《偏偏喜歡你》//我破咗個文青處，但佢唔肯同我一齊。 - 生日快樂（三）

於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsDeDv4Mgg
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青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZHjXM8iw7
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之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvdteKuXBM
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「好耐冇見。」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRm8LGPT4O
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「係。」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgEGM3JTP5
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接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18ph5Viw7G
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沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEmdXEhaY0
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他們都覺得對方是陌生人。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7UzNX2VZZ
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但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fyUfUCEaO
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就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10tbFRNHqp
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就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpsWHVqVWG
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「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuRd5uRPBq
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「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡso4AqmuHJL
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青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQOewiyCZD
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「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCgYo45uPC
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但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAR80HpHK9
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青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzthJzKviZe
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對。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQXJAQ27r9
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她有些不一樣了。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5Vxn5gjP8
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她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EKX3kicBK
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是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVst3WpE34p
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希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEUmYO0cDa
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是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0fmnNPbAm
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最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XZJlAXwcj
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「祝你平安。前程萬里。」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVZKpgZtg4
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Matt有些錯愕地回握：974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WkzuUjBSc
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「你都係。」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREQgCz9A1Q
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沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrindv8Vua
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「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXwmAZoz6b
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她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOGQM6ex0n
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行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoCupDMHVy
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屌，失戀啫——974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtALm9rbc6
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但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBijWdIb0F
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好痛。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoug915i2ve
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回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7LIJClzj2
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今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCgLgmugaF
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在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDwq6VrphJ
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夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWipAgsVtZ
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「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceteNjcvbG
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「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciiGVyOiO0
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青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqY7wFxsRi
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「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsSJzOsWYj
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阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzRvzGDwzB
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青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfoxNn2c7Z
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出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HW8MxyEns
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青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIgIRE0mVJ
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「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1603QdiKZb
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阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmrfWuEM7c
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「快啲許願啦。」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSphE7cIKu
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青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoefj9Tf1L
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「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7JQfJhCK6
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她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnDI7CD8LH
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過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpx8ExSsY3E
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她看着鏡子。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uyGJjKnkZ
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一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fjDjhDGEP
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我都要證明，我有本事。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2KYmaS66k
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他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBA4ZOE15P3
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他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtNZNHQBZO
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她出來，整個人都很香。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33agevCHJJ
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阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ru6wOcQ2h
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「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6QCf6q4oI
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「你咁迷信咩？」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8k68RIswvv
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她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTAtsGqHs5
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「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCisYnEWY9
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阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX75svkoEZt
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「吓話？」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILQk1qEi3j
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「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNODtr8fNG
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他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEkDxrJwNJ
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慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPUlBVfSnE
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「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADwcR3rvcF
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以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAmTnjOsZP
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後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjTmt5M0TY
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佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TBD8HlgyB
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但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。974Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvqDU7HS6o
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