——你好,我想買這套電影明天場次的票。對,想要這時間跟……這兩個位置,麻煩你。544Please respect copyright.PENANAeS5EziHjsx
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自己還需要準備些什麼呢? 現在女性都喜歡對方為自己做什麼呢?544Please respect copyright.PENANAngQ38XmVED
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他年紀上雖說已開始步入中年,可是外貌看起來仍然像只是三十出頭的男士。許俊赫手拿著因機器印刷而帶微溫的戲票,對明天的約會充滿期待﹔因為那位不容易靠近,亦不容許他人走到心裡的金秀亞,昨天答覆自己可以跟他明天來場約會。544Please respect copyright.PENANAMceaO5gpvA
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俊赫小心放戲票收進了錢包裡,同時在思索自己還能做些什麼,不令對方覺得自己無趣。因為他真的好些年沒約會了,已經不太清楚時下異性都在關注什麼。544Please respect copyright.PENANAfCVgrf7TjN
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該買花嗎? 不……她就算收下的那刻很喜歡,大概之後就會覺得處理它很麻煩吧?544Please respect copyright.PENANAoHwewSgPi7
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他回去的路上,每經過一家店就在想裡頭會有適合她的東西嗎?544Please respect copyright.PENANAgBFbXNOX2H
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最後他走進了一家時裝店,買了一條可以配搭任何服飾的絲巾。544Please respect copyright.PENANAceODimDpSZ
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我得想辦法,親手把它戴在她的脖子上——544Please respect copyright.PENANAgQhHlR2H3m
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那應該會是件很浪漫的事吧?544Please respect copyright.PENANAnQR5i2CJ3j
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「光是想像都令人覺得很不好意思。」544Please respect copyright.PENANARvAAsWp4hJ
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俊赫愉快揪著裝絲巾的紙袋回到所住的公寓,卻看到有些傢俱被搬運工人暫時放在大堂,準備運走:「嗯? 有新住戶搬進來嗎?」他細聲地對自己如此說,可是他很快就注意到那些傢俱,自己見過,就在秀亞的家裡。544Please respect copyright.PENANA4DOlHtjxWo
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這意味什麼,俊赫很清楚:「怎麼會……」544Please respect copyright.PENANAS61vTgCpRl
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對啊,怎麼會呢? 她答應了明天會跟自己約會的啊?544Please respect copyright.PENANA9FuWRY8jlk
544Please respect copyright.PENANA2MTdfcNMmw
他愕然跟那些搬運工人乘升降機,工人沾滿牆壁石粉的手指按下了「6」。544Please respect copyright.PENANA9b5fnvcFLu
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那是秀亞所住的樓層。俊赫慌忙眨動著眼睛,他的心跳隨著工人按下那按鈕漏了一拍。544Please respect copyright.PENANA3nSt3Se9xb
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當升降機門打開,他跟隨著搬運工人們來到熟悉的走廊。544Please respect copyright.PENANAmZC0B28Kdk
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眼前的事實,直接讓他心碎。544Please respect copyright.PENANA1ynzTEAt49
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「俊赫,你又上來找那位小姐嗎?」認識的鄰居看到他如此問。544Please respect copyright.PENANA19wzmhXIXP
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「嗯……哦。她說漏了東西在這裡,讓我過來幫她收起,晚點交給她。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAYBJUnTS7pn
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「關係真好呢?」544Please respect copyright.PENANAPlUSbSf7l6
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他笑了笑,想盡辦法給自己開脫:「說起來我忘檢查信箱了。我跟你一起下去吧?」544Please respect copyright.PENANAQzy5txwoSr
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不知什麼時候開始,這公寓的信箱就成了二人的定情之處。544Please respect copyright.PENANAdHwMD844BO
