——你好,我想買這套電影明天場次的票。對,想要這時間跟……這兩個位置,麻煩你。488Please respect copyright.PENANAr0Ne6pco39
488Please respect copyright.PENANAekZMy9FUZb
自己還需要準備些什麼呢? 現在女性都喜歡對方為自己做什麼呢?488Please respect copyright.PENANAyLpnJdiKtE
488Please respect copyright.PENANANJD98hrUos
他年紀上雖說已開始步入中年,可是外貌看起來仍然像只是三十出頭的男士。許俊赫手拿著因機器印刷而帶微溫的戲票,對明天的約會充滿期待﹔因為那位不容易靠近,亦不容許他人走到心裡的金秀亞,昨天答覆自己可以跟他明天來場約會。488Please respect copyright.PENANA8IX8xm7jrT
488Please respect copyright.PENANAcvWx3Ftt5G
俊赫小心放戲票收進了錢包裡,同時在思索自己還能做些什麼,不令對方覺得自己無趣。因為他真的好些年沒約會了,已經不太清楚時下異性都在關注什麼。488Please respect copyright.PENANABGDheJMKUM
488Please respect copyright.PENANAjCYPNavbGu
該買花嗎? 不……她就算收下的那刻很喜歡,大概之後就會覺得處理它很麻煩吧?488Please respect copyright.PENANASJK99mHcM0
488Please respect copyright.PENANAkRHLfrF2r2
他回去的路上,每經過一家店就在想裡頭會有適合她的東西嗎?488Please respect copyright.PENANAPcuyvvOp8G
488Please respect copyright.PENANAB3ajcKcTo0
最後他走進了一家時裝店,買了一條可以配搭任何服飾的絲巾。488Please respect copyright.PENANAbTdmsu08pM
488Please respect copyright.PENANAzZSRz8wtgl
我得想辦法,親手把它戴在她的脖子上——488Please respect copyright.PENANAMaM2FBZhlz
488Please respect copyright.PENANAr58BY2Q2bX
那應該會是件很浪漫的事吧?488Please respect copyright.PENANAQrpzpuhipU
488Please respect copyright.PENANAp1mP0vGKMp
「光是想像都令人覺得很不好意思。」488Please respect copyright.PENANA35N2McfEjO
488Please respect copyright.PENANA91kOka18Cc
俊赫愉快揪著裝絲巾的紙袋回到所住的公寓,卻看到有些傢俱被搬運工人暫時放在大堂,準備運走:「嗯? 有新住戶搬進來嗎?」他細聲地對自己如此說,可是他很快就注意到那些傢俱,自己見過,就在秀亞的家裡。488Please respect copyright.PENANAi0n64Lr4Ui
488Please respect copyright.PENANAne3nzqggR6
這意味什麼,俊赫很清楚:「怎麼會……」488Please respect copyright.PENANAO5k9OhMwvx
488Please respect copyright.PENANAVmH1awYayk
對啊,怎麼會呢? 她答應了明天會跟自己約會的啊?488Please respect copyright.PENANAs7gIJJE8E5
488Please respect copyright.PENANAcE0pMAe5EO
他愕然跟那些搬運工人乘升降機,工人沾滿牆壁石粉的手指按下了「6」。488Please respect copyright.PENANAhcNsqG2ulk
488Please respect copyright.PENANAdiD1PFb6op
那是秀亞所住的樓層。俊赫慌忙眨動著眼睛,他的心跳隨著工人按下那按鈕漏了一拍。488Please respect copyright.PENANASCJUm42FgR
488Please respect copyright.PENANANV2I7bH8jD
當升降機門打開,他跟隨著搬運工人們來到熟悉的走廊。488Please respect copyright.PENANAbxCFQc7dEw
488Please respect copyright.PENANAmeIPVYikPE
眼前的事實,直接讓他心碎。488Please respect copyright.PENANA4f2urxN3TL
488Please respect copyright.PENANAgdZAgOcIkp
「俊赫,你又上來找那位小姐嗎?」認識的鄰居看到他如此問。488Please respect copyright.PENANA3crZrMY0ux
488Please respect copyright.PENANAfCLfIoq3nt
