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近現代/家族/愛情親情/日常/姊弟搭配169Please respect copyright.PENANAZp7AuqntuJ
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一篇完成,很長,閱讀請有心理準備。169Please respect copyright.PENANAZmpyQxk1Q2
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本文原發於│2018-09-15 10:57:16169Please respect copyright.PENANADlI5dF9JK3
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現在我要說的故事,真的非常平淡。169Please respect copyright.PENANAkgOl4s4vLP
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沒有太多的激情,也沒有太多的熱血,更沒有太多的戲劇性衝突。169Please respect copyright.PENANAQG6Wk1NWA8
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都是些再平凡不過的家庭日常生活。169Please respect copyright.PENANASezKV2q6GQ
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現在我就要開始說了……169Please respect copyright.PENANAq3kW3hWROl
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我出生在南部小鎮的富有家庭。169Please respect copyright.PENANAVa0TXw03Nz
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我們黃家目前連我在內總共五個人。169Please respect copyright.PENANAsHMflWUbxn
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我,爸爸,媽媽,阿公和阿媽。169Please respect copyright.PENANAUUDb8G5nPR
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阿公和爸爸都是商人,在整個東南亞經營運輸和貿易生意,到處都有據點。169Please respect copyright.PENANA9rq9AFAcOO
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常常早上還在泰國,下午就到菲律賓,明天又到另一個國家,所以一般都會好幾天才回家休息一次。169Please respect copyright.PENANAKCBViW0X2s
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做的生意,就是在各國之間進行貨物運輸和販賣。169Please respect copyright.PENANAvcrA47YsvQ
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阿媽和媽媽雖然不必在外面奔波,不過還是要負責在家裡幫忙處理整理重要的公司文件。169Please respect copyright.PENANAjzVRCYOtt8
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可以說我們黃家是個商業家族。169Please respect copyright.PENANAagCbHfXiMD
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自然是這個小鎮最有錢的家庭。169Please respect copyright.PENANArLS8SOps3a
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所以鎮裡如果辦什麼活動需要錢,往往都會來家裡商量,請求我們家幫忙贊助一點。169Please respect copyright.PENANAtonM1aNMxe
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所以我們黃家對於這個以務農為主的小鎮來說,是個非常特殊的存在。169Please respect copyright.PENANAlxh2EVSTVo
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現在既然說到我出生的這個小鎮,我不得不說它真的是個非常單純純樸的地方。169Please respect copyright.PENANA19GHdrcgjo
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一片又一片的農田,一隻又一隻幫忙農作的大水牛,還有到處奔跑嬉戲的活潑孩子們……169Please respect copyright.PENANAj2AAewMFww
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但是同樣是孩子的我,只能乖乖留在家裡。169Please respect copyright.PENANAdJp1VFAcGT
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因為我自從出生就體弱多病,總是大病小病不斷,不是去醫院就是乖乖留在自己的房間養病。169Please respect copyright.PENANA05h9klNEYD
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各大醫院給我看病到最後,醫師都說我的問題是:先天抵抗力低落。169Please respect copyright.PENANA2SKkIk6zMR
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怎麼治療?沒有徹底的治療辦法,只能希望我的抵抗力會有自然好轉的一天。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMPlYlceRHa
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因此西藥我從來沒有少吃過,昂貴的中藥補品更是三餐,童年的我真的是個大藥桶。169Please respect copyright.PENANAePTwwWgA24
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也幸好,我們黃家很有錢,沒有這方面的問題,否則多病的我恐怕早就已經被放棄。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMeBJJw6kZ9
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不過,沒有讀過什麼書的阿媽還是為多病的我著急萬分,不時責怪我的媽媽,讓媽媽受盡委屈。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhONmBhJ7n8
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我就因此記得媽媽被阿媽罵到哭的一段記憶。169Please respect copyright.PENANABLHa3bXESf
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當時我七歲,發著四十度高燒,躺在自己的床上病懨懨。169Please respect copyright.PENANAR7jeimH9VG
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二十六歲的媽媽坐在我的床沿,一邊聽著阿媽不停的責罵,一邊流著眼淚用濕巾為我擦涼身體。169Please respect copyright.PENANAiJ8OEwuQK4
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阿媽責罵媽媽知道自己身子虛弱,常常感冒不適,還敢嫁來黃家生下我這個最重要的長子,把病弱的體質傳進黃家。169Please respect copyright.PENANA44aim8P13h
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阿媽責罵媽媽生下我之後就像個石女,再也生不出來,讓黃家只有我這個體弱多病的長子。169Please respect copyright.PENANANtL3QBXOMV
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甚至於,阿媽責罵出身貧寒葉家的媽媽沒有半點自知之明,不安本份的嫁入黃家,肯定是為了黃家的錢勾引爸爸。169Please respect copyright.PENANAD8pA7w9E7c
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所以我相信,當時媽媽的處境一定比我還要難受。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJWfKVjzNXc
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如果不是為了我這個親生孩子而隱忍,才二十六歲的媽媽恐怕已經被阿媽罵到離開黃家。169Please respect copyright.PENANAQI1as12zKn
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就這樣,這場把媽媽罵哭的大責罵結束不久,在外面跑的阿公和爸爸回來了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAUodPR4NKtW
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因此,我的生命就要再次不同。169Please respect copyright.PENANAHjCEk4UftB
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我的阿公,就是現在這個黃家的一家之主。169Please respect copyright.PENANAPAFgOwOjBH
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雖然阿公沒有讀過書,但是很會做生意,算是東南亞貿易圈的一號人物,所以把事業做的很大,賺錢的速度就像轉開水龍頭。169Please respect copyright.PENANA3JLzs95d5W
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阿公坐到我的床沿,疼惜摸摸我的臉,然後叫著媽媽的小名:「阿素?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAMGZWaYnNdz
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媽媽和爸爸站一起:「爸?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1DQRDGpKM6
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阿公:「前陣子妳被罵的事情,剛才妳的媽媽(阿媽)都跟我說了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAYhJaLTwcpd
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媽媽:「嗯……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAobxcHZ7ngK
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阿公:「媽媽是心急孩子忽然又高燒,不是有意把妳罵成那樣,原諒媽媽吧。妳絕對是我們黃家的好媳婦。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzg6XSOuGgb
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阿媽安靜站在阿公身邊,不發一言。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1M5GJULJtf
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媽媽則是低下頭,眼淚又一次滾出來:「我知道……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJJDhYvrcW4
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阿公:「那麼來說正事。孩子的對像我們辦好了,是個不錯的對象。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAEbhrbmGjlm
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媽媽擦掉淚水:「已經辦好了?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAunbQ7pA6zb
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阿公:「去他們家看過,互相說過所有情況,把一半的聘金給他們。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzRk7iBMjx7
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媽媽:「她什麼時候會來家裡?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAE8OIjTxge1
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阿公:「下個月的九日她會來台灣。二天之後的十一日是師父說的吉日,正式迎娶入門。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4v5X5iddp
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然後,大家安靜好一會。169Please respect copyright.PENANAajb4xTvBpc
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阿公疼惜的一直看著我這個病弱躺著的獨孫。169Please respect copyright.PENANASg2jMltiZm
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直到媽媽打破沉默:「爸……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAciRhCymHas
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阿公:「什麼事?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAetkFkbXVhV
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媽媽:「這樣做,真的好嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA00BqZlsczs
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阿公:「阿素,你應該知道,這是沒辦法的辦法了?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAUUbL7JuBz4
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媽媽:「我知道……」169Please respect copyright.PENANA3TKtG3yFUT
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阿公:「到處跑醫院都沒有用,醫生就是沒有辦法完全治好。只能照宮廟乩童說的這樣做做看,給孩子沖喜了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAkow84yNKyT
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媽媽:「但是孩子還這麼小,就要讓他娶妻……會不會對他的未來怎麼樣?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAvUaic0nTCk
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阿公唯有語氣沉重的說:「反正只是做個樣子,不是真要讓她娶。現在我們黃家只有這個血脈,先想辦法讓孩子可以平安長大吧。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAqz5mGIstpK
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就這樣,改變我的生命的那個女人就要來到身邊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAGKEF9HtXjx
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七歲的我,為了沖喜治病,就要娶妻了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAf3AhzKlKUz
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那個女人,我都叫她姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAQm8dMcfx06
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現在我要說的,就是以我和姊姊為中心、關於黃家的平淡日常生活故事……169Please respect copyright.PENANA5fngsLi8Kw
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《我們黃家的故事》169Please respect copyright.PENANAaOkUCLJnm9
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隨著下個月九日逼近,家裡為了我的婚事越來越忙碌。169Please respect copyright.PENANAR7VE1MGzoO
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忙碌準備一堆婚禮相關物品。169Please respect copyright.PENANA2frv6dtfxo
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除了專心照顧我的媽媽,阿公阿媽和爸爸整天忙進忙出。169Please respect copyright.PENANAC9oWuf7xnn
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甚至於,我的房間家具也完全換新。169Please respect copyright.PENANATr53qcihf7
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但是我完全不清楚情況,同樣動不動就發高燒,只能躺平在床上養病。169Please respect copyright.PENANAdosZdGUI4t
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終於,九日那一天來到。169Please respect copyright.PENANAGiyvBHwHDN
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即將嫁給我的姊姊,已經來到台灣。169Please respect copyright.PENANArPZa098yxM
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所以傍晚的時候,媽媽把狀況好一點的我抱出門,阿公開車把所有人載往大城市的餐館。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhFWJ70sWZy
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我和姊姊,就是在餐館裡面的包廂第一次見面。169Please respect copyright.PENANAC8CDcPUgal
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大家坐在大圓桌,看著彼此。169Please respect copyright.PENANA7c29KMH1Q7
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我們一家五人,坐在圓桌的一邊。169Please respect copyright.PENANABtMALIOrzD
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對方二人都是女性,坐在圓桌對面。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhUE6s3qsWK
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一名是準備嫁來黄家的近二十歲年輕女孩,留著一頭烏黑亮麗秀髮。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhSqe5dJaEs
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另一名是看來四十歲左右的中年婦女,胖胖的,是姊姊的姑姑。169Please respect copyright.PENANAPoV0Vii7te
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她們二人都穿著越南式女性旗袍。169Please respect copyright.PENANAOIRCnCCryk
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沒有錯,她們都是越南人。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1lVCRlsdFs
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即將和我結婚的姊姊,可以說是所謂的越南新娘。169Please respect copyright.PENANA7WFVd4TZhK
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接下來我要說的這些關於姊姊的事情,都是之後才慢慢知道。169Please respect copyright.PENANAImcIqldK7X
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姊姊的名字是:『林花。』169Please respect copyright.PENANAdP99QMHD7S
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嫁來黄家的姊姊十八歲,比我年長十一歲。169Please respect copyright.PENANA0MDELxcuVT
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姊姊是她家的長女,下面還有二位年長我好幾歲的弟弟。169Please respect copyright.PENANAoqS0YtNsMu
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全家在越南的鄉村務農,姊姊一邊在鄰鎮的高中讀書,一邊打工幫助家計。169Please respect copyright.PENANAwSTZ6jRhf9
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姊姊是成績一直在前十名的優等生。169Please respect copyright.PENANAXAsTaLId2D
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原本計劃在高中畢業之後繼續半工半讀大學,選讀和育幼有關的科系,未來當小朋友的老師。169Please respect copyright.PENANAN8tdcJpfOd
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但是就在高中畢業前夕,爸爸忽然中風臥床,家計再也支持不下去。169Please respect copyright.PENANAShOafCPxOU
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姊姊為了自己的家庭,只得拿我們黃家一大筆錢,告別父母和二名年幼弟弟,遠渡重洋嫁來我們黃家。169Please respect copyright.PENANApD8qrbQ32h
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先是依靠英文和阿公與爸爸溝通,之後再比手劃腳的慢慢學習漢語。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMVFCZtgYIn
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這些就是關於姊姊的事情……169Please respect copyright.PENANAJLjHtKxWbU
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不過當時在餐館的我才七歲,出於好奇一直看著比較年輕的姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8J9mgHuf4T
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內心單純想著:『漂亮的姊姊,頭髮又黑又長……』169Please respect copyright.PENANAq7anV2ffJa
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至於就要和我結婚成親的姊姊,同樣安靜看著我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAuxSCn0EJ6e
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只是面無表情,看不出喜怒哀樂。169Please respect copyright.PENANAVWegiqOYti
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所以這時候的姊姊雖然漂亮,但是看起來冷冷冰冰,很難接近的樣子。169Please respect copyright.PENANANtqsmmYd8B
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我相信,是因為姊姊對於面對這一切的不安,才會感覺很不親近人。169Please respect copyright.PENANA192sqCgi18
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而不論如何,冰冷就是我對姊姊的深刻印象。169Please respect copyright.PENANAk2PO6UyDpJ
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初次見面這天的餐館會面,就在如此面無表情的沉默中開始。169Please respect copyright.PENANADQe38qAjiq
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阿公、爸爸和姊姊,都是用英文溝通。169Please respect copyright.PENANARwsoRjkpUo
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阿媽和媽媽如果要和姊姊說話,同樣要透過阿公與爸爸進行翻譯。169Please respect copyright.PENANAxI5qjAfJN2
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尤其是媽媽,一再向姊姊拜託:「林花小姐,我因為和先生早婚,所以不過大妳八歲而已,真的能夠體諒妳必須嫁過來的委屈。我不敢要妳做什麼,只求妳以同樣的女人心體會我這個做母親的心情。這個孩子一直是個很聽話的乖孩子,不吵不鬧,只是從小身體一直很不好。今後真的要拜託妳幫忙照顧……我真的拜託妳了……」169Please respect copyright.PENANA20UY3enA70
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媽媽是真的發自內心的再三拜託姊姊幫忙照顧我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAZNRtMasPX5
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姊姊都是平淡回答:「好。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAttVRKktx9c
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姊姊嘴巴回答好,問題是她的內心到底又是怎麼想?169Please respect copyright.PENANAGU2ECnAziE
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總之,這一晚的餐館聚餐,就這樣在姊姊面無表情的冰冷中結束了……169Please respect copyright.PENANAObbRphI8uP
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二天之後的十一吉日。169Please respect copyright.PENANAsIdqVaioGJ
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姊姊穿著潔白新娘服正式嫁進我們黃家,成為台灣媳婦。169Please respect copyright.PENANAjsfn7gIkSS
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病懨懨的我同樣穿起兒童西裝,勉強支撐起精神,在什麼都不懂的情況下和面無表情的姊姊拜堂成親。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmAF8OZCW4M
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一直陪在我身邊的姊姊同樣冷冷冰冰,看起來很難接近。169Please respect copyright.PENANAE8GhEV0Kdi
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所以我完全不敢親近姊姊,更不敢和姊姊說句話,只能一直找媽媽。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1oio4iijYf
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就這樣,忙碌一整天的婚禮終於結束。169Please respect copyright.PENANA6TOBXV84Rk
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當晚的洞房花燭夜,只能由我和姊姊一起度過,否則不吉利。169Please respect copyright.PENANAef4GJhfad3
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但是我才七歲,什麼都不懂,所以發現自己和陌生的冰冷姊姊一起被留在房間,我立刻撐著不舒服的身體跑出房間找媽媽。169Please respect copyright.PENANAEx3UdDDY3p
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畢竟姊姊對我來說是個陌生人,加上姊姊從頭到尾的冰冷態度,所以還是七歲孩子的我完全不想和姊姊獨自在一起,就算姊姊再漂亮也一樣。169Please respect copyright.PENANAzml6SlMTSV
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已經換上睡衣的姊姊,只能一直安靜跟在我背後。169Please respect copyright.PENANAFcyoiHJVO5
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剛開始,媽媽一直哄我,把我帶回房間,要我乖乖的和姊姊一起睡覺,然後關門離開。169Please respect copyright.PENANAWrkTslACi8
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我當然又吵著追出去找媽媽。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMVNIbSc1uu
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就這樣來回找媽媽幾次,對我很溫柔的阿公終於大罵:「你已經是個娶妻的大人了,到底一直在吵什麼!這麼晚了還不快點回房間睡覺!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0Nb7txjQSe
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這真的是我第一次被阿公罵。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhq3UJW7uM0
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加上對於發生的事情和完全搞不清楚整個情況。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMyVBl61Vk0
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所以我怕到了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAg2dZjI44Df
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背後跟著姊姊,哭著轉身乖乖回到房間,坐在新床上不安哭著。169Please respect copyright.PENANAyRGtdv590y
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一定是因為這樣,姊姊看我無助害怕的一直哭著要媽媽,就像被狗媽媽拋棄的可憐小狗。169Please respect copyright.PENANA4PoScNbSas
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因此姊姊發現我終究只是個普通的七歲小男孩,不是什麼可怕的存在。169Please respect copyright.PENANADH6f7AU1pO
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冰冷的姊姊,終於改變對我的態度。169Please respect copyright.PENANAOpemCMfgws
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姊姊遲疑一會,不忍心的伸出手,把我溫柔摟在懷裡,輕輕搖著我,哄著我,完全把我當成孩子安撫。169Please respect copyright.PENANAexAOWT3HYl
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至於我,忽然被姊姊摟著,一開始哭叫著抗拒,努力想要逃離這個冰冷的陌生人。169Please respect copyright.PENANAR07paS3R4G
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直到我看見姊姊溫柔哄我的溫暖笑臉。169Please respect copyright.PENANAFlTTGF55HA
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這是我第一次看見姊姊露出的友善笑容。169Please respect copyright.PENANASEh78UATVh
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七歲的我因此知道了,姊姊其實沒有那麼冰冷可怕。169Please respect copyright.PENANAf7WbQABDbD
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姊姊其實是很溫柔的好姊姊,否則怎麼會像這樣微笑哄我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmAmD0CPNLi
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於是我慢慢收起眼淚,不再哭鬧,乖乖的依偎在姊姊溫暖的懷裡。169Please respect copyright.PENANAj5OJHJqMPl
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被溫柔的姊姊摟著哄,感受著姊姊的善意,直到被姊姊輕輕搖哄到睡著。169Please respect copyright.PENANAA7HGlW8nhi
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我和年長十一歲的姊姊,就從這一晚開始共同生活了……169Please respect copyright.PENANATa2NINO0le
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姊姊被迫為錢離家,遠嫁我們黃家,讓她冷冷冰冰的,頗有拒人千里之外的感覺,很明顯就能看出來。169Please respect copyright.PENANAlCjdmDEhNS
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事實上,姊姊曾經跟我說過,剛來台灣的那陣子她的確一直在想著逃跑的事情。169Please respect copyright.PENANAbTLOkVDLy3
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逃離這個用錢買自己的黃家,能逃多遠就逃多遠,躲到台灣其他地方想辦法生活。169Please respect copyright.PENANAnh2DzXJYBq
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反正姊姊的聘金,她的家人已經完全拿到。169Please respect copyright.PENANAOPrqvQrdTk
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就算姊姊逃走,也只能算是姊姊個人『離家出走』,不會給娘家帶來太大麻煩。169Please respect copyright.PENANAynSFXz9Ia3
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但是新婚之夜,姊姊看著我的無助哭泣,就像一隻不停唉唉叫需要人照顧的可憐小動物,就此讓姊姊的冰冷心情融化。169Please respect copyright.PENANAjbImC9u8xJ
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姊姊想說,先幫忙照顧我一陣子,順便認識更多同樣來自越南的朋友,收集更多台灣其他地方的資訊,再正式逃跑。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmETWNmaYDe
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結果情況卻是,隨著一天天照顧我,姊姊的想法一天天軟化。169Please respect copyright.PENANA0R7KZ8Pwgz
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此外,加上大家都對姊姊很好,完全以家人的平等態度對待姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANApo9jMrk1C2
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年長八歲的媽媽更是把姊姊當作親妹妹對待。169Please respect copyright.PENANAbwlMatn5Is
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大家同進同出,同吃同喝,而不是把姊姊當成越南勞工對待。169Please respect copyright.PENANACHcJKtIX7X
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甚至於,每個月會給姊姊五千元的零用錢。169Please respect copyright.PENANAviLKa8oNtp
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姊姊終於接受自己的命運。169Please respect copyright.PENANACsP6OHseZc
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姊姊開始把黃家當成她第二個家,和媽媽一起照顧我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAQWuYNIHEod
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甚至於,姊姊很快就變成照顧我最多的人,也是付出最多心力的人。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhPc8mWuUrQ
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畢竟媽媽晚上會回房間睡覺,只有姊姊才能整晚和我在一起,在我生病發燒的時候整夜看護。169Please respect copyright.PENANAwm1O7RhPbt
