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我自從初中開始,這十幾年來都不用社交網絡。160Please respect copyright.PENANAe9rv3r2rF3
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初中的時候,剛剛開始流行Facebook。那時候,男生女生都愛上載自己的自拍相片到Facebook,加好友也不怎麼會過濾。只要一看就認出你是同校校友,哪怕壓根兒沒說過一句話,都會接受你的好友邀請。160Please respect copyright.PENANAoQQ9mMZDyW
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回想起來,這一切還真是有點像《安眠書店》,只是我走得更前。160Please respect copyright.PENANAY8A2rzAFJm
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那個時候,還沒有「PTGF」兼職女友這種「行業」,那時流行的是「援助交際」。要怪的話,應該怪那個時候香港剛好上映《囡囡》這部電影吧,我才會知道這種行業。160Please respect copyright.PENANAPX2ddbJCUN
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自從任星兒跟我說過她喜歡羅信健後,我便開展了一個精心策劃的計謀。在聖誕節左右的時候加了四眼妹的Facebook,花了幾個月的時間一直儲存她的相片。與此同時,我大概了解到她平常會用的東西、日常喜好和常出入的地方。甚至是,她家在哪裏。160Please respect copyright.PENANAAEJPK0aHFc
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家住深水埗,從家裏裝潢來看不是太富有。喜歡Sanrio的Kuromi,近乎所有用到的文具和隨身物品都是Kuromi的周邊。用緊一個中等價錢的Outdoor書包,不難買到。體型跟我差不多,甚至更加弱不禁風。160Please respect copyright.PENANA4uERo8pLzn
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為甚麼這個計劃不立即實行呢?因為我要收集她在使用的物品需時,而且我要製作一個假身份,也得要花上一段長時間才能偽裝一個人。例如是,我要去她常出沒的地方拍照,裝作是拍街景一樣,也要去她常去的餐廳拍一下食物。在援交網站和交友軟件上偽裝一個人,得要花上幾個月時間才顯得真實。160Please respect copyright.PENANAjSjNL9Hsn1
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「阿瑜,妳最近花的零用錢是不是有點多呢?」姑姑察覺到我最近買回來的東西有點多,加上對於一個初中生來說,買書包是一件大事。160Please respect copyright.PENANAm7GyzdrtIb
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「對不起呢,因為看見這個公仔太可愛了,一時手多買了。」160Please respect copyright.PENANATsJAdpRzPY
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「是嗎?我就沒看妳用過,妳買了這麼東西回來,卻全都放在家裏。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAt40xtF3tfO
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「捨不得用嘛。」160Please respect copyright.PENANA8TK2xmwvAc
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「那妳要省著點用錢啊,別變成『大花筒』。」160Please respect copyright.PENANA2EUNYPKyeV
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知道了,姑姑,很快就會沒事的了。
時間很快便來到復活節,我的學校是傳統基督教名校,一連舉辦了幾個崇拜集會和音樂表演。160Please respect copyright.PENANAh1VEtqBI44
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我再次坐在舞臺下看任星兒的表演,不同的是,這次她沒有獨奏,而是和學校的管弦樂團一起表演。表演前,她還故意的對我吐一下舌頭。她還真是半點兒都沒變過,倒是我遇上她之後變了許多。160Please respect copyright.PENANAMBPgZqQbii
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當我還在看她的時候,擔當指揮的羅信健吸引了我的注意力,他對著舞臺下的觀眾鞠躬,然後便轉身回看樂團。筆直的恤衫、合身的西褲和發亮的皮鞋,我多少能懂為甚麼任星兒在舞臺上會用那種目光看著他。160Please respect copyright.PENANADE849cA1Im
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用那種,她不曾對我用過的目光,看著羅信健。160Please respect copyright.PENANA0GiXBZ16ie
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我不懂音樂,更不懂聖詩之類的歌曲。我只記得在羅信健舉起指揮棒的那一瞬間開始,我就沒再看過任星兒了。舞臺燈把羅信健白皙的膚色打得像發光一樣。他每一個動作都像跳舞一樣。我看過很多人指揮是用雙手的,而羅信健用的卻是身體。我漸漸變得沒再看過管弦樂團裏有甚麼部份,那枝黑金色的管是甚麼樂器?金色那枝又是甚麼?銀色的呢?不知道。我只知道,他們就像羅信健的樂器一樣。如果羅信健是演奏的人,整個樂團就像他的管風琴一樣。他在舞臺上就如飛舞一樣。160Please respect copyright.PENANABuXSnQgV9S
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這段聖樂讓我有一剎那想起自己的惡。小蕙她現在怎樣了呢?然後我就想到那個四眼妹。我看看左邊的班別,她坐在舞臺下,雙眼像發光的看著羅信健。她沒有對我不起,也沒有對任星兒不起。她不是小蕙。喜歡上羅信健這麼優秀的男生,不是很正常的嗎?為甚麼我要除掉她呢?為甚麼呢?160Please respect copyright.PENANANYIdCHQLku
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在我內心還在動搖的時候,音樂停下了,臺下觀眾像雷鳴一般鼓掌。我把目光放回舞臺上,任星兒正看著羅信健燦爛的笑著。160Please respect copyright.PENANABfD7ps1Oik
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是為了守護這個笑容。160Please respect copyright.PENANA5QeAg0VE7L
「小妹妹妳不是還未滿十六歲嗎?」160Please respect copyright.PENANAXFuHJGfzIN
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「只是讓我看一下可以嗎?」160Please respect copyright.PENANAm7SCdkpK8c
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「要看我自慰嗎?」160Please respect copyright.PENANArg4LbZO8Sz
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「讓我教妳如何變成女人。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAWSYLWgEGul
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「妳賣內褲嗎?」160Please respect copyright.PENANADs6nbAb61u
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「妳住在深水埗嗎?拍的風景不錯。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAqnwn7WIGMX
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「我住得很近啊,就在長沙灣那邊。」160Please respect copyright.PENANA9ruKX99rSq
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「妳的校服是真的嗎?真的是名校女孩子嗎?」160Please respect copyright.PENANANVtPjPPBTU
