It's been about a year since I saw or heard from him, 
missing our child being born, missing her birthday, missing MY birthday, it felt like a nightmare I just wanted to wake up from and see my beloved laying beside me and smiling at me....but I knew that wouldnt happen,  did he get caught?   is he dead?   did he run out on us?   so many qustions ran through my mind...this was never like him......the only time he disapeared was when he was......normal.....