Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 769Please respect copyright.PENANATQopCD0w7Z
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAUEYpNfHapI
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.769Please respect copyright.PENANAk2ahSe5cCE
It's been four months since that day.769Please respect copyright.PENANASu8YG7YiFq
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 769Please respect copyright.PENANALcIDLpULxp
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 769Please respect copyright.PENANA5ONhfBdor6
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAfP0sOKytuA
Only loneliness.769Please respect copyright.PENANAGejfJYZcQb
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.769Please respect copyright.PENANA2umbfqwNUX
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAyuNLlmGkRp
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAPLkKUhw81E
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAdSvkOxmOFW
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 769Please respect copyright.PENANATY4D9GpDer
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.769Please respect copyright.PENANAPshJIjAPOS
They remind me of home. 769Please respect copyright.PENANA9PfvrarPzv
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.769Please respect copyright.PENANAmEVYF7dFTy
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 769Please respect copyright.PENANA3xMBC2H9hx
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAGrnaDsvd1h
I don't want to be here. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAF5ZSx3OYAh
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAJZAKj8R9hF
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAdoM5XVq48v
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.769Please respect copyright.PENANAKBCCwjXVk2
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAsR7dK3JmoV
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAcIEMc187qH
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.769Please respect copyright.PENANAoPE5fgIjVD
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 769Please respect copyright.PENANALDD7GgSqNL
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 769Please respect copyright.PENANABDCYzAuAzi
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 769Please respect copyright.PENANA20aebJXO3H
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.769Please respect copyright.PENANAnXdYnNAehV
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 769Please respect copyright.PENANAAJFyjFqqfM
I want it to make sense.769Please respect copyright.PENANAXdPM5KQ7Bs
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.769Please respect copyright.PENANAKsyLpA5o9K
The PaperGarden.769Please respect copyright.PENANAwy61gvYjBL
To be Continued...769Please respect copyright.PENANAV8wTdkTY2V