天陰雨冷，我套上短褲波鞋前往戶外運動場。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GiYdGPOaz
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如我所料，跑道無人。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sSJVzLc0Z
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我淺淺一笑，在場邊開始熱身操。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9tn29DESy
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運動向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象，與壞天氣格格不入，但我偏偏更喜歡在如此晦暗不明的環境下慢跑。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3UJj6Pjwm
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踏，行，走，跑。步速漸快，呼吸漸促，身體漸暖。身體的熱，風雨的冷，對比強烈。正好——寒冷反襯出溫熱的舒適，壞天氣反襯出好天氣的可愛。壞天氣其實不是絕對的壞，對吧？258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKUZuCp2A7
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首圈，身體在冷與熱、繃緊與舒張之間來回探索、調整與適應。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrAx1YUR9A
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次圈，呼吸已然找到合適節奏，大腿肌肉的輕微抽筋狀態亦已退去。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVscs3KMwO
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第三圈，精神開始失焦游離，在路面情況、身體狀態、生活瑣事、放空境界之間不停切換流轉。這種狀態持續至第六圈開始。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLyQFwg5ha
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第六圈，精神狀態不得不回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣，務必倍加留意。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3Bw6lzQtP
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聽說，只消比自身極限多跑一步，極限就會多加一步。換言之，我每次的盡力與堅持均能將我的極限越臻極至。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgwmVuEsPP
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多麼令人興奮的一回事！258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMrSMup6bq
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但問題是：我的極限處於甚麼程度？258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziie70y6ny
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如果低估自身極限，我就難以推高真正的極限。如果高估自身極限，等如將自己置於危險當中，隨時丟命……258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwZxgnsmpw
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驀地，她的臉在我腦海掠過。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqG5rjgTES6
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心神一亂，結果立見。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADPHhQD80F
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跑，走，行，踏，踏踏踏踏。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanxjDNlhs3
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理智告訴我，無論多累多喘多痠，亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能馬上完全停步。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLSlvEaqn9
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理智告訴我，她與我結伴慢跑多年，不會不明白這道理。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvcuOR9WQ4
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理智的我不明白，為何她會選擇馬上停下來？258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzhuS9suYE
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毫無頭緒。但我渴求答案。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsG2VQRgyd
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不應深究已成定局的往事。但我愛她。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4D7bpjEwc
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天人交戰，在我這木訥的表情下，在這風雨橫飛的運動場上。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDxslYiMZ4
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我斷然放下水樽，重回跑道上。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHjTDVSD2N
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踏，行，走，跑，嘗試遠離一切胡思亂想。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSnOUAkZTF
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耳邊倏忽傳來腳步聲。那節奏、那力道、那速度，統統讓我聯想起那早已離世的她……258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWu5Xelxf5j
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工作上，她高估自身極限，對自己施加巨大壓力，結果承受不來。向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象的她彷彿成了另一個人，經常默默啜泣，面容陰冷。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzY3fDzGYl
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我開解說人生路漫長，難免遇上困境，要給予自身適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能輕言放棄。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT246ltdR1r
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她問我是否愛她。我說我愛她。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6AI8TnceF
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她問我能否理解她的選擇。我說我能，因為我們結伴多年。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzH87sNZqW8
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她報以淺淺一笑。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrJYHUQiQO
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某個陰冷雨天，她獨個兒在無人的運動場上跑步，猝死……258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuPS8IIUAU
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天色依然陰暗，雨水依然冰冷，耳邊依然響起不存在的腳步聲，我依然跑著。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuu0zVW3Puv
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她在耳邊問我是否愛她。我哭訴我愛她。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjgai21LeG
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她在耳邊問我能否理解她的選擇。我喊嚷我不能，即便我們結伴多年。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oPdpDmE1x
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她在耳邊提示說，既然沒能理解，精神狀態就要回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣，務必倍加留意。亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能馬上完全停步。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAoPk4xD5H
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跑，走，行，踏，踏踏踏踏。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcVju3C1mL
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我沒有馬上完全停步，給予自身適應變化的時間與空間。無論多累多喘多痠，我誓要好好完成整段人生路。258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCED1vSEoH
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