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近現代／家族／愛情親情／日常／姊弟搭配231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiw4spYx2b
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一篇完成，很長，閱讀請有心理準備。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cC53wOVCZ
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＝底下正文開始＝231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsKzLstaWO
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現在我要說的故事，真的非常平淡。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKa2PNwTiWy
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沒有太多的激情，也沒有太多的熱血，更沒有太多的戲劇性衝突。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyuvu6hr4N
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都是些再平凡不過的家庭日常生活。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UE7mxJ9sy
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現在我就要開始說了……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PolJewTxc
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我出生在南部小鎮的富有家庭。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiQu6gQ2rt
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我們黃家目前連我在內總共五個人。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uaNmeTsbs
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我，爸爸，媽媽，阿公和阿媽。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxfDWCka7L
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阿公和爸爸都是商人，在整個東南亞經營運輸和貿易生意，到處都有據點。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFCH9XPU7K
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常常早上還在泰國，下午就到菲律賓，明天又到另一個國家，所以一般都會好幾天才回家休息一次。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc07kN5CE6b
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做的生意，就是在各國之間進行貨物運輸和販賣。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgQ4nm8t0F
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阿媽和媽媽雖然不必在外面奔波，不過還是要負責在家裡幫忙處理整理重要的公司文件。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTyLG1IgP7
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可以說我們黃家是個商業家族。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgGPsuxuQJ
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自然是這個小鎮最有錢的家庭。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMblUedGLsC
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所以鎮裡如果辦什麼活動需要錢，往往都會來家裡商量，請求我們家幫忙贊助一點。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYfB4DCW9s
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所以我們黃家對於這個以務農為主的小鎮來說，是個非常特殊的存在。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24Y1XQxWBD
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現在既然說到我出生的這個小鎮，我不得不說它真的是個非常單純純樸的地方。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Htn1THkvm
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一片又一片的農田，一隻又一隻幫忙農作的大水牛，還有到處奔跑嬉戲的活潑孩子們……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxfHgGeORM
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但是同樣是孩子的我，只能乖乖留在家裡。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HmjSoUOae
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因為我自從出生就體弱多病，總是大病小病不斷，不是去醫院就是乖乖留在自己的房間養病。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FTAQt823J
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各大醫院給我看病到最後，醫師都說我的問題是：先天抵抗力低落。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1XWwExqmu
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怎麼治療？沒有徹底的治療辦法，只能希望我的抵抗力會有自然好轉的一天。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ltKtU0Oy3
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因此西藥我從來沒有少吃過，昂貴的中藥補品更是三餐，童年的我真的是個大藥桶。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgbOi60m8l
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也幸好，我們黃家很有錢，沒有這方面的問題，否則多病的我恐怕早就已經被放棄。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05dbexelgi
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不過，沒有讀過什麼書的阿媽還是為多病的我著急萬分，不時責怪我的媽媽，讓媽媽受盡委屈。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4fnnCUzgM
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我就因此記得媽媽被阿媽罵到哭的一段記憶。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJPjLruUR3
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當時我七歲，發著四十度高燒，躺在自己的床上病懨懨。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNNErnI18I
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二十六歲的媽媽坐在我的床沿，一邊聽著阿媽不停的責罵，一邊流著眼淚用濕巾為我擦涼身體。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJDPQp4CA7
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阿媽責罵媽媽知道自己身子虛弱，常常感冒不適，還敢嫁來黃家生下我這個最重要的長子，把病弱的體質傳進黃家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4mXLf452X
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阿媽責罵媽媽生下我之後就像個石女，再也生不出來，讓黃家只有我這個體弱多病的長子。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LVLAcOakj
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甚至於，阿媽責罵出身貧寒葉家的媽媽沒有半點自知之明，不安本份的嫁入黃家，肯定是為了黃家的錢勾引爸爸。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6YvQlMHcE
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所以我相信，當時媽媽的處境一定比我還要難受。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CYELJrzOZ
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如果不是為了我這個親生孩子而隱忍，才二十六歲的媽媽恐怕已經被阿媽罵到離開黃家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfG42XGvs0J
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就這樣，這場把媽媽罵哭的大責罵結束不久，在外面跑的阿公和爸爸回來了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKR6o7c79z9
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因此，我的生命就要再次不同。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHJIu0CciQ
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我的阿公，就是現在這個黃家的一家之主。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGV5NXXQoR
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雖然阿公沒有讀過書，但是很會做生意，算是東南亞貿易圈的一號人物，所以把事業做的很大，賺錢的速度就像轉開水龍頭。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMTu2eAt2w
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阿公坐到我的床沿，疼惜摸摸我的臉，然後叫著媽媽的小名：「阿素？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9YzXmCKOH
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媽媽和爸爸站一起：「爸？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QF499G7jI
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阿公：「前陣子妳被罵的事情，剛才妳的媽媽（阿媽）都跟我說了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlizMI1VxGB
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媽媽：「嗯……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLJO0Ul6sS
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阿公：「媽媽是心急孩子忽然又高燒，不是有意把妳罵成那樣，原諒媽媽吧。妳絕對是我們黃家的好媳婦。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Kjemgy2Bz
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阿媽安靜站在阿公身邊，不發一言。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NsNr9usgw
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媽媽則是低下頭，眼淚又一次滾出來：「我知道……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPoMqWlGvz
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阿公：「那麼來說正事。孩子的對像我們辦好了，是個不錯的對象。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0yQdLSgKR
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媽媽擦掉淚水：「已經辦好了？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdvdTGqPqc
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阿公：「去他們家看過，互相說過所有情況，把一半的聘金給他們。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQ3E80Br5n
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媽媽：「她什麼時候會來家裡？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEavCKPjhG
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阿公：「下個月的九日她會來台灣。二天之後的十一日是師父說的吉日，正式迎娶入門。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaUl5IXkVe
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然後，大家安靜好一會。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRpmMiCjTQ
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阿公疼惜的一直看著我這個病弱躺著的獨孫。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZ695EyC1s
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直到媽媽打破沉默：「爸……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhQZHhxsXq
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阿公：「什麼事？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2A3wQIyKZ
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媽媽：「這樣做，真的好嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHVz89TA7d
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阿公：「阿素，你應該知道，這是沒辦法的辦法了？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52s9nVIby2
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媽媽：「我知道……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Fun96QM8N
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阿公：「到處跑醫院都沒有用，醫生就是沒有辦法完全治好。只能照宮廟乩童說的這樣做做看，給孩子沖喜了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVNdNBlz1X
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媽媽：「但是孩子還這麼小，就要讓他娶妻……會不會對他的未來怎麼樣？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQjHY7xsnB
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阿公唯有語氣沉重的說：「反正只是做個樣子，不是真要讓她娶。現在我們黃家只有這個血脈，先想辦法讓孩子可以平安長大吧。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxZQ9prVra
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就這樣，改變我的生命的那個女人就要來到身邊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuXBzYplkQ
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七歲的我，為了沖喜治病，就要娶妻了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqu7YdzuDrB
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那個女人，我都叫她姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIHCwzYo2r
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現在我要說的，就是以我和姊姊為中心、關於黃家的平淡日常生活故事……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSg8OiRbXB
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《我們黃家的故事》231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QW5nEfCsP
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隨著下個月九日逼近，家裡為了我的婚事越來越忙碌。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0m8JSXLiNA
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忙碌準備一堆婚禮相關物品。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO76Y89ZnE0
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除了專心照顧我的媽媽，阿公阿媽和爸爸整天忙進忙出。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwearwBPaBQ
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甚至於，我的房間家具也完全換新。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dquvjiHr6
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但是我完全不清楚情況，同樣動不動就發高燒，只能躺平在床上養病。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXmJktf1RQ
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終於，九日那一天來到。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTQwMwQoe8
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即將嫁給我的姊姊，已經來到台灣。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTiw5BBZy2
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所以傍晚的時候，媽媽把狀況好一點的我抱出門，阿公開車把所有人載往大城市的餐館。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsxPlJzrFd
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我和姊姊，就是在餐館裡面的包廂第一次見面。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyVVQGibs9
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大家坐在大圓桌，看著彼此。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKZJstHmZf
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我們一家五人，坐在圓桌的一邊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3t4c0fAhVL
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對方二人都是女性，坐在圓桌對面。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vTOJMrP18
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一名是準備嫁來黄家的近二十歲年輕女孩，留著一頭烏黑亮麗秀髮。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNg3kTIqC3
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另一名是看來四十歲左右的中年婦女，胖胖的，是姊姊的姑姑。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iNywsdULi
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她們二人都穿著越南式女性旗袍。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWm3UBSp1mc
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沒有錯，她們都是越南人。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXLF5eD0JF
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即將和我結婚的姊姊，可以說是所謂的越南新娘。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEvzONZpA1
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接下來我要說的這些關於姊姊的事情，都是之後才慢慢知道。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDm39l78TLp
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姊姊的名字是：『林花。』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6lzWPU6yA
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嫁來黄家的姊姊十八歲，比我年長十一歲。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJq6AWR82bG
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姊姊是她家的長女，下面還有二位年長我好幾歲的弟弟。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzbwrqrbLO
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全家在越南的鄉村務農，姊姊一邊在鄰鎮的高中讀書，一邊打工幫助家計。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1lOaKLtpb
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姊姊是成績一直在前十名的優等生。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BFVed899Z
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原本計劃在高中畢業之後繼續半工半讀大學，選讀和育幼有關的科系，未來當小朋友的老師。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjKnoTmCRt
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但是就在高中畢業前夕，爸爸忽然中風臥床，家計再也支持不下去。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjrfgwbeuW
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姊姊為了自己的家庭，只得拿我們黃家一大筆錢，告別父母和二名年幼弟弟，遠渡重洋嫁來我們黃家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg49ZinlnSK
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先是依靠英文和阿公與爸爸溝通，之後再比手劃腳的慢慢學習漢語。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcakc914fQQ
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這些就是關於姊姊的事情……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRz3Egy9MWx
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不過當時在餐館的我才七歲，出於好奇一直看著比較年輕的姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYbTj8Nq5h
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內心單純想著：『漂亮的姊姊，頭髮又黑又長……』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvbGUn9UeW
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至於就要和我結婚成親的姊姊，同樣安靜看著我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36Lou7zy7i
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只是面無表情，看不出喜怒哀樂。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJicZZ3qjgd
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所以這時候的姊姊雖然漂亮，但是看起來冷冷冰冰，很難接近的樣子。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58wxlH1VAy
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我相信，是因為姊姊對於面對這一切的不安，才會感覺很不親近人。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQ3J7lpJu0
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而不論如何，冰冷就是我對姊姊的深刻印象。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NJ9tOHvZo
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初次見面這天的餐館會面，就在如此面無表情的沉默中開始。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAnDgkVKFh
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阿公、爸爸和姊姊，都是用英文溝通。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8YBeSG87F
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阿媽和媽媽如果要和姊姊說話，同樣要透過阿公與爸爸進行翻譯。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTLdSdST6M
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尤其是媽媽，一再向姊姊拜託：「林花小姐，我因為和先生早婚，所以不過大妳八歲而已，真的能夠體諒妳必須嫁過來的委屈。我不敢要妳做什麼，只求妳以同樣的女人心體會我這個做母親的心情。這個孩子一直是個很聽話的乖孩子，不吵不鬧，只是從小身體一直很不好。今後真的要拜託妳幫忙照顧……我真的拜託妳了……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSqCi4Pgxs
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媽媽是真的發自內心的再三拜託姊姊幫忙照顧我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSKYzZ6OEc
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姊姊都是平淡回答：「好。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMzleBSJhX
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姊姊嘴巴回答好，問題是她的內心到底又是怎麼想？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2GAi5jT1T
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總之，這一晚的餐館聚餐，就這樣在姊姊面無表情的冰冷中結束了……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bCAG8VnGT
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二天之後的十一吉日。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAmrnbDACH
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姊姊穿著潔白新娘服正式嫁進我們黃家，成為台灣媳婦。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxnM0ovBL3
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病懨懨的我同樣穿起兒童西裝，勉強支撐起精神，在什麼都不懂的情況下和面無表情的姊姊拜堂成親。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOXsBwOriu
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一直陪在我身邊的姊姊同樣冷冷冰冰，看起來很難接近。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xHbAwMPqi
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所以我完全不敢親近姊姊，更不敢和姊姊說句話，只能一直找媽媽。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNSRm8v4Y2
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就這樣，忙碌一整天的婚禮終於結束。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoXP25BY6o
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當晚的洞房花燭夜，只能由我和姊姊一起度過，否則不吉利。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMG1Gglujz
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但是我才七歲，什麼都不懂，所以發現自己和陌生的冰冷姊姊一起被留在房間，我立刻撐著不舒服的身體跑出房間找媽媽。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzLd4MSXsn
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畢竟姊姊對我來說是個陌生人，加上姊姊從頭到尾的冰冷態度，所以還是七歲孩子的我完全不想和姊姊獨自在一起，就算姊姊再漂亮也一樣。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxZgnwiB2y
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已經換上睡衣的姊姊，只能一直安靜跟在我背後。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbsJHjPyfC
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剛開始，媽媽一直哄我，把我帶回房間，要我乖乖的和姊姊一起睡覺，然後關門離開。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UBjYgXuDR
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我當然又吵著追出去找媽媽。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwtX4vAVfy
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就這樣來回找媽媽幾次，對我很溫柔的阿公終於大罵：「你已經是個娶妻的大人了，到底一直在吵什麼！這麼晚了還不快點回房間睡覺！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrAA3PcsJ7
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這真的是我第一次被阿公罵。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsBHYEch8h
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加上對於發生的事情和完全搞不清楚整個情況。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yr4aGL6DN
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所以我怕到了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sG46qbTW9
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背後跟著姊姊，哭著轉身乖乖回到房間，坐在新床上不安哭著。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5nWwoiUKh
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一定是因為這樣，姊姊看我無助害怕的一直哭著要媽媽，就像被狗媽媽拋棄的可憐小狗。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDz8knarvKk
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因此姊姊發現我終究只是個普通的七歲小男孩，不是什麼可怕的存在。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJYQuSsw7t
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冰冷的姊姊，終於改變對我的態度。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkJ3CUljJd
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姊姊遲疑一會，不忍心的伸出手，把我溫柔摟在懷裡，輕輕搖著我，哄著我，完全把我當成孩子安撫。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrYZrHqiHX
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至於我，忽然被姊姊摟著，一開始哭叫著抗拒，努力想要逃離這個冰冷的陌生人。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5tD1vCj83
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直到我看見姊姊溫柔哄我的溫暖笑臉。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1aChOQS2t
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這是我第一次看見姊姊露出的友善笑容。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTeKzkV0BW
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七歲的我因此知道了，姊姊其實沒有那麼冰冷可怕。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0e5b3PPPh
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姊姊其實是很溫柔的好姊姊，否則怎麼會像這樣微笑哄我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYDN3ydcQO
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於是我慢慢收起眼淚，不再哭鬧，乖乖的依偎在姊姊溫暖的懷裡。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73mw0uibwk
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被溫柔的姊姊摟著哄，感受著姊姊的善意，直到被姊姊輕輕搖哄到睡著。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QRNfg20uO
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我和年長十一歲的姊姊，就從這一晚開始共同生活了……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCFzt81TqV
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姊姊被迫為錢離家，遠嫁我們黃家，讓她冷冷冰冰的，頗有拒人千里之外的感覺，很明顯就能看出來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LZFqRBPFq
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事實上，姊姊曾經跟我說過，剛來台灣的那陣子她的確一直在想著逃跑的事情。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIhLw4fDUt
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逃離這個用錢買自己的黃家，能逃多遠就逃多遠，躲到台灣其他地方想辦法生活。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxFe10IbKy
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反正姊姊的聘金，她的家人已經完全拿到。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpLZUVYmhd
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就算姊姊逃走，也只能算是姊姊個人『離家出走』，不會給娘家帶來太大麻煩。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfITSYUMYeg
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但是新婚之夜，姊姊看著我的無助哭泣，就像一隻不停唉唉叫需要人照顧的可憐小動物，就此讓姊姊的冰冷心情融化。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj601avaDlR
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姊姊想說，先幫忙照顧我一陣子，順便認識更多同樣來自越南的朋友，收集更多台灣其他地方的資訊，再正式逃跑。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsZiURcGzB
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結果情況卻是，隨著一天天照顧我，姊姊的想法一天天軟化。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dSpqb32Vy
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此外，加上大家都對姊姊很好，完全以家人的平等態度對待姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhEjsiIrhz
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年長八歲的媽媽更是把姊姊當作親妹妹對待。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61flTQ06C0
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大家同進同出，同吃同喝，而不是把姊姊當成越南勞工對待。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjWeYGrCZh
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甚至於，每個月會給姊姊五千元的零用錢。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgEBUzw7jK
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姊姊終於接受自己的命運。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWl3mMEmmZ
