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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJDJzZX2aI
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvJSUzVcsS
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAPXlm6Fgn
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHkwozxdHr
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxW3BqPAclC
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbygNF6pVR
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrAqKyCAge
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfjG4FyMHp
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJrboArznJ
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jyBTSyyBQ
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapZ6hVsJuk
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5GAvli1rA
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEfK8UdD4M
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxJkkYv5Il
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF01SNqPCeO
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4bl4cA2jz
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7RjfAeybB
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUJHk7wMgf
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzlJVrYdMe
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjdReAUFvM
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbTihm1vnV
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YoGGxfzaf
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPDxL9DyL8
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWG4SXx4nxt
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsl8VXkK9C
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbq1FaIX1B
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwdbncGgRR
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojofygzlVN
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJjGe98NBK
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrscaRF9k6I
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmM9WB8St3
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMWirzh8UY
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLzXRlfCOf
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuCZLdEdbv
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2YkvQDrc3
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvvL8zZ76Q
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibjQFx2TjC
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlodg4xkKC
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEW2ucgakek
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfx3Bs7x5fO
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHTQOJxL2f
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTlv87uIY7
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvpjZPX0P1
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtf1j0OYTYc
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3iyHfDIN7
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnBWD1o01s
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaH5a5LrX4
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZqXleFNmJ
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWMjNXh2HV
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1RB0Or08z
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYTNtEEek9
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmebVKo1zkH
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKmzm6KaJ1
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaX7wudMQH
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAKV3KcGrr
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIeoHLODAo
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1JUf3e5Qq
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQsIDUPdUS
隨即二人也站在了原地。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2fQg8nsDy
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0jAr1S0uG
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2mjbhepzB
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHbs7sm4q8
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1n5MQj9Go
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMUt0YEWlo
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VfZthmRq0
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnPTq6r6n4
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKr2ItrwdEc
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YEcAm1AVz
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabtz3FyY0N
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycadQuRhM5
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rf5hbwsw0
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TNMtp90aY
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsPe439vGj
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwppSeZkS6
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Lp61KTtae
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdndYA4P7nX
可是，她接著聽到答案是……545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAqqLIUERF
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6KCezHZz0
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSbpSx9In5
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT25gXpwhag
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFQdjPIgS9
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkTX2zLJ8D
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9LGthxkxC
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ySgpdQpiI
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWCJiW6Bfl
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvaNhHqqN6
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpv07bQ7Rj9
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcDEsZae2B
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WX5hbVne3
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQSPYYKnos
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqaYLhJPDD
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVeEUvHZ4X
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdTEKSn3yG
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uGGw44Z5w
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBDgl6WCEg
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5rrCG1NeO
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNhFOBKEk2
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVpURO8XM8
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtTC2hLmIX
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieuz3pdgYE
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2KvrNv0ZC
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVtiVd9NoC
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDaFF9tIKH
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh55XxZvsNc
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PMKpuQV9C
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSbLepwn4X
「嚓—」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZtGuxS9SG
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVuLuLLylv
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作者在此鄭重聲明：545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nRrXrI39t
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XGJYzFJyD
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSkMTCVNlk
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hOPJIexK8
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUc0D3n4Lgr
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PLAsAU8BH
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlVdACUW03
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作者閒聊：545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMBRBHoXME
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDVxIxIqZ7
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYW7IX0pUX
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