「嗯……哦。她說漏了東西在這裡,讓我過來幫她收起,晚點交給她。」488Please respect copyright.PENANAofDjMerEGt
488Please respect copyright.PENANAhjjtN18U0y
「關係真好呢?」488Please respect copyright.PENANAoRLqmPVyEm
488Please respect copyright.PENANA0WIP7z3gQe
他笑了笑,想盡辦法給自己開脫:「說起來我忘檢查信箱了。我跟你一起下去吧?」488Please respect copyright.PENANASKbQeN2ndQ
488Please respect copyright.PENANAy1tH4B2lbZ
不知什麼時候開始,這公寓的信箱就成了二人的定情之處。488Please respect copyright.PENANAbq2gqDXS5n
488Please respect copyright.PENANAdVkps8RAr2
那空間小小的信箱,是他們無法見面時所用的溝通渠道﹔秀亞離開了,而俊赫的信箱裡不存在她寫給他的字條:「怎麼會……這樣子呢?」他顫抖的手輕輕關上信箱,人閉上雙眼,努力讓自己因心痛而冒起的眼淚返回它原來的地方。488Please respect copyright.PENANA6bkrBxNygL
488Please respect copyright.PENANAEV0kukEhmV
488Please respect copyright.PENANA7KMmLmCCKO
『這樣看來,能得到金秀亞關注的我,還真的是三生有幸啊?』488Please respect copyright.PENANAM91AeOneNX
488Please respect copyright.PENANAiNDzjlHjMR
『這些隨便你怎麼想吧? 我不容易跟人們建立關係,也刻意跟他們保持距離,那是因為……我隨時都會離開他們的生活。因此沒有必要建立太多的情感。』488Please respect copyright.PENANAlcldatkjLs
488Please respect copyright.PENANA0yqUNtqMvz
『你這番話,我聽不懂呢?』488Please respect copyright.PENANA5XAHGhm1OI
488Please respect copyright.PENANAjiWl9SoTFt
『許俊赫,你早晚會懂的。』488Please respect copyright.PENANAfGNvY6QLYm
488Please respect copyright.PENANAwPCOvoeEOD
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是的,俊赫知道秀亞早晚會在他的生活中消失。為了他的安全,她必須離開。488Please respect copyright.PENANAaGtCwjS3bf
488Please respect copyright.PENANAqNHtwR5Lgy
回到家卸下西裝外套,攤坐在門後的他無聲飲泣。488Please respect copyright.PENANAE5x7CJklFu
488Please respect copyright.PENANAozDs3RU56o
是因為自己之前替她擋刀子的傷口在痛嗎?488Please respect copyright.PENANAEvp7RLwSAB
488Please respect copyright.PENANAMPKDH3uSON
是因為知道她明天不會應約,而心裡難受嗎?488Please respect copyright.PENANAbpGGVyiotD
488Please respect copyright.PENANAxM8PAMZqMK
還是純粹,她能看見自己,自己卻無法找到她而痛苦呢——488Please respect copyright.PENANAzYLEzE0soa
488Please respect copyright.PENANAwntl6SHkW7
俊赫抬頭看著自己冷清的房子,手拿起被他放在一旁的絲巾袋子啜泣起來。488Please respect copyright.PENANAmBpBRr2dQ8
488Please respect copyright.PENANAMEuwBVk8Rd
「我真的,很想替你戴上的啊。」488Please respect copyright.PENANA5iZz01tbj9
488Please respect copyright.PENANAKrgqCwyEyq
戰勝不了悲傷的夜488Please respect copyright.PENANAjRGj9g9hin
又撐過睡不著的夜晚488Please respect copyright.PENANAV1yWbch6CB
與我的絕望無關488Please respect copyright.PENANAxYhU8RDsg1
早晨又無心把我叫醒488Please respect copyright.PENANAGOCGRqsc9t
488Please respect copyright.PENANADeDXsnIlCv