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姊姊開始把黃家當成她第二個家，和媽媽一起照顧我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jUvApvWm0
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甚至於，姊姊很快就變成照顧我最多的人，也是付出最多心力的人。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBJaoWrr5V
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畢竟媽媽晚上會回房間睡覺，只有姊姊才能整晚和我在一起，在我生病發燒的時候整夜看護。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHgulJskWC
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在我身邊時睡時醒的給我量體溫，餵我水，哄我吃藥，給我的身體擦涼。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKrNaSaAPk
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所以姊姊不只是姊姊，更像是忽然跑出來的第二個媽媽。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2kcKosYoQ
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我自然很快的習慣了姊姊的存在。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXjr2CRQRJ
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越來越喜歡整天陪伴我的溫柔姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHBmAv8lQL
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對於姊姊的依賴越來越重。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8D2gQc2joV
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把姊姊當成可以整天陪我玩的大玩伴。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kRHKcu6FP
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總會：「姊姊！姊姊！」的親密叫著。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tB60iglcY
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握著姊姊溫暖的手，讓姊姊陪著玩耍。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jwWMPBioy
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玩玩捉迷藏。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNWb1ZmXDz
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玩玩跳房子。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHC7Xxucd4i
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一起唱唱歌。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkx31Tw7Nf0
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讓姊姊一口口餵飯。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFUGZOeBvS
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讓姊姊帶我上廁所。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8x8xl01WoZ
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讓姊姊幫我洗頭洗澡。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhWmWPksBl
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讓姊姊哄著一起睡覺。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkGZX2VrCI
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讓媽媽看著我和姊姊的相處，半開玩笑的落寞說好幾次：「你這個孩子根本只要姊姊不要媽媽了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocVenO50Oe
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由此可知，我的確已經變成整天黏著姊姊，由姊姊日夜拉拔照顧的孩子。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRX2wkiOZ3w
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十八歲的姊姊有我這麼親密陪伴，更是完全打消逃跑念頭，為了照顧我而決心留在黃家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69Z3PP5gg3
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姊姊就這樣找到救贖和生命的出路，沒有走上躲躲藏藏過活的悲慘道路……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZrR6latjk
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另一方，關於我的身體狀況。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhv5cipp3I
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原本病弱的身體真的慢慢好轉，不再那麼容易生病發燒。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGuaT2BSP9
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我越吃越胖，長出肉，不再像以前那樣骨瘦如材。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhzPRUFsHZ
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甚至於，我會有體力拉著姊姊出門跑步玩耍，就像那些在外面到處跑的活潑小朋友。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5HNBLkTiS
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我的身體狀況好轉，除了沖喜成功真的找不到其他解釋。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzAYS4bLIO
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阿公、阿媽、爸爸和媽媽為此喜悅萬分。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8R5koQleI
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他們紛紛高興表示，給我找來姊姊成親沖喜是對的。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYiVFqOsj2
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所以一年之後，八歲的我健康的進入本鎮國民小學就讀，和其他同年齡小朋友一起接受正式教育。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzRFDZmZTi
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXx1o2tolLY
姊姊都會牽著我的手，親自把我帶往學校，一直用不流暢的漢語說：「你在學校要乖乖的喔……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaSY3y0AO5
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVtNJrLYGB
直到看我進入校園，姊姊才回家幫忙家事，或是以姊姊的英文能力幫助家族的生意文件。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggkxkOD3Dx
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接著，再於下午四點放學時間前來校門口接我，關心詢問：「學校過的怎麼樣？有沒有乖乖？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZQB8EvIRY
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNweBF1JrEs
不論風吹、雨淋、烈日，溫柔的姊姊沒有一天不陪我接我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiw5bhve2V
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKquwwpaGvb
回家之後，姊姊更是會親自陪我寫作業，教我數學，確定我的學習沒有任何問題。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMf45I8coy
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甚至於，在學校的我忽然身體很不舒服或是發燒，必須早退，趕來學校接我的也是姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5W4yy2QAL
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親密的把我當孩子一樣揹著，帶我去醫院檢查，然後再帶我回家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFRSM5fzsD
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1NB2zfMx5
說真的，我和姊姊要說是夫妻，其實更像是感情非常好的姊姊弟弟……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHmBd1vLxh
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不過也因此，我被學校的小朋友找麻煩了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yStp18xVU
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97Qxre7dvc
我和姊姊的事情，全鎮的成年人都知道。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJoS8tQ7x7
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成年人知道長輩讓我娶姊姊是萬不得已的沖喜，所以成熟體諒的沒有說什麼。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOesBnNeg6o
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但是和我同年齡的小朋友們，知道我和姊姊的事情之後，終於瞭解為什麼我的上下學總是有漂亮姊姊親密接送，出於幼稚的無知開始嘲笑：「男生愛女生！羞羞臉！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnw8lq7bc9
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像這樣的嘲笑我還可以忍受，所以不理他們。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mWjDU4xsX
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一陣子之後，他們竟然開始當我的面嘲笑姊姊，說她是：「家裡不要的女孩！為了錢來台灣的越南窮人！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNMNftiTBM
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他們這樣說姊姊，我當然覺得很生氣，不是吵架就是打架。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtA7yapgRC
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那段時間，足足一週以上，真的又吵又打的度過。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJqo4KsIND
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後來會解決，還是姊姊看我身上一直有打架的傷口，對我詢問到底之後親自出面處理。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53gKfSCHNW
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放學時間，姊姊陪我在校門口面對那些說壞話的小朋友。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddC9JymaXt
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lp62OAMfH
姊姊蹲下來，溫柔微笑，和氣說著：「大家一起當好朋友，好不好？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PcGxCZ231
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就這樣，那些原本欺負我的小朋友改變態度，不再亂說話。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2YYN0H3YI
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w782xrqHk
甚至於，會在放學的時候陪我們一起走，開心的和姊姊說話聊天。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGX28mI21Xw
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9J3DhRORA
因為姊姊的漂亮，還有姊姊的溫柔，小朋友們一定會喜歡。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNUrsjvRhH
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrH9FOgSfN
喜歡和小朋友相處的姊姊，更是順理成章的成為大家的好姊姊，會在週末帶著我和大家一起玩。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtehIo0pBb
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7Lh4DwOnU
我的拳頭無法解決的事情，溫柔的姊姊輕鬆辦到。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQe9Xe1JXj
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJBcT4I2N6
我真的更加佩服姊姊了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5izgrQNEHO
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不過，我也因此開始體會到自己和姊姊的奇妙關係。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSftGscQExL
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAKZJ2zpa4
畢竟學校的小朋友沒有人像我和姊姊一樣結婚。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwrJq8XZV8
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xS3ZRWbW1
只有我，像爸爸媽媽、阿公阿媽和其他大人一樣結婚。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoHln7RIqQ
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz416OKfKak
我就是從這個時候開始思考：『我為什麼會和姊姊結婚啊？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAGP2q4dyi
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBUUFIzXmb
我一個人想幾天，終於在這天放學，只有我和姊姊的時候直接問：「姊姊，我想問妳一個問題。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRs9hsZ738Z
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姊姊：「什麼問題？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1PJJj7dpT
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CRzxlfTA2
我問：「我們為什麼會結婚？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmDQuhJEhJ
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面對我的問題，十九歲的姊姊沉默了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSu2rlylyCP
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95Sn8LdidF
安靜牽著我的小手，一步步帶我回家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfXjabq76J
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八歲的我，完全不瞭解姊姊為什麼都不說話。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4t9wZAPgSL
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不過只要是個成年人，一定能瞭解姊姊不語的原因。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1aUyOBTfq
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十九歲，根本還只是大學生。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtrna8LLS6
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如果姊姊的爸爸沒有中風，現在姊姊應該正在越南的某間大學半工半讀。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHinolqm0c9
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqg7VhRHQ3
姊姊卻是拿錢嫁來台灣，和我結婚成為黄家媳婦，一年來一直日夜陪伴我生活。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrFRanxfIo
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姊姊的寧靜，其實是有重量的。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQajm9iRrYh
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3czsEO1PBI
生活的重量，從來不是三言二語可以輕鬆說完。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hSiMmbe5J
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也或許，正是因為無奈和感嘆，才讓它這麼不容易說完。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5nybEMOwik
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天真不懂的我追問：「姊姊？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84luiSEIIl
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姊姊回答：「因為我們必須結婚。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbXoDGrBOT
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我：「為什麼？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4n172ZroI
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姊姊僅能：「姊姊不知道應該怎麼說。等到回家之後，你問媽媽吧？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyD0xPbDoO
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcA59KUluM
所以回家之後，我真的牽著姊姊的手，跑去問媽媽這件事。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLXCCMogYU
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnPAUCqdXs
媽媽沉默的和姊姊互看，然後回答我：「等你長大之後就知道為什麼會和姊姊結婚了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzCBJQzFcP
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結果，當年八歲的我還是完全不知道為什麼自己會和姊姊結婚。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBkTU9TJD3
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBBiTIvjOI
我也只能想著這件事幾天之後，開始把它淡忘掉，繼續開開心心的牽著姊姊的手，和姊姊一起生活……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLjw0ui6Kh
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就這樣，幾年的國小生活迅速過去。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0p4V4HqTZ
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRJeW58lJo
姊姊嫁來黄家的時候十八歲，現在已經二十三歲。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Q0WEgbjKN
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMoO0btjyU
照顧我之餘順便幫忙家事，處理家裡公司的英文翻譯工作，可說已經完全融入黃家的一切生活。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5zFx6cA3Z
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至於越南娘家，姊姊和娘家密切保持聯絡，不論是實體信件，電子信件，通訊軟體，沒有斷絕過。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuVO3iZkHb
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中風的爸爸情況好轉。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTmoV3qDrQ
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4PQChQRqA
媽媽用姊姊的聘金開一間穀物貿易店，生意做的不錯。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEs0cHSsOTn
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTSestUwhu
二位弟弟則是都在高中讀書，準備考大學。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAT3MccnCf
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所以原本窮困的娘家的確因為姊姊的聘金，慢慢發達起來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIrDpLwwAV
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就這樣來看，窮人女孩為錢出嫁遠方，真的不好嗎？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzMrNMNOhV
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當然，每個人心中都有想法和答案……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlH3obqtKI
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我則是十二歲，健康快樂的入讀國中一年級。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiHvUSUgzt
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開始長高的我，心靈隨之成長。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxddbCtT9k
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小時候的我，整天黏著姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxuk3HbFan
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但是現在的我，對於那麼黏姊姊開始覺得怪怪的。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVt8jIrjwbK
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQY2bL3gSW
和姊姊一起手牽手走在路上，以前的我覺得很自然快樂，但是現在的我卻覺得很奇怪。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yFCN4G460
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尤其是如果在路上遇見認識的同學或是朋友，我都會趕緊放開姊姊的手，和姊姊分開，不想要被他們看見我和姊姊手牽手。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsaxNFzkXe
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8k6RJs8K8h
甚至於，我會對於和姊姊同房睡覺這件事感到彆扭。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RVYIrcoLd
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EO6BWW11s
睡覺的時候，我都已經故意側躺背對姊姊，並且離遠點，姊姊卻還是主動靠上來，從我的背後主動摟抱我在懷裡。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsipTOg17em
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就像過去那樣，從背後抱著我一起看電視。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetP8iVs07M
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就像過去那樣，從背後抱著唸故事書給我聽。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWGxCBD0XY
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHlq8W8iPs
就像過去那樣，抱著親密搖我，唱兒歌給我聽，陪我說話。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42ce6Fdze0
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就像過去那樣，一直把我當成孩子……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLZAmgE5w3
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因此，今晚睡覺又被姊姊像這樣從背後親密摟抱，彆扭好一陣子的我終於說：「姊姊……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtq3lWJFQsC
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姊姊：「嗯？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx47vyGF5Cc
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我說：「妳可以不要抱我嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGT26ORg8O
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姊姊：「怎麼了？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPxohRjX6J
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我誠實說：「感覺好難為情。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbwaIUyIjp
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姊姊沉默。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAVurlXbxY
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我繼續趁這個機會說出心底話：「其實……我越來越覺得我們一起睡覺很奇怪……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzboH2mMbN
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姊姊：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkjNjjXIXA
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我說：「我知道，好多年來我們都是一起睡覺，妳會像這樣抱著我。但是，現在我真的開始覺得好奇怪……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q5IyO8Ois
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又是幾秒的沉默。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxx2LSyhIpT
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姊姊主動移動手，不再從背後摟抱我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPqukycwB6
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我擔心姊姊不開心，回頭看去：「姊姊，我沒有討厭妳，只是真的覺得好奇怪。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0gCvFkNhb
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陰暗的燈光下，側躺面對我的姊姊溫柔微笑：「阿弟，你長大了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOf9OhUJidH
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不只姊姊，阿媽和媽媽也是叫我阿弟。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLJ5mRyEdm
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我只能說：「是嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBl92E6YCE
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姊姊：「你也不喜歡和姊姊牽手被同學看見吧？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2xjfcZ4VM
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我這才知道，原來姊姊有察覺到這件事，知道我都會在路上遇到同學的時候放開姊姊的手。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkP7LZAoO0U
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唯有乖乖承認：「嗯……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNO5QtT5Gv
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姊姊詢問：「你也會討厭姊姊陪你上下學？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7mOk5vtms
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我沒想到姊姊會反問這件事，所以我真的想幾秒：「上下學……我是覺得，上下學我一個人不會有問題。其實姊姊可以不必一直跟著我，感覺有點浪費妳的時間……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhB1YbvHm5w
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OV1qkuQqN
姊姊得到我的回答：「姊姊知道了，以後你自己上下學吧。明天你還要去學校，先睡覺。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrarKqjBa69
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說完，姊姊轉身，背對我睡覺，沒有再摸我一下。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH74lQTeSMb
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我也只好同樣繼續背對姊姊睡覺。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXA3hNKDXS
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5HpLonZBt
我知道，姊姊依然是當年那個一心一意照顧陪伴我的姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDXGFI9MfL
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但是開始長大改變的我，真的不再是當年七歲的我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjmKOpsFgt
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雖然當時沒有感覺，不過我和姊姊的關係，的的確確就從這時候開始不同。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5A3RHQxK8B
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隔天，姊姊果然讓我一個人上學，下午回家時間也沒有來校門口接我，讓我感覺好奇怪，就像有什麼明顯不對勁。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6gkeNU8EM
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甚至於，回到家之後，在房間放下書包，發現房間裡面怪怪的。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQfpLCwgcA
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但是那時我還忽然說不出房間哪裡奇怪。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvWEDkitJ6
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直到進入廚房從冰箱找喝的，遇見正在忙碌晚餐的媽媽和姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CZsUQ11lP
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我先問候：「媽媽，姊姊。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡro9CT8XoV0
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媽媽知道我一定還沒有完全搞清楚情況，所以主動跟我說：「今天開始，姊姊會去原本用來堆雜物的那個房間睡覺。下午已經把雜物間清理好，也把姊姊的東西都搬進去，以後那裡就是姊姊的臥房。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWPCVASTqp
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這就是剛才我為什麼覺得房間有點奇怪，因為原本屬於姊姊的東西與衣物都消失不見。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0tmY7SU1X
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBnpF4rsJd
我小小意外到：「姊姊要睡在雜物間？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoi3onTPxo
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媽媽：「你不是跟姊姊說不想和姊姊一起睡覺？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMMSmeIMif
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我：「昨晚我是那樣說……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAd3V2f4A4
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然後，我看向姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlE2CGbbGHm
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姊姊面無表情站在瓦斯爐前炒青菜，沒有看我一眼。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ225UmaFB5N
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我：「姊姊？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGJB0RxwML
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姊姊終於看我：「嗯？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeSlYcoS3d
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我：「你真的要搬去雜物間？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1AfeLy5yD
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姊姊回我：「早上姊姊和媽媽談過之後，覺得這樣對你比較好。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPo1U5QKQE
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我：「可是－－－」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCo9WiQRVq
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『可是』到這裡，我又半句話說不出。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctuNvyS9vR
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畢竟我究竟想要『可是』什麼？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylDz3nNdnY
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我的確一天天覺得和姊姊同床共枕很奇怪，親口說出這件事。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LmZmdR0eq
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我和姊姊分房生活本來就是很自然的發展，到底還有什麼好『可是』？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBu2MHUepcu
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所以『可是』之後，我真的又沒有一句話可以說，只能站著。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFO2AvNECr
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因此姊姊再說：「你真的已經長大了，開始獨立自主。姊姊很高興，可以陪伴你平安長大到今天。今後也要繼續成長為一位優秀的大人，知不知道？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9D0qlRzmB
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我唯有：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQcsFjBgm5
