我青梅竹馬同咗個死MK仔一齊//《不懂愛的青梅竹馬們》 - 【第五章性愛背叛】

我同小璇一齊咗一個月之後我先同阿敏講我同佢拍拖。

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阿敏聽到之後唔係太驚訝，反而繼續默默咁煮飯，仲叫我好好對待小璇，又恭喜我搵到個好女朋友。

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我開頭仲怕佢會因為我有女朋友而唔開心，我仲同佢講我唔會因為有咗女朋友而唔陪佢。

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阿敏呢個平淡反應實在係最好嘅結果，又唔洗嘈交，又可以繼續維繫我同阿敏呢段關係。

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見到阿敏嘅反應，失落嘅竟然係我。

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其實同咗小璇一齊之後，我有驚過失去阿敏，我怕佢會因為我有女朋友而避忌去疏遠我。

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我哋一齊咗咁多年都從未拆夥，阿敏默默咁為我張羅，有咩心事又可以互相分享，我哋互訴心事而不尷尬，呢種獨有而舒服嘅相處方式係我哋兩個先有。

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我有問過自己係咪鐘意阿敏，以前我可以好肯定咁講唔係，但係而家我覺得或多或少我係鐘意阿敏。呢份心意喺小璇同我表明之後我先發現。

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但係時間已過，我依家已經有女朋友。

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阿敏問過我係咪好鐘意小璇，我老實答佢唔係，只係當時氣氛推動下先同佢一齊。阿敏點點頭就無咗答我。

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自此之後，我哋開始有道牆係中間，我哋開始收埋一樣嘢係心中唔同對方講。

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隔膜。

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我同小璇一齊，而我或者更鐘意阿敏。

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賤種。

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每日回家前嘅時間屬於小璇，晚上嘅時間就歸於阿敏。

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無論如何，時間會係不知不覺間流逝，我同小璇一齊咗六個月，又到咗暑假，我哋即將升到去中五。

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呢半年我哋平平淡淡地渡過，無乜爭執，而小璇就繼續帶我去唔同地方玩。

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中四最後一個上課天，落堂之後我同小璇霸咗一間班房傾計。

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霸班房傾計係我哋兩個嘅習慣，我哋平時放學都會去一間無一嘅班房傾計傾到其他人走曬我哋先走。

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「其實我哋拍咗拖都半年，你會唔會想試下做啲其他嘢？」

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小璇無啦啦咁問。

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「咩特別嘢？」

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「我今晚屋企無人呀，不如你上嚟玩？」

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「唔係咁好喎，俾你爸爸媽媽知道好大鑊㗎。」

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「唔怕啦。得我哋兩個，我哋可以玩好多嘢喎⋯⋯」

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「唔係咁好嘅。」

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小璇怕怕羞羞咁再講：「你唔會想同我試下咩⋯⋯」

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小璇細細聲咁講，我嚇咗一跳，估唔到小璇會同我講性。

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小璇咁可愛，有得做當然好，但我好驚返唔到轉頭。

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或者我呢刻仲未係好鐘意小璇，如果我同佢做咗嘅話，或者一切都返唔到轉頭，所以我一直都無對小璇出手。

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我驚乜嘢返唔到轉頭？

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當然，我可以好肯定我依家係好鐘意小璇，係有對女朋友嘅愛。

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但係我仲有唔去傷害佢嘅勇氣，所以我一直都無對佢出手。

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點解會係傷害？

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「想就想嘅，你咁可愛。」

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拍拖半年，我哋同對方傾計都直接咗好多，我都唔太怕有嗰句講嗰句。

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我再講：「但係我哋仲細，一個唔小心你有咗BB就大鑊啦。」

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「咁有好多保護措施㗎嘛，但你一直都無試過掂我，摸都無摸過呀⋯⋯」小璇兩隻手指互相篤住咁講。

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「考完DSE再諗好唔好呀？」

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我未準備好同小璇做愛，拖得就拖。

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如果做咗，我怕就會將一切塵埃落定。

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我未準備好。

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但我又要準備啲乜？

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我又怕乜嘢會塵埃落嚟？

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準備安全套嘅話其實我一早買咗放咗係屋企。

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「其實你係唔係唔鐘意我啦？你鐘意我嘅點解會唔想同我做？」

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小璇開始流淚，喊到眼都紅曬。

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或者我真係未係好鐘意小璇，又或者我心中有另一個鐘意嘅人，總之我就係好怕同佢發生性關係。

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就算我真係有另一個鐘意嘅人，呢刻嘅我已經同咗小璇一齊，我嘅心靈已經屬於咗佢，就係咪失去咪肉體，其實唔係咁大不了。

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但我好怕連肉體都失去埋，一切就返唔到轉頭。

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結果肉體成為我最後堅守嘅嘢。

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為咗自己、為咗小璇、為咗唔好返唔到轉頭、為咗唔好泥足深陷，我頂住呢條最後防線。

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但到底係為咗啲乜？為咗邊個？

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其實我未係好鐘意小璇，但我就要呃佢同呃埋自己，我要同自己講因為我係佢男朋友所以我要鐘意佢。

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倒果為因。

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「因為我好怕傷害你。」

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虛偽。

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「我唔怕呀⋯⋯」

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小璇就算發脾氣，佢都保持平時嘅陰聲細氣。

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「但係⋯⋯」

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「你係愛我嘅點會唔想同我都做？你連摸我都無試過呀⋯⋯」

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小璇開始發脾氣，我無諗過唔做愛都會係一個問題，明明唔做愛會嬲嘅應該係男仔先啱。

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「無啦啦做乜講呢樣呀？」

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「大家都係拍拖兩、三個月就會做愛，係得我哋半年都未做咋。如果你係鐘意我嘅話點會唔掂我？你連摸下我都無呀。」

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小璇就算嬲都唔會大聲講嘢，佢嘅聲線好似同佢嘅軟弱連埋咗一齊。

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「做咩呀⋯⋯」

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「我覺得你唔愛我啦！」

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小璇或多或少都感受到我諗乜，我冇完全愛佢佢都感受到。

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「點會呀？」我伸手去攬住小璇，但小璇就講：「唔好掂我呀！」

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我即刻放開手，然後氣上心頭。

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「你頭先先話我唔肯掂你。」

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「你根本就唔明！」小璇開始大聲。

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「我係唔明你嬲乜。」

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「係你唔愛我呀！」

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「性同愛係分開㗎。」我講出心底嘅諗法。

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「你有愛就想要埋性㗎啦，但係你完全唔想同我做！一係你係出面有人同你食飽咗，一係就你根本就唔鐘意我！」小璇已經嬲到傻傻地。

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「兩樣都唔係呀。」我解釋。

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「咁你係咪鐘意咗第二個？」小璇越嚟越無道理。

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「無呀。」

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「咁我問你一次，你會唔會想同我做愛？」小璇語氣漸重。

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「好重要咩？」我反問。

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「我係你女朋友呀！」小璇已經慶過火屎。

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「你俾啲時間我得唔得？」我又拖，佢表白嘅時候我已經拖過一次。

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「要時間做乜？」

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我去攬住小璇，非常用力的，為免佢走甩。

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「你係我女朋友。」小璇強調。

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俾我攬住嘅小璇聽到就開始伏係我心口喊。

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喊咗一段時間之後，佢就細細力推開我。

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「對唔住，突然發脾氣。」

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「唔緊要，我送你返屋企休息下先？」

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「唔洗啦，我想自己一個返去。」

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「真係唔洗？陪你坐到返將軍澳？」

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「好。」

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我同小璇不發一語咁拖住小璇行去地鐵站，到咗將軍澳之後小璇不發一語咁走返屋企，我目送到佢離開我視線範圍先走返屋企。

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當晚佢whatsapp話不如分開冷靜下，即係分手，我覆咗佢好就無再搵佢。

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出乎意料地我竟然會心痛，我以前都唔知原來人真係唔開心嘅時候係真係會心痛。

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小璇話曬都伴我走過咗半年時光，佢作為我嘅引路人帶咗好多嘢俾我，令我見識多好多。

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因為佢，我唔再困係狹窄嘅單位入面。

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因為佢，我第一次確切咁感受到俾人鐘意。

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因為佢，我做咗好多以前無諗過嘅嘗試。

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或許就係呢半年時間入面，我慢慢累積咗對小璇嘅愛意。

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唔識愛人嘅我開始感受到鐘意呢種感覺，但就係呢個時候我失去了。

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小璇係第一個打開我嘅心嘅人，佢打開我嘅心令我感受到乜嘢去愛，佢令我嘗試去愛佢，即使步伐好慢，但我都開始改變。