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在我身邊時睡時醒的給我量體溫,餵我水,哄我吃藥,給我的身體擦涼。169Please respect copyright.PENANA19CYt2y8OA
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所以姊姊不只是姊姊,更像是忽然跑出來的第二個媽媽。169Please respect copyright.PENANAIDROcpIMp8
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我自然很快的習慣了姊姊的存在。169Please respect copyright.PENANAxRcgBG0nOb
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越來越喜歡整天陪伴我的溫柔姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANATpvA2ZrFb3
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對於姊姊的依賴越來越重。169Please respect copyright.PENANAEDJJHFceoW
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把姊姊當成可以整天陪我玩的大玩伴。169Please respect copyright.PENANA2Wap7C4hFv
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總會:「姊姊!姊姊!」的親密叫著。169Please respect copyright.PENANA9RTupuETKJ
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握著姊姊溫暖的手,讓姊姊陪著玩耍。169Please respect copyright.PENANAbnCL1yDHEW
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玩玩捉迷藏。169Please respect copyright.PENANAbv9P3chWiI
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玩玩跳房子。169Please respect copyright.PENANAgVt5l1sz21
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一起唱唱歌。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8ezNA7WhrP
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讓姊姊一口口餵飯。169Please respect copyright.PENANAH4OUqb7XKY
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讓姊姊帶我上廁所。169Please respect copyright.PENANAVMPQcrO15C
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讓姊姊幫我洗頭洗澡。169Please respect copyright.PENANAxkYVfdyzF8
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讓姊姊哄著一起睡覺。169Please respect copyright.PENANAEjER6nIkja
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讓媽媽看著我和姊姊的相處,半開玩笑的落寞說好幾次:「你這個孩子根本只要姊姊不要媽媽了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAHgxes3iYnP
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由此可知,我的確已經變成整天黏著姊姊,由姊姊日夜拉拔照顧的孩子。169Please respect copyright.PENANARpOmDAE2iW
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十八歲的姊姊有我這麼親密陪伴,更是完全打消逃跑念頭,為了照顧我而決心留在黃家。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8eDTvPp719
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姊姊就這樣找到救贖和生命的出路,沒有走上躲躲藏藏過活的悲慘道路……169Please respect copyright.PENANAHaETtqrikF
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另一方,關於我的身體狀況。169Please respect copyright.PENANAT06cAsWBMo
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原本病弱的身體真的慢慢好轉,不再那麼容易生病發燒。169Please respect copyright.PENANAbH16wwaBfa
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我越吃越胖,長出肉,不再像以前那樣骨瘦如材。169Please respect copyright.PENANARYZFDG4svr
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甚至於,我會有體力拉著姊姊出門跑步玩耍,就像那些在外面到處跑的活潑小朋友。169Please respect copyright.PENANAitfvuiwRDe
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我的身體狀況好轉,除了沖喜成功真的找不到其他解釋。169Please respect copyright.PENANAvLL5PruV1s
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阿公、阿媽、爸爸和媽媽為此喜悅萬分。169Please respect copyright.PENANA7ha0T9tTPe
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他們紛紛高興表示,給我找來姊姊成親沖喜是對的。169Please respect copyright.PENANAxau2DvAkKo
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所以一年之後,八歲的我健康的進入本鎮國民小學就讀,和其他同年齡小朋友一起接受正式教育。169Please respect copyright.PENANAEkm9PVPAis
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姊姊都會牽著我的手,親自把我帶往學校,一直用不流暢的漢語說:「你在學校要乖乖的喔……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAkTwzLPzcop
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直到看我進入校園,姊姊才回家幫忙家事,或是以姊姊的英文能力幫助家族的生意文件。169Please respect copyright.PENANAHEUxdBAzmG
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接著,再於下午四點放學時間前來校門口接我,關心詢問:「學校過的怎麼樣?有沒有乖乖?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAyMg0S3OTS4
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不論風吹、雨淋、烈日,溫柔的姊姊沒有一天不陪我接我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAqyQcEWkbaQ
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回家之後,姊姊更是會親自陪我寫作業,教我數學,確定我的學習沒有任何問題。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMnbU9CaPeW
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甚至於,在學校的我忽然身體很不舒服或是發燒,必須早退,趕來學校接我的也是姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANA6RClEsjIjD
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親密的把我當孩子一樣揹著,帶我去醫院檢查,然後再帶我回家。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJAsn8tXbFz
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說真的,我和姊姊要說是夫妻,其實更像是感情非常好的姊姊弟弟……169Please respect copyright.PENANAvwQAlEHKT6
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不過也因此,我被學校的小朋友找麻煩了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAEISUMy1oSa
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我和姊姊的事情,全鎮的成年人都知道。169Please respect copyright.PENANAM0ODda79wN
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成年人知道長輩讓我娶姊姊是萬不得已的沖喜,所以成熟體諒的沒有說什麼。169Please respect copyright.PENANAElNlNHKueF
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但是和我同年齡的小朋友們,知道我和姊姊的事情之後,終於瞭解為什麼我的上下學總是有漂亮姊姊親密接送,出於幼稚的無知開始嘲笑:「男生愛女生!羞羞臉!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAtjApGc3xoC
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像這樣的嘲笑我還可以忍受,所以不理他們。169Please respect copyright.PENANAVQTgPLgbhj
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一陣子之後,他們竟然開始當我的面嘲笑姊姊,說她是:「家裡不要的女孩!為了錢來台灣的越南窮人!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAaicy7LsaYq
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他們這樣說姊姊,我當然覺得很生氣,不是吵架就是打架。169Please respect copyright.PENANAXcRS7WoxMi
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那段時間,足足一週以上,真的又吵又打的度過。169Please respect copyright.PENANA2fAQgu2KUn
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後來會解決,還是姊姊看我身上一直有打架的傷口,對我詢問到底之後親自出面處理。169Please respect copyright.PENANAXObxapLQ8s
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放學時間,姊姊陪我在校門口面對那些說壞話的小朋友。169Please respect copyright.PENANAF7c0Fd1B4g
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姊姊蹲下來,溫柔微笑,和氣說著:「大家一起當好朋友,好不好?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0B6NbuS8Fl
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就這樣,那些原本欺負我的小朋友改變態度,不再亂說話。169Please respect copyright.PENANALF1tJHvw0s
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甚至於,會在放學的時候陪我們一起走,開心的和姊姊說話聊天。169Please respect copyright.PENANAtvjDnGVUCq
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因為姊姊的漂亮,還有姊姊的溫柔,小朋友們一定會喜歡。169Please respect copyright.PENANAFcVeHTGWnB
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喜歡和小朋友相處的姊姊,更是順理成章的成為大家的好姊姊,會在週末帶著我和大家一起玩。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8EVJiBldgt
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我的拳頭無法解決的事情,溫柔的姊姊輕鬆辦到。169Please respect copyright.PENANAONN8r9MZuU
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我真的更加佩服姊姊了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAY8lk9FLQEi
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不過,我也因此開始體會到自己和姊姊的奇妙關係。169Please respect copyright.PENANAnNjxf4ITpf
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畢竟學校的小朋友沒有人像我和姊姊一樣結婚。169Please respect copyright.PENANAPbZyu35bL0
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只有我,像爸爸媽媽、阿公阿媽和其他大人一樣結婚。169Please respect copyright.PENANAC06hvqUGMk
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我就是從這個時候開始思考:『我為什麼會和姊姊結婚啊?』169Please respect copyright.PENANADfezZdj371
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我一個人想幾天,終於在這天放學,只有我和姊姊的時候直接問:「姊姊,我想問妳一個問題。」169Please respect copyright.PENANATDC4tCJVAW
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姊姊:「什麼問題?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAsAjUgcfT56
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我問:「我們為什麼會結婚?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAXPtUm9VNBi
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面對我的問題,十九歲的姊姊沉默了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAEA9rvdu0Nk
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安靜牽著我的小手,一步步帶我回家。169Please respect copyright.PENANA3yif8tpwDy
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八歲的我,完全不瞭解姊姊為什麼都不說話。169Please respect copyright.PENANACLU3idWRf4
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不過只要是個成年人,一定能瞭解姊姊不語的原因。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMNpjVj4Ar7
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十九歲,根本還只是大學生。169Please respect copyright.PENANAAyPKR8SkY9
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如果姊姊的爸爸沒有中風,現在姊姊應該正在越南的某間大學半工半讀。169Please respect copyright.PENANA4JfYTinWjT
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姊姊卻是拿錢嫁來台灣,和我結婚成為黄家媳婦,一年來一直日夜陪伴我生活。169Please respect copyright.PENANAyQmmpLbqYu
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姊姊的寧靜,其實是有重量的。169Please respect copyright.PENANAbtZg13dvOl
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生活的重量,從來不是三言二語可以輕鬆說完。169Please respect copyright.PENANAWQClw9eo56
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也或許,正是因為無奈和感嘆,才讓它這麼不容易說完。169Please respect copyright.PENANAUsiEHlAJHC
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天真不懂的我追問:「姊姊?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAuQ9jGNMSGz
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姊姊回答:「因為我們必須結婚。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAIQCCzSaob6
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我:「為什麼?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwyqZDAJ0k8
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姊姊僅能:「姊姊不知道應該怎麼說。等到回家之後,你問媽媽吧?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA9knRSeNnkk
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所以回家之後,我真的牽著姊姊的手,跑去問媽媽這件事。169Please respect copyright.PENANA0Z4Fk0w6MA
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媽媽沉默的和姊姊互看,然後回答我:「等你長大之後就知道為什麼會和姊姊結婚了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAcpjxp1yxrY
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結果,當年八歲的我還是完全不知道為什麼自己會和姊姊結婚。169Please respect copyright.PENANA7zKi5MZD0h
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我也只能想著這件事幾天之後,開始把它淡忘掉,繼續開開心心的牽著姊姊的手,和姊姊一起生活……169Please respect copyright.PENANAHMqptgZuTD
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就這樣,幾年的國小生活迅速過去。169Please respect copyright.PENANAEtMDlnUUpj
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姊姊嫁來黄家的時候十八歲,現在已經二十三歲。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMPPGMQ6ujR
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照顧我之餘順便幫忙家事,處理家裡公司的英文翻譯工作,可說已經完全融入黃家的一切生活。169Please respect copyright.PENANAHFWMfGtDGc
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至於越南娘家,姊姊和娘家密切保持聯絡,不論是實體信件,電子信件,通訊軟體,沒有斷絕過。169Please respect copyright.PENANAfxKlbY8DsK
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中風的爸爸情況好轉。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8wmh43q95W
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媽媽用姊姊的聘金開一間穀物貿易店,生意做的不錯。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhkQ1ggNAAO
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二位弟弟則是都在高中讀書,準備考大學。169Please respect copyright.PENANAg6QbQW7pnk
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所以原本窮困的娘家的確因為姊姊的聘金,慢慢發達起來。169Please respect copyright.PENANA3RqOPvkkmZ
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就這樣來看,窮人女孩為錢出嫁遠方,真的不好嗎?169Please respect copyright.PENANAw9Ziz9zXjA
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當然,每個人心中都有想法和答案……169Please respect copyright.PENANATDEm5FTU7Y
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我則是十二歲,健康快樂的入讀國中一年級。169Please respect copyright.PENANA720Z2pPncq
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開始長高的我,心靈隨之成長。169Please respect copyright.PENANA2brqWCTCrJ
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小時候的我,整天黏著姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJC01i4GHze
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但是現在的我,對於那麼黏姊姊開始覺得怪怪的。169Please respect copyright.PENANAiR0gFKZWGM
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和姊姊一起手牽手走在路上,以前的我覺得很自然快樂,但是現在的我卻覺得很奇怪。169Please respect copyright.PENANABPXukJhYoT
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尤其是如果在路上遇見認識的同學或是朋友,我都會趕緊放開姊姊的手,和姊姊分開,不想要被他們看見我和姊姊手牽手。169Please respect copyright.PENANAxxLN593y2e
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甚至於,我會對於和姊姊同房睡覺這件事感到彆扭。169Please respect copyright.PENANAlFgXHtK7Zy
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睡覺的時候,我都已經故意側躺背對姊姊,並且離遠點,姊姊卻還是主動靠上來,從我的背後主動摟抱我在懷裡。169Please respect copyright.PENANAgppf2B8O1r
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就像過去那樣,從背後抱著我一起看電視。169Please respect copyright.PENANAHm7iZdIHrA
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就像過去那樣,從背後抱著唸故事書給我聽。169Please respect copyright.PENANAxuuS8ekPQl
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就像過去那樣,抱著親密搖我,唱兒歌給我聽,陪我說話。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3Bv6si6yF
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就像過去那樣,一直把我當成孩子……169Please respect copyright.PENANAmP2eontsfN
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因此,今晚睡覺又被姊姊像這樣從背後親密摟抱,彆扭好一陣子的我終於說:「姊姊……」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0Yh4l9lmce
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姊姊:「嗯?」169Please respect copyright.PENANARzvlkXeRju
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我說:「妳可以不要抱我嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAOE9WzUGupf
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姊姊:「怎麼了?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAnczxkUAggM
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我誠實說:「感覺好難為情。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAMgunDBC2kt
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姊姊沉默。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJUrCP8nq1M
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我繼續趁這個機會說出心底話:「其實……我越來越覺得我們一起睡覺很奇怪……」169Please respect copyright.PENANArC4U9Si8EG
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姊姊:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAz8f1Hzk1LG
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我說:「我知道,好多年來我們都是一起睡覺,妳會像這樣抱著我。但是,現在我真的開始覺得好奇怪……」169Please respect copyright.PENANA2D3lFWVYJJ
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又是幾秒的沉默。169Please respect copyright.PENANA3Zu3nvbfue
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姊姊主動移動手,不再從背後摟抱我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAQjt085UHQw
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我擔心姊姊不開心,回頭看去:「姊姊,我沒有討厭妳,只是真的覺得好奇怪。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA94r3euef0L
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陰暗的燈光下,側躺面對我的姊姊溫柔微笑:「阿弟,你長大了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANANOxVpXdYHH
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不只姊姊,阿媽和媽媽也是叫我阿弟。169Please respect copyright.PENANAA1O89VcjWH
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我只能說:「是嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANADkV6aYpemy
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姊姊:「你也不喜歡和姊姊牽手被同學看見吧?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAYNT5QDiNxX
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我這才知道,原來姊姊有察覺到這件事,知道我都會在路上遇到同學的時候放開姊姊的手。169Please respect copyright.PENANAaL1ZwPeer5
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唯有乖乖承認:「嗯……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAmWcL1csO19
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姊姊詢問:「你也會討厭姊姊陪你上下學?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAIWS1pljWS2
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我沒想到姊姊會反問這件事,所以我真的想幾秒:「上下學……我是覺得,上下學我一個人不會有問題。其實姊姊可以不必一直跟著我,感覺有點浪費妳的時間……」169Please respect copyright.PENANACgTj1lchNO
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姊姊得到我的回答:「姊姊知道了,以後你自己上下學吧。明天你還要去學校,先睡覺。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAFz8SxJ7Ygi
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說完,姊姊轉身,背對我睡覺,沒有再摸我一下。169Please respect copyright.PENANAtndEaC678a
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我也只好同樣繼續背對姊姊睡覺。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8udydbRVhp
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我知道,姊姊依然是當年那個一心一意照顧陪伴我的姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhR2JTQ2DRU
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但是開始長大改變的我,真的不再是當年七歲的我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAYR6rEHYzmN
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雖然當時沒有感覺,不過我和姊姊的關係,的的確確就從這時候開始不同。169Please respect copyright.PENANADlejbLSOcf
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隔天,姊姊果然讓我一個人上學,下午回家時間也沒有來校門口接我,讓我感覺好奇怪,就像有什麼明顯不對勁。169Please respect copyright.PENANA0wBAtNz2DB
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甚至於,回到家之後,在房間放下書包,發現房間裡面怪怪的。169Please respect copyright.PENANAVxOUiwXpr0
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但是那時我還忽然說不出房間哪裡奇怪。169Please respect copyright.PENANALV4QrgEAkb
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直到進入廚房從冰箱找喝的,遇見正在忙碌晚餐的媽媽和姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAR7cfFrG0ei
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我先問候:「媽媽,姊姊。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAKoSfJtkWfQ
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媽媽知道我一定還沒有完全搞清楚情況,所以主動跟我說:「今天開始,姊姊會去原本用來堆雜物的那個房間睡覺。下午已經把雜物間清理好,也把姊姊的東西都搬進去,以後那裡就是姊姊的臥房。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA4LKU5UHjdq
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這就是剛才我為什麼覺得房間有點奇怪,因為原本屬於姊姊的東西與衣物都消失不見。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhpPRPPBxvY
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我小小意外到:「姊姊要睡在雜物間?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAVXp1jS5WAP
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媽媽:「你不是跟姊姊說不想和姊姊一起睡覺?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAF191aH2suU
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我:「昨晚我是那樣說……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAj9gUlZpNzc
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然後,我看向姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAchd8Y4HmU6
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姊姊面無表情站在瓦斯爐前炒青菜,沒有看我一眼。169Please respect copyright.PENANAeSNGIHPwtz
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我:「姊姊?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAsaR9fgQkjB
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姊姊終於看我:「嗯?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAEc9cyhvuw5
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我:「你真的要搬去雜物間?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAp6KFlYgKYh
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姊姊回我:「早上姊姊和媽媽談過之後,覺得這樣對你比較好。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAoQwL4C1p0g
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我:「可是---」169Please respect copyright.PENANATJB4QkYUrk
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『可是』到這裡,我又半句話說不出。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhRxvVcirZT
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畢竟我究竟想要『可是』什麼?169Please respect copyright.PENANAvzWTMij0Rp
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我的確一天天覺得和姊姊同床共枕很奇怪,親口說出這件事。169Please respect copyright.PENANADjJpFLwB7v
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我和姊姊分房生活本來就是很自然的發展,到底還有什麼好『可是』?169Please respect copyright.PENANAQqOjeK3otC
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所以『可是』之後,我真的又沒有一句話可以說,只能站著。169Please respect copyright.PENANAHP6Y9Buzj4
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因此姊姊再說:「你真的已經長大了,開始獨立自主。姊姊很高興,可以陪伴你平安長大到今天。今後也要繼續成長為一位優秀的大人,知不知道?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAZc0vLHUfMw
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我唯有:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0LknhhoUVU
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媽媽有意思讓這件事就這樣:「好啦!你自己聞聞衣服,都是臭酸味!快去浴室洗澡,準備吃晚飯了!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAw8QNG93gSf
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就這樣,我們沒有再談過這件事。169Please respect copyright.PENANAtlePx9cqao
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我跟姊姊正式分房生活……169Please respect copyright.PENANA0J1QiqR2Ku
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姊姊決定放手,讓我自由自在的長大,相信那樣對我的成長最好。169Please respect copyright.PENANAfgNiWFydp9
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我從上下學不再有姊姊陪伴,直到現在分房睡覺,真的一直有種說不出的奇怪感。169Please respect copyright.PENANAs5LIgxYaTs
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就像自己的生活,忽然有什麼重要的人事物消失不見。169Please respect copyright.PENANAc0Dkr1wcbv
