過去篇(四)544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvX29RP0UC
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqgDGgoViZ
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTCj2sui5K
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqetp4y5kR7
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYuYECcjdw
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnksRb0c9G8
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7BlMszXyB
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1VrABtN7y
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReD8rrR6wY
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbfvpaCpBX
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuw9SpvwmMU
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsZGvjUTof
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYvsdFDGYF
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmLTH6NPTd
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYio23QWWbh
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooTl9KT7wT
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXPFqXIHUo
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7k95B2Dvgd
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qGWtc5o66
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LXFYlOEgD
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOskVzQ9XB
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdTiQS9HWk
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQi2V7MiDgn
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3lUZ5Dq8X
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAj84Uo1JfB
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKhwrGZriz
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5WoDGa14I
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgP9c3wwfb
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEu8uZLDIP
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3YkfDd85q
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWaClU0i96
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznbc71lwtD
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsbZUyH3tB
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTflDO09plF
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Yr7FiDczu
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrPnGwBwDe
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtF5pwr4QkS
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaalSZmJq3
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PxY3LcGpi
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83gjg6pb2n
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEQVtVdb2V
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUy1qDnnO7m
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1J6fy9Fy2
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6YA6cJnAY
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8NHof60EI
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaSqyuKY15
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9PpPFp7Ha
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8ZB8BfGaK
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3SosaL5Ob
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxS2VRhfOxI
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJ9i7ChNNM
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzveYe2cz7
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFHtT32Pah
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuRleUEgoj
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkzASwFx7V
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNBaSRcJan
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Mtqp9pwZ0
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 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwR5uOk78wa
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ407OJAKlna
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUswz9OvWHR
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIYyrssL9o
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapw6V3mDtN
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiGO9tkxu1
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlsOrMgkO1
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRNm4xehZ3
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fOn6wTkvZ
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvfinU0FLM
隨即二人也站在了原地。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNm8tPEfgo
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpuGTdjFGR
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLpUiyvrod
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYN9P5dwboW
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxrLx8gCjt
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LeRRWLQUp
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXq3UyvmHs
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamBzGB16P1
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2nu8Gwxll
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4KW9TOaso
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkLlUBgrDy
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5N3dAbdTNe
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShzR8kFWu9
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0FSJEzBvo
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyvkZ7Rf44
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEVqEFTSCJ
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGRHcTHUOl
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lEXM17q75
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumLmpXDbd6
可是，她接著聽到答案是……544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFrno4o3V6
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48pegwKzlg
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4inSHbUz0e
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRFXJarSpP
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyl8a09wXh
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIRdl6izmo
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKxAUa0tFm
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFj5bVKXx3E
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxz4EiRyte
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cCkbvVnyj
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjBnNZHpwt
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYx5BwEpoy
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOgR8mFG0s
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtvoCXFa0w
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsgJiJFef1
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStnrSCssfN
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvIEYlgw56
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCObaT0jSth
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuhOJezMOp
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyEVfqS78v
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDxCCl4HH6
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbd65Y7x8Fi
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 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT89i5xmvDa
「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUI0Y0iNO5x
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUs3BHlLd2
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbJo1yEMPa
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7I8riFNYS
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmyN0UQymL
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6AVkyLlDw
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqYt4JvGNh
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6QSrDqfhS
「嚓—」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡita7YONLng
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPZVPHpKNZ
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDeFqorK4a
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTO5fLCqaQs
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyL2A6WkS7s
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作者在此鄭重聲明：544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgATuD4iJ88
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUXnMRxIFp
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDa9HyjnYF
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlw3SasuzPm
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBJxmGT3bx
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURnDVjmUuG
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxer3rgc3JV
 544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveyv7NgLRx
作者閒聊：544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERS6zkZSt7
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07Eh4gSWgY
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOq8cJq5I1F
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