「先生,需要我為您帶位嗎?」488Please respect copyright.PENANARYOSen45QX
488Please respect copyright.PENANADzzWBsdV7X
「謝謝你。」488Please respect copyright.PENANAi2McHqyl3K
488Please respect copyright.PENANA2p0fneEU7G
俊赫坐進買好的影院座位。488Please respect copyright.PENANASrxdb297qG
488Please respect copyright.PENANA5gJV9TtD9o
他別頭看了一眼自己身旁無人的位置,再把目光投在螢幕上。488Please respect copyright.PENANA3Wt6QF3H5z
488Please respect copyright.PENANAGo0rQ5sqyF
傷口比想像中的灼痛488Please respect copyright.PENANAUbqltyRZ6i
痛苦比想像中更深488Please respect copyright.PENANADlFa1KVxIh
無數個埋怨你的晚上488Please respect copyright.PENANAGMoQ2bIpvf
就像地獄488Please respect copyright.PENANANFMNqAsNWs
488Please respect copyright.PENANAI5GOSC5nJs
「俊赫,你來了啊!」488Please respect copyright.PENANAcn3jcyaMsk
488Please respect copyright.PENANAyXlbmX5wai
「對。大嬸,給我一份五花肉跟泡菜。」488Please respect copyright.PENANAIIh847J8jz
488Please respect copyright.PENANANXCauLovlw
「一份就夠了嗎? 你現在應該不用一個人吃飯了不是嗎?」488Please respect copyright.PENANAlWgVuN4Rw1
488Please respect copyright.PENANANBOtb8B49M
他笑著搖頭:「才沒這回事,給我各來一份就好。」488Please respect copyright.PENANAaztYgAUvuw
488Please respect copyright.PENANAHKjVB0rxRn
「好。」
488Please respect copyright.PENANA7R7f6G8guZ
請留在我身邊488Please respect copyright.PENANAnnRRl6NPzb
請停留在我的身邊488Please respect copyright.PENANAlPPFlhK5OX
請不要放開抓著你手的我
488Please respect copyright.PENANATbHTMreSmH
他待在店裡等待大嬸替自己準備外賣的時候,隱約覺得有人在哪裡凝視著他。俊赫探頭望向店外的街道,街上只有忙著回家休息的路人,並不存在自己期盼的她那身影。488Please respect copyright.PENANAxL1nnSTjXu
488Please respect copyright.PENANAHrQV1M2VuZ
俊赫為自己愚昧的盼望感到可笑。488Please respect copyright.PENANAJDVCUgbAA7
488Please respect copyright.PENANAzsYT8NzSpE
「哎,原來你在這裡啊?」他蹲下來跟店家養的柴犬玩起來。488Please respect copyright.PENANAvClB4PuCld
488Please respect copyright.PENANA0oy3AE0jwM
要是你走遠了一步488Please respect copyright.PENANAmJftOIZm6k
我向你走一步488Please respect copyright.PENANA1XcIpTMsRI
那不就行了嗎488Please respect copyright.PENANA0U5pZ3aqSO
488Please respect copyright.PENANA0XZET0SPxE
你是漂亮的人……488Please respect copyright.PENANAkkkvwJ2nKY
你是漂亮的人488Please respect copyright.PENANAjYiy7OZjq8
拜託不要對我這樣488Please respect copyright.PENANARSfWWP3hn9
你很了解我不是嗎?488Please respect copyright.PENANAD1IWaOmbK9
488Please respect copyright.PENANACHKmI8U76X
「請問是許俊赫先生嗎?」488Please respect copyright.PENANAeu3MVCcaZX
488Please respect copyright.PENANAmY5ASRWqS1
