——你好,我想買這套電影明天場次的票。對,想要這時間跟……這兩個位置,麻煩你。337Please respect copyright.PENANAPjkVgZqh65
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自己還需要準備些什麼呢? 現在女性都喜歡對方為自己做什麼呢?337Please respect copyright.PENANAM29Gde8eiv
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他年紀上雖說已開始步入中年,可是外貌看起來仍然像只是三十出頭的男士。許俊赫手拿著因機器印刷而帶微溫的戲票,對明天的約會充滿期待﹔因為那位不容易靠近,亦不容許他人走到心裡的金秀亞,昨天答覆自己可以跟他明天來場約會。337Please respect copyright.PENANAW4gxMST26Q
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俊赫小心放戲票收進了錢包裡,同時在思索自己還能做些什麼,不令對方覺得自己無趣。因為他真的好些年沒約會了,已經不太清楚時下異性都在關注什麼。337Please respect copyright.PENANAXd48rmRO6c
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該買花嗎? 不……她就算收下的那刻很喜歡,大概之後就會覺得處理它很麻煩吧?337Please respect copyright.PENANAu6XzBpXXAF
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他回去的路上,每經過一家店就在想裡頭會有適合她的東西嗎?337Please respect copyright.PENANA3QPpVe4nxw
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最後他走進了一家時裝店,買了一條可以配搭任何服飾的絲巾。337Please respect copyright.PENANAuvTEmUCoin
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我得想辦法,親手把它戴在她的脖子上——337Please respect copyright.PENANAuyarNtrZoH
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那應該會是件很浪漫的事吧?337Please respect copyright.PENANAiUdrQ0YdBC
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「光是想像都令人覺得很不好意思。」337Please respect copyright.PENANAVI9EUNsE27
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俊赫愉快揪著裝絲巾的紙袋回到所住的公寓,卻看到有些傢俱被搬運工人暫時放在大堂,準備運走:「嗯? 有新住戶搬進來嗎?」他細聲地對自己如此說,可是他很快就注意到那些傢俱,自己見過,就在秀亞的家裡。337Please respect copyright.PENANApEEyF7QJab
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這意味什麼,俊赫很清楚:「怎麼會……」337Please respect copyright.PENANAouJYIfPofA
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對啊,怎麼會呢? 她答應了明天會跟自己約會的啊?337Please respect copyright.PENANA5wpmX58d7k
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他愕然跟那些搬運工人乘升降機,工人沾滿牆壁石粉的手指按下了「6」。337Please respect copyright.PENANALGLKwWJaNu
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那是秀亞所住的樓層。俊赫慌忙眨動著眼睛,他的心跳隨著工人按下那按鈕漏了一拍。337Please respect copyright.PENANAM6QmqIvw7r
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當升降機門打開,他跟隨著搬運工人們來到熟悉的走廊。337Please respect copyright.PENANALUfOh7QZLc
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眼前的事實,直接讓他心碎。337Please respect copyright.PENANA8jPHNrSWz2
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「俊赫,你又上來找那位小姐嗎?」認識的鄰居看到他如此問。337Please respect copyright.PENANAnsGfI23Kry
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「嗯……哦。她說漏了東西在這裡,讓我過來幫她收起,晚點交給她。」337Please respect copyright.PENANAul0yAVJoea
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「關係真好呢?」337Please respect copyright.PENANAWHFKEOCixv
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他笑了笑,想盡辦法給自己開脫:「說起來我忘檢查信箱了。我跟你一起下去吧?」337Please respect copyright.PENANARvYgNJ0p85
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不知什麼時候開始,這公寓的信箱就成了二人的定情之處。337Please respect copyright.PENANA2DYjQJfuLU
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那空間小小的信箱,是他們無法見面時所用的溝通渠道﹔秀亞離開了,而俊赫的信箱裡不存在她寫給他的字條:「怎麼會……這樣子呢?」他顫抖的手輕輕關上信箱,人閉上雙眼,努力讓自己因心痛而冒起的眼淚返回它原來的地方。337Please respect copyright.PENANAj63zOGG7LF
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『這樣看來,能得到金秀亞關注的我,還真的是三生有幸啊?』337Please respect copyright.PENANAn455SGhSAs
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『這些隨便你怎麼想吧? 我不容易跟人們建立關係,也刻意跟他們保持距離,那是因為……我隨時都會離開他們的生活。因此沒有必要建立太多的情感。』337Please respect copyright.PENANA65fgTEXuFf
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『你這番話,我聽不懂呢?』337Please respect copyright.PENANAqfQRxnVNCq
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『許俊赫,你早晚會懂的。』337Please respect copyright.PENANArcnfv2SGUh
