第一二八章：畢業營(七)517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3eKMrPvDT
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一聲喊道下，我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJkrPgnoBJ
已經不知道，這個舉動到底是理性控制，還是感性驅動了……517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WpvW0yqDZ
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不過在我懷中的Mandy，也在一陣錯愕過後。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2JFQpJNHs
便輕聲地說：「做咩咁突然攬住人……」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrx6xF6Bot
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cVlDCZR5K
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後，她也再說：「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MySPNEg1o
聽到她這這番說話，我才下意識過來，現在還是在營區內，隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDq7qdhZl8
因此，我便很快把她推離懷中，並說：「對……對唔住。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oaR4g9nuc
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動，反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0hgsKyBCH
我想，突然被人抱入懷中，有這個反應也不奇怪。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9rfEtpCYm
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「不如我哋去個邊企？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMGLObDPDb
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我，便指向了近河畔邊的平台。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmtr49MUGP
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向，沉默了一會。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CV4yI3SI9
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說：「好。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vxrCtkyd7
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去，不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsICBESEMdo
畢竟，現在我腦中想著的，都只是她那一句「道別」。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJGoulv4Gx
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直到我們來到平台，並雙雙靠在欄杆上。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFv55AbDtK
她也開口說：「聖誕之後，我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzwqVsj5XC
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8onUOjG7L
而她對於的我反應，似乎都感到有點意外。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtKsZe9YT2
於是好奇地望向我，隨即我都一同與她對視起來。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYw0wJdcj3i
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊，唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUe4ceboGV
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定，可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtL8iQOUGJL
始終，她已經不是第一次離開我了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2YJow8gi6
三年前，她因為移民而前往了澳洲。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3FE13z9ot
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDGruYpJDI
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲，這樣代表，終有一天，她還是要離開……517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQO7bgA9cT
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「點解又突然翻去讀書？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfVSsm14vz
她沒有即時回答，而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFw24MIV5y
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先，但屋企人都希望我唔好考，而喺返去讀多兩年high school，然後直接駁入U。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNHvJLyGPv
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聽到她這樣說道，我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIQcdUq4Aq
畢竟論教育，香港的教育實在太過落後，只專注在菁英培育上。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOy5xDHmOw
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式，來區分能力高與低的學生。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBVDTgGOs7
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6vB9bjr3N
換做是我的話，都會選擇在海外升學。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZCmTIkfjG
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在她的話後，我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoNdcx1G84
頓時覺得眼前的景色，就如同不久的未來一樣。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkln1JsLZI9
現在晚上看著，只會覺得一團漆黑，根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWrC5gCdHg
換做早上看著的話，卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESnKaEg3dZ
人，會因為一時的迷茫，而失去向前的動力。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSK3BLJHIU3
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適，並最後失去了探索的動力。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gUlkaR3kZ
到底是選擇留在舒適圈，還是離開，都將會引致不同的未來。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqTuMuc2Wn
而我們往往擔憂的，就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsF7G0TKx7
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Mandy發現我沒有回應，於是又再說起來：「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtdQzxC014
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcIico5Dxw
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中，而是說出心中話：517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojV6AUhqzx
「老實講啊，其實我唔想你走。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32t1n8pcKP
「我知啊，啱先你攬住我個陣，我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgok9pjHaDa
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xcS5lStHy
但接著又再問：「點解咁唔想我走？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXc3jxpoRz
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xZmY2Zirn
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然而，她又沒有立即回答，而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBI2YQGWWCp
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBM7dR7DkF
「點解啊？」我一臉好奇地反問道。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yw1PWf8D8
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzYFb0UUGw
她這樣一說，使我愣住了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlebcNbiqNo
但是正當我開口時，她又說：「仲有其他人值得你自私。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxapKOXDdU
「你嘅其他人喺指？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60jkqjc8ww
「Venus啊，Elaine啊，甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMFNeQ07Kr
在她提起Venus的名字時，我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CvJ31kVdJ
就是開學的那一天，她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjV63D4uOV
因此我也不禁問：「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptplQREOeG
她點頭，然後望向夜空：「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYanzp6KAO
即使與全班說，大家都知道後，都是改變不了她要離開的事實。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe56yaxj6zA
而我此刻想對她就只是：「比我……」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiikAd8LHiN
「時間都唔早啦，不如我哋翻去啦。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaBmh9feWi
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusVLiRyDkY
是巧合？還是刻意呢？517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUZkOX5Mn8
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並且她在提議後，只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMT6NVOI5V
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話，點頭回應：517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpmbITB1fW
「都好。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4VKlNp79Q
答應了的這一刻也代表著，我們的話題，將會在此結束……517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgvSWTRsLS
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片刻後，我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4JfDXbgq4
並在打開門的一刻，就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkURmOxgli
「散完步翻嚟啦？」Harriet看見我的出現，便立即問道。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fnYzuiFsn
而我只是坐到他的旁邊，並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3AMfRZJaU
「唉，感情真喺好複雜呢。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsK8eDKYFl7
他先是愣住了，但是也一同靠向後，並輕笑了一聲說：517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaWTYojXMm
「喺啊，感情真喺好複雜架。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshPlB54WbR
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「想放手，但又想捉緊，真複雜」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHIwHa4ZKc
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