暑假篇：釋懷499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXikiAkPmN
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGsl5KT0SC
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBxtbuwDMv
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTtZ9eoGWu
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4nSiKg9Hx
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0Xa1mtF15
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLSpAMeAKN
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucu8T2ho1Y
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxogE8p7Y1s
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「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZupAIYyhM
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtXKRhJGdg
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCvXS6m6lI
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「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Mx5d3cerB
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NhAtJPULk
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjCOgwe7IC
一種難以形容的內疚感。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleWoR3RfL6
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而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoc1LNBArc8
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgNiPz9cVg
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtejKfHh4t
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5cPTAR7cv
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPZUo1ccw6
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLf7A1mYmH2
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzYpoD9zrF
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeziQTRmhP
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxk5erHTIpi
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「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9E62H4nb2X
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tSQtcWNQE
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWc5O1BkTF
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPprHiNLgb
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYbXX9zItq
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡia4vW5aElY
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJizH0E8nWu
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「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QdyYvWWG5
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGrAVo6mzY
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLmaoLOeGc
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Fqz6MljU9
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZM7tSvuBxx
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIbHyXQVB7
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNuFsXDUui
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於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikGfkuuBNI
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtn4c7OuERp
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1XOFSNe67
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3KZLefEjj
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「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xRXSuVs37
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9e1seZqq7
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNWPUM1I1z
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPg8jMEi1HO
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她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgcS26CWHI
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLUqqQQQzK
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「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGuTwYbElH
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGn2Tn96Vz
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWTSzDJQfV
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaE05qax4T
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHnWj97iSw
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡen2TvTUyhP
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvi0b2TY0s
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxOYtXN8Fo
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgHUMxpigo
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOLX62ycSM
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUMrNBG3Kl
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbfHBQ1PIU
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想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ghqBWMOod
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXZHk9RqfJ
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtKOsVzsDr
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJk6ycuesJD
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「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡog5fKHsbv7
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTR3Sq4mD27
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgClHHBZZJy
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「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKiyXUlWlA
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJVDzrDwkT
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJ1qdOQZur
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnW68yXMhGP
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0dX5JOzbe
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接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOTYNpYLd9
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQ4uBlPqeG
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMBNmhaBG7
甚麼原來就是我？499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsKJtALAXK
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然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeR0FfRdDsY
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3k25ZRSjJP
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGb6huUYi1
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQWuzxmH2Y
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVq8aH8sBe
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkkybprqsC
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphJOJ4vaSM
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與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRtyA96qds
「到底講緊咩啦……」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMA20XsiWc
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOovBaoxKs
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHiGjBMPve
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Waz2uRcpH
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBSzwdNvy9
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但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAB0Ksh919
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouoo8kdrpE
而且還是三個那麼多……499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrrCaUxvRF
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQiLkFb9eG
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3jrRtXAeu
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