天陰雨冷,我套上短褲波鞋前往戶外運動場。147Please respect copyright.PENANA38iHwTu9Aa
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如我所料,跑道無人。147Please respect copyright.PENANAQpwEuRpLBQ
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我淺淺一笑,在場邊開始熱身操。147Please respect copyright.PENANAMJ6Cymgrx2
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運動向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象,與壞天氣格格不入,但我偏偏更喜歡在如此晦暗不明的環境下慢跑。147Please respect copyright.PENANALst8R5TQWx
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踏,行,走,跑。步速漸快,呼吸漸促,身體漸暖。身體的熱,風雨的冷,對比強烈。正好——寒冷反襯出溫熱的舒適,壞天氣反襯出好天氣的可愛。壞天氣其實不是絕對的壞,對吧?147Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6PPaahtqx
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首圈,身體在冷與熱、繃緊與舒張之間來回探索、調整與適應。147Please respect copyright.PENANAaKe88dmYRw
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次圈,呼吸已然找到合適節奏,大腿肌肉的輕微抽筋狀態亦已退去。147Please respect copyright.PENANAvpnl4V0mjZ
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第三圈,精神開始失焦游離,在路面情況、身體狀態、生活瑣事、放空境界之間不停切換流轉。這種狀態持續至第六圈開始。147Please respect copyright.PENANARs03YjWxRH
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第六圈,精神狀態不得不回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣,務必倍加留意。147Please respect copyright.PENANA3xn0nN685x
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聽說,只消比自身極限多跑一步,極限就會多加一步。換言之,我每次的盡力與堅持均能將我的極限越臻極至。147Please respect copyright.PENANA3x8IH3Kokj
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多麼令人興奮的一回事!147Please respect copyright.PENANAkaDxTD1OnX
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但問題是:我的極限處於甚麼程度?147Please respect copyright.PENANAnbuIqMwnOl
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如果低估自身極限,我就難以推高真正的極限。如果高估自身極限,等如將自己置於危險當中,隨時丟命……147Please respect copyright.PENANA69tOxsQ0ij
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驀地,她的臉在我腦海掠過。147Please respect copyright.PENANAZorrUo4ntj
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心神一亂,結果立見。147Please respect copyright.PENANAB0ZvifEaVr
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跑,走,行,踏,踏踏踏踏。147Please respect copyright.PENANA3mq8o44tAV
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理智告訴我,無論多累多喘多痠,亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間,萬萬不能馬上完全停步。147Please respect copyright.PENANADhHcI7X6gP
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理智告訴我,她與我結伴慢跑多年,不會不明白這道理。147Please respect copyright.PENANAHENXStKTOb
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理智的我不明白,為何她會選擇馬上停下來?147Please respect copyright.PENANAeqrvh3SlhW
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毫無頭緒。但我渴求答案。147Please respect copyright.PENANA9e14QsSixe
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不應深究已成定局的往事。但我愛她。147Please respect copyright.PENANA5IwX1RquGj
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天人交戰,在我這木訥的表情下,在這風雨橫飛的運動場上。147Please respect copyright.PENANAMgjFosmQOT
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我斷然放下水樽,重回跑道上。147Please respect copyright.PENANAAij00PW5Vy
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踏,行,走,跑,嘗試遠離一切胡思亂想。147Please respect copyright.PENANAToIkNkmhue
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耳邊倏忽傳來腳步聲。那節奏、那力道、那速度,統統讓我聯想起那早已離世的她……147Please respect copyright.PENANAicwXPBniOs
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工作上,她高估自身極限,對自己施加巨大壓力,結果承受不來。向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象的她彷彿成了另一個人,經常默默啜泣,面容陰冷。147Please respect copyright.PENANAFGDpsG7cIP
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我開解說人生路漫長,難免遇上困境,要給予自身適應變化的時間與空間,萬萬不能輕言放棄。147Please respect copyright.PENANActbI9EO1cG
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她問我是否愛她。我說我愛她。147Please respect copyright.PENANAVcYaGPPxak
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她問我能否理解她的選擇。我說我能,因為我們結伴多年。147Please respect copyright.PENANAVXIe1jkQyF
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她報以淺淺一笑。147Please respect copyright.PENANA9iX0G6BZXB
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某個陰冷雨天,她獨個兒在無人的運動場上跑步,猝死……147Please respect copyright.PENANAcwouJk1lUh
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天色依然陰暗,雨水依然冰冷,耳邊依然響起不存在的腳步聲,我依然跑著。147Please respect copyright.PENANA2qCMp2v3ML
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她在耳邊問我是否愛她。我哭訴我愛她。147Please respect copyright.PENANA3IVyRDKRDo
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她在耳邊問我能否理解她的選擇。我喊嚷我不能,即便我們結伴多年。147Please respect copyright.PENANA1ZwAWvW3qQ
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她在耳邊提示說,既然沒能理解,精神狀態就要回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣,務必倍加留意。亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間,萬萬不能馬上完全停步。147Please respect copyright.PENANA2CMQZceIQT
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跑,走,行,踏,踏踏踏踏。147Please respect copyright.PENANAgUwRUqFGG2
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我沒有馬上完全停步,給予自身適應變化的時間與空間。無論多累多喘多痠,我誓要好好完成整段人生路。147Please respect copyright.PENANARCo7Iwk5al
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