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媽媽有意思讓這件事就這樣：「好啦！你自己聞聞衣服，都是臭酸味！快去浴室洗澡，準備吃晚飯了！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwP3tHGHxC
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就這樣，我們沒有再談過這件事。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqCzCzFjEa
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我跟姊姊正式分房生活……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKQuG0vBBQ
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姊姊決定放手，讓我自由自在的長大，相信那樣對我的成長最好。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1LvYyLnYV
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我從上下學不再有姊姊陪伴，直到現在分房睡覺，真的一直有種說不出的奇怪感。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TcYyWq7Ml
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就像自己的生活，忽然有什麼重要的人事物消失不見。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NyLYtNO3B
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這樣的消失，好像明顯是錯的。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjbe2G4O5U
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但是我又感覺到，這樣才是對的。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqXIgXpttO
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我相信這就是姊姊所說的獨立自主和所謂的長大吧。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvru8GN6L3A
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卻也因為這樣，沒有姊姊常常跟隨陪伴的我，雖然獲得很高的生活自由，卻也交上壞朋友了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmIXLJLNyN
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXUoK5n1hl
週六日，以前我都是跟姊姊一起出門，搭公車去鄰近城市的鬧區走走逛逛再回家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQfRMpN10B
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不再有姊姊緊密陪伴的我，都和同學朋友一起出遊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMuCDyUc3r
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplSxZW7xBc
姊姊都會在我出門赴約的時候，微笑的說：「路上小心，早點回來。」完全把我當成大人尊重看待。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYVap0tuiS
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就這樣，朋友彼此之間再互相介紹，我終於和一群大人常說的『壞孩子』認識。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnELVJ1pyzn
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一夥近三十人，男女都有，對我來說都是些大哥哥大姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalJYTljua4
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年紀大約是國中生到二十歲，最年長的幾位等著當兵，並且他們的家庭明顯都有問題。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU78yNX45aq
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搶劫吸毒之類的嚴重事情沒有。但是檳榔喝酒，喜歡夜遊飆車，嗆聲裝大……大概就是缺少家庭關愛的鄉下8+9。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZh7JxETc2
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當然，認識他們之初，我也覺得和他們在一起不太好。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2S1QTIpiFw
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聰明的孩子絕對會知道不應該和他們繼續往來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtXaWHEvRg
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但是我又無法抗拒和他們繼續來往的誘惑。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowA1c2rdJU
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因為他們有帥氣的摩托車。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIcxHcQhdJ
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他們是個8+9飆車族，車隊名稱叫做三太子風火輪。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmL5yiIxBuI
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沒有錯，我喜歡帥氣的摩托車。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDCvgdDXdo
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看著那樣的帥氣摩托車，我就想騎上去飆。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELFOEAFycy
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聽著引擎聲怒吼，我的感覺整個嗨到不必嗑任何東西。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1CsjDQSuK
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尤其是家裡沒有摩托車，只有分別由爺爺、爸爸和媽媽各自擁有的二輛汽車。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerddAJKX5P
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當年的我不懂汽車，只記得叫難聽的梅賽什麼的，看起來又黑又大又笨重，一點都不拉風的廉價車。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnBVTHIiFl
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而大哥大姊他們不只有摩托車，還都經過特別改裝，看起來又酷又炫。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOrpK98UPc
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只要坐上去感覺就像世界無敵了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzqfGiulBx
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當年才十三歲的我，真的好希望自己也能擁有一輛自己的帥氣摩托車。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBHCh9WTJD
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所以我真的克制不住和他們一群人來往的慾望。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAGU3zTVIh
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他們一定是因為全都破碎家庭出身，主觀的認為我也一樣，所以完全不問我的來歷，我到場就接受我，讓我跟隊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8Aerl4OxG
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所以我不必上學的週六日一出門，就是主動去找他們，大家一起出門全速衝鋒。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXNuMGohQT
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當然，我都是後座被載的那個。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKIjwO6TYp
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大部份時間，都是在靠中央山脈的山路衝鋒兜風，大約深夜就解散回家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJcgaaPNPy
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少數時候，大家飆的比較瘋，就是順著車少的靠海道路從台灣南部衝到台北，再從基隆衝進宜蘭花蓮直到台東，再一路騎回來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm43S8iyMaD
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真的是完全不睡覺，從白天騎到黑夜，再從黑夜騎到白天，猛衝台灣島一圈的衝鋒。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVHDFl1CPX
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每個月都會像這樣衝一次。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw41jSI1Bir
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大家都樂此不疲，我更是好開心。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBevVzWSnx
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我覺得這個世界真的好遼闊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWvzDKyWXj
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我真的好想看到外面更寬大的世界。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCR6P01mu0
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我越來越不想離開這個環島飆車團體。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26hNWILRqZ
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不過想也知道，我才一個國中生，家人一定擔心追問。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGuz8XR4I7
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如果半夜才回家，這種情況還好，被媽媽碎念個幾句就好。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjEPdEtUoG
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如果是一整天的瘋狂環島……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcugYmxBb1W
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終於，這個週日早上，第三次我再次環島瘋回來之後，被追問到底了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWnbzJErWL
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不只媽媽和姊姊，就連最疼我的阿媽也在一邊看。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiuwjUaIMz
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媽媽一臉擔心：「昨天週六你到底去哪裡？怎麼整晚都不回來？這樣的情況已經不是一次二次了！你才幾歲啊！大家整晚等你，怕你出什麼事，一直想去報警知不知道？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5o7EqV4CA1
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因為擔心會被媽媽繼續罵，所以我回答：「沒事啦。只是和幾個朋友去台北玩。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCpuIetAyu
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這是事實，因為車隊的確會經過台北。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgs3rKXdQza
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雖然抵達台北的時候都是大部份人回家睡覺的深夜。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqAbGsfqwu
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換姊姊問：「阿弟，你們沒有做壞事吧？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuHkRTjcwz
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如果說謊，媽媽和姊姊一定會看出來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgKVTG0ZWi
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我覺得很煩又很無奈的直視她們，明示自己的清白：「沒有啦。真的只是一群人出去玩而已。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDroIQUr3NU
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不過是騎摩托車瘋狂繞台灣，還會是什麼壞事？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLlbI3PMtJ
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姊姊再問：「下週六你們也會像這樣出去玩到週日才回家？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJDi976lKw
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我不耐煩的回：「又不是每次都這樣好不好？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cI81V7Ty7
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姊姊：「表示以後還會像這樣？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8CsksrSSC
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我不敢回答，因為是肯定的，所以生氣大罵：「妳們又煩又囉嗦！有完沒完！碎碎唸個不停！我要回房間睡覺了啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzhORUbIIX
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就此頭也不回，直往房間快步走。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsAvRKsMXL
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媽媽她們看我忽然這麼兇的大罵之後轉身就走，全部愣在客廳，忽然追不上來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWufQAeA51z
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只有姊姊，第一時間追進房間，拉著我的手：「你到底跟誰出去？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBv6uqDLHM
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就這樣，我第一次和姊姊吵架了……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhmCGndVCc
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發急的我，只能甩開姊姊的手：「問這麼多做什麼？是有那麼嚴重喔？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Tq7YZNpsX
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姊姊：「阿弟，媽媽剛才沒有說錯，你才十三歲，是個國中生啊！整晚不回家，大家當然擔心！加上你正在叛逆期，我們可以不擔心嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eh0LimiqY
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這時候，媽媽和阿媽也追上來觀戰。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEJKW7oDjA
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不過她們暫時都沒有說話，把發言權交給姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50V9ErAsDZ
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我一心只想早點罵退她們，所以直接對姊姊罵：「到底關妳什麼事！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLjTK74VsU
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姊姊：「為什麼不關我的事！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSHpDSGTbm
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我：「妳到底是我的誰啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pAyS1DpPN
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姊姊：「我是妳的姊姊啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf68vn0EHxV
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我：「我只是把妳當姊姊喊！不然我什麼時候有姊姊了！妳是媽媽生的喔？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDwOtw7J9D
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姊姊的確一時難以回答。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5Wl3F9a36
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我繼續說：「妳又不姓黃！明明什麼都不是！妳只是個外人！就不要再對我管那麼多了啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJlymOgkwn
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姊姊：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgKtkJghaE
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媽媽：「你這個孩子對姊姊說什麼話！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFujIuWnaMY
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阿媽也罵我：「是姊姊辛苦的一手把你帶到這麼大，知不知道？怕你冷！怕你熱！怕你餓到！怕你受傷生病！怕你書沒讀好！你還要去哪裡找這樣的姊姊！到底誰還會對你這麼好啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWXpUZVkFm
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媽媽：「你的阿媽沒有說錯！姊姊真的對你那麼好，結果你竟然對姊姊說這種話！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNQfMck3tH
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這樣子，我又要面對她們三人了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQinudGLGqy
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整晚沒有睡的我，又煩又氣又累，拉著房門就要緊緊關上。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDd9dSsgCC
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姊姊卻是踏出一步，伸手用力頂著門，不給我關。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNQdVut4c1
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甚至於，姊姊直瞪著我，毫不移開雙眼。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaYBI65ijC
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被姊姊這樣瞪，頓時一陣膽寒。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprigockY17
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畢竟我是被姊姊從七歲一手帶大的孩子，對於和姊姊相處的實際記憶真的比媽媽還要多。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCTfUnnK4U
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所以被姊姊這樣瞪，讓我感覺比親生媽媽這樣瞪還要可怕。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzNvVwhmg8
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覺得自己真的麻煩大了……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGBmXCJOsQ
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我又急又怕：「放手！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCC7g7EQPF
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姊姊：「不放！你不敢說，背後一定有問題！你好好說出是和誰出去整晚！你們到底去做什麼！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxmSciy5LH
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我：「我已經說了，妳沒有資格問！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8whNeOO2UF
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媽媽出頭：「那麼媽媽總有資格問吧！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPGFHERGeE
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我更是不敢回答媽媽，只能繼續用力推門，對姊姊喊：「反正跟妳沒有關係，放手啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBKAWssgDG
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姊姊只能喊：「我不是外人！我是嫁進黃家的媳婦！你這樣子，我會擔心啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNyoV2kN0u
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我：「什麼媳婦！到底是誰的媳婦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmb7Zpe9Jmr
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姊姊：「你的啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCF7kh1umW
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當時的情況，姊姊不這樣說不行。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfca29X2tq
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因為姊姊真的會在這個黃家找不到立足之地。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzIAToZrRI
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只會是個來自越南卻長時間住在黃家的外人。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kmI3xjobA
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我：「才不是！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoMccjwMpF
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姊姊：「為什麼不是？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQE5zGlGYQ
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我：「我又不是願意和妳結婚！再說當時我才幾歲啊！而且大家都知道只是做做樣子，又不是真的！妳才不是我的媳婦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsT3ML6J3vJ
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接著姊姊的回答，我萬萬想不到。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVITbVC8TUg
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我真的萬萬想不到。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4yQ0U0jTH
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姊姊問我：「那麼姊姊搬出去，和其他男生約會結婚也沒有關係了？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRpwHE4rev
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當然姊姊是故意這樣說，為了嚇嚇我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUakxFS7LRm
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不過才十三歲的我根本還只是個不夠懂事的孩子，心臟立刻一個大跳！231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzrUBWgsXO
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這樣的心情，就像孩子聽到守寡的媽媽要改嫁。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40wiJG8xft
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只要是孩子，一般都會很難接受這樣的事情。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPfj1VZwEc
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到時候姊姊會被其他人搶走，姊姊就不再是我的姊姊了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUnsIgs0Oj
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說起來，當時的我真的就像個要斷奶卻無法斷個徹底的孩子。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3JRBE3YQk
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當然我緊張的對姊姊說：「妳說什麼啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEe7T3PqHC
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姊姊說：「反正我又不是黃家的媳婦，你管姊姊那麼多。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKUAaHK5td
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我：「這是不同的事情啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡko2AIcolPx
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姊姊：「隨便你吧。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEMSTaW1QK
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說完，姊姊還真的直接放手，不再想把我的房間門頂開，並且轉身就走。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikyzMg7xds
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsazQWzom4
媽媽配合姊姊：「你這個孩子實在是啊……看看你剛才對姊姊說什麼話！姊姊真的不想管你了，還不快去跟姊姊說對不起！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzZoLoHO6P
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我猶豫堅持僵持著。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgB49d6CA53
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畢竟如果說出事實，我知道她們一定不會再讓我去參加車隊兜風。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44CKo2vZE4
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如果不說，姊姊又會變成別人的姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4ch3brbGK
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我的心情真的是有夠天人交戰。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4Yqw8QBpP
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根本是逼我二選一。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfosSqULBP
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媽媽：「姊姊真的不必勉強自己一直留在我們家！現在你真的要看姊姊離開？還不快去跟姊姊道歉！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MjhHumBk5
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終於，我還是害怕的：「嘖！」一聲，離開房間，快步跑去找姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJMBmrBhbU
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLM7GnU6Bu
姊姊坐在客廳沙發看電視，冰冷的完全不看我一眼。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQYPYeyprP
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我：「姊姊。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41anw6gJKn
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姊姊：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPDM5WAcmi
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我：「姊姊，妳不要這樣。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH87xEKrQCG
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姊姊：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDU0zaRNce
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我：「對不起。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1nIV1qSTr
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姊姊：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dCPHa3zAI
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我：「妳不要走啦。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRPunXwUyL
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姊姊：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3nfglYvNf
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我：「剛才我真的不是故意那樣說……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkKCK21UKQ
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姊姊終於看我：「姊姊想聽到的不是這些。是你整晚到底去哪裡？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwHdXGknhb
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我又是一番掙扎：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ccW00zIaN
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姊姊終於看我：「你從小到大，今天真的是第一次有事情瞞著姊姊。讓姊姊好難過。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwUHuenKzj
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我：「如果我說了，你們一定不會再讓我出去……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirGtBwuDbT
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姊姊：「反正你先說，到底整晚去哪裡做什麼？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqM965AxXA
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我：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvX14ceMLqN
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姊姊：「還是不願意說嗎？反正對你來說，姊姊只是這個黃家的外人吧。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJZ3uM5bdg
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我：「不是那樣啦。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNIne3rJIF
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姊姊：「那就告訴姊姊。不然姊姊真的要搬走了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyEh3GvhPb
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我只能心一橫：「昨天我是去參加車隊……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHcHmGwrKc
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姊姊：「車隊？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWJlQvBvae
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我：「整天跟大家坐摩托車兜風，只有那樣而已。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUl4ju1BFfk
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阿媽擔心的問：「你跟人家去飆車？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5NtFrVvxW
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我拼命想著讓自己可以無罪開脫的回答說詞，可是就速度來說，又覺得很難辯駁：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd78GCcu4rv
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媽媽看我的沉默，直接有罪判定，滿臉的難以相信：「你竟然去跟人家飆車……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAqKyBcgX3
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我：「不是飆車啦！只是外面騎一圈而已！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcMeaidIOY
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姊姊冰冷的說：「騎去哪裡？為什麼整晚才回來？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9zTb2vbxn
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我：「沒有去哪裡啦……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYgfJteUuE
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姊姊：「到底跟人家騎去哪裡？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEGWVp03XY
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我：「就是……台灣繞一圈而已……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcLlaePfcu
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姊姊略顯訝異：「台灣繞一圈？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53pMhElMQe
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我看姊姊的反應，知道不妙了：「真的只有那樣！不是什麼危險的飆車啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡardW6RZr25
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姊姊：「一天騎台灣一圈？所以整晚都在騎車？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYc6FEMlwsQ
