第一二七章：過去538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5j9E2pGIm
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我們分手的那一天……538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pU1taS42Q
「聽日你唔好嚟送機啦！我知你好想嚟見我！但不見比見更好散！」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AiM082nOF
那一晚，Mandy果斷地掛斷了電話。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOFs3ypiHf
並在短時間內，把我從她的WhatsApp、Instagram等社交平台通通封鎖。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzp4mc2khmb
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我一時三刻說不出任何一句話，大慨大腦根本沒有回過神來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVHbXmLi48
而直到回過神來的時候，已經是我躺在床上看著她在WhatsApp上的資訊欄。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdKq6szElZ
空白的頭像、空白的Statues、不存在的最後上線時間。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8bcluIL5E
嘗試向她傳送訊息，作最後的挽留。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR356qfoeLv
顯示的卻是單剔號。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11D8RWPQlJ
五分鐘、十分鐘、三十分鐘、甚至是一個小時後。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGERSJ1zJr
仍然是那黯淡無光的單剔號。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAspvhcajxg
彷彿就在諷刺著此刻的我，失去了她，失去了世界所有的色彩一樣。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLomGzd7z2
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雙眼無神的我，把手機放到床的一角。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1egLiVQyDZ
然後就轉身望向天花板，一直死盯著那空白的天花板。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMXhxlRuCI
直到手機突然傳來了「叮鈴」一聲，是接收到訊息的聲音。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UqPeWiznC
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「！」我瞬間彈起身來，拿起了床邊的電話。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGIkP21Qfl
心想一定是Mandy了，可是現實永遠都是殘酷無情的。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tiN7XpMPg
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因為訊息的傳送者，只是同班的Haley。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiriIDiAxW
「Alvin，聽日喺咪十二點喺東涌集合？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6sYKIEfk2
他向我查詢了明天到機場歡送Mandy的詳情……曾經的詳情。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrQBlVkjWM
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「我有啲唔舒服，聽日唔去」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDz4jS6LUJ
在按下訊息傳送的按鈕後，沒有等待Haley的回覆，我已經把手機摔到地上。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PA2XCNKSV
不想看到、不想聽到、不想知道。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR704AEk3s6
就讓我獨自一個靜靜地渡過這一晚吧……538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5xxjsQsSJ
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「我叫Mandy，多多指教啊！」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZacxKLusq
這是回憶嗎？538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFnB0bQfug
「有機我哋2E班要搞翻個羽毛球班會活動。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFg6oJf7XuO
又是回憶了。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBg3B5HghJ
「我退咗燒啦，多謝你之前借件冷衫比我保暖。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxPZPef38D
怎樣都是回憶。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNgP81FcY2
「我都鍾意Alvin你。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsNeZOKztr
不要再是回憶了。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr35YkzePOt
「隻熊送比你啊，同你好襯！」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvrb32bXiB
不要、不要、不要！538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpdh2uXF8h
「我唔想離開你！」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hBcOJFJ30
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「夠啦！」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoydIujOzgd
在一聲喊道下，我睜開了雙眼。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZj8H1KMj0
只見眼前是那昏暗的天花板。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa14LX4qZ5F
原來剛才所看到的，都是夢。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtr77ezyiG
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好不容易才睡著，卻這麼快又醒過來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIk7SNBhyz
還是先看一看現在是甚麼時候……538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zmuXcuOs3
「咦？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15oL1BLubV
當我伸手到床的角落時，卻模不到任何手機狀的物體。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQ0Xhasgbv
「啊，啱先比我扔咗落地……」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncYBYcL24i
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我轉過身，來到了床邊。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqYdJM2HPw
很快就看到了被我丟到地上的手機。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuqa2oegaN
於是便伸手按下了一下手機的主螢幕按鍵。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkA3r4M3avv
而手機也瞬間亮起了螢幕。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DXi2rUF90
但裡頭卻是一張我與Mandy的合照。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZSDa6GTVL
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我首先愣住了，但是當看到Mandy的樣子時。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LsfsGc8BT
淚水，卻從雙眼流出。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUQHXIv4mK
