清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYH4HGNp5p7
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又做了這個夢？425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSb7IaPoNkY
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudAb9DGzwA
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8cPLpkQRP
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnB7cTnd0nh
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEbV2iCObz
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxx4XQqmns
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9ljkGTGpp
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWZkuRXnWl
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWK0z1wWKQm
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2xnnkJB6s
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvWPgQkj6o
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06BKPMX3Ob
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqdfSygrS8
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１９９８年１１月２７日：425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmxk2668bK
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoB08yZqohf
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9xnWkupqK
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3tKRE9Jxg
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyk8nfGkPJB
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這個過程的目的是？425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MVbliv1R7
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhGAvN2mwy
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0uDRNQfXV
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１９９８年１２月２４日：425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sQTsHwogp
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwTMKkiAxa
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWg8aSBzBeW
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只是為了生存！425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9isFOzE5N
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iWZMk688f
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWzK9cjo4e
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBP72FerpX2
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfJEHhRAc8
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniTCNOVcLJ
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrmbLg03m3
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJWJDoRlPb
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRNgdJWb3l
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGYs9HjUAW
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznQVrxZ4oa
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聽到我的問題　眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjw9AOpkfmZ
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUkP9VsbZ5
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh32EYIJjpE
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXS8zrLqifi
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2i5SHL5uQs
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「喔？為何呢？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlitSmF5wBd
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyIC6nPHEA
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想起了雙親．．．．．．425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNa6OtzLaZ6
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfw7LPrh1gJ
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRlzPId38O
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ418DUz2sNF
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3Bm2bH1Ux
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPX2ca7iwf
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PDUXfXbr0
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibo1qmlk2t
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「你感覺到了什麼？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Swb36Dv6J
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZiCbI9lO7
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaN0deIgwKl
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我仍是搖頭。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqim6CCzHGz
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKvbhNNXVY
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBFMRCXqTP
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSwlDjE3UU
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4tV6e66Pm
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「．．．．．．．」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwH4HM6OZz
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3MmLmMXME
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2jwG3DA9U
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「是這樣子嗎？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLknxU8Ll1
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87AvevEpiA
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSY4psbJJmK
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dTG9WmZSh
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvPrl2U1sC
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeafww2VIQK
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvaaYi9Ysu
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeo4VpgbTQ
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「我、我的水彩？」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23A2kYfx6r
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8yktVgmDz
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRP3eWahyy
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJx5bMEElxM
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRIxLZ727l
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdo3KCmpJ0
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqm1ULWWmtV
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdhBJdxwoj
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTF0QOCVq8K
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英國；425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNa1e44cJfk
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１９９８年１２月２４日；425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFY2Q2pQOf
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkfG1FfuyU
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！425Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKaKP7xLG1
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