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阿媽再次：「哎喲！這樣不就整天在飆車！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEE4H8lYP2j
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媽媽同樣受驚不小，音量非常大：「你這個孩子實在是！竟然去跟飆車族整天在一起飆車！那樣有多危險知不知道！如果出事怎麼辦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MJ8tyf62F
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換阿媽哀叫：「哎喲……你這樣如果讓疼你的阿公知道，他一定會驚的血壓飆高喔……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8KMXQUfV0
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我：「真的沒有想的那麼危險啦！再說我已經參加過三次，不是都沒有出事！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCO1qjS2ai
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媽媽直接大聲：「以後不准再去參加，聽到沒有！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSgDr0QQMf
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阿媽：「黃家現在只有你這個獨孫！黃家還要靠你傳下去！你要是有個萬一要怎麼辦啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxywHSdqSxL
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果然，變成我最討厭的情況。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTv4jvkx1S
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我只能做著沒有意義的抗議：「就是因為會這樣，我才不敢跟妳們說啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftUTGNwq98
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姊姊接口：「你不敢說，因為你自己也知道本來就不應該去參加。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFICas14lcQ
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我：「但是真的沒有想像的危險！你們看我不是一直都平安回來？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuSEELV7Ti
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姊姊：「不論你說多安全，我們都不會相信。飆車本來就是很危險的事情，更不必說你才十三歲。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqAQS4TswE
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我：「所以等我十八歲就可以了，是不是？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd0yCHGuUv
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姊姊卻是直瞪著我，直接一句：「姊姊對你很失望。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62JxzDg2ta
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我：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgZw6sxwAp
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姊姊：「我一直以為你會開始懂事，會自己想……結果你竟然做出這麼危險的事情，去參加整天飆車的飆車族。姊姊真的對你非常失望。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMghNjcLbw
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我：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUPGLkOoSw
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姊姊：「你根本還是個不懂事的孩子，完全不知道事情輕重。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRf6yGlM7q
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阿媽也在旁邊整個憂心：「會變壞……這樣一定會變壞……哎喲……怎麼辦啦……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6dsDx3qBn
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我做著最後掙扎：「事情真的不是那樣……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtGxYpzqu1
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姊姊：「反正你不准再去參加，否則姊姊就搬出去，再也不管你了，有沒有聽到？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjBtWrrjSm
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我還能怎麼回答？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaiZFAlau5
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只能垂頭喪氣：「知道了……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpaKG6LllM
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當時的我，真的覺得好難過，覺得好不甘願。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqLqKmwa6V
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因為我真的很喜歡騎著摩托車兜風的感覺。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkma3qbvxv
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現在這一切，因為我不希望姊姊離開，所以都要被強迫終止。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEc2vh1SR2V
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讓我怎麼接受？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZaLedQZFO
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我自然悶悶不樂起來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrUWhCqGFb
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週日的這場爭吵，就這樣結束。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEe8ScBGZiS
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然後，週二這一天，在外面跑生意的爸爸回家休息幾天了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQIWzrOAUv
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所以這一天放學回家，我立刻被爸爸叫到客廳。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XHFhjAYrg
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爸爸一臉嚴肅，姊姊她們三人都在旁邊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvoDbmDXCp
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雖然爸爸因為和阿公一樣整天在東南亞跑，都把我的事情交給阿媽媽媽和姊姊，幾乎沒有插手過我的教育，不過還是會在必要的時候管教我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInNt2swkz1
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所以我其實還頂怕爸爸的。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6Cjz03sRb
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爸爸開口就是嚴肅的問：「聽媽媽說，你去參加飆車族，已經好幾次和他們環島？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpaq5oD1AP
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我覺得說再多也沒有意義，所以簡單的：「嗯。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLVCw5aj3B
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爸爸嚴厲罵來：「亂來！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOab4HC97K
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我：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHt8aSEGHGP
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爸爸：「你以為飆車好玩啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqNpqLFh4v
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不服氣又不甘心的我，雖然會怕爸爸，不過還是什麼都不管了，直接說：「很好玩。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO208YlntHG
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聽著腳下的引擎怒吼，看著二旁道路快速向後衝去的速度感，進入前方從來沒有見過的新世界，真的很好玩。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JlxjW8Gba
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我真的喜歡騎摩托車旅行的感覺。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSHOjb6Abp
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越是參加那個車隊，我越是著迷於那樣的感覺，難以自拔。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxxbuOwIdU
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不過，在場四人都為我這句話：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAK2fu4uNey
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真的，他們都被我一句話頂到安靜。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0SNy6h9pOG
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好幾秒，半句話沒有。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWJJbeQY7h
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爸爸反應回來，更兇的說：「飆車是在拿自己的生命安危開玩笑，你到底知不知道！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2lHE9MTcv
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我：「反正你們不會懂啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcNFa8yrKt
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爸爸：「是你完全不懂！真的跟個孩子一樣！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkD9TfWcYmc
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我正想要給爸爸頂嘴……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNdqTDjIXz
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一直安靜在旁邊的姊姊：「那麼你說，我們不懂什麼？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalwxROWPy9
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我：「反正你們不會再讓我去了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVneXpO98j2
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姊姊：「我們的確不會再讓你去參加飆車族。可是如果你說出來，至少我們還可以懂你為什麼會去參加。是因為姊姊開始不陪你，所以你覺得一個人很寂寞嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnicIA9WYRW
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我：「不是那樣啦。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8kAj4dJ9Z
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姊姊：「那是怎麼樣？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8N5h0dsAr
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我：「我喜歡騎摩托車。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCTzaqHj3K
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姊姊：「你喜歡騎摩托車？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKq8wLJtTOn
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我：「我知道你們一定會覺得那些騎摩托車的人都是壞孩子，當然不會讓我去參加。可是他們其實沒有你們想像的那麼壞。我只是和他們一起騎車，一起兜風，又沒有怎麼樣……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QBOVASYh4
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姊姊卻是說：「我們先把他們的事情放在一邊。你為什麼會喜歡摩托車？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2lYlL1Sx1
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我：「你們一定不喜歡摩托車吧？是不是覺得會騎摩托車的人都是窮人？都不是什麼好人？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYr5SflWeP
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姊姊：「你為什麼這樣問？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpSVaReqgP
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我：「因為一定是這樣啊！否則我們家為什麼連一輛摩托車都沒有！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfj0UCE0lFd
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爸爸出面回答：「因為汽車載人載物比較方便，也比較安全！再說平時如果大家需要出門，媽媽會開車，不是都會開爸爸的車載你們出門？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaUouckVtr
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我：「不一樣啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvIMcc4TFC
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姊姊：「哪裡不一樣？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcT0Q8QiAcG
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我：「摩托車帥氣拉風又自由，騎起來的感覺就是好棒！我們家的車又笨重又醜，名字也難聽又難記，叫梅塞什麼的……要怎麼跟帥氣的摩托車比！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLDGKWTtI5
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爸爸沉默二秒，口氣好許多：「梅賽德斯？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV62cNQwiIz
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我：「對！梅賽德斯！聽都沒有聽過！看起來也真的有夠醜！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpuqu06XAd
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爸爸：「梅賽德斯是主名，大家常知的通名是賓士。我們家二輛車都是賓士高級車款，你知道一輛多少錢嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8R3YBFSd5N
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當然我絕對聽過，知道是很貴的車，忍不住確認：「賓士？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxYe29EDc3
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爸爸：「都是賓士。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5JZtMpbc2
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下一秒，我有一種極為失望的感覺，因為總覺得賓士那樣的名貴轎車應該看起來更加不同凡響才對。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74sCX1PnvD
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所以我發自內心回答爸爸：「好醜……真的……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzWCD6I5FC
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首先，美醜是很主觀的。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXUSS2WTs6
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再來，我真的打心底覺得，賓士有名又貴到讓我很無法理解。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibrNo8eOZZ
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真的，就算我已經長大成人，還是不喜歡賓士的外型，就算是賓士的跑車款也一樣……絕對是青菜蘿蔔每人各有喜好。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpinKGOIsMX
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所以這時候的我萬分的難掩失望之情。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uzEsXw4zh
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爸爸：「賓士也有跑車款，看起來很好看。我們家二輛都是家用房車，所以看起來像一般常見車輛，不過的確都是很貴的頂級賓士。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAm0VsvbvX
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我：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoyuGPhDoG
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姊姊再問：「你真的那麼喜歡摩托車？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIu5R5OKcby
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我：「摩托車很棒啊！車隊的大哥大姊都把自己的車改的好酷好炫！那是因為你們沒有看過，不然你們一定也會喜歡！坐在上面騎，感覺就很舒服！真的可以騎一整天也不會膩！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1Vgdg95kH
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他們四人，幾秒的安靜。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsI04JA4KRU
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爸爸終於說：「十來歲的年輕人，真的都會比較喜歡摩托車吧？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aVAs5J87h
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我：「所以讓我再去參加車隊啦！他們真的只是單純的在路上騎車，沒有想的那麼危險！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKefElfzk6
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媽媽直接大聲：「不可能！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEPl1t2YY6
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爸爸也說：「你給我乖乖留在家裡，有沒有聽到？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpJzPcjknl
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阿媽更是：「傻孫啊，摩托車騎那麼快多危險啊……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7CDtpolMH
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我還能怎辦：「我就知道！一定會變成這樣！跟你們根本白說！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzo0mYCMvm
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姊姊：「你真的那麼喜歡摩托車？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPOKwE1Zy1
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我開始發洩自己被強迫阻止的怒氣：「我就是喜歡！比家裡那二輛什麼醜賓士帥氣多了！就算你們現在禁止我！但是等到我滿十八歲是個大人了，一定要回去車隊給你們看！到時候看你們怎麼阻止我！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrUah2LN5i
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媽媽：「你這個孩子！說這什麼話！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexTFVbVRBa
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我：「我一定會回去車隊給你們看！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQnR8I8PUw
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媽媽本來想再罵我，但是看爸爸一直安靜：「你也對孩子說句話啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8HxzzDcjt
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爸爸卻是思考：「嗯……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUZJNd6qwT
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媽媽：「喂！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIrD5Tt6Rf
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爸爸回答媽媽：「看他這樣，不如我先通知爸爸？不管怎樣，這件事都要讓爸爸知道，再看要怎麼處理。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkL5aqvSc2
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當然，爸爸口中的爸爸就是阿公。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeFcLS6brC
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媽媽：「要告訴爸爸？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbPQIrxg2X
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阿媽：「讓你的阿公知道你出去飆車一整天，還要出去繼續飆，一定要為你急的高血壓啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulNaUPsrug
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然後，爸爸播起電話，開始和電話另一頭的阿公說我的事情。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelvX9FcXwU
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參加8+9飆車族。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4amkfTIdg
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一整天的飆車，環台一圈好幾次。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUZWis2nIF
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還放話，長大成人之後要回去繼續飆……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkW2mwlMRuN
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然後爸爸掛電話，告訴我們：「爸爸說他會把工作的事排開，搭明天的班機趕回來。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4Od2ybnEt
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阿公一定吃驚訝異又發急，否則不會放下工作立刻趕回來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKOwSjeyTk
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阿媽：「傻孫子，你自己看看，阿公為你急的……哎喲……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKbJlvedlo
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我也只能摸摸鼻子回房間，心情忐忑又不好的準備面對明天就要回來的阿公。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bEWsx70Ud
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就這樣，隔天週三，我照樣去學校上學。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaVB3meQo1
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傍晚回家，阿公果然已經等在客廳。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5IzoPhYsA
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姊姊他們四個人，都陪在旁邊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRbI8CvVdr
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因為阿公和阿媽一樣疼我這個寶貝金孫，所以阿公沒有像爸爸一樣嚴肅板著臉。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YnDPH4Hrp
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阿公說的很溫和：「阿弟，先回房間放下書包，然後來告訴阿公怎麼回事？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaGvl5Du3p
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於是放下書包的我，回到客廳。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5ar0thwe9
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阿公立刻對我招手，讓我親密坐到大腿上。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSf7UIWPZ9
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阿公對待我，真的一直都像對待幼稚園的小孩子。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSRFSbjXT0
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可能對阿公來說，我不論長多大，永遠都會是當年那個可愛的小孫子吧。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYtO5wsEVX
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於是我開始把整個事情從頭跟阿公說一次。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblbu5jtv9D
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說完之後，換阿公問我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmGw4WLCpO
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先問我怎麼和那個車隊認識上，然後問我們都去哪裡？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDDHloaplp
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接著都是問一些我為什麼那麼喜歡摩托車之類的事情？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvWEmLtJuu
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我一直把自己的所有感受告訴阿公，並且求阿公讓我回去參加車隊，才能繼續快樂兜風旅行。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOzp7QxzNl
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阿公很有耐心的仔細聽我從頭說到完。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lKsISOMys
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最後，阿公問我：「你真的這麼喜歡摩托車？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfl5aaMOAs2
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我當然說：「很喜歡！因為看起來好帥，騎著兜風也很開心！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO31FWc9EHp
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阿公安靜：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR68uozre0j
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我開始撒嬌：「阿公……讓我回去參加好不好啦？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLOiTKRlKm
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阿公：「不可以。真的太危險。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnUkQPAINn
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我像個孩子拼命耍賴：「讓我回去啦！讓我回去啦！讓我回去啦！……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZ7oIhO7GB
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阿公一直微笑看著我，一言不發。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSAoM8pwKP
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爸爸很兇罵來：「不要這樣亂！大家是為你好！長大一點！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDTKRoHhJ1
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以前阿公都會袒護我，不過現在阿公只是安靜微笑看我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0fpYUdCMi
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我當然不敢再發亂：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CNp7Uiq4K
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阿公哄我：「好了，去洗個澡，換個衣服，全家一起去餐館吃晚飯。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoUDtsDKGK
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我：「可是車隊……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUh2jrSFUP
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阿公摸著我的頭：「乖。去洗澡。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQ2xHwTRA7
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我只好百般絕望，垂頭喪氣，前往浴室洗澡。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGzM1YHh5O
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在離開客廳的時候，聽到阿公叫爸爸的小名：「阿忠？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYheHuXuJZ
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爸爸回應：「爸？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9uvSs8J0l
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阿公：「我們黃家的確只有他一個男孩。不管怎麼樣，今後大家一定要看好他。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtWr2z0fd2
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爸爸回答：「我們都知道要看好他。可問題是再過幾年他如果成年，到時候又要怎麼管？成年人實在是很難管了。要是真的搬出去，更是沒有辦法管。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92SKhZ8C2b
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然後我走遠，只聽到交談聲，聽不到他們到底在商量要怎麼看緊我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6Omgwej9u
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當時我真的是感覺徹底無望啊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJXOPxGVft
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車隊當然更是沒有辦法再回去。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaSJwOAtCA
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因為姊姊故意會在週六日一直跟著我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DNMITXnX0
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我因為不希望姊姊離開黃家，所以也不敢再偷跑回去參加車隊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4Xv3wdhox
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可以說我在『姊姊』和『摩托車』這二個我都喜歡的存在，選擇了姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpYUlCMiTS
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不過我還是會在路上有人騎摩托車經過的時候，感覺好羨慕。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQleZBI5I9e
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一心想著：我一定要在成年之後想辦法買一輛自己的摩托車……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgssTaqw0Y
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我對於摩托車旅行的慾望，真的只是暫時自我壓抑，並沒有消失。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu16WneSUV1
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一個月之後的這個週六。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTd3yYrD9C
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一大早，姊姊就出門，不見蹤影。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpOCEDJ5wN
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看不見姊姊，感覺就是奇怪。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywzb9TclMW
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因為姊姊應該會主動來跟著我監視才是？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvPXTol8f0
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我吃著早餐，好奇追問媽媽：「姊姊呢？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOgQCfPTLK
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媽媽：「去城裡。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHnTvrmkHV
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也就是說，姊姊去鄰近的城市。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q7fdi1PoN
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我問：「去做什麼？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLH3l8f1ip0
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媽媽隨便敷衍：「辦點事情。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgre0LIQjim
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於是吃過早餐的我，回到房間寫週末作業。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGjNuGRiWT
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雖然我想過可以趁姊姊不在的這個機會偷偷跑回去參加車隊，不過還是因為害怕姊姊會離開而……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDu9HZ88dvY
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就這樣，下午大約二點。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0FL9AJn05
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我聽到響亮的摩托車引擎聲。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVZschoIHs
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那樣的引擎聲，一聽就很不同凡響，絕對不是一般市區常見的摩托車引擎聲。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDEAvOWOT8
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如果要形容那樣的引擎聲，就像是馬匹的腳蹄，很有力的踩著地面，每次都快速踩三下：『噠！噠！噠！』，『噠！噠！噠！』，『噠！噠！噠！』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5GtScjnaW
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聽起來規律、快速又清脆，非常悅耳。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJIJYHZ9tb
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尤其是，竟然不是從家門前的道路騎過去，而是騎進這個住家的廣大前院，在前院踏馬蹄。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdSADBPkpS
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鄉下因為土地寬，像我們這樣的有錢人家一般都會有像這樣的大前院。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVYAkeQsI6
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摩托車就那樣停在前院，三馬蹄引擎隆隆作響。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCoRO0Z8F3
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寫作業的我立刻停筆，順著聲音轉頭，心中猜想：『摩托車？誰來了？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMqrWOD4Bd
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然後媽媽高興喊來：「阿弟你快來看！姊姊把摩托車牽回家了！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOvtWPnYyw
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我自然萬般意外：『姊姊？牽摩托車回家？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6v6qYxxDTs
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立刻拋下作業跑到前院看個究竟。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9nUkazLVU
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抵達前院，阿媽和媽媽已經在前院看摩托車。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLBfuVHCjd
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引擎正在隆隆作響的果然不是一般車。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qlU9ccwuW
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至少一看外型就絕對不是路上常見的車款。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0C2gnYeVSX
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外表看起來很拉風，很像是賽車場使用的競技車。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiDtmgZmTa
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那麼是什麼車？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtzFPj7zuA
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是哈雷重型機車，全球限量二百輛的特別款，現在有一輛在我家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn7qNiVHTo
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全車幾乎都是由技術師父純手工組合和調整，可以說是精密的手工品。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YW8H8A3UG
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必然是從美國出發，通過層層關卡和檢查之後運來台灣，才會一個月之久才來到家裡。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40hCba6GTV
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至於價錢，這一輛哈雷價值將近新台幣三百萬元，抵的上一輛賓士。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGPr1SvZbi
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把這台限量款哈雷騎回來的騎士，正是一大早就出門的姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xLnHreajN
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漂亮的姊姊穿著全黑緊身皮衣，身材凹凸搶眼，跨坐哈雷，看起來超級帥氣迷人。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSqPH2Gblu
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過去那支車隊的所有大哥和大姊頭，從車到人都跟姊姊完全沒得比。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nRFCiVnct
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我趕緊跑到車邊，興奮的又叫又跳：「姊姊！這輛車是怎麼回事！是怎麼回事！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7lfP3SHAo
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姊姊對我溫暖微笑：「阿公和爸爸買回來的摩托車。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwltDyLSsta
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我完全難以相信：「真的買回來？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyAZqRVMIz
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畢竟一個月來，家人都沒有跟我說要買摩托車回來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfv5RIkoFXP
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媽媽回答：「本來阿公是說要大家把你看好。後來是你的姊姊跟阿公和爸爸說，如果你這麼喜歡摩托車，不如買一輛回來。看姊姊對妳多好，處處為你想，你卻對姊姊說那些話……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbk0WzQcsaG
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我已經顧不得那麼多，激動興奮叫個不停：「哇！哇！哇！哇！哇！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OHVOltxCn
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姊姊：「帥氣嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOYCBCVv4a
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我：「好帥！好帥！好帥！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hwcshbwoW
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姊姊微笑：「你真的很喜歡摩托車呢。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPa6qQTNS0u
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我：「買摩托車為什麼都不跟我說！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQkiGYLkL3
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姊姊直接說：「因為如果這一個月你趁機跑回去參加飆車，我們就會在你眼前把摩托車賣掉，懲罰你。讓你知道偷偷做壞事會有報應。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7leKLM3RmI
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到時候對我來說，會是多可怕的報應和懲罰啊？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYZuOiqkWq
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也幸好，今天我沒有趁著姊姊不在偷偷跑回去車隊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYj36oYWtG1
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我忍不住又氣又笑：「好壞！你們真的好壞！都不說！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNCbHNsgLO
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姊姊伸手摸我的頭：「不過你一直很乖，沒有偷偷跑回去飆車。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ez1iHcw1w
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我：「所以這輛車要給我騎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TfLo94yvf
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我已經滿心騎著它到處兜風的幻想。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmF8npfJ5ps
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姊姊：「不是喔。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKrZkzWsz8
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我：「不是？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQyCdhGzqL
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姊姊：「你才幾歲，也沒有駕照，怎麼能讓你自己騎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpSY5L6vyp
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我急的：「不讓我騎，那麼買回來做什麼啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoq3OjeCqea
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媽媽告訴我：「姊姊會負責載你，讓你願意乖乖留在家裡。除非你成年考上駕照，否則這輛車都給姊姊騎，讓姊姊載你兜風。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFhwtemvdz
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這就是阿公回來的那天，為什麼沒有說要買車回來的原因。不是沒有錢買，而是阿公和爸爸整天不在家，很難常常載我兜風，摩托車買回來也只是堆灰塵，相信我一定不會喜歡……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosSFw4DJI2
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不過我聽媽媽這樣說才想到，直看著姊姊：「啊！姊姊會騎車？妳有駕照？妳真的把車騎回來？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkJjoABhyB
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因為就我知道，姊姊應該不會騎車也不會開車。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYFpael5CN
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姊姊：「這一個月，你在學校上課的時候我去考駕照。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58L5wIgAOF
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我喜悅的：「姊姊好帥！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pgNburbJb
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姊姊又一次提醒：「你絕對不可以再去參加外面那些車隊，不然這輛帥氣的摩托車就會賣給別人，知不知道？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZneGMtnCF
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我再問：「姊姊真的自己把這輛車騎回來？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3yTbRg7Fj
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姊姊：「路上大家都在看，感覺有夠不好意思。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdbUZdmp0h
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我：「因為看起來真的好帥啊！可是這輛車看起來好重，姊姊真的有辦法騎的動？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFpE9GA9JD
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姊姊：「我本來也懷疑自己會騎不動。但是實際坐上去，發現重心很穩，腳架也很容易推動，女生也能輕鬆騎動。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieLM1T6XSG
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聽到這裡，我再也忍不住。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxvzFEPtcd
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直接伸手摸握把：「讓我騎一下看看就好！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBdEu9tPO9
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就算只有一次也好，我也要帥氣的騎著哈雷限量款機車兜風！231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkDcllKBwh
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姊姊：「不行。沒聽到姊姊剛才說什麼嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmm7NkifYx
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我：「只是在這個庭院而已，讓我騎騎看啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsXagIca0g
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姊姊：「剛才姊姊已經說過，除非你二十歲考到駕照，否則絕對不可能讓你自己騎。如果你自己偷騎，也會把它賣掉喔。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUNdxwtiQH
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我：「可是－－－」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8qtDIuu70
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姊姊溫柔微笑：「姊姊不是說了，我可以隨時載你出門。你不相信姊姊嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeEMd8j0CH
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姊姊這樣說，才讓我稍微釋懷。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1HChHFc3A
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在一旁媽媽說：「讓姊姊負責載你，這樣大家才會放心。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFKmMTx893
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阿媽也說：「對啦對啦，這樣最好，不然要賣掉喔。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbcT9sl6pW
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姊姊：「戴上這頂安全帽，上車吧。姊姊先載你在附近騎一圈。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VpAaAQY4G
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我不再多說，開心的直接坐上後座。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTiqzQbke8
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姊姊：「抱緊我，比較安全。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqVFXyQ58n
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於是我親密摟著姊姊的細腰，貼靠在姊姊的背上。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOLLSTeB6S
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姊姊：「阿媽，媽媽，我們去外面騎一圈就回來。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84zzFQ5ff1
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媽媽：「小心一點。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWI0eE8pG7
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然後姊姊調轉車頭，轉動油門，載我出發。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsbcvn8Ltf
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雖然時速只有安全的三四十公里，並且都是騎在附近的寬大省道。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3nXvtEwrj
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不過可以再一次騎車兜風，我還是覺得好開心。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1buE4DjZX
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當然，路上所有人還是都看著這輛車，聽著不同凡響的三馬蹄引擎聲，真的非常引人注意。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3186EeVdV
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就此騎著騎著，姊姊忽然說：「阿弟？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbtV8ikBsb
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我：「什麼事？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvtgpZMJWb
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姊姊：「現在這輛車雖然是姊姊騎，不過姊姊其實對於自己騎車沒有興趣。所以你快點長大，二十歲考重機駕照，換你載姊姊，知道嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEfRbTFs3S
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我：「好。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd81Ii8lW88
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姊姊：「約好了喔？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcn9wmXHTGC
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我當然說：「約好了！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDipORVmSg7
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然後，又是一會的安靜兜風。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6e741tC7m
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換我主動開口：「姊姊……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaBaBpWGcs
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姊姊：「怎麼了？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpb4t8yD6xY
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我：「那一天，我對妳說那些話，對不起……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkxmrkRqRI
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUREUfGUPh0
姊姊：「姊姊能夠瞭解，沒有關係，你能夠平安長大，好好的成人，比什麼都重要。所以你不要再把這件事放在心上了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHQGlayJ92
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不過我還是開口，很想要再說點什麼。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0OBvLSh5P
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問題是，我到底還能說什麼？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbs5pkOYfR
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不論如何，我們家就這樣因為姊姊為我說話，買進一輛非常帥氣的哈雷機車。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vKtOq6tj5
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由姊姊負責保管，定時騎去哈雷直屬的修車場檢查，所以保養的非常好。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNljREhILL4
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我當然沒有興趣再去參加那個飆車隊，因為我已經和姊姊組成一個二人小車隊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6tNmOugQN
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaHx6saoz9
姊姊會在我的作業寫完之後穿上出遊用皮衣，帥氣的載我出門兜風。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XK2EI6ebV
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載我前往從來沒有去過的地方，騎進沒有去過的大街小巷，看看陌生的新世界。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1Ngwi7h1m
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甚至於，有計劃和安排的準備好帳篷之類野營用品，載我去遠一點的露營區過夜，週日下午才載我回家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnOHtCLV0l
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整趟旅程，我們都會東聊西聊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneIMjrp6go
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我都是說些最近遇到的事情。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7uYfq2Dqb
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姊姊都會說些以前在越南的往事，或是她的父母和二位弟弟。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBLd02eax7
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因此我對於姊姊的娘家算是有一定程度的瞭解。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzEyYO5m2O
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我問過：「姊姊，妳很想念越南的家人吧？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfmfcQwC2z
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姊姊：「當然會想啊。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcqIGdXvxE
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我再問：「為什麼不回家看看？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS6etP1ze8
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面對這個問題，姊姊沒有回答，只是沉默。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMDk8yTTd9
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jLMHpOqJi
不過我大概可以猜想到姊姊的心。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOhk8FuwRS
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQFwSo3N2V
姊姊一定是認為已經過來台灣黃家這麼久，加上一種難以說明白的望鄉情怯吧……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMasglqkA6Z
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所以雖然姊姊和我分房生活，不再於上下學接送我，但是因為摩托車旅行，我們的關係依然親密。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8exphYqbLO
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真的讓我一再想起阿媽罵我的時候說的：『到底誰還會對你這麼好？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ClDjmFaVC
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忙碌於工作的阿公和爸爸不可能。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wLRhConui
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阿媽雖然疼我，不過已經有點年紀，加上必須處理很多家事，所以同樣不可能。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6X8x48b390
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媽媽十八歲和爸爸結婚，十九歲生下我，雖然現在才三十二歲，不過親密感沒有姊姊對我這麼好，加上必須管教我而無法對我百依百順。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9baEO4cF9
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真的只有姊姊對我這麼好。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR92OgFEea4
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NcEWg20kc
因此，我再次認真思考：『姊姊對我來說，到底是什麼人？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfmbtldHue
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIQZ6mpK37
姊姊當然是沒有血緣關係的外人，不是真正的姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHjWIDWfPm
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74tHBZF5mg
真的要當成姊姊看待，我們之間有十一歲這麼大的年齡差距，很詭異。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pU6DGSBDk
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFSfudF33Q
如果要說感情，又比一般的姊弟還要親密，絕對是姊弟以上的程度。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTE51sNeHx
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要說我和姊姊是情侶或是夫妻……問題是，我的確是由姊姊一手拉拔長大的孩子，完全無法產生那麼親密的戀愛感情。雖然我的確不希望失去姊姊，更別說姊姊如果真的交男朋友。我對於姊姊真的具有不能有第三者出現的獨佔心理。
反觀姊姊，雖然把我照顧的不像單純的姊姊照顧弟弟，因為真的照顧的太貼心，但是看起來也不像對我有明顯的男女之愛那樣的感覺。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKHkMsThS2
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所以，姊姊到底是我的什麼人？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tFU7ZgTcR
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqVKAjDdoL
姊弟以上，戀人未滿，到底應該怎麼面對這樣的關係？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7rrypuVjY
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxt9hSeB1kd
一天天長大成人的我，就這樣開始越來越認真的給自己和姊姊的關係尋找新定位。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUnNRDr9bd
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbigZDQnazF
畢竟我已經隱隱感覺到，如果找不到答案，最後等著我的一定只有遺憾和失落……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gdpeeWgzF
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我們家這輛哈雷，是全世界限量二百輛的限定款。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUkRkjHqoy
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網路上專門觀看影片的網站，只要輸入這輛哈雷的型號，就能找到不少相關影片。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0GrALezRO
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大部分的同款車都是在歐美。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LxxhXa8OF
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台灣這裡，只有我們家這一輛。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsh0YhFf6w
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所以只要是和台灣有關的同款車影片，一定是我們家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqZOxCIFSh
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不是我們拍的影片，是路上偶然遇到的識車人拍的。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NNQu9KdmZ
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他們看到我們這輛罕見哈雷出現眼前，當然立刻開始錄影。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeFQKjTzUv
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影片中的姊姊都穿著黑色緊身皮衣，載著後座的我兜風，時速都是很安全的三十多公里而已。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tgtMsptSD
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姊姊看起來真的帥氣又迷人，根本像是摩托車界的瀟灑女英雄。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvHEVX6nY3
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然後影片底下的留言，大都是一些車友或是愛車人，否則不會從型號找進來看影片。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7IXoPjKJ7
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他們發表像這樣的言論：231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb40g8MX3Ml
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「哈雷重機引擎特殊的三節拍好棒！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZ41f9H7dg
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「這輛車多少？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7x86KXBen
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「三百多萬，全球限定二百輛的特殊款，台灣應該只有這一輛。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9w0f8Xp8bg
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「三百多萬？我要不吃不喝好幾年才買的起啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdzsHgnxPu
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「她幾歲？買的起？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq900reUuf
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「一定是有錢人家的大小姐。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyqK0X9Ubl
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「是我的菜，我可以。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowtjele4RE
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「不管可不可以，路上遇見離遠一點，別撞上了，當心要賣腎。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppp7kpYRom
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「如果是她撞我怎麼辦？可以要她用身體賠償？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0irTD1KTKb
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「朋友在路上親眼看見過。我聽他說還不太相信，竟然真是年輕女騎士……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfeU63yd0N
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「她撐的住這麼大的重機？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqsA8H75Ao
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「後座載的是誰？弟弟還是男朋友？年齡看不出來。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8Wrv67CNY
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「看他抱成那樣，應該是男朋友？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfuS52Q4YO
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然後有人說：「他們的關係，你們點進去這個連結的影片看看……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQG4bJLOxwo
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點進去連結之後，又是另一段錄影的影片。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOh6rvdmSr
