339PENANAPNOthV2pOO 維尼
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(我都係呀。)8964 copyright protection339PENANALRt95gjtuO 維尼
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我想了一會,以手語做了一個「謝謝」的手勢。8964 copyright protection339PENANAHbFyi4C7x4 維尼
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外婆說過阿芯有點像我的母親,我想現在知道為甚麼了,或許和母親訴心事的感覺就是如此,她的一字一句把從很久以前就在裝睡的我「喚醒」了;也提醒我或許是時候要嘗試從房間裡踏出來了。8964 copyright protection339PENANAbt5tiwMPeI 維尼
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