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這樣的消失,好像明顯是錯的。169Please respect copyright.PENANAGHKY5JpbuW
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但是我又感覺到,這樣才是對的。169Please respect copyright.PENANAfpAPmo2ORv
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我相信這就是姊姊所說的獨立自主和所謂的長大吧。169Please respect copyright.PENANAZqCbmirB1H
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卻也因為這樣,沒有姊姊常常跟隨陪伴的我,雖然獲得很高的生活自由,卻也交上壞朋友了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAPTIs9dqFAP
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週六日,以前我都是跟姊姊一起出門,搭公車去鄰近城市的鬧區走走逛逛再回家。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1RrGT84TE2
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不再有姊姊緊密陪伴的我,都和同學朋友一起出遊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAZu8d5SlKqJ
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姊姊都會在我出門赴約的時候,微笑的說:「路上小心,早點回來。」完全把我當成大人尊重看待。169Please respect copyright.PENANA9mGMJVAzVi
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就這樣,朋友彼此之間再互相介紹,我終於和一群大人常說的『壞孩子』認識。169Please respect copyright.PENANAYZDMOOfa8n
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一夥近三十人,男女都有,對我來說都是些大哥哥大姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAXlgR9wQHVO
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年紀大約是國中生到二十歲,最年長的幾位等著當兵,並且他們的家庭明顯都有問題。169Please respect copyright.PENANAvnEJmEoeh4
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搶劫吸毒之類的嚴重事情沒有。但是檳榔喝酒,喜歡夜遊飆車,嗆聲裝大……大概就是缺少家庭關愛的鄉下8+9。169Please respect copyright.PENANAg6WfBfAnsJ
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當然,認識他們之初,我也覺得和他們在一起不太好。169Please respect copyright.PENANAA6AZyuejEo
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聰明的孩子絕對會知道不應該和他們繼續往來。169Please respect copyright.PENANAkmuroWzQZy
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但是我又無法抗拒和他們繼續來往的誘惑。169Please respect copyright.PENANAh9mOhd6aas
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因為他們有帥氣的摩托車。169Please respect copyright.PENANAABMxkSlWsQ
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他們是個8+9飆車族,車隊名稱叫做三太子風火輪。169Please respect copyright.PENANAvN3hsieQgr
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沒有錯,我喜歡帥氣的摩托車。169Please respect copyright.PENANAzucNiNvUZz
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看著那樣的帥氣摩托車,我就想騎上去飆。169Please respect copyright.PENANAAAHEp4zgG6
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聽著引擎聲怒吼,我的感覺整個嗨到不必嗑任何東西。169Please respect copyright.PENANAxJ9lMkssv7
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尤其是家裡沒有摩托車,只有分別由爺爺、爸爸和媽媽各自擁有的二輛汽車。169Please respect copyright.PENANATdmbffHCH1
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當年的我不懂汽車,只記得叫難聽的梅賽什麼的,看起來又黑又大又笨重,一點都不拉風的廉價車。169Please respect copyright.PENANAoamVySwSHX
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而大哥大姊他們不只有摩托車,還都經過特別改裝,看起來又酷又炫。169Please respect copyright.PENANAfd9qQTPWHL
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只要坐上去感覺就像世界無敵了。169Please respect copyright.PENANA9Rbk3zN2Ny
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當年才十三歲的我,真的好希望自己也能擁有一輛自己的帥氣摩托車。169Please respect copyright.PENANAewdGWMrqxh
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所以我真的克制不住和他們一群人來往的慾望。169Please respect copyright.PENANA3mZpEM2yUK
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他們一定是因為全都破碎家庭出身,主觀的認為我也一樣,所以完全不問我的來歷,我到場就接受我,讓我跟隊。169Please respect copyright.PENANA2QawdmKjVZ
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所以我不必上學的週六日一出門,就是主動去找他們,大家一起出門全速衝鋒。169Please respect copyright.PENANAyaigYPEQyR
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當然,我都是後座被載的那個。169Please respect copyright.PENANApG04HuY6JY
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大部份時間,都是在靠中央山脈的山路衝鋒兜風,大約深夜就解散回家。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMMN0doac6m
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少數時候,大家飆的比較瘋,就是順著車少的靠海道路從台灣南部衝到台北,再從基隆衝進宜蘭花蓮直到台東,再一路騎回來。169Please respect copyright.PENANAc9ESuzfsAh
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真的是完全不睡覺,從白天騎到黑夜,再從黑夜騎到白天,猛衝台灣島一圈的衝鋒。169Please respect copyright.PENANAjE9Zgdi2V3
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每個月都會像這樣衝一次。169Please respect copyright.PENANAHcHgm2J8FS
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大家都樂此不疲,我更是好開心。169Please respect copyright.PENANADiXofZ1srl
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我覺得這個世界真的好遼闊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAoyKSbywQhV
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我真的好想看到外面更寬大的世界。169Please respect copyright.PENANAl33NnAkTXS
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我越來越不想離開這個環島飆車團體。169Please respect copyright.PENANACfptnVR5cK
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不過想也知道,我才一個國中生,家人一定擔心追問。169Please respect copyright.PENANA00S9xZf86X
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如果半夜才回家,這種情況還好,被媽媽碎念個幾句就好。169Please respect copyright.PENANABDe6tTJ4jT
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如果是一整天的瘋狂環島……169Please respect copyright.PENANAJkScPHgHz8
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終於,這個週日早上,第三次我再次環島瘋回來之後,被追問到底了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmlMFWSKTgk
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不只媽媽和姊姊,就連最疼我的阿媽也在一邊看。169Please respect copyright.PENANAm0TQYruTpz
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媽媽一臉擔心:「昨天週六你到底去哪裡?怎麼整晚都不回來?這樣的情況已經不是一次二次了!你才幾歲啊!大家整晚等你,怕你出什麼事,一直想去報警知不知道?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAvxfW2N1OnQ
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因為擔心會被媽媽繼續罵,所以我回答:「沒事啦。只是和幾個朋友去台北玩。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAc3nrlcxps3
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這是事實,因為車隊的確會經過台北。169Please respect copyright.PENANAjKVOz4UtGI
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雖然抵達台北的時候都是大部份人回家睡覺的深夜。169Please respect copyright.PENANACUHV3eUKoX
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換姊姊問:「阿弟,你們沒有做壞事吧?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAKU0UmLFuoo
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如果說謊,媽媽和姊姊一定會看出來。169Please respect copyright.PENANA7hKruv65dD
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我覺得很煩又很無奈的直視她們,明示自己的清白:「沒有啦。真的只是一群人出去玩而已。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAKYt290Ux3a
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不過是騎摩托車瘋狂繞台灣,還會是什麼壞事?169Please respect copyright.PENANAvKejteRbWJ
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姊姊再問:「下週六你們也會像這樣出去玩到週日才回家?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAynCUGoDikV
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我不耐煩的回:「又不是每次都這樣好不好?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwSqwpcITHz
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姊姊:「表示以後還會像這樣?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAMKGHjlYAAj
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我不敢回答,因為是肯定的,所以生氣大罵:「妳們又煩又囉嗦!有完沒完!碎碎唸個不停!我要回房間睡覺了啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANABY5iEkRuWV
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就此頭也不回,直往房間快步走。169Please respect copyright.PENANA7mkRiGKjFW
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媽媽她們看我忽然這麼兇的大罵之後轉身就走,全部愣在客廳,忽然追不上來。169Please respect copyright.PENANANwTI7iQkEE
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只有姊姊,第一時間追進房間,拉著我的手:「你到底跟誰出去?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAmzWK6J0Ekj
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就這樣,我第一次和姊姊吵架了……169Please respect copyright.PENANALU6pkWc1zj
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發急的我,只能甩開姊姊的手:「問這麼多做什麼?是有那麼嚴重喔?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAYdT5qIzNs6
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姊姊:「阿弟,媽媽剛才沒有說錯,你才十三歲,是個國中生啊!整晚不回家,大家當然擔心!加上你正在叛逆期,我們可以不擔心嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwiZam9cR3M
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這時候,媽媽和阿媽也追上來觀戰。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJBPNg1KhlM
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不過她們暫時都沒有說話,把發言權交給姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANALrHN0pMwF6
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我一心只想早點罵退她們,所以直接對姊姊罵:「到底關妳什麼事!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAneOJVAiiFD
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姊姊:「為什麼不關我的事!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAinqSlCa2c5
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我:「妳到底是我的誰啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAPaX8U8gDT1
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姊姊:「我是妳的姊姊啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAcrRNV5FxlR
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我:「我只是把妳當姊姊喊!不然我什麼時候有姊姊了!妳是媽媽生的喔?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAY5HFU379f6
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姊姊的確一時難以回答。169Please respect copyright.PENANActEwTbaH3o
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我繼續說:「妳又不姓黃!明明什麼都不是!妳只是個外人!就不要再對我管那麼多了啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAOXoRYdgU0H
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姊姊:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAInClkKNLkE
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媽媽:「你這個孩子對姊姊說什麼話!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAEkwPWyD8cL
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阿媽也罵我:「是姊姊辛苦的一手把你帶到這麼大,知不知道?怕你冷!怕你熱!怕你餓到!怕你受傷生病!怕你書沒讀好!你還要去哪裡找這樣的姊姊!到底誰還會對你這麼好啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAvWzsEDcQQR
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媽媽:「你的阿媽沒有說錯!姊姊真的對你那麼好,結果你竟然對姊姊說這種話!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAvBXBymuXwl
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這樣子,我又要面對她們三人了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAXiuf7rjyaE
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整晚沒有睡的我,又煩又氣又累,拉著房門就要緊緊關上。169Please respect copyright.PENANAsljynE5kGr
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姊姊卻是踏出一步,伸手用力頂著門,不給我關。169Please respect copyright.PENANAgzZ0V4oomI
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甚至於,姊姊直瞪著我,毫不移開雙眼。169Please respect copyright.PENANA4s4X5k7AuV
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被姊姊這樣瞪,頓時一陣膽寒。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmMDXswHAUy
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畢竟我是被姊姊從七歲一手帶大的孩子,對於和姊姊相處的實際記憶真的比媽媽還要多。169Please respect copyright.PENANAiaJZ0UuYR3
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所以被姊姊這樣瞪,讓我感覺比親生媽媽這樣瞪還要可怕。169Please respect copyright.PENANAAZugOLsguT
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覺得自己真的麻煩大了……169Please respect copyright.PENANAx2HxEWOM7a
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我又急又怕:「放手!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAr9BkwiXbAm
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姊姊:「不放!你不敢說,背後一定有問題!你好好說出是和誰出去整晚!你們到底去做什麼!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAqhP4oLnHTk
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我:「我已經說了,妳沒有資格問!」169Please respect copyright.PENANANGb6Lfy5kW
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媽媽出頭:「那麼媽媽總有資格問吧!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3YehfyB9g
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我更是不敢回答媽媽,只能繼續用力推門,對姊姊喊:「反正跟妳沒有關係,放手啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANACl8EiGiyGH
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姊姊只能喊:「我不是外人!我是嫁進黃家的媳婦!你這樣子,我會擔心啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAQZlqK057WO
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我:「什麼媳婦!到底是誰的媳婦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAnt6oGfoufU
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姊姊:「你的啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAGIibJmI02m
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當時的情況,姊姊不這樣說不行。169Please respect copyright.PENANAKpkiG6ZSv9
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因為姊姊真的會在這個黃家找不到立足之地。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8xRrses7o9
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只會是個來自越南卻長時間住在黃家的外人。169Please respect copyright.PENANAePU1WeYwH4
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我:「才不是!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwRgTLvuJ5B
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姊姊:「為什麼不是?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAQQfJu2wzSm
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我:「我又不是願意和妳結婚!再說當時我才幾歲啊!而且大家都知道只是做做樣子,又不是真的!妳才不是我的媳婦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJCehT8UarG
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接著姊姊的回答,我萬萬想不到。169Please respect copyright.PENANA4DjhdwWno2
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我真的萬萬想不到。169Please respect copyright.PENANAqGhfjBGHpA
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姊姊問我:「那麼姊姊搬出去,和其他男生約會結婚也沒有關係了?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAKUAozkmwBS
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當然姊姊是故意這樣說,為了嚇嚇我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAXxnZpfl24N
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不過才十三歲的我根本還只是個不夠懂事的孩子,心臟立刻一個大跳!169Please respect copyright.PENANAQVVq61uXUG
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這樣的心情,就像孩子聽到守寡的媽媽要改嫁。169Please respect copyright.PENANAWayQD9auMk
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只要是孩子,一般都會很難接受這樣的事情。169Please respect copyright.PENANAxH4Se931fc
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到時候姊姊會被其他人搶走,姊姊就不再是我的姊姊了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAuNIUYRirm2
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說起來,當時的我真的就像個要斷奶卻無法斷個徹底的孩子。169Please respect copyright.PENANAIGxZmf8LMx
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當然我緊張的對姊姊說:「妳說什麼啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAPjDBpERH8I
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姊姊說:「反正我又不是黃家的媳婦,你管姊姊那麼多。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAM8gu7u2yeD
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我:「這是不同的事情啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAcAcHMAWz9k
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姊姊:「隨便你吧。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAIsRKjtE9bT
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說完,姊姊還真的直接放手,不再想把我的房間門頂開,並且轉身就走。169Please respect copyright.PENANACIT8YBKhmr
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媽媽配合姊姊:「你這個孩子實在是啊……看看你剛才對姊姊說什麼話!姊姊真的不想管你了,還不快去跟姊姊說對不起!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwNZbVLdinP
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我猶豫堅持僵持著。169Please respect copyright.PENANAKGlyznw37y
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畢竟如果說出事實,我知道她們一定不會再讓我去參加車隊兜風。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMlE410N9qB
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如果不說,姊姊又會變成別人的姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAQAodLL2RgE
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我的心情真的是有夠天人交戰。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJMfj2vN7QL
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根本是逼我二選一。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmUsxwgqs79
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媽媽:「姊姊真的不必勉強自己一直留在我們家!現在你真的要看姊姊離開?還不快去跟姊姊道歉!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA2RmKXtgMD1
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終於,我還是害怕的:「嘖!」一聲,離開房間,快步跑去找姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANA5U0Jh6FPvO
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姊姊坐在客廳沙發看電視,冰冷的完全不看我一眼。169Please respect copyright.PENANA5Qu2bvM1hn
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我:「姊姊。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAOV3YIJAKig
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姊姊:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzrscCWK7XZ
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我:「姊姊,妳不要這樣。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAdYQGvh3neY
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姊姊:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAXyFBZg5EIc
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我:「對不起。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAI21VYjmrMk
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姊姊:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAR1LzEksIte
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我:「妳不要走啦。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAtq6c6hMSoj
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姊姊:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAPJSjRtbQZD
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我:「剛才我真的不是故意那樣說……」169Please respect copyright.PENANA9cIVNivzGX
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姊姊終於看我:「姊姊想聽到的不是這些。是你整晚到底去哪裡?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA8pZpi9ZzUE
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我又是一番掙扎:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAGd0fvYdezY
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姊姊終於看我:「你從小到大,今天真的是第一次有事情瞞著姊姊。讓姊姊好難過。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAT7WkYQMKKn
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我:「如果我說了,你們一定不會再讓我出去……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAqo6bEsAFrH
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姊姊:「反正你先說,到底整晚去哪裡做什麼?」169Please respect copyright.PENANApvPqPFavIj
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我:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzBe8hCSdi9
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姊姊:「還是不願意說嗎?反正對你來說,姊姊只是這個黃家的外人吧。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJjO61d16Ap
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我:「不是那樣啦。」169Please respect copyright.PENANACcZJt6WVox
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姊姊:「那就告訴姊姊。不然姊姊真的要搬走了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA7qeusroaTh
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我只能心一橫:「昨天我是去參加車隊……」169Please respect copyright.PENANARu7zdbWuFs
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姊姊:「車隊?」169Please respect copyright.PENANApN2QzQFdnW
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我:「整天跟大家坐摩托車兜風,只有那樣而已。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAP8JqmxpEJX
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阿媽擔心的問:「你跟人家去飆車?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAMxZ8oP7pAN
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我拼命想著讓自己可以無罪開脫的回答說詞,可是就速度來說,又覺得很難辯駁:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANA5vvQXISV1R
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媽媽看我的沉默,直接有罪判定,滿臉的難以相信:「你竟然去跟人家飆車……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAOnGi3TSvVR
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我:「不是飆車啦!只是外面騎一圈而已!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1PRUX2SL9A
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姊姊冰冷的說:「騎去哪裡?為什麼整晚才回來?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAADiobICPAQ
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我:「沒有去哪裡啦……」169Please respect copyright.PENANABOVU7vsvKh
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姊姊:「到底跟人家騎去哪裡?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAMw7H4JrsRP
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我:「就是……台灣繞一圈而已……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAH555faCvDp
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姊姊略顯訝異:「台灣繞一圈?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAmTEKpJElFV
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我看姊姊的反應,知道不妙了:「真的只有那樣!不是什麼危險的飆車啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAXuS6gVM82a
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姊姊:「一天騎台灣一圈?所以整晚都在騎車?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAc2lIdAnsqu
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阿媽再次:「哎喲!這樣不就整天在飆車!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZA4EiJF9A
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媽媽同樣受驚不小,音量非常大:「你這個孩子實在是!竟然去跟飆車族整天在一起飆車!那樣有多危險知不知道!如果出事怎麼辦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAQoDviJ22d2
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換阿媽哀叫:「哎喲……你這樣如果讓疼你的阿公知道,他一定會驚的血壓飆高喔……」169Please respect copyright.PENANATLbPgKBmM4
