清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58NUyc7LNM
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vCVrAg4JO
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zXI0MCqla
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZzJk8iBUg
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaWiruKzN3
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GrGcXN3Nz
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kX8xQu4tv
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFyn2L7kMW
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwcwlLR0SI
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLs0Poa7fJ
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPFXCJ0b6Q
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLFk5d2ZlP
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbavUJbKqP
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2NZOnFdHx
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Atr0C2UlS
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwodtsd74w
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2nXsuMIdF
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這個過程的目的是？403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfT5QIyjc3C
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXjYblob14
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9Var2un8v
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１９９８年１２月２４日：403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysOKbfao7B
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2FbonbIW1
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpKALiFNK9
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只是為了生存！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3i91NrOwYZ
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZgQxLd22K
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkZdKnHhSP
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswCXkbcAKp
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSRwQR9mkZ
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuwseA2zZf
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmK3pD8pr9
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bUTk0J5EQ
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSFXQTeWY5
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14Y87zfnLQ
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zbwKFvY3S
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聽到我的問題　眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqJeKF3QlG
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8Vp7VQkSb
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRj6IgW2ZN
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gAtL0GF34
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwBloPziVd
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「喔？為何呢？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqd57Nabgh
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WPNHMIfXR
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想起了雙親．．．．．．403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGxuYVDW9g
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWP62rdwS1C
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeyLyVrvO2
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nckWLlAcu
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37fb91gJ9A
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXo2itmSa6
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvT6N1Wui1
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuSrsLEkwK
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「你感覺到了什麼？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNgZH6M0Bo
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknD08jmhYq
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcdNq1PWVN
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我仍是搖頭。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSRv5lnWVZ
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgF50R4Oc2y
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09SOy4PIF3
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5qO1SaILP
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdh0OT1HmE
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「．．．．．．．」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CbURrKGmL
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBe5UMSHkzN
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdQdL4PvIf
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「是這樣子嗎？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiahiY0WW4J
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZeVRuXRK6
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvifTn2LgXM
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iophFAmjN
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgpZCclL6M
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzz2HrWhkN
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UJ8JVFk4i
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPr4oYLQeIq
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「我、我的水彩？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmhGPnDvxy
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAxbCk2IcR
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZ4Pp9FSw6
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoaU1GJdrd
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLvJuzzmmU
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jEQAI2z8s
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGUMveTgOB
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMM7ZcjV0sP
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfgjOMHOmb
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英國；403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBT3ey7fw0G
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１９９８年１２月２４日；403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2CzmX6Vjy
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgoOSpqJ0M
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0gnMFMw1k
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