
台北的街道上,眾多路人全都抬頭望著夜空發愣,任由雪花落在肩上。303Please respect copyright.PENANAiRREgfKeny
許多年輕人全都在那紛紛雪花中手舞足蹈、大吼大叫。303Please respect copyright.PENANAJv35aF59ww
似乎整個原本在舊軌道上運轉的世界,都因為這雪而緩暫的停了下來。303Please respect copyright.PENANAZO93ewQhhn
我快步衝過那些大叫的人群奔向捷運站,手上滑開羅慕筠的手機號碼。303Please respect copyright.PENANA5KhhsEXQ1h
她沒開機。303Please respect copyright.PENANA4G3CXeDDhg
我用Line、臉書、IG敲她,全都沒有回應。303Please respect copyright.PENANA8AkMn6CyPD
當我衝出東門捷運站時,仍用Line的免費通話與FB的連線通話輪著狂播。303Please respect copyright.PENANAhMQ73slFFV
然後罵自己笨:「啊對……她手機沒開機啊……」303Please respect copyright.PENANA6VVfT09W9U
跑到青田街C-803時,我……已經喘到上氣不接下氣了。303Please respect copyright.PENANAhCz8BfxrrX
肚子裡的漢堡薯條濤天翻騰。303Please respect copyright.PENANAkjsVoZpCEy
我臉色慘白的望著昏暗的客廳,一遍空無一人。
必須找到木桐杉的機車鑰匙才行。303Please respect copyright.PENANASpM8hBJPMA
從這裡騎車到女舍大概只要五分鐘,而我已經跑不動了。雖然考上駕照之後我仍總是給人載,但無論如何我都要見到羅慕筠。303Please respect copyright.PENANAOksXTKxRX9
她……值得我今天晚上不計一切代價的去找她。303Please respect copyright.PENANAKSWeyT4Wm9
我是指,不計一切代價。303Please respect copyright.PENANA1cla3ORLwJ
但現在,學長不在房間……我打電話,他也沒開機。303Please respect copyright.PENANA3d8Mztc8uf
偏偏在這個時候?303Please respect copyright.PENANAbpvNjb51Sp
一陣小小的崩潰情緒襲來。303Please respect copyright.PENANAeZjSEuJagW
我鞋子沒脫,怒騰騰的走向張楓的房間。或許他知道木桐杉跑去那裡。303Please respect copyright.PENANAghM1vAhIOl
握住門把的瞬間,才想起張楓人在台中。而且他的房門,永遠都是鎖上的。303Please respect copyright.PENANAndYPamNIj2
怎麼這個時候全世界都在跟我作對!?303Please respect copyright.PENANAc9h2bOS4Bc
我宣洩怒氣似的轉動門把。
房門竟然打開了。303Please respect copyright.PENANA4r3MQRK8Gt
303Please respect copyright.PENANAN8HmXRoo8y
我愣愣的望著門把……這還真是始料未及啊…303Please respect copyright.PENANAn5k28CsfVA
我一邊自嘲,一邊朝張楓的房內望去。
那是一間附衛浴的八坪大房間,房裡一切的一切全都一塵不染的。303Please respect copyright.PENANAhPBlaf4uvi
一張雙人床靠在牆角,米色的羊毛地毯鋪在地上,一旁還有個中型衣櫃。303Please respect copyright.PENANAFKNf9v2x61
雙人床頭貼了Nana Mouskouri與久石讓的海報,一旁的純實木書櫃上擺著一整排的(我完全不認識)古典音樂CD以及一些外文書。303Please respect copyright.PENANAEcx2cAEews
澳美佳牌子的四尺高腳電腦桌上是27吋的iMac蘋果桌電。303Please respect copyright.PENANAUvTfGleU0s
電腦旁邊擺了一個柚木相框。303Please respect copyright.PENANAowRsUfff9p
相框裡,兩名黑頭髮的小男孩一高一矮正對著鏡頭微笑。303Please respect copyright.PENANAGio7PkPhk4
看那模樣,大約八歲或九歲。
沒了。303Please respect copyright.PENANAW22sZbJbG1
整個頗大的房間,因為簡單的擺設而略顯空曠。303Please respect copyright.PENANAXkNUecxi54
縱然如此,空曠的房間除了這些東西以外,什麼也沒有。