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那空間小小的信箱,是他們無法見面時所用的溝通渠道﹔秀亞離開了,而俊赫的信箱裡不存在她寫給他的字條:「怎麼會……這樣子呢?」他顫抖的手輕輕關上信箱,人閉上雙眼,努力讓自己因心痛而冒起的眼淚返回它原來的地方。544Please respect copyright.PENANAu1iIHG5G3g
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『這樣看來,能得到金秀亞關注的我,還真的是三生有幸啊?』544Please respect copyright.PENANAwJRwUYDpyQ
544Please respect copyright.PENANASUkQP9lrax
『這些隨便你怎麼想吧? 我不容易跟人們建立關係,也刻意跟他們保持距離,那是因為……我隨時都會離開他們的生活。因此沒有必要建立太多的情感。』544Please respect copyright.PENANA3xsUw0RXtO
544Please respect copyright.PENANAPOGGmzCL2g
『你這番話,我聽不懂呢?』544Please respect copyright.PENANAA2cx7hM21I
544Please respect copyright.PENANAXQwDtE2x9O
『許俊赫,你早晚會懂的。』544Please respect copyright.PENANAQYjz468tmW
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是的,俊赫知道秀亞早晚會在他的生活中消失。為了他的安全,她必須離開。544Please respect copyright.PENANAhgOefIkoLk
544Please respect copyright.PENANAnNZOrGKJGL
回到家卸下西裝外套,攤坐在門後的他無聲飲泣。544Please respect copyright.PENANAtX9zYLj0AH
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是因為自己之前替她擋刀子的傷口在痛嗎?544Please respect copyright.PENANAkBwaa41eE3
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是因為知道她明天不會應約,而心裡難受嗎?544Please respect copyright.PENANAMNncVnUiIX
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還是純粹,她能看見自己,自己卻無法找到她而痛苦呢——544Please respect copyright.PENANAIy7oxQmUXX
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俊赫抬頭看著自己冷清的房子,手拿起被他放在一旁的絲巾袋子啜泣起來。544Please respect copyright.PENANAmUIWUeysnf
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「我真的,很想替你戴上的啊。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAuampxOnKVI
544Please respect copyright.PENANA26Wjk3OrJN
戰勝不了悲傷的夜544Please respect copyright.PENANAsGU6Cj0XUA
又撐過睡不著的夜晚544Please respect copyright.PENANAz4Q8nGuxZV
與我的絕望無關544Please respect copyright.PENANAjAWAIW1sUQ
早晨又無心把我叫醒544Please respect copyright.PENANAyhAuP1mAD7
544Please respect copyright.PENANAgCeYXgeXUZ
「先生,需要我為您帶位嗎?」544Please respect copyright.PENANAz3oQB9PGiQ
544Please respect copyright.PENANA2lriO4vLvW
「謝謝你。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAZZvvVDSPqR
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俊赫坐進買好的影院座位。544Please respect copyright.PENANAgbUPb4bxkH
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他別頭看了一眼自己身旁無人的位置,再把目光投在螢幕上。544Please respect copyright.PENANAdYOmUuqdJR
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傷口比想像中的灼痛544Please respect copyright.PENANAvkfSkP7KJT
痛苦比想像中更深544Please respect copyright.PENANAHKTrIBzMK0
無數個埋怨你的晚上544Please respect copyright.PENANAsLAHLfqZLA
就像地獄544Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0Xfw4IhSY
544Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4bOoJl9YL
「俊赫,你來了啊!」544Please respect copyright.PENANAmixWUMEpKl
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「對。大嬸,給我一份五花肉跟泡菜。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAPA0MtTrjXl