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我哋去拍拖，佢帶我睇戲、掃街、攀石等等，一切都係我未見過嘅世界。

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小璇唔介意幫貧窮嘅我比錢去做呢一切，而我係呢半年就係一個食軟飯嘅賤男。

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以前唔能夠理解他人感受嘅我，係同小璇一齊之後越嚟越來感情變化。

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繽紛燦爛嘅新世界，其中心就係小璇。

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但係我嘅步伐始終太慢，我鐘意佢嘅速度趕唔上佢對我嘅渴求。

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呢一刻我心痛，或者我比我想像中已經更喜歡小璇。

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但我已經傷害咗佢。

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我想補償佢，但我或者只會再傷害佢。

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唔觸碰佢嘅肉體除咗保護佢更係保護我，對我嚟講係一個心理防線，係保護我自己唔好去失去最後嘅底線。就係因為我比起小璇更愛自己。

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最終，我仍然係不懂愛人。

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當晚食飯，我同阿敏講咗我同小璇嘈交，非常details咁講。

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阿敏話係我唔啱，叫我聽朝陪佢去買餸，佢要慢慢教訓我。

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結果佢一晚我哋冇搵過對方。

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小璇視覺

我係小璇，我同我男朋友樂仔拍拖半年，但佢半年都冇諗過同我做愛。

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或者有人會覺得奇怪，點解一個女仔會咁主動講性。

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係咪因為我性慾大？

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我可以好肯定咁講，唔係。

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只係身邊嘅每一對情侶，拍拖一兩個月就做愛。但係我就半年乜都無做過，樂仔連摸我都無。

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依家嘅中學生對性係咁開放㗎啦，對於我哋嚟講，性唔係乜嘢禁忌。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXw0Q0d9vB

所以，就我而言，破處對我嚟講唔係咁大心理關口。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmzA8qpn2i

處唔處女，處係咪俾老公，對我哋呢個世代嚟講其實唔係咁重要。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSq86MsdCi

或者咁講，我哋對性嘅接受程度俾上一代高好多。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLy24yWiFo5

性對我哋嚟講，除咗係一鐘享受，亦係一種表達愛嘅方式。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HJ86kOMxQ

返去個主題，我一直都未感覺到樂仔好鐘意我。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBF7FIO59b

一個青春期同我交往緊嘅男仔，竟然對我完全無性嘅興趣，佢係鐘意我嘅點會唔出手？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcY1t10oqGH

我未聽過有一對拍拖超過三個月嘅情侶係冇做愛嘅，最少同級嘅未聽過。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvGSLZQOBr

我知道樂仔一開始唔係太鐘意我，我哋半推半就先係埋一齊。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjRb8rvzCc

但就算唔係太鐘意，如果對我有啲感覺，佢點會唔想同我做？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbREhQIBPY1

就算一開始唔係太鐘意，隨時間過去，點解半年後都可以好似對我完全無性慾？

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佢係咪已經唔愛我？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEG34pvl4G3

定係佢由一開始只係唔小心答應咗同我一齊，而依家已經唔鐘意我，所以佢先唔出手？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNJ7VQXSgp

無論係邊種理由都好，佢唔掂我係事實。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡav8bVH6apb

我好驚佢唔愛我。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuq4eVpSZx

做咗愛唔代表愛，但唔做就一定代表佢對我冇feel。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBjmVNRZvS

所以，樂仔，可唔可以俾我知你愛我？

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第二朝同阿敏買完餸之後，就見到天文台掛颱風，我即刻打俾老媽子驚佢返唔切嚟。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV88LfI8mj0

「老媽子，打風呀，快啲返屋企啦。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YOSPzosU6

「一早知啦！我去咗陳師奶到打牌啦！聽日先返㗎啦！晚飯你同阿敏兩個食啦！」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmrukeRC9b

老媽子講完就秒速cut我線。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTp15Ioxbyr

「阿敏，我老媽子今晚唔返嚟，得我哋兩個食咋。」

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「係嘅。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGt3GwJgBBD

之後阿敏就專心煮飯，我就係到玩手機，出面就橫風橫雨。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCsHSPBSSo

我睇住小璇嘅whatsapp 顯示上線中，唔知佢屋企嗰邊係咪都係咁大雨。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm04vAUC18u

呢個同我交往半年嘅女仔，我哋第一次冷戰，我忐忑不安，好想搵佢但又唔想做主動嗰個。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8M6PMxDZQY

佢竟然typing，但好快就變返上線中，又變返typing。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGpn1doxvI

已經拍拖半年，我都未能夠全心全意去鍾意呢個女仔，或者我哋係時候分開，從一開始我哋根本唔應該一齊。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWddn6PiSp7

無論如何我已經傷害咗佢，我而家可以做嘅只係止蝕。

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但係我都開始鍾意小璇，依依不捨嘅感覺湧上心頭。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfiNLy0f2x

或者我同一開始一樣，只係鍾意佢鍾意我。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOsKJbycng

小璇帶俾我嘅景色絕對係真實，佢帶我發掘世界嘅悸動至今仍繞梁係我心中。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3p1JsUprPQ

雖然我知道我自己唔係全心全意去鍾意佢，但係我對佢嘅鍾意絕對係想交往嘅鍾意。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZvwOkLn7h

佢給予我心靈上滿足，但我又有冇比到心靈嘅滿足佢？我唔能夠令佢感受到愛，或者我對佢嘅愛未夠深。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLduOf2p24

佢甚至因為我心靈上俾唔到滿足佢，而期盼喺肉體上攞到一絲滿足。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWApYa2XMsS

分唔分手，this is the question。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3Wwxt55OX

阿敏好似睇穿咗我煩惱緊：「煩緊小璇？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU93qksbHiy

「係呀。我唔知要點做。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQ8ogrqyPD

「人哋咁鐘意你，你放手嘅以後就無機會。同埋人哋女仔嚟，你知唔個佢要幾大勇氣先咁同你講做愛？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO86Dx5F1ve

「我唔係唔想做呀，但就係有個心理關口。同埋佢都講咗分手啦。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUh6glWSlXM

阿敏熄咗爐頭嘅火，走過嚟梳化，佢用力拍咗我後腦一先再坐低。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOgocyyDMz

「你男人老狗有乜心理關口好驚？你無嘢蝕㗎喎。同埋女人嗌分手都係想你搵返佢姐。」阿敏講到頭頭是道。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmpkxg64kB

「我唔知自己係咪鐘意佢。」我坦言。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69YMl0hZyJ

「你一開始都有同我講只係對佢有小小好感，你哋咁樣都一齊到半年算好彩啦！」阿敏講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIIwR9GfKI

「你明明啱啱先叫我唔好放開呢個女仔。」我反駁。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOBj9bDhD5

「你係鐘意佢嘅你一早就追返佢啦，點會係到煩惱？」阿敏又點出重點。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPwP4YZbBf

「我係鐘意佢同阿敏一齊嘅時候就係咁，隨住時間過去仲越嚟越鐘意，但係始終好似去唔到愛個一步。」對住阿敏，我又坦白。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnztdZ37grO

可以非常放鬆咁暢所欲言，就好似有一個背後嘅支撐，一份安心嘅感覺。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Sy4SxTBOk

相處嘅時候無顧慮，平淡但係舒服而安心。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqCk1sNQnV

「或者你心入面有一個比小璇更鐘意嘅女人，所以你先唔能夠愛佢。」阿敏提出一個我無諗過嘅觀點。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZU5C65ITw

「有嘅話我點會唔知呀？」我又駁咀。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvL7z1Rfg88

「或者係你唔了解自己。」阿敏指住我心口講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScszwM2fx3

「總之依家分咗手啦。」我強調。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLxYpUMB4t

突然出面行雷，然後咁啱我屋企就跳制，停晒電，乜光都無，屋內漆黑一片。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgrA2XPxRz

「嘩！！！」忽然失去燈光嚇到了阿敏，佢大叫咗出聲。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZFgJMdfeb

「哈！！！」我大笑咗出聲：「你到依家都仲係咁怕黑。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDYh34zci8

講完我就打開手機嘅電筒，等間屋有小小光。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDv5PwQhyv

「咁人哋真係驚呀！」阿敏又鼓起塊面睥實我，平時成個大姐姐咁嘅佢依家成個小女孩咁。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywjCDyu37F

「無事無事。我依家去試下開返個總制。」我氹氹阿敏。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wmAQvxXcy

當我想行去廚房搵個電箱時，阿敏拉住我：「帶埋我一齊去。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PSH2zb8rY

