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鄧伊嵐親吻床伴的臉頰。648Please respect copyright.PENANAU7MJEeRNgL
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「以後唔見啦。」她淡定地說。648Please respect copyright.PENANAQcATQ9cMqn
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她不習慣長時期接觸一個不感興趣的男生,因為如此下去,必然會越來越依賴;原先只將身交付予對方,心更不能就此任意出走。這樣對大家都不好。648Please respect copyright.PENANAP4QSDo89H9
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何況,這種關係,多是沒有真心。648Please respect copyright.PENANAC6gJc76F6J
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有真心的話,除了兩情雙悅,否則只得一方沉淪,沒有人能進行救援,吐泡、窒息、發脹、腐爛,是必然的結局。648Please respect copyright.PENANAG7GFebIGVC
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有性無愛,是伊嵐自我慰藉的方法。648Please respect copyright.PENANAV2d6uZXZ7V
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她無法有愛無性——因為她愛的人不與她做愛,甚至對她無愛。648Please respect copyright.PENANATJbE9G5GEx
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伊嵐與阿行認識十二年,他們是小學同學。當時,他喜歡的女孩子是她的鄰座。648Please respect copyright.PENANAaOhRzBfyv9
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但她沒有助攻,只和他說:「佢鍾意班長!唔鍾意你,死心啦。」648Please respect copyright.PENANArolTyubV1O
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而伊嵐,已經喜歡阿行十二年了。648Please respect copyright.PENANAD4KZ1LEJTl
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楊念行摸摸宿舍附近的小貓,然後拍了拍手,行去上課。648Please respect copyright.PENANAayNL9wGLpL
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這個學期,他大部分課堂都回復面授形式;他便悠閒地在日光下,慢慢走上山。648Please respect copyright.PENANAr4p7Nfiezg
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張漫青快步走。她提前到了學校,便不想乘校巴,行上山更加能感受冬日的陽光;太陽並不猛烈,反而有些綿密的溫柔,這於她是好天氣。648Please respect copyright.PENANAQbdDEEZdeS
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然後,阿行看見了青青,或者說,他見到一個和她很相似的側臉、三七臉、背景。648Please respect copyright.PENANA6Uc58UndH3
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但他不打算行前一點拍她的肩。648Please respect copyright.PENANAiaVA6xOCgm
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她前晚的拒絕稍稍令他認為,也許她並不願與他再接觸;然後就是,他的自尊心也輕微受創。648Please respect copyright.PENANAQJ469yLJG2
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無論當晚聊得多麼好,下次見面都不知應否打招呼。648Please respect copyright.PENANAeGNjvT2ezc
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二人的路程一模一樣。648Please respect copyright.PENANA7E1Qx1PDdb
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她哼着鄧麗欣的《日久生情》:648Please respect copyright.PENANAl8mifT8RQ7
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大概一起了相擁過未算好648Please respect copyright.PENANA4q4Aba2nbF
只因是發覺被愛的恐怖648Please respect copyright.PENANAABO0IErghw
能生出愛情648Please respect copyright.PENANAhZMQGOdQWd
問我應不應去禱告648Please respect copyright.PENANAMWyDi3tpt9
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搭𨋢、上天橋、行樓梯、踏大路、搭𨋢……648Please respect copyright.PENANAvZmI5qVwvG
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青青終於看到阿行:「Hi?」648Please respect copyright.PENANAazhDwsEC0J
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他沒有說,自己一早已經看見她:「真係再見添。」648Please respect copyright.PENANAHfdJ3EQ74t
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「咁啱嘅,」她有些愕然地笑一笑:「我嚟上堂呀。」648Please respect copyright.PENANAOzSUarJb2M
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「我都係。」648Please respect copyright.PENANARnQxHz86No
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他們靜默,再沒有話聊,卻一直行到同一個課室;然後停一停,他首先打開門,和她一同內進,成為鄰座。648Please respect copyright.PENANAGDJ1c3QLQt
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「唔係咁啱吖嘛?同一班?」她驚訝。648Please respect copyright.PENANApuERvFt1WS
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她覺得有點邪,多疑的她不相信如此,這事說給誰聽,都像是誇張失實的節目橋段。648Please respect copyright.PENANAwGcDUPx9LY
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……648Please respect copyright.PENANA0OyY7qmgSU
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會不會真的太巧合了?648Please respect copyright.PENANAwVUhbsxmWU
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於他更甚,線上線下,已經遇見了她三次;「三」是「幾」的程度,算不算多?648Please respect copyright.PENANAOzV3JJNhRl
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下一秒,他笑自己——係咪太想要女朋友?見多幾次就幻想咁多。648Please respect copyright.PENANAzvZBtI52Xu
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這個課堂並非呆板的講書、聽書、功課、報告,更着重個人思考和成長。648Please respect copyright.PENANAXIekZ96uNX