「嗯,我是。」488Please respect copyright.PENANAfrFq5U6axG
488Please respect copyright.PENANAj70eLZ9Q6L
「這裡是您的快遞,請簽收。」488Please respect copyright.PENANARUVBHxI7X5
488Please respect copyright.PENANATuRQEla2HH
他沒有印象自己有在網上購買了什麼東西。儘管如此,俊赫還是簽收了。488Please respect copyright.PENANAnVfOFFOaTv
488Please respect copyright.PENANA7g0IhAt4zi
他打開包裹,裡面放著一雙合他碼數的皮鞋,跟一盒過往俊赫有買過給她喝的流行養生品﹔除了這些,裡頭還有一張有她字跡的便利貼。488Please respect copyright.PENANAbEa1CTler4
488Please respect copyright.PENANACJg5EgcIcf
上面寫著︰俊赫,要好好照顧自己,別讓自己太勞累了。秀亞488Please respect copyright.PENANADqd1gCywEe
488Please respect copyright.PENANA80LxFlq1SU
他望向自己放在玄關處的那雙舊皮鞋,哭笑不得地把新鞋從包裹的紙箱拿出來,把自己那雙舊皮鞋塞進去,打算第二天出門上班的時候處理掉它:「真是。」俊赫環視自己的客廳,無奈對著空氣嘆了口氣。488Please respect copyright.PENANACYJ850tjwu
488Please respect copyright.PENANA3CxMbkf2We
我現在過得怎麼樣,你都知道。488Please respect copyright.PENANAX0NiWa89PW
488Please respect copyright.PENANAI7kWaFeBVy
但我卻沒有辦法知道你現在過得如何。488Please respect copyright.PENANA5R350LHX9X
488Please respect copyright.PENANA4JgWuEmzmN
這樣會不會太卑鄙了? 你不是也知道現在最令我感到疲憊的是什麼嗎?488Please respect copyright.PENANAcTX4qe9qBV
488Please respect copyright.PENANAso9IUVbqmI
俊赫打開冰箱,拿出一罐啤酒灌了起來。488Please respect copyright.PENANAaH2v7TTIpD
488Please respect copyright.PENANATExwZwRoJm
酒力本來就不佳的他,喝下兩三罐啤酒後,在情感的薰陶下意識開始模糊。488Please respect copyright.PENANAxsekRuHDo9
488Please respect copyright.PENANAtlkK22BZKg
我對自己沒有自信488Please respect copyright.PENANAxRhiChaWLC
沒有自信能熬過沒有你的一天488Please respect copyright.PENANAkINTaSvRXw
現在不知該要怎麼做488Please respect copyright.PENANAjQ7h8epAvC
失去你的我488Please respect copyright.PENANALy8JaR3biE
488Please respect copyright.PENANACdihJZVgEQ
就這樣抱抱我吧488Please respect copyright.PENANArNdg9iaSSq
請擁抱我吧488Please respect copyright.PENANAWUKwcvhiGP
什麼話也不要說奔向我吧488Please respect copyright.PENANA7c0lOqDqSe
孤獨且不安的心488Please respect copyright.PENANAOFj5rCrpry
正在如此等待著你488Please respect copyright.PENANAJdFiOZOcwp
488Please respect copyright.PENANA377mZ864zQ
他人躺在沙發上,因為酒精的影響而睡得很熟,完全沒有注意到自己家的門,被某個人打開。俊赫一直等待著的那個人,那個她輕輕關上他的家門,也悄悄來到他的身旁。488Please respect copyright.PENANANX71spVPU2
488Please respect copyright.PENANA535pyWESaL
這個男人不怎能喝酒,她是知道的。488Please respect copyright.PENANA4uCZzgKDRo
488Please respect copyright.PENANADzv40y6WJt
她更知道,這一晚他是為了什麼想要喝醉。秀亞輕柔撥開遮掩著他臉的頭髮,觀望著這個讓自己無法忽視,遺忘的男人那張睡臉:「那個時候我有鐵下心,不跟你有任何接觸,你就不會那麼累了吧?」488Please respect copyright.PENANAZKe1lTc4MN