「咁你跟住我啦。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Xd1aKfMcU

其實呢個單位就好細，由梳化行過去廚房個電箱都不過係幾步路，但怕黑嘅阿敏就乜都驚一餐，生怕我會掉低佢一個人。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaQa5TMukj

推返總制上去，無反應。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvc9A0NLJw

我望望窗外，發現其他單位都好黑，睇嚟係成棟大廈停咗電。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbLJfimxpd

「阿敏，係成棟大廈停電呀。」我講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UWGUzykic

「咁點算呀⋯⋯」阿敏震曬咁問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1bHBkrtzc

「我入房拎啲蠟燭出嚟啦。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡls7nIEdVhQ

「好呀。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWDBCO5uU9

阿敏跟住我入房拎蠟燭，我放咗幾枝入月餅罐再點著，雖然唔係話太光，但我都好清楚見到阿敏個樣。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLx9NTu6phN

阿敏見到個屋無咁黑之後就無咁驚，個人好似放鬆咗一啲。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEiUdqxSLb

「又會咁唔好彩停電。」阿敏講完就坐返去梳化，我都緊隨其後坐係佢旁邊。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHn4kM7mp9

「打風係咁㗎啦，加上我哋係垃圾公屋，啲設施點會好？」我抱怨。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSq9SO464wr

我哋坐係到等有返供電，各自係到滑手機。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28VWdOrfGW

黑暗加寧靜，二人獨處嘅環境，但絲毫沒有尷尬，呢個就係我哋，無需任何刻意，不用任何對話，我哋總能夠舒服咁相處。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLf0Vc1vDeM

「登登。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLdj20iTZB

收到信息嘅鈴聲劃破呢片寂靜，阿敏同我嘅視線同時俾我投放到我嘅電話螢幕上面。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbd4AMMj0J

係小璇。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIg7uS3FEOO

小璇：我唔係因為想做所以琴日同你講嗰段說話，我只係唔明如果你係愛我嘅點解會半年都唔出手。我明每對情侶都有自己嘅步伐，但係我感受同見唔到你想同我走去下一步，你連摸下我都無試過。我呢刻嘅情緒仲係好亂，所以你當分開下係俾啲時間我諗下。如果我之後搵返你，你又覺得我哋適合一齊嘅話，我哋先再拍拖啦。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1x3lypJRf

我同阿敏睇完段信息都無出聲。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnEmLNottl

我已經傷害咗小璇，因為我未準備好同未夠鐘意佢就同佢拍拖。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKxc5461hQ

我都開始輸入，我想同小璇講聲對唔住，但當我打算發送時，阿敏一手搶走我部電話。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgaK8gmRkn

「唔好覆。」阿敏講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdem6X5hcu4

「哦。」唔知點解我覺得要聽阿敏話，所以我都無駁嘴。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWpf1tL9Zc

「同我傾計。」阿敏講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJ1OHiVNcB

「無啦啦咁凝重。」我話。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3KfdLzmk1

「依家氣氛好好。有啲嘢我依家唔講，我之後可能無勇氣講。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpU7C6JrLvA

「講囉。」我答。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglhCsTWrJ4

「同佢分手啦，你明明有更好嘅人係身邊。」阿敏提出。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh23Frz8ObG

空氣又靜落嚟，出面嘅雨聲佔據咗成間屋。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdxJ3PnQdP

燭火不停搖擺，我哋嘅影子亦都不停擺動。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYkxPtC1xp

幽暗嘅密室，雨水嘅拍打，蠟燭嘅微光，浪漫嘅氛圍。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNBgn6lY6t

係外人眼中，或許我哋好似一對情侶。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcn1X3o6lgB

「其實你好優柔寡斷，搞到人對你好忟憎。」阿敏突然訴說對我嘅不滿，平時大大聲嘅阿敏忽然變得溫柔。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNPhRYgVL8

「但係我真係成日都落唔到決定。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41T9c9P7cv

「因為你唔成熟。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5syD1GsPyo

「我都唔想。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqK4Qm3Musg

「咁你咪改變。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LWq1xaGqx

「但係⋯⋯」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwL9snqR0I

「唔好搵藉口，呢個係你另一個缺點。你要學識誠實面對自己。」阿敏聽到但係就即刻打斷我。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzg38w8190

「係。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuyMQIGoV2

「但係唔緊要，呢啲我都接受到。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJH8i7Psawy

阿敏好似平時咁挨落嚟我到。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonWlBz8RH2

靜咗一陣，阿敏又再講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbpLOZWDbH

「你記唔記得細個我哋係公園睇住其他小朋友俾屋企人帶走時係幾寂寞？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbYLNY4pgB

「每次見到我都好空虛，唔知點解人哋就父母健在，我就要單親家庭。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyfNZ00qDT

「我哋兩個都係咁寂寞。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpBhy4mKSs

「但我哋最少有對方。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZ8YvQQQwk

沒有漣漪，沒有澎湃嘅浪花，一切平淡而自然，對方嘅存在令寂寞煙消雲散。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvfYFMJML8

從未分離，不管世態如何。

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然而，我哋卻一直原地踏步，未曾前進。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGJZQAlytY

「所以我哋兩個都好缺愛同時又唔知乜嘢係愛。」阿敏突然拖住我隻手，我好自然咁拖返佢，十字緊扣。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzexomFCXCI

「因為我哋嘅父母都掛住做嘢無乜理我哋。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpaUQRGhP2

呢樣係我哋嘅共同點，亦因為呢樣嘢，我哋先會咁親近對方。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqya3h3Omz2

「咁樣間接令我哋唔敢去愛，或者唔識點樣去愛，最後就搞到你咁，有人愛，但唔識愛返人，結果就傷害咗佢。」阿敏講。

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小璇。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVp4BfMPjr

「我唔知係唔係愛。只係一時嘅情慾驅使我同咗佢一齊。」我坦白。

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「又或者因為你父母嘅關係令你唔敢全心去愛，你怕失去、怕失敗。你驚會有第二個你。」

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又或者我只係一個只會諗自己嘅仆街，又或者我只係識見步行步、無諗過長遠未來嘅短視之人。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡph9fSA5Q0Z

「我對好多外在嘅感情都唔係好感受到。友情、愛情、親情都好淡薄。就係同小璇一齊後開始感受到愛，但只係一細點嘅浪花。其實我好唔鐘意自己，我理解唔到其他人。」我講。

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小璇只係上色，但構圖無變過。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cusN9KETP

「去到結尾唔鐘意自己嘅你係因為佢鐘意你而鐘意佢，同埋你好自私。」阿敏都好直接咁講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2EqZKURvF

「因為我搞唔清楚。」

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真係唔明白。

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「我都係。對好多感情都唔清唔楚，除咗對特別一個人之外。」

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兩個唔能夠理解他人的心，世上能稍微理解自己嘅就只有對方，只因雙方嘅內心皆破碎並且不完整。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mCv6ltPyN

「你唔鐘意佢。」阿敏輕描淡寫咁講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfU5CyqRKb

「唔係。」

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「你未鐘意到佢去愛嘅地步。」

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「係。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWNtS5gyk1

「你唔係百分百鐘意佢。」

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「係。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMva2z8hKSk

「但佢令到你感受到世界嘅擴闊？」

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「係。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrXIY9uIia

「同佢一齊嘅日子係快樂嘅？」

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「係。」

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「你對佢有愛情上嘅喜愛。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKr6HzltIB

「唔知係唔係愛情上，但我喜歡佢。」

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「你會想同再同小璇一齊？」

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「會。」

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「但你都未到愛佢。」

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「係。」

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「佢想復合嘅話，你會唔會展示到你對佢嘅喜歡？」

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「未必得。」

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「你要得。」

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「我會試下。」

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「你一定要做到，你點都要同返小璇一齊。。咁你有冇鐘意其他女仔？」阿敏轉個話題。

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「無。」我答。

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「真係？」

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「或者有。」

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「咁係邊個？」

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「我唔知。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YiWasc8C0

「咁我呢？你有冇鐘意我？」

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「唔知，可能有。」我答。

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「你有。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjPjdfiSjw

「我冇。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6joG3mHQo

「你有。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJr3KMwHU7

「我冇。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMPflxVpnU

「你想當我係兄弟，你想用呢份感情去掩飾對我喺異性上嘅鐘意。」

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「唔係。」

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「如果有心事，第一個想同邊個分享？」

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「你。」

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「如果要幫手，你第一個會搵邊個？」

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「你。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCqB1QzaUU

