天陰雨冷，我套上短褲波鞋前往戶外運動場。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RBt4OEjOt
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如我所料，跑道無人。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7kkvRpCXE
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我淺淺一笑，在場邊開始熱身操。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTFU6jMumR
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運動向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象，與壞天氣格格不入，但我偏偏更喜歡在如此晦暗不明的環境下慢跑。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny9xM5QV21
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踏，行，走，跑。步速漸快，呼吸漸促，身體漸暖。身體的熱，風雨的冷，對比強烈。正好——寒冷反襯出溫熱的舒適，壞天氣反襯出好天氣的可愛。壞天氣其實不是絕對的壞，對吧？259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6l8LkY9bf
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首圈，身體在冷與熱、繃緊與舒張之間來回探索、調整與適應。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk145FpE8du
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次圈，呼吸已然找到合適節奏，大腿肌肉的輕微抽筋狀態亦已退去。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdE9daFBo3X
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第三圈，精神開始失焦游離，在路面情況、身體狀態、生活瑣事、放空境界之間不停切換流轉。這種狀態持續至第六圈開始。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SQ4BtoKPv
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第六圈，精神狀態不得不回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣，務必倍加留意。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3orBYixvWL
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聽說，只消比自身極限多跑一步，極限就會多加一步。換言之，我每次的盡力與堅持均能將我的極限越臻極至。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3uPgBqcpJ
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多麼令人興奮的一回事！259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpY96A5pTA
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但問題是：我的極限處於甚麼程度？259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGD3r1eK8m9
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如果低估自身極限，我就難以推高真正的極限。如果高估自身極限，等如將自己置於危險當中，隨時丟命……259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZmwAd1DyM
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驀地，她的臉在我腦海掠過。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ160aT58h0r
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心神一亂，結果立見。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhyQ257u8Y
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跑，走，行，踏，踏踏踏踏。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOk6OWnW0i
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理智告訴我，無論多累多喘多痠，亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能馬上完全停步。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYF7loEuPn
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理智告訴我，她與我結伴慢跑多年，不會不明白這道理。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mlXujF4kN
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理智的我不明白，為何她會選擇馬上停下來？259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dXM4EisJG
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毫無頭緒。但我渴求答案。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqyacqL8CV
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不應深究已成定局的往事。但我愛她。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXrDkl6dCW
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天人交戰，在我這木訥的表情下，在這風雨橫飛的運動場上。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKJjFp6Pzi
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我斷然放下水樽，重回跑道上。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMavyrhF6tF
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踏，行，走，跑，嘗試遠離一切胡思亂想。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwuFSpcdb4
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耳邊倏忽傳來腳步聲。那節奏、那力道、那速度，統統讓我聯想起那早已離世的她……259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoVPpk56mn
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工作上，她高估自身極限，對自己施加巨大壓力，結果承受不來。向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象的她彷彿成了另一個人，經常默默啜泣，面容陰冷。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKshuymAmZ1
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我開解說人生路漫長，難免遇上困境，要給予自身適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能輕言放棄。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyOzWIHqLf
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她問我是否愛她。我說我愛她。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRY6corzbqA
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她問我能否理解她的選擇。我說我能，因為我們結伴多年。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNxyVhlL9O
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她報以淺淺一笑。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lMQNbYeHS
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某個陰冷雨天，她獨個兒在無人的運動場上跑步，猝死……259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14H5GGcDp8
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天色依然陰暗，雨水依然冰冷，耳邊依然響起不存在的腳步聲，我依然跑著。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQbFBXHwAT
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她在耳邊問我是否愛她。我哭訴我愛她。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFbf2Pq5ss
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她在耳邊問我能否理解她的選擇。我喊嚷我不能，即便我們結伴多年。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3C567fW6td
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她在耳邊提示說，既然沒能理解，精神狀態就要回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣，務必倍加留意。亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能馬上完全停步。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13pK0EEK3w
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跑，走，行，踏，踏踏踏踏。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlR4jsRcCZO
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我沒有馬上完全停步，給予自身適應變化的時間與空間。無論多累多喘多痠，我誓要好好完成整段人生路。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWE8QS3Xg1
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