——你好,我想買這套電影明天場次的票。對,想要這時間跟……這兩個位置,麻煩你。489Please respect copyright.PENANAUtZ2keKHIq
489Please respect copyright.PENANAGwh0kxjhKr
自己還需要準備些什麼呢? 現在女性都喜歡對方為自己做什麼呢?489Please respect copyright.PENANAFhAIpS9uUQ
489Please respect copyright.PENANAJMhFqVvEC1
他年紀上雖說已開始步入中年,可是外貌看起來仍然像只是三十出頭的男士。許俊赫手拿著因機器印刷而帶微溫的戲票,對明天的約會充滿期待﹔因為那位不容易靠近,亦不容許他人走到心裡的金秀亞,昨天答覆自己可以跟他明天來場約會。489Please respect copyright.PENANAZNNPuakgBT
489Please respect copyright.PENANA4WHUCPBEy4
俊赫小心放戲票收進了錢包裡,同時在思索自己還能做些什麼,不令對方覺得自己無趣。因為他真的好些年沒約會了,已經不太清楚時下異性都在關注什麼。489Please respect copyright.PENANAmbqP8utruD
489Please respect copyright.PENANAVnVUXOUZqz
該買花嗎? 不……她就算收下的那刻很喜歡,大概之後就會覺得處理它很麻煩吧?489Please respect copyright.PENANAWEGNvS9Gvc
489Please respect copyright.PENANAjxMAlzdHLp
他回去的路上,每經過一家店就在想裡頭會有適合她的東西嗎?489Please respect copyright.PENANASGeSXL7221
489Please respect copyright.PENANAt3JxOhkGnq
最後他走進了一家時裝店,買了一條可以配搭任何服飾的絲巾。489Please respect copyright.PENANACzAT75QONI
489Please respect copyright.PENANAyLbh7zi9WO
我得想辦法,親手把它戴在她的脖子上——489Please respect copyright.PENANAp6VYwQsNmk
489Please respect copyright.PENANAOx97F7KovX
那應該會是件很浪漫的事吧?489Please respect copyright.PENANAapdT3NCop3
489Please respect copyright.PENANAE7QnwzXW3q
「光是想像都令人覺得很不好意思。」489Please respect copyright.PENANA6NzgiLYYJ7
489Please respect copyright.PENANAwYEThIGVM5
俊赫愉快揪著裝絲巾的紙袋回到所住的公寓,卻看到有些傢俱被搬運工人暫時放在大堂,準備運走:「嗯? 有新住戶搬進來嗎?」他細聲地對自己如此說,可是他很快就注意到那些傢俱,自己見過,就在秀亞的家裡。489Please respect copyright.PENANAsX20AnU4SK
489Please respect copyright.PENANAMdTLg9feBG
這意味什麼,俊赫很清楚:「怎麼會……」489Please respect copyright.PENANAMNeevT8T8T
489Please respect copyright.PENANAqe9sJn9Yk7
對啊,怎麼會呢? 她答應了明天會跟自己約會的啊?489Please respect copyright.PENANAXxZCSvST2q
489Please respect copyright.PENANAi7uELJt60J
他愕然跟那些搬運工人乘升降機,工人沾滿牆壁石粉的手指按下了「6」。489Please respect copyright.PENANAhu3VKsSNeh
489Please respect copyright.PENANAiUIej31wWt
那是秀亞所住的樓層。俊赫慌忙眨動著眼睛,他的心跳隨著工人按下那按鈕漏了一拍。489Please respect copyright.PENANAqatuWreM0h
489Please respect copyright.PENANACJa9kofn1h
當升降機門打開,他跟隨著搬運工人們來到熟悉的走廊。489Please respect copyright.PENANAacrqxvGGjM
489Please respect copyright.PENANAlly0n1tVcc
眼前的事實,直接讓他心碎。489Please respect copyright.PENANAazVkiKaVN2
489Please respect copyright.PENANAd8ccOmu4Ut
「俊赫,你又上來找那位小姐嗎?」認識的鄰居看到他如此問。489Please respect copyright.PENANAQtPYRxCk8W
489Please respect copyright.PENANAjgmDJIbSYM