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我記得那段影片和那一天。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGFoKwSsfY
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那一天姊姊載我跑遠一點，回程的時候在路邊的小七休息，買麵包飲料休息一會，忽然跑出一個三十歲左右的大哥哥。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5qjk4x2DT
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那位大哥哥穿著同樣用來騎車旅行的緊身皮衣，也是騎自己的重型摩托車出門旅行，遇到我們也在小七休息，於是趁機邊錄影邊跟騎士姊姊搭話。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhoOMzsVAu
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當然，大哥哥的重機只是幾十萬元的那種大眾車……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvw7grF2Ko
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大哥哥友善詢問姊姊許多這輛哈雷重機和我們的問題。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrI2FiTAVw
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姊姊都是面帶微笑，落落大方面對。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIDfSSkC4L
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如果是關於哈雷騎起來的問題，姊姊都是直接回答。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqnYhMwDXS
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如果是比較家庭私事，姊姊會直接表示這個問題不能回答。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3buxneclt
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在一邊安靜陪姊姊的我，看大哥哥這樣一直和姊姊裝熟說話，不由得覺得討厭起來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz55ZczK9M1
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這樣的討厭心情如果真的要說清楚，其實更多的是：你不要隨便一直和我的姊姊搭話啦！231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRrJ1arOCV
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPs3jpeNJM
可以說是獨佔姊姊的心情，希望其他男人滾遠一點。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPwiffUnmv
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所以我插話，跟姊姊說：「姊姊，回家了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdBH59Ywh5
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之後就是我和姊姊都上車，我再次緊緊摟抱姊姊的細腰，貼在姊姊背上，讓姊姊載回家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HSBGL7Uwl
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那位大哥哥一直拍到我們的背影和哈雷一起消失在路上為止。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsLQKwUCyk
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大致上，這段影片就是這樣。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhy4REb2t0i
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至於底下的留言當然……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69j56qN59c
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「姊姊？弟弟？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdVznOkajv
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「騙誰啊，臉蛋一看就不是姊弟，沒有血緣關係。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtSasA2p2c
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRiTReHuCy
「年齡看起來也不像姊弟，差個十歲吧，差太多。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4xNO4sv8V
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mWfJZgG8U
「所以是個貼上有錢大小姐的年輕小白臉？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtg26LmVii
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「有可能，看他抱著那麼親密……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSf8cdtawr
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大致上，都是一些像這樣的留言。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0D5q9b24p
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後座的我被說成是倒貼姊姊的年輕小白臉，我其實沒有太多負面感覺。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsu7T9FT1PG
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因為我自己也在想這樣的問題：『我到底是姊姊的誰？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkIpaGyyVR
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至少，大家就這樣看影片，的確也都認為我和姊姊不是姊弟，而是感情很好的年輕情侶……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9em6LUWtF
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然後，大約是我國中快要畢業的這個晚上。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4ujrm7HUm
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我們全家一起吃晚餐，看著電視的社會新聞。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVNN6J3CaV
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新聞說到最近發生的一起老少配結婚事件。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNKWJ1eKeD
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女方五十多歲，男方二十來歲，女方比男方年長近三十歲。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8wHh0t4Gv
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當然，因為他們的年齡差距，所以立即吸引我的目光。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rNMM3KqaI
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接下來，新聞記者跑去詢問一位男女關係專家，詢問關於這件事的想法。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zR00JoPzk
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那位男女專家說：『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvS4SEVWiLP
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我沒有注意到當時的姊姊有沒有專心看這個新聞，她又是什麼樣的表情。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrKbnsnXYl
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我只知道自己看完這則新聞，總會不時想著：『所以沒有愛情也沒有關係嗎？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7v38X9VBO
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然後，十五歲的我從國中畢業了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5kiUFCOCH
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媽媽主動問：「畢業典禮要我們出席？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoplpulFkdR
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我說：「只是領畢業證書，你們不必來浪費時間。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBYSP3Pcch
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我是真的這樣想，不想浪費大家的時間。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxO9kyVdz5E
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不過當年二十六歲的姊姊還是來學校，在校門口等我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULIeUyFafv
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畢業典禮結束，我們一群畢業生被老師和學弟妹們歡送出校門，遠遠就能聽見熟悉的規律馬蹄三拍。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XaEavGnmA
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幾名從國小認識到現在的同學，因為他們都認識姊姊，所以已經圍著姊姊聊天。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqcCVERGtO
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我萬分意外的跑上去：「姊姊？妳怎麼來學校？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzP3kDpeMc
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姊姊：「過來載你。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Uhpkal6WD
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我：「為什麼忽然要來載我？要去兜風？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5Me4vMrub
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頗感意外，因為姊姊對於騎車的事情總是興趣缺缺，只有我主動找姊姊載我出門，沒有姊姊找我出門。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijxJqcV9ZP
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由此可知姊姊對我多好，總是對於我的騎車兜風要求百求百應。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQeekGj0pc
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畢竟姊姊真的可以不必這樣，就是把我丟著不管也不能怪她……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbD6UmbbbD3
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姊姊：「今天早上阿公已經回家。說要在餐廳慶祝你國中畢業，所以讓我來接你。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBYLxhhgnp
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我這才瞭解：「喔……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkFMKXoeBS
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所以是想要給我驚喜的慶祝聚餐吧。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaeA7ciJNI
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的確很像是疼我的阿公會做的事情。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsYtaX1rRb
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然後我簡單跟這幾名老同學道別，讓姊姊載走。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mOovPrpZW
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進入大餐廳的停車場之後，發現阿公個人專用的賓士已經停在裡面。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCa2bkEgWPV
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和姊姊一起進入餐廳的大包廂，果然阿公、阿媽和爸爸媽媽都在。
我又一次意外：「爸爸？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNmYfrRryN
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因為工作的關係，所以阿公和爸爸很少同時間回家休息。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmx9gODxobX
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會像這樣一起出現，往往都是什麼大事，像是發現我去跟飆車族。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0hi5OUai6
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所以我小抱怨起來：「不過是畢業，又不是什麼重要大事，搞的好像很重要一樣……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ04UDPV69B
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阿公笑容滿面，告訴我和姊姊：「是要談很重要的事情。你們先坐，再來談重要的大事。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeydKxxVJU1
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我第三次意外：「真的有大事？什麼事？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUX8G13zGX
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阿公：「先坐。開始吃再說。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3pbhijRP2
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於是我看姊姊一眼，想瞭解情況。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrO5hSyzXop
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姊姊也一臉茫然，不清楚情況。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnd1tlj9lP
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我只好和姊姊坐一起。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDhzsGmawA
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大家給自己倒綠茶飲料，然後拿起碗筷開動。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM02MnJwPIK
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吃過幾口，阿公先說：「阿弟，你也要十六歲了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2lmmCo2ic
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我說：「還有二個月。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq83c3XORQN
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阿公：「今天大家來吃飯，也算是先慶祝你十六歲生日。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7R5UOu4H8T
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我說：「喔……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLY750I0OH
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這樣我還是不瞭解算是什麼大事。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdGGMJnAg2
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阿公：「阿公和阿媽本來還有生另外四個男孩。但是他們都命不好，還是孩子就夭折，我和阿媽只剩下你的爸爸。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWylJzAhuAE
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我邊吃邊說：「這件事我聽媽媽說過，本來還有二個大伯和二個叔叔。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNerWvfR9Js
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阿公：「然後你的爸媽生下你之後，就沒有再生……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYwkN0KkHY
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爸爸趕緊開口，明顯要為媽媽和自己辯護：「爸，我和阿素－－－」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNR3YJ4h4e
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阿公伸手制止爸爸說下去，並且表示沒有關係。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBcJz5Yp6B
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爸爸發現阿公不是要怪他們，因此索性閉嘴。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3FT25gWu1
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阿公繼續對我說：「現在我們黃家只剩下你，你有讓黃家開枝散葉的責任。現在我們黃家缺的不是錢，缺的是興旺的人丁。知道嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVacV7OUyd
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我專心看著阿公。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijg9dMxI7A
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因為我知道阿公一定想說什麼，只是我還聽不出來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uDwha4Zd0
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阿公：「我們黃家人一向早婚，最遲也會在二十歲結婚。早婚有早婚的好處，可以早一點把黃家傳下去，並且多生一點傳承的人丁出來。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViGZhBPprv
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我稍微有點知道阿公到底想說什麼，不過還是安靜看著阿公。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEknb8MCFs
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阿公：「不管政府怎麼規定，在我們黃家男孩十六歲就是成年，可以結婚了。當年我和你的阿媽就是十六歲成親，十七歲生下你的第一個大伯。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOzMCLaDgU
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我的心情沉重起來：「所以？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuvyVa1haA
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阿公沒有回答我，看向坐我身邊的姊姊，直接喊她的名字：「林花，妳來黄家已經九年了？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhnrOYaKjs
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我身邊的姊姊，表情平靜：「對。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3PTAqBnAd
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阿公直說：「這九年來，我看妳和阿弟的感情一直很好，也為我們黃家和阿弟奉獻那麼多……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDw9uBD6MA
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姊姊安靜聽著：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiBdD35DPY
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阿公直說：「如果阿弟是要娶其他女孩進來黄家，阿公真的會猶豫，因為需要時間觀察和瞭解對方。不過如果是妳，阿公可以放心讓妳成為黃家的媳婦。再說也只有妳才能完全管好阿弟，其他女孩就不知道會怎麼樣了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohG8LKyS0Y
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姊姊依然沒有半句話。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasomy1x8Qn
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我則是終於完全瞭解，為什麼今天阿公和爸爸都會在場。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOXA1KiCjJ
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阿公想把我和姊姊的事情說出一個定論。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMyZGiBAB5
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因此我不只訝異，心情更是緊張起來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQnZzT8myF
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我再次開始自問：『我和姊姊又沒有男女的愛情，真的可以嗎？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZesKrvoqoI
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阿公問姊姊：「我們黃家不敢說是什麼大戶人家，不過我們黃家的財力妳一定很清楚。好的時候每個月百萬百萬的在賺，差的時候也有二三十萬，不是一般家庭比的起。所以這件事妳覺得怎麼樣？妳要不要乾脆正式嫁進黃家，給黃家生孩子？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDd0bi8KiG
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姊姊：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcHDwq4miq
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阿公：「女人年過三十會越來越難生，真的就是那樣。妳今年已經二十七，不年輕，不能再猶豫。接不接受真的要立刻決定。如果妳不想正式嫁入黃家，也是時候快點開始新人生，才不會耽誤到妳自己。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicMIbLhD0z
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所以阿公是想說，如果阿姐不打算正式和我結婚生子，就應該早點另外找好對象，對姊姊才是最好的選擇。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoSrDxcycZ
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我擔心的：「阿公，你不要這樣逼姊姊……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwh0px6HQQ4
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阿公趁勢：「你看，這個孩子打心底擔心妳，保護妳。我們黃家有錢，還有像這樣護著你的阿弟。妳難道真的還會有什麼不滿？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgtha3lhlp
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姊姊：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANaPM2bvKa
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我：「阿公。不要這樣逼姊姊啦。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhhv0WC3vq
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5b8Rz7imLM
阿公轉移目標向我：「那你又怎麼想？十六歲成年的你，要不要正式娶這個從小辛苦照顧你長大的姊姊？剛才阿公已經說過，黃家只剩下你，所以你越早傳承下去越好。要是再拖下去，姊姊真的不年輕了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNztPo57CZ
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我：「可是結婚這種事，要彼此喜歡啊。我和姊姊就像姊姊和弟弟那樣，沒有愛情，要怎麼一起生活？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0e5qSfONs
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阿公：「傻孫子。你認為人們結婚之後，過的是什麼樣的生活？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZkKyJR55X
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我不太懂阿公到底想說什麼，所以安靜看著阿公。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSSHmJfkbb
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阿公：「你和姊姊的關係，在阿公來看，已經和一般的老夫老妻差不多。所以阿公才會直接在今天問你們這件婚事。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrhKrfl0EI
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我：「可是我們連戀愛都沒有啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDXmDaWsUb
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阿公看向爸爸：「阿忠，你說，我們怎麼看這件事？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5qeptj79N
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我這才知道，阿公和爸爸竟然已經議論過我和姊姊的事情。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFBcHheA6W
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爸爸告訴我：「阿公和爸爸都覺得，你和姊姊已經跳過戀愛那個階段。所以爸爸也覺得，今天是應該讓阿公問你和姊姊的事。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwqe2nY0VP
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我真是深感不解：「跳過？想要結婚怎麼可以跳過戀愛？沒有戀愛就結婚，那樣不是會有很多問題？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7B0Es8vnwP
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爸爸解釋：「爸爸知道你年輕，所以無法立刻聽懂。戀愛從來不是為了保障婚姻一切順利。戀愛只是其中一條走向婚姻的道路。婚姻會不會有問題，從來都是看有沒有辦法長時間認真對待對方，願意和對方長時間在一起。而你和姊姊的相處，看起來完全沒有問題。所以你們如果正式結婚，不過是把名義上的姊弟轉變成為具有實際關係的夫妻。這樣你懂嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAE3dQKGiy
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阿公也說：「接著阿公要說的話，是因為阿公已經把你當十六歲的大人看待才會說。一定要戀愛才能結婚那種事，是涉世未深的孩子才會說。真正出過社會的大人都是看對眼就好，沒有那麼多什麼戀不戀愛的。這樣你懂嗎？所以阿公看你和姊姊的相處絕對可以，不會有問題，才會在今天直接提出這件事。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaozVX5xrJM
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爸爸繼續補充說下去：「再說，先結婚再戀愛的例子，爸爸也算見過不少。所以你們二個怎麼想這件事？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJNOJPSLJL
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我說不出半句話：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXrI5WgomW
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因為他們這樣說，讓我忽然間懂了些什麼。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCUOQeKzSP
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讓我受到一定程度的震撼。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMldMCGrcOg
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並且開始瞭解，那晚看電視新聞，為什麼男女關係專家會說：『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MlcGxZUta
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姊姊安靜和我一樣：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2PtqygBwL
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換阿公問姊姊：「林花，比起阿弟，妳絕對是個更懂世事的大人。剛才我們告訴阿弟的這些話，妳覺得有沒有說錯？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKN8wRaLrL
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姊姊對於那些看法的回答，真的可以相當程度看出姊姊的心思。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWqxshLguZ
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因此阿公絕對是故意問姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqFp70OBQG
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姊姊沉默：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqD6RRQudeJ
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阿公：「林花，妳放心的說。妳也已經跟著黃家奉獻九年。不論怎樣的答案，我們都絕對不會虧待妳。否則就是黃家無情，對不起妳。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodidrnewbQ
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阿公一定是想說：就算姊姊不答應這場婚事，最後因為尷尬想要離開黃家，也一定會給姊姊一大筆補償的錢。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMSlMeWs6g
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姊姊終於說：「我覺得－－－」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqbDsGpKF8
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說到這裡，姊姊欲言又止，安靜打住。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6aYuCAG1D
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大家都安靜看著姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIDzOYTJAx
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尤其是我，心臟碰碰跳到自己都能聽見……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZ4ME8hXz8
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姊姊幾秒的沉默：「對於阿弟，我真的年紀太大。還是年紀相近的女孩才是阿弟的好對象。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNM81BSy6WX
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大家沉默。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKq448m5EIJ
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我更是如遭重擊，因為姊姊拒絕了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4w3CzyvVYH
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果然，我們終究只是姊姊和弟弟。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OgK9kNi0t
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所以姊姊為了避免尷尬，應該不久之後就會離開黃家，和其他男人在一起？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YBF4h0LI1
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阿公開口，語氣平淡，微帶遲疑：「是這樣啊？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4exmjv52P
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然後，阿公拿起自己的茶杯，喝口茶。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4SfrUbZDB
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姊姊繼續說下去：「再說，阿弟剛才已經表示他並不喜歡我。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7F9yO0u9je
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沒有錯，我的確已經透過自己的疑問，表示自己對於姊姊沒有愛情存在。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtqZSxpqsK
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不過母子連心，媽媽一定有體會到我的心情：「阿弟，快把你的真正心意告訴大家。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7mdpHhCaI
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我還在姊姊拒絕婚事的不知所措中：「我……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfl4VogKst
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媽媽：「如果你喜歡姊姊，直接說出來，不然姊姊真的會離開喔。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dsJ7zubht
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我不希望姊姊離開：「我喜歡姊姊！當然我喜歡啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Z0aPQB9sV
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媽媽：「你願意跟姊姊結婚？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ThiXWq3lp
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我：「我……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEYhfoZsh0
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媽媽：「不願意？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFadxjaZ8Ec
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瞬間，我幾乎想問：『不可以讓姊姊繼續留在家裡？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GhuhHMpG8
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但是我又想到，這樣問不就表示我要拒絕婚事？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0RsbkAe8W
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並且繼續把姊姊綁在家裡，限制她的人生和幸福？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBNpPOIDEQ
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這樣的我，難道不是很自私？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKo1nQvKV8
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再說，如果姊姊住在黃家，卻又另外交起男朋友，我能接受那樣的情況嗎？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTf2OKCyt6e
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所以我說：「我不知道……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymeC1SZRaM
