天陰雨冷，我套上短褲波鞋前往戶外運動場。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cRIqYzU22
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如我所料，跑道無人。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lX4dVZA41
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我淺淺一笑，在場邊開始熱身操。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCVAeD7QBG
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運動向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象，與壞天氣格格不入，但我偏偏更喜歡在如此晦暗不明的環境下慢跑。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTp7kODCVwu
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踏，行，走，跑。步速漸快，呼吸漸促，身體漸暖。身體的熱，風雨的冷，對比強烈。正好——寒冷反襯出溫熱的舒適，壞天氣反襯出好天氣的可愛。壞天氣其實不是絕對的壞，對吧？259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrZRAm43q0
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首圈，身體在冷與熱、繃緊與舒張之間來回探索、調整與適應。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHqVtKuylX
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次圈，呼吸已然找到合適節奏，大腿肌肉的輕微抽筋狀態亦已退去。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jAhbf4enQ
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第三圈，精神開始失焦游離，在路面情況、身體狀態、生活瑣事、放空境界之間不停切換流轉。這種狀態持續至第六圈開始。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDOIZkwdIi
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第六圈，精神狀態不得不回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣，務必倍加留意。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkc0YmjgRKv
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聽說，只消比自身極限多跑一步，極限就會多加一步。換言之，我每次的盡力與堅持均能將我的極限越臻極至。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1UT3O9QG0
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多麼令人興奮的一回事！259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dKkR3SizQ
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但問題是：我的極限處於甚麼程度？259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHLuaypP8f
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如果低估自身極限，我就難以推高真正的極限。如果高估自身極限，等如將自己置於危險當中，隨時丟命……259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmESFGMUcqi
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驀地，她的臉在我腦海掠過。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPTl3TFsAW
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心神一亂，結果立見。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnB0wy4Jtn
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跑，走，行，踏，踏踏踏踏。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52DNvHknQE
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理智告訴我，無論多累多喘多痠，亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能馬上完全停步。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdLq9KzaPK
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理智告訴我，她與我結伴慢跑多年，不會不明白這道理。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2Yp2Ed0tn
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理智的我不明白，為何她會選擇馬上停下來？259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV500dHMYnq
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毫無頭緒。但我渴求答案。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXF44YpwUW8
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不應深究已成定局的往事。但我愛她。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxA2gr8hheD
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天人交戰，在我這木訥的表情下，在這風雨橫飛的運動場上。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVv6PDya38i
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我斷然放下水樽，重回跑道上。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHsAW3Xy6L
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踏，行，走，跑，嘗試遠離一切胡思亂想。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6lA5GiRBU
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耳邊倏忽傳來腳步聲。那節奏、那力道、那速度，統統讓我聯想起那早已離世的她……259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2V4YzrSAJ
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工作上，她高估自身極限，對自己施加巨大壓力，結果承受不來。向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象的她彷彿成了另一個人，經常默默啜泣，面容陰冷。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VzKfQfIY2
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我開解說人生路漫長，難免遇上困境，要給予自身適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能輕言放棄。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqSHE8pKuq
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她問我是否愛她。我說我愛她。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiAgml4kMD
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她問我能否理解她的選擇。我說我能，因為我們結伴多年。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDlGWCf627
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她報以淺淺一笑。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrqeUo4zpb
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某個陰冷雨天，她獨個兒在無人的運動場上跑步，猝死……259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfdTQd6kaH
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天色依然陰暗，雨水依然冰冷，耳邊依然響起不存在的腳步聲，我依然跑著。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrTOogwX9s
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她在耳邊問我是否愛她。我哭訴我愛她。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ475Yw82eYM
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她在耳邊問我能否理解她的選擇。我喊嚷我不能，即便我們結伴多年。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPu0nM79uw8
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她在耳邊提示說，既然沒能理解，精神狀態就要回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣，務必倍加留意。亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能馬上完全停步。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmR9lbjlwqC
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跑，走，行，踏，踏踏踏踏。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhN50eWvlY4
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我沒有馬上完全停步，給予自身適應變化的時間與空間。無論多累多喘多痠，我誓要好好完成整段人生路。259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfQPeEtbnW
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