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「不要只拍腿嘛,讓我看看腰。」
最後一步是裝作不經意的洩露「自拍」照片——當然是在Facebook偷回來的相片。要怎樣才能在學校散佈流言呢?開一個匿名電郵地址,裝作要跟學校投訴一樣,把那個援交平台的網址發給全校的人。160Please respect copyright.PENANA3RIAc28PKg
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在想按下發送的一秒,我心裏卻猶豫得很。那個女生會變成怎樣呢?假如說小蕙是活該,那個四眼妹又何罪之有呢?我真的要繼續當壞人嗎?160Please respect copyright.PENANAqDa9o5ttqb
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就在猶疑之際,家裏的電話又響起了。160Please respect copyright.PENANAVd6KWZwZjo
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「小鞠……」160Please respect copyright.PENANA5BuHETo8Zu
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「怎麼了?」160Please respect copyright.PENANALc8r2xNPlS
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「復活節的時候,能陪我一下嗎?」任星兒的聲音有點失落。160Please respect copyright.PENANARHhFjYtvBE
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「可以喔。」160Please respect copyright.PENANApLoL8X6aWy
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「羅信健……好像有在意的女生了。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAxccF9JDteU
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「為甚麼這樣說?」160Please respect copyright.PENANAlGIZFSzyhF
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「我聽管弦樂團的男生說的。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAbrfWmsB1QZ
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「是那個四眼妹嗎?」160Please respect copyright.PENANAPxu9gxjtGL
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「應該是吧,他們天天都黏在一起。」160Please respect copyright.PENANApu4UaLnbV6
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「任星兒,我想認真問妳一件事。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAjDWiZCDoBC
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「嗯?」160Please respect copyright.PENANAbsmIw1DyV4
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「小蕙不在之後,妳有變得幸福嗎?」160Please respect copyright.PENANAKPnigHvdSx
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「怎麼提起這個人呢……」160Please respect copyright.PENANAf2gfLAGYnG
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「就只是想知道。」160Please respect copyright.PENANANrgwQeyeyb
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「嗯……」任星兒沉默起來,她不知道她的答案會影響另一個人的人生。160Please respect copyright.PENANAqLIvf57Klb
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「有的。但是我覺得我變得幸福的原因是,因為遇上小鞠妳了。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAYrXimed32S
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對不起。160Please respect copyright.PENANA9x531WUCVb
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「因為妳一直都會保護我,一直支持著我。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAZN852XDpZf
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對不起。160Please respect copyright.PENANAObJuJycMWD
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「只要有小鞠的話,我就甚麼都會做得到,甚麼都能捱得過去的。」160Please respect copyright.PENANA10fP3MQ2UA
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對不起。160Please respect copyright.PENANAAoxY48FMmI
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發送。160Please respect copyright.PENANAHvZ2S7lwOg
就這樣來到放復活節假前的最後一個上課天。援交平台的事好像沒在學校裏引起很大的迴響,大概是因為四眼妹的作風很低調,存在感很低,認識她的人不多。雖然也有傳言說那個偷偷援交的人是四眼妹,但是大家都不是太在意。160Please respect copyright.PENANA695hFrNDIR
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不知道為甚麼,看著事情沒有失控的發展下去,我竟然覺得鬆一口氣,不用再像之前一樣內疚。160Please respect copyright.PENANAj3ClY9wgsx
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「送給妳的。」小息的時候,羅信健突然拿著隻復活蛋給我。160Please respect copyright.PENANANoUWzZTnSx
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「為甚麼?」160Please respect copyright.PENANA7tlbsPRl8T
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「想收買妳。」羅信健坐在我前面,半開玩笑的說道。160Please respect copyright.PENANA1UDg6x5Vcw
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「我跟你又不熟稔。」他從褲袋裏拿出水筆,繼續在復活蛋上畫畫。160Please respect copyright.PENANATbwBCniGoC
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「妳看我畫得多醜,哈哈。」羅信健就像做甚麼事都漫不經心的人一樣。160Please respect copyright.PENANASrOjUIgqSU
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他拿著復活蛋放到跟我眼睛只有五厘米的距離,然後像個傻瓜一般在笑,又拿回去繼續補色。160Please respect copyright.PENANApOMnC3ua4S
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「是你自己弄的嗎?」160Please respect copyright.PENANAS09Bj9Blxv
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「是喔,我第一次試著弄復活蛋。昨天讓媽媽教我,說要很小心的刺個洞……然後……啊!糟糕,這裏畫出界了。別讓我分心啊……」160Please respect copyright.PENANAcEkyOFB1Je
