過去篇(四)579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBgb4XHCwk
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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyBV7TVfyy
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhB66lfofNn
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9qk2iITJZ
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6MsI2fbmh
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzDGPMH9hM
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJJ8Jd48HY
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVQBY4L33j
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqBHO04FLG
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcS8gwNJF3r
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KqftpjTcc
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzglOV5wuG
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxFeCDC28R
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6uqpYRfJf
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKtjPMyXfC
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbWKC39ED5
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvt7XjzDxz
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk5pwUxHQ8
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyebFl3LlN
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pFvBmKUyE
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibOyP0HtvG
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBpEv2hLDF
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQjvwgFusE
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljpn0HEulT
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctBT9dxinG
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8rUd1ettw
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOBz3JRrNg
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4RdFQfmId
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsOvGJY8F8
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEjKZN4zly
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMm2S2WiLTc
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPmvV2qWVe
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7pvUR3vgm
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCBIIOKRgz
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxPULwJry1
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnzfICDH27
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvBpVn1eEN
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREqODa7nqd
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsX1fyihws
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgH0abxMldg
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2V89dnHCrn
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsy0RO4asb
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlm54vPtEHX
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGLlNdRNog
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1Zl1Kh9ZC
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczVACvsbLz
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6C7qhTkrp4
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRkMrTZXAO
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0AmrnV3Cu
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHTPjnqCxZ
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGOCg0uBOo
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtmBuy90fW
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHn6TE4TPZA
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBCZcwDMf3
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGgrtlUp3M
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDTV3oXofU
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡra5isGkYUF
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO25DskqFLd
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOaM9AjsT3
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6hPgI2Cwh
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vfC3PvQkI
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIonT8w7Gh
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKYiAryxQc
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmyMEAMnZx
隨即二人也站在了原地。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqAXqMsXjS
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1xsgFkG8m
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFswLDOTBzR
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJi3VZvQQ8
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUM9iG3W9w
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPGItTpmm7
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnjm2Xcujd
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcc0R4R5fxr
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7jbDJGYsk
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtCimu8cKN
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXBKKxYKgX
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuf2n73Pf4b
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAOpauWIFk
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ037ppIt1pp
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnj1Uf9OV7n
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33OvcwpxCX
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rKgqD24V8
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3kJp1MfL2
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidYh3jziOa
可是，她接著聽到答案是……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmhSc689A5
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnAgoVL8X2
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoj9yoXx7uQ
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70RY5qKjBP
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDLZzDW8sk
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2HfN0Ijfa
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJ2iicmSG6
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJd5bzwFQX
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8obutLt2s
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVQvgIL5Cd
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjin0sEZNAp
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5t7iCWmlni
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf64gSpySEQ
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡct43ZnawlS
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2eQfIXg9w
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2bFvIsMxB
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwN2jDcqXGK
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81NIGpFoYs
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypXpwvhIT0
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYTrz3EU83
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9Vsv32sV3
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShGclFMDnO
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3O3uNYeTd
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujiNSOXIKI
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Dwx3CJVN1
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqyLWgX7KT
 579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SGVTfxMuT
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHr5EoVmqw5
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzpIUHgcqk
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd34cwjz3Qy
「嚓—」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkXSVW1OBG
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSOqZvnQJ2
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作者在此鄭重聲明：579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmTRWdNrYI
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiu5IlqAEE
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCNiRC3Lis
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlX5e1xNsL
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3Ya0xRDQn
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTQXyNYUYg
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOcKbizDt3
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作者閒聊：579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRi6Sn1tJaa
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKQfc6xiNE
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQnVrAtIVa
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