~ 알렉스 <3 ~ - idk but hi? *currently crying to paper hearts cover by jungkookie* ⚠️i'm chaotic asf⚠️

hewooooo! whatcha doin~? oof- i'm tired and cold. i have only done 2 assignments today. holy shet...i will get in trouble. eh, i can do it. no, i can't, omg. i'm stupid. holy shet~! i can't open my ring pop. omfg. open~! i did it. ew. it stinks. wtf? ew, bitch, wtf!?! what am i eating??? omg, i'm throwing it away, wtf. *listening to stray kids tryna get hype* gonna kill myself, bro~ dammit. life is so stressful. what shall i listen to? damn, felix's voice is sexy, omg. *dies in felix's duality* bts it is, guys! omg, singularity had to come on. holy fuck, taheyung's voice.

don't tell emmi that i'm losing my shit to his voice, omg. i ahev something stupid to say. bunny has this mario sticker, right? i dunno what the character is on it but it might be japanese. but why does one of the characters look exactly like the korean character for j? you know..? nevermind. i'm weird. oof- i don't i've answered my friends text. eh, she'll live. not me being shookth while listening to the intro to O!RUL8,2?...hehe. omg, wtf is bunny making me listen too.

my stomach hurts. oof- i knew i shouldn't have eaten cereal this morning. me and bunny just listened to expensive girl and period. it's icky nasty but damn it's a good song. i stan. yesterday i had to do improve and it was fun because i'm naturally funny. so here was what i did. i was handed the ugly little brown ballerina. it was ugly. so i grabbed it and this is what i said and mind you, i had a british accent:

"hi. my name is johnny. uhm, i'm a boy but also a girl. i dunno what i am because i came out like this. that's why my mom doesn't want me. uhm, and, well, i'm here to talk to you about how hard it is to be surrounded by ugly children all day. i have to talk care of span kids every day, all day. they're ugly and they each a disease. each one has a disease. like, uhm, one has chlamydia. one has cancer. one has tuberculosis. and one just simply has covid." then they made me stop because i was so funny and they already knew i was going to win. yAsSs! been a bad girl, i know i am. *quoting blackpink while listening to bts with my stupid ass*

i think i have a sixth sense or something when it comes to family...like, i can feel when my brother is in the vicinity of me. i used to say that in school or something. as soon as my brother was near me and even if i couldn't see him, i would breathe in sharply and whisper, "he is near." and i was sad even before i found out my step-mom died because i felt like everyone important to me was leaving me. next thing i knew i was told my step-mom died.

and i know whenever someone has left me alone by myself somewhere or when i'm about to get in trouble. when my family leaves the house late at night, taking my brother or just going as my parents, i wake up out of my sleep and cry because i hate being alone. it scares me to be alone. and when i'm about to get in trouble, i wake up and sit there half awake wondering what woke me up. next thing i knew i'd be in trouble. sToRy tiMe~! once upon a time, in like 2019, i woke up out of my sleep and my parents were talking about me and i could hear them. i had a boyfriend and they found out about him and all the other crazy shit i did on my phone.

they busted in my room and drug me into the bathroom and basically interogated me. in the end, they were just disappointed in me. but, the point is, i wake up when i'm about to get in trouble. i have weird senses of things. i cannot sleep without something between my legs. that sounds gross but i'm really just talking about a pillow or something. mm. ya little icky nasties. utterly disgusting. my whole life is disgusting. anyways. there used to be this annoying ass tapping sound in my room at my foster home. it was only in my room. i asked my foster mom what to do and she told me to say, 'in jesus name, i said stop.' so i did that and it worked for a while. oof- that shit used to scare me. and the thing is...i'm really not religious.

i'm what is called, a agnostic. i have this huge ass pimple right on my cheek and it's getting bigger, like, i want it to go away. omfg. omg, filter is so sad. omg, jiminie, i lub you~! sToB iT~! anyways. *cries in omg p1harmony dropped a mini-album* i'm bored and i have nothing stupid to say. according to all known laws of aviation, there is no way that a bee should be able to fly. its wings are too small to get its fat little body off the ground. the bee, of course, flies anyways. because bees don't care what humans think is impossible. bee-men. amen. hallelujah! i think as if it's your last is my favoutire blackpink song. for right now, it is. omg, omg, omg. *screaming lyrics in my head*

i swear, i came up with a diet, like, months ago. i still haven't stuck to it. aha. damn. i remember this one time, i was screaming at my tape dispensor because it wasn't working and i was trying to hang up bts, blackpink, and stray kids pictures on my wall. that little piece of shit. i had issues with this girl and she wanted to leave the shelter we were at. this was me to her:1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqzsfdvC0P

okay, like...?