544Please respect copyright.PENANAzKdplFFTLQ
「一份就夠了嗎? 你現在應該不用一個人吃飯了不是嗎?」544Please respect copyright.PENANAJf8JXkmfX0
544Please respect copyright.PENANAykKcQoIF3Z
他笑著搖頭:「才沒這回事,給我各來一份就好。」544Please respect copyright.PENANA5Fth823Kqt
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「好。」
544Please respect copyright.PENANAkeZTnMSz4r
請留在我身邊544Please respect copyright.PENANAtq7bBnsaCq
請停留在我的身邊544Please respect copyright.PENANATPhPn4LeEj
請不要放開抓著你手的我
544Please respect copyright.PENANAAJuHK2MF3y
他待在店裡等待大嬸替自己準備外賣的時候,隱約覺得有人在哪裡凝視著他。俊赫探頭望向店外的街道,街上只有忙著回家休息的路人,並不存在自己期盼的她那身影。544Please respect copyright.PENANAMCxq5QBYIU
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俊赫為自己愚昧的盼望感到可笑。544Please respect copyright.PENANA9LwPah1dNB
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「哎,原來你在這裡啊?」他蹲下來跟店家養的柴犬玩起來。544Please respect copyright.PENANAeU999h1amR
544Please respect copyright.PENANAbvsmPfANjB
要是你走遠了一步544Please respect copyright.PENANAbMe2IODzKH
我向你走一步544Please respect copyright.PENANAOzlTnoNC6Z
那不就行了嗎544Please respect copyright.PENANAwe5yNSLtQP
544Please respect copyright.PENANAMIn9jgxRb2
你是漂亮的人……544Please respect copyright.PENANAgkZKfH3kyV
你是漂亮的人544Please respect copyright.PENANAohEKnFQGiL
拜託不要對我這樣544Please respect copyright.PENANAM2HpOVnOZZ
你很了解我不是嗎?544Please respect copyright.PENANA55afTBLV33
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「請問是許俊赫先生嗎?」544Please respect copyright.PENANAuaA8lkezAk
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「嗯,我是。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAvmKbqoqcw2
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「這裡是您的快遞,請簽收。」544Please respect copyright.PENANANi4FsaGBXG
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他沒有印象自己有在網上購買了什麼東西。儘管如此,俊赫還是簽收了。544Please respect copyright.PENANAnpBfg1l6Fl
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他打開包裹,裡面放著一雙合他碼數的皮鞋,跟一盒過往俊赫有買過給她喝的流行養生品﹔除了這些,裡頭還有一張有她字跡的便利貼。544Please respect copyright.PENANAu5Zr4TZCk9
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上面寫著︰俊赫,要好好照顧自己,別讓自己太勞累了。秀亞544Please respect copyright.PENANAWRMGJjWtPc
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他望向自己放在玄關處的那雙舊皮鞋,哭笑不得地把新鞋從包裹的紙箱拿出來,把自己那雙舊皮鞋塞進去,打算第二天出門上班的時候處理掉它:「真是。」俊赫環視自己的客廳,無奈對著空氣嘆了口氣。544Please respect copyright.PENANAzsmMRVEU6b
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我現在過得怎麼樣,你都知道。544Please respect copyright.PENANAKdEPBcVtvU
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但我卻沒有辦法知道你現在過得如何。544Please respect copyright.PENANAPpU22UPS6i
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這樣會不會太卑鄙了? 你不是也知道現在最令我感到疲憊的是什麼嗎?544Please respect copyright.PENANAKS6PbWK5LX
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俊赫打開冰箱,拿出一罐啤酒灌了起來。544Please respect copyright.PENANAfxuuQQxTT4
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酒力本來就不佳的他,喝下兩三罐啤酒後,在情感的薰陶下意識開始模糊。544Please respect copyright.PENANAx0QFMzK7ik
