清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgUb8lerLV
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又做了這個夢？387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKe0qus7g6
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekgLbeWQZg
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxzUl5N2zb
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ90nVEhTqu
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsyldASyWH
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlNsLw4gum
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gj3jBx1or
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNhWnqhd9F
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtF6wyG39Hy
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrkoZp8n46
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreaSHnXTZP
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0XNwEjOBA
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotPMndhy7u
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１９９８年１１月２７日：387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGNaCATkFv
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vTzJXVPK3
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWuU8vgbcL
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzuhuKv3eH
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2bWPN9eF1
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這個過程的目的是？387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWV4tOSGJd
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5HPrEFfqK
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVA6VhR1bC
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１９９８年１２月２４日：387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25dj8SmWpt
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01HGxi1ldM
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTXL62rqCW
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只是為了生存！387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PoRrYwALs
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeVtpyrNDv
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5j7Las77i1
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4sQ26DJQV
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcetSHvQrJ
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6CqqWux73
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifplawPm5a
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSmQcArjU8
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmZ6VicMS7
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EdRk2hb0U
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNajPSiyP3Y
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聽到我的問題　眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX94t1hZ14Y
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZSPBpQUCh
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycUzyBgNbB
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AiCb1sV4X
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqE7TqNAjy
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「喔？為何呢？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfd33gAojK
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXxnpZuLkj
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想起了雙親．．．．．．387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPs7rEYR9us
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ708kM5UVsz
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcD589EDV5
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJxGw04SrH
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO108uUYcIk
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvTguSRdF7
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDq5iusAXsG
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcXxxCu4u9
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「你感覺到了什麼？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKuQrhrIQP
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9ZgoqXLsk
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVhuAP3Q1m
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我仍是搖頭。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77FKrQNhbB
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWgn42zsMn
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeiIaKUXCe
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWg1LXJQs7A
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0QsoWTQuN
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「．．．．．．．」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqiLk3X86g
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmW7XUbQYgZ
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDo7NKWV3TQ
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「是這樣子嗎？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOd2rwzbPQ
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhg4GbQ4iWZ
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBLU8siDmc
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVu7WA9wAOV
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwADHIMKuf
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmws5MWz902
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLiXNN2qKM
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRnAEmX6FG
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「我、我的水彩？」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbimoAwc93
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLHbQ0nCcQ
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWXwj9HU9P
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUhNANqawg
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4hADkbBWt
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRfZmZY0ws
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASfGqylKYE
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJTdPEAbIb
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJePPk6J16q
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英國；387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvU06J82nA9
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１９９８年１２月２４日；387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8its3x3QB4
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChSt7o63SY
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkWIrOLDZo
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