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是的,俊赫知道秀亞早晚會在他的生活中消失。為了他的安全,她必須離開。337Please respect copyright.PENANAvXJpkMgGDa
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回到家卸下西裝外套,攤坐在門後的他無聲飲泣。337Please respect copyright.PENANAX1jYzAxjrF
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是因為自己之前替她擋刀子的傷口在痛嗎?337Please respect copyright.PENANA77sduYwdhM
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是因為知道她明天不會應約,而心裡難受嗎?337Please respect copyright.PENANAL6Lno4mWDW
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還是純粹,她能看見自己,自己卻無法找到她而痛苦呢——337Please respect copyright.PENANAmdwbwt4pHv
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俊赫抬頭看著自己冷清的房子,手拿起被他放在一旁的絲巾袋子啜泣起來。337Please respect copyright.PENANAlyQwJEMLTy
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「我真的,很想替你戴上的啊。」337Please respect copyright.PENANAwP9ZMRldHF
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戰勝不了悲傷的夜337Please respect copyright.PENANAkmLNI3agBB
又撐過睡不著的夜晚337Please respect copyright.PENANA4ayjZDZQwn
與我的絕望無關337Please respect copyright.PENANAnrhLoyDvGb
早晨又無心把我叫醒337Please respect copyright.PENANAiEdPbyX1re
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「先生,需要我為您帶位嗎?」337Please respect copyright.PENANAy4e2kxgAX3
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「謝謝你。」337Please respect copyright.PENANAzltKyfuEfl
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俊赫坐進買好的影院座位。337Please respect copyright.PENANAbdvnIqcKKS
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他別頭看了一眼自己身旁無人的位置,再把目光投在螢幕上。337Please respect copyright.PENANACSzA9HRMw8
337Please respect copyright.PENANANhspTHhT1T
傷口比想像中的灼痛337Please respect copyright.PENANA4OSzBV5LX8
痛苦比想像中更深337Please respect copyright.PENANASvmps75s5p
無數個埋怨你的晚上337Please respect copyright.PENANAagtBkR8nK2
就像地獄337Please respect copyright.PENANAgS1rvJIJ0D
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「俊赫,你來了啊!」337Please respect copyright.PENANAkcTySein2A
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「對。大嬸,給我一份五花肉跟泡菜。」337Please respect copyright.PENANA05wKuZdClF
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「一份就夠了嗎? 你現在應該不用一個人吃飯了不是嗎?」337Please respect copyright.PENANANbBCka7sR1
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他笑著搖頭:「才沒這回事,給我各來一份就好。」337Please respect copyright.PENANAYvBatrEG4C
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「好。」
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請留在我身邊337Please respect copyright.PENANAn0o6iSWQbR
請停留在我的身邊337Please respect copyright.PENANAA97ftVRyis
請不要放開抓著你手的我
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他待在店裡等待大嬸替自己準備外賣的時候,隱約覺得有人在哪裡凝視著他。俊赫探頭望向店外的街道,街上只有忙著回家休息的路人,並不存在自己期盼的她那身影。337Please respect copyright.PENANA4krWKTxx3g
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俊赫為自己愚昧的盼望感到可笑。337Please respect copyright.PENANAHAFQlLK5Vr
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「哎,原來你在這裡啊?」他蹲下來跟店家養的柴犬玩起來。337Please respect copyright.PENANAGgD4MLF6yo
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要是你走遠了一步337Please respect copyright.PENANAPCz4fhLrqg
我向你走一步337Please respect copyright.PENANAkBS5yF77PL
那不就行了嗎337Please respect copyright.PENANAIeHAarynFV
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你是漂亮的人……337Please respect copyright.PENANAKqcNGl5Odd
你是漂亮的人337Please respect copyright.PENANAMcO5n5yyPM
拜託不要對我這樣337Please respect copyright.PENANA2C2cM3lqb9
你很了解我不是嗎?337Please respect copyright.PENANAda7DqbMbZp
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「請問是許俊赫先生嗎?」337Please respect copyright.PENANAx2tgzuDCUn
