她說話的那一瞬間,我嚇得當場射了。664Please respect copyright.PENANAKbWGBHNJGk
神經線像遭到一刀兩斷,緊繃的肌肉驀地被迫放鬆,我登時失去對下體的控制力,液體倏地噴出,如飛箭似的射向她蒼白的臉孔。664Please respect copyright.PENANAP37YP0VtNn
她驚叫一聲,猛地往後退縮。664Please respect copyright.PENANAsp1aLPOWvj
但這一股滾燙灼熱的液體直奔她的面門——就這樣,穿過她的嘴巴,在我面前,落在電腦主機旁。664Please respect copyright.PENANAZ33O0mavjt
量多到我自己也嚇到。664Please respect copyright.PENANAmCxMoKSjwI
接下來是一陣死寂。664Please respect copyright.PENANAFFNmO7RYDL
我喘著氣,整個人癱軟在椅子上,和她對望著,直到我的陰莖漸漸軟掉。664Please respect copyright.PENANAcOWAd6m2iL
半晌,她發出驚天動地的尖叫,劃破了充滿AV女優淫叫聲的套房空間。664Please respect copyright.PENANA7vqGqnAnX9
664Please respect copyright.PENANACaP79oWHfx
「你竟然——你竟然敢——!」664Please respect copyright.PENANAGfIdgCtilD
她發著抖從電腦主機旁竄起來,蒼白的臉孔漸漸扭曲,微微地泛起青光,兩隻眼睛憤怒地瞪著我,五指箕張,似乎準備撲上來,掐斷我的脖子。664Please respect copyright.PENANArvKVpJrwyD
「髒死了,真是髒死了!有夠骯髒!噁心的傢伙!」她開始對我歇斯底里地大叫。664Please respect copyright.PENANABw65VAW970
足足叫罵了十五分鐘。664Please respect copyright.PENANAvzVk8pX1Tx
最後,她指著我,下了結論。664Please respect copyright.PENANArm99BKF1g4
「你這個噁心的廢物宅男——!」664Please respect copyright.PENANA1L4Joy4vZ3
664Please respect copyright.PENANALKWAx0fyLT
我卻笑了。664Please respect copyright.PENANAnkgq7Wjnsu
一股莫名的笑意猛地湧將上來,就像先前海綿體整個失控一樣,我當場大笑了起來,就這樣一直笑一直笑,止也止不住。664Please respect copyright.PENANAkefMwWyC00
她愣住了。664Please respect copyright.PENANAAAIY9CbnJM
也不知笑了多久,眼淚開始從眼角滑落,我從開懷大笑漸漸變成抱頭痛哭。664Please respect copyright.PENANAKmK7YwoZMY
聽說人在笑與哭的時候,所使用臉部的肌肉是一樣的,原本我不信,但那一刻,我信了,因為哭了好長一段時間後,我的臉部肌肉開始發酸,原本高分貝的號啕,逐漸轉化成低分貝的啜泣。664Please respect copyright.PENANAl2H3AeqQPH
她這評價給的可真對。664Please respect copyright.PENANAYbAafe4Dyr
噁心的廢物宅男。664Please respect copyright.PENANAZvUZtfZgip
二十六歲了,才剛出社會,沒有存款,還沒服完兵役,連一年的工作年資都沒有,才剛當地方報記者上線一個月,就動念想要離職,而且還不知道會不會有下一份能兼顧課業的工作,在台北連個能一起喝得酩酊大醉的朋友也沒有,身材因為日夜顛倒及飲食不正常而急速衰弱,連屬於人體內建的睡眠機制都崩壞,畢業論文毫無頭緒,與指導教授關係也降為冰點,就算寫完畢業了,還是看不到未來,沒有任何夢想,人生的一切似乎走到了盡頭,除了坐在開著二十四度冷氣如停屍間的黑暗房間裡,看著A片打手槍之外,我掌握不住這世界的任何一切人事物。664Please respect copyright.PENANAfcnoAOM1fo
真是個噁心的廢物宅男。664Please respect copyright.PENANA8zPAg5ZBkh
