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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJq0n0McHn
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhjoS9TMNg
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3yAv0efY4
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPGpwrIPi2
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHvQdCT3Dj
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AQBeEhV6Q
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvJyvzzU7H
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSB9maHbbw
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1wmY9ANv9
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6dsb4vbp6
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH22ucsvsq6
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMtxqTKmXh
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwNIxe6lOJ
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4GKQE8KiU
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx23rgJiLck
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQu7PY6ZBA
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqycCoohsJ
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0U1Izzq7ru
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAmMEXO0oT
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDrTLWp3P4
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDuBPue4Mx
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60K36wdApD
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf77hRnQbp2
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2OrfJC6yv
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接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYJPJPRebG
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZL8vS8cET
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfGtswi8j8
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「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1HyvZv4p7
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16AiYvgUSV
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3phZUdX7h
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Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtg2WKKiL2y
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUCYdd80LX
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTYX6AxvPO
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3xq6aK4cf
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNldFvbJCil
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaKY2F4MoH
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rBOswlnIO
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zIeL5UI0D
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOPBRFadrU
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKIGtt8wPh
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LxDJPsrcE
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「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTb66Oq3mJd
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwA38btWcn2
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrhMnGhMnT
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcvFXF8gNb
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2YIdwzYUa
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrATudfpJME
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFBNriOzeH
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRBn9nuE03
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfUhxyRMFa
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iKi01FPDV
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接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4YMRkJnfp
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qpVwD9PmJ
隨即二人也站在了原地。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuy049GIkof
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ2aEM6q7V
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyc7qcaIKPN
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lM9awhoYK
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFe9JNdFVma
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSngrOymdi
 525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdotLvLaaU
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VqLrBFw6C
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkD0SdCEYvZ
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVVZVsfJtt
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBGol9lgRU
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABsmk9ys71
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU074BAQvVd
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnR3amLqh4
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在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyMf2fr72e
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtB0qMSmrnr
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqihPNkpPlv
可是，她接著聽到答案是……525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zl3nVpKSV
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kTfhEYgFG
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聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqW5perliwT
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lrQN7miFe
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1C4yEPmMG
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvR4zRX0un
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXJgbT2uGZ
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssaWNDocgZ
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtE707ICgy
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然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHFlthwkUt
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正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvb3WHiaRIv
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrpCotj1CX
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0V7O6xMdMc
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSJ90Y7avG
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而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8cmanmyB9
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkxxxO8ded
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdKpI1CHPK
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAY0NtV2xC
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1YENbZpzG
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YEjwrEvut
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxrlNdmdle
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXugFCltpP
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接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjgXg3HDQz
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrnnlGGcfo
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRfJwAh3wN
「嚓—」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRe8LYRSAb
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjwYQJoSJc
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作者在此鄭重聲明：525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuS6tBYoHFT
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKck6zRxgwZ
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA16KDukCN
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIoXWpmhfT
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZCNW2QFXs
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pAjflTjrm
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7W1FzhMxHX
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過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIt3StrwLy
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtE7EG9Jqal
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