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我實在搞不懂羅信健為甚麼要跟我搭話。這讓我想起我是害他朋友的人,不其然的內疚起來。160Please respect copyright.PENANA0FdBHbEVi0
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「你的小女友呢?」160Please respect copyright.PENANA8ukRdPDmTw
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「誰?」160Please respect copyright.PENANAvCUrL9HO0E
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「不就天天跟你一起那個四眼妹。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAocv5mUNoBp
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「喔,妳說琪琪,她不是我的女朋友啦。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAJu610ADDCs
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「她喜歡你吧?」160Please respect copyright.PENANA1785NY5Cpy
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「沒有吧?」羅信健繼續專心的畫復活蛋。160Please respect copyright.PENANATfVSNwJ79s
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「那你喜歡她嗎?」160Please respect copyright.PENANACazhTVjCHk
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「喜歡啊,她是我的好朋友……」160Please respect copyright.PENANAKI3fsjznCa
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「我是指那方面的……」160Please respect copyright.PENANAT0MpTcxAQW
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「登——登!」他就像個小孩子一樣,拿起畫好的復活蛋給我看。160Please respect copyright.PENANAcOkaz2gNMq
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「對了,復活節那天你有空嗎?」我問道。160Please respect copyright.PENANAdwh4uHJgVK
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「嗯,有空啊。妳想約我去玩嗎?」160Please respect copyright.PENANAXgDPQNG8s0
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「是,不過還有任星兒。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAuXMYe1VJnI
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「哦,她也來。」羅信健眼神一轉,好像在想甚麼的,「好啊,我們一起去玩。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAZ70xrRT3Rf
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「約好了。」騙你的,那天我不會去。160Please respect copyright.PENANAK9bw36jdYB
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他把復活蛋放到我手心上,然後天真無邪的笑了笑。160Please respect copyright.PENANAI0m8G4OkZ3
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「對了,那天妳有看我指揮嗎?」160Please respect copyright.PENANAcNKTV0eXNc
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「說起來是有點印象的……」怎可能會忘記你在舞臺上飛舞的樣子呢。160Please respect copyright.PENANAHC3axw1jmI
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「跟妳說喔,那天我緊張死了,本來是中四的學長負責指揮的,但是他感冒病了,才臨時換我上去指揮。不過真的好興奮喔,那天我連腋下都緊張得出汗了……」160Please respect copyright.PENANA5GZU7JVF8p
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他突然喋喋不休的說著那天表演的事。160Please respect copyright.PENANA9INBmJqMQG
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「任星兒,」我突然想到應該替星兒美言的,「她是個很有才能的人,如果能讓她獨奏的話,你就會明白的了。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAM3unQdDfBI
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「我知道喔,我在以前的比賽就見過她了。她是這個圈子裏的大紅人,人人都知道她是個天才。」160Please respect copyright.PENANApDkWybupPf
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聽來羅信健對任星兒的印象也不錯,這我就放心點了。160Please respect copyright.PENANAvvXpjCsqEY
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「可是我卻甚麼都做不好呢。」羅信健突然說道。160Please respect copyright.PENANA4dc6jLjHB1
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「你不是挺優秀的嗎?每種樂器都會一點,成績又好。」160Please respect copyright.PENANA84tdopMUJH
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「但是沒有一樣是專長吧?就每件事都只是做得不錯而已,但我卻不屬於任何一個範疇。」160Please respect copyright.PENANAbboSBFlKOA
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「可是,你指揮得不是很好嗎?說實話,那天觀眾們的掌聲其實大多都是給你的,你在舞臺上指揮的姿態就像主角一樣,就好像……在跳舞一樣!」160Please respect copyright.PENANA1W1EAUfhW3
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他聽到我說跳舞這兩個字,噗的一聲笑了出來。160Please respect copyright.PENANA4DhXwnQs7y
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「甚麼跳舞啊,哈哈……真是有趣的形容。」160Please respect copyright.PENANA3UlpadWNbB
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「啊……我是想說……你在指揮方面,說不定是天才呢……」160Please respect copyright.PENANA4w6tQEhmuG
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「謝謝妳喔。」他慢慢的收起笑臉,一本正經的回答道,「果然妳是有認真看的嘛。」160Please respect copyright.PENANA1aLq1I4ZC9
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就在他還笑著跟我道謝的時候,我卻留意到走廊的動靜——琪琪跟著訓導主任匆匆走過。160Please respect copyright.PENANAJbxGftVBCu
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