清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44c0KFLfjM
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又做了這個夢？443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jx1n0HuOt
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8FbD2qQPA
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLz1AtaSCYq
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zqSuCJuS3
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOuBCosBbD
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7ZbpmRQOB
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBM9p8HqWk8
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8tnxWlvTo
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaReLuSKKG
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRnenS215S
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5t4f9mbvSI
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvHPMBOIfj
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPW6HyQrTr9
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１９９８年１１月２７日：443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtceOvXWal
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2lCUsuEQQ
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWGtfN5sIN
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeBc6KGhxu
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbYCn3Qxh5
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這個過程的目的是？443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1rICqNAwd
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6gVBlo53S
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPnOnbnZPB
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１９９８年１２月２４日：443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzk85xkEIn
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzCIopDU4O
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJmEa5DlJg
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只是為了生存！443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2vnhTokzG
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIocMghOJav
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfWqUZ9TKO
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIlE0xiZkp
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CXupTLVUd
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNb4cEKRjm
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMF61Wrb69
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4etFxg8VKP
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOeYNn2hUG
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVqqzU3T20
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxugpzRSIJx
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聽到我的問題　眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWj7yx2H3PI
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJChCqt051S
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9y4YA04CU
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmK1xvaozPl
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkXYWJGR5X
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「喔？為何呢？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMWmCe32ne
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwK7VibVsf
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想起了雙親．．．．．．443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvQIB1TNbi
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXfyJUqq55
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMoquDtv5C
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl894jK4zXS
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡra7DDezG5G
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNIJbaQDoH
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlZtX28q0e
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1BQKyAXm5
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「你感覺到了什麼？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uaNpJtQob
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DjOUVh2BO
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19VW5t0f00
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我仍是搖頭。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxCZv9LvLD
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzGyvwlAqj
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnI50XdoAs
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6X1uWrtG9K
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZVFB3Up1c
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「．．．．．．．」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGlGYjpqha
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6vWw7I7Hy
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ry0DGg1SF
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「是這樣子嗎？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRR3x3m5a8
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpY6f61nPAz
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5bT8Nzaf3
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtE8uDW2vsQ
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLsFY0VfyF
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhp2OPmglxl
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqJfiBFL6P
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTwZBjA8xX
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「我、我的水彩？」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAFsYColwX
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNTPRnJzoH
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJuAg8nW2I
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsfgUHrVP6
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Lgn0N3GBK
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYnpoYX6Ey
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcicphCjmS
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIlDBG3Oas
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOjoCoayDH
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英國；443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQ9XXlWFBx
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１９９８年１２月２４日；443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8ROW9k5HO
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzgjaT8Ftz
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6AWrF1mob
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）8964 copyright protection439ＰＥＮＡＮＡHk845Ov2Bz 維尼

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