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我:「真的沒有想的那麼危險啦!再說我已經參加過三次,不是都沒有出事!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAkP4Ja0BB6I
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媽媽直接大聲:「以後不准再去參加,聽到沒有!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAPLSYlMyo3M
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阿媽:「黃家現在只有你這個獨孫!黃家還要靠你傳下去!你要是有個萬一要怎麼辦啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAuoaTCo232a
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果然,變成我最討厭的情況。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhasKCPtDI3
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我只能做著沒有意義的抗議:「就是因為會這樣,我才不敢跟妳們說啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAm4TJ66lsy5
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姊姊接口:「你不敢說,因為你自己也知道本來就不應該去參加。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAZorZUkPPZ2
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我:「但是真的沒有想像的危險!你們看我不是一直都平安回來?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAm7wVZhpFH5
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姊姊:「不論你說多安全,我們都不會相信。飆車本來就是很危險的事情,更不必說你才十三歲。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA3vNxwHh4yK
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我:「所以等我十八歲就可以了,是不是?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA3HlBthb2nu
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姊姊卻是直瞪著我,直接一句:「姊姊對你很失望。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAyT4zC4STnW
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我:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1DNG9dnX51
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姊姊:「我一直以為你會開始懂事,會自己想……結果你竟然做出這麼危險的事情,去參加整天飆車的飆車族。姊姊真的對你非常失望。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAguUVrskGOU
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我:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAm2eAGXvrD9
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姊姊:「你根本還是個不懂事的孩子,完全不知道事情輕重。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAedRT5UB1aC
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阿媽也在旁邊整個憂心:「會變壞……這樣一定會變壞……哎喲……怎麼辦啦……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAGu802S33DE
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我做著最後掙扎:「事情真的不是那樣……」169Please respect copyright.PENANApaRqkjy4LR
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姊姊:「反正你不准再去參加,否則姊姊就搬出去,再也不管你了,有沒有聽到?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0zc6keAaeR
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我還能怎麼回答?169Please respect copyright.PENANAUZKff7FgAd
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只能垂頭喪氣:「知道了……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAt4fBlBTbUW
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當時的我,真的覺得好難過,覺得好不甘願。169Please respect copyright.PENANAjiXjAiGAZn
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因為我真的很喜歡騎著摩托車兜風的感覺。169Please respect copyright.PENANAw8YSj2WMEY
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現在這一切,因為我不希望姊姊離開,所以都要被強迫終止。169Please respect copyright.PENANARmQuH1Q3zr
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讓我怎麼接受?169Please respect copyright.PENANAblMr3VziqU
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我自然悶悶不樂起來。169Please respect copyright.PENANAd3vrtUJD7o
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週日的這場爭吵,就這樣結束。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmNYdbGfVGQ
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然後,週二這一天,在外面跑生意的爸爸回家休息幾天了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAbrZ2ExHQxb
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所以這一天放學回家,我立刻被爸爸叫到客廳。169Please respect copyright.PENANAiSPQpRlbuN
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爸爸一臉嚴肅,姊姊她們三人都在旁邊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAF0WFszHGBb
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雖然爸爸因為和阿公一樣整天在東南亞跑,都把我的事情交給阿媽媽媽和姊姊,幾乎沒有插手過我的教育,不過還是會在必要的時候管教我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAWWti9EjiN1
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所以我其實還頂怕爸爸的。169Please respect copyright.PENANAzu8Sr1DIdx
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爸爸開口就是嚴肅的問:「聽媽媽說,你去參加飆車族,已經好幾次和他們環島?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAmfknNFSb52
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我覺得說再多也沒有意義,所以簡單的:「嗯。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAtQ0obSuCbK
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爸爸嚴厲罵來:「亂來!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAHy36AUlM2r
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我:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAKKl29qvELz
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爸爸:「你以為飆車好玩啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAmxnAYk5mPr
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不服氣又不甘心的我,雖然會怕爸爸,不過還是什麼都不管了,直接說:「很好玩。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAjqLhtRgL1A
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聽著腳下的引擎怒吼,看著二旁道路快速向後衝去的速度感,進入前方從來沒有見過的新世界,真的很好玩。169Please respect copyright.PENANAnrG88ltGIz
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我真的喜歡騎摩托車旅行的感覺。169Please respect copyright.PENANASc9DrFt1Cb
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越是參加那個車隊,我越是著迷於那樣的感覺,難以自拔。169Please respect copyright.PENANAsYjS7XaZDS
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不過,在場四人都為我這句話:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAf4oAzBJDJC
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真的,他們都被我一句話頂到安靜。169Please respect copyright.PENANA5z1CGJsHkE
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好幾秒,半句話沒有。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1FXoMhbD5T
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爸爸反應回來,更兇的說:「飆車是在拿自己的生命安危開玩笑,你到底知不知道!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAFIv2mY2S1X
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我:「反正你們不會懂啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAee2CG59Mbm
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爸爸:「是你完全不懂!真的跟個孩子一樣!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAYhgZRrVRqv
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我正想要給爸爸頂嘴……169Please respect copyright.PENANAnRz7Sgc5wW
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一直安靜在旁邊的姊姊:「那麼你說,我們不懂什麼?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJz9FTvxfHk
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我:「反正你們不會再讓我去了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAeRquabyJcK
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姊姊:「我們的確不會再讓你去參加飆車族。可是如果你說出來,至少我們還可以懂你為什麼會去參加。是因為姊姊開始不陪你,所以你覺得一個人很寂寞嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANApxmDO67P4B
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我:「不是那樣啦。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAIyThG9ILTh
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姊姊:「那是怎麼樣?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAva5SSOIn0U
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我:「我喜歡騎摩托車。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAVDQZiJ3S3V
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姊姊:「你喜歡騎摩托車?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAEdOQfoV57f
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我:「我知道你們一定會覺得那些騎摩托車的人都是壞孩子,當然不會讓我去參加。可是他們其實沒有你們想像的那麼壞。我只是和他們一起騎車,一起兜風,又沒有怎麼樣……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAuHbqL3Hj3O
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姊姊卻是說:「我們先把他們的事情放在一邊。你為什麼會喜歡摩托車?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAjLKOF3CYpp
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我:「你們一定不喜歡摩托車吧?是不是覺得會騎摩托車的人都是窮人?都不是什麼好人?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAk6j0DidjgV
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姊姊:「你為什麼這樣問?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAy4e2HEdElV
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我:「因為一定是這樣啊!否則我們家為什麼連一輛摩托車都沒有!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA9JoUvdn17a
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爸爸出面回答:「因為汽車載人載物比較方便,也比較安全!再說平時如果大家需要出門,媽媽會開車,不是都會開爸爸的車載你們出門?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAy6hvBqSEbH
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我:「不一樣啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAQvou2bZjPk
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姊姊:「哪裡不一樣?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAbWKMD9DD1N
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我:「摩托車帥氣拉風又自由,騎起來的感覺就是好棒!我們家的車又笨重又醜,名字也難聽又難記,叫梅塞什麼的……要怎麼跟帥氣的摩托車比!」169Please respect copyright.PENANACXeoGOg1si
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爸爸沉默二秒,口氣好許多:「梅賽德斯?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAPVrEPJ458H
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我:「對!梅賽德斯!聽都沒有聽過!看起來也真的有夠醜!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAVnk5jFQj9E
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爸爸:「梅賽德斯是主名,大家常知的通名是賓士。我們家二輛車都是賓士高級車款,你知道一輛多少錢嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAlP4xcWBv6t
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當然我絕對聽過,知道是很貴的車,忍不住確認:「賓士?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAqorg6P5omd
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爸爸:「都是賓士。」169Please respect copyright.PENANATxnYlqph8q
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下一秒,我有一種極為失望的感覺,因為總覺得賓士那樣的名貴轎車應該看起來更加不同凡響才對。169Please respect copyright.PENANADLTnR6SuTA
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所以我發自內心回答爸爸:「好醜……真的……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAAfmYoN5UZe
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首先,美醜是很主觀的。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1wA5Nx7wg6
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再來,我真的打心底覺得,賓士有名又貴到讓我很無法理解。169Please respect copyright.PENANAW15EjC1vFb
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真的,就算我已經長大成人,還是不喜歡賓士的外型,就算是賓士的跑車款也一樣……絕對是青菜蘿蔔每人各有喜好。169Please respect copyright.PENANA7QbBidQHlN
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所以這時候的我萬分的難掩失望之情。169Please respect copyright.PENANAzDa8R3Dbaq
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爸爸:「賓士也有跑車款,看起來很好看。我們家二輛都是家用房車,所以看起來像一般常見車輛,不過的確都是很貴的頂級賓士。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAm84CGYY3pf
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我:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANA3u1XOHc4F9
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姊姊再問:「你真的那麼喜歡摩托車?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAODcj2xE98F
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我:「摩托車很棒啊!車隊的大哥大姊都把自己的車改的好酷好炫!那是因為你們沒有看過,不然你們一定也會喜歡!坐在上面騎,感覺就很舒服!真的可以騎一整天也不會膩!」169Please respect copyright.PENANALJyBNrIHHh
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他們四人,幾秒的安靜。169Please respect copyright.PENANABop2tOc0Hf
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爸爸終於說:「十來歲的年輕人,真的都會比較喜歡摩托車吧?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAdopbucK7QY
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我:「所以讓我再去參加車隊啦!他們真的只是單純的在路上騎車,沒有想的那麼危險!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAqoONAuDUQd
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媽媽直接大聲:「不可能!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAC6xt0PtoK9
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爸爸也說:「你給我乖乖留在家裡,有沒有聽到?」169Please respect copyright.PENANALP5coIVqGr
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阿媽更是:「傻孫啊,摩托車騎那麼快多危險啊……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAAdeClGs0Kr
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我還能怎辦:「我就知道!一定會變成這樣!跟你們根本白說!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAGBitDLDBAz
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姊姊:「你真的那麼喜歡摩托車?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA6rpHPFk6nX
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我開始發洩自己被強迫阻止的怒氣:「我就是喜歡!比家裡那二輛什麼醜賓士帥氣多了!就算你們現在禁止我!但是等到我滿十八歲是個大人了,一定要回去車隊給你們看!到時候看你們怎麼阻止我!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAxavsm6msdF
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媽媽:「你這個孩子!說這什麼話!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAuFtLkV3oJr
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我:「我一定會回去車隊給你們看!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAZH6TmHPRIF
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媽媽本來想再罵我,但是看爸爸一直安靜:「你也對孩子說句話啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAeDqLfKRA4g
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爸爸卻是思考:「嗯……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzUwy8d4DVB
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媽媽:「喂!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAFuDWeWuRME
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爸爸回答媽媽:「看他這樣,不如我先通知爸爸?不管怎樣,這件事都要讓爸爸知道,再看要怎麼處理。」169Please respect copyright.PENANASVjz43txkY
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當然,爸爸口中的爸爸就是阿公。169Please respect copyright.PENANAit4Z7RqAjk
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媽媽:「要告訴爸爸?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAFSAfGKJRj6
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阿媽:「讓你的阿公知道你出去飆車一整天,還要出去繼續飆,一定要為你急的高血壓啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAhPw0MSdZxr
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然後,爸爸播起電話,開始和電話另一頭的阿公說我的事情。169Please respect copyright.PENANAS1MxSkyODi
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參加8+9飆車族。169Please respect copyright.PENANADJHGwSFHZH
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一整天的飆車,環台一圈好幾次。169Please respect copyright.PENANAXyOUvyEOkQ
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還放話,長大成人之後要回去繼續飆……169Please respect copyright.PENANArXn70e9hEy
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然後爸爸掛電話,告訴我們:「爸爸說他會把工作的事排開,搭明天的班機趕回來。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAGffASDPEqf
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阿公一定吃驚訝異又發急,否則不會放下工作立刻趕回來。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhamTdvpPZ0
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阿媽:「傻孫子,你自己看看,阿公為你急的……哎喲……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAU67bBA307Y
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我也只能摸摸鼻子回房間,心情忐忑又不好的準備面對明天就要回來的阿公。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhqrXetkWF9
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就這樣,隔天週三,我照樣去學校上學。169Please respect copyright.PENANABNRPLd0Qdl
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傍晚回家,阿公果然已經等在客廳。169Please respect copyright.PENANAgls0oua0Ie
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姊姊他們四個人,都陪在旁邊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAr1nT5Wvmpl
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因為阿公和阿媽一樣疼我這個寶貝金孫,所以阿公沒有像爸爸一樣嚴肅板著臉。169Please respect copyright.PENANAYPTnridBkz
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阿公說的很溫和:「阿弟,先回房間放下書包,然後來告訴阿公怎麼回事?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAKnoUTFmNv1
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於是放下書包的我,回到客廳。169Please respect copyright.PENANAKhSwMDg6cj
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阿公立刻對我招手,讓我親密坐到大腿上。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMEgUzJFg6r
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阿公對待我,真的一直都像對待幼稚園的小孩子。169Please respect copyright.PENANAurrb8LLvtK
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可能對阿公來說,我不論長多大,永遠都會是當年那個可愛的小孫子吧。169Please respect copyright.PENANAv9oN5mMyQT
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於是我開始把整個事情從頭跟阿公說一次。169Please respect copyright.PENANAczQQVaS6MO
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說完之後,換阿公問我。169Please respect copyright.PENANACNNowbiDPv
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先問我怎麼和那個車隊認識上,然後問我們都去哪裡?169Please respect copyright.PENANA97zEWF5oOb
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接著都是問一些我為什麼那麼喜歡摩托車之類的事情?169Please respect copyright.PENANA1dCVE7wufb
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我一直把自己的所有感受告訴阿公,並且求阿公讓我回去參加車隊,才能繼續快樂兜風旅行。169Please respect copyright.PENANAkojXt3rxIr
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阿公很有耐心的仔細聽我從頭說到完。169Please respect copyright.PENANAaWrtYDqNyR
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最後,阿公問我:「你真的這麼喜歡摩托車?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAEKXJ7Glfhw
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我當然說:「很喜歡!因為看起來好帥,騎著兜風也很開心!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAMuv8neZwlD
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阿公安靜:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANA5NFoVnbtXi
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我開始撒嬌:「阿公……讓我回去參加好不好啦?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAmKMSilIHLO
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阿公:「不可以。真的太危險。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAvUhXpObEbk
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我像個孩子拼命耍賴:「讓我回去啦!讓我回去啦!讓我回去啦!……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAPYwrvdKWz8
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阿公一直微笑看著我,一言不發。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJK7b23fm4M
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爸爸很兇罵來:「不要這樣亂!大家是為你好!長大一點!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA6myxu9d4f0
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以前阿公都會袒護我,不過現在阿公只是安靜微笑看我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAcyy564XrTg
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我當然不敢再發亂:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6iQRGcr81
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阿公哄我:「好了,去洗個澡,換個衣服,全家一起去餐館吃晚飯。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAhUnfKlpkc6
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我:「可是車隊……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAvOfpkVZezk
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阿公摸著我的頭:「乖。去洗澡。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAWbwClQnm04
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我只好百般絕望,垂頭喪氣,前往浴室洗澡。169Please respect copyright.PENANA4zJcZIQ8VE
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在離開客廳的時候,聽到阿公叫爸爸的小名:「阿忠?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA2ix6qtwMYt
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爸爸回應:「爸?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA7FFkAaiQC5
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阿公:「我們黃家的確只有他一個男孩。不管怎麼樣,今後大家一定要看好他。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAaZ2PbY8idE
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爸爸回答:「我們都知道要看好他。可問題是再過幾年他如果成年,到時候又要怎麼管?成年人實在是很難管了。要是真的搬出去,更是沒有辦法管。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA8Lh0rU1cHv
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然後我走遠,只聽到交談聲,聽不到他們到底在商量要怎麼看緊我。169Please respect copyright.PENANACocDqXCAei
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當時我真的是感覺徹底無望啊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAEz5NFCKfrz
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車隊當然更是沒有辦法再回去。169Please respect copyright.PENANAusaqJ71vAj
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因為姊姊故意會在週六日一直跟著我。169Please respect copyright.PENANATzUvWLNEt9
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我因為不希望姊姊離開黃家,所以也不敢再偷跑回去參加車隊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAzg392gCn3C
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可以說我在『姊姊』和『摩托車』這二個我都喜歡的存在,選擇了姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANA372ioUQAZJ
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不過我還是會在路上有人騎摩托車經過的時候,感覺好羨慕。169Please respect copyright.PENANASQLxrfjcFi
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一心想著:我一定要在成年之後想辦法買一輛自己的摩托車……169Please respect copyright.PENANA0f1WBVPsBd
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我對於摩托車旅行的慾望,真的只是暫時自我壓抑,並沒有消失。169Please respect copyright.PENANA04mz6zKhjO
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一個月之後的這個週六。169Please respect copyright.PENANA0og4edmRoB
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一大早,姊姊就出門,不見蹤影。169Please respect copyright.PENANAX1zkSFCmmY
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看不見姊姊,感覺就是奇怪。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmYC5C1LkK2
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因為姊姊應該會主動來跟著我監視才是?169Please respect copyright.PENANAsJbDs4S8AS
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我吃著早餐,好奇追問媽媽:「姊姊呢?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAVhBgmz4qqc