出生、成長、入學、就業,在家人的盼望及自我的期許中過了二十六年,好像匆匆,卻又緩緩,最後卻什麼都沒有,一切皆空,只剩下中肯的這個評語,總結了這盲忙茫的二十六年人生,可悲到自己都無言以對。664Please respect copyright.PENANA5OWgaNcmRX
真是個噁心的廢物宅男。664Please respect copyright.PENANAc0u8tR9KeQ
664Please respect copyright.PENANATKmVQiIat4
就在我又哭又笑的這段期間裡,她愣愣地看著我。664Please respect copyright.PENANAI2IaxMVx2E
過了好一陣子,她才問:「你還好嗎?」664Please respect copyright.PENANA592VE6yKgw
我淚眼矇矓地抬起頭,她的面孔已不再猙獰,反而換上了怯生生的表情。664Please respect copyright.PENANAoB8VpsB0Od
「走開。」我冷冷地說。664Please respect copyright.PENANAJr9wymzeIp
她愕然。664Please respect copyright.PENANA13NWIv9jGU
「我說走開!」我對她怒吼。664Please respect copyright.PENANAtH4X1PtEnv
似乎是被我嚇到了,她竟然乖乖地閃開,飄到電腦桌旁的床上。664Please respect copyright.PENANAzh3tcPE0tF
我開始繼續點看A片,繼續自瀆。664Please respect copyright.PENANAvIDSSGXsu8
世界的一切似乎被凍結住似的,我默默地在電腦桌前射精,她默默地在我的床上看著我射精,第二次,第三次,第四次……整個世界只剩下AV女優的哀號及淫叫。664Please respect copyright.PENANAoXQTJZAWOs
直到第五次時,她總算才從驚愕中回過神來。664Please respect copyright.PENANAGWwhWjQQ98
「欸!你——」她驀地又竄到我的面前,擋住我看白石茉莉奈的視線,手插著腰,準備要興師問罪。664Please respect copyright.PENANAR1zrsTKtkV
「走開。」我再次冷冷地說。664Please respect copyright.PENANAnD2EWwvns5
「什麼?」664Please respect copyright.PENANArKnLPgR5tS
「我叫你走開。」我厲聲道。664Please respect copyright.PENANAhKNrQIFyAG
「你說什麼?」她惱怒地豎起一根充滿威脅的食指,指著我說:「廢物宅男,你給我等等——」664Please respect copyright.PENANAKzf7XmkHyW
「你——給——我——走——開——!」我抓狂似地咆哮起來,一把抓起鍵盤,跳起來對著她就是盲目地狂揮亂打。664Please respect copyright.PENANArQMp3hFnYg
她嚇呆了,愣愣地任由我的鍵盤在她的身體間穿越揮打。664Please respect copyright.PENANA4FdaPpzRfp
但如同對著空氣揮打一般,我什麼也打不到,只聽「啪」的一聲巨響,我的鍵盤重重地打在電腦桌上,當場斷成兩截,其中一截彈起來,撞在我的鼻子上,鼻頭一痛,隨後鮮血混雜著鼻水劃過嘴唇,一路流到了下巴。664Please respect copyright.PENANAKhH7EW93Z9
我把手上那一截鍵盤隨手一扔,頹然地坐倒在椅子上,電腦螢幕突然動也不動。664Please respect copyright.PENANARATlZ9zHHq
當機了。664Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1Koy57aLs
終於,我連看A片打手槍都沒辦法了。664Please respect copyright.PENANAeLuFU1r5WT
664Please respect copyright.PENANAvifCLUh9y1
我又笑了起來。不由自主地慘笑起來。664Please respect copyright.PENANA9HRom2J2Yx
「嘿嘿嘿嘿……呵呵呵呵……哈哈哈哈……哈哈哈哈……哈哈哈哈……」664Please respect copyright.PENANAh736rT6GxL
她不可置信地看著我,面露恐懼,開始搖著頭後退,一路退到了牆角。664Please respect copyright.PENANAL8vP3CMjHi
