過去篇(四)464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmszQqa3LQ
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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOyzCgtBNg
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Mm6sJTRic
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjhcDBmEpT
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXL4VJro8G
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzB2Dy0i9b
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxjpbEDm7J
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUCobECC5p
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡissiu1saf6
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPlOSMnxu7
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJv28EN55E2
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9YgX1uGlG
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuP3BDldit
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3P00LFoXxB
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFRydxijDZ
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3b4XQV2eI
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3l2MEBqd7g
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMcAWLTskP
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37x0y2HEPG
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjZcksR9Kc
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFKpPL192f
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yYIR0tAAW
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnTP77xwYO
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TDVYzISLK
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziqXfG64Na
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ503b6RGICM
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBwZnsGMbT
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZUVv9LBai
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2aLnkMCkZ
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZCHqTmFsL
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFbLZd6M0M
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOZmI7dCDn
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwIUGwOInQ
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7TPqpkWQ2
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡej07AataBW
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FBFy8EXzl
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvQOqoNTze
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3WckY5BYm
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFGBeDaarc
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGDC960hgb
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0LODAYAbQ
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOTVXgWerF
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyduEofTIjM
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq91KmyBlt4
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41cM8wvmh3
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFiHJ3cOcQ
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQX4uCT4b3
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmlQjGTIc9
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBO507PDebj
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlcKmVInEv
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eHWz4U6a9
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEykysZJkDn
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XUkeH1kHA
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dI3MsA4YU
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhx8QbM645W
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQGgxsdevr
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHv7HnA1naF
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJK9PVdX1U
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9CxCocueS
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUI8eUv8Hj
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPiBFCJqQg
隨即二人也站在了原地。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89IpcHVjuP
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IShjONdHb
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtebwcsrQgI
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdp1zZMx5Y
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe4q0ST9hH
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LVPRt27lu
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSftMFbPacV
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RPMEbmjZj
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aKzshUN78
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92dRvkn0D3
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6jLkT8rDp
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKNvDb0oOx
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyB2TBGioxj
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeMtQ8z6xa
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtTdm8Posh
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvYXBSYzPf
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5yrTzYyYj
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrU486EE3VW
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0GIjcWX6E
可是，她接著聽到答案是……464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8wEIWYwYJ
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5wiDZ5HEe
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV52jWVpQ7h
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgr4puZjJNq
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsPqzB6rbj
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHh25djV9sw
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fxYB7W6ZB
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKyKMMD87j
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5AjB4ANeZ
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGG4L6z8H3o
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlI4xcLBPX
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxT8qIIXt4
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdtn7sdJFm
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0rl7p3EQi
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmNh5ugKE9
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tv6pZW5d6
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXS0fZYgxzY
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCygNy5Tps
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvS2F9l4yk
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSZVLEHscT
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosIZvRrY4g
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCV4lUjA9AO
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUaFCy8umM
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQl09xGvAGY
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxAbhcMUfA
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLxuFeIAVy
 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0SYyHiD9A
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiweiThDVV
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhBjMICLIe
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcACV485CGn
「嚓—」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56jNEVxCMS
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 464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZtr2TVfRT
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTwNNuShbn
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作者在此鄭重聲明：464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4vX24jDVH
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcOf0kYPZZ
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjmC7Cy2fC
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIdTzRupr9
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUq8lNIfJf
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoYOkDCQiY
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjE0yg4j1Q4
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作者閒聊：464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9NEyWKqXO
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3pHy8w9HT
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtknvmmO4YN
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