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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRw3eY3RK8
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUITebExo3B
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuespZLfEEg
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmYik5yIu9
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaeGK71HRH
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnq5T2jraZ
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGM4SSpdT1K
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡug2TJW3SRz
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55a1SlWEAs
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomPrU2BXhM
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkTTX7Sxof
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4m9Z24XCMj
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKmYASa5jZ
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUsdZbo5Tp
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Lk9Rw2uRB
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgktloSIj17
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhApBQEEKC
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpbda1uBT4
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkt3ff60n1
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsKVS6dTiw
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9CgudycD0
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbflcwmi5j
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4OlUhFKk8
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyZ7VdvefA
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接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEp7BL8HL4F
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIByvjOjub
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4in3HLI8MJ
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「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsF9Ez5YLKg
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbMVczrJ9D
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtr1QVnuUR
 493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcb5m4miLHM
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Bb6iPNfiT
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorfBBQGg77
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0pvhilCDn
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoufrLtoAIw
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3y2AsRXdB1
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrrpy0Vgke
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EJdQ9j3C0
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLjJkW8kFr
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6x4UgC2nQ
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWXS7wDfTP
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YwiNuyKoQ
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「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8IZ1i9Rwl
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJW8RBKk4N
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡft8uMuywbe
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCR46H7UUQr
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJDACWkuH2
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXtTHYQEFW
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlSxKtJ0rq
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPk0qHbHYQn
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUnAWtJDui
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU62uBjXgPN
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接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUC7dSllBt
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUOVNQ8Qbe
隨即二人也站在了原地。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSf0FDIzwrm
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUK4WS8lh0
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQY61oPtUBB
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oX9j1ozQZ
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAEXc2whhN
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nWxDaTcYn
 493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykNvtc0aE4
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKjEPz9g1D
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHt2VrPTEx6
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sv0rTfIYa
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSAkm3eOJ4
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwzS13xRTi
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCJ7phpX2X
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbiMg54ZDC
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在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNVOMfEYkz
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiTHmC5myg
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmezeQiryPh
可是，她接著聽到答案是……493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxxOm20eJu
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeApg7mPGES
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聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMatGomM3d
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfpPjaRtkO
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZO485tDIc
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26Q25EEsJm
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3p5vltqLKF
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXshj6Oleoq
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqvLa1qF5p
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然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhM3t85I98E
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正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Iq5cjAaUS
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1UEhpPg63
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhld8GlnfVp
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNyMwaRj0q
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而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jfgf4uLiw
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ObWPYYmz4
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilI54gvbiA
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBA2tZiRrDo
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQTbQSDAvr
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDE6olPpBsc
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjt47aKJ9YW
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡST2NkspQIu
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接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRG4NRvESn1
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9iOQDg4oB
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cliEjOo3b
「嚓—」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HO7dyErvV
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCTpLuboq3
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作者在此鄭重聲明：493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1ZsIWBeht
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKc2UKNFNQ
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNM0RxOycE
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRganK7r7i
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUS6iGhHCn1
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJalFcLhLhg
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5xRHTr4ec
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作者閒聊：493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGjNQdx1ww
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwNM9R1nBl
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAStaTKniK
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