JUST MY THOUGHTS - Cause y not

This is a little something I wrote for my new story "In the dark" and just thought I would put it on here, cause why not?

Dear society,

I fought my feelings

I pushed them aside, thinking maybe you'll be satisfied

do I love him? Do I need him?

Either way he can be nothing more than a friend

Dear society

When will this end

I don't want to disappoint, but your really fucking missing the point

I'm suppose to be the tough guy

who fucks the girls

and drink some wine, watching the game with the guys

but he makes me soft, he makes me feel

he makes me want to nuzzle my face by his neck

he makes my whole fucking body squeal

Dear society

why would it be so wrong for me to love a man

its not just about us putting our hands in each others pants

its about feeling safe in his embrace

having trust in and out of that sacred place

looking in his face and seeing that smile

knowing that the time you spent together was worth the while

Dear society

I'll try

try to follow the rule of this broken society

I swear this shit is giving me anxiety

worrying that if we stand to close the people will begin to glare

and stare

this just isn't fucking fair

cause I'm suppose to be the tough guy

the straight guy

who has no feelings

the word girlfriend and boyfriend had no meaning

but I'll try to be that guy

all the time

for my broken society.

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