大概是半年前吧,小梅對我的感情變了。639Please respect copyright.PENANARg8WXKpAyU
遲鈍如我都感覺出來了。639Please respect copyright.PENANAAX3c00KCyv
每次跟小梅出來,吃飯、逛街、看電影,然後送她回家,感覺她都把這當成了淡然無味的例行公事。639Please respect copyright.PENANA0Dp0xQqxs2
哦對了,小梅甚至都沒去我家了。639Please respect copyright.PENANAEZyFPGN0QX
是時間的問題,還是心態的問題?我一直不敢開口問。639Please respect copyright.PENANAQA4iwGelux
深怕我一開口,小梅就乾脆跟我攤牌——阿月,要不我們分開一下吧?639Please respect copyright.PENANA1HjiYxPZe9
是的,有些問題就彷如潘朵拉的盒子,不論有多好奇,亦不能觸碰。639Please respect copyright.PENANAv3dtPgD7fO
因此,自從那天開始,我一直到今天還後悔著。639Please respect copyright.PENANApsLWl9PyKH
那天,我決定鼓起勇氣跟小梅說了。639Please respect copyright.PENANAyNaYPpfrZZ
「梅…你最近怎麼都變冷淡了?是累了嗎?還是悶到你了?」639Please respect copyright.PENANAOzRUbMKL9H
「我也不知道呢…可能是對未來有了想像吧。」小梅對著我溫柔的道:「我想多點私人時間思考一下。」639Please respect copyright.PENANAW5sjO6jOzA
我完全沒聽懂。639Please respect copyright.PENANADwMTq8Zz73
「其實…要不我們先暫時分開一段時間,冷靜一下?」639Please respect copyright.PENANASdm7VrrSyx
我感覺就像是突然被判了死刑一樣,一下子腦袋空白了。639Please respect copyright.PENANAHlC2aC87zM
說是說暫時分開,但從這天開始,我就沒有再見過小梅了。639Please respect copyright.PENANA6PTUiO8fRf
自從上次開口叫我名字之後,她情況就一直好轉,我也沒有再給她下藥了。639Please respect copyright.PENANA0L6rCuf21G
在她飯菜裏下安眠藥,最初怕的是她會把藥撿出來丟掉;後來反而怕她每次都老老實實的吃下去,傷到她腦袋。639Please respect copyright.PENANAGVVvKPImaT
斷藥後到現在,她已經可以照顧到自己日常生活,上廁所、洗澡,甚至會做飯給我吃了。她房間也不再上鎖,房裏封著窗的板子我也拆走了;只是她現在睡覺時都非要黏著我不行,已經很少回自己房間了。639Please respect copyright.PENANAsrarSp3W76
惟一令我擔心的就是,有時候跟我對話時她會有點發呆或者跳線。639Please respect copyright.PENANAot5OyzU7Rw
沒辦法,可能我用藥重手了點吧?希望不會對她腦袋做成永久傷害。639Please respect copyright.PENANAyAdcTsAKl6
吃完她做了一頓飯之後,我坐在沙發上,她就依在我懷裏,看著電視裏面不知所謂的節目。639Please respect copyright.PENANAdz4SK1YNf6
從很久以前,我跟小梅就常常這樣了。639Please respect copyright.PENANAcmNu2eJmIs
「阿月,我們明天去看電影好嗎?」她突然問我:「我們第一次看的電影是 Guardian of the Galaxy,2014 年 8 月 10——」639Please respect copyright.PENANABgvmHlHHdM
「嗯!看就看吧!」我打斷了她的話:「你想看甚麼?」639Please respect copyright.PENANAROwuPvXLfE
沒想過她居然會把日記裏面的細節一字不漏的背出來。639Please respect copyright.PENANAO2nu5LQXxf
「我想…我…」她眼睛又變成一片迷矇開始發呆,好一會之後才說:「我…我喜歡看喜劇跟藝術片,不敢看恐怖片;但你喜歡看動作片…那麼…那麼…」639Please respect copyright.PENANAV9otlt42QY
我有點不知所措;是的,這些都是我讓她牢記著的東西。但…639Please respect copyright.PENANAJI3FEjVmhP
她掏出了手機上了售票網,然後身體轉過來面向著我,甜甜一笑。639Please respect copyright.PENANAvTnAnvmNGj
「還是你來選吧!」她把手機遞到我面前。639Please respect copyright.PENANAHIGdqs03Vy
沒辦法,我把手機拿了,然後輕輕拍了她額頭一下。639Please respect copyright.PENANAYYekwjbNs1
我從後用沾了迷藥的布按在她臉上,右手緊緊纏著她雙臂。639Please respect copyright.PENANAqKx6lo5Xtg
起初猛烈掙扎,然後慢慢緩了下來,最後軟綿綿的靠在我懷內。639Please respect copyright.PENANACYmpMJdWSk
她下班習慣了抄這條人比較少的巷,所以我決定在這裏動手;沒錯的,從那天看到她開始,我已經跟踪她有兩個星期了。639Please respect copyright.PENANAYMZD1Zx09Z
為了我對小梅的感情,必需這樣做。639Please respect copyright.PENANAAXjgoREcVI
也是為了她的幸福。639Please respect copyright.PENANAB3UsP6imKe
我把家裏的書房清空了,窗戶都用隔音板釘上,放了一張簡陋的小床和一張小几,小几上放了本日記,我在裏面寫滿了我跟小梅之間的回憶。639Please respect copyright.PENANAu63AhDhb7D
