過去篇(四)564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUAzgnDp1k
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCKUQHuRYH
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapL6tT4bDx
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqpaz5cCZR
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOR9HcteNO
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhdy2oCl0J
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5nR2MZxW2T
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxa83cyoGG
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzoi226ZcY
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuP6MhYEmB
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6HSkT25IJ
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TGOxqvbnK
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2lLrsdPM8
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFJ39RwrZ3
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKLjh61luK
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7e4KP6Qce
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxL8jB1bgRy
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDe0e6bKSwq
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpwr9hZmek
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0ugwEv1e3
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnhKlVSTnD
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0moUglG4zZ
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0TYLGOjE9
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5rYUXSXlW
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXSYVUE5JX
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkK8TYyJeg
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJczXJYHXeP
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEzxUSm6gp
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuzTC8YbOA
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3PTUuXpSi
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jyUCcw1Li
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNsDUfKTcC
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs28rrRwcTx
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocitE2Xyat
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIoMsX8baD
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWHy5gFXaD
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfc928o9Yy
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5Ktgi9RN8
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQtxyYWCGY
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDW4xAv4wDr
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6B6qn2HVC
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8n2QiAJr9U
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLpqVm5uE2
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluzci0xQMx
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyk4tLfwUin
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjt9JBOleaK
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYQZisOyjD
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsBuZGCq2R
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6s4QygVYGt
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWvyQqJPxB
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OCebpNTB2
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFVBz5i3i8
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYEY1y6Viu
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFsMxQd70T
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPJZi1RVew
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGg8j8QWNL
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPOih39Pc8
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 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAE27AVuRwG
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbh91DvbQX
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4s1jdgobnv
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvNaZPWHbr
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgChHZR3ao5
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEh2KdbSrmZ
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUo3hZ84T4
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JqewvKIQp
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonVV9YsZI0
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1x6xZ6LyWB
隨即二人也站在了原地。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2N3cRP4kYr
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32R6Pg3fMO
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRWXztjXOe
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEB3UJSFlF
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDKeldEvlz
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkMfkJC3m7
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcImqGpfLai
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1H7pg63LY
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAxYPcARJ8
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOacN4d4cTa
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywFdkE8c6M
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStkdvIjVNe
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N7Svi5vsQ
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPJ9bhk8eA
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3KjmlYeVc
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKlnXhVMTw
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCAmM7lp2Y
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Jr5cvFA0n
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2W4UfFyduU
可是，她接著聽到答案是……564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumHBiCkuyY
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiDyoObDrf
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyoeP5Bjn7
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7LCFKo366
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuJAX7qfeS
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1meMiapAk
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5ZCMEX1Fy
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULSBcM0AsG
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfg3llpbCC
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cKnmVMDgR
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgE9dDHwV6y
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvIiZmyYX8
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWc8maXKU3D
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YJ5VtHlqx
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfV0JvaJ5xu
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5xffuYVg0
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2YFgTJ4D9
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡks2INvSpJS
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFMknflWbi
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dy0tW22pc
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpxXGJb4rx
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptFNXWqV6L
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 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfD2oFATWQ
「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmhE7Y1og8
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DdloHj8iP
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmeKpNv1po
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtVpujZD2C
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMKJxgaIv2
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00TZkLEDg1
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKiRAhEFJD
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeJZz724Nt
「嚓—」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwy6RNUf8d
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHBWjHSyhV
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBW98jkpwE
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpv3XQQcVl2
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKn3dKA0oN0
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作者在此鄭重聲明：564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MRRTE82cr
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXqCHlpAfQ
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1scrqxrlCM
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBVUmeOIJc
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpH0n3z4run
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00HHAVoJ8K
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSVZMPErM0
 564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtNoZDGnP3
作者閒聊：564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tsmIe4Ro8
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuB2MCIiK5L
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXfPDDRBCK
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