「如果無咗我，你想唔想像到係點？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRX11Ebr6Hp

「好痛苦。我習慣咗你係我身邊。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSj4yRcwy6

「就係因為你習慣咗我係你身邊，你先發覺唔到或者想去隱藏對我嘅心意。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uVo1Lvlq4

「咁點解你又察覺到？」

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「我一直都知，但係我知道我哋一齊無好結果。」

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「點解？」

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「唔重要，最重要係我知道你鐘意我。」

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「我無。」

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「你有，誠實。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclPxQ5D1bQ

「我有。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyqB9YjNHo

其實我心入邊早就有答案，只係我一直唔肯應承認。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiiZ3qCDNh

俾佢質問下，我俾佢質疑到懷疑自己。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZSctW8Ygz

雖然講咗出口，但我係對阿敏有感覺？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKpxf6GZ4j

如果阿敏唔係我身邊我會點？想像一下就好痛苦。呢個就係鐘意？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSFYzhBYgv

阿敏好了解我，佢知道我嘅所有缺點，佢比我更了解我內心嘅諗法，而無論如何佢都未曾放棄同離開過我。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOsgoqUZXM

我鐘意阿敏，但小璇已經入咗我內心，我自己都唔清楚呢一刻鐘意邊一個多啲。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyR6gyhwYk

有感情同係咪發展落去又係另一回事。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWmmmSzpYm

總之當下我嘅內心係喜歡小璇同阿敏，對後者嘅感情係呢一刻先發現，或者係話俾人發掘出嚟。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgKLbZ7HmB

另外，出奇地，即使傾到與對方嘅感情，我哋都無芥蒂，我完全能夠放開咗自己，直接面對自己嘅內心。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDZX0wW0BW

「點解你唔承認？」阿敏問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhKkjCz2wj

「我唔確定對你嘅感情係咪愛情。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkLbWgCXat

「明明我一直都係你身邊。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQqk2f9SIp

阿敏錫咗落嚟。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTBGDNsKgI

蜻蜓點水咁錫咗我一啖之後佢就挨返個頭落我膊頭。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiCIGJkGUI

「咁樣係唔係愛情？」阿敏問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGM3VBIUlzX

從小就一起，呢份係咪愛情？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRO9duYlaP

阿敏叫我誠實面對自己。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mDbnBA9OB

佢一直都知我唔誠實面對自己。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RTb1UAd1N

雨水灑落在窗邊發出「啪啦啪啦」嘅聲響。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPoYdUpCaT

「我唔知係咪，但我無諗過會同你分開。」我答。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55SciwM2WN

「你而家同小璇分咗手，無女朋友。」阿敏講完之後又錫咗我一啖。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObaZUgxLBz

今日嘅阿敏好奇怪，佢變得好女仔。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSxezotZpp

係佢心入面嘅枷鎖俾佢衝破咗咁，佢開始前進。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qftjEe402

阿敏又再講：「就係我哋一直都太近，所以從來無察覺到內心嘅心意。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jK0DGhx0a

「或者我哋兩個都唔知乜嘢係愛。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNrkdKERlY

「呢份感情係乜？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcRCumq8L7

「可能係親情，我唔清楚。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaRSzMX5UZ

「真係？」阿敏講完又錫咗落嚟，今次唔係蜻蜓點水，而係一個長吻。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZH8yy1CZT

我都主動錫返阿敏，用力地享受呢個時刻。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ih0LKRONL

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阿敏視覺

我係阿敏，我鐘意樂文。

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我察覺呢種感情係小璇同樂文表白之後。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdm4yyYX53

我哋一直都就影影不離，我好怕呢段關係會因為佢哋交往而中段。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50CJlPGPGE

雖然已經唔記得係幾時開始，但係應該由小學開始我就鐘意咗呢條仆街。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWU5V15i3V

要講理由其實數之不盡，但核心嘅理由其實就係無原因，只係係慢長嘅時間入面我對佢生咗情素。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvfk2STkRI

內心渴求同佢共渡更多只屬於我哋兩個嘅時光，呢個戀心我一直都有意或無意地隱藏落嚟，直到小璇出現，呢份戀心先全面爆發。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IA8KDhGj6

後來要知道樂文唔係太鐘意小璇嘅時侯我又安心返，但隔咗一排佢就小璇一齊，當時我真係好唔開心。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJc94xdh5sb

不過我知道佢唔係太鐘意小璇嘅時候又有啲安心，但又怕佢會對小璇日久生情。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxyywt43fl

係佢拍拖之後，每次見到佢我就會諗起佢有女朋友而痛苦，不過我都唔想同佢拉遠距離。

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今晚，佢同小璇分手。

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今晚，伯母唔會返嚟。

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今晚，佢失戀。

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今晚，停電。

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今晚，得返微小嘅燈光。

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今晚，外面狂風暴雨。

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今晚，呢個密室布置到好浪漫。

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今晚，又係得返我哋兩個。

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今晚，我有機會。

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有呢種關係我已經好滿足，好卑微，但又滿足。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMjLX6fY9J

我知道小璇先係帶到佢見識世界嘅人。

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我知道小璇對佢嚟講係更好嘅選擇。

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我想佢好，但又唔想佢離開我。

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呢種矛盾令我講起小璇嘅時候經常前言不對後語。

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我知道係自打嘴巴，但係呢兩種心情就係不停喺我心入面翻滾，我都控制唔到。

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人好容易受到氛圍影響，今日嘅氣氛實在太浪漫，我嘅心不知不覺間就俾環境拉住走。

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我想感受一下樂文。

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但我未準備好同佢一齊，我想維持呢個狀態。

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我怕走去下一步，之後會分手然後返唔到轉頭。

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我寧願原地踏步都唔願意面對風險走向下一步。

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我同樂文其實好相似。

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我知道佢未準備好同我一齊，所以最後我會叫佢同返小璇一切。

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我知道小璇會俾到更大嘅世界佢，或者未來好運嘅話，一直係到等樂文嘅我會成為最後贏家。

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或者未來佢會意識到，任世界之大，最舒服都係屋企。

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當佢有所經歷，成為更好嘅人之後，我或者就會有機會。

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要佢係鐘意我但未準備好同我拍拖下一齊，我接受唔到。

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佢心入面依家係有小璇，即使係七三比，我七小璇三，只要唔係十成係我身上，我都唔會願意成為情侶。

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但我想要得到一啲嘢，我唔可以只係付出。我都想要回報。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd911IaAKqb

其實小璇嘅心情我完全理解，性係會令人感受到愛。即使呢兩樣嘢唔一定掛勾，但我就係感受到。而我係享受呢種感覺。

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我同樂文好似，我都係仆街。

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佢呢刻無女朋友，環境嘅氣氛好好，礙事嘅大人唔會返嚟。

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我只要一次就可以。

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如果小璇之後想要返佢我可以將佢讓返出去，我知道佢同我一齊嘅話係唔會有好結果。

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我哋都係窮人，我哋都係單親，我哋都唔識愛，我哋有嘅只有對方。

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互相依賴已係不知不覺間轉化成愛，當我覺受到嗰份溫暖時，我就知道咁樣係愛。

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若果樂文選擇我，我只會限制佢嘅世界。我唔能夠好似小璇咁帶到色彩俾佢。

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我只會將樂文困係呢幾百呎嘅公屋，我唔想成為佢嘅束縛，唔想做佢嘅負累。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfEbglV7nQ

但我想感受一下佢嘅一切，就一次。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPG9l5d2b5

喺佢去咗小璇身邊之後我一直都好壓抑，我唔知佢會唔會返嚟，而我一直都係到等唔知存唔存在嘅機會。

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如今機會終於來臨，即使唔再壓抑自己，我內心都唔會再有道譴責。

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佢呢刻冇女朋友。

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只有呢個時光，佢終於有機會完全屬於我，呢刻我想令佢眼中只有我。

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我十，小璇零。

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失去再擁有才令人格外珍惜。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6Ij5brMAQ

失去令我了解我的感情，依刻我可以解放我心入面所有感情。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bMLvUAjAz

就一次，唔好理後果，唔好理其他嘅一切，俾我從心而行。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5I6HKesEGD

心入面嘅感情好似決堤咁湧出嚟，我已經㩒唔住自己嘅感情。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5ZjCFbbJ7

我將佢格硬收埋得太耐啦。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjR2A67xaT

環境嘅氛圍同人事嘅轉變，我已經無辦法控制我呢刻嘅感情。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYg3woql3o

所以我錫咗落去。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxjBQ9HZO1

我錫咗樂文幾啖，一邊確認同心意一邊表達我嘅心意。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZx7Itbh9J

