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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5AE8nkrTz
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqM4A7okG3o
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaVcbfYvrD
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9uE6F587C
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8idF7RcDHK
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOlgqF8eK8
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrigsGGvmK
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtqrGVpfhx
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf62l947mTU
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCI371BV8Ie
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEAY2DoaOR
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuRtdXqRtK
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1rqm25nbQ
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnCoaV4IdX
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlDbUBl5Mf
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA6i1QFqX8
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXApHND2L4
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeP2FvWNGhT
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClsOf3KOqv
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHh5dV6fUVc
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0or8N7xCe
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfmcB2eF87
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rYaVS7nB2
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MYaD1NP4F
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接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DPDtMvtjz
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCGKC3h83R
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzx95YeSVS
 549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2iXdOMukm
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7V9EkJrpk
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe49H1arfFB
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrN1kms2B9
 549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2Ihma5jJL
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LYItUttec
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsaC62D23J
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKLhFrWr8L
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmErBbomJY
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5nWQ5NCPL
 549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAZOQzx5EB
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2onHTew3e
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOEstsyOmm
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZlFRXtZTe
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGl6kzB2zFv
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNraVI1WkTZ
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPfkj6eXhw
 549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhTOxlGk8w
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Nsaq4F7Rc
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JOdxCKMIL
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8J8xt5sAi3
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLn88Cp8SwN
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDQXCUzoda
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EOTAtu5Zv
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6GNUuROdc
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmrfsiDZuf
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqu0b8kitZT
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXA7YNjD2D
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接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoP6m3iI8Rf
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡam3R3kiXaZ
隨即二人也站在了原地。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yNXXGBwrj
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNs6bQzOInX
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLa7iBrLYYC
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JeKwRfSxs
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf359DDYroe
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRiVw1h01C
 549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSN2zEmHRrU
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZzQmivGZ1
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfxWO9txK0
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFDVOA7wVt
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewiRYafp6b
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvzIoHwSTf
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqVmfNIxtI
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPSFHEseHk
 549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxwgkM6ciU
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkp9sNR9Rg
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUahIuT2DC
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRvR3qtqOc
可是，她接著聽到答案是……549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6VmJGZX5o
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IL2nAUYi6
 549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ16vKlJsT6
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvcyYxLxJZ
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAhA81GyF2
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNqdqhJx75
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09ce4FAn4H
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL93AS1ElpZ
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmj3QLID4ld
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyPyxMuaqb
 549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Cs3nuguy8
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7L2ezJXz8I
 549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyixTBSF4ID
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVR8CgLYbm
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHS9zgVOUhS
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjoXPa9KS6
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2VAXrOyzB
 549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KxCXrzZ6O
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGMX9lhCBC
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡek44Rw4y9n
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQCE2iXVrt
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAllTjR5Zwr
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVF6mxcE33b
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDT4J3FmXLS
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFG0Lu3M1q3
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXSrl9LGxX
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接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFgJ0XtXuy
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9adlPO5RpK
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BeY0c6q1p
「嚓—」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hkasCa7DK
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmtmuWTFuK
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作者在此鄭重聲明：549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcK8vAf15j
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRFDQ2OaRK
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhQk0Wznhj
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVQjOVu5u9
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYUAGsIlzx
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUl6HdACjXP
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfefB1Ege8e
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作者閒聊：549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3g7yvgOMM
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrK3z45NLv
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……549Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uFYHsUW4V
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