「你今個星期日有沒有時間來我家？」張雅己在訊息裡說。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCMnc2ViWA
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「為什麼？」我吃驚地問。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAOHs2eOp4
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「不是你說我們要在學校保持距離嗎？我想跟你繼續討論，你不願意的話，要不我到你家去。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ja4b60MoX
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「不，不，還是我到你家吧。」我手忙腳亂，不知所措。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwpF34oqH3
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「可以帶薛丁格一起嗎？我想看看牠。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEC9ERquvgg
2008年12月7日星期日，154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJkshuabJi
我背著裝住薛丁格的貓背囊，來到張雅己的家門前。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZCXUnQRCM
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緊張的按下門鐘，出來應門的是張雅己的母親，她很有禮貌地向我打招呼。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJRNxujHtZ
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「雅己很少帶朋友回家的，特別是男孩子。」她笑咪咪，邀請我進屋，後面傳來張雅己的聲音。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDUEtCBMKL
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「你到了，快些進來吧。」張雅己催促我進去她房間。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxCzMyJlaK
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「要不要喝果汁？要不要吃零食？雪櫃裡有蛋糕。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGsVrNd8eM
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她媽媽繼續在我們身後說著客氣話，直至張雅己用力關上房門。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsRHEztaey
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她房間裡比我想像還要整潔，而且香。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBOa6wEpAx
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最重要是我第一次看見張雅己穿便服的樣子。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPerPbB4eHW
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我從背囊捧出薛丁格，牠不太熟悉周圍環境，在地板上縮成一團，張雅己抱起牠。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAdJW7wXWj
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「為什麼你主人會改你叫薛丁格這種古怪名字，他到底在想什麼。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JHUx7OCQs
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她用比平時更可愛，像小朋友的說話方式，對著牠說。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VEofdZ0TC
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「牠好像比我第一次見牠時健康了。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznB8sEsiNv
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「還胖了很多，我父母每天也買貴價貓糧給牠，快要寵壞牠。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6wJBlyW94
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「真好，我很羨慕你有幸福的家庭。」她說。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjoiD21rYj
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我腦裡閃過在警署時，她母親那哀傷的神情。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfowlUhMscf
薛丁格掙扎著從她手中逃開了。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoXK2me6dD
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她不知哪裡找來一個貓玩具，高大的她趴在地上，一直逗著薛丁格玩。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiYv0yAicp
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「我把之前說的那套電影帶了過來，或者有參考的地方，你有dvd播放器嗎？」我問。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSHtDJcVUN
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「可以用電腦。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgBo7Vye22
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我們坐在地板上，靠著她的床，電腦螢幕很細，我們必須擠在一起看，肩碰肩。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAVR49gqke
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若撇除了我坐在這裡的原因，是為調查她是誰的幻想，還有她是個自殺了5次還死不去的女生，我們現在這個模樣，不過是兩個平常少年少女坐在一起看電影然而。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXmHs8HVyL
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薛丁格走過來鑽進她膀胳，她溫柔的抱牠入懷，在牠脖子的毛皮上親吻。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmZwNn1vaC
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我想她的吻該是甜蜜又溫暖。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGjgpk1eJC
「沒有人希望自己死去，不幸地我們都難逃一劫。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuipzfhCWaL
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「終有一天，你會死。可能在銀行心臟病發、可能被薄荷珠嗆死、或者在你度假時罹患不治之症。你會死，你必定會死，即使你逃避了這次，也有其他原因導致你的死亡，而且我可以保證不會像她寫的那樣有詩意和充滿意義。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OIL6WOS91
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戲中其中一個角色對男主角說。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0JSmKwPwd
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我偷望身邊的她，她看得入神，我看到她眼紅紅鼻子也紅紅，一顆眼淚隨她眼睛輕眨，滑落到她的面頰。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTl9PWD75C9
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我不敢哼出半點聲音，不自覺減輕呼吸，假裝沒有發現她在哭。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vN1XdAUXK
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電影完結，她立刻站起來背著我，我知道她正用手擦拭眼淚。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1arwFK73M
「電影很好看。」張雅己咽哽著。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡialS45b1Yl
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「嗯，但好像沒有什麼值得參考的地方。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVv4RbVD4QM
154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwtaPmH4uu
我看著她的背影，終於按奈不住，鼓起勇氣問我一直想知道的問題。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZReJPGayxW
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「你可以告訴我你自殺的理由嗎？」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrt2G9LALeY
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她沒有回答，依然站在原地背向著我，我聽到她因為哭過，急促的氣喘聲。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ah60VgAZn
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「我不想說。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjC8Z84vs4
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「可能是其中一個線索⋯⋯」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZRhLd025k
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「我不想說。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzV4o55cp0
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「可能對事情會有幫肋⋯⋯」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZSnnyitIr
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「我說了我不想說！」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3jvluTs9c
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我第一次聽到張雅己這麼大聲說話，房間裡像迴盪住她的聲音。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIWyuHb9MZ
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薛丁格嚇壞了，躲在我腳邊，我抱起牠，把牠放進貓背囊。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bSLOcJvXl
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「對不起，我想我該離開了。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4E4HjYGQmy
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我轉身開門離去，張雅己也沒有回頭，我看到她的背影在微微顫抖。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeT3Rpsgqyo
張雅己的媽媽在門外聽到她大聲說話，以為我們吵架。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39ZNcI1ajs
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「對不起。」她不知為何，跟我道歉起上來。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmiUjguMiQ
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「不，是我不好。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiKjrdoKei
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「她小時候，是一個很乖很親切的小孩。自從她爸爸過世後，我就不太懂她在想什麼。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCIMLkQRli
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她看著客廳牆上的照片說。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtAORVR72k
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「如果她爸爸還在這裡就好。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LT5rIcZ7f
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我走近，想看看張雅己的爸爸。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVDr3SiBjL
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那是一張家庭合照，她媽媽年輕時更像張雅己。她抱住還是嬰兒的張雅己，坐在沙發上，旁邊站了一個高大的男人，應是她爸爸。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHOVtGQKhF
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「不好意思，我可以問張雅己的爸爸是何時過生嗎？」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6AiJysHdG
154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wUR0kLNOp
「嗯，是張雅己4歲的時候。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDik24buFg
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家庭合照的右上方，貼了另一張照片，大概是她爸爸年輕時跟朋友登山的合照。照片中有4人，前排是兩個女生跪在地上，高大的張雅己爸爸則站在後面，親蜜地用手搭著身邊另一個男人的肩膀。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVNY4aE2M3
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「這張照片是？」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCw7Ydl6eUF
154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8HGkLGGej
「那是她爸爸大學時期參加登山社拍的，我們當時還未認識對方。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscxBQHpaMR
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我總覺得她爸爸身邊的那個男人很眼熟，好像在哪裡見過他。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0i6WBxworY
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這時候，廚房的水壺響起來。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPjdkGGhfa
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我趁著張雅己媽媽跑到廚房關火，趕快用手機拍下家庭合照和那張登山照，然後匆匆離開了。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6NthSU0n0
「對不起，我不應該發脾氣⋯⋯」她訊息裡說。154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQ54qn7zMh
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「不，是我不對，我明白你不想說，我不應該追問。」154Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTdqgTZXpi
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