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「嗯,我是。」337Please respect copyright.PENANADFySBoX6cV
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「這裡是您的快遞,請簽收。」337Please respect copyright.PENANAaoAxipSs9B
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他沒有印象自己有在網上購買了什麼東西。儘管如此,俊赫還是簽收了。337Please respect copyright.PENANAWGyQOP6hb6
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他打開包裹,裡面放著一雙合他碼數的皮鞋,跟一盒過往俊赫有買過給她喝的流行養生品﹔除了這些,裡頭還有一張有她字跡的便利貼。337Please respect copyright.PENANA8A7FTcQUVv
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上面寫著︰俊赫,要好好照顧自己,別讓自己太勞累了。秀亞337Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5fXcJDzSa
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他望向自己放在玄關處的那雙舊皮鞋,哭笑不得地把新鞋從包裹的紙箱拿出來,把自己那雙舊皮鞋塞進去,打算第二天出門上班的時候處理掉它:「真是。」俊赫環視自己的客廳,無奈對著空氣嘆了口氣。337Please respect copyright.PENANAPcsaaQuR1k
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我現在過得怎麼樣,你都知道。337Please respect copyright.PENANAoPPTWZ6s4z
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但我卻沒有辦法知道你現在過得如何。337Please respect copyright.PENANAgOMNAfZ5Bo
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這樣會不會太卑鄙了? 你不是也知道現在最令我感到疲憊的是什麼嗎?337Please respect copyright.PENANAUtkaqq5eIC
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俊赫打開冰箱,拿出一罐啤酒灌了起來。337Please respect copyright.PENANATM7XVe35b4
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酒力本來就不佳的他,喝下兩三罐啤酒後,在情感的薰陶下意識開始模糊。337Please respect copyright.PENANAASzH86OTsU
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我對自己沒有自信337Please respect copyright.PENANADhf3FfWjcE
沒有自信能熬過沒有你的一天337Please respect copyright.PENANAzj1ttNN9sj
現在不知該要怎麼做337Please respect copyright.PENANA6ciczSNUMq
失去你的我337Please respect copyright.PENANAQJPBN4rGwu
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就這樣抱抱我吧337Please respect copyright.PENANAhNvznW0rWM
請擁抱我吧337Please respect copyright.PENANAqfGv734J3b
什麼話也不要說奔向我吧337Please respect copyright.PENANAoHEX3DIoww
孤獨且不安的心337Please respect copyright.PENANAcPjbx0L2UE
正在如此等待著你337Please respect copyright.PENANAJs862BJFbE
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他人躺在沙發上,因為酒精的影響而睡得很熟,完全沒有注意到自己家的門,被某個人打開。俊赫一直等待著的那個人,那個她輕輕關上他的家門,也悄悄來到他的身旁。337Please respect copyright.PENANAD3PSRotdzs
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這個男人不怎能喝酒,她是知道的。337Please respect copyright.PENANALLTWxWKYfv
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她更知道,這一晚他是為了什麼想要喝醉。秀亞輕柔撥開遮掩著他臉的頭髮,觀望著這個讓自己無法忽視,遺忘的男人那張睡臉:「那個時候我有鐵下心,不跟你有任何接觸,你就不會那麼累了吧?」337Please respect copyright.PENANArBFK04ZN7A
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可是我卻自私,無法自拔想去擁有你——337Please respect copyright.PENANAwFKfuzskoK
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秀亞從自己的口袋裡拿出為他準備的手帶,小心翼翼把它戴到俊赫的手上。337Please respect copyright.PENANArE5D7D4rvH
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在這個時候俊赫的手抓住她,用帶著濃濃睡意的語調說:「不要走……」337Please respect copyright.PENANAqBvRtOII4p
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請留在我身邊337Please respect copyright.PENANAYvGrEviAfd
請停留在我的身邊337Please respect copyright.PENANA4jbTT8qrnB
請不要放開抓著你手的我
337Please respect copyright.PENANATnLGZGjL0a
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可是,她只能離開。337Please respect copyright.PENANAucay6Wp5Y0
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她沒有辦法看著這個男人,再因為自己再陷入危險之中﹔他為身邊的人犧牲太多了。337Please respect copyright.PENANA7Un2LeUN3t
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秀亞握住他的手,輕輕吻向他的額頭。337Please respect copyright.PENANAYLInObz5tf
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不管他能不能感受到這吻,這是她今晚可以為俊赫留下的唯一慰藉。