「嗯……哦。她說漏了東西在這裡,讓我過來幫她收起,晚點交給她。」489Please respect copyright.PENANAwBzP37ZGAh
489Please respect copyright.PENANA7Cfem0hfwb
「關係真好呢?」489Please respect copyright.PENANAtUpqMiNczR
489Please respect copyright.PENANA6Y0ZumUa0U
他笑了笑,想盡辦法給自己開脫:「說起來我忘檢查信箱了。我跟你一起下去吧?」489Please respect copyright.PENANAvQt7eIxSIJ
489Please respect copyright.PENANAeOgQp6aO1s
不知什麼時候開始,這公寓的信箱就成了二人的定情之處。489Please respect copyright.PENANAtD50eEN5bo
489Please respect copyright.PENANA1ojiiul0uP
那空間小小的信箱,是他們無法見面時所用的溝通渠道﹔秀亞離開了,而俊赫的信箱裡不存在她寫給他的字條:「怎麼會……這樣子呢?」他顫抖的手輕輕關上信箱,人閉上雙眼,努力讓自己因心痛而冒起的眼淚返回它原來的地方。489Please respect copyright.PENANAMditgnYPyu
489Please respect copyright.PENANAsaHlkAlxn1
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『這樣看來,能得到金秀亞關注的我,還真的是三生有幸啊?』489Please respect copyright.PENANATKtoEmHba1
489Please respect copyright.PENANAf9gmoJXgL5
『這些隨便你怎麼想吧? 我不容易跟人們建立關係,也刻意跟他們保持距離,那是因為……我隨時都會離開他們的生活。因此沒有必要建立太多的情感。』489Please respect copyright.PENANAyAACqYdWFv
489Please respect copyright.PENANAYjLfIegL4z
『你這番話,我聽不懂呢?』489Please respect copyright.PENANAVX5KUU3qUQ
489Please respect copyright.PENANAaCKOBUwVbi
『許俊赫,你早晚會懂的。』489Please respect copyright.PENANAAVNPPZEO7l
489Please respect copyright.PENANAlvNiK0akaA
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是的,俊赫知道秀亞早晚會在他的生活中消失。為了他的安全,她必須離開。489Please respect copyright.PENANADfGSQGFcT8
489Please respect copyright.PENANA1RaEynJPDs
回到家卸下西裝外套,攤坐在門後的他無聲飲泣。489Please respect copyright.PENANAQdn6NO72md
489Please respect copyright.PENANA3rqAXbYDIM
是因為自己之前替她擋刀子的傷口在痛嗎?489Please respect copyright.PENANAL8jjZA5YGD
489Please respect copyright.PENANAbkonqeue4W
是因為知道她明天不會應約,而心裡難受嗎?489Please respect copyright.PENANATW14k709ES
489Please respect copyright.PENANArLBgKxBlHB
還是純粹,她能看見自己,自己卻無法找到她而痛苦呢——489Please respect copyright.PENANAJZmdIJXLNy
489Please respect copyright.PENANAd46Na0mbSG
俊赫抬頭看著自己冷清的房子,手拿起被他放在一旁的絲巾袋子啜泣起來。489Please respect copyright.PENANAeCG5GVF0Rp
489Please respect copyright.PENANAPJ2DvUTyTI
「我真的,很想替你戴上的啊。」489Please respect copyright.PENANA2PH8RTsnYT
489Please respect copyright.PENANAMsExBJCwaM
戰勝不了悲傷的夜489Please respect copyright.PENANAx2veiWHT7s
又撐過睡不著的夜晚489Please respect copyright.PENANA6TmbrGCr7m
與我的絕望無關489Please respect copyright.PENANABl9PMxQtK7
早晨又無心把我叫醒489Please respect copyright.PENANAIaAWeyuuLM
489Please respect copyright.PENANAavavFw3uab