我轉過頭,一邊笑,一邊看著她。664Please respect copyright.PENANA0U23VCejNS
「神經病!」她的語氣中竟然有顫音,「瘋子!神經病!」664Please respect copyright.PENANAi2D08chLLk
我的笑容更燦爛了,站起身子,搖搖晃晃地往她走去。664Please respect copyright.PENANAARXjQOJ0tY
她大驚,轉身就逃。664Please respect copyright.PENANANHjRXXNAO0
「你不要過來,你不要過來!」她一面退,一面想隨手抓起一些雜物往我扔過來,但她的手都穿越了那些雜物,抓不起任何東西,她漸漸地被我逼到了浴室門口。664Please respect copyright.PENANAJm6j35c8bT
我笑著走向她。664Please respect copyright.PENANABQMSRET3H2
「救命啊!」她發出高八度音地淒厲尖叫。664Please respect copyright.PENANAJJ3WbsMEpl
我就這樣穿過了她的身體,走進浴室,洗洗手,然後抽衛生紙來止鼻血。664Please respect copyright.PENANAeXUii1wQU3
我聽到她在浴室門口喘氣。664Please respect copyright.PENANAzxkkcbCeOC
「原來鬼也會喘氣。」我壓著鼻子,說:「我以為鬼是不用呼吸的。」664Please respect copyright.PENANAJdBOjomG7c
她愕然地轉過頭看著我。664Please respect copyright.PENANAtfvRYjW1Kd
「你現在到底是正常?還是不正常?」她顫聲問我。664Please respect copyright.PENANAMxbqnHVvGN
「比你正常。」我打開蓮蓬頭,開始清洗下體,「鬼竟然問人正不正常,真是個荒謬的世界。」664Please respect copyright.PENANAa3f30kuPvT
她回頭看著那一片狼藉的電腦桌,又詫異地望著我,顯然無法理解我的情緒為何能轉變的如此之快。664Please respect copyright.PENANAwXOa7TThLd
「瘋子!神經病!」她又自言自語地說了一次。664Please respect copyright.PENANArgctV27WFZ
我沒有理她,只是自顧自地開始脫衣洗澡。失控的情緒已隨著剛才暴力式的發洩漸轉平復,腦海雖仍是一片空白,但所有感官的意識卻是前所未有地清晰。664Please respect copyright.PENANAx09qE8Tq9f
鼻血終於止住了,我把塞在鼻孔裡的衛生紙扔進垃圾桶,失魂落魄地坐倒在浴室的角落,任由蓮蓬頭裡的熱水傾洩而下,沖刷身體。664Please respect copyright.PENANAVhiDupri4Y
664Please respect copyright.PENANAwXrlIT5h2E
原來理智真的會斷線。664Please respect copyright.PENANATO7LcNkdgU
當人的精神被壓迫到一個極致時,果然什麼事情都做得出來。664Please respect copyright.PENANAXYlyQ4ektD
曾看過一段訪問吸毒的人的紀錄片,很多吸毒的人染毒癮的初衷,都是因為空虛,毒品是一種藥物,濫用這些藥物,能讓他們的感官在接收外在世界發送的訊息時,刺激感加倍,所以他們吸毒後,去接收外在世界傳給他們的訊息時,他們與外在世界一切人事物的互動,都比原本會有的反應還誇張上數倍,莞爾會變成狂笑,哀傷會變成痛哭。664Please respect copyright.PENANAcK2NlheQnv
「你說做愛時,射精那一瞬間最爽?」紀錄片裡所訪問的一位匿名男性毒蟲說:「那我告訴你,吸完毒時有多爽——就像你全身都所有毛細孔都在射精一樣,非常爽,真的爽到讓你想永遠不離開那一瞬間。」664Please respect copyright.PENANAp8MOlAE1bC
那如果這時剝奪了他們想進入「全身都所有毛細孔都在射精」的狀態時,他們會因為感到被這個世界徹底邊緣化,進而情緒失控,抓狂,發瘋,對阻止他們的一切外在因素暴力相向。664Please respect copyright.PENANAqOc7W33FoS
就像我剛剛那樣。664Please respect copyright.PENANAe0gTwszjj2
