Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wiMfIHI27
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I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAF5K2Qmbd
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I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZatYgzABG
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It's been four months since that day.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRoiF70KZ5
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Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFzHTnNura
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyW1GQkqg20
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That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmyRbK969z
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Only loneliness.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlOxPeZwci
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At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOAsvZpqi7
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My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9s03FUxWZh
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Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdptYnxrxGP
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RgkYDpOkf
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It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ847G1Owy1T
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One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfcNZhPBaf
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They remind me of home. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hQPE2qLb3
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The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTEVzZjZIX
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My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNxjbdRcnS
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All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA74fE0uMqc
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I don't want to be here. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekoD3dPUGh
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It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSkAlGh6GS
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I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpcHdz5NQL
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I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAe62fG67R
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I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPDfaPSqYN
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I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOAao0KbbL
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I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny2c2KxItD
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Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCrMYyqc7E
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Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceGidYvvx3
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I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6R7vS7V8dB
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Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4h5yLFU41D
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I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jIO5V3YtC
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I want it to make sense.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46NyihAnCu
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But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLYtgTQP2i
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The PaperGarden.193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3MlPWWc4y
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To be Continued...193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3kV8kzVVf
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