我強壓著猛然加速的心跳將門把從內部鎖上。303Please respect copyright.PENANAb2Qela2QKv
迅速退回客廳將房門關上。像是剛偷了什麼東西一樣。303Please respect copyright.PENANAfOTIIDOIB2
突然身後,房門打開,暖色的燈光照進黑暗的客廳。303Please respect copyright.PENANAaVL27eOIrd
303Please respect copyright.PENANA737Ura1O5N
「………張楓今天一早回去台中了。」杜子凌說。303Please respect copyright.PENANA54aWdrwdvH
「原來你在家呀?」303Please respect copyright.PENANADByki3VaQG
我望著對方手上的……那是他們國貿系在看的原文書嗎?303Please respect copyright.PENANADbmVkUu9Jq
這種東西怎麼會出現在杜子凌手上?303Please respect copyright.PENANARrt1PrVX9v
「剛回來。」303Please respect copyright.PENANAch7SLYulGa
「帥哥學長,你今晚真的不跨年啊?」我問。303Please respect copyright.PENANAfZJq2JzgK2
他搖頭。303Please respect copyright.PENANAx53kSPmgfW
「要不要打給波米學姐啊?你如果打算跨年夜窩在家裡苦讀,就算是這種爛行程,我相信她也一定會二話不說馬上趕到。」我開他玩笑。303Please respect copyright.PENANAi1pXjB4zma
「波米去澳洲了。」303Please respect copyright.PENANA5kBdr1yems
「啊!?」我脫口驚呼。303Please respect copyright.PENANArGN9ZSnyH8
「打工換宿,在果園採草莓。」303Please respect copyright.PENANAoQs4woJGoU
「什麼時候的事?」我幾乎不敢相信。303Please respect copyright.PENANA6DGv56j0sf
杜子凌歪頭想了想:「三天前吧?」303Please respect copyright.PENANAf7KfD8LCfv
「那…你………」303Please respect copyright.PENANAIiPbQs1nmt
我想要說些什麼,卻又不知該說些什麼。303Please respect copyright.PENANAsQZvaF2hu7
只見那頭金髮搖動:「她有她的人生。」303Please respect copyright.PENANA1I59Xching
他這簡簡單單的一句話。303Please respect copyright.PENANAf60GjFUGrH
語質輕,語意重。303Please respect copyright.PENANASVcJfCd6PH
有種給我平常不斷累積力氣,面對別人才能這般輕易說出口的感覺。303Please respect copyright.PENANAdaDBcWV96g
突然他皺起眉頭瞪著我。303Please respect copyright.PENANAaWC6ioMdYF
「倒是你……怎麼這時候會回來?」303Please respect copyright.PENANAMezAFLch38
「車…對!我要找木桐杉借車!」我聽他這樣一講,才嚇了一跳想起。303Please respect copyright.PENANAHZK7IDRe8Q
「蛤?你要載人嗎?」他滿臉疑惑。303Please respect copyright.PENANAn42RouR7DV
「我沒有…但…但……我必須…」我大急,語氣散亂。
機車鑰匙飛過客廳。
我伸手接下。303Please respect copyright.PENANAAEVgHA3gmc
「鑰匙在我這,雖然不知道你要幹嘛……去吧!別弄壞了。」淡淡的語氣。303Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7qCNwh2CP
我用看到菩薩的表情望向杜子凌。303Please respect copyright.PENANAsqsYHfEgCc
他被我這表情給逗笑了。303Please respect copyright.PENANATW8aPTjKIs
「學長……」303Please respect copyright.PENANA02syjoW8Et
「幹嘛啦?」303Please respect copyright.PENANArKqsLmTWE1
「你知道一萬次悲傷嗎?」我想他一定知道。303Please respect copyright.PENANAHdNQAijFWW
「啊?你在講歌嗎?我知道啊!逃跑計畫。」他果然知道。303Please respect copyright.PENANA3GCrW4ScG7
「逃跑計畫?」303Please respect copyright.PENANA3H8RcnvlcY