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要是你走遠了一步337Please respect copyright.PENANABfd9u9Yvxo
我向你走一步337Please respect copyright.PENANARAxI4e4H9v
不就行了嗎
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嗯——337Please respect copyright.PENANABIZkOoHRKg
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俊赫睜開眼,習慣性地伸完懶腰隨性撥弄自己的頭髮,然後他注意到自己的手上多了隻手帶,而他從來沒見過的:「怎麼……」當他望向自己家裡那飯桌上,放著之前為秀亞買的絲巾﹔只是這絲巾並沒有照他記憶中那樣,裝在店家給的小紙袋,被他收在客廳那電視機下方的櫃子裡,就這樣四四方方摺好,擺在桌子上頭。
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我愛你——337Please respect copyright.PENANAcufJcYYEIC
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它的旁邊,放著她為自己留下的便條紙。337Please respect copyright.PENANAMQPOALb5UK
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真的很愛你——
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謝謝你為我挑的這款絲巾。337Please respect copyright.PENANARJdsTAFyOx
我很喜歡,但是我決定不帶它走。337Please respect copyright.PENANAEg4AIyrb6c
我知道這樣會令你很難受,我仍然想請求你等待。337Please respect copyright.PENANAZWpNjJzDgF
等待我可以無慮來到你身邊,讓你為我繫上它的那天。337Please respect copyright.PENANAgacaBhnP8v
秀亞337Please respect copyright.PENANAV6vRCwBLm8
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俊赫站在桌邊靜靜讀完她的便條紙。337Please respect copyright.PENANA7IyHv4wL2z
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他沒能發出聲音,亦未知自己該做出什麼反應。
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在漫長的沉默中337Please respect copyright.PENANAM7qgX7UUmG
我會大聲呼喊337Please respect copyright.PENANA6WLYEIEa9v
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他只能默默站在那裡,撫摸自己手腕上的手帶,並把它按壓在自己的胸口上。337Please respect copyright.PENANAOmyy3P1iJ2
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將我愚蠢又懦弱的心——
作者外音:337Please respect copyright.PENANAVb3jVvbG3T
其實短篇是我為《不能愛你嗎》準備的橋段,在構思的時候剛好發現被我當成男主藍本的演員,有在自己舉辦的活動裡演唱這首歌,而且唱得……很動人。337Please respect copyright.PENANAjeEZBoy7Sc
(角色許俊赫的藍本是韓國演員金南佶,他活動當天翻唱了該歌手的這首歌。)
(原唱則是如題目那裡寫的一樣,是韓國歌手鄭俊日的《擁抱我(抱抱我)》。)
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我聽完金南佶唱的版本後,就打算會引用那首歌去寫故事的情節,然後自己有印象前陣子看到PENANA的這創挑,沒忍住就「跳步」編寫了這文。337Please respect copyright.PENANAslyPU43mNL
就像是用來練手還是實驗,看看這樣文字演譯它行不行。337Please respect copyright.PENANAPEc6KgreYK
以原文的進度來看……有可能是十二、三章後才會發生的情節(暫時未知,有可能更後)。337Please respect copyright.PENANAswEXhF5dKF
所以嚴格來說我該用「《不能愛你嗎》-〈心裡的她〉」來定它名字。337Please respect copyright.PENANAtUMKIjRUNA
不過我很肯定當自己真的編寫到那個位置時,這邊的情節會保留,例如對白之類的,可是呈現的方式會不一樣,因為正文編寫的風格不是這樣的。(至少不完全是這樣。)337Please respect copyright.PENANAstxHAsNJd7
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自己沒打算說把整個歌詞放在文章的尾,而是插入在文字當中。(所以不重覆安在文章後面了。)337Please respect copyright.PENANAJv6AJhUZ2c
得說為了達到故事效果,其實有部分歌詞的位置不是正確的,更省了一些詞段。337Please respect copyright.PENANAIE1LIPpbGR
所以有興趣了解整首歌的朋友,可以GOOGLE大神查找一下。337Please respect copyright.PENANARrQbIBApYT
個人參考的是這個網址:337Please respect copyright.PENANA7cckvs9uyg
https://jameumak.wordpress.com/2016/07/02/%EC%95%88%EC%95%84%EC%A4%98-%EC%A0%95%EC%A4%80%EC%9D%BC/337Please respect copyright.PENANA6WIUEJZSwe
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自己很想自行替這首歌進行個人翻譯,很可惜我沒有學韓語。337Please respect copyright.PENANAdamf8r266o
唯一能看出的是歌名應該不是「抱抱我」而是「擁抱我」。337Please respect copyright.PENANAAc15hmVD5h
(為了確認我也問了下在學韓語的友人。)337Please respect copyright.PENANAhDPROuMCGh
可是GOOGLE查到大多都那麼叫呢……337Please respect copyright.PENANA12PtzUhD3H
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我沒怎樣為自己的故事做宣傳。337Please respect copyright.PENANA7OWOPCR3hi
如果說這篇短文有意外令讀完它的人,好奇當中的許俊赫跟金秀亞兩個角色是怎相識,跟相戀,再相隔的話……歡迎去看本篇去了解它。337Please respect copyright.PENANA5gJMoPZpQ3〔本來我該去忙著敲完正文「記憶(七) 愛的開關」,誰知道就打了這玩意……〕
怎說也好,打得挺長。337Please respect copyright.PENANAG37uut84JM
但願沒插傷各位眼睛。