488Please respect copyright.PENANAi1NTAkXMmC
可是我卻自私,無法自拔想去擁有你——488Please respect copyright.PENANA6UJ82uNf64
488Please respect copyright.PENANABDElvoZjYt
秀亞從自己的口袋裡拿出為他準備的手帶,小心翼翼把它戴到俊赫的手上。488Please respect copyright.PENANAy4wmAjdnVv
488Please respect copyright.PENANABZffeSBXlc
在這個時候俊赫的手抓住她,用帶著濃濃睡意的語調說:「不要走……」488Please respect copyright.PENANAWSPp3yvLeu
488Please respect copyright.PENANATO1J0iZs32
請留在我身邊488Please respect copyright.PENANACsEpuCX0Qx
請停留在我的身邊488Please respect copyright.PENANAT8n6rqe7Hl
請不要放開抓著你手的我
488Please respect copyright.PENANAwxyJnggjRZ
488Please respect copyright.PENANAB2BlEysK2x
可是,她只能離開。488Please respect copyright.PENANADwRu2nGbZh
488Please respect copyright.PENANAQbMaIJCYJF
她沒有辦法看著這個男人,再因為自己再陷入危險之中﹔他為身邊的人犧牲太多了。488Please respect copyright.PENANAUELrs1KK3P
488Please respect copyright.PENANAlIf19SLHX2
秀亞握住他的手,輕輕吻向他的額頭。488Please respect copyright.PENANAH9uZTPcNSn
488Please respect copyright.PENANAfT8sPpuNo9
不管他能不能感受到這吻,這是她今晚可以為俊赫留下的唯一慰藉。
488Please respect copyright.PENANANu5io16Lui
488Please respect copyright.PENANAJpSSajOnJ3
要是你走遠了一步488Please respect copyright.PENANAVjweQJnOqT
我向你走一步488Please respect copyright.PENANAxEmdyr6r0C
不就行了嗎
488Please respect copyright.PENANAv3mfoQtMTv
嗯——488Please respect copyright.PENANA2ZeFHezV5Z
488Please respect copyright.PENANA7IusnTKnO6
俊赫睜開眼,習慣性地伸完懶腰隨性撥弄自己的頭髮,然後他注意到自己的手上多了隻手帶,而他從來沒見過的:「怎麼……」當他望向自己家裡那飯桌上,放著之前為秀亞買的絲巾﹔只是這絲巾並沒有照他記憶中那樣,裝在店家給的小紙袋,被他收在客廳那電視機下方的櫃子裡,就這樣四四方方摺好,擺在桌子上頭。
488Please respect copyright.PENANAg30UgkTr9G
我愛你——488Please respect copyright.PENANAIWasScvpjZ
488Please respect copyright.PENANAOUdEB63Acl
它的旁邊,放著她為自己留下的便條紙。488Please respect copyright.PENANApwIsE55op8
488Please respect copyright.PENANALNdgi0yHgU
真的很愛你——
488Please respect copyright.PENANAd0RVQlQspt
謝謝你為我挑的這款絲巾。488Please respect copyright.PENANA0HlHqs4KOG
我很喜歡,但是我決定不帶它走。488Please respect copyright.PENANA1RL9qAumhj
我知道這樣會令你很難受,我仍然想請求你等待。488Please respect copyright.PENANA6HvJSODfZc
等待我可以無慮來到你身邊,讓你為我繫上它的那天。488Please respect copyright.PENANAcyDijOR1yb
秀亞488Please respect copyright.PENANAYEaLDueO8n
488Please respect copyright.PENANAkgD4PypQOi
俊赫站在桌邊靜靜讀完她的便條紙。488Please respect copyright.PENANATo23DrvBDI
488Please respect copyright.PENANA8UiA89plVG
他沒能發出聲音,亦未知自己該做出什麼反應。
488Please respect copyright.PENANAtMKEXdyUe7