「嗯呀!樂團的名字,一萬次悲傷就是他們唱的。你問這個是要?」303Please respect copyright.PENANA9ecT20Q7bk
「沒……」我大力搖頭:「我只是覺得…這首歌,實在非常好聽。」303Please respect copyright.PENANAToGerUJ2SU
然後我丟下一臉茫然的杜子凌衝向客廳大門。303Please respect copyright.PENANAD6ijATE7bA
「謝了!!帥哥學長!!」303Please respect copyright.PENANAY0aapAuTcu
我在巷子裡跨上野狼機車。303Please respect copyright.PENANAKUiVv1jn0o
N檔,催油門。303Please respect copyright.PENANARyMfZbZ5Xc
雪花落在我傾前的背上。羅慕筠彈吉他唱歌的影片畫面出現在我的意識裡。畫面清晰。303Please respect copyright.PENANAYYH4x9KgK1
野狼怒吼,衝向學校女舍。
「oh honey303Please respect copyright.PENANA3clWitBOuC
我腦海裡全都是你303Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6vYlsxm4N
oh無法抗拒的心情303Please respect copyright.PENANAQXae5XI5Qu
難以呼吸 」
疾駛過幾個巷口以及社區球場的邊緣。303Please respect copyright.PENANAIHGE7GTqSf
空蕩蕩的街道上什麼人也沒有。303Please respect copyright.PENANANI6Twf0zrJ
大家都忙著去跨年了,不是孤身一人,就是想待在重要的人身邊吧?303Please respect copyright.PENANAUNMyT6gRb0
經過三個十字路口。303Please respect copyright.PENANALgGH11knpu
學校的外圍矮牆輪廓現形。
「tonight303Please respect copyright.PENANAxUCxitTyIx
是否又要錯過一個夜晚303Please respect copyright.PENANAwOk5ijxy5p
是否還要掩飾最後的期待303Please respect copyright.PENANAz5LqMJq8ze
oh tonight 」
柚芳樓,女舍前。303Please respect copyright.PENANA8vSmJvOiWx
我大口哈氣,白煙不斷從嘴裡噴散。303Please respect copyright.PENANAuLIIySywGd
「沒有喔……她沒有在房間裡。」舍監看著我。303Please respect copyright.PENANAAvHhrUhesn
「蛤?」我傻眼。303Please respect copyright.PENANAx3DvB8pfaq
「她一個小時前剛出大樓,我親眼看見的。」303Please respect copyright.PENANAFKsGbm6CxN
「她有沒有說要去那裡?」我追問。303Please respect copyright.PENANAessNoreUpq
「沒有…她什麼都沒有說。你找她是要……?」303Please respect copyright.PENANADavUQJUid2
我轉身衝向野狼機車。303Please respect copyright.PENANAoqDQ32x5a9
女舍監不知道在我背後鬼吼鬼叫什麼。
「一萬次悲傷303Please respect copyright.PENANAZN2UKYIkLa
依然會有Dream303Please respect copyright.PENANAadPlAgdEMf
我一直在最溫暖的地方等你303Please respect copyright.PENANAtKjg6rPcNA
似乎只能這樣停留一個方向303Please respect copyright.PENANAQPSS96uB64
已不能改變 」
教堂前廣場,野狼停下。303Please respect copyright.PENANAZZV30ekTp2
我衝進空無一人的聖堂,但那裡只有耶穌跟聖母瑪利亞。303Please respect copyright.PENANAYmkg6AB08M
「耶穌保佑……妳快點出現啊……」我嘴裡胡亂唸著。303Please respect copyright.PENANAeS6ztMiIwR
退回廣場,我四處張望。303Please respect copyright.PENANAECknpLQL7n
沒有,什麼人也沒有。303Please respect copyright.PENANAc6bSURRmRP
就連三樓神父房間窗戶也沒亮燈。303Please respect copyright.PENANAFMBOIIPh5G
人都跑到那裡去了?