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爸爸問：「你怎麼會不知道？你是想要拒絕這件事，還是你真的不知道？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiDnYkpDdA
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我：「我真的不知道。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wcgBpL1WK
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爸爸問出真正的重點：「你不需要管那些戀愛什麼的。你只需要說出來，你願不願意和姊姊結婚？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeyRKuyTFs
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我：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcThZY6AI6n
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爸爸：「不願意？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0MhAVpV28
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媽媽：「如果你願意和姊姊結婚，這是唯一的好機會。因為媽媽整天看著你和姊姊的相處，知道只有你能留下姊姊。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPu8tyfzPCs
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我被問急，乾脆直說：「剛才姊姊說的，你們是沒有聽到嗎！讓姊姊勉強留下來，到底是有什麼意義啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOvGjIidaV
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媽媽：「所以如果姊姊其實願意這件事，你就也願意和姊姊正式結婚？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYB8tGlgN9F
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我：「姊姊都拒絕了啊！一直問到底是有什麼意義！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbYU2726eg
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媽媽：「可是媽媽看你們，總覺得是誤會……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCe4beuTSR6
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我被媽媽這些話給說愣好幾秒。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujjRoiIiK9
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如果姊姊其實是願意，我願意嗎？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bfzpVVmlM
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但是，可能嗎？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6R8A8eJ7xp
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剛才姊姊不是已經拒絕我？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMktS0dlv0
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尤其是，阿公竟然也說：「我也覺得剛才我是問錯方向了……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKDWGg3eOM
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我：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKC7GZxQvZ
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媽媽轉而問姊姊：「我雖然是阿弟的親生母親，不過我終究只大妳八歲，這九年來我一直把妳當成妹妹，相信妳一定知道。雖然剛才聽妳那樣說，不過我覺得自己沒有聽到妳真正的內心話。妳真正的心意到底是什麼？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkoqgoherC
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姊姊安靜：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YOerMLfW7
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媽媽：「大家日夜生活九年，真的就像無話不說的家人一樣。所以請妳任何話都直接說沒有關係。如果妳真的沒有那個意思，也請妳不要拐彎抹角，直接說。至少大家不會有誤會，阿弟也不會一直有遺憾和猜想。因為阿弟剛才說的那些，絕對知道感情無法勉強。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtSpP3C4Sa
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姊姊：「其實我……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETD3HedlfI
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媽媽：「是的？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7X6MGnTUoV
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姊姊慢慢低下頭：「我剛才那樣說，因為我以為阿弟對我沒有愛情，沒有辦法接受我……如果阿弟真的沒有辦法接受我，我能夠瞭解，絕對沒有關係，有必要的話我可以離開黃家。剛才我是想說那些。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRh60lOFomc
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媽媽：「所以的確是誤會了？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOe42ClEvCU
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姊姊：「九年來，我真的已經覺得自己是黃家人，而不是我出生的林家人了……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLTlcSSWOY
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媽媽催促：「繼續把妳的心意說下去。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKYva6b1P6
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姊姊靦腆說著：「這件事情，我其實都看黃家的意思……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1b3JGeCxE
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持續幾秒的安靜。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoS2Hb37Gi
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對我來說，姊姊根本是在說：『正式娶我，讓我成為真正的黃家媳婦吧。』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVeAUSS1da
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我吃驚又意外的完全不知道該說什麼。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LF4LcVQQ4
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媽媽喜悅打破沉默：「阿弟！媽媽就知道，果然是誤會！快點！跟姊姊說，你想要跟姊姊正式結婚啊！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyQYNJ1TPG
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我難以置信的，轉頭看著身邊低頭的姊姊：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMHbrwfJRA
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媽媽：「快點跟姊姊說，你想跟姊姊結婚！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1ZZueipgN
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我終於開口：「姊姊……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc12ENdu4yH
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姊姊依然靦腆低頭：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6i0Z1Nz2RP
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我：「妳真的不會勉強和我結婚？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlLX9gOwB1
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姊姊微微向我轉頭：「你才不會勉強正式娶姊姊吧？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48ktDfryAd
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我趕緊說：「我是不會！但是！但是……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCI4v2iQcpY
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媽媽趕緊代姊姊詢問：「但是？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1aIKe7SXt
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我：「我比姊姊還要小十一歲，現在也才這麼小，才要十六歲，姊姊真的不會討厭和我正式結婚？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIH3dfzsrl
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姊姊終於完全轉過頭，正面看著我，靦腆微笑：「我已經習慣整天看著像個孩子需要照顧的你。所以你比起擔心姊姊，不如先擔心自己更像個孩子，都這麼大了竟然還需要姊姊一直看著照顧。你先擔心自己什麼時候才會完全長大吧。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOaMLZ2ptE
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我難掩喜悅和感動：「姊姊……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ964ibR3ffe
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姊姊繼續說：「再說姊姊早就已經把我的所有青春歲月奉獻給了你，奉獻給了你們黃家……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyeS4fSm9y
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我：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzF27gXHdqH
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姊姊：「所以姊姊更擔心的是，你真的願意和姊姊結婚？就算沒有和姊姊談過戀愛？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9fc4fBC4k
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爸爸在我回答之前，趕緊告訴我：「你不要想那麼多了，先把姊姊留住比較重要！真的也有不少人先結婚再戀愛，知道嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2N7bJgKWW
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我當然說：「我願意！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntYqFswbD1
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話都說到這裡，關於戀愛結婚的事情我決定先聽爸爸的話，暫時不管它了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj64WsxmJ14
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畢竟不論怎麼說，姊姊自己也願意和我正式在一起，然後姊姊都不會再離開我的身邊！231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8PSYhuzpX
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所以我還需要懷疑什麼？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHunMM6VfuC
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姊姊：「以後你還是要乖乖聽姊姊的話，有沒有聽到？不然姊姊會生氣。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IowIEhRy6
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我說：「好！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleP8jXdYdz
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姊姊：「一定要繼續聽話喔？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgC5LNEzEMv
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我說：「我一定會聽話！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwODsjREP4B
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阿公知道真的說成這件事，笑到合不攏嘴，用台語說：「我就知道這件事一定說的成！聽某嘴，大富貴！我們黃家準備大富大貴啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBjO0jTVhJ
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阿媽雖然同樣喜悅，但還是趁機取笑阿公：「我說的話，你就有聽啊？難怪你只能賺那麼一點！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcg1vrvmAk3
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阿公：「阿忠！快！讓餐廳送幾瓶好酒來！今天真的大喜，一定要好好慶祝一下！哈哈哈哈－－－－－－」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlqoM7hKnC
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大家都為我和姊姊開心不已。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBJ0C3KrOj
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我和姊姊彼此尷尬難為情好一會，沒有交談，不過還是自然的迅速要好起來，像以前那樣親密的無話不談。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyLYqVAvFn
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甚至於，感覺自己跟姊姊好像真的更加親密了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNMhGLeksh
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所以過去幾年最困擾我的問題：『我和姊姊沒有經歷過愛情，如果真的要在一起，我應該怎麼面對姊姊？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBisa24ZVf
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現在我已經完全知道應該怎麼面對。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsosiCGgBQz
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答案正是：『根本沒有必要去煩惱這個問題。』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ485VSzdOz9
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我和姊姊的親密感情，不會改變。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMwGAR6eGt
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我們九年來的感情，的確已經是跨越戀愛的家族親情。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5s2iPg2rEn
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阿公他們做的，真的不過是讓我們完全湊在一起。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSg62wpkMI
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就這樣，我和姊姊終於決定正式成親了……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTCZmAJEhe
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因為七歲的時候我和姊姊已經舉行過正式婚禮，所以在我十六歲生日那天家裡簡單準備三牲五果，讓我和姊姊一起祭拜黃家祖先，告訴祖先我已經成年，現在要和姊姊真正成親。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3mfq9eK2O
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阿公想要早點抱到黃家下一代大孫，加上擔心姊姊再拖下去會成為年過三十的高齡產婦，所以一直明示暗喻的希望我和姊姊快點完成好事。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavnmDdViM8
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就在我入讀高中的前一天，正好是月底發下個月零用錢的時候。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Jq6vPvwht
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掌管全家金錢的阿公回家休息，順便把我和姊姊叫到客廳。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9k8Op8i2oT
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阿公先是對姊姊說：「今天開始，家裡不會給妳每個月五千元的零用錢。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsn8mROyib
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姊姊安靜聽著，沒有一句話。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7cWzMkmfU5
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我意外：「不給姊姊零用錢？為什麼？姊姊有做錯什麼？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuab5hDg067
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阿公從胸前口袋拿出二張名片般的塑膠卡片：「來，這個給你們夫妻。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDvo3Uxcvw
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我和姊姊安靜接過，都是一樣的信用卡。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljR21yctek
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阿公：「那二張卡是同帳戶的對卡，每個月最多可以刷二萬元，也可以提領小額現金出來。你們省著點用，學會節儉才是真正的持家之本。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXNG40OVgV
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我這才知道，姊姊不是做錯事，是因為我們的夫妻身份一起升級了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYxP2tkn7s
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並且阿公可以透過每個月寄來的刷卡帳單，瞭解我們的支出詳細，必要時對我們進行相關詢問。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KmookUl79
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姊姊：「謝謝阿公。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BRUPdd5nu
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我也說：「謝謝阿公。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW35HqX3xWJ
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接著阿公拿起茶杯，順便無聲示意要我們繼續留下，所以我和姊姊只能乖乖坐著等待。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVF0VlKoNkt
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阿公喝口茶，開口詢問：「你們到底是怎麼回事？都正式拜過祖先，卻還是一直分房睡？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Qi2oVnvIe
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我趕緊說：「沒有啦。只是覺得暫時這樣比較好。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSWHxNPij3
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阿公：「那一天阿公已經和你說的很清楚，姊姊已經這個歲數。另外我們黃家缺的不是錢，缺的是興旺起來的人丁。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevVsIEGwhE
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我：「我知道。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvzTlIH00x
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阿公當著姊姊的面，直接問我：「那件事你會覺得不好意思是不是？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqKbCAhUiX
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我趕緊說：「因為我才這個年紀，才要讀高中，真的覺得生孩子這件事－－－」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8OFSXEc8v
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阿公冷冰冰的一段話頂來：「孩子是會讓你負責帶？你在學校不說又會有誰知道？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMU745Hro11
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畢竟是在鄰鎮，也都是些不認識的外地同學……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZMLvgp2Jv
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再說，孩子必定是會由阿媽、媽媽和姊姊養育，就像小時候的我一樣。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmOZa6fWWO
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我無話可答：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGie6buapyK
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阿公：「明年你十七歲。阿公十七歲的時候，生下已經無緣孝順我和阿媽的大伯。你要給阿公拖到幾歲？再說，你和姊姊像這樣獨睡，男人不男人，女人不女人，陰陽怪氣的不健康，真的好嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4bzMnXfvH
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我：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6hH0Xnbot
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阿公：「這件事，你到底想要怎麼回答阿公？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLLrnd4s0I
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以前阿公疼我，所以都是溫溫和和。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLQYOrUwLQ
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現在，我真的感覺到來自阿公的魄力和壓力。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpSUhPqivs
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我深深體會，這件事不給阿公交待，阿公絕對不會放過我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBW8obb5OF
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相信爸爸和媽媽一定也有承受過這樣的壓力。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFdxCGPE0h
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不過我和姊姊還是沒有進一步發展，依然維持以前的分房生活。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODwH6W68K5
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主要是我知道自己還只是高中生，加上心情沒有整理好……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyRyVI90PR
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我和姊姊就這樣繼續一天拖過一天，過著『有名無實的夫妻生活』。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxAUPLMbKS
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阿公也『有嘴說到沒口水』，只能唉聲不斷……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoUcY2tjGD
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事情再次出現變化，是在我讀高中二年級那一年，十七歲的聖誕夜。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEa70Jmvmb
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姊姊騎車載我進行長途旅行，從南部老家前往台北市參加聖誕夜晚會。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhOOkKRpig
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熱鬧的聖誕晚會結束之後，又前往入住的國際級大飯店，參加飯店收費舉辦的跨夜晚會。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAaLaj1f0y
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非常熱鬧，很多人都聚在一起唱歌、跳舞、吃大餐。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIxKPbGN3i
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甚至有熱情的情侶當場擁抱熱吻。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7i9QXhICcd
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我和姊姊也在人群中和大家一起開心。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqUOkVcTnJ
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因為飯店有提供一種雞尾酒，喝起來又甜又清爽，很接近摻糖的乳酸菌飲料口感，一點都不像是酒類。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nsu6HAD2u
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我和姊姊開心的一起喝多。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUPnnFKQdm
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然後就……你懂……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabNgR7il23
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我和姊姊都只有一點點記憶，不記得是怎麼開始，只記得是一個充滿溫暖笑聲的愉快自然夜晚。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmQeI4gQkc
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大量酒精真的徹底解放我們的心。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEDEJxzRlm
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隔天中午，我們在姊姊的房間清醒，當時你說有多尷尬就多尷尬，完全不知道要跟對方說什麼。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEwesUf4hG
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一直到整理好行李退房，騎著哈雷回程南下，我照樣摟著姊姊的細腰，我們才又開始談話。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8o0AfRinT
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迅速恢復以前的親密感。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmdLwlMrSc
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甚至於感覺更加的親密。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0rDggE46c
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我們都沒有問：怎麼辦？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqq1Mzfvas4
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姊姊和我都知道，正式拜過祖先報告了，真的也不需要怎麼辦。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bKgBFmrMa
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就這樣自自然然的一起面對這件事吧。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk56N640Qd8
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不過回家之後，我們還是什麼都沒有跟家人說。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaj1xRd0j2t
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畢竟覺得這樣的私事，加上是意外，不需要特意去說。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8y2j87d7Ka
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我和姊姊繼續分房，恢復以往那樣的生活，像是什麼都沒有發生過。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiPm88seQm
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直到一個多月後的農曆除夕，全家六人一起圍爐吃團夜飯。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoWibVa2oe
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大圓桌上面各式菜色都有，非常豐盛。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgiI8USNHv
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大家開動之後，阿公拿出一瓶高級洋酒，開瓶給大家倒一杯。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHXlQOyCOm
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阿公說：「大家喝杯迎春酒。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XcK0t08Xa
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姊姊忽然說：「我不能喝酒。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6wSJav49H
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媽媽一向把姊姊當妹妹對待，關心詢問：「腸胃不舒服？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8Kbesr3Bl
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姊姊沉默幾秒，才尷尬說出：「我有了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYUUHQd5Pb
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大家：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXHctxSbBs
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我相信，大家一定都聽出來姊姊說的是什麼。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1aduBonrl
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我受到的震撼更是深。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡig5g6G2MOG
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我一直在心中問：『聖誕夜那一晚？姊姊真的有了？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4QtmVFNBQ
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畢竟我和姊姊也只有那一晚。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYW361fn8ww
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媽媽緊張的進行最後確認：「妳有了什麼？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0j4kuOF0PU
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姊姊：「孩子。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFzwVz16U6
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媽媽：「真的有了？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5p2O1mUE5x
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姊姊：「嗯……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkepzab2Vn
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阿公認真直問：「誰的？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4JbfSXu1M
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我可以瞭解阿公為什麼這樣追問。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemmBFBSKwc
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因為我和姊姊跟以前的相處都一樣，沒有變化。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVBSAa0RJ4
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如果我是阿公，一定也會半信半疑的追問確認，避免誤會……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAbKathWeZ
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姊姊安靜幾秒，露出尷尬笑容：「去問你的寶貝孫子。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PaS7McOre
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阿媽驚喜的：「唉呀－－－－－－」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fiR77d8JE
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阿公等待這天一年以上，同樣喜悅的：「哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈－－－」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbToG9iWzu
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爸爸直接伸手，開心萬分的在我頭上亂抓：「臭小子！看看你！真的讓爸爸我當阿公啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmccMX45mH4
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媽媽則是出於好奇，一邊喜悅一邊問：「怎麼回事？看你們平時在家裡都一樣啊？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbf11psTB9z
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爸爸笑著說：「你管他們夫妻那麼多？是妳的金孫就好啦！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OAd9gMeCi
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我讓二十八歲的姊姊懷孕，家裡肯定沒有人料想的到這麼快。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZT3hgsfaSB
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阿公感動萬分：「這麼說，今年的團圓飯，我們黄家已經是七人同桌？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhk4JWgBoU
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阿媽心花怒放：「明年團圓飯就能見到大金孫的面。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUvnmjfr0T