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媽媽:「去城裡。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA5vO9emI4ul
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也就是說,姊姊去鄰近的城市。169Please respect copyright.PENANAAd5e51uq1C
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我問:「去做什麼?」169Please respect copyright.PENANANlU7K5jcbx
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媽媽隨便敷衍:「辦點事情。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAz54SlFuQI8
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於是吃過早餐的我,回到房間寫週末作業。169Please respect copyright.PENANACqy2G7jIEH
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雖然我想過可以趁姊姊不在的這個機會偷偷跑回去參加車隊,不過還是因為害怕姊姊會離開而……169Please respect copyright.PENANAGNMzZMdOlF
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就這樣,下午大約二點。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJg6bgbqsJ1
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我聽到響亮的摩托車引擎聲。169Please respect copyright.PENANAwbKBUORWJX
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那樣的引擎聲,一聽就很不同凡響,絕對不是一般市區常見的摩托車引擎聲。169Please respect copyright.PENANAansILasGyl
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如果要形容那樣的引擎聲,就像是馬匹的腳蹄,很有力的踩著地面,每次都快速踩三下:『噠!噠!噠!』,『噠!噠!噠!』,『噠!噠!噠!』169Please respect copyright.PENANAP1GQ00Li0o
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聽起來規律、快速又清脆,非常悅耳。169Please respect copyright.PENANAKGo90dZLCh
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尤其是,竟然不是從家門前的道路騎過去,而是騎進這個住家的廣大前院,在前院踏馬蹄。169Please respect copyright.PENANAsRG5eIITQC
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鄉下因為土地寬,像我們這樣的有錢人家一般都會有像這樣的大前院。169Please respect copyright.PENANAUkIZ6iMFkf
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摩托車就那樣停在前院,三馬蹄引擎隆隆作響。169Please respect copyright.PENANAYojvWTbhql
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寫作業的我立刻停筆,順著聲音轉頭,心中猜想:『摩托車?誰來了?』169Please respect copyright.PENANApcswf58dxI
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然後媽媽高興喊來:「阿弟你快來看!姊姊把摩托車牽回家了!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJdh0KHuik5
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我自然萬般意外:『姊姊?牽摩托車回家?』169Please respect copyright.PENANA4aGHSXrRuS
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立刻拋下作業跑到前院看個究竟。169Please respect copyright.PENANALUAMvPEUQG
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抵達前院,阿媽和媽媽已經在前院看摩托車。169Please respect copyright.PENANAdQBhrNY6A4
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引擎正在隆隆作響的果然不是一般車。169Please respect copyright.PENANAlx0KR3KLY1
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至少一看外型就絕對不是路上常見的車款。169Please respect copyright.PENANARxNtZWb6re
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外表看起來很拉風,很像是賽車場使用的競技車。169Please respect copyright.PENANAHpMbVPwKUH
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那麼是什麼車?169Please respect copyright.PENANA3vtWAAh1Tb
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是哈雷重型機車,全球限量二百輛的特別款,現在有一輛在我家。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmqD8ZGVpUr
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全車幾乎都是由技術師父純手工組合和調整,可以說是精密的手工品。169Please respect copyright.PENANAVDtbOqS04e
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必然是從美國出發,通過層層關卡和檢查之後運來台灣,才會一個月之久才來到家裡。169Please respect copyright.PENANAlaZAcT2t7I
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至於價錢,這一輛哈雷價值將近新台幣三百萬元,抵的上一輛賓士。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1yEJp72mmt
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把這台限量款哈雷騎回來的騎士,正是一大早就出門的姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8amWmLF0od
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漂亮的姊姊穿著全黑緊身皮衣,身材凹凸搶眼,跨坐哈雷,看起來超級帥氣迷人。169Please respect copyright.PENANAauPL7ioVe6
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過去那支車隊的所有大哥和大姊頭,從車到人都跟姊姊完全沒得比。169Please respect copyright.PENANAr6MxhVcFcb
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我趕緊跑到車邊,興奮的又叫又跳:「姊姊!這輛車是怎麼回事!是怎麼回事!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA17GF7zUpDA
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姊姊對我溫暖微笑:「阿公和爸爸買回來的摩托車。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAnEveC0ITtI
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我完全難以相信:「真的買回來?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwYslowvmXC
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畢竟一個月來,家人都沒有跟我說要買摩托車回來。169Please respect copyright.PENANAYN66LWb6wK
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媽媽回答:「本來阿公是說要大家把你看好。後來是你的姊姊跟阿公和爸爸說,如果你這麼喜歡摩托車,不如買一輛回來。看姊姊對妳多好,處處為你想,你卻對姊姊說那些話……」169Please respect copyright.PENANATCzmlEN6Fk
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我已經顧不得那麼多,激動興奮叫個不停:「哇!哇!哇!哇!哇!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAbJ5Wqm8rag
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姊姊:「帥氣嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJq73PZQ1pR
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我:「好帥!好帥!好帥!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAacHjU4hFNI
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姊姊微笑:「你真的很喜歡摩托車呢。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA3cobzMU9Ex
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我:「買摩托車為什麼都不跟我說!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzdr9jQx5gw
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姊姊直接說:「因為如果這一個月你趁機跑回去參加飆車,我們就會在你眼前把摩托車賣掉,懲罰你。讓你知道偷偷做壞事會有報應。」169Please respect copyright.PENANApjXWbX4X4c
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到時候對我來說,會是多可怕的報應和懲罰啊?169Please respect copyright.PENANAKZoH6Jq3t7
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也幸好,今天我沒有趁著姊姊不在偷偷跑回去車隊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAnKxujylXQN
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我忍不住又氣又笑:「好壞!你們真的好壞!都不說!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzMfDytEDhh
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姊姊伸手摸我的頭:「不過你一直很乖,沒有偷偷跑回去飆車。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzwrxn2pQw6
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我:「所以這輛車要給我騎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1WXhCIt7gb
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我已經滿心騎著它到處兜風的幻想。169Please respect copyright.PENANAj8YuCU1SWF
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姊姊:「不是喔。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA6p16jKdpDP
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我:「不是?」169Please respect copyright.PENANARN42HcQrdg
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姊姊:「你才幾歲,也沒有駕照,怎麼能讓你自己騎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAvANsOyKi6R
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我急的:「不讓我騎,那麼買回來做什麼啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANALyQmmlDZCc
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媽媽告訴我:「姊姊會負責載你,讓你願意乖乖留在家裡。除非你成年考上駕照,否則這輛車都給姊姊騎,讓姊姊載你兜風。」169Please respect copyright.PENANApV5lPYvoEf
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這就是阿公回來的那天,為什麼沒有說要買車回來的原因。不是沒有錢買,而是阿公和爸爸整天不在家,很難常常載我兜風,摩托車買回來也只是堆灰塵,相信我一定不會喜歡……169Please respect copyright.PENANAwZpDyZXY1y
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不過我聽媽媽這樣說才想到,直看著姊姊:「啊!姊姊會騎車?妳有駕照?妳真的把車騎回來?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAw81wtzWvY6
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因為就我知道,姊姊應該不會騎車也不會開車。169Please respect copyright.PENANAkzTAdqaZEk
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姊姊:「這一個月,你在學校上課的時候我去考駕照。」169Please respect copyright.PENANARqaixPYLsl
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我喜悅的:「姊姊好帥!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAnw7UdYXbBW
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姊姊又一次提醒:「你絕對不可以再去參加外面那些車隊,不然這輛帥氣的摩托車就會賣給別人,知不知道?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1LjpQ6ZQrr
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我再問:「姊姊真的自己把這輛車騎回來?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwX8kwgtJce
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姊姊:「路上大家都在看,感覺有夠不好意思。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAcpZ32zLLfc
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我:「因為看起來真的好帥啊!可是這輛車看起來好重,姊姊真的有辦法騎的動?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAckyFZFGzlA
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姊姊:「我本來也懷疑自己會騎不動。但是實際坐上去,發現重心很穩,腳架也很容易推動,女生也能輕鬆騎動。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAmqwNm3mCQ4
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聽到這裡,我再也忍不住。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmZhwBaJjuW
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直接伸手摸握把:「讓我騎一下看看就好!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwOUttCgOKB
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就算只有一次也好,我也要帥氣的騎著哈雷限量款機車兜風!169Please respect copyright.PENANAocEBHEscF0
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姊姊:「不行。沒聽到姊姊剛才說什麼嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA7R8TP3Ggg6
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我:「只是在這個庭院而已,讓我騎騎看啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAs7HGIbb8OP
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姊姊:「剛才姊姊已經說過,除非你二十歲考到駕照,否則絕對不可能讓你自己騎。如果你自己偷騎,也會把它賣掉喔。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1vTnZa79Bc
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我:「可是---」169Please respect copyright.PENANAUbJLoflGjA
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姊姊溫柔微笑:「姊姊不是說了,我可以隨時載你出門。你不相信姊姊嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwF7HLHmZnE
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姊姊這樣說,才讓我稍微釋懷。169Please respect copyright.PENANAdIg5dM6at7
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在一旁媽媽說:「讓姊姊負責載你,這樣大家才會放心。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1exvFZBKNf
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阿媽也說:「對啦對啦,這樣最好,不然要賣掉喔。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAFmxETH748H
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姊姊:「戴上這頂安全帽,上車吧。姊姊先載你在附近騎一圈。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzGU1CoWcmD
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我不再多說,開心的直接坐上後座。169Please respect copyright.PENANAG0AmasmeVD
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姊姊:「抱緊我,比較安全。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA6rmwOurMrz
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於是我親密摟著姊姊的細腰,貼靠在姊姊的背上。169Please respect copyright.PENANAN9caB6KGMe
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姊姊:「阿媽,媽媽,我們去外面騎一圈就回來。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAIggXg1U6Wr
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媽媽:「小心一點。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA8Ibcz9RN00
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然後姊姊調轉車頭,轉動油門,載我出發。169Please respect copyright.PENANA5SoH1MWTd8
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雖然時速只有安全的三四十公里,並且都是騎在附近的寬大省道。169Please respect copyright.PENANAZYCN34u16U
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不過可以再一次騎車兜風,我還是覺得好開心。169Please respect copyright.PENANAWz1cRBjpXD
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當然,路上所有人還是都看著這輛車,聽著不同凡響的三馬蹄引擎聲,真的非常引人注意。169Please respect copyright.PENANAnvaoqttxMD
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就此騎著騎著,姊姊忽然說:「阿弟?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAqeHeZfwOnE
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我:「什麼事?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAGzGg3Huhmm
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姊姊:「現在這輛車雖然是姊姊騎,不過姊姊其實對於自己騎車沒有興趣。所以你快點長大,二十歲考重機駕照,換你載姊姊,知道嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAKDGhegWPlN
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我:「好。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAugoUG1mpGw
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姊姊:「約好了喔?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAAy16ON9cW6
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我當然說:「約好了!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAmKWDlw4oy9
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然後,又是一會的安靜兜風。169Please respect copyright.PENANAnLzjpql3RP
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換我主動開口:「姊姊……」169Please respect copyright.PENANARJAJ8W2JfF
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姊姊:「怎麼了?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAsc7K69WMyF
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我:「那一天,我對妳說那些話,對不起……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAGk4AkkUR7Q
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姊姊:「姊姊能夠瞭解,沒有關係,你能夠平安長大,好好的成人,比什麼都重要。所以你不要再把這件事放在心上了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAPXHObqeem5
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不過我還是開口,很想要再說點什麼。169Please respect copyright.PENANAY5emVyPXi7
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問題是,我到底還能說什麼?169Please respect copyright.PENANAvCvYzWQRTv
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不論如何,我們家就這樣因為姊姊為我說話,買進一輛非常帥氣的哈雷機車。169Please respect copyright.PENANAwJeb7X9tRu
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由姊姊負責保管,定時騎去哈雷直屬的修車場檢查,所以保養的非常好。169Please respect copyright.PENANApPn0qDt8uE
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我當然沒有興趣再去參加那個飆車隊,因為我已經和姊姊組成一個二人小車隊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAR3XJkoUdRD
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姊姊會在我的作業寫完之後穿上出遊用皮衣,帥氣的載我出門兜風。169Please respect copyright.PENANAUrq2caAzor
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載我前往從來沒有去過的地方,騎進沒有去過的大街小巷,看看陌生的新世界。169Please respect copyright.PENANAvR0flYItEE
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甚至於,有計劃和安排的準備好帳篷之類野營用品,載我去遠一點的露營區過夜,週日下午才載我回家。169Please respect copyright.PENANA3OBVoCCjqe
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整趟旅程,我們都會東聊西聊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAN5iBnv8Eyg
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我都是說些最近遇到的事情。169Please respect copyright.PENANAFr5b1fplst
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姊姊都會說些以前在越南的往事,或是她的父母和二位弟弟。169Please respect copyright.PENANAghX7ZZrheB
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因此我對於姊姊的娘家算是有一定程度的瞭解。169Please respect copyright.PENANAfYKanxlbqI
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我問過:「姊姊,妳很想念越南的家人吧?」169Please respect copyright.PENANACBtaOzru6T
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姊姊:「當然會想啊。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAMNVRyDSixt
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我再問:「為什麼不回家看看?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAsiegV2HCuk
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面對這個問題,姊姊沒有回答,只是沉默。169Please respect copyright.PENANADXBq39hyvv
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不過我大概可以猜想到姊姊的心。169Please respect copyright.PENANAW6IPaAGwuy
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姊姊一定是認為已經過來台灣黃家這麼久,加上一種難以說明白的望鄉情怯吧……169Please respect copyright.PENANAwTUogctx9H
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所以雖然姊姊和我分房生活,不再於上下學接送我,但是因為摩托車旅行,我們的關係依然親密。169Please respect copyright.PENANAfDxTBeIzqP
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真的讓我一再想起阿媽罵我的時候說的:『到底誰還會對你這麼好?』169Please respect copyright.PENANA21Or2uKPen
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忙碌於工作的阿公和爸爸不可能。169Please respect copyright.PENANAuckmg1TsTN
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阿媽雖然疼我,不過已經有點年紀,加上必須處理很多家事,所以同樣不可能。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmMtSEILmLh
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媽媽十八歲和爸爸結婚,十九歲生下我,雖然現在才三十二歲,不過親密感沒有姊姊對我這麼好,加上必須管教我而無法對我百依百順。169Please respect copyright.PENANAfnQeLZdTbu
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真的只有姊姊對我這麼好。169Please respect copyright.PENANAzbFTLaB3jO
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因此,我再次認真思考:『姊姊對我來說,到底是什麼人?』169Please respect copyright.PENANAkqfcFE4UaF
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姊姊當然是沒有血緣關係的外人,不是真正的姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAKNEElEDkNY
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真的要當成姊姊看待,我們之間有十一歲這麼大的年齡差距,很詭異。169Please respect copyright.PENANAFPGrimO4tB
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如果要說感情,又比一般的姊弟還要親密,絕對是姊弟以上的程度。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8FHvJ7ucuf
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要說我和姊姊是情侶或是夫妻……問題是,我的確是由姊姊一手拉拔長大的孩子,完全無法產生那麼親密的戀愛感情。雖然我的確不希望失去姊姊,更別說姊姊如果真的交男朋友。我對於姊姊真的具有不能有第三者出現的獨佔心理。
反觀姊姊,雖然把我照顧的不像單純的姊姊照顧弟弟,因為真的照顧的太貼心,但是看起來也不像對我有明顯的男女之愛那樣的感覺。169Please respect copyright.PENANALYsH9HkVCi
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所以,姊姊到底是我的什麼人?169Please respect copyright.PENANALv6giOqsMk
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姊弟以上,戀人未滿,到底應該怎麼面對這樣的關係?169Please respect copyright.PENANA0epqxTw3ff
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一天天長大成人的我,就這樣開始越來越認真的給自己和姊姊的關係尋找新定位。169Please respect copyright.PENANAepldF0AR0n
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畢竟我已經隱隱感覺到,如果找不到答案,最後等著我的一定只有遺憾和失落……169Please respect copyright.PENANAewEJeIk7Pa
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我們家這輛哈雷,是全世界限量二百輛的限定款。169Please respect copyright.PENANA5rMbef6duw
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網路上專門觀看影片的網站,只要輸入這輛哈雷的型號,就能找到不少相關影片。169Please respect copyright.PENANAwXCvQyerAZ
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大部分的同款車都是在歐美。169Please respect copyright.PENANAHGDkCwvD72
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台灣這裡,只有我們家這一輛。169Please respect copyright.PENANAiCnb6P5WUh
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所以只要是和台灣有關的同款車影片,一定是我們家。169Please respect copyright.PENANAsoxkMxitwI
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不是我們拍的影片,是路上偶然遇到的識車人拍的。169Please respect copyright.PENANArznRNCKwVF
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他們看到我們這輛罕見哈雷出現眼前,當然立刻開始錄影。169Please respect copyright.PENANATvH0LzeRnY
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影片中的姊姊都穿著黑色緊身皮衣,載著後座的我兜風,時速都是很安全的三十多公里而已。169Please respect copyright.PENANAAPbz3cuiEW
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姊姊看起來真的帥氣又迷人,根本像是摩托車界的瀟灑女英雄。169Please respect copyright.PENANAoMzkEcgrp0
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然後影片底下的留言,大都是一些車友或是愛車人,否則不會從型號找進來看影片。169Please respect copyright.PENANAkWkENJL4Zc
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他們發表像這樣的言論:169Please respect copyright.PENANA5FbVwTxL9t
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「哈雷重機引擎特殊的三節拍好棒!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA9Bg5cn12e7
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「這輛車多少?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA3zvfTVOU3p
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「三百多萬,全球限定二百輛的特殊款,台灣應該只有這一輛。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAYfhpJeb57V
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「三百多萬?我要不吃不喝好幾年才買的起啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAmQhfAq06p5
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「她幾歲?買的起?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAXtLXprlKMI
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「一定是有錢人家的大小姐。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAM85vxTd41w
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「是我的菜,我可以。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAUJONLzK289
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「不管可不可以,路上遇見離遠一點,別撞上了,當心要賣腎。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAd3uvBGrjZc
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「如果是她撞我怎麼辦?可以要她用身體賠償?」169Please respect copyright.PENANArWZjLuobIg
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「朋友在路上親眼看見過。我聽他說還不太相信,竟然真是年輕女騎士……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJjAbz5OOSq
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「她撐的住這麼大的重機?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAa9tOBahYkU
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「後座載的是誰?弟弟還是男朋友?年齡看不出來。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAGLngWwX8aI
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「看他抱成那樣,應該是男朋友?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAf2rOPk9rZ2
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然後有人說:「他們的關係,你們點進去這個連結的影片看看……」169Please respect copyright.PENANADzO3cAPKwg
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點進去連結之後,又是另一段錄影的影片。169Please respect copyright.PENANAYywGKac6DM
