Pairings: Jensen X Actress! Reader, Dean Winchester X Hunter! Reader Ex!Jared X Reader
Warnings: angst for Dean X Bell (the reader), fluffy goodness for Jensen X Reader, and a groveling!Jared,
Word Count: 1895
A/N: Also, for this to all make sense, let’s pretend that Richard Speight Jr. has been a director since the beginning ;)13Please respect copyright.PENANAo98jdc8jjd
With the intention of suppressing the tears that climb up the back of your throat, your eyes seat on Dean’s neck, watching the lump move with his words but letting them bounce off of your ears and fall to the ground. Yet, as if they are knives, the words cut through your shield like it isn’t there at all, “please talk to me,” he mutters, shaking his head.
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His hands rest between his knees as he sits leaning against the concrete wall in a dark alley. With merely a racking grumble from you, he stands to get closer, “Bell, come on. You know I’m not one to get on my knees and - and start begging, but damn it -” the words drain from him with no restrictions, bypassing all of his internal warnings and silencing every alarm on their way out - “you gotta let me in. You have to let me help you,” he weightily hums, slowly bringing a hand to your arm.
Rejecting him, by way of turning around, the tears finally breakthrough into silence, “no, Dean,” you croak, bowing your head. “I’m sorry, I… can’t.”
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Gripping onto your arms, he twists you around to face him, bringing your attention to his drooping face. “Why?” His words are more strict now, but lacking the confidence he had before like he’s fighting with himself behind the scenes.
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“It’s - it’s too much,” you belt out, looking up at him with unblinking eyes.
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His face cramps, “what?” The breath he lets out stokes the fire in his chest. Letting go of your arms he turns around, careful not to burn you with his words, “Crowley got to you, didn’t he? That son of a -”
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“No! Dean,” you say, shaking your head, but replaying Crowley’s vicious threats in your mind. “I just don’t know how much longer I can keep up with this,” you stutter, eyes shifting down to the static, grey concrete, “the visions, the circus, Crowley, the Djinn…”
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As he flips around, your eyes meet with his and the words roll off of your tongue without permission, “lying to you, keeping secrets.” As soon as it was said, you wanted to take it back.
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You know how he hides behind impassivity, but the story is as old as time. Written all over his face is a blend of confusion and heartache that ferment inside of him. “Secrets?” he says, voice calmer than anything said prior.
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“I - I,” you sputter out, not quite sure what to offer given that the words were never meant to surface - not yet. Filling with a roaring heat, despite the brisk wind that rolls through, your cheeks brighten and flush.
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“Bell,” Dean urges. As you cringe away from the name, he takes small steps towards you. Head tilting to the side as his lips fold down, his eyes lose whatever spark they had left. With a single sentence, you had distinguished the fire that was smoldering in him, replacing it with an icy stupor. “Lying about what?”
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You throw your night-chilled hands onto your face in an attempt to abate the emotional fever that grows over your body. You’re unsure of how long they were there before he pulls your arms down to your sides.
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Holding your wrists firmly, he almost forces you to keep eye contact with the way his cheeks and eyes swell, “what aren’t you telling me? Are you saying that - that this-” lifting a hand, his finger wags between the two of you.
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With your free hand, you grip onto his and bring it to your chest, “no, listen,” you say, sighing through the words. Closing your eyes, you concede, “I’m just… not who you think I am.”
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“What?” A bitterness flows through his words that don’t feel entirely placed on you, and you know as well as anyone that no matter what is done to him, Dean will always take partial, if not all, blame.
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You shake your head, opening your eyes to face the blazing that returns to his, “and you’re not either. I will explain everything to you. Please - please, you have to trust that I did this, all of it, for the right reasons,” you gasp, clutching onto his shirt as if it’s the rope keeping you from falling down the face of a mountain. Relaxing into a deep breath, you release your grip, “please tell me you trust me.”
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He only nods, keeping his frown as his eyes bounce on your features.
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Regaining composure, you soften your voice. “None of this is real,” you say, lifting your hand to stroke the tear from his cheek. “What you saw - when the Djinn had you - it wasn’t a dream at all,” you say, shaking your head delicately.
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“My name is Y/N,” you say slowly, “I’m - I’m an actress, and -” you look at the lines on your hands, suddenly feeling silly about ever confusing the two in the first place.
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Jensen had suggested that with the show’s ending, exposing the ‘truth’ to Dean and Sam would make for an interesting finale twist, as well as helping you to find some closure in what was once called an ‘issue’.