之後我會將佢讓返俾小璇，就呢一刻，求求你將所有心意放係我身上。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyRRyDJSnG

所以我吻下去。

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1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCSBBhEHzB

同阿敏呢個kiss持續咗成分鐘，我哋先慢慢分開。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEtFO11iba

我都阿敏對望，佢啡色嘅黑睛，同小璇唔同嘅柔黑長髮，又有同小璇一樣白皙嘅皮膚。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0y5PQ1W1op

阿敏隻眼好大，輪廓好深，佢嘅嘴唇有咸咸嘅味道。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHeQ53Zrtk

落雨嘅聲音蓋過曬其他聲音，阿敏呢刻好靚。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2JDpfdMFh

所以今次到我主動，我輕輕地吻落去。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9eR5vVpdh

阿敏無反抗，佢開始一手攪住我條腰，另一手由下而上抱住我個頭。我都伸手抱返住佢。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2BYTjkFpq

阿敏將脷伸過嚟，我照板煮碗，兩條脷開始纏綿。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyMhsIf599

阿敏慢慢向後瞓，我亦漸漸向前傾。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFE4U00jNB

我將阿敏推倒在在梳化上，男上女下，我倆繼續熱吻。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bCFd7qKhm

我開始解開上衣，阿敏亦開始脫去她嘅衫褲。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7meKR3OdrQ

我倆嘅嘴唇分開了。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1piWoSTn1s

我脫淨底褲，阿敏就得返胸圍同底褲。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozQfvqbAJy

阿敏深黑色嘅底褲同胸圍更顯得佢皮膚嘅白，我都係第一次見到佢衣服以下嘅皮膚。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18H29yEo7n

好靚、好滑，好白。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSF2l6OWZw

「我幫你除錶。」阿敏講完之後就幫我除咗小璇係聖誕節送俾我手錶，再放係茶几上面。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOT7YYtQYKk

然後，我哋做愛了。

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雙方都係第一次。

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呢刻，我哋完完全全得返對方。

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我哋又再親吻，我雙手開始遊走係阿敏嘅雙峰，佢都開始撫摸我嘅身體。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEkJLL8agu

過咗陣我哋又分開。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡam2UqKI2xO

「繼續落去得嗎？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylnNNSS6yw

「可以。」整個臉都紅透嘅阿敏喘住氣講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XtwvhJ27G

「等一陣。」我走返房拎一個condom，本來買嚟以防萬一，以防同小璇做愛而準備。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVMSDHEzNQ

我拎完轉身嘅時候，阿敏已經企咗係我後面。佢企係到錫落嚟，仲慢慢將我推上床。

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女上男下。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFO4UEo33zR

我間房入面無燭光，比廳更暗，但我都能夠好清楚睇到阿敏個樣同身軀。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshNiOScbxB

我同阿敏都將淨底嘅衫都脫去，我哋終於玉帛相見。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeQ1FT8Bo2

就算只係輪廓，阿敏嘅身體都好靚。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04NfHZS3Ww

「我係第一次。」唔知點解我要咁講，明明呢句說話應該係女人講得比較多。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTkCKo8zH1

「我夠係囉。」騎係我上面嘅阿敏打咗落我心口一下。

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「嚟啦。」阿敏聽完就點頭。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0b2oCW3OE

好彩學校性教育有教點戴安全套，套好個安全套之後，我就慢慢放入阿敏體內。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEgeo80mjA

好暖，有被包裹住嘅暖流。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNNjCHViJw

我同阿敏結合了。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXixp7zz381

「呀⋯⋯」進入嘅第一下阿敏按耐不住咁呻吟咗聲。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijqbkWbrUP

「係咪好痛呀？」

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阿敏聽到我咁問就烏低上身錫咗落嚟，再講：「好舒服。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJ8fS6P48m

我哋親吻著，享受著對方嘅一切。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuJ8rdeIXY

我繼續郁動，滂沱大雨嘅晚上，只有二人嘅房間，我哋拋掉咗外界嘅一切，呢刻我哋只有對方。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2ShCwSahF

阿敏開始上下上下咁郁，同時舔我乳頭。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pFot7raaF

結果一分鐘都未夠我就好想射。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TsUtQPXWe

我即刻拎返出嚟，廢事派報紙。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDY2xBOgieh

「做咩呀？」阿敏問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFMX3fffOD

「我哋轉個體位。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbV6oyzpSq

我哋轉做狗仔式之後我就瘋狂背三字經去令自己分心。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JMOJRQWmM

我一口氣放入去插到最深。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn04TEOF1AW

「呀！」阿敏今次好大聲咁叫出嚟，似係嚇親。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKxX54P0y9

「可以繼續？」

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「可以。呢個好深。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftGK9Xzx3i

阿敏呢句有意無意嘅挑逗令我更興奮，我開始前後郁，阿敏都開始嬌喘。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsF4iXIVQst

又係差唔多射嘅時候我又叫阿敏轉體位。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUCeAOJ2TF

男上女下。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWxAwqf2Hf

阿敏見我壓咗係佢上面之後，佢雙手環抱我。我上半身壓咗落佢上半身到，我感受到佢雙峰嘅軟熟。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVBjFSe2Xw

我哋又開始舌吻，下半身又開始動起來。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZLh774bqi

伴隨阿敏感嘅喘氣聲變得急促，我下半身郁動嘅速度都開始加快。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WAk78u9QZ

「我想射啦。」我講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gMR8JugqN

阿敏無回應我，佢雙手環抱我個頭，同我接吻。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nCyvTlAcE

我哋一邊親吻一邊加速，然後射了。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WZZ5ioXjG

下身嘅感覺完全放大，個腦一片空白，意識好似飛上雲霄，隔咗唔知幾多秒我先有返意識。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVCwVpLKP9

開返眼，阿敏仲係我眼前親吻緊我。

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1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgKFCczxz5

做完愛之後，我哋蓋住被，赤裸裸咁瞓咗係床上。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvYnpbboWQ

我攬實阿敏：「我哋就咁扑咗。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs3mucPhiQ

阿敏細細力打咗我心口一下：「唔洗特登講出嚟。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEaIFlLdlB

「我哋依家係咩關係？」我問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzf4AEpoW6h

「重要咩？」阿敏反問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjl8kNG66x9

「都有啲。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuFtszoS0p

「咁你覺得係咩關係？」阿敏續問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD07cIOcX0K

「青梅竹馬。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡha407F5hZF

「除咗係會做愛嘅青梅竹馬之外呢？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoh6a4GGGOt

「我哋一齊好唔好？」我可以同小璇分手。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSE4FFx5Yus

「唔好。」阿敏拒絕。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYyu1SQ2h9

「咁點解要同我做愛？」我問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWK6lYa13Wr

「因為我鐘意你。」阿敏答。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpFCxcO2Nw

「我都係，咁樣點解唔一齊？」我唔明。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMiLZaHtnw

「因為我唔適合你。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9a1an5qBU

「點解？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd19yQXsQ6Y

「小璇。佢先係你女朋友。」

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「我哋分咗手。」我強調。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TM25M4l9m

「你聽日去搵返佢啦。今日嘅時光係我偷過嚟，只係你哋分手呢段短暫嘅時光偷過嚟嘅快樂。」阿敏有點憂傷。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTtH0yS944

「但係你鐘意我，點解要我搵返個ex？我同你一齊唔好咩？」我講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGFqx6Ix80

「我哋兩個一齊唔會有好結果，會做愛嘅青梅竹馬，咁樣對我已經好足夠，我需要再多嘅嘢。」阿敏仍然反對。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2pFzM5MrN

「咁我哋係咩關係？」我再問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLpogMkvj0

「會做愛嘅青梅竹馬。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9umLK5Nwn

「你會唔會聽日開始就唔再過嚟。」我驚會斷咗聯繫。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjEeFZQODV

「唔會，係我叫你搵返小璇，今日係我主動，一切都係我做嘅決定。同埋無咗我嘅話，你又會開始食啲無營養嘅叮飯！」阿敏打我赤裸嘅心口。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhUSlpvv3i

「咁樣你真係滿足？真係唔想同我一齊？」我再問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gOtpZ6gGd

「唔洗呀！都叫你搵小璇。只係今晚嘅氣氛好我先忍唔住講咗心底話。」阿敏好強硬。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOq12L6F7Y

阿敏講完又開始撫摸我嘅身體：「但係今晚我未滿足，今晚係只屬於我哋兩個嘅時光。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAEbC9WNQO