「每一顆眼淚是一萬道光303Please respect copyright.PENANA5R29gXfflv
最昏暗的地方也變得明亮303Please respect copyright.PENANAjqqnuDvl31
我奔湧的暖流尋找你的海洋303Please respect copyright.PENANAQCDkzux3g7
我注定這樣 」
我在紅燈底下不斷搓揉凍僵的雙手。303Please respect copyright.PENANASa714BD7bg
在這天殺的雪夜裡騎車我居然沒戴機車手套!303Please respect copyright.PENANA0zr2pVDEdd
我趁著四十多秒的紅燈,打開野狼車廂。303Please respect copyright.PENANAVReShwyC8n
裡面只有毛巾、一串保險套、喝剩一半的寶礦力、有裂痕的折疊鏡。303Please respect copyright.PENANAQX5ZSMyVNI
居然連機車雨衣也沒有。303Please respect copyright.PENANAPdSH7Kxo6M
紅燈還剩十秒,我罵聲連連的跨上機車。303Please respect copyright.PENANA7HvpPmW9Oq
303Please respect copyright.PENANA8giyGHvizb
「oh honey303Please respect copyright.PENANAjrb3JF1jOp
你目光裡充滿憂鬱303Please respect copyright.PENANAZZXFUHQsjU
就像經歷一遍飛行303Please respect copyright.PENANADFNdE60XHW
難以逃避 」
又一個紅燈下,我在絕望中邁向這唯一有可能的方向。303Please respect copyright.PENANAwY35BPS9MF
雖然想知道離放跨年煙火還剩多少時間,但我的手已經不想離開機車握把。303Please respect copyright.PENANATgIzcIsO23
就讓它們凍在那邊好了……303Please respect copyright.PENANA1El5cAZCFh
我仰起被寒風刺痛的臉龐望向一旁的休旅車。303Please respect copyright.PENANA173aqJmMoD
不知為何車裡一家子大小全都望著我張大嘴巴。303Please respect copyright.PENANANHDr9kcXqR
我伸手往自己頭上一探。303Please respect copyright.PENANAtCpaVRIZtX
「靠北!」303Please respect copyright.PENANA5aenIBvJGp
我居然沒有戴安全帽,從青田街騎到這裡,一直都沒戴。
「tonight303Please respect copyright.PENANAouUApDJJc7
是否還要錯過這個夜晚303Please respect copyright.PENANA45Oa7ONmmo
是否還要熄滅所有的期待303Please respect copyright.PENANAipP9GKo57J
oh tonight 」
在我育幼院的廣場邊緣停下。303Please respect copyright.PENANAR9ZWKggg9o
光鮮的白油漆建築,屋裡人聲鼎沸,燈光照在滿地積雪的廣場。303Please respect copyright.PENANAgdkCQXXsJh
廣場另一邊的遙遠角落。303Please respect copyright.PENANAzYSP9XShJg
雙人盪鞦韆,兩隻脫了手套的手緊緊牽著。303Please respect copyright.PENANAlFTdqN2BpN
他們正抬頭望著不斷飄雪的夜空。303Please respect copyright.PENANADlGo8iknfe
我低頭尋思……感覺羅慕筠也不在這裡。303Please respect copyright.PENANAab0EtyFBWF
我……是不是有錯過什麼地方……
突然。303Please respect copyright.PENANA1vmAbECry0
沒有鎖頭的鐵門畫面浮現,它是半開的。303Please respect copyright.PENANAXTc1beB8lb
我往我們學校的方向望去。303Please respect copyright.PENANA9MlJinYUHy
那山巒稜線……雖然遙遠但依然可見。
「一萬次悲傷303Please respect copyright.PENANAVzOCABrdRo
依然會有Dream303Please respect copyright.PENANAPi8GSYxF0w
我一直在最後的地方等你303Please respect copyright.PENANA0JApZQPmGp
似乎只能這樣303Please respect copyright.PENANAj43tcn72eA
僅有一個方向303Please respect copyright.PENANAZQKA3we3gL
已不能改變 」
經過半個多小時的路程,居然沒遇到任何一名警察。303Please respect copyright.PENANAdolki2G918
真不知今天晚上我是倒楣還是幸運。303Please respect copyright.PENANAtFYO2lwhp6
學校大門,保全大叔正翹著腳在警衛室裡看跨年演唱會的手機直播。303Please respect copyright.PENANAmpZHcGCzye
直到我騎野狼衝過才茫然抬頭。