「先生,需要我為您帶位嗎?」489Please respect copyright.PENANAyZd6CHdGBj
489Please respect copyright.PENANAGPBEiv7GAq
「謝謝你。」489Please respect copyright.PENANAeZ53TFbX05
489Please respect copyright.PENANAKj0saEqPfC
俊赫坐進買好的影院座位。489Please respect copyright.PENANAfzFGJeDp6X
489Please respect copyright.PENANATYoWK58jKb
他別頭看了一眼自己身旁無人的位置,再把目光投在螢幕上。489Please respect copyright.PENANA8UXNxJaKQZ
489Please respect copyright.PENANAIuyjJZzvZD
傷口比想像中的灼痛489Please respect copyright.PENANAyVE4KE1Y3R
痛苦比想像中更深489Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7SR0qaI3t
無數個埋怨你的晚上489Please respect copyright.PENANAkr65veuwEi
就像地獄489Please respect copyright.PENANAZJgmCIDDeK
489Please respect copyright.PENANAM1GvGnYgmv
「俊赫,你來了啊!」489Please respect copyright.PENANAPrXF4pSkbq
489Please respect copyright.PENANANENVf6fHBe
「對。大嬸,給我一份五花肉跟泡菜。」489Please respect copyright.PENANA9PSXU5D6n4
489Please respect copyright.PENANAd3tD9GgTsI
「一份就夠了嗎? 你現在應該不用一個人吃飯了不是嗎?」489Please respect copyright.PENANAc5DolB7OmZ
489Please respect copyright.PENANANnnxR8pQV7
他笑著搖頭:「才沒這回事,給我各來一份就好。」489Please respect copyright.PENANAbp3r6NDIJP
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「好。」
489Please respect copyright.PENANAHBnmHqOeLQ
請留在我身邊489Please respect copyright.PENANAAPFgeeAWF6
請停留在我的身邊489Please respect copyright.PENANA0PqYbiEfXp
請不要放開抓著你手的我
489Please respect copyright.PENANAyTV48DxF2e
他待在店裡等待大嬸替自己準備外賣的時候,隱約覺得有人在哪裡凝視著他。俊赫探頭望向店外的街道,街上只有忙著回家休息的路人,並不存在自己期盼的她那身影。489Please respect copyright.PENANAKkNfWUtgqQ
489Please respect copyright.PENANADWKcbBZnZa
俊赫為自己愚昧的盼望感到可笑。489Please respect copyright.PENANAkNhMj9pX5S
489Please respect copyright.PENANAHkWn2Wu7Uz
「哎,原來你在這裡啊?」他蹲下來跟店家養的柴犬玩起來。489Please respect copyright.PENANAwtmVZAojri
489Please respect copyright.PENANABqXNpxaFxA
要是你走遠了一步489Please respect copyright.PENANASWN2qAudHY
我向你走一步489Please respect copyright.PENANAQifq9y6IIb
那不就行了嗎489Please respect copyright.PENANAtqpXUsPWQ3
489Please respect copyright.PENANAFOyhkG3Dri
你是漂亮的人……489Please respect copyright.PENANASsWKX7Au3X
你是漂亮的人489Please respect copyright.PENANA4vGBaL1eop
拜託不要對我這樣489Please respect copyright.PENANAxgslNDRnS7
你很了解我不是嗎?489Please respect copyright.PENANA3koKB61NuD
489Please respect copyright.PENANA1x7G55SYkE
「請問是許俊赫先生嗎?」489Please respect copyright.PENANAxes5o773vM
489Please respect copyright.PENANANruIsXstB8