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老師說:「呢度嘅大家都係嚟自唔同科系同年級——我諗冇人原本就識?所以,都可以避免同識嘅人分享啲尷尬嘢……而家請大家同隔籬位傾十分鐘偈,然後,畫出對方喺你心中嘅形象。」648Please respect copyright.PENANAguMf3l5g2j
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阿行和青青手上都各有一張紙、幾枝筆。648Please respect copyright.PENANAiTjNiNwvlC
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他們傾偈。648Please respect copyright.PENANAq5EiSXcZ7X
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「有冇覺得可以見返我?」他以調情的口吻說,但很像在扮演另一個人。648Please respect copyright.PENANABdMugXMgyl
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「咩料呀你?你嗰日都唔係咁㗎喎。」她也故作深沉。648Please respect copyright.PENANAxgvPrlUqES
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她有覺得能夠再遇他,香港不大,就讀同一間學校更易見面,只是想不到會這麼快、這麼近。648Please respect copyright.PENANAT5bnaVP4I6
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「如果我話,嗰日之日我有啲唔開心,你會唔會覺得我小氣?」他刻意皺了皺眉。648Please respect copyright.PENANApRwsWOUGKe
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「你好坦誠。」她轉一轉眼珠:「但係都小氣。」648Please respect copyright.PENANAWFdIl5XEcT
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「點解reg呢個course?」648Please respect copyright.PENANAd86JA5WaTs
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「唔想讀啲咁嚴肅嘅嘢,我係學術垃圾,做親academic paper都靚唔到grade。」648Please respect copyright.PENANA7YP1reDZrV
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「哦,有人想逃避。」他揶揄她,又說:「我都係因為想讀啲冇咁chur嘅科。」648Please respect copyright.PENANA2QvTJ0St0i
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今天,他們是鄰座,和前晚的對面位不同,現在更近一些。他盯着她的臉,試圖記得她的臉部細節,等一會兒更加容易畫出來——即使他只會畫火柴人。648Please respect copyright.PENANAQpH5giAhO8
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「使唔使傾啲認真話題?」她聽見了別人說對於共產主義的看法,並且越講越激昂。648Please respect copyright.PENANA9gAmPwKbDc
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「你問。」648Please respect copyright.PENANA9GVR95UtSr
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「啊——」她突然想到:「你有冇住hall?」648Please respect copyright.PENANA9qvHUuy9kL
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她還是不想問太內在的東西,人與人之間,有時親近即遠離。她希望能與他至少在這學期內和平共處,真心地。648Please respect copyright.PENANATGpFKsdYOY
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「好認真喎。」阿行挑眉,答:「有。」648Please respect copyright.PENANAas1WUbiH9p
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「係點㗎?」她沒有住過宿舍,十分好奇,雖然聽過雅君的故事,然而每個人的觀感應是不同的。648Please respect copyright.PENANAyLwSVOJXhq
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「好嘈,半夜三更打麻將、播重音樂。全層都係男人……沖涼時間個個都唔着衫走嚟走去。」648Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1pIMqNLqc
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「咁你有冇覺得佢哋好fit?」648Please respect copyright.PENANAQwFJfMlSSK
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「咩問題嚟……」他答:「冇。你話有女仔行嚟行去就話啫,男仔有咩好睇。咁你係咪冇住?點解?」648Please respect copyright.PENANAlIZQP6Jk8W
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「係啊,因為唔想同陌生人日見夜見,同埋我都唔算住得遠嘅,宿費又貴。」648Please respect copyright.PENANAF77oaH6IwF
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青青說出很現實的答案,完全活在資本社會的她,無法參與社會學的高尚討論。648Please respect copyright.PENANAqVbxEYOeXG
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如果問「小孩子是什麼」,而回答是「云云人海中的某個毫無意義的奴隸」,恐怕大家都會不快。648Please respect copyright.PENANAFTyLiH62nQ
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阿行點點頭,看一看青青的眉,發現她修了眉,立即整齊了許多。648Please respect copyright.PENANAbLt7zrmIzk
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他畫了她:眉眼清晰,身材肥胖。648Please respect copyright.PENANAHqeeU62xF0
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她馬上不滿:「喂,雖然我唔瘦,但都唔係呢個程度。」648Please respect copyright.PENANA1aKYIoSBYE
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阿行解釋:「Tinder肥仔聰。」648Please respect copyright.PENANA0dDgr5uLre
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青青稍稍舒心。她對自己的外型沒有自信,如果有人面對面說她胖,玻璃心將會盡碎。648Please respect copyright.PENANAwFVIH2lHQq
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父親時常說她遺傳了他的毛孔,十分粗大,卻沒有他皮膚白;又時常叫她不要攤坐,不然會越來越肥,現在似乎已和他的手臂一樣粗壯。648Please respect copyright.PENANAUzwP2c0fzH
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他總是如此直接地批評女兒,認為她堅強又大方。648Please respect copyright.PENANAotvh0EWwuw