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我記得那段影片和那一天。169Please respect copyright.PENANA6WQfD1J2JT
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那一天姊姊載我跑遠一點,回程的時候在路邊的小七休息,買麵包飲料休息一會,忽然跑出一個三十歲左右的大哥哥。169Please respect copyright.PENANAfJ73Wfh5iD
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那位大哥哥穿著同樣用來騎車旅行的緊身皮衣,也是騎自己的重型摩托車出門旅行,遇到我們也在小七休息,於是趁機邊錄影邊跟騎士姊姊搭話。169Please respect copyright.PENANAujIF9phHJY
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當然,大哥哥的重機只是幾十萬元的那種大眾車……169Please respect copyright.PENANAjl3v4OwuxE
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大哥哥友善詢問姊姊許多這輛哈雷重機和我們的問題。169Please respect copyright.PENANAlUrbCEQR4F
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姊姊都是面帶微笑,落落大方面對。169Please respect copyright.PENANATIqECtSosQ
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如果是關於哈雷騎起來的問題,姊姊都是直接回答。169Please respect copyright.PENANAap0140uMTs
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如果是比較家庭私事,姊姊會直接表示這個問題不能回答。169Please respect copyright.PENANAfi088YxdRf
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在一邊安靜陪姊姊的我,看大哥哥這樣一直和姊姊裝熟說話,不由得覺得討厭起來。169Please respect copyright.PENANAK0WimUgsiP
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這樣的討厭心情如果真的要說清楚,其實更多的是:你不要隨便一直和我的姊姊搭話啦!169Please respect copyright.PENANAonWY8i57f4
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可以說是獨佔姊姊的心情,希望其他男人滾遠一點。169Please respect copyright.PENANAwGHBtNDaUJ
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所以我插話,跟姊姊說:「姊姊,回家了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAsOmCnCNKzJ
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之後就是我和姊姊都上車,我再次緊緊摟抱姊姊的細腰,貼在姊姊背上,讓姊姊載回家。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhue2PfVUql
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那位大哥哥一直拍到我們的背影和哈雷一起消失在路上為止。169Please respect copyright.PENANAAQUj1t9Qne
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大致上,這段影片就是這樣。169Please respect copyright.PENANAygg9G7irIH
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至於底下的留言當然……169Please respect copyright.PENANAHemF0EXpKO
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「姊姊?弟弟?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAWy6qQ6jlvT
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「騙誰啊,臉蛋一看就不是姊弟,沒有血緣關係。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAKn618tt0ai
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「年齡看起來也不像姊弟,差個十歲吧,差太多。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAHXcOEyjtF1
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「所以是個貼上有錢大小姐的年輕小白臉?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAFFLxQyHMyX
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「有可能,看他抱著那麼親密……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAtf1Z8YyFhQ
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大致上,都是一些像這樣的留言。169Please respect copyright.PENANAunR2hx292u
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後座的我被說成是倒貼姊姊的年輕小白臉,我其實沒有太多負面感覺。169Please respect copyright.PENANAlC92DQHugg
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因為我自己也在想這樣的問題:『我到底是姊姊的誰?』169Please respect copyright.PENANAxdBKVYtW3T
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至少,大家就這樣看影片,的確也都認為我和姊姊不是姊弟,而是感情很好的年輕情侶……169Please respect copyright.PENANALn1FFHfKzR
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然後,大約是我國中快要畢業的這個晚上。169Please respect copyright.PENANAD2gTHykPGU
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我們全家一起吃晚餐,看著電視的社會新聞。169Please respect copyright.PENANAGXWYLsfPon
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新聞說到最近發生的一起老少配結婚事件。169Please respect copyright.PENANAIRDPZYXX7g
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女方五十多歲,男方二十來歲,女方比男方年長近三十歲。169Please respect copyright.PENANAE3kAkezJEV
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當然,因為他們的年齡差距,所以立即吸引我的目光。169Please respect copyright.PENANAYugfn560mw
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接下來,新聞記者跑去詢問一位男女關係專家,詢問關於這件事的想法。169Please respect copyright.PENANADrU6xx4CB7
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那位男女專家說:『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半?』169Please respect copyright.PENANA6grYi1mco7
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我沒有注意到當時的姊姊有沒有專心看這個新聞,她又是什麼樣的表情。169Please respect copyright.PENANAlfpcrbt3TZ
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我只知道自己看完這則新聞,總會不時想著:『所以沒有愛情也沒有關係嗎?』169Please respect copyright.PENANAbVfrEuBFRL
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然後,十五歲的我從國中畢業了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAIj9q6nucBg
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媽媽主動問:「畢業典禮要我們出席?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA348ItO8KsP
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我說:「只是領畢業證書,你們不必來浪費時間。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAsBSzleoI5N
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我是真的這樣想,不想浪費大家的時間。169Please respect copyright.PENANAwqo2TjoUz7
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不過當年二十六歲的姊姊還是來學校,在校門口等我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAIaDvH2mjey
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畢業典禮結束,我們一群畢業生被老師和學弟妹們歡送出校門,遠遠就能聽見熟悉的規律馬蹄三拍。169Please respect copyright.PENANABgF5ICgE4b
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幾名從國小認識到現在的同學,因為他們都認識姊姊,所以已經圍著姊姊聊天。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJL849u8So6
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我萬分意外的跑上去:「姊姊?妳怎麼來學校?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA2AvMAbGHbL
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姊姊:「過來載你。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAAhIVuNlRe1
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我:「為什麼忽然要來載我?要去兜風?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAV1eyQAUA51
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頗感意外,因為姊姊對於騎車的事情總是興趣缺缺,只有我主動找姊姊載我出門,沒有姊姊找我出門。169Please respect copyright.PENANABZQfQCV0oR
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由此可知姊姊對我多好,總是對於我的騎車兜風要求百求百應。169Please respect copyright.PENANA4g0MyEHYtw
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畢竟姊姊真的可以不必這樣,就是把我丟著不管也不能怪她……169Please respect copyright.PENANAlv5xdRhJLQ
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姊姊:「今天早上阿公已經回家。說要在餐廳慶祝你國中畢業,所以讓我來接你。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAvKJC03ydTv
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我這才瞭解:「喔……」169Please respect copyright.PENANA97MBFJ07Rh
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所以是想要給我驚喜的慶祝聚餐吧。169Please respect copyright.PENANA04mgQen4XR
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的確很像是疼我的阿公會做的事情。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1eQVzvntNT
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然後我簡單跟這幾名老同學道別,讓姊姊載走。169Please respect copyright.PENANADFD5HszUAr
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進入大餐廳的停車場之後,發現阿公個人專用的賓士已經停在裡面。169Please respect copyright.PENANArC3hg86qoU
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和姊姊一起進入餐廳的大包廂,果然阿公、阿媽和爸爸媽媽都在。
我又一次意外:「爸爸?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAdgJld4Tgcj
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因為工作的關係,所以阿公和爸爸很少同時間回家休息。169Please respect copyright.PENANA7kc3DlWnnw
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會像這樣一起出現,往往都是什麼大事,像是發現我去跟飆車族。169Please respect copyright.PENANA9Emx9X4w0F
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所以我小抱怨起來:「不過是畢業,又不是什麼重要大事,搞的好像很重要一樣……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAERrb7si98o
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阿公笑容滿面,告訴我和姊姊:「是要談很重要的事情。你們先坐,再來談重要的大事。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAgl0brMt28a
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我第三次意外:「真的有大事?什麼事?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAqjOVJ0C6AS
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阿公:「先坐。開始吃再說。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAMWZZ3SwN2j
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於是我看姊姊一眼,想瞭解情況。169Please respect copyright.PENANAFS97ipfnUm
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姊姊也一臉茫然,不清楚情況。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1l1ake5B97
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我只好和姊姊坐一起。169Please respect copyright.PENANANMJau7BQHe
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大家給自己倒綠茶飲料,然後拿起碗筷開動。169Please respect copyright.PENANAZg0HRo8B2K
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吃過幾口,阿公先說:「阿弟,你也要十六歲了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJUNHpYPaZy
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我說:「還有二個月。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAEVcftXbIXz
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阿公:「今天大家來吃飯,也算是先慶祝你十六歲生日。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0Hh9pkMUWo
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我說:「喔……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAoNqvX9X9Yx
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這樣我還是不瞭解算是什麼大事。169Please respect copyright.PENANAyCCtl8SoEO
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阿公:「阿公和阿媽本來還有生另外四個男孩。但是他們都命不好,還是孩子就夭折,我和阿媽只剩下你的爸爸。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAAFdaAjxdwo
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我邊吃邊說:「這件事我聽媽媽說過,本來還有二個大伯和二個叔叔。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1NG13BCSXA
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阿公:「然後你的爸媽生下你之後,就沒有再生……」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0oXQl7FyQ4
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爸爸趕緊開口,明顯要為媽媽和自己辯護:「爸,我和阿素---」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwT7SjRTCcH
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阿公伸手制止爸爸說下去,並且表示沒有關係。169Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZzWapn5cD
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爸爸發現阿公不是要怪他們,因此索性閉嘴。169Please respect copyright.PENANAtRYv61JRLS
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阿公繼續對我說:「現在我們黃家只剩下你,你有讓黃家開枝散葉的責任。現在我們黃家缺的不是錢,缺的是興旺的人丁。知道嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAaAoA1X4yX6
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我專心看著阿公。169Please respect copyright.PENANAXf9T4utqdL
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因為我知道阿公一定想說什麼,只是我還聽不出來。169Please respect copyright.PENANAWcLnBh6TPD
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阿公:「我們黃家人一向早婚,最遲也會在二十歲結婚。早婚有早婚的好處,可以早一點把黃家傳下去,並且多生一點傳承的人丁出來。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA24tVkylJ88
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我稍微有點知道阿公到底想說什麼,不過還是安靜看著阿公。169Please respect copyright.PENANAqkAnGqjnhl
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阿公:「不管政府怎麼規定,在我們黃家男孩十六歲就是成年,可以結婚了。當年我和你的阿媽就是十六歲成親,十七歲生下你的第一個大伯。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAu6J5KJhWID
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我的心情沉重起來:「所以?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA89UbAeQWNA
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阿公沒有回答我,看向坐我身邊的姊姊,直接喊她的名字:「林花,妳來黄家已經九年了?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAtxy27V0Cnf
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我身邊的姊姊,表情平靜:「對。」169Please respect copyright.PENANArAwUQdbH1R
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阿公直說:「這九年來,我看妳和阿弟的感情一直很好,也為我們黃家和阿弟奉獻那麼多……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAC4Ql5VQWTM
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姊姊安靜聽著:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANALIRthK6K2j
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阿公直說:「如果阿弟是要娶其他女孩進來黄家,阿公真的會猶豫,因為需要時間觀察和瞭解對方。不過如果是妳,阿公可以放心讓妳成為黃家的媳婦。再說也只有妳才能完全管好阿弟,其他女孩就不知道會怎麼樣了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA80D9dUCZdi
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姊姊依然沒有半句話。169Please respect copyright.PENANAPMRQWpilD4
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我則是終於完全瞭解,為什麼今天阿公和爸爸都會在場。169Please respect copyright.PENANAEMFkCxDUGZ
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阿公想把我和姊姊的事情說出一個定論。169Please respect copyright.PENANADlamBSOhpf
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因此我不只訝異,心情更是緊張起來。169Please respect copyright.PENANARxbgO7lmtH
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我再次開始自問:『我和姊姊又沒有男女的愛情,真的可以嗎?』169Please respect copyright.PENANAUwLUbYhU4x
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阿公問姊姊:「我們黃家不敢說是什麼大戶人家,不過我們黃家的財力妳一定很清楚。好的時候每個月百萬百萬的在賺,差的時候也有二三十萬,不是一般家庭比的起。所以這件事妳覺得怎麼樣?妳要不要乾脆正式嫁進黃家,給黃家生孩子?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAaewhWbUe1p
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姊姊:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJbxg2x20K0
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阿公:「女人年過三十會越來越難生,真的就是那樣。妳今年已經二十七,不年輕,不能再猶豫。接不接受真的要立刻決定。如果妳不想正式嫁入黃家,也是時候快點開始新人生,才不會耽誤到妳自己。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA5iQsFm2bly
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所以阿公是想說,如果阿姐不打算正式和我結婚生子,就應該早點另外找好對象,對姊姊才是最好的選擇。169Please respect copyright.PENANAjJscG9OfR8
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我擔心的:「阿公,你不要這樣逼姊姊……」169Please respect copyright.PENANADgfrDLKk6P
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阿公趁勢:「你看,這個孩子打心底擔心妳,保護妳。我們黃家有錢,還有像這樣護著你的阿弟。妳難道真的還會有什麼不滿?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAGvsPv2qVLu
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姊姊:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAHHHcLN5Oai
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我:「阿公。不要這樣逼姊姊啦。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAx8fW0kJxjW
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阿公轉移目標向我:「那你又怎麼想?十六歲成年的你,要不要正式娶這個從小辛苦照顧你長大的姊姊?剛才阿公已經說過,黃家只剩下你,所以你越早傳承下去越好。要是再拖下去,姊姊真的不年輕了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAA70R2TFQdm
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我:「可是結婚這種事,要彼此喜歡啊。我和姊姊就像姊姊和弟弟那樣,沒有愛情,要怎麼一起生活?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAgUJLQ48E8Y
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阿公:「傻孫子。你認為人們結婚之後,過的是什麼樣的生活?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA3BNpD9PIvD
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我不太懂阿公到底想說什麼,所以安靜看著阿公。169Please respect copyright.PENANAxZV4pogbd7
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阿公:「你和姊姊的關係,在阿公來看,已經和一般的老夫老妻差不多。所以阿公才會直接在今天問你們這件婚事。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAHBKOI5Z5QS
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我:「可是我們連戀愛都沒有啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA5LGOrt08Lm
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阿公看向爸爸:「阿忠,你說,我們怎麼看這件事?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAnu26JvzQJ9
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我這才知道,阿公和爸爸竟然已經議論過我和姊姊的事情。169Please respect copyright.PENANAu2jpknpj7G
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爸爸告訴我:「阿公和爸爸都覺得,你和姊姊已經跳過戀愛那個階段。所以爸爸也覺得,今天是應該讓阿公問你和姊姊的事。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA839ILEdN8r
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我真是深感不解:「跳過?想要結婚怎麼可以跳過戀愛?沒有戀愛就結婚,那樣不是會有很多問題?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0HhphsvyWB
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爸爸解釋:「爸爸知道你年輕,所以無法立刻聽懂。戀愛從來不是為了保障婚姻一切順利。戀愛只是其中一條走向婚姻的道路。婚姻會不會有問題,從來都是看有沒有辦法長時間認真對待對方,願意和對方長時間在一起。而你和姊姊的相處,看起來完全沒有問題。所以你們如果正式結婚,不過是把名義上的姊弟轉變成為具有實際關係的夫妻。這樣你懂嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANArcSSjeSFKx
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阿公也說:「接著阿公要說的話,是因為阿公已經把你當十六歲的大人看待才會說。一定要戀愛才能結婚那種事,是涉世未深的孩子才會說。真正出過社會的大人都是看對眼就好,沒有那麼多什麼戀不戀愛的。這樣你懂嗎?所以阿公看你和姊姊的相處絕對可以,不會有問題,才會在今天直接提出這件事。」169Please respect copyright.PENANANPD3eqfluz
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爸爸繼續補充說下去:「再說,先結婚再戀愛的例子,爸爸也算見過不少。所以你們二個怎麼想這件事?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0peMNOV3QR
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我說不出半句話:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAyHtQv5mxpV
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因為他們這樣說,讓我忽然間懂了些什麼。169Please respect copyright.PENANANo7BTDfxdy
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讓我受到一定程度的震撼。169Please respect copyright.PENANA4wioAvBPG3
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並且開始瞭解,那晚看電視新聞,為什麼男女關係專家會說:『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半?』169Please respect copyright.PENANAgX0giM07JV
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姊姊安靜和我一樣:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJpWsFHa4V9
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換阿公問姊姊:「林花,比起阿弟,妳絕對是個更懂世事的大人。剛才我們告訴阿弟的這些話,妳覺得有沒有說錯?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAQpx6kVmBas
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姊姊對於那些看法的回答,真的可以相當程度看出姊姊的心思。169Please respect copyright.PENANAG0Bqlx2fmo
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因此阿公絕對是故意問姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANACz5SLbwe0Q
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姊姊沉默:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANABhclHrCS4G
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阿公:「林花,妳放心的說。妳也已經跟著黃家奉獻九年。不論怎樣的答案,我們都絕對不會虧待妳。否則就是黃家無情,對不起妳。」169Please respect copyright.PENANALYayNLoNs6
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阿公一定是想說:就算姊姊不答應這場婚事,最後因為尷尬想要離開黃家,也一定會給姊姊一大筆補償的錢。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7cp5GVz0B
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姊姊終於說:「我覺得---」169Please respect copyright.PENANAeCzmmJFyOa
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說到這裡,姊姊欲言又止,安靜打住。169Please respect copyright.PENANAYUY2u4SVPZ
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大家都安靜看著姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAC2pxYK9x5l
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尤其是我,心臟碰碰跳到自己都能聽見……169Please respect copyright.PENANAwTRXMpGY1H
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姊姊幾秒的沉默:「對於阿弟,我真的年紀太大。還是年紀相近的女孩才是阿弟的好對象。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAGMjdBlkfuM
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大家沉默。169Please respect copyright.PENANA4OTFfVHO12
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我更是如遭重擊,因為姊姊拒絕了。169Please respect copyright.PENANA7fqqvZJMiB
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果然,我們終究只是姊姊和弟弟。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMFC14UQDoY
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所以姊姊為了避免尷尬,應該不久之後就會離開黃家,和其他男人在一起?169Please respect copyright.PENANAXpmPSysdfi
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阿公開口,語氣平淡,微帶遲疑:「是這樣啊?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAx0GoXlxyTg
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然後,阿公拿起自己的茶杯,喝口茶。169Please respect copyright.PENANAd0Rf9miFvw
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姊姊繼續說下去:「再說,阿弟剛才已經表示他並不喜歡我。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAUzMuK9gVnI
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沒有錯,我的確已經透過自己的疑問,表示自己對於姊姊沒有愛情存在。169Please respect copyright.PENANAtEWDYzJhBr
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不過母子連心,媽媽一定有體會到我的心情:「阿弟,快把你的真正心意告訴大家。」169Please respect copyright.PENANArmRmPvUCiw
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我還在姊姊拒絕婚事的不知所措中:「我……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAOl5d4puKED
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媽媽:「如果你喜歡姊姊,直接說出來,不然姊姊真的會離開喔。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzdRruNSBh9
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我不希望姊姊離開:「我喜歡姊姊!當然我喜歡啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAKrlqm10eJ3
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媽媽:「你願意跟姊姊結婚?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAyoIlerf0Rz
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我:「我……」169Please respect copyright.PENANADTJYk55tDb
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媽媽:「不願意?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAOOhsGXPc7f
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瞬間,我幾乎想問:『不可以讓姊姊繼續留在家裡?』169Please respect copyright.PENANA651XILv7Y0
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但是我又想到,這樣問不就表示我要拒絕婚事?169Please respect copyright.PENANAWEMmtsXFix
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並且繼續把姊姊綁在家裡,限制她的人生和幸福?169Please respect copyright.PENANAbiJWcZJAjo