「嗯,我是。」489Please respect copyright.PENANA1zs4KNrhl3
489Please respect copyright.PENANAEw7yyptpVq
「這裡是您的快遞,請簽收。」489Please respect copyright.PENANAgqMQnoesZ6
489Please respect copyright.PENANAbFEaR3RSwh
他沒有印象自己有在網上購買了什麼東西。儘管如此,俊赫還是簽收了。489Please respect copyright.PENANAKpoaKWOY7P
489Please respect copyright.PENANACJYQNlJosX
他打開包裹,裡面放著一雙合他碼數的皮鞋,跟一盒過往俊赫有買過給她喝的流行養生品﹔除了這些,裡頭還有一張有她字跡的便利貼。489Please respect copyright.PENANAlP0BMoiDIz
489Please respect copyright.PENANAgAtSlmRppL
上面寫著︰俊赫,要好好照顧自己,別讓自己太勞累了。秀亞489Please respect copyright.PENANA6hzbEtv5Ar
489Please respect copyright.PENANAdJtWJjBl5t
他望向自己放在玄關處的那雙舊皮鞋,哭笑不得地把新鞋從包裹的紙箱拿出來,把自己那雙舊皮鞋塞進去,打算第二天出門上班的時候處理掉它:「真是。」俊赫環視自己的客廳,無奈對著空氣嘆了口氣。489Please respect copyright.PENANA7J3zlT3FnJ
489Please respect copyright.PENANAigxEdzh00T
我現在過得怎麼樣,你都知道。489Please respect copyright.PENANA1rq8m4JP1j
489Please respect copyright.PENANAdC8pgPonSM
但我卻沒有辦法知道你現在過得如何。489Please respect copyright.PENANAL8gAvGboLO
489Please respect copyright.PENANAIEG6PcXY2A
這樣會不會太卑鄙了? 你不是也知道現在最令我感到疲憊的是什麼嗎?489Please respect copyright.PENANAdH9gAOT0z2
489Please respect copyright.PENANAteBa85KB2J
俊赫打開冰箱,拿出一罐啤酒灌了起來。489Please respect copyright.PENANATV2Aar5ZAl
489Please respect copyright.PENANAHPQe4OSiCF
酒力本來就不佳的他,喝下兩三罐啤酒後,在情感的薰陶下意識開始模糊。489Please respect copyright.PENANAjpidJykfXN
489Please respect copyright.PENANA4RBryx4SgM
我對自己沒有自信489Please respect copyright.PENANAH8vSbM2JST
沒有自信能熬過沒有你的一天489Please respect copyright.PENANAXE7RADHz0f
現在不知該要怎麼做489Please respect copyright.PENANAZPLQ5IqNuY
失去你的我489Please respect copyright.PENANAxVqsffBifo
489Please respect copyright.PENANAa2xrsP7oSM
就這樣抱抱我吧489Please respect copyright.PENANAhkCMYeH0z4
請擁抱我吧489Please respect copyright.PENANAxgGnzwAJxN
什麼話也不要說奔向我吧489Please respect copyright.PENANAPRvKoczygp
孤獨且不安的心489Please respect copyright.PENANA33dG344Qbi
正在如此等待著你489Please respect copyright.PENANAzUipcvEcKb
489Please respect copyright.PENANAyQp8nSLaic
他人躺在沙發上,因為酒精的影響而睡得很熟,完全沒有注意到自己家的門,被某個人打開。俊赫一直等待著的那個人,那個她輕輕關上他的家門,也悄悄來到他的身旁。489Please respect copyright.PENANAkF5W6JVShh
489Please respect copyright.PENANArxb5s1suJb
這個男人不怎能喝酒,她是知道的。489Please respect copyright.PENANASgs9rlsY45
489Please respect copyright.PENANAYxiea6JmCz
她更知道,這一晚他是為了什麼想要喝醉。秀亞輕柔撥開遮掩著他臉的頭髮,觀望著這個讓自己無法忽視,遺忘的男人那張睡臉:「那個時候我有鐵下心,不跟你有任何接觸,你就不會那麼累了吧?」489Please respect copyright.PENANAmn7wS9J9EY