544Please respect copyright.PENANA0MQB7sbIYN
我對自己沒有自信544Please respect copyright.PENANAsOfiWbip95
沒有自信能熬過沒有你的一天544Please respect copyright.PENANAql453cdfra
現在不知該要怎麼做544Please respect copyright.PENANAatQgUbbAOQ
失去你的我544Please respect copyright.PENANA0h9gEmzq5D
544Please respect copyright.PENANAB0eJWywQDr
就這樣抱抱我吧544Please respect copyright.PENANAc7AzifcINX
請擁抱我吧544Please respect copyright.PENANAqmDdP3LP8c
什麼話也不要說奔向我吧544Please respect copyright.PENANAttOlNqIdBC
孤獨且不安的心544Please respect copyright.PENANAodzoY9pVUT
正在如此等待著你544Please respect copyright.PENANAN7NgFu6Ebn
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他人躺在沙發上,因為酒精的影響而睡得很熟,完全沒有注意到自己家的門,被某個人打開。俊赫一直等待著的那個人,那個她輕輕關上他的家門,也悄悄來到他的身旁。544Please respect copyright.PENANAQR79veWcOK
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這個男人不怎能喝酒,她是知道的。544Please respect copyright.PENANApdDAeg3RIY
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她更知道,這一晚他是為了什麼想要喝醉。秀亞輕柔撥開遮掩著他臉的頭髮,觀望著這個讓自己無法忽視,遺忘的男人那張睡臉:「那個時候我有鐵下心,不跟你有任何接觸,你就不會那麼累了吧?」544Please respect copyright.PENANA9MwG16dOxH
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可是我卻自私,無法自拔想去擁有你——544Please respect copyright.PENANAJe09O7vwpg
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秀亞從自己的口袋裡拿出為他準備的手帶,小心翼翼把它戴到俊赫的手上。544Please respect copyright.PENANA3iWnjLlRh9
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在這個時候俊赫的手抓住她,用帶著濃濃睡意的語調說:「不要走……」544Please respect copyright.PENANAeH8bjywkL5
544Please respect copyright.PENANA7IxC4bzF18
請留在我身邊544Please respect copyright.PENANA16ql5eJ6vS
請停留在我的身邊544Please respect copyright.PENANAtjbZZtvtYo
請不要放開抓著你手的我
544Please respect copyright.PENANA0GYFcZ4Goy
544Please respect copyright.PENANA1TkFRyNnFZ
可是,她只能離開。544Please respect copyright.PENANAhLr9HKLfkt
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她沒有辦法看著這個男人,再因為自己再陷入危險之中﹔他為身邊的人犧牲太多了。544Please respect copyright.PENANAPfztYPg2RP
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秀亞握住他的手,輕輕吻向他的額頭。544Please respect copyright.PENANAmcfM27nPbx
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不管他能不能感受到這吻,這是她今晚可以為俊赫留下的唯一慰藉。
544Please respect copyright.PENANABb1UWVnTLt
544Please respect copyright.PENANALOoasu35sU
要是你走遠了一步544Please respect copyright.PENANA1NxhAnIcJ5
我向你走一步544Please respect copyright.PENANA7RL4Cubys1
不就行了嗎
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嗯——544Please respect copyright.PENANAg8iBztV0kd
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俊赫睜開眼,習慣性地伸完懶腰隨性撥弄自己的頭髮,然後他注意到自己的手上多了隻手帶,而他從來沒見過的:「怎麼……」當他望向自己家裡那飯桌上,放著之前為秀亞買的絲巾﹔只是這絲巾並沒有照他記憶中那樣,裝在店家給的小紙袋,被他收在客廳那電視機下方的櫃子裡,就這樣四四方方摺好,擺在桌子上頭。
544Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3ivTNtNxH
我愛你——544Please respect copyright.PENANAhJdR0MoIyL
544Please respect copyright.PENANAj5xy7xt2Tq
它的旁邊,放著她為自己留下的便條紙。544Please respect copyright.PENANAmsy2exQHj9