所有的悲傷，都一下子湧現出來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9udaKZHxC
我不禁抓住心口，無聲地痛哭起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5lfdObdWZ
當晚伴隨我的，除了孤獨、無助，就只有絕望而已。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIVBQt7QHq
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直到第二天，我醒來的時候，感覺已經是下午了。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cOdkUdLOC
我已經忘記了昨晚到底斷斷續續地睡著又驚醒多少次了。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWChD5b0qJ8
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不過醒來後，我仍然躺在床上，一動也不動。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UY8TWcYVJ
即使在醒後來，地上的手機已經響起了多次訊息傳來的鈴聲。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oxnckiLws
但是我完全沒有再次撿起的意欲。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQF7ycDkmBE
反正那些訊息，大多都是他們與Mandy送行時所拍下的照片了。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbCk1Ij68k
而我，卻沒有那個勇氣去看見那些照片。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zR0SRyRwW
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在接下來的時間，我都是躺在床上，沒有睡覺、沒有做其他的東西。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZHDgcZzuy
只是躺在上面，呆呆地看著天花板。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqB5uwr7UK
當肚子餓的時候，就走出房間，吃點零食，上個洗手間。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejZitoLIax
然後就再次回到房間並躺到床上。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsODtN9DrOZ
過程中，手機都仍然被我放置在地上，碰也沒有碰過。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxOJwEAJZm
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但隨著時間逐漸逝去，卻不時都有一剎那突然變得很想拿起手機來看。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3n5OKH6NV
不過心裡也會萌生另一個念頭去阻止自己這樣做。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjwh1zu65a
其實，我一直不去看手機，不去點開WhatsApp。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0KCLZujAu
一切都只是想營造一種我失去了蹤影的錯覺。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qdvfa3fzm
好讓其他人來主動慰問我的狀況，不，是好讓「她」來主動慰問。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6enxQb2TME
正確來說，「失蹤」只是打算做給她看而已。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CgOqGt761
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然而，我又再一次把事情想得太美好了。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfBOBLOv0i
最終，我還是忍不住了點開了螢幕，但沒有點進WhatsApp裡。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWod0DIBSj1
這麼就能繼續營造「失蹤」的錯覺了。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5PrOJ0osJ
換言之，我是把手機的通知欄拉下，查看傳送訊息的人中，有沒有Mandy。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RNTjVvfgJ
不過，當然是沒有了。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtR4pOpW7Jz
當刻心裡除了失望，就已經再沒有任何的情感了。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjye5QyVtIU
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或許今天沒有，明天會有呢？538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWZvUFeArf
相信世界總會尚存一絲的希望。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3GIIpCIMU
那怕只是個自私的期待，我相信仍然會實現的。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRPf1aPpnx
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如是者，直到第二天，我都沒有點開過WhatsApp等社交平台。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaQ3nJS1WM
手機的用途只餘下用來玩手機遊戲而已。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡley53dn2Cn
接著正如我所想，通知欄中開始出現一些訊息是慰問我的狀況。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeM2HZ3Now5
可是大多數都是「做咩咁耐都唔上線」、「好翻未？」、「今晚打唔打機」等。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEvemLDkN3
但是，Mandy的名字，卻仍然沒有出現。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOpmOze3dR
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持續這樣渡過第三天、第四天、第五天……一個星期、一個月。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJ7tMwnmG5
當我再躺在床上時，已經在與朋友在WhatsApp上互發訊息聊著天。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHjJ8ONekc
手機的鎖屏螢幕，也換做了風景圖。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAGcNok31E
聯絡通訊錄中，Mandy的名字，早已換回「Mandy」。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyaJSBtsWs
相簿裡的合照，已經全數隱藏起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LVBhRHtNn
但唯獨不變的就是，晚上間中睡覺時，都會夢見她。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAKOHwpN8R
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最常夢到的，就是在海旁得知她將要離開的那一晚。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnkI6EwsLI
我沒有上前擁抱著她，而是捉住她的手說：538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy55Z3Wd1NT
「如果我哋再一齊，我絕對唔會再比你離開。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QmayFwRqx
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「阿侑，今次真喺要講再見啦，聖誕之後我會翻番……嗯？！」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuU4mWlePCG
就在Mandy把話說到一半的同時。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNN0jQJY3s
我卻走到了她的面前，並把她拉到懷中，以雙手緊抱。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5ELS6QWcH
「我絕對唔會再比你離開。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRY8JEHZe8
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「尷尬一時，還是後悔一世呢」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCns2pyjuI
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