489Please respect copyright.PENANAAk9ANC9dLc
可是我卻自私,無法自拔想去擁有你——489Please respect copyright.PENANAShF6B5LvEi
489Please respect copyright.PENANAFaNhrSyejK
秀亞從自己的口袋裡拿出為他準備的手帶,小心翼翼把它戴到俊赫的手上。489Please respect copyright.PENANACOQLGeTlVL
489Please respect copyright.PENANAS0NLrRE6S5
在這個時候俊赫的手抓住她,用帶著濃濃睡意的語調說:「不要走……」489Please respect copyright.PENANAPTRFRhJeBx
489Please respect copyright.PENANAPZoYeUX5En
請留在我身邊489Please respect copyright.PENANANEHlf0laNB
請停留在我的身邊489Please respect copyright.PENANAlyXJFr5NUU
請不要放開抓著你手的我
489Please respect copyright.PENANAYghgSA97Wk
489Please respect copyright.PENANACDBM8hCxHA
可是,她只能離開。489Please respect copyright.PENANAfE53R3UmDb
489Please respect copyright.PENANASUoA3FZp89
她沒有辦法看著這個男人,再因為自己再陷入危險之中﹔他為身邊的人犧牲太多了。489Please respect copyright.PENANAqG0XzHbFFU
489Please respect copyright.PENANATWbb5yIRWV
秀亞握住他的手,輕輕吻向他的額頭。489Please respect copyright.PENANAckz0oM3PCJ
489Please respect copyright.PENANAiBAnUAeBN1
不管他能不能感受到這吻,這是她今晚可以為俊赫留下的唯一慰藉。
489Please respect copyright.PENANA83fQML28Zg
489Please respect copyright.PENANAUbmfLMKjEB
要是你走遠了一步489Please respect copyright.PENANAoNS8nWBdGD
我向你走一步489Please respect copyright.PENANAluNx4l8YEz
不就行了嗎
489Please respect copyright.PENANAigyGfW1gJT
嗯——489Please respect copyright.PENANANpDQjelku9
489Please respect copyright.PENANAxdX1XPj28I
俊赫睜開眼,習慣性地伸完懶腰隨性撥弄自己的頭髮,然後他注意到自己的手上多了隻手帶,而他從來沒見過的:「怎麼……」當他望向自己家裡那飯桌上,放著之前為秀亞買的絲巾﹔只是這絲巾並沒有照他記憶中那樣,裝在店家給的小紙袋,被他收在客廳那電視機下方的櫃子裡,就這樣四四方方摺好,擺在桌子上頭。
489Please respect copyright.PENANAEsf6RizCNo
我愛你——489Please respect copyright.PENANAimLKB8gYIp
489Please respect copyright.PENANAdMEDyKjQ9i
它的旁邊,放著她為自己留下的便條紙。489Please respect copyright.PENANAceXdN71vmp
489Please respect copyright.PENANApD2m09wxpP
真的很愛你——
489Please respect copyright.PENANAnLvYQmD4nf
謝謝你為我挑的這款絲巾。489Please respect copyright.PENANAdKS9jACI8T
我很喜歡,但是我決定不帶它走。489Please respect copyright.PENANAJv3giRlS7E
我知道這樣會令你很難受,我仍然想請求你等待。489Please respect copyright.PENANAYdIvLUSYkt
等待我可以無慮來到你身邊,讓你為我繫上它的那天。489Please respect copyright.PENANAMHNEq8dtcR
秀亞489Please respect copyright.PENANAtGyDETBdXZ
489Please respect copyright.PENANAGvheF4b4hP
俊赫站在桌邊靜靜讀完她的便條紙。489Please respect copyright.PENANAUbjVy5Jk3H
489Please respect copyright.PENANABMImDxjQFy
他沒能發出聲音,亦未知自己該做出什麼反應。
489Please respect copyright.PENANANscA61dTDy