我打開了燈,把她放在床上;房內燈光非常微弱,只足夠她讀我為她準備的日記,以及看清楚牆上的照片——639Please respect copyright.PENANAnMuAflvQYN
喔對了,我把書房其中一面牆鋪滿了我跟小梅的合照。639Please respect copyright.PENANAo3wf6ObJj2
趁她還未醒過來,我就先把她衣服脫了,手腳都用銬鎖起,嘴巴用布塞著。639Please respect copyright.PENANAAqkUPcDTSu
扇了她一耳光。639Please respect copyright.PENANAMKU0BUcfjI
沒醒過來。639Please respect copyright.PENANAkBqzPlZXR8
再扇了她一耳光。639Please respect copyright.PENANAqFxzgZi5Ii
她終於恢復了意識,發現來了這個不知名的地方,而且手腳被鎖著,動不了,喊也喊不出來。639Please respect copyright.PENANAMUtqucmNKk
「乖,別怕。」我愛撫著她的臉頰:「我不會傷害你的,絕對不會。但你必需把我跟你說、給你看的東西都牢牢記著。」639Please respect copyright.PENANAvRT9dhNBUF
發現手濕濕的,原來她流淚了。639Please respect copyright.PENANAjzjWDaNWPN
「記著,你是小梅,我是阿月;我是你男朋友。」639Please respect copyright.PENANANAKUYTUOup
她掙扎著想用腳蹬我。639Please respect copyright.PENANAeypCuzK67q
我又給她扇了一耳光。639Please respect copyright.PENANAlZchUp6EQy
結果我還是跟她去電影院了。639Please respect copyright.PENANARslXY82ZBg
買好電影票之後,她就嚷著要上洗手間;我站在小賣部外,看著她一蹦一跳的走往洗手間。639Please respect copyright.PENANAFn3h9Gqc13
雖然她還有很多不足,但我都能接受;重要的是,我又可以過著以前兩口子相親相愛的生活了。639Please respect copyright.PENANArJ605JKVEV
當然,這一切都是——639Please respect copyright.PENANA4JStvagpk9
「嘿!阿月!」隨著這個曾經熟悉的聲音傳來,我肩膊上被拍了一下。639Please respect copyright.PENANA2phz1aCl3c
就像我們剛開始的那天一樣:我嚇了一大跳,回頭一看就是笑盈盈的小梅…639Please respect copyright.PENANAubvFgHLPir
…還有她牽著的那個男人。639Please respect copyright.PENANAYaHMNDGn0r
我臉色應該很糟糕吧,他們倆人的微笑都殭住了。639Please respect copyright.PENANAolVoeeXaOC
「哎…嚇到你不好意思。」小梅有點抱歉的說:「好久…好久沒見了。」639Please respect copyright.PENANAGXn2L56xHc
的確好久沒見,我甚至沒想過還有機會能見到她。639Please respect copyright.PENANAxBAWgb4oFh
「這是…我男朋友。」小梅對我介紹那個男人;我也只能對著他乾瞪眼,半句話沒說。639Please respect copyright.PENANAsXB74iBLXo
她剛好回來了,走到我身邊,然後就跟小梅四目交投了;倆女生看到對方,都呆住了。639Please respect copyright.PENANA5ek5SPNlHa
「她…她跟我長得好像啊。」先開口的還是她,指著小梅對我道:「她是你前女朋友嗎?」639Please respect copyright.PENANAd2xM8Lvvsn
我咧嘴笑了,對她說:639Please respect copyright.PENANARzSyYiH17E
「不,你是我第一個女朋友,也將會是最後一個。」639Please respect copyright.PENANAUAqUzSRW4a
她是我工作地方附近一家診所的護士,有次我偶然看到她;她長得跟小梅…差不多是一模一樣。639Please respect copyright.PENANAY82rN2jYCt
所以我就把她抓回來了,為了她幸福,也為了我跟小梅的將來。639Please respect copyright.PENANAe6MWd6IHvw
被困在房間一個多月後,她就放棄了逃走。639Please respect copyright.PENANAWsf1lG98dQ
剛開始的時候,她一反抗我就打她;後來發現給她食物下安眠藥的話,她就連動都不想動了。同時為免她真的入睡,我長時間給她戴上耳機,以不傷害聽覺為前提,不斷播著吵耳的音樂。639Please respect copyright.PENANAdpGXkZNxRN
有時間的話,我就會摘下她的耳機,不斷向她讀著日記的內容;或者抱她去看牆上的照片。639Please respect copyright.PENANAqmrqcebUBN
「這是你。」我指著照片裏的小梅對她說。639Please respect copyright.PENANA35K36VUjyl
「我是阿月,我是你男朋友。」639Please respect copyright.PENANAZBPeODvSab
「你是小梅,我們從兩年前開始就是情侶。」639Please respect copyright.PENANAOfUKE04oKZ
「你是小梅,你喜歡藝術、喜歡攝影。」639Please respect copyright.PENANAiNE21jv0yw
………639Please respect copyright.PENANAeZgSC4j7F8
完639Please respect copyright.PENANA5O0fpOLJUW