學校大操場旁的市民大道上,星星落落的身影驚訝的望向我。303Please respect copyright.PENANATEHCpGiRdH
這邊是禁止騎機車的。303Please respect copyright.PENANAh4UMiPVQOK
但今天晚上我什麼都不管了。303Please respect copyright.PENANAlEZ9hX79g9
野狼機車衝過人行磚上車道,然後…直往後山上騎。
「每一顆眼淚是一萬道光303Please respect copyright.PENANAmIWjHEFLWY
最昏暗的地方也變得明亮303Please respect copyright.PENANA07khLJetWE
我奔湧的暖流尋找你的海洋303Please respect copyright.PENANAFuXQUcAkLL
我注定這樣 」
大口喘氣,白煙猛噴。303Please respect copyright.PENANABSdCac2x2K
我在文學院F棟底下將機車熄火。303Please respect copyright.PENANACfDBzV75kr
除了遠處角落的萊爾富便利商店有光以外,四周空無一人。303Please respect copyright.PENANAyxG8LZUaaO
記得今天晚上,幾乎整個文學院的都去參加人擠人的跨系煙火派對了。303Please respect copyright.PENANAmoWVu49mWj
幾乎。
不斷落下的雪花不知何時,已經停了。303Please respect copyright.PENANATxyTHYvpxO
我抬頭望向F棟的屋頂:「High place……」
我緩緩步上屋頂。303Please respect copyright.PENANA7i4fkqHspO
這裡的視野非常好,幾乎可以一覽四分之一個台北市了,只可惜101大樓仍被信義區一帶的山巒擋住。不過縱然如此,這地方還是很適合俯視山腳下半個校園作畫。環境清幽,沒人打擾。303Please respect copyright.PENANAgkgjtokWJh
然而今晚這裡沒有畫,也沒有畫架。303Please respect copyright.PENANA0VWziScAyi
只有一名曾被畫過的人,孤獨的站著。303Please respect copyright.PENANApvV6impaQy
她肩上積著雪,佇立在一遍雪柔的白花之中。303Please respect copyright.PENANALPzud75dmO
那長髮背影垂著頭,望著山下那變成白色的淡暗世界。
我望著眼前屋頂上這人生絕美的畫面。303Please respect copyright.PENANAHerAiwLGbN
深呼吸,緩緩往前踏步。303Please respect copyright.PENANAoOjqAcGb5O
我開口:「……太陽不見了、河裡的魚都不游了,學校裡的每個人都厚厚裹著外套圍巾快步走過,突然人們都停下了腳步。停下了腳步,抬頭望著天空。」
那背影一陣顫動。303Please respect copyright.PENANAq9m8b1IvRJ
肩上雪堆滑落。
「像是雨,從天空落下,但沒那麼快,是用飄的,輕飄飄的落下來。人們睜大了眼睛,看著初雪,落在自己的掌心上。」我於離她距離四尺處,駐足。303Please respect copyright.PENANAlA6XeP1Aas
那背影的雙肩隨著大口呼吸而上下起伏。303Please respect copyright.PENANAN1TPuB1W8A
我繼續說。
「每個人的表情像是孩子拿到第一次見到的糖果,先是用各種角度去看得仔細,接著將掌心伸到鼻子前聞一聞,最後舔一舔。」303Please respect copyright.PENANAXKrMwcYe5P
我說完,還真的將右手伸到鼻子前猛力一吸。303Please respect copyright.PENANAqVAqzCB0uM
「哎呀……是雪!」我假裝驚呼。
羅慕筠微笑的轉過身來。303Please respect copyright.PENANAttluL5lC12
穿著紫色厚大衣的她,模樣看起來美得驚人。303Please respect copyright.PENANA9aFriIW14m
她打開有點凍啞的嗓子,也說。
「大家都樂瘋了…每個人都樂瘋了……此刻雪花像落葉一樣落下。在水泥地上越積越多,在屋頂上越積越多,在陸橋的扶手上越積越多,逐漸,整個世界都變成白色的了………大概就是這樣,有畫面了沒?」303Please respect copyright.PENANA1deWpI7279
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我望著她那唇紅齒白的臉蛋,長長的睫毛,笑彎了的眼。303Please respect copyright.PENANAOTa57nyQlm
我閉起眼睛。
我說:「好美。」303Please respect copyright.PENANA3cFKqNEjcJ
突然,我有一股熱淚盈眶的感覺。303Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8Ix5PtHJu
羅慕筠笑著問:「好美?你是在說雪嗎!?」303Please respect copyright.PENANAdHin0QToNZ
我張開雙眼。303Please respect copyright.PENANAK6107vI6bn
「我是在說妳。」
她的熱淚已爬滿了整張臉。303Please respect copyright.PENANAi5zfEw1asB
我衝過去抱住她。緊緊的。303Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4NCvDlpHi