544Please respect copyright.PENANAAlhPwQdWGY
真的很愛你——
544Please respect copyright.PENANAw3YjBqZfjq
謝謝你為我挑的這款絲巾。544Please respect copyright.PENANAPwRsjFIA3L
我很喜歡,但是我決定不帶它走。544Please respect copyright.PENANAP2FDJBV6Z2
我知道這樣會令你很難受,我仍然想請求你等待。544Please respect copyright.PENANAQjCcVAaqrA
等待我可以無慮來到你身邊,讓你為我繫上它的那天。544Please respect copyright.PENANA1zX0mT3w0P
秀亞544Please respect copyright.PENANAABdb8o7Prw
544Please respect copyright.PENANACIyF0hed78
俊赫站在桌邊靜靜讀完她的便條紙。544Please respect copyright.PENANAonVwGOpw4N
544Please respect copyright.PENANAW0zpeJgyKI
他沒能發出聲音,亦未知自己該做出什麼反應。
544Please respect copyright.PENANAmgEXriNzON
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在漫長的沉默中544Please respect copyright.PENANAYMxAX5PrQq
我會大聲呼喊544Please respect copyright.PENANA92GSryR8ra
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他只能默默站在那裡,撫摸自己手腕上的手帶,並把它按壓在自己的胸口上。544Please respect copyright.PENANA27b1oGz78t
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將我愚蠢又懦弱的心——
作者外音:544Please respect copyright.PENANAIxUvatwi9j
其實短篇是我為《不能愛你嗎》準備的橋段,在構思的時候剛好發現被我當成男主藍本的演員,有在自己舉辦的活動裡演唱這首歌,而且唱得……很動人。544Please respect copyright.PENANAw3PHKkwL88
(角色許俊赫的藍本是韓國演員金南佶,他活動當天翻唱了該歌手的這首歌。)
(原唱則是如題目那裡寫的一樣,是韓國歌手鄭俊日的《擁抱我(抱抱我)》。)
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我聽完金南佶唱的版本後,就打算會引用那首歌去寫故事的情節,然後自己有印象前陣子看到PENANA的這創挑,沒忍住就「跳步」編寫了這文。544Please respect copyright.PENANA0u8JpVQezW
就像是用來練手還是實驗,看看這樣文字演譯它行不行。544Please respect copyright.PENANAR2i80PixlN
以原文的進度來看……有可能是十二、三章後才會發生的情節(暫時未知,有可能更後)。544Please respect copyright.PENANAUqckwdAsKR
所以嚴格來說我該用「《不能愛你嗎》-〈心裡的她〉」來定它名字。544Please respect copyright.PENANA4wZ2CZmVHJ
不過我很肯定當自己真的編寫到那個位置時,這邊的情節會保留,例如對白之類的,可是呈現的方式會不一樣,因為正文編寫的風格不是這樣的。(至少不完全是這樣。)544Please respect copyright.PENANAFzBz2IHWLw
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自己沒打算說把整個歌詞放在文章的尾,而是插入在文字當中。(所以不重覆安在文章後面了。)544Please respect copyright.PENANAvOOBYXNqjq
得說為了達到故事效果,其實有部分歌詞的位置不是正確的,更省了一些詞段。544Please respect copyright.PENANA1okoZyR3lA
所以有興趣了解整首歌的朋友,可以GOOGLE大神查找一下。544Please respect copyright.PENANABEGvqZxeoP
個人參考的是這個網址:544Please respect copyright.PENANAoPTB1OjX9U
https://jameumak.wordpress.com/2016/07/02/%EC%95%88%EC%95%84%EC%A4%98-%EC%A0%95%EC%A4%80%EC%9D%BC/544Please respect copyright.PENANAKrOpUFbGdv
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自己很想自行替這首歌進行個人翻譯,很可惜我沒有學韓語。544Please respect copyright.PENANAGULxCIMhBX
唯一能看出的是歌名應該不是「抱抱我」而是「擁抱我」。544Please respect copyright.PENANAZNDbB1QsmV
(為了確認我也問了下在學韓語的友人。)544Please respect copyright.PENANAO1NkHbH9HL
可是GOOGLE查到大多都那麼叫呢……544Please respect copyright.PENANAWYwXVZo27m
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我沒怎樣為自己的故事做宣傳。544Please respect copyright.PENANA2v1qx9uvQe
如果說這篇短文有意外令讀完它的人,好奇當中的許俊赫跟金秀亞兩個角色是怎相識,跟相戀,再相隔的話……歡迎去看本篇去了解它。544Please respect copyright.PENANALpAw8wWku7〔本來我該去忙著敲完正文「記憶(七) 愛的開關」,誰知道就打了這玩意……〕
怎說也好,打得挺長。544Please respect copyright.PENANAZCouDMyAGG
但願沒插傷各位眼睛。