阿敏騎咗上嚟，我哋又開始接吻，然後再來一次。

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就係咁，我同阿敏成為咗做過愛但無一齊嘅青梅竹馬。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeioinD9cM

又做完愛之後，我哋如常咁係飯枱食飯。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbbZITiUvS

「今晚係送俾你。你記得搵返小璇！」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9lrFLKSs0

「我做唔到。就係啱啱我先發覺我鐘意你。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsO2MTpnIgc

「係呢半年，你唔係都鐘意咗小璇啦咩？唔洗呃自己啦，我知你鐘意我同時都愛上咗小璇。你唔洗因為扑咗嘢就覺得要同我一齊，性同愛係分開嘅，你自己都咁樣同小璇講啦！我哋只係朋友加性關係，無更多啦！小璇先係你要拍拖、要愛嘅對象。」

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「但係⋯⋯」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsMk0os1Vk

「唔好但係啦！總之呢個係姐姐嘅決定，你要去搵返小璇，氹返人同你一齊，你哋做唔做愛係你哋嘅事。我就好蝕底咁同你練習咗一次啦，你好好哋咁對小璇呀！」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrk7ak0zRWR

「不過⋯⋯」

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「但係，不過都唔好啦！你係咪仲對小璇有感覺！答我！」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VbXW9gxKz

「有就有嘅⋯⋯」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFnufzneN4

「唔好但係啦！你係鐘意佢，呢半年我睇得出你已經漫漫咁迷上佢，就算你一開始唔係咁鐘意佢，你依家已經愛上咗佢，去搵返人啦！小璇一定等緊啦，又一開始小璇就好鐘意你，佢唔會咁易就死心，只要你氹下佢，佢就會好快返去你身邊。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFRyJ5hmwS

「你咁樣好強人所難姐，我點可能咁快調整到我心情？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOOfbQdf00

「好煩呀你！」阿敏講完就搶咗我手機，再講：「我幫你搵小璇！」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbRsceS7Hg

我即刻跳起身想搶返部電話：「俾返我呀！」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNV70MkLQ3

「樂文！！！」阿敏突然大叫，佢再堅定地道：「搵返小璇，同佢復合，唔好再同佢分開。你對我嘅只係鐘意，你對小璇嘅先係愛。你哋係埋一齊先係最正常、最好嘅結果。今次，你一定要聽我講。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK52VgmJG3N

阿敏認真地用命令式嘅兇惡語氣咁講，佢心意已決，我俾佢震懾到，唔知講乜好。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRwswcUo6O

阿敏俾返部手機我：「我幫你約咗小璇下星期六見，佢一定會出嚟。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Z40en2Dq9

我望望手機，阿敏真係send咗個信息叫小璇下星期六同我出街，小璇上線中，但係無覆到。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqEKBDEK72

「佢會，下星期六係25號，你哋一齊嘅日子。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtUeROos5Y

阿敏竟然記得我同小璇一齊嘅日子，佢對我嘅事真係好上心。

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「阿敏，我哋⋯⋯」

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阿敏又打斷我，今餐飯佢就不停咁打斷我，好唔想俾我講嘢咁。

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「你去氹番佢，呢個係我嘅請求。」

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「好。」

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阿敏已經先斬後奏幫我搵咗小璇，又咁堅決我無辦法拒絕。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcgqdItafZ

「記住，我哋嘅事收係心入面。你鐘意嘅係小璇，呢樣嘢我好肯定。問清楚你個心，你會發現你係鐘意佢。同埋你唔係鐘意我，你對我嘅只係性慾。」阿敏講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidwMBGX72m

「但係我覺得唔止性慾。」我講。

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「如果你係鐘意我嘅點會依家先發現。」阿敏反問。

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我語塞。

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「總之你呢個感情係由性慾而生，你唔係鐘意我，只係想同我上床。呢份感情你同愛情混淆咗。」阿敏好強硬咁講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJr6CuuySv

阿敏講完就繼續食飯，然後佢就返屋企，臨走前佢仲提我洗碗。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4ZawkpEME

佢再加多句：「我哋以後都會係青梅竹馬，無更多啦。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5hKjtabhQ

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阿敏視覺

叫樂文同小璇復合之後，我就趕返屋企。

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入到門口之後，我就靠住道門坐咗係地下喊。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvrK3rWL4R

小璇先係俾到佢好嘅人，我做嘅嘢係啱嘅。

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但係心就好痛，淚水源源不絕咁流出嚟。

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樂文⋯⋯

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原來傷心真係會令到個心痛。

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兩門之隔嘅距離原來都可以咁遠。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xZGH7sxth

我唔可以將佢留係呢個世界，佢值得更好，我唔配係佢身邊。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0c4CIwNHsf

明明咁樣係啱嘅，但係點解我會咁痛苦？

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係阿敏走咗之後，小璇就覆咗我話下星期六可以見面。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RNpD9QXiX

問題：我係咪準備好同小璇復合。

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首先，我係咪已經誠心地、完全地鐘意小璇。

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唔係。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegGDpGfo0f

我已經發現我鐘意咗阿敏，我做唔到100%去只愛小璇一個。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuTOQl6y1T

第二，如果我同小璇一齊返之後，我有冇信心一心一意同佢一齊？

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無。

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第三，我能唔能夠真係俾到小璇想要嘅愛佢？

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唔知。

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諗唔到。

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於是我又滑下手機，睇返過去半年同小璇一齊影嘅相。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgnVOeCgIZ

去大尾督踩單車、去唔同商場掃街、去攀石、去遊走唔同嘅山峰、去演唱會、去睇戲、去好多好多嘅地方，呢一切嘅中心都係小璇。係佢帶我出去，我先會探索呢個世界咁多嘅地方。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaZZzS0pw7

每一張相都係我哋獨有嘅回憶。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoF7RRFVlaJ

如果去呢啲地方嘅時候無小璇又會點？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DTDi1ULgA

得返我自己嘅話，呢啲回憶會變得枯燥起嚟。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrx2MIXb5k6

小璇嘅笑容，小璇對我嘅喜愛，仲有，我對佢嘅喜愛。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBY4V7mjaJB

睇下睇下，我開始流淚，呢一切都好開心。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTweNHkmMy

呢個女孩已經進入咗我嘅生活，我仲想同佢去更多嘅地方。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLJ1GKTnTY

佢已經融入咗我嘅生活，佢帶咗我出去外面嘅世界。未來，我已經唔會滿足於呢百幾呎嘅單位，我已經俾外面嘅景色深深吸引住。而呢個外面嘅世界，小璇嘅存在係不可或缺。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bHgHp48Vo

但係我亦都鐘意阿敏，多情。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuulMDOJLrQ

呢一刻，我最唔想失去嘅小璇。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85gdf4DaT5

混亂、卑鄙、可恥，一個人嘅心會傷害到另一個人。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnhKc9pBny

最終，我諗嘅只係嗰個人對我重唔重要。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzrX5QuqUT

「對我」，最後都係諗自己。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncqFjcLb9W

陽光一直照耀我，佢亦講明會繼續係我背後，叫我返去拎返起顏色筆。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3MzNm5UP6

人生中段出現嘅顏色筆同由細就陪伴我嘅太陽，兩樣我都鐘意。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAIfgnkQG2

用簡單嘅排除法嚟思考嘅話，我應該繼續去為人生呢塊畫布上色。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrOuJuJ8BQ

陽光都講明唔會同我更接近，只會繼續在背後默默守護我。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoGI3Bzzy8

顏色筆大概只係發脾氣，只要我認真對待佢，我哋喺未來一定可以好好走落去。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSdlURILas

//問清楚你個心，你會發現你係鍾意佢。//

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8Q2OMPjEn

我係鐘意小璇，但我同時都鐘意阿敏。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnYaPprTOM

唔會失去阿敏，咁我應該可以放心、全力將心意投放俾小璇，當係為咗自己，為咗佢，為咗補償。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GVsYopPhH

追返小璇，呢個係唯一選擇。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1s6L0iJ4GO

我不停同自己講，我愛小璇。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNdZWmOTLr

如果佢之後想上床，我又應該點做？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFY00vJqXd

我戴返起阿敏除落嚟，由小璇送俾我嘅手錶，然後繼續係床上思考。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckHgXg0C2E

//我哋以後都會係青梅竹馬，無更多啦。//

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPy7XmFUQwn

阿敏咁講，其實已經無希望啦。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLUWIwf4dJ

就將所有心機都投放係小璇身上。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7gvwJqtBH

我要收起啱啱發現，但一直存在、對阿敏嘅呢份感情。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjSmJE9sRf