489Please respect copyright.PENANAVK2CWnOfjV
在漫長的沉默中489Please respect copyright.PENANAdDBTvWbqCb
我會大聲呼喊489Please respect copyright.PENANA9obR4dXb0R
489Please respect copyright.PENANAriHt3ARzop
489Please respect copyright.PENANAvAApRGazxk
他只能默默站在那裡,撫摸自己手腕上的手帶,並把它按壓在自己的胸口上。489Please respect copyright.PENANA8ZZqC4nzRq
489Please respect copyright.PENANAeMBuB3Cu2a
489Please respect copyright.PENANAMADabn1ihq
將我愚蠢又懦弱的心——
作者外音:489Please respect copyright.PENANAsVODrcBGCh
其實短篇是我為《不能愛你嗎》準備的橋段,在構思的時候剛好發現被我當成男主藍本的演員,有在自己舉辦的活動裡演唱這首歌,而且唱得……很動人。489Please respect copyright.PENANAWgu7mLssyI
(角色許俊赫的藍本是韓國演員金南佶,他活動當天翻唱了該歌手的這首歌。)
(原唱則是如題目那裡寫的一樣,是韓國歌手鄭俊日的《擁抱我(抱抱我)》。)
489Please respect copyright.PENANA1L4U4N7Zqy
我聽完金南佶唱的版本後,就打算會引用那首歌去寫故事的情節,然後自己有印象前陣子看到PENANA的這創挑,沒忍住就「跳步」編寫了這文。489Please respect copyright.PENANA849PbUbqL2
就像是用來練手還是實驗,看看這樣文字演譯它行不行。489Please respect copyright.PENANA1uVfymZWw5
以原文的進度來看……有可能是十二、三章後才會發生的情節(暫時未知,有可能更後)。489Please respect copyright.PENANAKqeXvCm83e
所以嚴格來說我該用「《不能愛你嗎》-〈心裡的她〉」來定它名字。489Please respect copyright.PENANArk8GHX4ToW
不過我很肯定當自己真的編寫到那個位置時,這邊的情節會保留,例如對白之類的,可是呈現的方式會不一樣,因為正文編寫的風格不是這樣的。(至少不完全是這樣。)489Please respect copyright.PENANAAJ1HR2JRyX
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自己沒打算說把整個歌詞放在文章的尾,而是插入在文字當中。(所以不重覆安在文章後面了。)489Please respect copyright.PENANAt3tqfxXViL
得說為了達到故事效果,其實有部分歌詞的位置不是正確的,更省了一些詞段。489Please respect copyright.PENANA9gQOHnfRpj
所以有興趣了解整首歌的朋友,可以GOOGLE大神查找一下。489Please respect copyright.PENANAWEvg2nhsu2
個人參考的是這個網址:489Please respect copyright.PENANAIl4gUGqzO4
https://jameumak.wordpress.com/2016/07/02/%EC%95%88%EC%95%84%EC%A4%98-%EC%A0%95%EC%A4%80%EC%9D%BC/489Please respect copyright.PENANAt7v7omjD4q
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自己很想自行替這首歌進行個人翻譯,很可惜我沒有學韓語。489Please respect copyright.PENANA8LXwbT9e3v
唯一能看出的是歌名應該不是「抱抱我」而是「擁抱我」。489Please respect copyright.PENANAFQVI7Y75NZ
(為了確認我也問了下在學韓語的友人。)489Please respect copyright.PENANA6hRMMESd8X
可是GOOGLE查到大多都那麼叫呢……489Please respect copyright.PENANATOsKou3cJN
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我沒怎樣為自己的故事做宣傳。489Please respect copyright.PENANAIzMszLptXL
如果說這篇短文有意外令讀完它的人,好奇當中的許俊赫跟金秀亞兩個角色是怎相識,跟相戀,再相隔的話……歡迎去看本篇去了解它。489Please respect copyright.PENANA7iNw2Pow9N〔本來我該去忙著敲完正文「記憶(七) 愛的開關」,誰知道就打了這玩意……〕
怎說也好,打得挺長。489Please respect copyright.PENANA79ldItdx84
但願沒插傷各位眼睛。