第五十九．五章927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sBVVK7tbf
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「何鵬侑，其實你對我仲有無感覺？」927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8k3JZTM1rV
我終於都決定要問一次，這一個一直埋藏在我心底裡的問題。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g3EVSXnfE
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我已經拖延了Alvin不少時間了，他可是還要回去為姐姐買晚飯的。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarrwHBHBac
雖然心裡是這樣想著，但我還是把他從醫院帶來了車站，再由車站從帶到來了現在暫住的家樓下。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MfQbRAFq3
原因就只是希望能夠問道他這一條問題……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfQEvP0N8i
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但當我問完後，只見Alvin思考了一會。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXSyCqkFxr
拜託，你一定要回答「已經放下了我」。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwU2yc47uu
這樣我才能夠有藉口都讓自己放下你的……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBandddZfMV
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「你要我老實答嘅話，喺仲有感覺。」他思考完後，就看著我說。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rnQ9fv46n
聽到他這一個答案，我的大腦頓時如同電腦當了機一樣。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh36zc5KYhw
他這個答案，完全打亂了我原先預定好要與他說的話……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAO6OacqoL
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我初初是希望他會回答我「已經放下了」。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupMTJOTzr5
然後我就可以順勢假裝自己都放下，並與他再一次由「朋友」的關係，重新再來一次。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhvvNnetV6
但現在他竟然直接回答我「還有感覺」……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡto4VTAXe1u
 927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGdsj99UDl
單單就是這一句，就足夠令我已經很想立即走進他懷中，然後跟他說，其實我都一樣還沒有放下……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1YgBDUS3p
雖然感性上，我真的想與他再一起。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPKrhrrmlL
但理性上告訴了我，一開始令他失望及傷心的人……是我。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6KBa1sGn8
即使我知道一切都已經過去了……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Yuwx11fhl
但是曾經的傷痕裂縫，是沒法輕易就能填補得到的。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKhPcWpVgG
我或許已經沒有資格，在他的心裡再佔上一格。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7uKz5xuzR
我更不能再在他的心裡刻上第二條傷痕……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqB21Y69TT
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但是這刻情緒已經有一點開始湧現出來。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3opWgOJpji
然而，我都一定要假裝冷靜，不能讓他看穿我此刻的情緒。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfaHu2H3Ck
於是我便深呼吸了一下，然後說：「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HEipdYcUV
我說著的時候，心裡其實都一陣隱隱作痛。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhll61tugVj
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「原先都無乜架啦，但同你相遇翻之後，個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEzyzQzlw4
他回答著我。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvNy7IcerF
為何你一定要說這些說話呢……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHisKgR3rts
 927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIFCRGZl5C
雖然心裡很難受，但我自己弄出來的問題，就必須由我自己來解決。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0vWntC8v2
「問題就喺呢到啦！」我立即回應他。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWbJRhSCPl
而他都很快就看著我問：「問題？」927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeJMFZxJj5
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「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友，所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年，但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1SkZPyvqI
我都不知道自己正在亂說著甚麼……但我說完後，就立即轉身背向著他。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8O9JwaZ4V
因為我真的開始壓抑不住心中一直不斷湧現著的情緒了……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkI1sjblkU
每當我說一句與心相反的說話，我就變得更難受了。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ka7tvXp8b
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「你咁樣講，好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」他又回應了我。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0EUVHopxt
原來你認為我已經將你放下了嗎……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbTbozdIlP
雖然，心真的很痛，但既然已經決定了，我就必須繼續演下去。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6K8fTIyLg4
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「我……放低咗架啦！」我說道。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmgcujRqoT
但這時候，淚水都終於壓抑不住，從雙眼開始流下來。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjA5UiUIXnD
對不起……我撒謊了，但這都是為了你好。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFny8ukRkEb
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「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」他回答我。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNKi1e6CQL
拜託不要再說這些說話了……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEvHs5nMbo
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此刻，聽完他的說話後，我的心真很痛，很痛，很痛。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMvbWFQc1j