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阿公：「快！把她那杯酒拿掉，換果汁！今晚大家好好的喝一杯！黃家真的要開始人丁興旺啦！乾杯－－－」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAhHDx8N45
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所有人都拿起自己的杯：「乾杯－－－」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrJMqV9mdW
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今年的團圓飯充滿熱鬧歡笑聲。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAslRJHfHL
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他們都萬分期待姊姊的生產。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUbnpNrNGr
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二十八歲的姊姊頓時取代我，成為家裡最受寵的人。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZT0vpbWbGs
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大家怕姊姊餓到，怕姊姊累到，怕姊姊生病，怕姊姊受傷，絕對不讓姊姊做事。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiReOFh5W4
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給姊姊吃的補品和山珍海味更是不必說，想吃什麼有什麼，多貴都會買回來。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMdheDDHIz
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至於我，依然和姊姊同樣分房睡，沒有因為姊姊懷孕而同房。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpKRy9l2kX
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並且一天天看著姊姊的肚子變大，心情複雜的唯有死心接受事實。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxFPi4E6wU
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就算我有意拖著，最後還是讓姊姊大肚子。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2HbLQnRRJ
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我真的只能說，早婚早生果然是黃家男性的命運……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYy8s3D2qzP
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升上高三之後，姊姊順利給黃家生下一個健康的白胖男孩，黃家的下一代繼承人。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3l7erfbPW
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十八歲的我成為一個嬰兒的爸爸，照阿公的意思把黃家傳承下去，我的高中同學都不知道這件事。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8uxQPiPgv
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我和姊姊真的只有聖誕夜一起意外睡過那麼一次。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7znWTZfsh7
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卻讓我們一起踏上人生下一個階段，成為一個孩子的父母。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgRVHDdduW
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醫院私人病房內，我抱著自己和姊姊的長子，真是完全不知道應該用什麼樣的心情面對。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPoioHd5VL
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反觀其他人，抱著這個黃家下一代都是高興萬分。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6KZSC2dtS
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升格當阿祖的阿公，更是抱著黃家大金孫盡力疼愛，開心到合不攏嘴。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzZXp7It2v
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黃家最受寵的人，自然又從姊姊變成我們的孩子。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJxd6eGDiP
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把孩子從醫院抱回家，黄家開始日夜可以聽到嬰兒哭聲。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUg0neQIAJm
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阿媽、媽媽和姊姊輪流照顧。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1mX4TZs2v
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房間的我，半夜睡覺更是被客廳傳來的啼哭聲吵醒好幾次。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CdeCthBa4
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我雖然聽的煩，還是心想：『反正不是我在帶孩子，就這樣吧……』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKinVzomBk
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姊姊就此一邊照顧我們的孩子，一邊陪伴我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5CCdkxTuz
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對姊姊來說，肯定像是有大小二個孩子需要看著……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXc3HWg95D
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隔年六月，我從高中畢業。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyb0LzqGys
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雖然我有報考大學，但是我對於是否就讀大學有疑問。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnzWJ65uUM
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另外，也是因為我覺得自己和姊姊的關係『該是時候了』。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlr1I07n09D
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於是我把姊姊約出門兜風，表示有事想要和姊姊好好談談。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0Qkr5elsK
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黃家的大前院，阿媽和媽媽抱著大金孫，目送我們騎哈雷出門。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarcd8D1XIj
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姊姊邊騎哈雷邊問我：「你想找姊姊說什麼？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hluKckVxJ
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我說：「妳覺得我不去讀大學好嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytk8XIm2SX
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姊姊：「你不想讀大學？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Icv9rI4Hk
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我：「我想跟阿公和爸爸一起出去工作。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEcH2ZNtU4
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姊姊：「為什麼？你不是報考了？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvhBA2Hscm
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我：「首先是我對於讀大學沒有什麼興趣。而且他們都沒有強迫我讀大學，讓我想讀就去讀。再來是因為我看著姊姊妳照顧小孩，越來越覺得自己應該跟著阿公爸爸去家裡的公司工作。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGdLJ2xrES
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姊姊：「和他們說了？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCXU8A6QyK
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我：「還沒。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRZmneci3y
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姊姊：「你沒有勉強自己工作吧？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJlQm3zNRa
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我：「沒有。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1XXNWeh6v
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幾秒的沉默。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjRhvkIfl2
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姊姊終於說：「孩子的爸爸，加油喔。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcih2bDHNC
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我：「…………」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dgTPO3Qen
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姊姊：「怎麼了？還有什麼事想要說？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsn766Fkx9
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我安靜的，確定路上幾乎沒有人車，開始大起膽子移動雙手。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMaegwwrgC
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摟著姊姊細腰的雙手開始向上方移動，摸著姊姊豐滿的胸部。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWsO1JDLPD
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真的好豐滿……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb50pOwodcT
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聖誕夜怎麼樣，我不記得了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TbldNC5xW
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不過從小到大除非不小心碰到，否則我都沒有碰過姊姊的胸部。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFvjbj2Liz
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姊姊安靜幾秒：「你的手？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiA8I4ayQ7
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我怕被罵，有點緊張：「姊姊，我在想，我都已經高中畢業，快要十九歲，也要去工作了……我們像以前那樣恢復同房好不好？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGodpISKQQ
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姊姊沉默的把哈雷騎進路邊的無人小巷，停在路邊，一定是避免被人看見我摸胸部。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fdBxJw6mk
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我緊張不安：「姊姊，妳不願意嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7r4jrhzZ0
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姊姊看出我很緊張：「都生下你的孩子了，你還在擔心什麼？只是孩子還是會在半夜哭吵，我會需要常常半夜出入，到時候一定會吵到你睡覺。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sGdqhUvA9
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我：「喔……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYqt4IXEvj
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姊姊再問：「另外，你的手……你是在跟姊姊求愛？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgA2AFZEMA
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我終究是個年輕男性，當然會有慾望，會對那件事充滿興趣。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UUdDdSMOw
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一年多以前的聖誕夜，意外和姊姊發生關係，我就開始一直想著這件事：『反正都跟姊姊發生關係了……』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9lVnkJKnR
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簡單說：我想要再跟姊姊上床一次。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9McExG9Er
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一直沒有再行動，的確因為覺得還是高中生，又害怕姊姊會反對抗拒，所以猶豫再三。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDe2cvzXuW
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然後，姊姊忽然在團圓飯宣告懷孕，讓我只能完全打消念頭，不敢碰姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHJaZC2mIe
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不過現在，孩子已經出生，高中畢業，也要出社會工作了……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMU8T8Jdi5
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所以我緊張的用這種方式告訴姊姊：「反正我們都有孩子了？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkIUw3ov3m
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姊姊大方的說：「姊姊已經知道，放開手，衣服被妳弄濕了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiT3SkTmKn
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我：「衣服弄濕？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8WVpKVn4J
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姊姊：「忘記姊姊一直在給你的孩子餵母乳？你這樣抓，皮衣裡面的胸衣已經濕掉，感覺到涼涼的。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDHs5giczv
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我趕緊放手：「啊，對不起……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmMNTgHUoO
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姊姊：「找間汽車旅館清洗吧。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUgVnrU4GA
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聽到姊姊這樣說，我鬆口大氣。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDsUcy0jrw
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因為不可能單純去汽車旅館。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcnGgqCPpd
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姊姊明確的給綠燈。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfTRdjqOJy
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不愧是二十九歲的成年人，很大方的面對。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmudZPIUtbF
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也一定有想過我像這樣正式求愛的情況，才能反應的這麼迅速自然。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCeHYk92DM
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於是我像以前那樣重新摟著姊姊的腰。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJhyd2mLDW
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姊姊把哈雷騎回大路，載著我繼續走。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4G2jO4RZcu
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又是一會的安靜。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnSsEyEC7i
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姊姊忍不住嘻笑起來：「明明都已經是一個孩子的爸爸，卻還像個害羞的男孩呢，呵呵……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T2Krmo0iV
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我只能說：「我會盡快長大啦。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMK4MgAOOi
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哈雷就此騎進路邊遇到的第一間汽車旅館。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPawCEw9ss
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正式拜過祖先的我們，一起開房間了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeS79WWacn
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明明身上帶有足夠現金，姊姊卻特意用阿公給的信用卡刷卡租房間。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9cfTDN08P
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哈雷停進一樓車庫，我和姊姊一起上二樓。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwugU5yL7HX
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姊姊先去坐到電話旁邊，撥電話回家。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtMXOvT6zY
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姊姊：「阿媽？我和阿弟正在一間叫做春田的汽車旅館，今天可能會晚點才回去……我知道夜路危險。如果太晚，我們明天再回去……孩子要拜託妳和媽媽照顧了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWtfudyjKe
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當時我看著姊姊電話回家，光明正大的跟阿媽報告正在汽車旅館，真的很訝異，不瞭解姊姊為什麼要通知家裡。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KKYQAzJ7G
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之後我慢慢想，才想懂姊姊的用意。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1ZK9Zjm8t
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信用卡的帳單寄回給阿公，就會從刷卡明細知道我們去汽車旅館，避免阿公又追問起生孩子的事情。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ytAaxnXSR
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電話回家連絡阿媽和媽媽，是類似的道理。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJzAV2Tc8u
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他們所有人就會明確的知道我和姊姊關係再次不同。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsBxoiVGOf
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這樣就算我和姊姊再次同房，或是比較親密的舉動，他們也不會太意外。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT31KTQD5g6
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所以二十九歲的姊姊真的是個成熟女性，知道怎麼好好的處理這些家務事。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkbyoOxL79
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那麼十八歲的我呢？什麼時候才會完全長大成熟？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkT9ccHCmrz
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不論如何，害羞的我和大大方方的姊姊、就在這間旅館度過生命中的第二次。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVHas6Oga5
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並且是完全清醒、沒有酒精作用的第二次。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM24fb50Sby
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在親密的笑聲中彼此試探摸索完成的第二次。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBU9S8tFe2v
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我和姊姊就從這一天開始，成為真正擁有親密性生活的夫妻。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJTnh10857
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我們之間，不再有任何心理障礙和隔閡了……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFaxQ18BVY
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我果斷放棄大學。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOO01RhJZDG
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正式出社會跟著阿公，讓阿公教我做生意的道理和訣竅。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilkqLjRuBc
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平均四天回家休息二天，和守在家裡的姊姊團聚。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRrBURtCUq
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男人在外工作打拼，女人守在家裡照顧孩子，如此生活的確是我們黃家的寫照。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8DT96Moak
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只是，就算是家裡可以關上門的房間，和姊姊親熱我還是會覺得尷尬。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhB2AHmDqy
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畢竟阿媽、媽媽總是在家裡，她們多少一定會察覺。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgI9UMnorbd
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所以只要我說：「姊姊，我們騎車出門兜風？」一定會順便去汽車旅館刷信用卡報到。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwE0zjvmECM
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因此有我定時播種，姊姊很快又有了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIISnVk2td
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我二十歲那年，姊姊再次生下我們的第二個孩子，也是黃家的第二個大金孫。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gJix84QN9
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我成為二個男孩的爸爸。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpUTwk2dvB
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阿公真是太滿意這樣的情況。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmnsAORd2h
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二個寶貝大金孫左擁右抱：「黃家的未來都靠你們這對寶貝兄弟了！」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eSjEbvxnN
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甚至於，阿公特意把我和姊姊的信用卡金額上限調高，擺明要讓我們盡情去汽車旅館做人。
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我和姊姊也只能：「嗯……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvF3MK785cs
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不過我還是和姊姊一起回到房間之後：「姊姊，雖然剛才阿公那樣說……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnTSuW5rp3
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姊姊沒有反對和討厭，只有淡淡回答：「我也已經三十一歲了。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoe6Uohyj9
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我不明白姊姊的意思，所以看著姊姊。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIyKnKAuLp
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姊姊微笑：「我的確像阿公說的，沒有幾年機會了……孩子的爸爸，加油喔。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCq6zWS6biu
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姊姊都這樣說，我還能怎麼辦：「好吧……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FqKbvdYvA
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就這樣，我和姊姊不多想，能生就生。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFH94PwQ2I
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從我十七歲開始直到二十五歲的這八年，我和姊姊成為三男二女、總共五個孩子的父母。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ49w6poPDw
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姊姊將近一半時間都在懷孕中度過。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaCm9aZEXE
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總是生產之後幾個月，肚子又開始隆起。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeyqGn69g6
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為了一直給陸續出生的孩子餵奶，乳汁沒有中斷分泌。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUuYi0Z3ro
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姊姊就這樣生到第五胎的三十六歲，踏入醫學上受孕機會低的高齡產婦年齡，肚皮才自然的不再有反應。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPUseyvgHm
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至少給黃家增加人口這件事，阿公很滿意。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZP4TGPnI1
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八年的時間，我和姊姊的確完成阿公的期望了……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqUWmmd41g
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現在，我二十八歲。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcyB5qulHL
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我和姊姊的長子十歲了。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HCvQkY5MW
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算是已經長大懂事，會開始好奇的想要瞭解更多世事。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesMiov9M79
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他終於在我回家休息的這天，拉著弟弟妹妹問我：「爸爸，你為什麼都叫媽媽為姊姊？姊姊為什麼都叫你阿弟？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJGiBE85hh
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你認為，我應該怎麼回答孩子？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eqG5pfS7J
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我當然說：「因為爸爸在七歲的時候就和十八歲的媽媽結婚，讓媽媽照顧到這麼大，當然要喊媽媽為姊姊，被媽媽喊阿弟。」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rESn4IH51
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沒有錯，不論我幾歲，都覺得姊姊一直像對待小弟弟那樣照看我。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkTODb6KIr
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長子很困惑：「爸爸七歲，媽媽十八歲，結婚？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IErbpeagG
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我問他：「奇怪嗎？」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrkP4RyhFp
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長子乖乖點頭。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmWut8e9CK
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於是我開始把自己和姊姊的故事，說給我們的第一個長子聽。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOExj9berA
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讓他知道自己的爸爸媽媽到底是怎麼沒有經過戀愛，卻還是一直在一起……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCGJEteitp
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那麼接下來我還能說什麼？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywjYc9JXrK
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我真的已經沒有太多可以說。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AcfulNsA1
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七歲病弱的我，娶十八歲的姊姊沖喜，讓姊姊親手照顧長大，再於十六歲的時候和姊姊正式結成連理，十八歲生下我們的長子，後續幾年再生下二男二女總共五個孩子。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7iupSqpGt
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十八歲為錢來到黃家的姊姊，本來想找機會逃跑，卻因為不忍心看還是個病弱孩子的我無助啼哭，開始接受我，日夜照顧我，漸漸的融入黃家的生活，最後給黃家生下五名重要的下一代。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkNGSZwfAP
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我們之間，一天天培養出來的深厚感情當然有，不過戀愛般的愛情絕對沒有……231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMeWlQRKW2
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你也會覺得我和姊姊的夫妻關係真的奇怪？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9roA2xiCw
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年齡相差太多的男女，絕對不可能有未來？231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSbSnSM92V
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我不知道你會怎麼想我和姐姐的事。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTx8FqJMjA1
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我只知道自己和姊姊一路走來，覺得男女關係專家真的沒有說錯：231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmdL2i8EdG
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『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhu3D0gHH7
真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半？』231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIj0n9N3EYd
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愛情真的像爸爸說的，只是通往婚姻的其中一條道路。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYmb3Q15wW
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維持一段婚姻的從來不是愛情，永遠都是在於是否用心對待對方。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3se3RqdOz
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有心了，把對方當成自己的另一半照顧陪伴，自然能刻骨銘心，自然能長久。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XLIrs21PQ
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這才是家族親情和婚姻的真諦。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEih0WWUsg
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因此我沒有什麼可以再說。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GQUwMafgj
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再說下去，恐怕就是那五隻兔崽子怎麼又吵又鬧又合作的興旺黃家的故事。231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZxnoZyjKy
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所以現在我唯有說：「這就是黃家屬於我和姊姊的故事了……」231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTOcDqd2FK
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然後按「加至主畫面」