我將對阿敏嘅感情定義做純性慾，我唔鐘意阿敏。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlG8SjfU8q

我咁樣催眠自己。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfP87ee6poU
1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFg15YdVZV6

星期六，我約咗小璇係將軍澳日日食food court食嘢。（全黃店，有時間支持下。）

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3PfzpHMs2

「對唔住。」小璇一坐低就道歉，呢樣係我始料不及。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtjmv62dbj

「我先係應該講對唔住嗰個。」我答。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5swpVdAXU

係因為我嘅半吊子先令到你唔開心。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwOfHdTGL8

「唔係。我同朋友傾過，我唔應該咁心急。佢哋同我講，男仔係唔愛惜個女仔先會一早出手，如果男仔係真心鍾意個女仔嘅話，佢哋唔會介意等。」小璇仲係哭腔。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuNuhtvGMb

唔係呢個原因。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEd0PMTi0B

「你咁心急，係咪因為你唔太感受到我鐘意你？」我問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJyAZsWLsD

我好想確定呢樣嘢嘅答案。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnIbW2YJzh

「係。」小璇肯定。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdrWuRiOCi

「對唔住。」我又道歉。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKffadge1WD

「唔緊要。由一開始一齊嘅時候我已經知道你唔係太鐘意我，係我期望係拍拖之後你可以慢慢愛上我。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIcEPfII23

小璇開始眼濕濕。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6N0eAJeK7u

小璇由一開始就知道，但佢都想同我一齊。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84Mq1ZoRwf

「你嘅期望已經達到。」我講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGIe13oHjZ

我已經落咗決定，之後嘅都係小璇嘅決定。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iOin6opV2

「吓？」小璇驚訝咁抬頭望住我

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIHRBAoETm

「我係呢半年已經鐘意咗你，係想同你拍拖嘅鐘意。我想同你去更多嘅地方。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwJ3JAuxsM

我同時發現自己鐘意阿敏，但又怕失去小璇。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dUwnlbxAY

又做仆街。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbz7BN7va0

「真係？」小璇向我確認。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4TMsI2eI4

「真。所以，你可唔可以再做我女朋友？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7nRNOuXBA

我已經選擇咗小璇，呢個星期我當係催眠自己，不停同自己講我鐘意小璇。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JdTCnRsJZ

阿敏都叫我選擇呢條路，所以我唔會回頭。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDCR0kCCX7

對阿敏嘅心意我要收係心中，隨時間過去，對小璇嘅愛意會蓋過對阿敏嘅愛意，我相信。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsyXdWCOrF

最終，呢份心意只係收埋咗，並無消失。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiL1chDcBVt

而一個係未來嘅引爆點會將呢返心意從谷底抽返出嚟。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaVnyP5njY

小璇一邊流淚一邊拖起我隻手：「好。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgEXlEDv6g

佢流完眼淚同冷靜落嚟之後就話：「我哋可以慢慢嚟，只要按照屬於我哋嘅步伐去行就可以。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkieBvr8Fgw

我緊握小璇隻手：「我愛你。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmY9iCUOpw

拍拖半年，我第一次同小璇講愛佢。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyYamySoWo

「我都係，我愛你。」小璇從一而終。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnI7cjxwfvU

「我知道過去半年我俾唔到你想要嘅你，但係未來嘅日子我會慢慢令你感覺到我愛你。」我期望。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWZjPHyNAg

我又再講我愛你，可能我已成功愛上小璇，或者只係催眠嘅效果。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChEHEVCtXd

無論如何，我要同小璇展示嘅係我嘅決心，當係為咗佢，為咗阿敏，同為咗我自己。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdW2ZL8TWYd

就係咁我同小璇一齊返。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY50fbj8Voi

無激烈嘅衝突，無惡言相向，無長篇大論，一切都好平淡、好短促。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡet9VWEakFQ

只係幾句對話我哋就一齊返。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2Cee5MaWI

一直係我背後嘅太陽從呢日起就好似無咁耀眼。1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugLPFErcKV

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtfp4xwYr5

同返小璇一齊之後，我同阿敏就無再做愛。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvy6JZ7CRCe

時間一躍，我同小璇一齊超過一年，我哋已經中五。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggzGq6OiyE

我已經催眠咗自己，我對阿敏並無愛情。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIgarP7omJ

順帶一提，呢一年時間我都無同小璇提起過阿敏係我青梅竹馬，我怕小璇知道會好麻煩所以就刻意隱暪落嚟。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQaCVfES1x

雖然小璇見過阿敏嚟睇我踢波，但佢唔知我今晚都同阿敏食飯。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aMYN3jflR

今晚，mk仔係阿敏走出嚟呢一晚，理應消失嘅心意浮上咗海面。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3O4pmDkTK

呢一晚，阿敏返咗屋企之後我自己一個坐係廳，攤係梳化到。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZka5ZmyrnO

點解咁心痛？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcW7ZahycWX

明明我唔係阿敏男朋友，明明我話過唔會再對佢有異性嘅鐘意。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiFr6u4O5Y

但係點解呢一刻我成個腦都會係阿敏？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzfbFvPbXN

我腦海浮現緊我同阿敏嘅一切，細個係公園玩、一齊食波仔飯、一齊食佢食嘅飯，一齊去買餸、互相照顧嘅點滴⋯⋯

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwi9Wo9XmXK

明明佢有男朋友唔代表呢一切會完結，佢今晚都照嚟煮飯我食。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5pq5qBjZI

點解呢一切會令我咁心煩意亂？

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阿敏當時叫我同小璇復合嘅時候又係唔係咁嘅心情？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuPgtQcRYD

佢當時話過鐘意我但唔可以同我一齊，我無諗過佢嘅心情，好直接咁同小璇復合。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIMqm6EvCK

當時我諗嘅只有自己嘅心意，如果我有考慮到阿敏嘅心情，我做嘅決定又會唔會唔同？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgJKvxDTV8

原來我對阿敏嘅心意仲係到。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgMxEoAVXJ

望住鐘意嘅人同另一個人一齊原來係咁痛苦。

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但係我有小璇。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnYcHoXOno

呢份痛苦，我只能夠收起佢。

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收得起？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnFETuszVO

收得起嘅話，我呢刻就唔會咁苦悶。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlu1lkDHtVQ

你以為收起咗嘅感情會係你無預料嘅情況下走返出嚟。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTMw9oOMBL

我鐘意阿敏，所以我先咁鬱悶。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBfvILUFmL

明明我以為已經催眠咗自己，我已經話過唔係愛情。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOYRMzNQtA

一貫諗唔通就瞓嘅傳統，我沖個涼就去咗瞓。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglGRtKzebn

翌日，阿敏如常過嚟煮飯，如常一齊食飯，如常一齊睇電視。

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「你琴晚點樣？」阿敏好似睇穿咗我好心煩。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuLyPmqfqX

「阿敏，我仲鐘意你。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMut64SPKZ

我如實同佢講，我都唔係第一次同佢講鐘意佢，我知佢知我鐘意佢，加上我同佢嘅關係，我哋無乜好尷尬，所以我如實講出嚟。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiJuY76u7c

「我feel到，我都仲鐘意你。你琴日好唔開心？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0t0AQtRUr2

阿敏仲鐘意我，但佢同咗個mk仔一齊。我都同小璇一齊緊，所以無乜資格講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfx56TihFCC

「係。我同小璇拍拖嘅時候你都係咁傷心？」阿敏答。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JdLYWIcbA

「比你更傷心。」

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「對唔住。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JydtdAcAC

「唔洗，最後都係我叫你同小璇復合。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVt80lYsZuT

「我哋都好奇怪。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZySpxpd88

「因為我哋都唔係同最鐘意嘅人一齊？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpknVSlgyy

「我哋都係仆街。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKiVkR9OLM

「琴日我咪講過，我鐘意仆街。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHW48Vr83Hr

互訴心意都唔會尷尬，呢個就係我同阿敏，青梅竹馬。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBg2nLmMYe

「你真係同咗個mk仔一齊？」我再問。

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「係。」阿敏確認。

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「咁我哋都有另一半。」我又再問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFTjB9pXZY

「但我哋又鐘意對方。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaHR7bz5zu

「我唔鐘意你有男朋友。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36nHD7KGIH

「我都唔鐘意你有女朋友。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kmVZzqQvs

「我哋要收埋呢份心意。最少係有另一半呢段時間要收埋佢。」我更似係講俾自己聽。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKNRq6QSp7

「你因為我有男朋友而更在意我？」阿敏調皮咁問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ363ksNPJlU