當與外在世界互動的最後一條管道被切斷時,剎那間,我彷彿整個人從這個世界被抽離,如遭宣判無期徒刑,與人世間永遠隔離,除了啟動如同自我保衛機制的自我慘笑,就像人緊張時咬手指、抓頭髮、不安的扭動身子那樣,我已經不知道該用什麼姿態來面對這個沒有未來性可言的世界。664Please respect copyright.PENANAaEyXl6d723
所以我也只能慘笑。664Please respect copyright.PENANAOm1ceNvmEh
664Please respect copyright.PENANAZfpBetDrys
「蟬噪林愈靜,鳥鳴山更幽。」664Please respect copyright.PENANAh0S8YVABi0
——南朝.梁.王籍〈入若耶溪〉664Please respect copyright.PENANAiljOXqHbeP
664Please respect copyright.PENANAS3dJ2zq7hN
熱水如瀑布,沖了快十分鐘。664Please respect copyright.PENANAjSFaXQXyig
好安靜。我就這樣赤裸地坐在浴室的角落,世界只剩下耳裡的沖水聲。遙遠卻清晰。664Please respect copyright.PENANAsTzeZO1raT
重新恢復理智後,我看著軟掉的陰莖,想再讓它勃起,卻怎麼樣也辦不到。664Please respect copyright.PENANA8HqXlynOgM
連自己的身體最容易有反應的器官都失控。664Please respect copyright.PENANAmXKHYnt9kn
連最原始的性慾都沒法解決,陰莖在這時彷彿不屬於我的肉體,我唯一能控制的,只有感到孤獨的意識。664Please respect copyright.PENANAB4W8PNFcOV
「果然,人生走到最後,還是一個人哪……」我苦笑,然後開始哼歌:664Please respect copyright.PENANAi7nWKlercc
664Please respect copyright.PENANAOqHydYBPz4
People talking without speaking.664Please respect copyright.PENANA1sD9y7sBjF
People hearing without listening.664Please respect copyright.PENANAzvnM0h3sYJ
People writing songs that voices never share.664Please respect copyright.PENANAo5bCUBPaMb
And no one dare disturb the sound of silence.664Please respect copyright.PENANARX8IdvYWsz
664Please respect copyright.PENANAToNgn1gKUx
人們只是說話卻言不及義664Please respect copyright.PENANAsE9vOHUPAz
人們只是聽卻不認真傾聽664Please respect copyright.PENANAUleRJVZHBL
人們寫出歌聲卻不能共鳴的歌曲664Please respect copyright.PENANAjmVHoefIHe
卻沒有人敢打擾沉默的聲音!664Please respect copyright.PENANAXG8KfU5obq
664Please respect copyright.PENANAcixNQznJNv
——賽門和葛芬柯(Simon & Garfunkel)《沉默之聲》664Please respect copyright.PENANA8r97GXi4jj
664Please respect copyright.PENANAfPo164wjkM
歌聲歇落,我看著浴室的牆壁,似有所悟,但又茫然若失。664Please respect copyright.PENANAzUXLvI1cBS
沒有想起身的意思,反而希望這一瞬間永久持續,不要結束。664Please respect copyright.PENANAEI97EDtiLb
664Please respect copyright.PENANAk3ePkGl9Kx
這時,她蹲在浴室門口,關心地問:「你還好嗎?要我找中華電信來幫你重新接上理智線嗎?」
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邊緣記者事件簿之上吊紅衣女屍
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