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這樣的我,難道不是很自私?169Please respect copyright.PENANAl7z1H5YGUu
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再說,如果姊姊住在黃家,卻又另外交起男朋友,我能接受那樣的情況嗎?169Please respect copyright.PENANA8qNP7ROazD
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所以我說:「我不知道……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwRuIRM0j8h
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爸爸問:「你怎麼會不知道?你是想要拒絕這件事,還是你真的不知道?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAYwyNlsBi8G
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我:「我真的不知道。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAEsneQL4QnA
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爸爸問出真正的重點:「你不需要管那些戀愛什麼的。你只需要說出來,你願不願意和姊姊結婚?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAKiYpVz4qoT
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我:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAbZGNTDe9tu
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爸爸:「不願意?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAG7MDBOCK1h
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媽媽:「如果你願意和姊姊結婚,這是唯一的好機會。因為媽媽整天看著你和姊姊的相處,知道只有你能留下姊姊。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA3Rp75oq8R9
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我被問急,乾脆直說:「剛才姊姊說的,你們是沒有聽到嗎!讓姊姊勉強留下來,到底是有什麼意義啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA5uV3rU5ZsA
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媽媽:「所以如果姊姊其實願意這件事,你就也願意和姊姊正式結婚?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA7BK3qvdZyI
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我:「姊姊都拒絕了啊!一直問到底是有什麼意義!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAXdtNPhEXIa
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媽媽:「可是媽媽看你們,總覺得是誤會……」169Please respect copyright.PENANANS5OEY9WUj
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我被媽媽這些話給說愣好幾秒。169Please respect copyright.PENANAlFCb1gmUHW
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如果姊姊其實是願意,我願意嗎?169Please respect copyright.PENANA2sfaG0jOMU
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但是,可能嗎?169Please respect copyright.PENANAkplFx968fr
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剛才姊姊不是已經拒絕我?169Please respect copyright.PENANABVLR5c8pEd
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尤其是,阿公竟然也說:「我也覺得剛才我是問錯方向了……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAirwabm86AS
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我:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAk3r0XbjN7u
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媽媽轉而問姊姊:「我雖然是阿弟的親生母親,不過我終究只大妳八歲,這九年來我一直把妳當成妹妹,相信妳一定知道。雖然剛才聽妳那樣說,不過我覺得自己沒有聽到妳真正的內心話。妳真正的心意到底是什麼?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwZ828gMNxf
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姊姊安靜:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAdp3G3aoqIU
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媽媽:「大家日夜生活九年,真的就像無話不說的家人一樣。所以請妳任何話都直接說沒有關係。如果妳真的沒有那個意思,也請妳不要拐彎抹角,直接說。至少大家不會有誤會,阿弟也不會一直有遺憾和猜想。因為阿弟剛才說的那些,絕對知道感情無法勉強。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzJBDQ3BT50
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姊姊:「其實我……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAlnuKUdUnBD
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媽媽:「是的?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAIkam65pzUk
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姊姊慢慢低下頭:「我剛才那樣說,因為我以為阿弟對我沒有愛情,沒有辦法接受我……如果阿弟真的沒有辦法接受我,我能夠瞭解,絕對沒有關係,有必要的話我可以離開黃家。剛才我是想說那些。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAnVvtKMkSTc
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媽媽:「所以的確是誤會了?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAqjhyDSiEtt
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姊姊:「九年來,我真的已經覺得自己是黃家人,而不是我出生的林家人了……」169Please respect copyright.PENANALlXCjFDjRC
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媽媽催促:「繼續把妳的心意說下去。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAv4WujLTpMM
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姊姊靦腆說著:「這件事情,我其實都看黃家的意思……」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0B6Uh7182o
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持續幾秒的安靜。169Please respect copyright.PENANAHvqqtCZwyh
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對我來說,姊姊根本是在說:『正式娶我,讓我成為真正的黃家媳婦吧。』169Please respect copyright.PENANAOcuENXV5ik
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我吃驚又意外的完全不知道該說什麼。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8YDFi9rVk1
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媽媽喜悅打破沉默:「阿弟!媽媽就知道,果然是誤會!快點!跟姊姊說,你想要跟姊姊正式結婚啊!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAc7d5YK03Q1
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我難以置信的,轉頭看著身邊低頭的姊姊:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAt2TevJeyfx
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媽媽:「快點跟姊姊說,你想跟姊姊結婚!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA9qnq6tyXj4
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我終於開口:「姊姊……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAG8rclKQgpF
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姊姊依然靦腆低頭:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1MoOKD1P9s
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我:「妳真的不會勉強和我結婚?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAM3LIMeTaUm
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姊姊微微向我轉頭:「你才不會勉強正式娶姊姊吧?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAXSUEFqSADu
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我趕緊說:「我是不會!但是!但是……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAWCa6Az2j8p
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媽媽趕緊代姊姊詢問:「但是?」169Please respect copyright.PENANANu55M1sUpR
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我:「我比姊姊還要小十一歲,現在也才這麼小,才要十六歲,姊姊真的不會討厭和我正式結婚?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1NjOsZyDfH
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姊姊終於完全轉過頭,正面看著我,靦腆微笑:「我已經習慣整天看著像個孩子需要照顧的你。所以你比起擔心姊姊,不如先擔心自己更像個孩子,都這麼大了竟然還需要姊姊一直看著照顧。你先擔心自己什麼時候才會完全長大吧。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAsY74Vy6Ypl
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我難掩喜悅和感動:「姊姊……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAb0QeXh6pDG
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姊姊繼續說:「再說姊姊早就已經把我的所有青春歲月奉獻給了你,奉獻給了你們黃家……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzKhzcxfIZg
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我:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAmUZVk49hqW
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姊姊:「所以姊姊更擔心的是,你真的願意和姊姊結婚?就算沒有和姊姊談過戀愛?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA4B7VF7GFaP
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爸爸在我回答之前,趕緊告訴我:「你不要想那麼多了,先把姊姊留住比較重要!真的也有不少人先結婚再戀愛,知道嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAMdAqbwyDVZ
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我當然說:「我願意!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1GRnP0peTA
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話都說到這裡,關於戀愛結婚的事情我決定先聽爸爸的話,暫時不管它了。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8gU66mPnd4
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畢竟不論怎麼說,姊姊自己也願意和我正式在一起,然後姊姊都不會再離開我的身邊!169Please respect copyright.PENANA49rSJaAUaN
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所以我還需要懷疑什麼?169Please respect copyright.PENANANrFsTMMAyI
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姊姊:「以後你還是要乖乖聽姊姊的話,有沒有聽到?不然姊姊會生氣。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAEKDJEgLaYO
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我說:「好!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA9WSJh4G8yc
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姊姊:「一定要繼續聽話喔?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA12uFvMVkO5
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我說:「我一定會聽話!」169Please respect copyright.PENANANKizHa456H
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阿公知道真的說成這件事,笑到合不攏嘴,用台語說:「我就知道這件事一定說的成!聽某嘴,大富貴!我們黃家準備大富大貴啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAtXgF0rfCFm
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阿媽雖然同樣喜悅,但還是趁機取笑阿公:「我說的話,你就有聽啊?難怪你只能賺那麼一點!」169Please respect copyright.PENANArN6Ztr2fTP
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阿公:「阿忠!快!讓餐廳送幾瓶好酒來!今天真的大喜,一定要好好慶祝一下!哈哈哈哈------」169Please respect copyright.PENANAIPf90iLLyH
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大家都為我和姊姊開心不已。169Please respect copyright.PENANA0mfPDFQ22N
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我和姊姊彼此尷尬難為情好一會,沒有交談,不過還是自然的迅速要好起來,像以前那樣親密的無話不談。169Please respect copyright.PENANAU01EcIPwjD
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甚至於,感覺自己跟姊姊好像真的更加親密了。169Please respect copyright.PENANALgPjev1zjP
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所以過去幾年最困擾我的問題:『我和姊姊沒有經歷過愛情,如果真的要在一起,我應該怎麼面對姊姊?』169Please respect copyright.PENANA2wnull363L
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現在我已經完全知道應該怎麼面對。169Please respect copyright.PENANAr7C6GIouI1
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答案正是:『根本沒有必要去煩惱這個問題。』169Please respect copyright.PENANAifDbJpkP0G
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我和姊姊的親密感情,不會改變。169Please respect copyright.PENANASFUq05ofl6
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我們九年來的感情,的確已經是跨越戀愛的家族親情。169Please respect copyright.PENANA5TtfF6oa1I
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阿公他們做的,真的不過是讓我們完全湊在一起。169Please respect copyright.PENANA41xMWwoAcR
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就這樣,我和姊姊終於決定正式成親了……169Please respect copyright.PENANA2uI8dWTg2w
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因為七歲的時候我和姊姊已經舉行過正式婚禮,所以在我十六歲生日那天家裡簡單準備三牲五果,讓我和姊姊一起祭拜黃家祖先,告訴祖先我已經成年,現在要和姊姊真正成親。169Please respect copyright.PENANAX4o25dVI4o
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阿公想要早點抱到黃家下一代大孫,加上擔心姊姊再拖下去會成為年過三十的高齡產婦,所以一直明示暗喻的希望我和姊姊快點完成好事。169Please respect copyright.PENANAB3zYihD4xg
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就在我入讀高中的前一天,正好是月底發下個月零用錢的時候。169Please respect copyright.PENANAFuVZaMnwvG
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掌管全家金錢的阿公回家休息,順便把我和姊姊叫到客廳。169Please respect copyright.PENANAXkLecas8DY
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阿公先是對姊姊說:「今天開始,家裡不會給妳每個月五千元的零用錢。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA8ciPvhhiG7
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姊姊安靜聽著,沒有一句話。169Please respect copyright.PENANAQonjnNvtWj
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我意外:「不給姊姊零用錢?為什麼?姊姊有做錯什麼?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAcWl2mpv8kZ
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阿公從胸前口袋拿出二張名片般的塑膠卡片:「來,這個給你們夫妻。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAnfZ6Qar8hF
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我和姊姊安靜接過,都是一樣的信用卡。169Please respect copyright.PENANAdyi9ZwjhZa
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阿公:「那二張卡是同帳戶的對卡,每個月最多可以刷二萬元,也可以提領小額現金出來。你們省著點用,學會節儉才是真正的持家之本。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAeDaNKsxxbf
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我這才知道,姊姊不是做錯事,是因為我們的夫妻身份一起升級了。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1ZsFPj7suC
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並且阿公可以透過每個月寄來的刷卡帳單,瞭解我們的支出詳細,必要時對我們進行相關詢問。169Please respect copyright.PENANA93yj3ckTXw
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姊姊:「謝謝阿公。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAaLZp8Ml3M5
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我也說:「謝謝阿公。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA9Cmfi18wEv
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接著阿公拿起茶杯,順便無聲示意要我們繼續留下,所以我和姊姊只能乖乖坐著等待。169Please respect copyright.PENANAGq3xGQiLEa
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阿公喝口茶,開口詢問:「你們到底是怎麼回事?都正式拜過祖先,卻還是一直分房睡?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJGMUkS6Y6Q
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我趕緊說:「沒有啦。只是覺得暫時這樣比較好。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAogAiQxwGH2
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阿公:「那一天阿公已經和你說的很清楚,姊姊已經這個歲數。另外我們黃家缺的不是錢,缺的是興旺起來的人丁。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAtKilduUKL2
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我:「我知道。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJQvP7aAMcq
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阿公當著姊姊的面,直接問我:「那件事你會覺得不好意思是不是?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0LeLc0mwbm
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我趕緊說:「因為我才這個年紀,才要讀高中,真的覺得生孩子這件事---」169Please respect copyright.PENANAEMnzNJW3OA
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阿公冷冰冰的一段話頂來:「孩子是會讓你負責帶?你在學校不說又會有誰知道?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAwQSCS8QK2S
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畢竟是在鄰鎮,也都是些不認識的外地同學……169Please respect copyright.PENANAgnMWlh2Rrx
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再說,孩子必定是會由阿媽、媽媽和姊姊養育,就像小時候的我一樣。169Please respect copyright.PENANAKkgtW3N2d4
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我無話可答:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAIangR0YIZr
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阿公:「明年你十七歲。阿公十七歲的時候,生下已經無緣孝順我和阿媽的大伯。你要給阿公拖到幾歲?再說,你和姊姊像這樣獨睡,男人不男人,女人不女人,陰陽怪氣的不健康,真的好嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAPGsid6Re75
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我:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANASYC6Jcwtf2
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阿公:「這件事,你到底想要怎麼回答阿公?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAT7Qd1jSM4e
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以前阿公疼我,所以都是溫溫和和。169Please respect copyright.PENANAYWmK2sMTv6
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現在,我真的感覺到來自阿公的魄力和壓力。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8YggLctkoc
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我深深體會,這件事不給阿公交待,阿公絕對不會放過我。169Please respect copyright.PENANACk5VQHSe6x
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相信爸爸和媽媽一定也有承受過這樣的壓力。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhStsVyE1gG
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不過我和姊姊還是沒有進一步發展,依然維持以前的分房生活。169Please respect copyright.PENANAMenvKKu85g
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主要是我知道自己還只是高中生,加上心情沒有整理好……169Please respect copyright.PENANAKLg8Zvysep
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我和姊姊就這樣繼續一天拖過一天,過著『有名無實的夫妻生活』。169Please respect copyright.PENANANEphSIjk2Z
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阿公也『有嘴說到沒口水』,只能唉聲不斷……169Please respect copyright.PENANAS7w33bA4qH
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事情再次出現變化,是在我讀高中二年級那一年,十七歲的聖誕夜。169Please respect copyright.PENANA01wDbKKnFP
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姊姊騎車載我進行長途旅行,從南部老家前往台北市參加聖誕夜晚會。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmboqXgmPAE
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熱鬧的聖誕晚會結束之後,又前往入住的國際級大飯店,參加飯店收費舉辦的跨夜晚會。169Please respect copyright.PENANAw2UHjNTSOr
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非常熱鬧,很多人都聚在一起唱歌、跳舞、吃大餐。169Please respect copyright.PENANA2k32h286cu
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甚至有熱情的情侶當場擁抱熱吻。169Please respect copyright.PENANAqLkSw06ZmN
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我和姊姊也在人群中和大家一起開心。169Please respect copyright.PENANATMJERdLUJw
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因為飯店有提供一種雞尾酒,喝起來又甜又清爽,很接近摻糖的乳酸菌飲料口感,一點都不像是酒類。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJjYSdYKYTO
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我和姊姊開心的一起喝多。169Please respect copyright.PENANAcntcWm1HXg
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然後就……你懂……169Please respect copyright.PENANAIlKEFHMKL1
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我和姊姊都只有一點點記憶,不記得是怎麼開始,只記得是一個充滿溫暖笑聲的愉快自然夜晚。169Please respect copyright.PENANAbOB7MGmWqN
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大量酒精真的徹底解放我們的心。169Please respect copyright.PENANApZZyr2TIyG
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隔天中午,我們在姊姊的房間清醒,當時你說有多尷尬就多尷尬,完全不知道要跟對方說什麼。169Please respect copyright.PENANAOdNbtrau2W
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一直到整理好行李退房,騎著哈雷回程南下,我照樣摟著姊姊的細腰,我們才又開始談話。169Please respect copyright.PENANAjTrdFCUMwb
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迅速恢復以前的親密感。169Please respect copyright.PENANA4Gdkjnq3aO
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甚至於感覺更加的親密。169Please respect copyright.PENANAyqEl3CIViT
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我們都沒有問:怎麼辦?169Please respect copyright.PENANA39y2PDN6xq
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姊姊和我都知道,正式拜過祖先報告了,真的也不需要怎麼辦。169Please respect copyright.PENANA7oudz0OvAg
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就這樣自自然然的一起面對這件事吧。169Please respect copyright.PENANA3p7f3Ni9ML
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不過回家之後,我們還是什麼都沒有跟家人說。169Please respect copyright.PENANAAXI3pW7ouv
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畢竟覺得這樣的私事,加上是意外,不需要特意去說。169Please respect copyright.PENANAU1jX6NEmhQ
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我和姊姊繼續分房,恢復以往那樣的生活,像是什麼都沒有發生過。169Please respect copyright.PENANApMCUxHSCP9
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直到一個多月後的農曆除夕,全家六人一起圍爐吃團夜飯。169Please respect copyright.PENANAnhd6G6btsO
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大圓桌上面各式菜色都有,非常豐盛。169Please respect copyright.PENANAQXqDPWIIE5
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大家開動之後,阿公拿出一瓶高級洋酒,開瓶給大家倒一杯。169Please respect copyright.PENANAGgOX5knJ4x
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阿公說:「大家喝杯迎春酒。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA05GSkgytJC
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姊姊忽然說:「我不能喝酒。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAgonSfJ5qWr
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媽媽一向把姊姊當妹妹對待,關心詢問:「腸胃不舒服?」169Please respect copyright.PENANANh9ufZaUb5
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姊姊沉默幾秒,才尷尬說出:「我有了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAp9tfN6hNh5
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大家:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAECW8GOzQ2d
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我相信,大家一定都聽出來姊姊說的是什麼。169Please respect copyright.PENANAlMW5Mv4wOe
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我受到的震撼更是深。169Please respect copyright.PENANAkCMSgeigtK
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我一直在心中問:『聖誕夜那一晚?姊姊真的有了?』169Please respect copyright.PENANAtCxaczAhTS
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畢竟我和姊姊也只有那一晚。169Please respect copyright.PENANArYKtGPxCpS
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媽媽緊張的進行最後確認:「妳有了什麼?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAkvlRH11JQX
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姊姊:「孩子。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJbu0thN7kJ
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媽媽:「真的有了?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAUUtjO3krLz
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姊姊:「嗯……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAh6qjU9LXcU
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阿公認真直問:「誰的?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAsQkNL0c8Wy
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我可以瞭解阿公為什麼這樣追問。169Please respect copyright.PENANAnam9ejDVkt
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因為我和姊姊跟以前的相處都一樣,沒有變化。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmuMR3fSlAy
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如果我是阿公,一定也會半信半疑的追問確認,避免誤會……169Please respect copyright.PENANA2Xde1Qcy2l
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姊姊安靜幾秒,露出尷尬笑容:「去問你的寶貝孫子。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAbEg3Qn0H0C
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阿媽驚喜的:「唉呀------」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJNkqIKEGKq
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阿公等待這天一年以上,同樣喜悅的:「哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈---」169Please respect copyright.PENANAYTztqVm1iD
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爸爸直接伸手,開心萬分的在我頭上亂抓:「臭小子!看看你!真的讓爸爸我當阿公啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAP9tPkzOSuB
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媽媽則是出於好奇,一邊喜悅一邊問:「怎麼回事?看你們平時在家裡都一樣啊?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAHJnejtPT6n