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“I’m not the only one who knew,” you say, voice cracking. “Gabriel,” you say, letting out a small laugh. “Richard is his real name, and he’s a very smart man,” you say, clicking your tongue. “He knew how to create a world in which we wouldn’t know who we were, and had to fight monsters - said it would make for one hell of a show, and when I found out the truth - he decided it was time to give it up,” you sigh, shrugging lightly. “Game over. We can be happy like you saw in your dream. We can smile, and live and enjoy all the things we can’t in this world.”
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“No,” he says, shaking his head. “No, this is just another dream isn’t it? I’m somewhere tied up, getting the life sucked out of me and I’m gonna die if I don't wake up, right?” he shouts.
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“No, no,” you say, resting a hand on his chest, and using the other to pull him closer, “listen, this is real,” you say, opening your body to point towards the glow of the lights. “Open your eyes, Jensen,” you whisper. “This is what is real,” you say, watching as his eyes go wide in understanding.
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The camera pans away from the two of you and exposes the set and crew. You step towards the lights, focusing more on your steps than your surroundings. When it occurs to you that the director had called for the scene to end, you feel Jensen at your side. Letting the emotions from the scene out in one breath, you glance up at him, trying to remind yourself of the tips you’d received from his friend yesterday.
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Jensen must have taken notice of the way your eyes went wide and the soft gasp that punched its way out as he wrapped an arm around your shoulders and pulled you into him; a gentle and subtle way of bringing you back to reality - where you intend on staying forever.
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The room erupts into applause and cheer, bringing your attention to the rest of the crew. Mark and Misha walk towards you, Jared, and a few directors not far behind them and all wearing big smiles.
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A feeling of accomplishment and euphoria flows through you, brandishing a smile on your face as the group of people who had quickly become your family pulls you into a hug. Letting go, you accept the congratulations and pats on the back as they all filter away all while keeping your smile. Until you see Jared, his eyes planted on you.
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When he sees you looking at him, he uses his hands to signal that you step towards him. Hesitantly, you follow him to a somewhat secluded area of the set.
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“She said you talked to her,” he starts in a hushed whisper, looking around for listeners. Stepping forward, he bows his head and keeps his voice quiet, “you told her you lied?”
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You scan his face for any sign of censure. Instead, his voice is chipper, almost delighted or thrilled that you had lied in his favor. You lower your head, focusing on your feet while collecting your thoughts.
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Looking back up at him, you shrug, “I’ll tell you what I told Jensen,” you sigh. Opening your mouth, your jaw dangles and you struggle with the words, “I - I,” shaking your head, you look back at your feet.
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“Thank you,” he says, cutting into the silence. He lays a hand on your arm, pulling your eyes up to his. A heat fills you, and you almost regret making the decision to call her.
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The way he speaks to you now makes it sound like he expected you to fix things. Taking a deep breath, you keep quiet and hope for him to just leave things as is and walk away. But he steps closer, “look, Y/N,” he sighs. “I’m sorry. I was and have been extremely unfair to you,” he shakes his head. “I realize now that I don’t deserve this chance you’ve given me and I certainly never deserved you,” he says.
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Your eyes meet up with his as you let out a long breath. Unsure of what to say, your mouth gapes open, small and imperceptible sounds escaping in the absence of a well-formed sentence.
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By now, Jensen was approaching you slowly. Eyebrows folded down into a frown, he places a hand on your back. You let out another breath in relief. Jared shifts his eyes to Jensen, letting his face relax somberly as he holds a hand out to him, “Jay,” he says, shaking his head. “I’m sorry, man. I have been-”
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“Don’t apologize to me, man. Apologize to her,” Jensen says without relenting the anger in his face and keeping a hand on your back.
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“I - I have,” Jared says in a breath and looking over at you. “Y/N, I am incredibly sorry. I was acting irrationally and without thinking. Can I ask-” he pauses, taking a slow breath “Can I ask why you lied to her?”
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Looking up at Jensen, you lean into him. “One of the most painful things I’ve ever been through was getting cheated on,” you say, focusing back on Jared and building confidence as you go, “I was really mad at her for a long time. But I realized that the only person I should have been angry with was you. Even though I really, really wanted her to hurt like I was hurting, it wouldn’t solve anything.”
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Nodding away, Jared attentively listens to you as you speak. Jensen’s hand has moved from your back to your hip. Wrapping your arm around his torso, you look into his sparkling eyes and smile before focusing back on Jared. “I’m not angry anymore. I’ve moved on,” you shrug. “And all I want from this is for you to leave me alone.”
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He nods again, looking between the two of you before walking away. Rotating around to face Jensen, you bring your other arm around and pull him into a hug.
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“Let’s go home,” he says with a smile as you pull away.
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“Home?” you say, eyes lit with ardor and confusion.
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“Home,” he smiles.
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