「係。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJGqJIuKor

「雖然我唔太鐘意個男仔，但你同小璇都拍咗拖一年，我覺得係時候要擺脫對你嘅感情。咁啱呢個時候佢同我表白，所以我就同佢一齊。希望可以透過呢段關係去忘記另一段無可能嘅關係。估唔到咁樣又會挑返起你對我嘅鐘意。」阿敏一氣呵成講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnS44ZvXm5O

「我以為同小璇一齊耐咗就會忘記對你嘅感覺，點知琴日一口氣返曬嚟。」我坦白。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jDbnb21Yr

「即使我哋互相鐘意，我都唔會同你一齊。」阿敏決絕地講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXzFTypy1g

「點解？」我問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhiujZh0MN

「因為小璇對你嚟講先係最好嘅選擇，佢可以令你成為更好嘅人。但係我做唔到。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwq1es9IB6Q

「但我個心依家又因為你而忐忑不安。」我講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtl6u6aCobH

「咁都有得瀨？明明就係因為你賤格。」阿敏鬧我。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdWNljuO6I

「但我就係鐘意你同小璇。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwEMlZEErK

「你同小璇一齊咗成年都仲鐘意我？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BumaAZWEu

「係因為琴日，呢份感情先出返嚟。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKE9ZmsI8YK

「咁樣只係一時衝動。同埋我已經決定放棄對你嘅感情，你都應該放低佢。我哋就繼續做一對普通嘅青梅竹馬。」阿敏感仍舊決絕。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOt6sya5n4

「你放得低對我嘅感覺？」我問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZgyIC3u2R

「試緊。如果唔係琴日，你已經放低咗我啦，唔係咩？」阿敏反問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQD8nxUU6ch

「係，我以為放低咗。不過，你話試緊，咁即係你呢刻對我仲有感覺？」我試探性咁問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LsKoaeYgA

「無錯，我仲鐘意樂文你。但都係嗰句，我哋要放低。」阿敏肯定咁答。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzfvGfM8df

「我仲鐘意你。要放低，要多啲時間。」我講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8jsPV3sdS

「唔好俾小璇知。」阿敏要我變埋呢份感情。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVB8Tx40nX

「我一直都無俾佢知。」我一直都呃緊小璇璣。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHH0895YfO

「賤人。」阿敏輕聲咁講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNx4xnTmsW2

阿敏講完就錫咗落我到：「我講過我鐘意仆街。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhilA9LIng

「你又話要放低。」阿敏咀唇離開之後，我輕聲講。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdIUR8yZrM

「唉，最了解我嘅係你，但係最唔了解我嘅都係你。」阿敏嘆口氣。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8n8DGC0bNj

「我有唔了解你咩？」我反問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFsp57exgF

「有。」阿敏嘅吐息噴咗落我塊臉到。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUm1bjVe8RA

阿敏伸手摸住我塊臉再講：「就最後一次。之後所有嘢就煙消雲散，我哋唔會再有愛情，好唔好？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrXChGIkev

「你想做咩？」我問。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvrAckdMNb

「做愛。」阿敏好挑逗，佢係我耳邊噴氣。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZRQzLHh6V

「咁樣我哋兩個都係出軌。」我指出。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZz9KEa5pj

呢刻，我哋兩個都有另一半。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99yjllyV6A

我哋比起自己嘅另一半，更喜歡對方。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmT1WF8xk4v

我哋都唔會同另一半分手。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlir1duaGwc

我哋第一次性關係嘅對象係對方。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnd31DTcLO

「除咗我哋就無人知，同埋呢次係例外，只要一次。一次之後就唔會再有，呢個係我哋嘅秘密。」阿敏開始急進。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpMzCDePso

如今，呢條八婆又挑逗我。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLhwPc6OBE

佢都講明，今日嘅一切會係秘密。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1hBaWrEJI

都試過一次，都暪到過一次，再多一次又要怕乜？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgI63Shg1j

我任由心入面嘅感情、性慾行先，即使我心知有小璇呢個女朋友。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXy3jSY8Ucr

我錫返阿敏，然後我哋又做咗愛。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVF7BaQIgm

做完愛之後，我同自己講，我都要放低阿敏，食我就食咗。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiBttMbXzP

小璇唔會知，仆街啲講，無成本又可以食女，邊個唔食？

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但又點會無成本？

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcXeElzwQv

我哋講好要放低，今次就真真正正咁放低啦。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eArBJDJJN

唔好再打破「放低對方」呢個承諾啦。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzI0Cjgg3tG

至於阿敏，佢已經下定決心要斬纜，佢甚至搵咗一個唔太鐘意嘅男仔做男朋友，為嘅就係放低我。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0pVi70j42

咁樣，希望我哋兩個可以好好咁告別。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19QnsLGC3v

嗰晚，阿敏返屋企前，我話：「我哋真係唔可以一齊？」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByOj91XztF

「點都唔會同你一齊。」阿敏決絕咁講，佢企係我門口再再講：「你要繼做好小璇嘅男朋友。再見。」

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsObXzCSmCb

然後我哋無再相見，阿敏都無再過嚟煮飯。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlE5pmEE6J

我同小璇嘅感情亦都好穩定，係無耐之後我都同小璇做咗第一次愛。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeQ6vKjUs9

跟住，我哋就畢業。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjzb9N9Xuw

即做係住係對面屋，原來有心唔見係真係會見唔到。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbW9ve0YWF

慢慢，我就完全放低咗阿敏，愛情嘅投射淨係放係小璇身上。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgl151luwgu

因為我無得揀。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OWEDZewVl

排除法下嘅愛情。

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真係最後一次。

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佢有女朋友，我要放低。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcn9XdISAyw

有人話，要忘記一段感情，最好嘅方法就係搵另一條感情。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtYom8uuai

我試緊，希望成功。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkor1BmpfWY

但係我真係好仆街，又好自私。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaLQaKby62

同咗另一個一齊之後，我對樂文嘅感謝仍然爆發性咁增長。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1h04EoVdg

我同咗個唔係太了解嘅男仔拍拖之後，我對另一個男仔嘅感覺越嚟越強。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuH14yisbj

我知道我嘅存在好擾亂樂文嘅心，我哋對方都有感覺，但係佢依家嘅另一半比我好太多。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQ23UyBTaO

我同樂文一齊只會浪費咗佢。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsNSV2qRAc

但係我都想要一次，係再再一次。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhjkgTa06X

明明已經以前我已經同佢講過我只係想要佢一晚，但係依家我想要多一晚。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sG5sJP567

我想今晚係真係最後一晚，經過最後呢晚，我就要同樂文斷絕關係。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqL1Z4A6Beb

所以，係我下定決心之前，請俾我任性一次。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBdU29i0wJ

我最後嘅自把自為。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9VrJBWpi1

今次完咗就真係完。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJ8W2BSXe1

我會狠心地將所有對佢嘅感覺斷絕。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHqdHXaIFk

我唔會再去接觸佢。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYnNQbmBtC

我嘅成本咁大，所以今晚我再任性都可以得到所有人嘅原諒。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDaxDsXonB

出軌？

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我唔理。

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傷到所有人我都唔介意。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBQHEhRWV9

我要全力地自私一次。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAI3iBhOejM

最後，我同佢都會將我哋嘅感情放入櫃桶，再將佢封印。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8YkIAFJO4

再見，我嘅青春。

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再見，最親近我嘅人。

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再見，我愛過嘅人。

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或許經過時間嘅洗禮，我會同小璇互相愛上對方。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklvoLrfu8I

又或者上去大學之後，我會俾人come on James。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vuPo07jTX

呢一刻我無另一個選擇，我身邊得一條女可以揀，我揀上小璇嘅原因，一直都係受外在因素影響。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfkLKRDqOo

為咗否認自己係仆街，我催眠自己，我話我唔再愛阿敏，我只愛小璇。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJ2pDBKnmp

我繼續同小璇一直，我唔知呢段虛偽嘅關係可以持續幾耐，但係我唯有見步行步。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4FC7SOb1l

點解要拍拖？因為有個伴、有人帶我見識世界嘅感覺實在太奇妙，嗰種感覺令我愛不釋手。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuL4WT5E2c

我最後都係因為自己嘅快樂同歡暢先繼續呢段關係。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCP7r2KFpt

因為我用排除法後，我可以要嘅只有小璇。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoyJcy7mXI

就係咁仆街。

1336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqepbfbZc5

拍拖，或者唔係因為只有鐘意先一齊，或者只係冇得選擇下嘅產物，但係咪真係無選擇，大家心知肚明。

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