第五十九．五章739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkKeJsHrmL
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「何鵬侑，其實你對我仲有無感覺？」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENU1uCuNdW
我終於都決定要問一次，這一個一直埋藏在我心底裡的問題。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCnw0yLFlQ
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9y4xR2wkud
我已經拖延了Alvin不少時間了，他可是還要回去為姐姐買晚飯的。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6JcChBqDM
雖然心裡是這樣想著，但我還是把他從醫院帶來了車站，再由車站從帶到來了現在暫住的家樓下。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1hygDoLQ1
原因就只是希望能夠問道他這一條問題……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91g0426GBj
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7v6RqlPdi
但當我問完後，只見Alvin思考了一會。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKJ1xe5dbe
拜託，你一定要回答「已經放下了我」。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1YeVC2pgQ
這樣我才能夠有藉口都讓自己放下你的……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVlkDS04qn
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uTd0A0HlR
「你要我老實答嘅話，喺仲有感覺。」他思考完後，就看著我說。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlOKYMgWQf
聽到他這一個答案，我的大腦頓時如同電腦當了機一樣。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLl0bAuo0UU
他這個答案，完全打亂了我原先預定好要與他說的話……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHa6ncQ1yDs
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHA3uJfripc
我初初是希望他會回答我「已經放下了」。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLeYlU8EHNN
然後我就可以順勢假裝自己都放下，並與他再一次由「朋友」的關係，重新再來一次。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsi3ucy1wgi
但現在他竟然直接回答我「還有感覺」……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYX9NdBtR6
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fIE6NKK9k
單單就是這一句，就足夠令我已經很想立即走進他懷中，然後跟他說，其實我都一樣還沒有放下……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIasZp37tO
雖然感性上，我真的想與他再一起。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYzi3devj8
但理性上告訴了我，一開始令他失望及傷心的人……是我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkAr2aMOyG
即使我知道一切都已經過去了……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwffpcKDbS
但是曾經的傷痕裂縫，是沒法輕易就能填補得到的。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0NEHBEOcQ
我或許已經沒有資格，在他的心裡再佔上一格。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCA9mIG1lIJ
我更不能再在他的心裡刻上第二條傷痕……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18Lq7FqAfr
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxB14j5uzyB
但是這刻情緒已經有一點開始湧現出來。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBsrWHyXpu
然而，我都一定要假裝冷靜，不能讓他看穿我此刻的情緒。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmPeAobCNk
於是我便深呼吸了一下，然後說：「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcfSAENGgg
我說著的時候，心裡其實都一陣隱隱作痛。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhlc6xRkzW
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHUhJEdXkb
「原先都無乜架啦，但同你相遇翻之後，個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVh9QEEU1f
他回答著我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPaaZn4dB6
為何你一定要說這些說話呢……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fBI86RBWD
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZDcTSlFiX
雖然心裡很難受，但我自己弄出來的問題，就必須由我自己來解決。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JqLaJdxic
「問題就喺呢到啦！」我立即回應他。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogbUzUGF5u
而他都很快就看著我問：「問題？」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWXn10iOpQ
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilHre4QJFJ
「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友，所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年，但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5itTuGaa7K
我都不知道自己正在亂說著甚麼……但我說完後，就立即轉身背向著他。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHsrWsofd6
因為我真的開始壓抑不住心中一直不斷湧現著的情緒了……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwz9UVRXCPp
每當我說一句與心相反的說話，我就變得更難受了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQs8zgLCjSE
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkYr165dPu
「你咁樣講，好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」他又回應了我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvysfELqyZ
原來你認為我已經將你放下了嗎……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuuzKCXtmUG
雖然，心真的很痛，但既然已經決定了，我就必須繼續演下去。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyiLZxGZUi
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhHK90db55
「我……放低咗架啦！」我說道。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEYfnJwzXA
但這時候，淚水都終於壓抑不住，從雙眼開始流下來。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmtXmTLcdG
對不起……我撒謊了，但這都是為了你好。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBElMvNnBtt
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCC30TZFpB
「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」他回答我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGGTcxCf4o
拜託不要再說這些說話了……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpECUYG1HOr
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSeTuFcnwo
此刻，聽完他的說話後，我的心真很痛，很痛，很痛。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjM7jaNmZJ
