清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJjH3F8Qv5
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又做了這個夢？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUTYI6tCY1
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPgJAHHuaR
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwSUfc0TRW
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPNaMOsdaP
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhtFhMRIti
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmB5RYqpKqx
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VOgCSs2Vg
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzm5wwRXCx
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qXlYuvuOg
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8DecBk7lK
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcMsSWamCT
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GCUKWdBsC
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCh57ejzvF
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１９９８年１１月２７日：459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvI3Jwoby2
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WWJyJCg4w
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZim7u5gRIU
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLU2AtHXlw
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxR4r0GQjw
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這個過程的目的是？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5s27eJ0Gtp
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5R4yrucnew
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LsbxJzGt0
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１９９８年１２月２４日：459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5Zlf6lboI
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMwW7N4K55
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbec2YMsFGV
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只是為了生存！459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQj7PWnMs7f
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZKJQiDRxL
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0q0fvSuXX
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0apbD6mtSw
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWXWyDLzlP
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvLM5p0Xss
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2smvPxguY3
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGimDt7JHBa
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFYrIzoxMd
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfICTIXi4e
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKixbZ6WLAi
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聽到我的問題　眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPO55VZfXt
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypogEMnleM
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZw0Mp0czr
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKaV2C500K
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUs05TW4LUe
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「喔？為何呢？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIMap9mjA9
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmxjiUPsmc
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想起了雙親．．．．．．459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOmShwm3oW
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjHwZI7Ucp
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJWZoGItTD
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVso6tW4dI
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbu6pbvVz6
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIZAMGXxBn
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mZq9117xM
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93nc9HiwFX
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「你感覺到了什麼？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdO7jiTKuAo
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIC1amiE17
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nlKYHh1nl
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我仍是搖頭。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2godw7WeG
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGdI9OkjEs
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gUCR0n6bk
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWuIiiFlmT
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN34IviP6C
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「．．．．．．．」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhenXsnXWf
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAaUKZNhZV
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9qIslKqdC
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「是這樣子嗎？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiZzCwHcp8
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FSah61WTk
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihPqNe8bsF
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQdm1bUv8l
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2ZA5Qdw5N
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzCVILftW6
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EKnmSwLSB
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FcgsmypRD
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「我、我的水彩？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIABNhWYxd
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nq7kngGoe
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYGr7TipTM
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoECiDVJfuF
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTIuI1zq3U
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9jyHI9mvY
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNUSLhZQuL
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOnaO62odM
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZcJy8jJ6x
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英國；459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevSt3DZFJL
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１９９８年１２月２４日；459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkDDMAsbbQ
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrrcphoPtB
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfNlJas3M2
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）8964 copyright protection455ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KY009bZN1 維尼

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