488Please respect copyright.PENANAvqw9xDERA0
在漫長的沉默中488Please respect copyright.PENANAyoHzr3239c
我會大聲呼喊488Please respect copyright.PENANAy0zFGQc1y0
488Please respect copyright.PENANA5YafBPtCMq
488Please respect copyright.PENANAQy8KwcXCBU
他只能默默站在那裡,撫摸自己手腕上的手帶,並把它按壓在自己的胸口上。488Please respect copyright.PENANAk9EMaHqLQp
488Please respect copyright.PENANAAulwZOCn3K
488Please respect copyright.PENANAnwS6dSfvBG
將我愚蠢又懦弱的心——
作者外音:488Please respect copyright.PENANA2wxH5DxNaL
其實短篇是我為《不能愛你嗎》準備的橋段,在構思的時候剛好發現被我當成男主藍本的演員,有在自己舉辦的活動裡演唱這首歌,而且唱得……很動人。488Please respect copyright.PENANApb4YEz0Zcy
(角色許俊赫的藍本是韓國演員金南佶,他活動當天翻唱了該歌手的這首歌。)
(原唱則是如題目那裡寫的一樣,是韓國歌手鄭俊日的《擁抱我(抱抱我)》。)
488Please respect copyright.PENANAtsynVyKsOc
我聽完金南佶唱的版本後,就打算會引用那首歌去寫故事的情節,然後自己有印象前陣子看到PENANA的這創挑,沒忍住就「跳步」編寫了這文。488Please respect copyright.PENANAGgSuNMgk6r
就像是用來練手還是實驗,看看這樣文字演譯它行不行。488Please respect copyright.PENANAhHQTBWI5hv
以原文的進度來看……有可能是十二、三章後才會發生的情節(暫時未知,有可能更後)。488Please respect copyright.PENANAuZ5HXBnD2U
所以嚴格來說我該用「《不能愛你嗎》-〈心裡的她〉」來定它名字。488Please respect copyright.PENANAzmrOH1sEp9
不過我很肯定當自己真的編寫到那個位置時,這邊的情節會保留,例如對白之類的,可是呈現的方式會不一樣,因為正文編寫的風格不是這樣的。(至少不完全是這樣。)488Please respect copyright.PENANAux3a2iWBo0
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自己沒打算說把整個歌詞放在文章的尾,而是插入在文字當中。(所以不重覆安在文章後面了。)488Please respect copyright.PENANAJGIdxObW4c
得說為了達到故事效果,其實有部分歌詞的位置不是正確的,更省了一些詞段。488Please respect copyright.PENANAACxrB91Wmm
所以有興趣了解整首歌的朋友,可以GOOGLE大神查找一下。488Please respect copyright.PENANARc3bJeqmny
個人參考的是這個網址:488Please respect copyright.PENANAuohSP9c8Hq
https://jameumak.wordpress.com/2016/07/02/%EC%95%88%EC%95%84%EC%A4%98-%EC%A0%95%EC%A4%80%EC%9D%BC/488Please respect copyright.PENANA63nNMmJ40n
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自己很想自行替這首歌進行個人翻譯,很可惜我沒有學韓語。488Please respect copyright.PENANA4Q0l5BWVAl
唯一能看出的是歌名應該不是「抱抱我」而是「擁抱我」。488Please respect copyright.PENANAmD13QuIX7I
(為了確認我也問了下在學韓語的友人。)488Please respect copyright.PENANAUCO8REtClN
可是GOOGLE查到大多都那麼叫呢……488Please respect copyright.PENANALPHw1b8LWc
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我沒怎樣為自己的故事做宣傳。488Please respect copyright.PENANAdWWUc5Ha0l
如果說這篇短文有意外令讀完它的人,好奇當中的許俊赫跟金秀亞兩個角色是怎相識,跟相戀,再相隔的話……歡迎去看本篇去了解它。488Please respect copyright.PENANA3FSCUktQ7e〔本來我該去忙著敲完正文「記憶(七) 愛的開關」,誰知道就打了這玩意……〕
怎說也好,打得挺長。488Please respect copyright.PENANAFzmFMaAlQE
但願沒插傷各位眼睛。