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爸爸笑著說:「你管他們夫妻那麼多?是妳的金孫就好啦!」169Please respect copyright.PENANA6sxjCzivHG
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我讓二十八歲的姊姊懷孕,家裡肯定沒有人料想的到這麼快。169Please respect copyright.PENANA9qew8e0nSo
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阿公感動萬分:「這麼說,今年的團圓飯,我們黄家已經是七人同桌?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAMIjhDNjXR7
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阿媽心花怒放:「明年團圓飯就能見到大金孫的面。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAK4HH9OJVff
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阿公:「快!把她那杯酒拿掉,換果汁!今晚大家好好的喝一杯!黃家真的要開始人丁興旺啦!乾杯---」169Please respect copyright.PENANA8MO0taAgnR
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所有人都拿起自己的杯:「乾杯---」169Please respect copyright.PENANAMyk1MkPmae
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今年的團圓飯充滿熱鬧歡笑聲。169Please respect copyright.PENANAFYgjXi8nUj
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他們都萬分期待姊姊的生產。169Please respect copyright.PENANASi7TJuAt6g
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二十八歲的姊姊頓時取代我,成為家裡最受寵的人。169Please respect copyright.PENANAU99Mcwtzae
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大家怕姊姊餓到,怕姊姊累到,怕姊姊生病,怕姊姊受傷,絕對不讓姊姊做事。169Please respect copyright.PENANAf2NA1NIVc2
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給姊姊吃的補品和山珍海味更是不必說,想吃什麼有什麼,多貴都會買回來。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJDC3q5oNnK
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至於我,依然和姊姊同樣分房睡,沒有因為姊姊懷孕而同房。169Please respect copyright.PENANASXJTckyGv9
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並且一天天看著姊姊的肚子變大,心情複雜的唯有死心接受事實。169Please respect copyright.PENANAZVXnLwXwIP
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就算我有意拖著,最後還是讓姊姊大肚子。169Please respect copyright.PENANAXQjrgsyAcb
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我真的只能說,早婚早生果然是黃家男性的命運……169Please respect copyright.PENANA5pfeWFfp8J
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升上高三之後,姊姊順利給黃家生下一個健康的白胖男孩,黃家的下一代繼承人。169Please respect copyright.PENANAUS9sqkTZYo
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十八歲的我成為一個嬰兒的爸爸,照阿公的意思把黃家傳承下去,我的高中同學都不知道這件事。169Please respect copyright.PENANACmKriDdD6m
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我和姊姊真的只有聖誕夜一起意外睡過那麼一次。169Please respect copyright.PENANAWHm6v2oA7R
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卻讓我們一起踏上人生下一個階段,成為一個孩子的父母。169Please respect copyright.PENANAGqplYStF53
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醫院私人病房內,我抱著自己和姊姊的長子,真是完全不知道應該用什麼樣的心情面對。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2Ik1OWcRW
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反觀其他人,抱著這個黃家下一代都是高興萬分。169Please respect copyright.PENANAEghqYHJjlq
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升格當阿祖的阿公,更是抱著黃家大金孫盡力疼愛,開心到合不攏嘴。169Please respect copyright.PENANANKLoww5aVg
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黃家最受寵的人,自然又從姊姊變成我們的孩子。169Please respect copyright.PENANAd79PXyG9Gm
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把孩子從醫院抱回家,黄家開始日夜可以聽到嬰兒哭聲。169Please respect copyright.PENANAch4drUVKdm
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阿媽、媽媽和姊姊輪流照顧。169Please respect copyright.PENANAYGJFXKHDOX
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房間的我,半夜睡覺更是被客廳傳來的啼哭聲吵醒好幾次。169Please respect copyright.PENANAbFRePXfykn
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我雖然聽的煩,還是心想:『反正不是我在帶孩子,就這樣吧……』169Please respect copyright.PENANAdDVwmaVwOY
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姊姊就此一邊照顧我們的孩子,一邊陪伴我。169Please respect copyright.PENANAl9Qyt8fwu1
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對姊姊來說,肯定像是有大小二個孩子需要看著……169Please respect copyright.PENANAM3a7AG8vDf
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隔年六月,我從高中畢業。169Please respect copyright.PENANAeZTEDPKjam
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雖然我有報考大學,但是我對於是否就讀大學有疑問。169Please respect copyright.PENANA6aa3S8UkfY
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另外,也是因為我覺得自己和姊姊的關係『該是時候了』。169Please respect copyright.PENANATfN8i4oo9n
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於是我把姊姊約出門兜風,表示有事想要和姊姊好好談談。169Please respect copyright.PENANAta9CVeah9Q
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黃家的大前院,阿媽和媽媽抱著大金孫,目送我們騎哈雷出門。169Please respect copyright.PENANAg5pRmXa8MZ
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姊姊邊騎哈雷邊問我:「你想找姊姊說什麼?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA5waujAEvtU
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我說:「妳覺得我不去讀大學好嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAyE5FOyJNhE
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姊姊:「你不想讀大學?」169Please respect copyright.PENANASqWHBmYYTp
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我:「我想跟阿公和爸爸一起出去工作。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAohfczwUKAf
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姊姊:「為什麼?你不是報考了?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA8XWwBFne4t
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我:「首先是我對於讀大學沒有什麼興趣。而且他們都沒有強迫我讀大學,讓我想讀就去讀。再來是因為我看著姊姊妳照顧小孩,越來越覺得自己應該跟著阿公爸爸去家裡的公司工作。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAJfU6d17CXM
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姊姊:「和他們說了?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA3xM69ywGUu
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我:「還沒。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAcbVL7cOrv9
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姊姊:「你沒有勉強自己工作吧?」169Please respect copyright.PENANASkuBwoLqO2
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我:「沒有。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAUhc6K0tlYF
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幾秒的沉默。169Please respect copyright.PENANAHV0IlIrZze
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姊姊終於說:「孩子的爸爸,加油喔。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA1aFTUpfafY
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我:「…………」169Please respect copyright.PENANAEQN42err9u
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姊姊:「怎麼了?還有什麼事想要說?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAdesPCUwbPO
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我安靜的,確定路上幾乎沒有人車,開始大起膽子移動雙手。169Please respect copyright.PENANAa5RPcrUWj3
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摟著姊姊細腰的雙手開始向上方移動,摸著姊姊豐滿的胸部。169Please respect copyright.PENANAQcPzMerqLJ
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真的好豐滿……169Please respect copyright.PENANALWFmltIUgz
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聖誕夜怎麼樣,我不記得了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAFof0lEjJAZ
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不過從小到大除非不小心碰到,否則我都沒有碰過姊姊的胸部。169Please respect copyright.PENANAPJtdVv1sl0
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姊姊安靜幾秒:「你的手?」169Please respect copyright.PENANA5T4gmstF8w
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我怕被罵,有點緊張:「姊姊,我在想,我都已經高中畢業,快要十九歲,也要去工作了……我們像以前那樣恢復同房好不好?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAqc56AEJKl2
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姊姊沉默的把哈雷騎進路邊的無人小巷,停在路邊,一定是避免被人看見我摸胸部。169Please respect copyright.PENANAssUrT7hudF
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我緊張不安:「姊姊,妳不願意嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAfciCRkZLil
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姊姊看出我很緊張:「都生下你的孩子了,你還在擔心什麼?只是孩子還是會在半夜哭吵,我會需要常常半夜出入,到時候一定會吵到你睡覺。」169Please respect copyright.PENANArh8uNHYPCH
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我:「喔……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAOZ1dx5s6a0
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姊姊再問:「另外,你的手……你是在跟姊姊求愛?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAqE1MAGPovI
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我終究是個年輕男性,當然會有慾望,會對那件事充滿興趣。169Please respect copyright.PENANAwlIdOBmikd
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一年多以前的聖誕夜,意外和姊姊發生關係,我就開始一直想著這件事:『反正都跟姊姊發生關係了……』169Please respect copyright.PENANAOt93WR463o
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簡單說:我想要再跟姊姊上床一次。169Please respect copyright.PENANAqcSRuNlYUz
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一直沒有再行動,的確因為覺得還是高中生,又害怕姊姊會反對抗拒,所以猶豫再三。169Please respect copyright.PENANAPFNZNykdBK
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然後,姊姊忽然在團圓飯宣告懷孕,讓我只能完全打消念頭,不敢碰姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAKBYh8skdtD
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不過現在,孩子已經出生,高中畢業,也要出社會工作了……169Please respect copyright.PENANADc7MLpSw66
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所以我緊張的用這種方式告訴姊姊:「反正我們都有孩子了?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAXvRxw0XMcF
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姊姊大方的說:「姊姊已經知道,放開手,衣服被妳弄濕了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAFH64OwURz2
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我:「衣服弄濕?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAzaeJOqhjmW
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姊姊:「忘記姊姊一直在給你的孩子餵母乳?你這樣抓,皮衣裡面的胸衣已經濕掉,感覺到涼涼的。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAfFNSdpQdSb
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我趕緊放手:「啊,對不起……」169Please respect copyright.PENANA8saXOerJf7
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姊姊:「找間汽車旅館清洗吧。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAeZa0OHqttt
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聽到姊姊這樣說,我鬆口大氣。169Please respect copyright.PENANAFZaNVUurs8
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因為不可能單純去汽車旅館。169Please respect copyright.PENANAiweo49CTGb
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姊姊明確的給綠燈。169Please respect copyright.PENANAFJ9s3xGmUA
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不愧是二十九歲的成年人,很大方的面對。169Please respect copyright.PENANAkZQ3tyokpJ
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也一定有想過我像這樣正式求愛的情況,才能反應的這麼迅速自然。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1xxrWLBWOc
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於是我像以前那樣重新摟著姊姊的腰。169Please respect copyright.PENANAiUXDqcriMm
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姊姊把哈雷騎回大路,載著我繼續走。169Please respect copyright.PENANAplQ7SrspWr
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又是一會的安靜。169Please respect copyright.PENANACZgOEAwE17
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姊姊忍不住嘻笑起來:「明明都已經是一個孩子的爸爸,卻還像個害羞的男孩呢,呵呵……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAkzOyDF93nM
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我只能說:「我會盡快長大啦。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0MGMbXACtj
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哈雷就此騎進路邊遇到的第一間汽車旅館。169Please respect copyright.PENANAmZfOaGS7HF
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正式拜過祖先的我們,一起開房間了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAc8YyhbVeK6
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明明身上帶有足夠現金,姊姊卻特意用阿公給的信用卡刷卡租房間。169Please respect copyright.PENANA62qYftw249
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哈雷停進一樓車庫,我和姊姊一起上二樓。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1zVXSmrRJh
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姊姊先去坐到電話旁邊,撥電話回家。169Please respect copyright.PENANACSetTpjsYP
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姊姊:「阿媽?我和阿弟正在一間叫做春田的汽車旅館,今天可能會晚點才回去……我知道夜路危險。如果太晚,我們明天再回去……孩子要拜託妳和媽媽照顧了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAFuoN3aIIcQ
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當時我看著姊姊電話回家,光明正大的跟阿媽報告正在汽車旅館,真的很訝異,不瞭解姊姊為什麼要通知家裡。169Please respect copyright.PENANACTzNQUnidd
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之後我慢慢想,才想懂姊姊的用意。169Please respect copyright.PENANAxJoZOL6vjk
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信用卡的帳單寄回給阿公,就會從刷卡明細知道我們去汽車旅館,避免阿公又追問起生孩子的事情。169Please respect copyright.PENANAV10ef8OEFg
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電話回家連絡阿媽和媽媽,是類似的道理。169Please respect copyright.PENANAofjRhWoLXK
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他們所有人就會明確的知道我和姊姊關係再次不同。169Please respect copyright.PENANAvLR8IRqC3Y
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這樣就算我和姊姊再次同房,或是比較親密的舉動,他們也不會太意外。169Please respect copyright.PENANAyb41QgR373
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所以二十九歲的姊姊真的是個成熟女性,知道怎麼好好的處理這些家務事。169Please respect copyright.PENANAS23aSx9nce
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那麼十八歲的我呢?什麼時候才會完全長大成熟?169Please respect copyright.PENANAEvxWBx9mzN
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不論如何,害羞的我和大大方方的姊姊、就在這間旅館度過生命中的第二次。169Please respect copyright.PENANAay2vBjanRW
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並且是完全清醒、沒有酒精作用的第二次。169Please respect copyright.PENANAs6ou9vZc1U
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在親密的笑聲中彼此試探摸索完成的第二次。169Please respect copyright.PENANAVtl43wmPTA
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我和姊姊就從這一天開始,成為真正擁有親密性生活的夫妻。169Please respect copyright.PENANAc6oIzWeibt
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我們之間,不再有任何心理障礙和隔閡了……169Please respect copyright.PENANAK9rrPnYHr8
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我果斷放棄大學。169Please respect copyright.PENANABmOujSlRYP
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正式出社會跟著阿公,讓阿公教我做生意的道理和訣竅。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJNBRSaFvsw
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平均四天回家休息二天,和守在家裡的姊姊團聚。169Please respect copyright.PENANALkjlgotjVD
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男人在外工作打拼,女人守在家裡照顧孩子,如此生活的確是我們黃家的寫照。169Please respect copyright.PENANAh2l2RViAbb
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只是,就算是家裡可以關上門的房間,和姊姊親熱我還是會覺得尷尬。169Please respect copyright.PENANA8F8jLEPeC7
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畢竟阿媽、媽媽總是在家裡,她們多少一定會察覺。169Please respect copyright.PENANAWbiNjjaDx4
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所以只要我說:「姊姊,我們騎車出門兜風?」一定會順便去汽車旅館刷信用卡報到。169Please respect copyright.PENANAplz1a2vaCi
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因此有我定時播種,姊姊很快又有了。169Please respect copyright.PENANAZn0zTxqJgY
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我二十歲那年,姊姊再次生下我們的第二個孩子,也是黃家的第二個大金孫。169Please respect copyright.PENANAgcIU5b5EoX
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我成為二個男孩的爸爸。169Please respect copyright.PENANARhGhizufIk
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阿公真是太滿意這樣的情況。169Please respect copyright.PENANAVpgq2XJVqx
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二個寶貝大金孫左擁右抱:「黃家的未來都靠你們這對寶貝兄弟了!」169Please respect copyright.PENANAuilUApkpKH
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甚至於,阿公特意把我和姊姊的信用卡金額上限調高,擺明要讓我們盡情去汽車旅館做人。
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我和姊姊也只能:「嗯……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAIEuAJiQXSy
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不過我還是和姊姊一起回到房間之後:「姊姊,雖然剛才阿公那樣說……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAhEN2nO0qdR
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姊姊沒有反對和討厭,只有淡淡回答:「我也已經三十一歲了。」169Please respect copyright.PENANA71SyA8lqjP
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我不明白姊姊的意思,所以看著姊姊。169Please respect copyright.PENANAB016GEeP4J
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姊姊微笑:「我的確像阿公說的,沒有幾年機會了……孩子的爸爸,加油喔。」169Please respect copyright.PENANACeZuGTQQMK
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姊姊都這樣說,我還能怎麼辦:「好吧……」169Please respect copyright.PENANAFNBDpNURiG
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就這樣,我和姊姊不多想,能生就生。169Please respect copyright.PENANAe4qAwDm0SC
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從我十七歲開始直到二十五歲的這八年,我和姊姊成為三男二女、總共五個孩子的父母。169Please respect copyright.PENANAxvVukanu1Q
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姊姊將近一半時間都在懷孕中度過。169Please respect copyright.PENANAz8dfXeK0Ka
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總是生產之後幾個月,肚子又開始隆起。169Please respect copyright.PENANAXsafzwnXE2
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為了一直給陸續出生的孩子餵奶,乳汁沒有中斷分泌。169Please respect copyright.PENANAUfJDRARR2g
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姊姊就這樣生到第五胎的三十六歲,踏入醫學上受孕機會低的高齡產婦年齡,肚皮才自然的不再有反應。169Please respect copyright.PENANALj4Dga8YdX
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至少給黃家增加人口這件事,阿公很滿意。169Please respect copyright.PENANARFHzHIttXj
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八年的時間,我和姊姊的確完成阿公的期望了……169Please respect copyright.PENANAybeg22lqZb
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現在,我二十八歲。169Please respect copyright.PENANAJi2bFLQlxc
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我和姊姊的長子十歲了。169Please respect copyright.PENANATEAmelsppD
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算是已經長大懂事,會開始好奇的想要瞭解更多世事。169Please respect copyright.PENANAhPrPA7fGf2
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他終於在我回家休息的這天,拉著弟弟妹妹問我:「爸爸,你為什麼都叫媽媽為姊姊?姊姊為什麼都叫你阿弟?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAGtA4jFMORA
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你認為,我應該怎麼回答孩子?169Please respect copyright.PENANAvdCdA2WiJR
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我當然說:「因為爸爸在七歲的時候就和十八歲的媽媽結婚,讓媽媽照顧到這麼大,當然要喊媽媽為姊姊,被媽媽喊阿弟。」169Please respect copyright.PENANAR5xpTqtrqk
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沒有錯,不論我幾歲,都覺得姊姊一直像對待小弟弟那樣照看我。169Please respect copyright.PENANA1jI1k4Njuf
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長子很困惑:「爸爸七歲,媽媽十八歲,結婚?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAaNbK5W69Sa
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我問他:「奇怪嗎?」169Please respect copyright.PENANAQoDoEqXxFk
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長子乖乖點頭。169Please respect copyright.PENANAsDg2pCur4z
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於是我開始把自己和姊姊的故事,說給我們的第一個長子聽。169Please respect copyright.PENANARoEXdh4yds
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讓他知道自己的爸爸媽媽到底是怎麼沒有經過戀愛,卻還是一直在一起……169Please respect copyright.PENANAljvNlshtcS
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那麼接下來我還能說什麼?169Please respect copyright.PENANALGeJf3ziO9
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我真的已經沒有太多可以說。169Please respect copyright.PENANA2gTLn0IrSd
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七歲病弱的我,娶十八歲的姊姊沖喜,讓姊姊親手照顧長大,再於十六歲的時候和姊姊正式結成連理,十八歲生下我們的長子,後續幾年再生下二男二女總共五個孩子。169Please respect copyright.PENANAKuokQAma4e
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十八歲為錢來到黃家的姊姊,本來想找機會逃跑,卻因為不忍心看還是個病弱孩子的我無助啼哭,開始接受我,日夜照顧我,漸漸的融入黃家的生活,最後給黃家生下五名重要的下一代。169Please respect copyright.PENANARsXvKVTIqS
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我們之間,一天天培養出來的深厚感情當然有,不過戀愛般的愛情絕對沒有……169Please respect copyright.PENANAjwYdcudcyv
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你也會覺得我和姊姊的夫妻關係真的奇怪?169Please respect copyright.PENANA8iZe40o99S
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年齡相差太多的男女,絕對不可能有未來?169Please respect copyright.PENANADZJccL2BEu
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我不知道你會怎麼想我和姐姐的事。169Please respect copyright.PENANApcUqWtJOBS
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我只知道自己和姊姊一路走來,覺得男女關係專家真的沒有說錯:169Please respect copyright.PENANAjPqucK8ZJV
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『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。169Please respect copyright.PENANANUsyUhtM5u
真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半?』169Please respect copyright.PENANAOcs8ae5y2o
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愛情真的像爸爸說的,只是通往婚姻的其中一條道路。169Please respect copyright.PENANA0BTMkY8GiV
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維持一段婚姻的從來不是愛情,永遠都是在於是否用心對待對方。169Please respect copyright.PENANAGqUHzjiPrF
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有心了,把對方當成自己的另一半照顧陪伴,自然能刻骨銘心,自然能長久。169Please respect copyright.PENANAIejLT81lbr
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這才是家族親情和婚姻的真諦。169Please respect copyright.PENANAlGsY9OrDO3
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因此我沒有什麼可以再說。169Please respect copyright.PENANAOjEdfFjEwh
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再說下去,恐怕就是那五隻兔崽子怎麼又吵又鬧又合作的興旺黃家的故事。169Please respect copyright.PENANA3Sc2AbXioc
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所以現在我唯有說:「這就是黃家屬於我和姊姊的故事了……」169Please respect copyright.PENANA0ScLYLpkfw
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