bye.

who asked?

yeah! stob!

perfect. bye!

and that's on mary had a little lamb.

leave, i say~!

bye~

that way -->

this should be fun.

oop-- but yoongle boongle is sexy when he does that. holy shet...

you're not gone yet, like, why're you still here?

i'm telling you, i can be so mean if i wanted to be. i was a bully once before but it's not time-worthy so i stopped and plus i knew how it felt to be bullied. i was tempted so many times to punch her or throw my freezing cold water in her face. that, i call, is self control because i could've dog walked that gorl. mA jI mAk ChO RoM! Ma mA MA Ji MaK CHo RoM~! YASSSSS! i'm lazy and i don't want to do any school work. but i have nothing else to do. emmi is all the way across the room. fuckkkk! i'm bored. but, anyways. van ness wu is so sexy, omg. it's the fact that he is so sexy but he's 42, like, wtf. omg, in 'the princess weiyoung' oof-. i'm finna die. he's so sexy, omg! aghhh!

omfg, he's so fine. holy shet, omg. vanness, i will gladly be yours. i know weiyoung is smart and beautiful and she loves touba jun and not you, and so do i. but, i will fucking marry you. changru's ass is in love with you but i will stab her in her neck if she tries to hurt weiyoung and if she goes near you again. hell. hell is where i'm going. i just went to algebra office hours...boring but at least i got the assignment done. i have to do therapy later and i know i'm going to have a head ache. it's yoongi's birthday today~ *crying in madarin*

well, i'm bored, so song recommendations --> (if you don't like k-pop or anything i put then i'm sorry...?)1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbm7PHl2b07

bts - group ~ hold me tight, dope, butterfly, baepsae, run, spring day, war of hormone, fire, save, no, on, i need u, dead leaves/autumn leaves, house of cards, whalien 52, converse high, move, love it not over...i just gave mostly 'the most beautiful moment in life' album. 1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHQpa3ObkA

bts - taehyung/v ~ winter bear, sweet night, singularity.1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGbKTcIvai

bts - jimin ~ filter, promise.1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqhEGZU04w

bts - namjoon/rm ~ moonchild, tokyo, expensive girl, do you, persona, winter flower, always, everythinggoes.1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyk80kESum

bts - yoongi ~ agust d, give it to me, daechwita, what do you think, intro: the most beautiful moment in life, intro: shadow, trivia: seesaw.1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBndkPTDhoG

blackpink ~ ddu-du-ddu-du, pretty savage, as if it's your last, how you like that, kill this love, boombayah, whistle.

txt ~ crown, cat and dog, blue hour.1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAQZ5pFaRi

stray kids ~ wow, the tortuise and the hare, my universe, 19, back door, miroh, gods menu, ex, any, b me.1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoAb8EgvVb

let me in, flicker, into the i-land, given-taken, 10 months ~ enhypen 1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfFs9tHfUA

~ enough kpop for the non kpoppies. 1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNsPG4JxU5

lemonde, after party - don toliver1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoEqRqDqVT

mood swings, the woo, what you know bout love, dior, for the night, welcome to the party, shake the room, foreigner - pop smoke ~ see i listen to trap music. people say i don't because i'm mixed with black and i listen to kpop. rest in peace, pop smoke~!1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpa2YfoNZB

suicide, dangerously in love pt 2, 772 love, murder on my mind, mama cry, 223's, no heart, butter pecan, slang that iron, virtual, city girls, mind on my murder, wine 4 me, melly the menace - ynw melly

myself, roll in peace - layton greene1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NeWNMGSK1

okay, anyways. *listening to 19 on loop* bye~! have a good day, weirdos <31063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrwkmu777f

- Alex :D1063Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpnnxps7gg

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