但是我還得繼續演下去……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWHxmcTzGM
於是我強忍著眼淚，並轉身看著他。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WZquR1qWa
 927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmv2iqMUuF
幸好，這時旁邊的的路燈剛好因時限而熄滅了。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2VHVYc4a6
這麼暗的環境，他應該是看不到我的表情的……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPqNmWxSSC
於是我便立即向他說道：「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjRK3v7Bv0
句子之間完全沒有停頓，因為一停頓下來，我就會又想哭了。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UVx0iYUnc
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「身份嘅問題？」他問道我。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbE9W2VWxY
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友，所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂，然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你！」927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqiWUU6hTrc
我看似很有道理地說著。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpwQOYd6Yb
但其實我根本就沒有放下過對他的感情。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDF6VBFXKkQ
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接著，Alvin竟然沒有回應我。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIkAkcUczz
於是我都只好繼續說：「不如我哋重新嚟過，唔喺曾經嘅戀人，唔喺前男女朋友，而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHvIVIUn43
本來這一句說話，是打算一開始在他回答我「已經放下了」後，就接著說的。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLWIpIQn9w
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雖然我都希望我們能從「朋友」再重新開始過。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEsCFy643b
但至少都讓我有一個藉口去先放下對你的感情吧……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXpU4p9vVe
現在這樣反而讓我更不想去放下對你的感情了……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDT1cixmRRy
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「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友，好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」他又開口說道了。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZOPVta53C
「咁唔好咩？你又可以放低我，而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzrA8HMPbh
這對現在的我們來說，應該是最好的解決方法了。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OcCAQgC37
 927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYqEe3isC5
接著Alvin都沉默了一會，看來他都應該是在思考著這個唯一的解決方法。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmXzfKGbQe
而很快，他都彷彿想通了一樣開口說：「好啦，我哋做翻朋友啦咁！由今日起，我哋就只喺朋友。」927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrlmtoNG6D
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當我聽到他說我們只是朋友時，我就知道「何鵬侑與蔡霜玥」這段關係，在這一瞬間……完結了。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIdQcbcBfS
雖然這本來就是我的目的，但為何當我聽到他所說後，我反而更難過……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4RqpYc7IX
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我的眼淚又開始從雙眼流下。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSmbmsfUc3
但現在與他這麼近的距離，他一定會看得見我臉上的淚水。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCy9NPGGoK4
 927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWY0azE0bx
因此，我只好立即轉身，並強忍著淚水說：「好啦……時間唔早啦，你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦，我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦！」927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGdwSS5mrg
接著，我就背向著他揮手，並往前面的方向跑去。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFqMRiTKKB
我必須離開他，因為我實在不能再忍耐下去了。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpneTnXkNr4
再這樣下去，我一定會在他面前痛哭出來的……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgkJQs9ZTH
我不想他後悔。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fNl9ZOKUt
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我跑著的時候，並沒有理會身後的Alvin是站著還是轉身離開了。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbGqRXJdxI
淚水已經不斷從雙眼滲出，而我都只能加快腳步走回家中。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFwcPMAYSX
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接著，當我成功回到家，打開了門進到屋內，並閉上門的一剎那……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5GBz3jB83
我直接跪在地上，大聲地哭起來……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfr9U81ou2e
對上一次，我會這樣大聲哭出來，應該是與Alvin提出分手後……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZtdFVCCSd
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「好痛，好痛，好痛……」我哭著的同時一直說著。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvXz475kkw
這一刻，並沒有任何人能在我身邊能夠安慰及陪伴著我。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBgISq23ad
而我都只能一直痛哭著，直到淚水流乾涸為止……927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtX6JatBpk
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對不起，何鵬侑，是我親手摧毀了我們這一段感情的。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QVm2hJIgc
過去你所認識的蔡霜玥，將不再存在。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsI9RLonQkV
而接下來的蔡霜玥，都只會與你以「朋友」的身份繼續相處。927Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIKhbv5mjM
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