但是我還得繼續演下去……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVFyQoJQGT
於是我強忍著眼淚，並轉身看著他。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9iSrG8pAI
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsrkjmbcRG
幸好，這時旁邊的的路燈剛好因時限而熄滅了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgBeuh9yo6
這麼暗的環境，他應該是看不到我的表情的……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Gts9IdUjB
於是我便立即向他說道：「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekJCzgPMls
句子之間完全沒有停頓，因為一停頓下來，我就會又想哭了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxEJzCSeSr
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckYkhTvYWk
「身份嘅問題？」他問道我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1R5eIooZNt
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友，所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂，然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你！」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dNffsFUPH
我看似很有道理地說著。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfttnUJf0bQ
但其實我根本就沒有放下過對他的感情。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUK7bqSjlsF
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRQO7q2KUl
接著，Alvin竟然沒有回應我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMOXkMk8wV
於是我都只好繼續說：「不如我哋重新嚟過，唔喺曾經嘅戀人，唔喺前男女朋友，而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxugH6FBK62
本來這一句說話，是打算一開始在他回答我「已經放下了」後，就接著說的。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SuIJ1Pa2p
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjiJn9kyuz
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSFetEkFEb
雖然我都希望我們能從「朋友」再重新開始過。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2q5fjXbgT
但至少都讓我有一個藉口去先放下對你的感情吧……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg44mKVBX3g
現在這樣反而讓我更不想去放下對你的感情了……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCckAh0r12
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmnDfsOl8h
「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友，好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」他又開口說道了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Zmm3vwXp7
「咁唔好咩？你又可以放低我，而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd09fXJg2vE
這對現在的我們來說，應該是最好的解決方法了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0pHlgcwjz
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUXZW6xMuK
接著Alvin都沉默了一會，看來他都應該是在思考著這個唯一的解決方法。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoEBZusDbB
而很快，他都彷彿想通了一樣開口說：「好啦，我哋做翻朋友啦咁！由今日起，我哋就只喺朋友。」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKtMn9x9ZF
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTSkBGhwja
當我聽到他說我們只是朋友時，我就知道「何鵬侑與蔡霜玥」這段關係，在這一瞬間……完結了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA19nrewCNK
雖然這本來就是我的目的，但為何當我聽到他所說後，我反而更難過……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbCyBJGGzk
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZX8X5k2jq
我的眼淚又開始從雙眼流下。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7QFaX0bb8
但現在與他這麼近的距離，他一定會看得見我臉上的淚水。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtq9RZXapHv
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyvnPZVI9M
因此，我只好立即轉身，並強忍著淚水說：「好啦……時間唔早啦，你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦，我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦！」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlDjZpinvJ
接著，我就背向著他揮手，並往前面的方向跑去。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡno5KFYT7RF
我必須離開他，因為我實在不能再忍耐下去了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ts6vyX53E
再這樣下去，我一定會在他面前痛哭出來的……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZ5dCE4ZQA
我不想他後悔。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbv52TE4n6
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnk2WnSUWMP
我跑著的時候，並沒有理會身後的Alvin是站著還是轉身離開了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8n0pwLTtYD
淚水已經不斷從雙眼滲出，而我都只能加快腳步走回家中。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejzPuuAw3P
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEQyI5aYNz
接著，當我成功回到家，打開了門進到屋內，並閉上門的一剎那……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnwxrnc7Le
我直接跪在地上，大聲地哭起來……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0q86pUWqev
對上一次，我會這樣大聲哭出來，應該是與Alvin提出分手後……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0U0Enz9mQU
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmmjVSwuFC
「好痛，好痛，好痛……」我哭著的同時一直說著。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnNYl8zvGW
這一刻，並沒有任何人能在我身邊能夠安慰及陪伴著我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTYC9P1hmv
而我都只能一直痛哭著，直到淚水流乾涸為止……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCq8pfb5H5
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGWymoCGwg
對不起，何鵬侑，是我親手摧毀了我們這一段感情的。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRF57GOPrs
過去你所認識的蔡霜玥，將不再存在。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSb8v41hdm
而接下來的蔡霜玥，都只會與你以「朋友」的身份繼續相處。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGl3HHQKWH
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