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父親沒有惡意,但她聽得很認真。648Please respect copyright.PENANAmK3CmBLZ4n
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從她九歲,講到十九歲,她真覺得自己的身型很糟糕。648Please respect copyright.PENANAf0bb4cdkeT
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青青畫了阿行:眼睛總是瞇起來的火柴人。648Please respect copyright.PENANAfOLPiSdDzE
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阿行的眼尾微微下彎,像無辜的小狗;眼裏充滿水花,似有萬種風情訴說。648Please respect copyright.PENANAMAm46bcC7q
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之後,老師就開始介紹這個課程,他們沒有再說話。648Please respect copyright.PENANAxkMKQQipur
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落堂,青青起身離去,說:「拜拜,我去下一堂。」648Please respect copyright.PENANAKkGkfUI5ES
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這是藉口,她只想快快到飯堂吃飯,自己一人;唯有如此,她才能自然地滿足食慾,不用任何表情、聲調。只是上了一堂,她就已經有點累。這一年裏她似將身體捱壞,時常覺得睏倦,沒有一點青春少艾應有的活力。648Please respect copyright.PENANAEN966Jd0eU
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「喂,contact呀!」阿行叫住青青。648Please respect copyright.PENANAhsfmw7x0ez
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「你會搵我傾偈?」青青昂首,抓了抓額頭。648Please respect copyright.PENANAUeWT4bJSFN
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「會啊。」他點頭。648Please respect copyright.PENANAK8C8rSHQbt
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「不了,無啦啦傾咩偈,我哋會見㗎嘛;當面先傾,好似舒服啲。」648Please respect copyright.PENANAatVV8ZYEv9
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「咁如果唔會呢?」648Please respect copyright.PENANAt8vMuzCyMZ
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「咁攞嚟做咩?」她理直氣壯。648Please respect copyright.PENANAuJvs4QwyKl
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「你反口!」他感覺又被她擺了一道,卻沒有生氣。648Please respect copyright.PENANAcJv2OpsafS
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她不理,側一側頭,揮手:「下堂見啦,同學仔。」648Please respect copyright.PENANAm4WQgC9uby
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青青對阿行有些好感,但是,她不想無故與他聯絡,就算他有話題。648Please respect copyright.PENANATcEiDbabEe
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因為二人並不相熟,無事無幹,又豈會私下聊天;如果會,意圖又很明顯——是否她太多心?應該是。她從來都是一個多疑的人,而且心胸狹窄。648Please respect copyright.PENANAappjxHn5Y4
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她突然發現,自己口中常說的戀愛渴望,其實並不大。648Please respect copyright.PENANAXaV0IHVkSr
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她只想開開心心、嘻嘻哈哈,但不想承擔責任。648Please respect copyright.PENANAAa5fYUSmEa
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愛人與被愛,都是很害怕的事——648Please respect copyright.PENANA6Y794ecRUu
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其實她不應如此說。她的戀愛經驗多數是來自聽別人的故事,但唯有足夠曲折的經歷才令聽者印象深刻648Please respect copyright.PENANAeMXfdGCXvy
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何況,她感覺到,他對她也有好感。648Please respect copyright.PENANAySPrkOZl9E
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阿行心癢。648Please respect copyright.PENANAS2ojsusfnf
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雖然他在上一段感情中並不愉快,但回歸自身人際網絡圈,他總能哄得身邊人高高興興,大家都親近他。648Please respect copyright.PENANAkMxFOqX79e
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青青的反應,令他始料不及。648Please respect copyright.PENANA9Gpm3zYG5m
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最重要的是,很快,他便在飯堂看到她,她根本沒有趕去上課,而是在悠閒地玩電話。她的臉部沒有泛起任何漣漪,眼睛不再靈動,只是放空地睜着。648Please respect copyright.PENANAV6d1BpZpMz
她欺騙了他,為什麼?是他做了不好的事嗎?648Please respect copyright.PENANAGIXPzjdyZs
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他發現了她身上有很違和的東西——外型菂菂式式,但神態多是冷漠,唯有面對人時,才有人氣。648Please respect copyright.PENANAHuqabxfwZZ
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他在離她遠遠的位置,也吃着飯,然後離去。648Please respect copyright.PENANA43zPD7miaB
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下午,阿行離開學校前,都會去摸一下附近的小貓。648Please respect copyright.PENANA0GdPL51ek5
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他正在去往圍住草地的路徑,便看見青青;她正蹲下來,靜靜地看着正在睡覺的貓。648Please respect copyright.PENANAyKXXgG6NH7
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「呿!」他用力拍她的肩。648Please respect copyright.PENANAEtgTUZqmlO
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「好彩冇嘈醒貓貓。」她嚇得被彈起,瞪一瞪他:「幼稚鬼。」648Please respect copyright.PENANAoFNs93m9xY
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他告訴她,牠的名字是Gri。648Please respect copyright.PENANA4kXMurpfgO