天陰雨冷，我套上短褲波鞋前往戶外運動場。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxxZkcbXpm
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如我所料，跑道無人。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsr9jARO0c2
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我淺淺一笑，在場邊開始熱身操。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeee7Q3m6Xf
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運動向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象，與壞天氣格格不入，但我偏偏更喜歡在如此晦暗不明的環境下慢跑。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZvvpP5BwR
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踏，行，走，跑。步速漸快，呼吸漸促，身體漸暖。身體的熱，風雨的冷，對比強烈。正好——寒冷反襯出溫熱的舒適，壞天氣反襯出好天氣的可愛。壞天氣其實不是絕對的壞，對吧？229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLApmbuaG6
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首圈，身體在冷與熱、繃緊與舒張之間來回探索、調整與適應。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknCN18oZB1
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次圈，呼吸已然找到合適節奏，大腿肌肉的輕微抽筋狀態亦已退去。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZ6Y1k6rZa
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第三圈，精神開始失焦游離，在路面情況、身體狀態、生活瑣事、放空境界之間不停切換流轉。這種狀態持續至第六圈開始。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuXqAtBeLc
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第六圈，精神狀態不得不回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣，務必倍加留意。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8r0vqolMIv
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聽說，只消比自身極限多跑一步，極限就會多加一步。換言之，我每次的盡力與堅持均能將我的極限越臻極至。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCMThrqiwL
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多麼令人興奮的一回事！229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Af04dNk7J
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但問題是：我的極限處於甚麼程度？229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHlKBzXqWW
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如果低估自身極限，我就難以推高真正的極限。如果高估自身極限，等如將自己置於危險當中，隨時丟命……229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvy1NSNQ2Nq
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驀地，她的臉在我腦海掠過。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6jBsA6Dkv
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心神一亂，結果立見。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oqp1810cn
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跑，走，行，踏，踏踏踏踏。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtze7xfygD
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理智告訴我，無論多累多喘多痠，亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能馬上完全停步。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2PWQdrXZe
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理智告訴我，她與我結伴慢跑多年，不會不明白這道理。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTYqCfVULE
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理智的我不明白，為何她會選擇馬上停下來？229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprV3eikVYD
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毫無頭緒。但我渴求答案。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYy8n0DTqb
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不應深究已成定局的往事。但我愛她。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYsFojTuMN
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天人交戰，在我這木訥的表情下，在這風雨橫飛的運動場上。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjff5YkF14j
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我斷然放下水樽，重回跑道上。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo294XQ7izg
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踏，行，走，跑，嘗試遠離一切胡思亂想。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3WqzPx6h1
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耳邊倏忽傳來腳步聲。那節奏、那力道、那速度，統統讓我聯想起那早已離世的她……229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9DBgxdfsM
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工作上，她高估自身極限，對自己施加巨大壓力，結果承受不來。向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象的她彷彿成了另一個人，經常默默啜泣，面容陰冷。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXPFkmE3om
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我開解說人生路漫長，難免遇上困境，要給予自身適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能輕言放棄。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7iWciETwn
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她問我是否愛她。我說我愛她。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqqwdijzzA
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她問我能否理解她的選擇。我說我能，因為我們結伴多年。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzrl6KHHc0
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她報以淺淺一笑。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlQl4Au6kg
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某個陰冷雨天，她獨個兒在無人的運動場上跑步，猝死……229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLspfMq9jH0
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天色依然陰暗，雨水依然冰冷，耳邊依然響起不存在的腳步聲，我依然跑著。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYuB1VG9dD
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她在耳邊問我是否愛她。我哭訴我愛她。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdy9PuJhW6i
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她在耳邊問我能否理解她的選擇。我喊嚷我不能，即便我們結伴多年。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLAfwfbUXX
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她在耳邊提示說，既然沒能理解，精神狀態就要回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣，務必倍加留意。亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能馬上完全停步。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaySCOII1b7
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跑，走，行，踏，踏踏踏踏。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIaV88BxS7
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我沒有馬上完全停步，給予自身適應變化的時間與空間。無論多累多喘多痠，我誓要好好完成整段人生路。229Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkdDWJoqRj
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